then our harte searching our entralls prouing our reynes to thee we refer this iudgment and fearing our selues to bee far the worse we humbly sincerely craue more penitence more pity O IESV giue me strength in satisfaction to beare what thou wilte impose and then impose coorrectioÌ„ what our wilte O sweet Sauiour thou knowest how absolutely herein I doo resigne my will O continue me this grace and teach me more in true penaÌ„ce still to begge for more mercy I haue dishonored thee scandalized men for I was a publique preacher of the protestantes false Doctrine wherin peraduenture by my meanes some haue bene seduced many hardened others offended I haue profaned thy sacred churches somtime dedicated to thy catholique seruice and for mine owne body soule which should haue bene thy spirituall temples o how haue they bene polluted by errors which I supposed to be truthes by presumption of knowledge when I was in ignorance by some vices which I reputed vertues by many faultes which I neglected 4. If to affirme this as I doo penitently be my shame let it be O God as I desire thy glory If the worlde the diuells mine owne conscience doo accuse me O Father of mercy I confesse all wherof any of these can justly impeache me and allso whatsoeuer else thou doost know more in me then I haue coÌ„fessed or can call to minde in transgressions against thy deuine majesty in offences against my neighbors in many sinnes against my selfe O wretched and vile sinner that I am what should such a sinner doo whither shall I go shoulde I despayre No for that one sinne were greater then all these What though my sinnes haue bene many bad according to my religion my profession worse wherby like the prodigall sonne I was a Swynehearde a protestante minister feeding my selfe others with the huskes of heresy Et non satiabar in which I coulde neuer taste of true comforte nor obteyne peace vnto my conscience therfore with him I will Arise go to my heauenly Father I am resolued To arise from sinne Sectaryes To go vnto God our Father by meanes of the Catholique churche our mother and with this perpetuall purpose I doo say vnto him Father I haue sinned against heauen before thee I am not worthy to be called thy sonne make me as one of thy hired seruantes 5. Amongest Protestantes against malice I might wel plead ciuill honesty morall integrity wherin I liued among them without reprehension but in comparison of thy Catholique seruantes Sayntes O God before thy heauenly purest eyes I dare not present my former best innocence here I renounce any plea of passed integrity I disclayme my wonted profession I lament detest my errors my sinnes Thou knowest O lord I haue acknowledged them vnto my Ghostly Father in confession I beseech thee to confirme his absolution and as I doo entreate so I doo truste that thou wilte vnbinde in heauen what he hath vnbound on earthe O forgiue them for Iesus sake and so keepe me euer hereafter in thy loue grace that I may rather chuse miseryes disgraces reproches tormentes ten thousand deathes then at my time to retourne to the like sinnes errors or to my former estate And thou o blessed Virgin the mother of our only Sauiour and all the Angells and Sayntes of heauen O praye for me that during my life I may say this psalme with Dauid in true contrition And so throughe our Lord Iesus obteyning mercy at laste I may with him and all you be admitted into glory MEDIT. II. Miserere mei Deus secundum magnam misericordiam tuam Et secundum multitudinem miserationum tuarum dele iniquitatem meam Amplius laua me ab iniquitate mea à peccato meo munda me Haue mercy on me O God according to thy great mercy and according to the multitude of thy miserations blotte out mine iniquity Washe me yet more from my iniquity cleanse me from my Sinne. A SHORTE DIVISION AND EXPLIcation of all these wordes Sect. 1. S. Ambrose saith Dauid sinned which Kinges are wonte but he performed penance he wepte he mourned which Kinges are not wonte he confessed his faulte he craued pardon prâ—strate on the ground he bewayled his wretchednes he fasted he prayed he hath published for euer a testimony of his confession priuate men are ashamed to doo this a King is not ashamed to confesse c O come my soule let not Dauid thus condemne vs nor S. Ambrose thus accuse vs rather because we haue ouertaken ouergone Dauid in sinning let vs be stayed by S. Ambrose to followe such a king in repenting Let vs consider our owne misery and our Lordes mercy not mercy without misery least we presume nor misery without mercy least we despayre Many thinke not how wretched they are by sinne in their hartes and therfore they sighe not with miserere in their mouthes but we are readyer to talke or thinke of our worthynes theÌ„ of our sinfulnes especially we will sooner compare our selues with other men in wisedome in knowledge in authority riches or such like with the proude pharisy then with the huÌ„ble publican acknowledge our ignoraÌ„ce our faultes and our infirmityes but what auayle such comparisons we shall be judged by that which we are in our selues not by what we seeme to be in respecte of others a dwarfe is not à gyante thoughe he stande on the toppe of a steeple or on a mounteyn a stately towre is not a lowe Cottage thoughe it be placed in the bottome of a valley consider o my soule what thou arte in the vale of misery not what thou maist seeme on a mounte of vanity let one depthe call vpon another out of the depthe of our sinfull misery o God we call vpon the depthe of profounde mercy 2. A deepe wounde must haue a large tente abondance of soares must haue many playsters o graunte vs great mercy for our deepe woundes and multitude of miserations for our innumerable botches let them seeke for smaller mercy whose faultes procede of meaner ignorance but my sinnes o lord haue neede of a strong warriour to redeeme me and of a skilfull phisition to heale me All sinners descend from IerusaleÌ„ to Ierico from the highest vertues to the basest vices they fall among theeues divells tentations delightes I allso among these was dangerously wounded in naturall facultyes spoyled generally of spirituall graces o gracious Samaritan miserere take pity on me passe not by me vnregarded O let the greatnes of thy mercy heale my naturall woundes and by the multitude of thy miserations repayre my spirituall losses come nere me come to me o compassionate Samaritan powre in wyne of compunction to cleanse my filthynes make me feele my misery powre in oyle of absolution to heale my soarenes by thy mercy o great phisitian here shew the
perseuerance and glorification what can we render for so great goodnes Let vs agayne agayne euery day receiue this cuppe of saluation call vpon the name of our Lorde First after some conuenient preparation for so great a sacrifice let vs beginne with Confiteor and kyrie eleyson c. to acknowledge our fall in Adam and to accuse our owne sinnes 2. to laude prayse our Sauiors Goodnes redemption with Gloria in excelsis or Sanctus Sanctus c. 3. To professe our constant Catholique faith by the Gospell Creede 4. At the Consecration eleuation by adoring remembring our Sauior his passion to offer sacrifice homage 5. in the Collectes mementos to make our petitions prayers for our selues others according to our necessityes deuoute desires 6. with the Pâ—ter noster to beginne with the Pax Agnus Dei to prodeed and with Domine non sum dignus to accomplish the communion 7. lastly with the laste Collectes and Ite Missa est to giue all thankes in gratitude and to receiue the preistes Blessing with hope that what we haue offred prayed at the Altar shal be admitted granted in heauen throughe the mercy merites mediation passion of our swete Sauior Iesus who is our cheife preist our best Aduocate and our dearest sacrifice abundantly to procure vnto vs by his goodnes whatsoeuer he shall see to be necessary for vs in his wisedome 4. Thus O my soule let vs euery day consider reioyce beleeue obey worship wonder praye or giue thankes during all the time of the Masse Let vs consider the holy action we are about and our owne wretched vnworthy estate Let vs reioyes with the Angells all the hoste of heauen for our gracious deliuerance Let vs Beleeue what our lorde teacheth by his Churche and euer obey whatsoeuer he coÌ„mandeth Let vs worship him as Really Royally preseÌ„t and wonder at his infinite wisedome power goodnes who hath vouchsafed to leaue vs such a sacrament Let vs praye for his mercyes and supplyes to all our wantes and giue him most harty thankes for his admirable loue all his benefites O my harte canst thou holde in my body wheÌ„ thy Sauiour comes downe froÌ„ heauen vnto the Altar shouldest thou be wandring or dull whiles such a sacrifice is in the preistes handes or before thine eyes O sacrifice of iustice which as S. Augustin said significando causat gratiam O gracious Sauiour let it signifye and imprinte in our hartes the memory fruite of thy death passion therby in patience to order our life to prepare vs for death with ioyfullnes 5. Then wilte thou accepte oblations of secular people according to their deuotion and the whole burnte offringes of religious persons who renounce themselues and all they haue into thy peculiar obedience Then shall both these sortes be willing ready to lay calues vpon thine Altar that is saith Innocentius to suffer martyrdome for the Catholique faithe for which in this worlde we may be tormented sacrificed as vpon thy crosse or vpon thine Altar of payne or disgrace but Then in the next worlde we shall assuredly remayne with those martyred soules which S. Ihon saw in his reuelation to rest vnder thine Altar of quiet glory O gracious Sauiour I am of my selfe most vnworthy in any of these sortes to serue at thine Altar O sweete Iesu thou haste begonne among lay people to make me a little worthy If it be thy blessed will I humbly doo beseeche thee among religious persons or martyrs to make me more blessed O giue me this strenghte confirme me in this will Then if I willingly forsake the earthe for thee I shall in heauen â—â—ore speedily more certeinly for euer raigne with thee where with all Angells â—yntes o Lord let vs all offer the sacrifice of iust prayse yeilding the celestiall oblations of our bodyes incorruptible and the glorious immortality of our soules transported into an holocauste of heauenly zeale louing praysing and reioycing with all our harte with all our minde with all our soule that is in all our vnderstanding without any error in all our memory without any forgetfullnes and in all our will without any contrariety Thus euer let vs offer eternall sacrifice and alwayes enioye thy happy presence O blessed Sauiour this we beseech thee for thine owne precious merites and by the prayers of thy most deare Mother and all Saynts Amen Omnia Sanctae Romanae Catholicae Apostolicae Ecclesiae submissa sunto FINIS A TABLE OF THE MEDITATIONS AND SECTIONS CONTEYNED IN THIS BOOKE MEDITATION I. Psalmus Dauid cùm venit ad eum Nathan Propheta quando intrauit ad Bersabee OF the occasion and number of this Psalme by Dauids example to beware of Lust. Sect. 1. OF witty plaine reprehensions and of the Authors lamentation of his former life Sect. 2. MEDITATION II. Miserere mei Deus secundum magnam misericordiam tuam Et secundum multitudinem miserationum tuarum dele iniquitatem meam Ampliùs laua me ab iniquitate mea à peccato meo munda me A Short Diuision explication of all these words Sect. 1. The miserable effects of sinne are declared according to the Schoolmen And some short petitions for mercy are made against their misery Sect. 2. Other wretched effects of sinne are declared out of the Scriptures Doctors by which we are warned from them Sect. 3. Of the Name Nature of God Who he is what we are and how vnspeakably we are beholding vnto his great goodnes Sect. 4. Sundry excellent obseruations of S. Bernard applyed to this Meditation of our Lords great Mercies multitude of Miserations Sect. 5. What mercy is of the effects Also how synnes are blotted out by multitudes Sect. 6. Of the great care we must vse to purge all sinne that we our selues must do heerin some diligence not standing idle to leaue all vnto Christ. Sect. 7. We must dayly proceede in zeale against all sinne in particuler against the sensualities of the flesh Sect. 8. MEDITATION III. Quoniam iniquitatem meam ego cognosco peccatum meum contra me est semper Tibi soli peccaui malum coram to feci vt iustificeris in fermonibus tuis vincas cum iudicaris HOw we must marke abhorre beware sinne as a trecherous and dangerous enemy Sect. 1. That euery one must acknowledge his owne faultes laying his hand on his own harte rather accuse himself then censure any other Sect. 2. It is necessary to remember harmes of sinne therby learning to amend take-heede of sinne Sect. 3. Diuers interpretations of these wordes Tibi soli Vnto thee alone c. Sect. 4. When we comitte sinne before our Lord And that he seeth not as man seeth Sect. 5. Of Diuers wayes by which our Lord is iustifyed and may be said to ouercome when he is iudged Sect. 6. MEDITATION
sinne therfore I will crye and praye because I would fayne see because I woulde be fed and haue my nakednes couered and because I would be freed from all this filthynes 19. Therfore our Sauiour said oportet semper orare we must alwayes praye and S. Paul exhorteth that we should be praying without intermission thoughe not Actually in outward prayers like the fond Euchetae omitting all other dutyes yet habitually by inward deuout readynes to make our petitions so often as we are bound or haue leasure and just occasion alwayes answerable to our daily necessityes and to our continuall warfare which hourely we haue with our affections passions concupiscences vaine cogitations and other occasions in all which according as they neuer cease so we should not intermit to resist or auoyd them and instantly call to God for help against them if not by reciting some generall petition or other short sentence alwayes ready in our memory against such occurrences yet at least by some inward sighe or knocking of our breast with our desire lifted vp in our secret thoughts immediatly vnto God himselfe or mediatly by some Saynt to cry vnto him for his succour as Moyses cryed though he spake not for S. Gregory said Verba animae desideria sunt clamor magnum desiderium est our desires be the wordes of our soule and our cry a great desire 20. And last of all it is surely a wonderfull comfort herein which S. Chrysostome noteth that there is scarse any losse or misery in all the worlde which can be repayred by prayer sorrowe and repentance except the losse of God and the misery of sinne which though they be aboue all other domages incomparably the greatest yet is their redresse much the easyer for the losse of life or goods consumed or of honor impeached the misery of payne sickenes of many other extremityes cannot be recouered by sighing or lamenting though our sorrow be neuer so great But if with syncere contrition of our hart we be greiued for our sinnes because for them we haue lost the loue of God and if we pray humbly for their remission with purpose to confesse them as well as we can and do intend neuer agayne willfully to commit them vndoubtedly this purpose and sorrowful conuersion on earth shall obteyne most certayn and ioyfull reconciliation in heauen for our Lord IESVS hath said vnto his Preistes and he is most true of all his wordes Whose sinnes on earth you remitte in heauen they shal be remitted why then should we not seeke to disburden our heauy consciences vnto some Ghostly Father that we may through his Authority granted by our Sauiour so receiue his heauenly Absolution his ghostly comfort his spirituall direction in all these submitting our selues vnto our Confessor not as to a Man but as to the Deputy of our Lord IESVS and to the Pastour of our soules and then in all true amendment endeauouring as we can to performe our penance or other satisfaction Beleeue me o Sinners amongst whom I haue bene a Ring-leader by experience I say beleeue me it is a most comfortable and wonderfull experience For your selues shall presently feele comfort in your soules and with continuance of time others allso will perceiue amendment in your liues 21. To conclude therfore as in generall I would perswade you to practise the examination of your consciences and the exercise of deuout prayer directing vs all vnto Contrition Confession and Satisfaction so I do commend as helpes for these purposes a serious accompt how we spend our liues an indifferent obseruation why vpon what occasions these new-found sclanderous opinions did banish the Catholique religion of our Auncestors wherin full many a hundred yeares togeather they serued God so deuoutly and so hartily loued their neighbours and for the same purpose I intreat a view and a detestation of our former sinnes and auoydance of their occasions an endeauour to practise their contrary vertues sometime by reading of good bookes sometime by deuout meditations or prayers sometime by almes deedes or fasting abstinence or other bodily chastisement sometime by humbling our thoughtes alwayes by mortifying our passions and vnlawfull affections and alwayes being carefull to keep the commandements of God our Father and of our Mother the Church And to bringe these good purposes and cogitations into our mindes the oftener and to mooue and imprint them the better it is good for vs sometime to giue an edge and to whet on ech other by vertuous or spirituall talke and conference not contending in disputes but by modest teaching or by freindly encouragements and aboue all by frequenting the most holy sacrifice and sacrament of our deare Sauiours most precious Body and Bloud by often calling to memory some examples of his life and more in particuler his bitter passages vnto death both for our meditation and for our imitation so to giue good example one vnto another whiles all are labouring to follow Christ our cheife Maister And to this end it is allso good to reuiue our deuotion by reading or hearing of Sayntes liues or by the reuerent beholding of their deuout Images or paynted storyes especially of the passion of our sweet Sauiour IESVS by marking his sufferinges to be mooued for our owne sinnes and so by viewing the memory of other Saintes to be stirred vp to follow their vertues as they were followers of Christ for we may learne and are mooued by our eye sometime as much or more then by our eare and in these thinges which are so good and wherein we are so dull verily euen common sense doth teach vs that it is profitable and needfull to stirre vp our memory deuotion by any sense and by how much the more by so much the better 22. And yet further vnto them that be sufficiently able I commend the reading and meditation of Dauids Psalter which holy Church vseth so much in all her diuine Offices and particulerly of the seauen Penitentiall Psalmes and according to the practise of Catholiques especially of this psalme Miserere as admonished therby and informed to call and cry vnto God for mercy and pardon to confesse and acknowledge our faultes and iniquityes to desire their purging washing and clensing to lament our sinnes originall and actuall to pray for cleane hartes right spirites escaping of anger and continuance of grace to purpose amendmenâ— being forgiuen to direct others by our experience and example to humble our selues for our owne offences to be ioyfull and thankfull towardes allmighty God for our particuler fauours and to desire that he may be serued praysed and honored in our publique Churches and at his holy Altars Amen Thy Wellwiller in Christ Iesus Iames Waddesworth AN ACT OF CONTRITION O My Lord Iesus-Christ very God and Man my Creatour Redeemer thou being whome thou art and for that I loue thee aboue all thinges it greiueth me from the bottome of my hart that I haue offended thy diuine Maiesty And I firmely
by mans penaltyes and by our Lordes chastisements yea such is the misery of sinne that one sinne is the punishment of another and many times of it selfe though not directly by it selfe yet by accident indirectly first because when by former sinne we caste from vs Gods grace giuen or offred he then leaueth vs to our owne corrupte weakenes to Sathan the worldes forcible tentations whose continual batteryes whiles without grace we cannot resiste we doo afterwardes justly fall captiues vnto many sinnes who by some former faulte did rejecte his grace so vnkindly 2. there are some sinnes which are punishments both offormer faultes of themselues not only in their effectes as prodigality hath for his followers wante and robberye but allso in their very actions some are a payne vnto themselues eyther inwardely as enuy anger doo vexe their owne maysters or outwardly when men doo passe much labor perill or coste to effecte some sinnes As Plutarche saith men adjudged to be crucifyed or to other tormentes were forced first to beare their owne crosses or such other instruments of theyr owne execution so sinners by sinne it selfe doo here begin their owne payne damnation and so they confessed who the wiseman saith were in hell lassati sumus in via iniquitatis we were tyred wearyed in our way of iniquity 5. Wherfore among so many miseryes should we not often crye miserere haue mercy in respecte of sinnes punishing themselues one another by outward toyle danger losse by inward feare remorse vexation by depriuing vs of Gods grace leauing vs to our owne concupiscence miserere for we are guilty out of order against God against men against our owne conscience miserere to bring backe our Will eâ—ring in darkenes to cleare our Vnderstanding shadowed with blemishes to repayre our giftes of grace decayed by frailtyes miserere haue mercy by reuiuing the seedes of vertue remoouing the hindrances customes of Vice miserere restoring vs to justice which we lost forfeyted inclyning encreasing vs in holynes which we forsooke diminished and finally miserere preseruing vs in substance of soule body from sufferance of payne vnto fruition of glory for in all these viz by corruption of nature by deformity of soule by guyltines of punishment we are all miserable therfore in all these o blessed Iesu miserere haue mercy OTHER WRETCHED EFFECTES OF sinne are declared out of the Scriptures Doctors by which we are warned from them Sect. 3. SAlomon saith that sinne maketh people to be miserable and S. Augustin defyneth sinne to be Deedes wordes or desires which be against the eternall lawe of God which are made mortall sinne when we adde vnto any of these a full consent of our will with auersion or forsaking of God Consider then o my soule in what estate thou arte when thou abydest in sinne If in our lorde be all happynes and to be in fauour with him be our felicity o how great wretchednes is it to forâ—ake his loue to fall into his hate But Esay said our sinnes deuide betwene him vs and both Salomon Dauid affirme that he hateth all who worke iniquity wherfore S. Chrysostome said I judge it to be harder more intolerable then a thousand hell fyres to be hated of Christe to heare him say I knowe you not it were better to endure a thousand thumderboltes then to see his face of mildenes to be turned from vs or enraged against vs for the eye which vseth to be fauorable when it becometh fierce is most terrible 2. Alas o lorde we haue forsaken thy infinite goodnes we haue loste thy inestimable fauour wherfore to free vs from thy hate restore vs to thy happynes miserere haue mercy Haue mercy not only for the good which by sinne we doo loose but allso in respecte of the euill which for it we doo suffer because many are the whippes of a sinner for sinne the earthe was cursed to bring forthe thornes the woman cursed to beare children in payne and man was cursed to eate his bread with labour Vpon sinners our lorde rayneth snares fire brimstone and the spirites of tempestet are in the portion of his cuppe his very prayers are turned into sinne and his table is a snare vnto him all wickednes is as a sharpe two edged sworde 3. But if we be neither mooued with loue of goodnes nor with feare of wrathe I knowe not whither we be more miserable who must suffer the punishment or blockish who will not see to auoyde the faulte yet let vs consider the nature of sinne which is contrary to our nature we were created doo desire to enioy liberty but sinne maketh vs slaues and the wiseman saith Euery sinner is bounde in the fetters of his owne sinnes We naturally abhorre hell the diuell deathe but sinne caused the very angells offending to be throwne downe from heauen to be reserued in the chaynes of hell S. Augustin saith that euery sinner selles his â—oule to the diuel taking for his price the sweetnes of some temporall delighte nay S. Chrysostome calleth euery sinner a certeyn willing diuell a self-willed madnes And as for death which we so much feare the scripture saith that they which committe sinne doo kill theyr owne soules we knowe it were horrible to murder our Father but to murder thy selfe it is more damnable wherfore as the wiseman sayd take mercy on thine owne soule pleasing God which then we doo when penitently we say vnto him miserere haue mercy 4. What shoulde I say of sinne tormenting the conscience offending the communion of Sayntes among men it is a discredite among Christians it causeth excoÌ„munication and S. Basil doth write that as smoke driueth bees from their hiues and loth some smells driue pigeons from their houses so from the custody of our persons â—l sauoring sinnes driue away our holy Angells And is not euery inordinate minde a penalty to it selfe as S. Augustin auoucheth for couetousnes gripes pride swells enuy consumes concupiscence inflames luxury stingeth gluttony stinketh dronkennes besotteth sclander scratcheth ambition vndermyneth it selfe iniuryes gette hatred discorde teareth anger burneth lighte heades are neuer quiet idlenes is wearisome lazynes combreth hipocrysie deceiueth his owne harte flatterye giues himselfe the lye in his owne throate O miserable sinnes which make men so wretched which seldome come alone without seauen worse diuells folowing them which make our present prayers not purposing amendment to be rejected which cause all our good deedes paste not to be regarded which are so hardly cured because they are not so easily as we thinke repented In time therfore o lord with the first worde of this psalme against all these for-meÌ„tioned miseryes we humbly hartily crye miserere haue mercy OF THE NAME AND NATVRE OF GOD who he his vvhat we are and how vnspeakably we are beholding vnto his great goodnes Sect. 4. 1.
fall they may be raysed and they who are admitted into secret grace ought allso to praye that from so dangerous a fall they may be preserued And in particuler thou o my soule must acknowledge thy selfe vnworthy of those graces which thou haste receiued which if they be small in comparison of those which our lord can giue or others doo receiue yet are they many and great and more then any way thou diddest deserue Or how can the sunne send much lighte or plenty of beames into a howse which hath but small windowes O my soule if thou desire more lighte set open all thy windowes O holy spirite of truthâ— and secret wisdome shyne yet more into my harte to shew me all necessary truthe which thou doost loue and still to manifest vnto me the secret doubtfull thinges of thy wisdome 8. O let me see and consider how great mercyes I haue receiued that I may be thaÌ„kfull how I did merite nothing or rather how much I did demerite that I may be humble and how vnprofitably I doo vse them that I may be ashamed I fled from catholique truthe which thou louest and yet thou diddest so loue me that thou diddest make me loue thy catholique truth which I declined now I loue this truthe which hath giuen me knowledge of thee and how am I bound to loue thee who diddest bring me to this knowledge of truthe O what sweete secrets be in this loue they are doubtfull to such as neuer tasted them because secret and to such they are secret because they loue not thee who doost manifest the secrets of they wisdome to none but such as doo embrace the truthe which thou doost loue This is thy wisdome not to caste spirituall pearles before eaâ—thly swyne nor to hide thy heauenty treasures from weake sucklinges or simple harted soules 9. But how shall I prayse thy goodnes o lord and in particuler to my selfe In the gospell it is said thou wouldest not suffer diuells to enter into swyne but with me thou haste cast diuells out of a swyne Doo I debase my selfe to say so Beholde o lorde thou louest truthe I knowe no swyne so filthy and so degenerate from his kinde as I was being a Protestante from they truthe If S. Mary Magdalene had seauen diuells of vices how many had I of heresyes Vnto her many sinnes were forgiuen because she loued much O lord I haue loued but a little how many sinnes hast thou forgiuen me thy wisdome hath reuealed my doubtes and manifested vnto me thy secrets I fondly doubted where was no cause of doubte but I am resolued by thy wisdome I was compassed with lighte and yet I did not discerne lighte because I wanted harty loue vnto thy catholique truthe For I firste loued not thee but thou diddest preuent me with thy loue prosecute me with thy grace and so finally diddest imparte vnto me the secrets of thy wisdome which are the mysteryes of thy catholique faith which now I doo beleeue thou haste not dealte thus with euery sinner nor vnto thousandes better then my selfe hast thou manifested as vnto me the secret and doubtfull thinges of thy wisdome 10. O infinite incomprehensible bounty what did thy majesty beholde in my basenes nothing verely but thine owne loue wherwith thou haddest disposed prepared my harte to be vnpartiallie desirous of truthe this desire and this loue thou diddest first giue me afterwarde by these thou diddest draw me nearer vnto thee O swete Iesu who doost neither accepte nor rewarde any thing which thy selfe haste not first giuen thou haste giuen me loue of truthe and manifested vnto me the doubtfull secret thinges of thy wisdome I doe enterteyne them as pledges earnest pence of mâ— hope election o let me so keepe and euer reteyne them that I may neuer be ashamed nor confounded in them Let them be meanes of thy better seruice and no way occasions of my greater condemnacion I haue tasted of thy loue I am acquaynted with thy secrets I am partaker of thy mysteryes let me rather dye then fayle or be faynte-harted and sooner torne in peices then become ingratefull I was most vnworthy to receiue them and seing of meere mercy thou hast bestowed these talentes vpon me I desire to retaine them with much thankefullnes and throughe thy grace with some gaynes of merite O blessed Sauiour accepte what thou haste giuen O holy virgin and all the Angells and Sayntes of heauen giue continuall thankes prayse vnto our lord God for me who am not able to thinke much lesse to declare how I owe my selfe MEDITATâ—ON VI. Asperges me Domine hysopo mundabor lauabis me super niuem dealbabor Auditui meo dabis gaudium laetitiam exultabunt ossa humiliata Thou shalte sprinkle me with hysope o lord and I shal be cleansed thou shalte washe me I shal be made white aboue snowe Vnto my hearing thou wilte giue ioye gladnes and my humbled bones shall reioyce THE VSE OF CEREMONYES DECLARED by a picture and the propertyes of hysope whervnto they maybe alluded Sect. 1. 1. THe priestes of Moyses lawe doo purifye by sprinkling of bloud with hysope and so they cleansed in a type or figure 1. such as must eat the paschall lambe 2. such as were defiled by touching the dead 3 such as were infected with leprosy 4. or those who being penitent did offer sacrifice for their sinnes O Lorde as one who haue neede of all these I looke not so much to the outwarde Ceremonyes as I hope to be partaker of thy inwarde grace by the bloud of that paschal lambe who is allso a sacrifice for the pollution sinne of all the worlde 2. In this actuall sprinkling of hysope and clensing application of our Sauiours merites and of his death and passion we doo liue we doo bleeue we doo hope we doo merite we doo labor worke our saluation with feare trembling and not as Protestantes teâ—ch by only faith and so with presumptuous beleeuing 3. Let others therfore be content alone with colors of imputation our soules desire to be allso innocent in substance We respecte not so much the outward figure of hysope as the inward vertue of our deare Sauiours deare bloud Types and ceremonyes are excellent ordinances yet we doo lifte vp our mindes higheâ— and by occasion of these we doo more often remember more deuoutly apprehend the truthes which they doo signifye Some paynted Tables are so cutte paynted that one way they resemble a beautifull face another way a deathes head and a certeyn artificiall workeman made such a like picture of Moyses brasen serpent hauing vndeâ— it a multitude of Israelites looking vpwarde to be cured of the stinging of fiery serpentes and aboue it he placed a looking glasse in such a situation that when he opened or drew a curtayne hanging before the said picture which thoughe whiles it was couered you saw nothing in the glasse and thoughe
hath it had and hath stil euery day wonderfull effectes froÌ„ the vertue of our Lordes death and the effusion of his bloud shed thervpon Euen the wood of the yong mans Coffen said S. Ambrose after Iesus had touched it began to avayle vnto raysing him to life much more the wood of his crosse it selfe which when it was found by S. Helena both reuiued the sicke raysed the dead And only the signe of the crosse somtime without faith and deuotion yet hath wroughte maruelous effectes which doth shew the dignity that our lorde giueth vnto the signe for the excellency of the thing it selfe which he sanctifyed by his death As that christian who wickedly purposing to poyson himselfe came to Iew a Doctor of physicke for some strong poyson the Iew glad to kill a Christian gaue him a violent poysonous potion Before he dronke it he made the signe of the crosse ouer it as he vsed to doo commonly before he did eat or drinke It did him no harme he complaynes to the Iew that his poyson was not strong enoughe The Iew coulde giue him none stronger but the encreaseth the quantity of the same As before he takes it making the signe of the crosse The poyson preuayles not He is angry at the Iew and the Iew is madde to see him still aliue he doubtes the Christian had not taken it or had mixte or done somewhat else to it The Christian sweares he had done nothing to it only he remembers he had made the signe of the crosse as alwayes he vsed The Iew giues a little to a dogge which presently burste The Christian signing it with the crosse agayne takes a great deale more of the same poyson in the sighte of the Iew and yet feeles no harme whervpon he repentes the Iew is conuerted both of them aske God mercy and become honest deuout men 5. A blessed signe made holy and most glorious by touching the body and being sprinkled with the bloud of our Sauiour who was God and man he hallowed it with his death sanctifyed it by his merites honored it with his person and as it representeth his passion so it deriueth vertue from his merites The â—resâ—e before times was a detestable torment for malefectors now it is a royall ornament in the crownes of Kinges and Emperors honored of all Catholique Christians scorned or abhorred of none but Pagans Iewes Heretiques and Diuells And as the wonted shame therof is turned into honor so the former curse therof is changed into blessing O sacred signe which as the Royall standarde of the lambe shall come before him to iudgment A terror to the diuels and such as shalle damned a conforte to all Angells Sayntes and such as are to be saued thou arte the key of Dauid vnlocking Limbo and Purgatory to let out soules vnto liberty and opening heauen and Paradise to giue them entrance into rest and glory Thou arte the hysope of Dauid which helpeth to sprinkle sinners with the bloud of our Sauiour to be cleansed washed made white aboue snow Or as Origen said thou arte Tendiculum magni Fullonis the Tenter of our great Fuller who clenseth vs with his owne bloud instead of soape and in place of our weake rotten clothe suffered his diuine body to be stretched for vs vpon this Tenter of the crosse THERE ARE SVNDRY DEGREES OF WAShing cleansing and whyting of sinne Sect. 4. 1. O Blessed Sauiour washe me from the filthynes of vice and in the beauty of vertue make me white aboue snowe By thy mercie cleanse me and make me white by thy grace If I be white as snowe in inwarde deuotion for my selfe make me more white aboue snowe in externall exercise of good workes towardes others 2. Or thou o my soule take comforte from hence that not only an innocent but euen a penitent may attayne to estate of most perfect purity As S. Peter S. Paul S. Mary Magdalene and holy Dauid in this place by vertue of Christes merites hoped after repentance to be restored to perfection and purity aboue snowe Wherfore if we haue bene great sinners let vs labour so much more to become great Sayntes that as the prophet saith In the caues where dwelte dragoÌ„s there may spring vp greene rushes which as Eusebius expoundes it is instead of venimous filthy sinne to haue pleasant florishing vertue Neither let it seeme strange that as a notable saynte may become a notorious sinner so a lothsome sinner may become a glorious saynte for a garment which hath bene torne did you neuer see it drawne vp with such skill that no rent could be discerned and if vpon this occasion the same garment were all embrodered and the rent place couered with golde lace or set with pearle would it not be both a necessary mending of the rent and a better decking of the garment much better can our Lord Iesus repayre adorne the deformed beauty of a polluted soule he can sprinkle it cleanse it wash it and white it aboue snowe 3. O sprinkle me with hysope as a Begimner in goodnes to haue at firste some dewe droppes of grace O washe me next with some more plenty of this water that I may proceede from grace to grace And to the end I may be perfecte make me white aboue snowe Among earthly creatures there is nothing whyter then snowe but aboue this doo the Sayntes in heauen shyne as the â—unne I beseech thee O Sauiour sprinkle me with thy hysope and wash me with thy bloud that when this corruption shall put on incorruption and when this mortall shal be cloathed with immortality then I may be made white aboue snowe and shyne as the Sunne in eternall glory IT IS BETTER TO CONFESSE THEN to excuse to heare then to speake and of sundry kindes of ioye and gladnes Sect. 5. AFter my pardon I will rejoyce But a soule that is in sinne how should it haue mirth I will reioyce o lorde by hearing thy comfortes not in pleading for my selfe excuses Rather let me heare thy ioye speaking absolution to mine eares then any way delighte in my tongue pleasantly extenuating or wittily auoyding my faultes Wouldest thou after sinne fayne plead for thy reputation rather heare thy conscience and listen to repentance Be sorye for it confesse it then shalte thou heare ioye in thy harte and no terror at thyne eare 2. In generall we knowe it is better to heare then to speake And in spirituall contemplation excepte we first heare what God saith to our harte how can we hartily speake to him with our mouthe according as in nature wee see him that is borne deafe to be euer dumbe Allso among men he that heares as a good scholler practiseth Silence Beleefe Humilitie and obedience but he that is speaking as a paynful Teacher must labor with his voyce he must be carefull that he speake to good purpose for others without falsehood or flattery and he must be heedfull to himselfe
loue 5. O how doth my soule thirste as a chased Harte to the water founteyn to be ioyned vnto thee more more in this loue I haue obligation to loue thee because of thâ—e benefites but it thirsteth more in deuotion to loue thee for thie selfe and because of thine owne worthienes Because thou arte God therfore I will loue thee and because thou arte our God therfore I will prayse thee O thou who arte loue it selfe and Author of loue O warme my soule nay heate it nay make it burne and flame in thy loue In this loue is inseparable vnity in this vnity is vnspeakable peace in this peace which passeth all vnderstanding is that ioye gladnes which thou giuest to our inward hearing O let me daily heare thee enter into my harte and say peace be vnto this house o sweet Iesu make thy prayer effectuall vnto me and accomplish thy promise of seÌ„ding vs allso some portion of thy holy spirite o come with thy Father and take vp your dwelling make your mansion in me O come in vnitie of obedient will and in vnitie of feruent contemplation come thus and dwell with me Let me thus reioyce in the speake alowde and say vnto my soule I am thy saluation So vnto my hearing thou shalte giue ioye gladnes and my humbled bones shall reioyce MEDITATION VII Auerte faciem tuam à peccatis meis omnes iniquitates meas dele Cor mundum crea in me Deus spiritum rectum innoua in visceribus meis Ne proijcias me à facie tua spiritum sanctum tuum ne auferas à me Turne away thy face from my sinnes and blotte out all myne iniquityes Create a cleane harte in me O God and renue a righte spirite in my bowells Doo not caste me out from thy face and thy holy spirite doo not take from me A GENERALL INTERPRETATION OF all these wordes And then what is meant by our Lordes facâ— and how our soules are deformed scribled full of sinnes to be blotted out Sect. 1. 1. LEt vs consider o my soule how prudent modest and diligent Dauid is in prosecuting his petitions and let vs with him haue care to aske those thinges which are lawfull which are decent and which are expedient To be prudent in asking thinges just modest in desiring thinges honest and diligent in requiring thinges necessary least if we pray for thinges vnlawfull our prayer be turned into sinne if we entreate for thinges vndecent we shall not receiue them because we aske amisse if we demand thinges vnexpedient it may be said vnto vs you know not what you aske Wherfore let vs be diligent continually to eâ—treat pardon of our sinnes as Dauid still insisteth vpon this same poynt For this is most expedient necessary Turne away thy face o lord from my sinnes and blotte out myne iniquityes Let vs be modest against all vncleannes and euen in our good deedes to desire humility of harte and sincerity of intention for this is most decâ—nt and honest Create a cleane harte in me o God and renue a righte spirite in my bowells Let vs be prudent in praying for perseuerance in good and in perpetuall election of the Best because these thinges are most juste and lawfull Doo not caste me out from thy face and thy holy spirite doo not take from me 2. Turne away thy face from my sinnes in regarde of my time paste Create a cleane harte in mee now in this time present And for the time to come doo not cast me out from thy face Saynt Augustin thus expoundeth the firste wordes Turne away thy face not from mee but from my sinnes for where he fastens his eye he fastens his hande if vpon good to rewarde it if vpon bad to punish it And to turne aside his angry face thou must â—et a sorowfull face vpon thine owne sinnes so neither shall thy person be caste out from his face nor his face set against thy sinnes O let thy face of mercy be shewed vpon vs and we shall be safe but turne away thy face of iustice or we shal be confounded Thy Cherub had two faces which Ezechiel saw a face of a man and a face of a lyon O blessed Sauiour cast me not out from thy face of pity with which thou diddest first appeare when thou becamest man but turne away from my sinnes the face of a lyon in seuerity with which thou wilte come agayne to iudge the worlde Then wilte thou appeare against sinne according to that reuelation hauing eyes as a flame of fyre thy face more glistring then the sunne and a sharpe twoo edged sworde proceding out of thy mouthe But now for fauour we entreat with thy spouse shew vs thy face and let thy voyce be in our eares for thy voyce is sweet and thy face is exceding beautifull And so in the former verse we desired to heare joye gladnes and in this to beholde fauour kindnes 3. The Romanes sent to the Carthaginians a Mace and a Speare to make election of peace or of warre we haue now our choyce of a milde countenance or of a seuere browe now o lord thy face is mercifull o caste me not from it There will come a time when it shall be seuere o turne it away from my sinnes And blotte out all my iniquityes Let none of them remayne written vpon my soule to giue me shame or helpe the diuels clayme as slaues and cattell are marked to be chalenged Plato said that the soule of an infaÌ„te is tabula abrasa like white paper or a cleane leafe of a table booke wheron nothing is paynted or written But in processe of time as we giue our selues to vice or vertue so we suffer our soules to be written full of faultes or of merites And eyther we suffer the Diuell theron to paynte hell with his fowle feendes and tormentes or our good Angell to decipher heauen with the glory of the sunne the moone and beautifull starres 4. O my soule how long haue we bene vnder the Diuells blacke pensell who as with a fowle coale hath for euery sinne drawne some ill fauored marke or picture vpon thee he hath written all full of faultes o how he hath interlyned all and euen the margentes are filled full I confesse it was much easyer at the firste to haue admitted my good Angells fayre writing and heauenly pictures as children and yong people are most capable of religion and vertue But yet better late then neuer thy mercy is omnipotent o let it blotte out all myne iniquityes all the Diuells blurres all his hellish pictures and vgly handwâ—itinges I desire to beginne a fayre copy o gracious Lord turne away thy face from my olde faultes and I will turne ouer a new leafe to begin a new lesson 5. Thus shall the Diuells paynting all be blotted out for as S. Ihon saith To this end appeared the sonne of God to dissolue the workes
when the storme is passed the vowe is forgotten the Saynt is beguiled or they are soone weary of well dooing they must needes go backe to the flespottes of Egipte Non disceÌ„dunt à peccatis sed recedunt non desinunt sed relaxant these go not awaie from sinne they doo but go aside they do not cease but slacken their iniquityes Their time of amendement is but like a parenthesis in a speache being only inâ—erposed as in the by after which he presently followeth his former discourse â—r as a mad mery company at table full of wyne and good cheare and more full of immoderate mirthe laughter swearing scoffing and telling of lew de tales vntill peraduenture some body amongest them at the end of their meale at leastwise for custome say a grace and then all putting off their hattes euery one for shame if he haue any beginnes to set himselfe for a more sober countenance except some like a Puritan holde his hatte before his eyes to dissemble and couer his continued laughter But so soone as the grace is ended as men paste grace they presently returne to their vnruly reuell Such are they who faste a daye and become gluttons a whole weeke who are abstinent in lent and all the yeare after luxurious who are demure at sermons lasciuious in chambers who in his prayers turnes vp the white of his eye and presently in his dealing woulde teare out his neighbors harte who is sober or continent for a few dayes about Easter or any other time to come to the blessed Sacrament but ere long after he returnes to his quaffing potte or to his cursed harlotte Or whosoeuer else beginnes to be a penitent and before his end growes weary and faynte From all these faylers the grace of the sacramentes is subtracted the giftes of the holy spirite are taken away and deseruedly they are caste out from the face of our lord MEDITATION VIII Redde mihi laetitiam salutaris tui spiritu principali confirma me Docebo iniquos vias tuas impij ad te conuertentur Restore vnto me the ioye of thy saluation with thy principall spirite confirme me I shall teach thy wayes vnto the wicked the vngodly will be conuerted vnto thee IESVS IS THE IOYE OF OVR SALVATlON which a sorowfull soule desireth to be restored and a confortable soule prayeth to be continued Sect. 1. 1. VEspasian the Emperor was called deliciae hominum Delighte of men because he gaue such curteous answers to all that neuer any went from him diâ—contented But with much more truthe and reason doo we call lord Iesus the Ioye of our Saluation of whom neuer any asked hartily pardon and conforte who wâ—nt away denyed or greiued He came to heale the sicke to â—eeke the loste not to condemne but to saue the wor de that whosoeuer beleeueth in him should haue life euerlasting wâ—o hath w ished vs from our sinnes in his owâ—e bloud who dyed for our offences and roâ—e agayne for our juâ—tificâ—tion who verily did beare our infirmityes and our sorowes he did vndergoe who was wounded for our iniquityes afflicted for our wickednes and by his tortures we are hâ—aled Allmighty God not sparing his only sonne and he being God equall to his Father not refâ—sing to become man and to dye for vs not his freindes nor his seruantes but his enemâ—es and slaues vnto the Diuell redeeming vs from hell and damnation to be equalâ— with Angells and heyres with himselfe of eternall glory Wherfore o my soule I will glory in our lorde and I will rejoyce in God my Iesus for in all these pointes recited He is the Ioye of my Saluation 2. Lighte is pleasing and confortable dâ—â—kenes is irkesome and odious of lighte comes deâ—ighte but blacknes followes desperation He that neuer before saw lighte yet loues the sunne at first sighte But blind Tobias who had seene daye sittes musing with himselfe o what a Ioye would it be to recouer mine eyes who now sitte in darkenes and see no lighte of heauen Holy Dauid had seene much lighte of heauen for euen now he said The doubtefull and hidden thinges of thy wisedome thou hast manifested vnto me The wisdome of God we knowe is the Sonne of God And was there or is there any thing more doubtfull in nature then God to become man or more hidden to reason then for him so to redeeme the worlde by suffering on the crosse wherfore these hidden doubtfull secretes are called a stumbling blocke to the Iewes as thinges ignominious shamefull are estemed folly by the Gentiles as matters impossible and â—idiculous for to flesh and bloud without faith they are doubtfull hidden Vnto Dauid as a Prophet these doubtes and secrets were in some sorte reuealed he knew the Messias should procede of his linage and aboue all he expected whiles he was in Gods fauour to be partaker of the Benefites of his redemption but hauing fallen into sinne he perceiued himselfe to be gone out of the ioye of lighte into the horror of darkenes and not to haue any parte of saluation in those gracious promises Therfore desirous of his former estate he doth aptely praye Restore vnto me the Ioye of thy saluation and fearfull any more to susteyne 2 like losse he carefully addeth And with thy principall spirite confirme me vid least â— fall agayne 3. O mercifull God how long haue we sitte in darkenes and in the shadowe of deathâ— vntill by thy bowells of meâ—cy thy morning starre from aboue hath visited our hartes in the Ioye of saluation and enlightened our mindes to guide our feete into the way of peace To come from hellishe darkenes to lighte from aboue is Ioye of heauen To be taken out of the shadowe of death into the way of peace is saluation of Iesus O swete Sauiour by thy bowels of mercy we beseech thee to visite vs in this Ioye and to enlighten vs in this saluation then shall thy seruante departe in peace when myne eyes doo beholde thy saluation 4. Saluation and Ioye are well joyned for euen the future hope of saluation hath present possession of ioye for who doth firmely hope to be saued he doth cherfully rejoyce in his hope But S. Iâ—rome translating this Ioye of saluation to be Ioye of Iesus he doth include much more for in Iesus are conteyned all the infinite theasures of the Deity and of our felicity vnto Iesus is committed all power in heauen and in earthe Iesus is the brightnes of eternall lighte Iesus is the figure and substance of his Father Iesus is the hope of Israell and of the nations Iesus is kinge of kinges and lorde oâ— lordes Iesus is Prince of peace Iesus is the wisdome of his Father Iesus is beautifull aboue the sonnes of men Iesus is the glorious sunne of justice Iesus is the way truthe and life Iesus is the water and founteyn of life Iesus hath the wordes of life Iesus is the bread of
life Iesus is the Father of the poore the mother of the afflicted and the Brother of the patient Iesus is a glasse of chastity without spotte a highe watchtowre of all vertues and a Citadell or armory of perfection Iesus is the clearenes of Angells Iesus is the contemplation of the Patriarkes Iesus is the illuminati of the prophets Iesus is the leuell and Rule of the Apostles Iesus is the Doctor of the Euangelistes Iesus is the maister of the Doctors Iesus is the victory of mâ—rtyrs Iesus is the corage of Confessors Iesus is the spouse of Virgins Ieâ—us is the head of all Catholique christians Iesus is the rewarde crowne of all Sayntes Iesus is the mediator of God and all men Iesus is to vs cause and coniunction of Ioye and saluation by vniting in one God and man and so becoming our Iesus 5. O joyfull Iesu O Sauiour Iesu O most louing and bountifull Iesu most delectable comfortable Iesu most meeke and mercifull Iesu O Iesu the saluation of them who beleeue in thee O Iesu the Ioye of them which hope in thee O Iesu Iesu the bond and vnion of Ioye saluation vnto them which loue thee O giue them saluation who haue none restore them to Ioye who haue loste what they hadde and to whom thou hast vouchsafed thy selfe O swete Iesus least they should loose such a treasure Confirme them for euer with thy principall spirite O let my soule in such loue and resolute affection towardes thee O deare Iesus be like his who was content to endure any calamity or to go into hell it selfe if there it were possible to dwell with Iesus But o detphes such is the presence of the vertue of Iesus that hell with him would turne into heauen for in Iesus is Ioye and saluatioÌ„ of certeyn security of secure eternity of eternall quietnes of quiet happynes of happy swetenes of swete Ioye and Ioyefull saluation O giue me this Ioye of thy saluation and confirme me in the same by thy principall spirite THE NOBILITY OF A PRINCIPALL SPIRIT perseuering to finishe constantly what it hath begonne generously Sect. 2. 1. IT is no lesse vertue to reteyne what we haue gotten then to obteyne what we wanted therfore confirme vs as Ecclesiasticus said of wisdome so may we say of this Ioye they who doo drinke therof doo thirste for more not as dronkardes for wyne or couetous men for riches but for the heauenly comforte of righteousnes spirituall just men doo desire to be more juste So S. Paul forgot what was behind him endeuoring still forward and counselleth all to holde out to the end of the race or else we should fayle of our Garlánd S. Francis after many yeares of his stricte life after our L. Iesus had honored him so miraculously which the markes of his fiue woundes and not long before his death he calls to his holy companions Incipiamus fratres c. Let vs beginne good brethren to serue our lord God for hitherto we haue profited little such was his humility not glorying in what was paste and in desire of proceding such was his feruency 2. As in naturall philosophie thoughe the matter doth much desire his naturall forme yet the forme desireth much more to be ioyned to his â—aturall matter for the first desireth it of naturall necessity the second of naturall goodnes so the loue of God like the forme of our perfection doth more seeke to helpe vs theÌ„ we can or doo desire his assistance for our forcible necessity driues vs to him and it is his owne goodnes which drawes him to vs but alwayes voluntary goodnes is more effectuall then compulsory force for good inclination continueth when necessary compulsion ceaseth And therfore our gracious Lorde who hath no nede of our seruice yet doth he helpe vs to labour because he woulde giue vs a rewarde 3. And considering his readynes to helpe vs it is our faulte if we faynte hauing our hand at the plowe we may not looke backe to Sodome for S. Paul saith he whoe hath begunne in vs a good worke will perfect it vntill the daie of Iesus Christe wherfor we must expecte continue vntill his dayes not like the leoparde who seazeth vpon his praye by skipping and iumping but if he misse at twoo or three of the firste skippes he followeth no further O let vs not be such as either will come to perfection of deuotion per saltum and to their desires of holynes at the firste leapes or else they leaue of and doo despayre It is pride to seke to mounte with the eagle before we be full fethered it is slothfullnes not to continue like the poore Ant which weareth a pathe in a harde stone with often passing ouer it Rather we must expect our Lord worke manfullie we shall be comforted walking from vertue to vertue vntill we may beholde our God of Gods in Sion We must worke manfully with all our power according to our present ability and strenghte of grace we must expect patiently and pray without ceasing for further ability and force so we shal be comforted in our labour and in our prayer so we shall go forwarde from vertue to vertue and so at last ascend from grace to glory from Sinay to Sion and from among men who liue as Gods vnto him who is a great king aboue all Gods from trauell of our jorney to the rest of eternity from the desire of faith to the possession of hope to the fruition of charity which abideth for euer and euer worlde without end 4. O confirme me with this principall spirite vidz of a prince or of a king to be generous magnanimous heroycall against all difficultyes which woulde hinder my continuance or proceding in thy seruice O giue me this principall spirite to gouerne and rule all my affections and passions which woulde at any time disquiet me With helpe of this spirite and by the speciall assistance of allmighty God and not without these can a just man perseuere in his iustice if a ship at sea haue no winde at all it must wafte with the waues And so shall we be tossed and caryed by our affections tentations if throughe our defaulte this spirite and deuine breath doo forsake vs. Wherfore relying vpon this as in humility we may not distruste so in presumption that we haue this spirite we may not be secure O let vs not to soone suppose our selues healed enoughe by satisfaction least remitting and slacking our mindes from a carefull garde and watche vpon our hartes so we come to fall soone because we imagine our estate safe We must say as it is in another psalme O let my harte rejoyce that it may feare thy name for filiall feare to offend will euer kepe vs in ioye not to haue offended and true spirituall ioy for our pardon wil neuer make vs carelesse of our faultes Wherfore as the heauens are
begin to consider thy creatures and so from them I will rayse vp my thoughtes vnto their Creator For haec spectari voluit non tantùm aspici he woulde that these creatures should be veiwed seriouslie not alone slightlie gazed on by the interior consideration euer to learne some what of God at least for his prayse otherwise he that studyes vpon the nature of the heauens starres ayre water sea earthe flowers herbes fishes beastes other creatures pondering no more but their nature and alltogether omitting to collecte somewhat touching their Author he is like a man who hath skill meanes matter wherwith to builde a pallace and yet spendes all his time among children boyes only to make little houses of claye durte or cockle shells 3. Adam is said to haue bene placed in Paradise to kepe to cultiuate that garden but we knowe that before his fall the earthe had no neede much lesse Paradise to be tilled by labour of the body wherfore his cheife dressing keeping of Paradise was by labour of the minde in contemplation loue prayse of God Beholde O my soule where thou maist haue both an office a place in paradise wouldest thou liue in paradise wouldest thou here beginne to be happy If heauen be on earthe it is in a deuout religions mans cell If the life of Angells be among men it is in the quyre or among them who prayse God like Angells To burne to boyle in the loue of God is a most pleasant refreshing to a thirsty soule O my soule be thou thus thirsty this heate will coole thee this thirste will refresh thee this ferueÌ„t loue will make thy prayses fruitfull these prayses as they delighte drawe vnto vs the Angells Sayntes so they vexe and driue away the diuells all bad spirites for this is the musique of Dauids harpe which droue away the euill spirite from Saul and these are like the desires meditations of our blessed lady when the Angell came to salute her 4. Thus Plato called the body a musicall instrument and the soule a musician who according as he handleth vseth his body so it affoardes him bad or good melody learne theÌ„ o my soule to keepe thy body in tune release stretche touch his stringes with order for harmony that is with charitable discretioÌ„ towardes our selues other men for heauenly respecte to the greater glory of God so let vs labour or rest feede or faste talke or praye doo euery thinge else in domino as in the sighte for the seruice to the prayse of allmighty God Thus the ancyent Christians as Pliny wrote to Trajan were a people which liued innocently and exercised themselues in the sileÌ„ce of nighte to sing hymnes vnto Christ before the dawning of the daye Thus S. Paul and Silas being in prison they worshipped praysed God thus o my soule let vs often accorde with the holy Angells in a deuout Sanctus Sanctus Sanctus holy holy holy father sonne holy ghoste or with our Sauiour himselfe who in his humanity as he is man singeth Sanctus and the Blessed Virgin his mother with all the triumphante quyre of heauen singeth Sanctus Sanctus must be our songe with the preist at the Altar and with all the Churche militant here on earthe Thus allso let vs often ioyne with the whole courte of heauen in Alleluia Alleluia Alleluia with harte and voyce Alleluia with instrument and lippes Alleluia with mouthe tongue Alleluia reioycing Alleliua singing Alleliua or meditating Alleluia Thus all honor glory prayse power to God to the Lambe Alleluia Thus I beseech the o lorde that thou wilte opeÌ„ my lippes theÌ„ my mouthe shall thus declare thy prayse MEDITATION X. Quoniam si voluisses sacrificium dedissem vtique holocaustis non delectaberis Sacrificium Deo spiritus contribulatus cor contritum humiliatum Deus non despicies Because if thou wouldest haue had sacrifice I woulde haue giuen it accordingly with whole burnte offeringes thou wilte not be delighted An afflicted spirite is a sacrifice to God a contrite and humbled harte O God thou wilte not despise THE DIVERSITY OF SACRIFICES and some differences betwene the lawe and the Gospell Sect. 1. 1. OF sacrifices we read of three kindes 1. victimae animalium the bodyes of liuing creatures 2. oblationes aridorum the substances of fruites 3. Libamina humidorum the moysture of liquors The first were called victimes eyther because they were for victoryes or because they were tyed or bound to the Altar as vincta the second were oblations giuen to be offred The thirde were Libamina liquors to be powred out or to drinkâ— of The firste were killed the second were pownded or bruysed the third were powred out and all of them must be one way or other somewhat altered from their former existence Wherfore if we will beginne a sacrifice of our selues we must purpose a change of our qualityes our waterish pleasing thouhtes must be powred out in teares of repentance our drye vnprofitable speeches bruysed into well relished wordes and we must kill the concupiscence of all our bodily workes Or it will be good to mortifye the desires of our will as a victime tyed or bound to the Altar To pownde or bruyse the drye meditations of our memory for an oblation to be consecrated vnto God To powre out the flowing vnsethed cogitations of our vnderstaÌ„ding referring all to the wisdome and prouidence of our heauenly Father So shall he haue humbled thoughtes a memorie contrite an afflicted spirite which kinde of sacrifices O God thou wilte neuer despise especiallie when like the olde sacrifices they haue fyre salte that is some heate of feruent deuotion and well seasoned and â—alted with some discretion 2. These sacrifices shall euer be accepted But it may be our Dauid prophecyed thâ—t there woulde come a time of grace when thou wouldest not be delighted with any sacrifice of the lawe The legall sacrifices were but as the scaffoldes of the building when the building is finished the scaffoldes must be remooued and yet our Sauior came not to dissolue but to fullfill the lawe To fullfill the inwarde substance and truthe of the lawe which is eternall and to dissolue the outwarde figure shadowes which were temporall And so another psalme saith in the person of our Sauiour Sacrifice and oblations thou wilte none but thou hast perfected a body for me c. then I sayd beholde I come But when the kinge himselfe comes his Viceroy must giue place 3. Allso the sacrifices of the lawe did rather signifye then iustifye but ours doo as well iustifye as signifye The lawe of Moyses receiued obedience more for feare then for loue the lawe of Christe more for loue then for feare And so that lawe did rather restreyne the hande then the minde rather the outwarde deede then the inwarde intente But our lawe
a person whose life doth much importe the publique good of the common wealthe or of diuerse others beside himselfe But in no case may we aduenture the death of our soule rather saith our Sauiour if it coste vs our hande or our foote or the very eyes of our head we must sooner pull them out or cutte them of then loose our soule to saue them all or to gayne all the worlde So let vs say and performe it with Dauid If a million of sacrifices or millions of millions were requisite O God if they were in our power we would yeild them all most willingly not alone for some recompence of our sinnes but allso to testifye our willing loue and our bounden obedience vnto so gracious a lorde vnto whom we doo owe our selues our soules our bodyes and that we haue or can haue so that if occasion be we may say with S. Peter and the Apostles Ecce nos reliquimus omnia Beholde we haue forsaken all to yeild our selues vnto thy good pleasure for allbeit we haue no kingdomes no lordships no landes nor other great riches or dignityes to forsake no more then had those poore Fishermen yet as they did if we willingly parte from all we haue in present possession or in future possibility and no lesse from the loue affection desire of this worlde then from the honors wealthe and pleasures themselues in this case we may wel say reliquimus omnia we haue lefte all thoughe we enjoyed neuer so little for herein to subdue our will and to yeild our Desire is as much as to giue him all the worlde if it were ours to giue and he that so resignes his Desire and his will vnto all doubtles he resignes All and so much more then All. 5. Thus therfore let vs offer him All with Dauid that whensoeuer it shall please him to take all we haue or any parte we doo gladly giue him All euery parte and in this kinde althoughe we doo not in facte render vnto God a thousand sacrifices not whole barnte offeringes because we vnderstand that he doth not absolutely exacte them yet should we alwayes be such poore men in spirite that in our hartes we be prepared to yeild him all we haue whensoeuer we perceiue that he doth necessarily require them And so let vs say Quoniam si voluisses sacrificium dedissem vtique Holocaustis non delectaberis O lorde I giue thee no whole burnt offeringes because I doo suppose thou doost not require them But if it were thy will to exacte a million of sacrifices Dedissem vtique verily I am ready to obey thy will and if it were in my power I woulde willingly giue thee all the worlde WE HAVE NEEDE TO BE PENITENT and how acceptable vnto our Sauiour is any soule contrite for sinne Sect. 4. 1. ALL this is moste due vnto our lord who neuertheles is so gracious that An afflicted spirite is a sacrifice vnto God A contrite harâ—e humbled O God thou wilte not despise For my sinnes I will afflicte my minde my spirite with dolor and sorowe and I will humble my harte my senses my body with mortifications labor These sacrifices O God I knowe thou wilte neuer refuse For thou hast said that it is alwayes an heathfull sacrifice To attend vnto thy commandements and to departe from iniquity And that thou wilte soonest regarde the poore contrite in spirite such as feare thy wordes 2. And these sacrifices are most acceptable because in euery outward sacrifice there being 3. things 1. deuotion 2. oblation 3. signification somtime the last is impertinent or expired the second somtime is not necessary nor required but the firste is euer requisite gratefull profitable of which kinde are an afflicted spirite a contrite harte The spirite vnderstanding is afflicted by knowledge consideration of our sinnes of their enormityes our will our harte is humbled greiued by acknowledgement of our base guiltynes and with a detestation of our lothsome faultes 3. O my soule if we consider the seuere iustice of allmighty God who for sinne threwe downe Lucifer and those arrogant Angells out of heauen expelled disobedieÌ„t Adam his posterity out of Paradise drowned all the worlde except eight persons and except his seruante Lot some with him burned all the fiue cityes of Sodome so often punished Pharaoh all the Egiptians with such strange terrible plagues caused the earthe to open to swallowe Corah Dathan Abiram quicke into hell euer since in all ages places hath sundry times manifested his dreadfull iudgements against careles sinners O how oughte we to feare to afflicte our spirite that we afflicting our selues he may spare vs that beginning by peircing feare as by a sharpe needle to drawe into vs the thred of loue we may come to be sowed vnited vnto him in attonement reconciliation Thus O lorde we praye with Dauid in another psalme Confige timore tuo carnes meas O wound peirce my flesh with thy feare it will be like the â—urgeons wounde which letteth out corrupted bloud or putrefyed matter There shalle dolores parturientis the sorowes of a woman in child-birthe that as our sinnes were conceiued in voluptuous pleasure so we cannot be deliuered of them without afflicting payne 4. Nay we are happy that sinne by nature bringing vs sorowe we may if we will so vse this sorowe that it shall extinguish sinne as the wood breedes a worme the yron a rust the garment a mothe which consume the substances wherof they were engendred Nay much more happy that so easy so small a meanes as an humbled a contrite harte may change the iustice of God into mercy According to that vision shewed to a holy woman wherin she sawe our Sauiour as it were sitting on a throne with great maiesty attended on by all the Angells Sayntes holy hoste of heauen yet very often to ryse of from his seate to go to euery pitifull voyce which called vpon him she asked what voyces those were and why he himselfe so often mooued from his throne did not rather send vnto them some one or more of his heauenly attendantes which mighte well seeme more then sufficient He answered that those voyces were the sorowfull sighes of any sinners contrite harte who if they could not so much as name Iesus yet if they did in true humility sighe and with an afflicted spirite syncerily greiue for their sinnes he did so much loue rather to shew mercy then to obserue maiesty and did so much delighte in the contrite conuersion of any sinner that he did most willingly rise vp himselfe and withall in ioye to mooue the whole courte of heauen to giue comforte wellcome to euery such soule 5. Wherfore let vs be of good comforte o penitent soules for thoughe we be destitute of all worldly wealthe hauing nothing to giue
wonderfull loue and bitter passion with such attentiue reuerence such reuerent loue and such louing attention that most effectually we may euer obteyne the blessed communion of all thine infinite mercyes and goodnes In this treasure is hidden the value worthe of more then many hundred markes let others threaten prisons or by their lawes make it felony or treason to be present or assistante at this heauenly sacrifice of the masse yet let all zealous Catholiques rather yeild and loose their liues then not to render vnto God this diuine and deuoute seruice and so to be partakers of the vnualewable merites of this most holy and precious sacrifice 6. O my soule let vs frequent these holy mysteryes of the masse as the dayly bread of our life here we haue spirituall foode medicine it giues vs foode for nourishment in grace and it affoardes vs medicine for remedye against sinne O come we will offer it as a sacrifice and receiue it as a sacrament as it is a sacrifice it payes the debtes of the offerer and as it is a sacrament it giueth iustice to the receiuer O sacrifice of Iustice make me iuste and be my sacrifice O most gracious Sauiour let my soule melt in thy loue let me be partaker of thy grace thou werte once offered in thy selfe and thou arte euery day offered in this sacrament O be my sacrifice by the firste by the second make me iuste O sacrifice of iustice O mirrour of loue O treasure of grace did euer any loue so willingly paye an enemyes debte or who hath suffered torments for his freinds with like rigor of iustice was there euer any fauour and grace more plentifull or so riche as this vnestimable sacrifice O sacrifice of iustice make me iust and be my sacrifice Allâ—houghe according to Saint Bernards vision I haue no Title vnto heauen by mine owne iustice alone yet my Sauiour hath a double iust clayme of merite and inheritance one for himselfe and the other for me O â—weete Sauiour throughe thy sacrifice make me so iust that I may inherite heauen by thy iustice and be thou my sacrifice and my Iesus 7. It is not diligence enoughe for the sicke or wounded to knowe that in the Apothecaryes shoppe be salues and medicines which can heale him or who will excuse a soldyer vnarmed in the feild because he knowes there are weapons and armor in the Garrison O no we must by daily and particuler exercise of religion apply the merites of our Sauiour and alwayes stand girded and put vpon vs the armour of our lord Iesus if we will be defended from the Diuells and Hell or if we will be cured from sinne and imperfection as Esay said Iâ—xtà est qui iustificat me he is here at hande who iustifyeth me Not alone iâ— the churche where I shoulde be and yet am not present nor only vpon the Altar before which I am kneeling in body whiles my harte is absent But iâ—xta est he is where I am and I am where he is O deare Iesus be my Iesus and vouchsafe in some good sorte that as of S. Gertrude so of me thou maist say In corde eius inuenies me in his harte you shall find in me or at least O lorde let my hart be alwayes found and founded in thee O let me be partaker of thy sacrifice of iustice by offering vp all my doinges sufferinges in the company with the value of thy iust merites not only to haue parte in thy merites by offring this sacrifice but allso to become parte of thy selfe by receiuing this sacrament to haue participation with thee withall thy Sayntes who serue thee O giue vnto vs the efficacy of this sacrament and accept for vs the dignity of this sacrifice that so we may become one with thee in grace as thou diddest become one with vs in nature not by changing thy selfe into our bodily substance but by assuming of vs into thy spirituall qualityes by this sacrament receiued making vs to be thine by this sacrifice offered making thy selfe to be ours to be cleansed from our euill in the one and in the other to be enriched with thy goodnes both making our owne merites to be of more worth by this sacrifice and by this sacrament to make all thy merites to become ours SOME CONSIDERATIONS PERTEYNING to the deuout hearing of masse and ending of our life Sect. 6. 1. O sacrifice of justice an oblation and a whole burnte offeringe more worth then all the calues in the worlde which can be laid vpon thine Altar A medicine saith S. Cyprian to heale all infirmityes and to purge all iniquityes A sacrifice as S. Augustin said which in it selfe alone conteyneth all the vertue and more then all the valewe of all the sacrifices in the olde lawe Vnto this they were then all referred and in this they are nowe all included All their lambes their goates their oxen their fatlinges their pigeons their turtles all their beastes and birdes all their fruites and herbes all their meat offringes their drinke offringes and whole burnte offringes all their oblations for sinne or for thankes in sorowe or with ioye all of them must giue place vnto this for in this alone they are all conteyned accomplished and perfited 2. Wherfore let vs frequent hearing of Masse with all deuotion for it is a sacrifice of iusticâ— aboue all other sacrifices let vs bow downe our heades and our hartes firste to accuse confesse our owne faultes defectes with sorowe humility let vs secondly lifte vp our hartes our handes to magnifye prayse our Lordes mercy goodnes with ioye gladnes Thirdly let vs stand vp on our feete as ready to obey his Gospell and professing to beleeue his Creede let vs fourthly offer adore the sacrifice and the substance of so diuine a mysterye by acknowledgment of our homage vnto him and with remembrance of his passion for vs so to yeild him our duty for all his benefites and to entreat him for his pity to all our sinnes Fiftly let vs accompany this most effectuall sacrifice with our supplications petitions in generall particuler for the whole churche for our selues for our Benefactors our freindes for the liuing for the dead and for all the communion of sayntes in all our necessityes wantes of our bodyes goods liues or soules Sixtely let vs prepare proceede to be partakers of the communion at least spiritually desiring our Lordes peace his mercy considering our vile vnworthynes his incomparable loue And seuenthly let vs conclude with all thankesgiuing liuely cherfullnes for this sacrifice all other his benefites for his infinite loue vnspeakable goodnes reioycing vnto him for that which is paste and trusting in him for what is to come 3. O summa Bonitas O greatest goodnes O almighty goodnes O all goodnes infinitely good in our Creation redemption vocation iustification