to be profitable then grant unto me that I may use this unto thine honor But if thou knowest it will be hurtful unto me and not profitable to the health of my soul take away this desire from me For every desire proceedeth not from the holy Ghost though it seem unto Man right and good It is hard to judge rightly whether a good Spirit or the contrary drive thee to desire this or that or whether also by thine own spirit thou be moved thereunto Many are deceived in the end who at the first seemed to be led by a good Spirit 2. Always therefore whatsoever occurreth unto thy mind to be desired let it be desired and prayed for in the fear of God and with Humility of heart and above all thou oughtest to commit the whole unto me with resignation of thy self and thou oughtest to say Lord thou knowest what is best let this or that be done as thou pleasest Give what thou wilt and how much thou wilt and when thou wilt Deal with me as thou thinkest good and as best pleaseth thee and is most for thy honor Set me where thou wilt and deal with me in all things according to thy will I am in thy hand turn me and turn me again which way soever thou please Behold I am thy Servant prepared for all things for I desire not to live unto my self but unto thee and O that I could do it worthily and perfectly A Prayer for the fulfilling of the will of God 3. Grant me thy Grace O most gracious Jesus that it may be with me and labor with me and persevere with me until the end Grant me always to desire and will that which is most acceptable unto thee and best pleaseth thee Let thy will be mine and let my will ever follow thine and agree perfectly with it Let my will and nill be all one with thine and let me not will or nill any thing else but what thou willest or nillest 4. Grant that I may die to all things that are in the World and to love to be contemned for thy sake and not to be known in this world Grant that above all things that can be desired I may rest in thee and may quiet my heart in thee Thou art the true peace of the heart thou art the only rest out of thee all things are troublesom and unquiet In this very peace that is in thee the one chiefest eternal Good I will sleep and rest Amen CHAP. XVI That true comfort is to be sought in God alone WHatsoever I can desire or imagine for my comfort I look not for it here but hereafter For if I should alone have all the comforts of the world and might enjoy all the delights thereof it is certain that they could not long endure Wherefore my soul thou canst not be fully comforted nor have perfect delight but in God the comforter of the poor and the helper of the humble Expect a while O my soul expect the divine promise and thou shalt have abundance of all good things in Heaven If thou desire inordinately the things that are present thou shalt lose the celestial and eternal Use temporal things and desire eternal Thou canst not be filled with any temporal goods because thou art not created to enjoy them 2. Although thou shouldest enjoy all created good yet couldst thou not be happy thereby nor blessed but in God that hath created all things thy whole beatitude and happiness consisteth not such as is seen and commended by the foolish lovers of the world but such as the good and faithful Servants of Christ expect and the spiritual and pure in heart whose conversation is in Heaven sometimes have a foretast of Vain and short is all humane comfort Blessed and true is the comfort which is received inwardly from the Truth A Religious Man every where carrieth with him Jesus his comforter and saith unto him Be present with me Lord Jesus in every place and time Let this be my comfort to be willing to want all humane comfort And if thy comfort be wanting let thy will and just proving of me be unto me as the greatest comfort for thou wilt not be angry always neither wilt thou threaten for ever CHAP. XVII That all our care is to be placed in God CHrist. Son suffer me to do with thee what I please I know what is expedient for thee Thou thinkest as Man thou judgest in many things as humane affection perswadeth thee Christian. Lord what thou sayest is true Thy care for me is greater than all the care that I can take for my self For he standeth very totteringly that casteth not his whole care upon thee Lord so that my will may remain right and firm towards thee do with me whatsoever it shall please thee For it cannot be but good whatsoever thou doest with me 2. If it be thy will I should be in darkness be thou blessed and if it be thy will I should be in light be thou again Blessed If thou vouchsafest to comfort me be thou Blessed and if thou wilt afflict me be thou ever equally blessed Christ. Son Thus thou oughtest to be minded if thou wilt walk with me Thou must be as ready to suffer as to rejoyce Thou oughtest to be as willing to be poor and needy as full and rich 3. Christian. Lord I will willingly suffer for thee whatsoever thy pleasure is shall befall me I will receive indifferently from thy hand good and evil sweet and sowre delightful and sorrowful and give thee thanks for all that befalleth me Keep me from all sin and I will neither fear death nor Hell so as thou dost not for ever cast me from thee nor blot me out of the Book of life what tribulation soever befal me shall not hurt me CHAP. XVIII That temporal miseries after the example of Christ must be born patiently CHrist. Son I descended from Heaven for thy Salvation I took upon me thy miseries my own love and not any necessity drawing me thereunto that thou mightest learn patience and not grudgingly bear temporal miseries For from the hour of my birth until my death on the Cross I was not without suffering of grief I suffered great want of temporal things I often heard many complaints against me I bore patiently shame and reproaches for benefits I received ingratitude for miracles blasphemies for Heavenly Doctrine reprehensions 2. Christian. Lord for that thou wert patient in thy life-time chiefly fulfilling herein the commandment of thy Father it is reason that I a miserable sinner should shew my self patient according to thy will and for my souls welfare bear the burden of this corruptible life as long as thou wilt For although this present life be burdensom yet notwithstanding it is now by thy grace made very gainful and by thy example and the footsteps of thy Saints more plain and tolerable to the weak Yea much more comfortable also than it was in times past in the old Law
Let the holy Name be blessed but to me let no part of Mens praises be given Thou art my glory thou art the joy of my heart In thee will I glory and rejoyce all the day but as for my self I will not glory but in my infirmities 6. Let the Iews seek honor one of another I will desire this which is from God alone For all humane glory all temporal honor all worldly highness compared to thy eternal glory is vanity and folly O my Truth my mercy my God most blessed Trinity to thee alone be praise honor power and glory for evermore CHAP. XLI Of the contempt of all temporal honors CHrist. Son trouble not thy self if thou seest others honored and advanced and thy self contemned and debased Lift up thy heart unto me in Heaven and the contempt of Men on Earth will not grieve thee Christian. Lord we are blind and quickly seduced with vanity If I look well into my self I cannot say that any creature hath done me wrong and therefore I cannot justly complain of thee 2. But because I have often and grievously sinned against thee all creatures do justly take arms against me for shame and contempt is due unto me but unto thee praise honor and glory And unless I frame my self with a very good will to be despised and forsaken of all creatures and to be esteemed nothing at all I cannot obtain inward peace and strength nor be spiritually enlightned nor fully united unto thee CHAP. XLII That our peace is not to be placed in Men. CHrist. Son if the peace thou hast with any be grounded upon the opinion which thou hast of him or upon the account of thine acquaintance with him thou shalt ever be in an unconstant and enthralled condition but if thou have recourse unto the everliving and eternal Truth a friend going from thee or dying shall not grieve thee The love of thy friend ought to be grounded in me and for me is he to be beloved whosoever he be whom thou thinkest well of and is very dear unto thee in this life No friendship can avail or continue without me neither is that love true and pure which is not knit by me Thou oughtest to be so dead to such affections of beloved friends that forasmuch as appertaineth unto thee thou shouldest wish to be without all company of Men. Man approacheth so much the nearer unto God by how much the further off he departeth from all Earthly comfort so much the higher also he ascendeth unto God by how much lower he descendeth into himself and how much the meaner he is in his own sight 2. But he that attributeth any good unto himself hindereth the coming of Gods grace unto him for the grace of the holy Ghost ever seeketh an humble heart If thou couldest perfectly annihilate thy self and empty thy self of all created love then should I flow into thee with great abundance of grace When thou castest thy eyes on creatures the sight of thy Creator is taken from thee Learn to overcome thy self in all things for the love of thy Creator and then shalt thou be able to attain to divine knowledge How little soever the thing be if it be inordinately loved and regarded it defileth the soul and hindereth the enjoying of the chiefest good CHAP. XLIII Against vain and secular knowledg CHrist. Son let not the fair speeches and subtile sayings of Men move thee For the Kingdom of God consisteth not in word but in power Observe well my words for they enflame hearts and enlighten minds they cause compunction and bring sundry comforts Do thou never read to shew thy self learned or wise but labor to mortify thy sins for that will profit thee more than the knowledg of many difficult questions 2. When thou shalt have read and known many things thou oughtest ever to return to one beginning and Principle I am he that teacheth Man knowledg and give unto babes a more clear understanding that can be taught by Man He therefore to whom I speak shall quickly be wise and shall profit much in the spirit Wo be to them that enquire many curious things of Men and do little mind the way how to serve me The time will come when the Master of Masters shall appear Christ the Lord of Angels to hear the lessons of all that is to examine the consciences of every one and then he will search Jerusalem with a candle and the hidden things of darkness shall be laid open and the arguings of Mens Tongues shall be silent 3. I am he that in an instant do raise up the humble mind to understand more of the eternal truth than can be gotten by Ten years study in the Schools I teach without the noise of words without the confounding of opinions without ambition of honor without the scuffling of arguments I am he that teacheth to despise Earthly things to loath things present to seek the everlasting to relish the things that are eternal to flee honors to suffer injuries to place all hope in me to desire nothing out of me and above all things ardently to love me 4. For a certain person by loving me entirely learned divine things and spake that which was admirable he profited more by forsaking all things than in studying subtilties To some I speak common things to others more special things to some I appear sweetly by signs and figures but to some I reveal mysteries with much light The voice of books is indeed one but it teacheth not all Men alike For I am the inward teacher I am the Truth I am the searcher of the heart the discerner of the thoughts the setter forwards of what is good distributing to every one as I judge meet CHAP. XLIV Of not drawing outward things to our selves CHrist. Son in many things thou oughtest to be ignorant and esteem thy self as dead upon Earth and as one to whom the whole world is crucified Thou must also pass by many things with a deaf ear and rather think of that which appertaineth to thy peace It is better for thee to turn thine eyes from what doth mislike thee and to leave unto every one his own opinion than to strive with contentious words If all stand well betwixt thee and God and if thou hast his judgment in thy mind thou shalt the more easily bear if thou be overcome 2. Christian. O Lord to what a pass are we come Behold we bewail a temporal loss for a little gain we toil and run and the spiritual damage of our soul is forgotten and hardly at length called to mind That which little or nothing profiteth is minded and that which is chiefly necessary is slightly passed over because the whole Man doth slide down into eternal things and unless he speedily repent he lieth immerst in them and that willingly CHAP. XLV That credit is not to be given to all Men and how prone Man is to offend in words CHristian Help me O Lord in my tribulation for vain
more powerful no Man more free than he that can leave himself and all things and set himself in the lowest place CHAP. XII Of the high way of the holy Cross. UNto many this speech seemeth hard Deny thy self take up thy Cross and follow Iesus But it will be much harder to hear that last word Depart from me ye cursed into everlasting fire For they that now willingly hear and follow the word of the Cross shall not then fear to hear the sentence of everlasting damnation This sign of the Cross shall be in Heaven when our Lord shall come to judgment Then all the servants of the Cross who in their life-time conformed themselves unto Christ crucified shall draw near unto Christ the Judg with great confidence 2. Why therefore fearest thou to take up the Cross which leadeth thee to a Kingdom In the Cross is salvation in the Cross is life in the Cross is protection against our enemies in the Cross is infusion of Heavenly sweetness in the Cross is strength of mind in the Cross is joy of spirit in the Cross is the height of virtue in the Cross is the perfection of sanctity There is no salvation of the soul nor hope of everlasting life but in the Cross. Take up therefore thy Cross and follow Jesus and thou shalt go into life everlasting He is gone before bearing his Cross and is dead for thee on the Cross that thou mayest also bear thy Cross and desire to die on the Cross with him For if thou diest with him thou shalt also live with him And if thou be his companion in pain thou shalt be partaker ith him also in glory 3. Behold in the Cross all doth consist and all lyeth in our dying upon it for there is no other way unto life and unto true inward peace but the way of the Holy Cross and of daily mortification Go where thou wilt seek whatsoever thou wilt thou shalt not find a higher way above nor a safer way below than the way of the Holy Cross. Dispose and order all things according to thy will and judgment yet thou shalt ever find that of necessity thou must suffer somewhat either willingly or against thy will and so thou shalt ever find the Cross. For either thou shalt feel pain in thy body or in thy soul thou shalt suffer tribulation of spirit 4. Sometimes thou shalt be forsaken of God sometimes thou shalt be troubled by thy neighbors and which is more oftentimes thou shalt be irksome to thy self neither canst thou be delivered or eased by any remedy or comfort but so long as pleaseth God thou oughtest to bear it For God will have thee learn to suffer tribulation without comfort and that thou subject thy self wholly to him and become more humble by tribulation No Man hath so cordial a feeling of the passion of Christ as he who hath suffered the like himself The Cross therefore is always ready and every where waits for thee Thou canst not escape it whithersoever thou runnest for wheresoever thou goest thou carriest thy self with thee and shalt ever find thy self both above and below without and within which way soever thou dost turn thee every where thou shalt find the Cross and every where of necessity thou must have patience if thou wilt have inward peace and enjoy an everlasting Crown 5. If thou bear the Cross willingly it will bear thee and lead thee to thy desired end to wit where there shall be an end of suffering though here there shall not If thou bear it unwillingly thou makest for thy self a new burden and encreasest thy load and yet notwithstanding thou must bear it If thou cast away one Cross without doubt thou shalt find another and that perhaps a more heavy one 6. Thinkest thou to escape that which no Man could ever avoid Which of the Saints in the world was without crosses and tribulation Verily Jesus Christ our Lord was never one hour without pain of suffering so long as he lived Christ saith he ought to suffer and arise again from the dead and so to enter into his glory Luke 24. and how dost thou seek any other way than this high way which is the way of the Holy Cross 7. The whole life of Christ was a Cross and Martyrdom and dost thou seek rest and joy Thou art deceived thou art deceived if thou seekest any other thing than to suffer tribulations for this whole mortal life is full of miseries and environed on every side with Crosses And how much the more one hath profited in spirit so much the heavier crosses he oftentimes findeth for the love he beareth to God increaseth the grief which he endureth for his banishment 8. But yet this Man though so many ways afflicted is not without some refreshing comfort for that he perceiveth much benefit to accrew unto him by the bearing of his Cross. For whilest he willingly putteth himself under it all the burden of tribulation is turned into the confidence of divine comfort And how much the more the flesh is wasted by affliction so much the more is the spirit strengthened by inward grace And sometimes he is so comforted with the desire of tribulation and adversity for the love of conforming himself to the Cross of Christ that he would not wish at any time to be without sorrow and tribulation because he believeth that so much the more acceptable he shall be unto God how much the more and more grievous things he can suffer for him This is not the power of Man but it is the grace of Christ that can and doth so much in frail flesh that what naturally it always abhorreth and flyeth that by fervor of spirit it encounters with delight 9. It is not according to Mans inclination to bear the Cross to chastise and subdue the body to fly honors to suffer contumelies with a willing heart to despise himself and to wish to be despised to bear all adversities and dammages and to desire no prosperity in this world If thou considerest thy self thou shalt be able to perform no such matter of thy self But if thou trustest in the Lord strength shall be given thee from Heaven and the world and flesh shall be made subject to thy command Neither shalt thou fear thy enemy the Devil if thou be armed with faith and bearest the Cross of Christ. 10. Set therefore thy self like a good and faithful servant of Christ to bear manfully the Cross of thy Lord who was crucified for thee out of love Prepare thy self to bear many adversities and divers kinds of troubles in this miserable life for so it will be with thee wheresoever thou be and so surely thou wilt find it wheresoever thou hide thy self So it must be and there is no remedy or means to avoid tribulation and sorrow but to bear them Drink of the Cup of our Lord heartily if thou wilt be his friend and desirest to have part with him As for comforts leave them to
renounceth creatures flyeth the world hateth the desires of the flesh restraineth wandrings abroad blusheth to be seen in publick Nature is willing to have some outward comfort wherein she may be sensibly delighted but Grace seeketh comfort in God alone and delighteth above all visible things in the highest good 5. Nature worketh all for her own gain and profit she can do nothing freely but for bestowed benefits she hopeth to obtain either that which is equal or better either praise or favor and coveteth to have her works and gifts much esteemed but Grace seeketh no temporal thing nor desireth any other reward than God alone nor asketh more of temporal necessaries than what may serve her for the obtaining of things eternal 3. Nature rejoyceth to have many friends and kinsfolks she glorieth of noble place and birth pleaseth the powerful fawneth upon the rich applaudeth those that are like her self but Grace loveth even her enemies and is not puffed up with multitude of friends nor esteemeth place or birth but where it is joyned with greater virtue she rather favoreth the poor than the rich hath more compassion of the innocent than the powerful rejoyceth in the true not in the deceitful always exhorteth good Men to labor for the better gifts and by goodness to resemble the Son of God Nature quickly complaineth of want and trouble Grace constantly endureth need 7. Nature referreth all things to her self striveth and contendeth for her self but Grace reduceth all to God from whence originally they proceed she ascribeth no good to her self neither doth she arrogantly presume she contendeth not nor preferreth her opinion before others but in every apprehension and opinion submitteth her self unto the eternal wisdom and to the divine judgment Nature coveteth to know secrets and to hear news she will appear abroad and make proof of many things by her own senses she desireth to be known and to do those things for which she may be praised and admired but Grace careth not for hearing news nor to understand curious matters for that all this springeth from the old corruption of Man seeing here is nothing new and durable upon Earth She teacheth therefore to restrain the senses to avoid vain pleasing and ostentation humbly to hide those things that are worthy of praise and admiration and of every thing and every knowledg to seek profitable fruit and the praise and honor of God she will not have her self nor hers publickly praised but desireth that God should be blessed in his gifts who of mere love bestoweth all things 8. This Grace is a supernatural light and a certain special gift of God and the proper mark of the elect and pledg of everlasting salvation which raiseth up a Man from Earthly things to love the things of Heaven and of a carnal maketh him a spiritual Man How much the more therefore Nature is depressed and subdued so much the greater Grace is infused and the inward Man daily by new visitations more reformed according to the image of God CHAP. LV. Of the corruption of Nature and efficacy of divine Grace CHristian O Lord my God who hast created me after thy Image and likeness grant me this grace which thou hast shewed to be so great and so necessary to salvation that I may overcome my wicked nature which draweth me to sin and to perdition For I feel in my flesh the Law of sin contradicting the Law of my mind and leading me captive to the obeying of sensuality in many things neither can I resist the passions thereof unless thy most holy grace fervently infused into my heart do assist me 2. Thy grace O Lord and great grace is needful that nature may be overcome which is ever prone to evil from her youth For by Adam the first Man nature being fallen and corrupted by sin the penalty of this stain hath descended upon all Mankind in such sort that nature it self which by thee was created good and upright is now accounted for the sin and for the infirmity of corrupted nature for that the motion thereof left unto it self draweth to evil and to inferior things For the little power which remaineth is like a certain spark lying hidden in ashes This is natural reason it self encompassed about with great darkness yet still retaining power to discern good and evil and the difference between true and false although it be unable to fulfil all that it approveth and enjoyeth not now the full light of truth nor the soundness of her affections 3. Hence it is my God that after the inward Man I delight in thy Law knowing thy commandments to be good just and holy reproving also all evil and sin teaching that it is to be avoided But with the flesh I serve the law of sin whilst I rather obey sensuality than reason Hence it is that to will to do good is present with me but how to perform it I find not For this cause I often purpose many good things but because I want grace to help my weakness upon a light resistance I go back and faint Hence it is that I know the way of perfection and see clearly enough what I ought to do but pressed down with the weight of mine own corruption I rise not unto what is more perfect 4. O Lord how exceeding needful is thy grace for me to begin any good work to go forward and to accomplish it For without it I can do nothing but in thee I can do all things when thy grace doth strengthen me O Heavenly grace indeed without which our most worthy actions are nothing and no gifts of nature are to be esteemed Arts riches beauty or strength wit or eloquence are of no value with thee O Lord without thy grace For gifts of nature are common to good and bad but the peculiar gift of the elect is grace and love and they that bear this honorable mark are esteemed worthy of everlasting life This grace is so eminent that neither the gift of prophesie nor the working of miracles nor any speculation how high soever is of any esteem without it Neither faith nor hope nor other virtues are acceptable unto thee without love and grace 5. O most blessed Grace that makest the poor in spirit rich in virtues and makest the rich in many blessings to be humble in heart come come down unto me replenish me early with thy comfort lest my soul should faint for weariness and driness of mind I beseech thee O Lord that I may find grace in thy sight for thy grace is sufficient for me though other things that nature desireth be wanting If I be tempted and vexed with many tribulations I will not fear any evils whilst thy grace is with me that is my strength that giveth advice and help that is stronger than all enemies and wiser than all the wise 6. Thy grace is the mistress of truth the teacher of discipline the light of the heart the solace in affliction the driver away of sorrow the
the holy of Holies Thanks be unto thee Lord Jesus the light of everlasting light for the table of holy Doctrine which thou hast afforded us by thy Servants the Prophets and Apostles and other Teachers 5. Thanks be unto thee Creator and Redeemer of Man who to manifest thy love to the whole world hast prepared a great supper wherein thou hast set before us to be eaten not the typical Lamb but thine own most sacred Body and Blood rejoycing all the faithful with thy holy banquet and replenishing them to the full with thy Cup of salvation in which are all the delights of Paradise and the holy Angels do feast with us but yet with a more happy sweetness 6. O how great and honorable is the office of Gods Ministers to whom it is given with sacred words to consecrate the Sacrament of the Lord of glory with their lips to bless with their hands to hold with their mouth to receive and also to administer to others O how clean ought to be those hands how pure that mouth how holy that body how unspotted that heart where the Author of purity so often entreth Nothing but what is holy no word but good and profitable ought to proceed from his mouth which so often receiveth the Sacrament of Christ. 7. Simple and chaste ought to be the eyes that use to behold the body of Christ the hands pure and lifted up to Heaven that use to receive the Creator of Heaven and Earth Unto the Priests especially it is said in the Law be ye holy for that I your Lord God am holy 8. Assist us Almighty God with thy grace that we who have undertaken the office of Priest-hood may serve thee worthily and devoutly in all purity and with a good conscience And if we live not in so great innocency as we ought to do grant us notwithstanding in due manner to bewail the sins which we have committed and in the spirit of humility and with the full purpose of a good will to serve thee hereafter more fervently CHAP. XII That he who is to communicate ought to prepare himself with great diligence The voice of the beloued I Am the lover of purity and the giver of all sanctity I seek a pure heart and there is the place of my rest Make ready and adorn for me the great Chamber and I will keep with thee the Passover amongst my Disciples If thou wilt have me come unto thee and remain with thee purge out the old leaven and make clean the habitation of thy heart shut out the whole world and all the throng of sins sit like a sparrow solitary upon the house-top and think of thy offences in the bitterness of thy soul. For every lover prepareth the best and fairest room for his beloved and herein is known the affection of him that entertaineth his beloved 2. Know thou notwithstanding that the merit of no action of thine is able to make this preparation sufficient although thou shouldest prepare thy self a whole year together and think on nothing else Thou art of my mere grace and favor suffered to come to my Table like a beggar invited to dinner to a rich Man who hath nothing else to return him for his benefits but to humble himself and give him thanks Do what lieth in thee and do it diligently not for custome not for necessity but with fear and reverence and affection receive the body of thy beloved Lord God who vouchsafeth to come unto thee I am he that have called thee I have commanded it to be done I will supply what is wanting in thee come and receive me 3. When I bestow the grace of devotion give thanks to thy God for it is given thee not for that thou art worthy but because I have mercy on thee If thou have it not but rather dost feel thy self dry continue in Prayer sigh and knock and give not over until thou art meet to receive some crum or drop of saving grace Thou hast need of me not I of thee neither comest thou to sanctifie me but I come to sanctifie and make thee better Thou comest that thou maist be sanctified by me and united unto me that thou maist receive new grace and be stirred up again to amendment Neglect not this grace but prepare thy heart with all diligence and receive thy beloved into thy soul. 4. But thou oughtest not only to prepare thy self to devotion before Communion but carefully also to conserve thy self therein after thou hast received the Sacrament Neither is the careful guard of thy self afterwards less required than devout preparation before For a good guard afterwards is the best preparation again for the obtaining of greater grace because that a Man becometh therefore very indisposed if he presently pour himself out overmuch to outward comforts Beware of much talk remain in some secret place and enjoy thy God For thou hast him whom all the world cannot take from thee I am he to whom thou oughtest wholly to give thy self thatso thou maist live hereafter not in thy self but in me without all solicitude CHAP. XIII That a devout soul ought to desire with her whole heart to be united unto Christ in the Sacrament The voice of the Disciple HOw may I obtain this O Lord that I may find thee alone and open my whole heart unto thee and enjoy thee as my soul desireth And that no Man may look towards me nor any creature move me or eye me but thou alone maist speak unto me and I to thee as the beloved is wont to speak to his beloved and a friend to banquet with his friend This I pray for this I desire that I may be wholly united unto thee and may withdraw my heart from all created things and more and more by sacred Communion and often celebrating learn to relish Heavenly and eternal things O Lord God when shall I be wholly united to thee and absorpt by thee and be altogether forgetful of my self Thou in me and I in thee and so grant us both to continue in one 2. Thou art truly my beloved the choicest amongst Thousands in whom my soul is well pleased to dwell all the days of her life Thou art indeed my peacemaker in whom is greatest peace and true rest without whom is labor and sorrow and infinite misery Thou art indeed a God that hidest thy self and thy counsel is not with the wicked but thy speech is with the humble and simple of heart O Lord how sweet is thy spirit who to the end thou mightest shew thy sweetness toward thy Children vouchsafest to feed them with the bread which descendeth from Heaven and is full of all sweetness Surely there is no other Nation so great that hath God nigh unto them as thou our God art present to all thy faithful ones unto whom for their daily comfort and for the raising up of their hearts to Heaven thou givest thy self to be eaten and enjoyed 3. For what other Nation is
art my meat and my drink my love and my joy my sweetness and all my good 3. O that with thy presence thou wouldest wholly inflame burn and conform me unto thy self that I might be made one spirit with thee by the grace of inward union and by the meltings of ardent love Suffer me not to go from thee hungry and dry but deal mercifully with me as thou hast oftentimes dealt wonderfully with thy Saints What marvel is it if I should be wholly inflamed by thee and die from my self sith thou art fire always burning and never decaying love purifying the heart and enlightning the understanding CHAP. XVII Of fervent love and vehement desire to receive Christ. The voice of the Disciple ple WIth great devotion and ardent love with most hearty affection and fervor I desire to receive thee O Lord as many Saints and devout persons have desired thee when they received thy Sacrament who were most pleasing unto thee in holiness of life and most fervent in devotion O my God my everlasting love my whole good my happiness without end I would gladly receive thee with the most vehement desire and most worthy reverence that any of the Saints ever had or could feel 2. And although I be unworthy to have all those feelings of devotion yet I offer unto thee the whole affection of my heart as if I alone had all those highly pleasing inflamed desires yea and whatsoever also an holy mind can conceive and desire all that with greatest reverence and most inward affection I offer and present unto thee I desire to reserve nothing to my self but freely and most willingly to sacrifice my self and all mine unto thee my Lord God my Creator and my Redeemer I desire to receive thee this day with such affection reverence praise and honor with such gratitude worthiness and love with such faith hope and purity as thy most holy Mother the glorious Virgin Mary received and desired thee when she humbly and devoutly answered the Angel who declared unto her the mystery of the Incarnation and said Behold the handmaid of the Lord let it be done unto me according to thy word 3. And as thy blessed Forerunner the most excellent amongst the Saints Iohn Baptist chearfully leaped by reason of the holy Ghost whilest he was yet shut up in his Mothers womb and afterwards seeing Jesus walking amongst Men humbling himself very much said with devout affection The friend of the Bridegroom that standeth and heareth him rejoyceth with joy for the voice of the Bridegroom so I also wish to be inflamed with great and holy desires and to offer my self up to thee with my whole heart Wherefore I offer also and present unto thee the joys fervent affections mental excesses and supernal illuminations and Heavenly visions of all devout hearts with all the vertues and praises celebrated and to be celebrated by all creatures in Heaven and Earth for my self and all such as are commended to me in prayer that by all thou maist be worthily praised and glorified for ever 4. Receive my Lord God my wishes and desires of giving thee infinite praise and thanks which according to the measure of thy unspeakable greatness are most worthily due unto thee These I yield thee and desire to yield thee every day and moment I do entreat and invite all Heavenly minds and all the devout Servants to give thanks and praises together with me 5. Let all People Tribes and Tongues praise thee and magnifie thy holy and sweet Name with great joy and fervent devotion and let all that reverently and devoutly celebrate thy most high Sacrament and receive it with full faith find grace and mercy at thy hands and pray humbly for me a sinful creature And when they shall have obtained their desired devotion and joyful union and depart from thy sacred Heavenly Table well comforted and marvellously refreshed let them vouchsafe to remember my poor soul. CHAP. XVIII That Man be not a curious searcher of the Sacrament but an humble follower of Christ submitting his sense to faith The voice of the Beloved THou oughtest to beware of curious and unprofitable searching into this most profound Sacrament if thou wilt not be plunged in the depths of doubts He that is a searcher of Majesty shall be oppressed by thy glory God is able to work more than Man can understand A pious and humble inquiry of truth is tolerable so it be always ready to be taught and do endeavor to walk in the sound doctrines of the Fathers 2. Blessed is that simplicity that forsaketh the difficult ways of questions and goeth on in the plain and assured path of Gods Commandments Many have lost devotion whilest they would search after high things Faith and a sincere life required at thy hands not height of understanding nor a diving deep into the mysteries of God If thou dost not understand nor conceive those things that are under thee how shalt thou be able to comprehend those that are above thee Submit thy self to God and let thy sense be subject to faith and the light of knowledg shall be given thee in that degree as shall be profitable and necessary for thee 3. Some are grievously tempted about faith and the Sacrament but this is not to be imputed to them but rather to the Enemy Be not thou anxious nor dispute with thy thoughts neither do thou give answer to the doubts cast in by the Devil but believe the words of God believe his Saints and Prophets and the wicked Enemy will flie from thee It is oftentimes very profitable to the Servant of God to suffer such things For the Devil tempteth not unbelievers and sinners whom he already securely possesseth but he sundry ways tempteth and vexeth the faithful and religious 4. Go forward therefore with a sincere and undoubted faith and come to the Sacrament with unfeigned reverence And whatsoever thou art not able to understand commit securely to Almighty God God deceiveth thee not he is deceived that trusteth to much to himself God walketh with the simple revealeth himself to the humble giveth understanding to the little ones openeth the sense to pure minds and hideth grace from the curious and proud Humane reason is weak and may be deceived but true faith cannot be deceived 5. All reason and natural search ought to follow faith not to go before nor infringe it For faith and love do here chiefly excell and work in a hidden manner in this most holy and excellent Sacrament God who is everlasting and of infinite power doth great and inscrutable things in Heaven and in Earth and there is no searching out of his wonderful works If the works of God were such as might be easily comprehended by humane reason they were not to be called wonderful and unspeakable FINIS
Extol not thy self for the bigness or beauty of thy body which is dissolved and disfigured with a little sickness Take not pleasure in thy natural gifts or wit lest thereby thou displease God to whom appertaineth all the good whatsoever thou hast by nature 3. Esteem not thy self better than others lest perhaps in the sight of God who knoweth what is in Man thou be accounted worse than they Be not proud of wel-doing for the judgment of God is far different from the judgment of Men and that often offendeth him which pleaseth them If there be any good in thee believe that there is much more in others that so thou mayest conserve humility within thee It is no prejudice unto thee to debase thy self under all Men but it is very prejudicial to thee to prefer thy self before any one Man The humble enjoy continual peace but in the heart of the proud is envy and frequent indignation CHAP. VIII That too much familiarity is to be shunned LAy not thy heart open to every one but treat of thy affairs with the wise and such as fear God Converse not much with young people and strangers Flatter not the rich neither do thou appear willingly before great personages Keep company with the humble and plain ones with the devout and vertuous and confer with them of those things that may edifie Be not familiar with any Woman but in general commend all good Women to God Desire to be familiar with God alone and his Angels and fly the knowledg of Men. 2. We must have charity towards all but familiarity with all is not expedient Sometimes it falleth out that a Person unknown to us is much esteemed of from the good report given him by others whose presence notwithstanding is not grateful to the eyes of the beholders We think sometimes to please others by our company and we rather distaste them with those bad qualities which they discover in us CHAP. IX Of obedience and subjection IT is a great matter to live in obedience to be under a superior and not to be at our own disposing It is much safer to obey than to govern Many live under obedience rather for necessity than for charity such are discontented and do easily repine and murmur Neither can they attain to freedom of mind unless they willingly and heartily put themselves under obedience for the love of God Go whither thou wilt thou shalt find no rest but in humble subjection under the government of a Superior The imagination and change of places have deceived many 2. True it is that every one willingly doth that which agreeth with his own sense and liking and is apt to affect those most that are of his own mind But if God be amongst us we must sometimes for peace sake cease to adhere to our own opinion Who is so wise that he can fully know all things Trust not therefore to thine own opinion but be willing to hear the judgment of others If that which thou thinkest be not amiss and yet thou submittest it for God and followest the opinion of another it shall be better for thee 3. I have often heard that it is safer to hear and take counsel than to give it It may also fall out that each ones opinion may be good but to refuse to yield to others when as reason or cause requireth it is a sign of pride and stiffness CHAP. X. Of the avoiding superfluity in words FLy the tumultuousness of the world as much as thou canst for the talk of worldly affairs hindreth very much although they be recounted with sincere intention for we are quickly defiled and enthralled with vanity I could wish that I had oftentimes held my peace when I have spoken and that I had not been in company Why do we so willingly speak and talk one with another when notwithstanding we seldom return to silence without hurt of conscience The cause why we so willingly talk is for that by discoursing one with another we seek to receive comfort one of another and desire to ease our mind overwearied with sundry thoughts and we very willingly talk and think of those things which we most love and desire or of those which we feel most contrary and troublesom unto us 2. But alas oftentimes in vain and to no end for this outward comfort is the cause of no small loss of inward and divine consolation Therefore we must watch and pray lest our time pass away idlely If it be lawful and expedient for thee to speak speak those things that may edifie An evil custom and neglect of our own good doth give too much liberty to inconsiderate speech Yet religious discourses of spiritual things do greatly further our spiritual growth especially where persons of one mind and spirit be gathered together in God CHAP. XI Of the obtaining of peace and zealous desire of profit in grace WE might enjoy much peace if we would not busie our selves with the words and deeds of other Men which appertain nothing to our charge How can he live long in peace that thrusteth himself into the cares of others that seeks occasions abroad that little or seldom recollecteth himself within his own breast Blessed are the single-hearted for they shall injoy much peace 2. What is the reason why some of the Saints were so perfect and contemplative Because they labored to mortifie themselves wholly to all earthly desires and therefore they could with their whole heart give themselves to God and be free for holy retirement We are too much led by our passions and too solicitous for transitory things We also seldom overcome any one vice perfectly and are not inflamed with a fervent desire to grow better every day and therefore we remain cold and scarce warm in Religion 3. If we were perfectly dead unto our selves and not entangled within our own breasts then should we tast divine things and have some acquaintance with heavenly enjoyments The greatest and indeed the whole impediment is for that we are not disentangled from our passions and lusts neither do we endeavor to enter into that path of perfection which the Saints have walked before us and when any small adversity befalleth us we are too quickly dejected and turn our selves to humane comforts 4. If we would endeavor like Men of courage to stand in the battel surely we should feel the favorable assistance of God from Heaven For he who giveth us occasion to fight to the end we may get the victory is ready to succor those that fight manfully and do trust in his grace If we esteem our progress in religious life to confist only in some exterior observances our devotion will quickly be at an end But let us lay the Axe to the root that being freed from passions we may find rest to our souls 5. If every year we would root out one vice we should sooner become perfect Men. But now oftentimes we perceive it goes contrary and that we were better
sure more especially to instruct thy self before all thy loving friends If thou hast not the favor of Men be not grieved at it but take this to heart that thou dost not carry thy self so warily and circumspectly as it becometh the Servant of God and a devout religious Man It is better oftentimes and safer that a Man hath not many consolations in this life especially such as are agreeable to the flesh But that we have not at all or do very seldom tast divine consolations the fault is ours because we seek not after compunction of heart nor do altogether forsake the vain and outward comforts of this world 4. Know that thou art unworthy of divine consolation and that thou hast rather deserved much tribulation When a Man hath perfect contrition then is the whole world grievous and bitter unto him A good Man findeth always sufficient cause of mourning and weeping for whether he consider his own or his neighbors estate he knoweth that none liveth here without tribulation And by how much a Man looks narrowly into himself by so much the more he sorroweth Our sins and wickednesses wherein we are so enwrapt that we can seldom apply our selves to heavenly contemplations do Minister unto us matter of most just sorrow and inward compunction 5. Didst thou oftner think of thy death than of thy living long there is no question but thou wouldst be more careful to amend I believe thou wouldst willingly undergo any labor or sorrow in this world and not be afraid of the greatest austerity if thou didst consider within thy self the infernal pains in the other world But because these things enter not to the heart and we still love those things only that delight us therefore it is we remain very dull and cold in religion 6. It is often our want of spirit which maketh our miserable body so easily complain Pray therefore unto the Lord with all humility that he will vouchsafe to give thee the spirit of compunction And say with the prophet Psal. 80 Feed me O Lord with the bread of tears and give me plenteousness of tears to drink CHAP. XXII Of the consideration of humane misery MIserable thou art wheresoever thou be or whithersoever thou turnest unless thou turn thy self unto God Why art thou troubled when things succeed not as thou wouldest or desirest For who is he that hath all things according to his mind Neither I nor thou nor any Man upon earth there is none in this world be he King or Pope without some tribulation or other Who is then in the best case or condition even he who can suffer something for God 2. Many weak and infirm ones can say Behold what an happy life hath such an one how wealthy how great he is in how great power and dignity But lift up thine eyes to the riches of heaven and thou shalt see that all the goods of this life are nothing so to be accounted of They are very uncertain rather burdensome than otherwise because they are never enjoyed without carefulness and fear Mans happiness consisteth not in having abundance of wealth but a mean estate should content him it is truly misery enough even to live upon the earth The more a Man would be spiritual the more bitter to him is this present life because he seeth more clearly and perceiveth more sensibly the defects of humane corruption For to eat and to drink to sleep and to watch to labor and to rest and to be subject to other necessities of nature is doubtless a great misery and affliction to a religious Man that would gladly be free and delivered from all sin 3. For the inward Man is much oppressed with these outward and corporal necessities whilest we live in this world Therefore the holy Prophet prayeth with great devotion to be delivered from them saying Bring me O Lord out of my necessities But wo be to them that know not their own misery and a greater wo to them that love this miserable and corruptible life And some there be so much dote upon it that although with great labor and pains they can scarce get mere necessaries yet could they live here always they would care nothing at all for the Kingdom of Heaven 4. O how foolish are these and faithless in their hearts who lye so deeply sunk in the earth that they can mind or relish nothing but carnal things But miserable wretches as they are they shall in the end feel to their cost how vile and how nothing that was which they loved Whereas the Saints of God and all the devout friends of Christ respected not those things which pleased the flesh and which flourished in this life but longed for the everlasting riches with their whole hope and desire Their whole desire was carried upward to things durable and invisible that the desire of things visible might not draw them to things below O Brother lose not thy hope of coming forward in godliness there is yet time the hour is not yet past 5. Why wilt thou defer thy good purpose from day to day Arise and begin in this very instant and say Now is the time to be doing now is the time to be striving now is the best time to amend my self When thou art ill at ease and much troubled then is the time of deserving best thou must pass through fire and water before thou comest to the place of refreshing Unless thou dost earnestly force thy self thou shalt never get the victory over sin so long as we carry about us this frail body of ours we can never be without sin or live without trouble and sorrow We would gladly be quiet and freed from all misery but seeing by sin we have lost our innocency we have together with that lost also the true felicity Therefore it becomes us to have patience and to wait for the mercy of God till this our iniquity be put away and this mortality of ours be swallowed up of life 6. O how great is humane frailty which is always prone to evil to day thou confessest thy sins and to morrow thou committest the very same thou hast confessed Now thou art purposed to look well unto thy ways and within a while thou so behavest thy self as though thou hadst never any such purpose at all Good cause have we therefore to humble our selves and never to have any great conceit of our selves because we are so frail and so inconstant Besides that may quickly be lost by our own negligence which by the grace of God and our own great pains we have scarce at length obtained 7. What will become of us in the end who begin to wax cold so timely Wo be unto us if we will so give our selves unto ease as if all were in peace and safety when as yet there appeareth no sign of true holiness in our conversations We have need like young beginners to be newly instructed again to good life if happily there be any hope of
our future amendment and proficiency in spiritual things CHAP. XXIII Of the meditation of Death THere will very quickly be an end of thee here therefore see what will become of thee hereafter To day a Man to morrow none and out of sight out of mind O the stupidity and hardness of Mans Heart who thinketh only upon the present and hath no more care of what is to come Thou shouldest so order thy self in all thy thoughts and actions as if to day yea this very moment thou wert ready to depart Hadst thou a clear conscience thou wouldst not greatly fear death It were better to avoid sin than to fly death If thou art not prepared to day how wilt thou be prepared to morrow To morrow is uncertain and how knowest thou that thou shalt live till to morrow 2. What availeth it to live long when we are so little the better by long living Alas length of days doth oftner make our sins the greater than our lives the better O that we had spent but one day well in this world Many there are who count how long it is since their conversion and yet ful slender oftentimes is the fruit of amendment of life If to die be accounted dreadful to live long may perhaps prove more dangerous Happy is he that always hath the hour of his death before his eyes and daily prepareth himself for to die If at any time thou hast seen another Man die make account thou must also pass the same way 3. When it is morning think thou mayest die before night and when evening comes dare not to promise thy self the next morning Be thou therefore always in a readiness and so lead thy life that death may never take thee unprepared Many die suddenly and when they look not for it for the Son of Man will come when we think not of his coming When that last hour shall come thou wilt begin to have a far different opinion of thy whole life that is past and be exceeding sorry thou hast been so careless and remiss 4. O how wise and happy is he that now laboreth to be such an one in his life as he wisheth to be found at the hour of his death A perfect contempt of the world a fervent desire to go forward in vertue the love of discipline the painfulness of repentance the readiness of obedience the denying of our selves and the bearing any affliction for the love of Christ patiently will give us great confidence we shall die happily Whilst thou art in health thou mayest do much good but when thou art sick I see not what thou art able to do Few by sickness grow better and more reformed as also they who wander much abroad seldom thereby become holy 5. Trust. not to friends and kindred neither do thou put off the care of thy souls welfare till hereafter for Men will sooner forget thee than thou art aware of It is better to look to it betime and do some good beforehand than to trust to other Mens courtesies If thou beest not careful for thy self now who will be careful for thee hereafter The time that is now present is very precious now are the days of salvation now is the acceptable time But alas that thou shouldst spend thy time so idlely here where thou mightest purchase to live eternally hereafter The time will come when thou shalt desire one day or hour to amend in and I cannot say that it will be granted thee 6. O beloved from how great danger mightest thou deliver thy self from how great fear free thy self if thou wouldst be always mindful of death Labor now to live so that at the hour of death thou mayest rather rejoyce than fear learn now to die to the world that thou mayest then begin to live with Christ. Learn now to contemn all earthly things that thou mayest freely go to Christ. Chastise thy body now by repentance that thou mayest then have assured confidence 7. Ah fool why dost thou think to live long when thou canst not promise to thy self one day How many have been deceived and suddenly snatcht away How often dost thou hear these reports Such a Man is slain another Man is drowned a third breaks his neck with a fall from some high place this Man died eating and that Man playing One perished by fire another by the sword another of the plague another was slain by Thieves Thus death is the end of all and Mans life suddenly passeth away like a shaddow 8. Who shall remember thee when thou art Dead Do do now my beloved whatsoever thou art able to do for thou knowest not when thou shalt die nor yet what shall befal thee after thy death Now whilst thou hast time heap unto thy self everlasting riches think on nothing but the salvation of thy soul care for nothing but the things of God Make now friends to thy self by honoring the Saints of God and imitating their actions that when thou failest in this short life they may receive thee into everlasting habitations 9. Keep thy self as a stranger and pilgrim upon the earth and as one to whom the affairs of this world do nothing appertain Keep thy heart free and lifted up to God because thou hast here no abiding city Send thither thy daily prayers and sighs together with thy tears that after death thy spirit may with much happiness pass to the Lord. Amen CHAP. XXIV Of Iudgment and the punishment of Sins IN all things have a special aim to thy end and how thou wilt be able to stand before that severe Judg to whom nothing is hid who is not pacified with gifts nor admitteth any excuses but will judg according to right and equity O wretched and foolish sinner who sometimes fearest the countenance of an angry Man what answer wilt thou make to God who knoweth all thy wickedness Why dost thou not provide for thy self against that great day of judgment when no Man can excuse or answer for another but every one shall have enough to answer for himself Now are thy pains profitable thy tears acceptable thy groans audible thy grief pacifieth God and purgeth thy soul. 2. The patient Man hath a great and wholesome purgatory who though he receive injuries yet grieveth more for the malice of another than for his own wrong who prayeth willingly for his adversaries and from his heart forgiveth their offences he delayeth not to ask forgiveness of whomsoever he hath offended he is sooner moved to compassion than to anger he often offereth an holy violence to himself and laboreth to bring the body wholly into subjection to the spirit It is better to purge out our sins and cut off our vices here than to keep them to be punished hereafter Verily we do but deceive our selves through an inordinate love of the flesh 3. What is it that that infernal fire feeds upon but thy sins The more thou sparest thy self now and followest the flesh so much the more hereafter shall
on the contrary How pitiful and grievous a thing it is to see them that live in a dissolute and disordered sort not applying themselves to that for which they are called O how hurtful a thing it is to neglect the good purposes of their vocation and to busie themselves in that which is not committed to their care 6. Be mindful of the profession thou hast made and have always before the eyes of thy soul the remembrance of thy Saviour crucified Thou hast good cause to be ashamed looking upon the life of Jesus Christ seeing thou hast as yet no more endeavored to conform thy self unto him though thou hast walked a long time in the way of God A religious person that exerciseth himself seriously and devoutly in the most holy life and passion of our Lord shall there abundantly find whatsoever is necessary and profitable for him neither shall he need to seek any better thing out of Jesus O if Jesus crucified would come into our hearts how quickly and fully should we be instructed in all truth 7. A fervent religious person taketh and beareth all well that is commanded him but he that is negligent and cold hath tribulation upon tribulation and on all sides is afflicted for he is void of inward consolation and is forbidden to seek eternal comforts A religious person that liveth not according to discipline lies open to great mischief to the ruine of his soul. He that seeketh liberty and ease shall ever live in disquiet for one thing or other will displease him 8. O that we had nothing elso to do but always with our mouth and whole heart to praise our Lord God! O that thou mightest never have need to eat nor drink nor sleep but mightest always praise God and only employ thy self in spiritual exercises thou shouldest then be much more happy than now thou art when for so many necessities thou art constrained to serve thy body Would God these necessities were not at all but only the spiritual refections of the soul which alas we taste of too seldom 9. When a Man cometh to that estate rhat he seeketh not his comfort from any creature then doth he begin perfectly to relish God Then shall he be contented with whatsoever doth befal him in this world Then shall he neither rejoyce in great matters nor be sorrowful for small but entirely and confidently commit himself to God who shall be unto him all in all to whom nothing doth perish nor die but all things do live unto him and serve him at a beck without delay 10. Remember always thy end and how that time lost never returns Without care and diligence thou shalt never get virtue If thou beginnest to wax cold it will be evil with thee but if thou give thy self to fervor of spirit thou shalt find much peace and feel less labor through the assistance of Gods grace and love of virtue The fervent and diligent Man is prepared for all things It is harder to resist vices and passions than to toil in bodily labors He that avoideth not small faults by little and little falleth into greater Thou wilt always rejoyce in the evening if thou spend the day profitably Be watchful over thy self stir up thy self warn thy self and whatsoever becomes of others neglect not thy self The more holy violence thou usest against thy self the more shall be thy spiritual profiting Amen THE SECOND BOOK CHAP. I. Of the inward Life THE Kingdom of God is within you saith the Lord. Turn thee with thy whole heart unto the Lord and forsake this wretched World and thy Soul shall find rest Learn to despise exteriour things and to give thy self to the interior and thou shalt perceive the Kingdom of God to come into thee For the Kingdom of God is peace and joy in the Holy Ghost which is not given to the wicked Christ will come into thee and shew thee his consolations if thou prepare for him a worthy mansion within thee All his glory and beauty is within and there he pleaseth himself The inward man he often visits and hath with him sweet discourses pleasant solace much peace wonderful familiarity 2. O faithful Soul make ready thy heart for this Bridegroom that he may vouchsafe to come unto thee and dwell within thee For he saith If any love me he will keep my words and we will come unto him and will make our abode with him Give therefore admittance unto Christ and deny entrance to all others When thou hast Christ thou art Rich and he will suffice thee He will be thy faithful and provident helper in all things so as thou shalt not need to trust in men For men are soon changed and quickly fail but Christ remaineth for ever and standeth firmly unto the end 3. There is little trust to be put in frail and mortal man though he be profitable and dear unto thee neither oughtest thou much to be grieved if sometimes he cross and contradict thee They that to day take thy part to morrow may be against thee and so on the contrary they often turn like unto the wind Put all thy trust in God let him be thy fear and thy love He will answer for thee and do in all things what is best Thou hast not here an abiding City and wheresoever thou be thou art a stranger and pilgrim Neither shalt thou ever have rest unless thou be most inwardly united unto Christ. 4. Why dost thou here gaze about since this is not the place of thy rest In Heaven ought to be thy dwelling and all Earthly things are to be lookt upon as it were by the way All things pass away and thou together with them Beware thou cleave not unto them lest thou be entangled and so dost perish Let thy thought be on the Highest and thy prayer directed unto Christ without ceasing If thou canst not contemplate high and heavenly things rest thy self in the passion of Christ and dwell willingly in his Holy wounds For if thou fly devoutly unto the wounds and precious marks of the Lord Jesus thou shalt feel great comfort in tribulation Neither wilt thou much care for being despised of men and wilt easily bear words of detraction 5. Christ was also in the World despised of men and in greatest necessity forsaken by his acquaintance and Friends in the midst of slanders Christ would suffer and be despised and darest thou complain of any Christ had Adversaries and Backbiters and wilt thou have all men thy Friends and Benefactors For what shall thy patience be crowned if no adversity happen unto thee If thou wilt suffer no adversity how wilt thou be the Friend of Christ Suffer with Christ and for Christ if thou desire to Reign with Christ. 6. If thou hadst but once perfectly entred into the secrets of Jesus and tasted a little of his ardent affection then wouldst thou not weigh thine own commodity or discommodity but wouldst rather rejoyce at slanders when they should chance to
we quickly lose by our negligence and oftentimes we do not perceive our own inward blindness We often do evil and excuse it worse We are sometimes moved with passion and we think it to be Zeal We reprehend small things in others and pass over greater matters in our selves We quickly feel and weigh what we suffer at the hands of others but we mind not what others suffer from us He that doth well and rightly considers his own works will find little cause to judg hardly of another 2. The inward Christian preferreth the care of himself before all other cares And he that diligently attendeth unto himself doth seldom speak much of others Thou wilt never be so inwardly religious unless thou pass over other Mens matters with silence and look especially to thy self If thou attend wholly unto God and thy self thou wilt be little moved with whatsoever thou seest abroad Where art thou when thou art not with thy self And when thou hast run over all what hast thou then profited if thou hast neglected thy self If thou desirest peace of mind and true union thou must put all things behind thee and look only upon thy self 3. Thou shalt therefore profit much if thou keep thy self free from all temporal cares Thou shalt greatly decrease if thou esteem any thing of this world Let nothing be greater unto thee nothing acceptable but only God himself or that which is of God Esteem all comfort vain which thou receivest from any creature A soul that loveth God despiseth all things that be inferior unto God God alone is everlasting and of infinite greatness filling all creatures the souls solace and the true joy of the heart CHAP. VI. Of the joy of a good conscience THe glory of a good Man is the testimony of a good conscience Have a good conscience and thou shalt ever have joy A good conscience is able to bear very much and is very chearful in adversities An evil conscience is always fearful and unquiet Thou shalt rest sweetly if thy heart do not reprehend thee Do thou never rejoyce but when thou hast done well Sinners have never true mirth nor feel inward peace because there is no peace to the wicked saith the Lord. And if they should say We are in peace no evil shall fall upon us and who shall dare to hurt us Believe them not for upon a sudden will arise the wrath of God and their deeds shall be brought to nought and their thoughts shall perish 2. To glory in tribulation is no hard thing for him that loveth for to glory so is to glory in the Cross of our Lord. That glory is short which is given and received from Men. Sorrow always accompanieth the glory of the world The glory of the good is in their consciences and not in the tongues of Men. The gladness of the just is of God and in God and their joy is of the truth He that desireth true and everlasting glory careth not for that which passeth away with time And he that seeketh temporal glory or contemneth it not from his heart sheweth himself but little to esteem of the glory of Heaven He enjoyeth great tranquility and peace of mind that careth neither for the praises nor dispraises of Men. 3. He will easily be content and pacified whose conscience is pure He is not the more holy though thou commend him nor the more abject though thou dispraise him What thou art that thou art neither canst thou be said to be greater than what thou art in the sight of God If thou consider what thou art within thee thou wilt not care what Men say of thee Man seeth in the face but God looketh into the heart Man considereth the deeds but God weigheth the intention To do always well and to esteem little of himself is a sign of an humble soul. To refuse to be comforted by any creature is a sign of great purity and inward confidence 4 He that seeketh to witness for himself from without doth shew that he hath wholly committed himself unto God For not he that commendeth himself the same is approved saith blessed Paul but whom God commendeth To walk inwardly with God and not to be possessed with any outward affection is the state of a spiritual Man CHAP. VII Of the love of Iesus above all things BLessed is he that understandeth what it is to love Jesus and to despise himself for Jesus Thou oughtest to leave thy beloved for thy beloved for that Jesus will be beloved alone above all things The love of things created is deceitful and unconstant the love of Jesus is faithful and constant He that cleaveth unto creatures shall fall with that which is subject to fall He that embraceth Jesus shall stand firmly for ever Love him and keep him for thy friend who when all go away will not forsake thee nor suffer thee to perish in the end Thou must once be left of all whether thou wilt or no. 2. Keep close to Jesus both in life and death and commit thy self unto his trust who when all fail can alone help thee Thy beloved is of that nature that he will not admit of a corrival but will have thy heart alone and sit like a King in his own throne If thou couldest purge thy self perfectly of all creatures Jesus would willingly dwell with thee Whatsoever thou reposest in Men out of Jesus is all no better than lost Trust not nor rely upon a reed full of wind for that all flesh is grass and all the glory thereof shall wither away as the flower of the field 3. Thou shalt quickly be deceived if thou look only to the outward shew of Men. And if in them thou seekest thy comfort and profit thou shalt often feel loss If thou seekest Jesus in all things thou shalt surely find Jesus But if thou seekest thy self thou shalt also find thy self but to thine own harm For Man doth more hurt himself if he seek not Jesus than the whole world and all his adversaries could annoy him CHAP. VIII Of familiar conversation with Iesus WHen Jesus is present all is well and nothing seemeth difficult but when Jesus is absent every thing is hard When Jesus speaketh not inwardly unto us our comfort is nothing worth but if Jesus speak but one word we feel much consolation Did not Mary presently rise from the place where she wept when Martha said unto her The Master is come and calleth for thee Happy is the hour when Jesus calleth from tears to spiritual Joy How dry and hard art thou without Jesus How foolish and vain if thou desire any thing out of Jesus Is not this a greater loss than if thou shouldest lose the whole world 2. What can the world profit thee without Jesus To be without Jesus is a grievous Hell and to be with Jesus is a sweet Paradise If Jesus be with thee no enemy can hurt thee He that findeth Jesus findeth a good treasure yea a good above all
goods And he that loseth Jesus loseth too much and more than the whole world He is most poor that liveth without Jesus and he is most rich that is well with Jesus 3. It is a piece of great skill to know how to converse with Jesus and great wisdom to know how to keep Jesus Be humble and peaceable and Jesus will be with thee Be devout and quiet and Jesus will stay with thee Thou mayest soon drive away Jesus and lose his grace if thou turn aside to outward things And if thou shouldest drive him from thee and lose him unto whom wilt thou flie and what friends wilt thou then seek Without a friend thou canst not well live and if Jesus be not above all a friend unto thee thou shalt be too sorrowful and desolate Thou doest therefore foolishly if thou doest trust or rejoyce in any other It is better for thee to have all the world against thee than Jesus offended with thee Amongst all things therefore that be dear unto thee let Jesus alone be thy chiefest beloved 4. Love all for Jesus but Jesus for himself Jesus Christ alone is singularly to be beloved who alone is found to be good and faithful above all friends For him and in him let as well friends as foes be dear unto thee and all these are to be prayed for that all may know and love him Never desire to be singularly commended or beloved for that appertaineth only unto God who hath none like unto himself Neither do thou desire that the heart of any should be set on thee nor do thou set thy heart on the love of any but let Jesus be in thee and in every good Man 5. Be pure and free within and intangle not thy heart with any creature Thou oughtest to be as it were naked and to carry a pure heart to God if thou wouldest be free to consider and see how sweet the Lord is And truly unless thou be prevented and drawn by his grace thou shalt never attain to that happiness to forsake and cast off all that thou alone mayest be united to him alone For when the grace of God cometh unto a Man then he is made able for all things And when it goeth away he is poor and weak and as it were left only unto the lash and scourge of every adversary In this thou oughtest not to be dejected nor despair but to resign thy self with all indifferency unto the will of God and to bear all things that befal thee for the glory of Christ for after winter followeth summer after night cometh day and after a tempest fair weather CHAP. IX Of the want of all comfort IT is no hard matter to despise humane comfort when we have divine It is much and very much to be able to want both humane and divine comfort and for the Glory of God to be willing to endure desolation of heart and to seek himself in nothing nor to regard his own merit What great matter is it if thou be chearful and devout at the coming of grace This hour is wished for of all Men. He rideth easily enough whom the grace of God carrieth And what marvel if he feel not his burden who is born up by the Almighty and led by the soveraign guide 2. We are always willing to have something for our comfort and a Man doth hardly put off and forsake himself The holy martyr St. Laurence overcame the world with his Prelates because he despised whatsoever seemed delightsom in the world and for the love of Christ patiently suffered Sixtus to be taken from him whom he most dearly loved He overcame therefore the love of Man by the love of the Creator and he rather chose the divine good pleasure than humane comfort See thou also learn to forsake some necessary thing and a beloved friend for the love of God Be not grieved when thou art forsaken by a friend knowing that we all at length must be separated one from another 3. A Man must fight long and mightily with himself before he get the full victory over himself and be able to draw his whole heart in to God When a Man trusteth in himself he easily slideth unto humane comforts but a true lover of Christ and a diligent follower of virtue betakes not himself to humane comforts nor seeketh such sensible sweetnesses but rather hard exercises and to sustain great labors for Christ. 4. When therefore spiritual comfort is given thee from God receive it thankfully but know that it is the gift of God not any desert of thine Be not puffed up joy not too much neither do thou presume vainly but be rather the more humble for that gift and more wary and sollicitous in all thine actions for that hour will pass away and temptation will succeed When consolation is taken from thee despair not presently but with humility and patience wait for the Heavenly visitation for God is able again to give thee greater consolation This is not new nor strange unto them that have experience in the way of God for the great Saints and ancient prophets had oftentimes experience of such kind of vicissitudes 5. For which cause one under the enjoyment of divine favor said I said in my prosperity I shall never be moved But in the want of this he addeth what he found in himself saying thou turn'dst thy face from me and I became troubled Yet doth he not despair in the midst of these changes but more earnestly prayeth unto the Lord and saith Unto thee O Lord will I cry and I will pray unto my God Lastly he receiveth the fruit of his prayer and witnesseth that he was heard saying The Lord hath heard me and taken pity on me the Lord is become my helper But wherein Thou hast turned saith he my sorrow into joy and thou hast compassed me about with gladness If great Saints have been so dealt withal we that are weak and poor ought not to despair if we be sometimes fervent and sometimes cold for the Spirit cometh and goeth according to the good pleasure of his will For which cause blessed Job saith Thou visitest him early in the morning and suddenly thou provest him 6. Whereupon therefore can I hope or wherein ought I to trust but in the great mercy of God alone and in the only hope of heavenly grace For whether I enjoy the presence of good Men or religious brethren or faithful friends or holy Books or excellent treatises or sweet songs and hymns all these help little and have little savor when grace forsaketh me and I remain left in mine own poverty At such time there is no better remedy thà n patience and the ordering of my self according to the will of God 7. I never found any so religious and devout that hath not had sometimes a withdrawing of grace or felt not some decrease of zeal There was never Saint so highly rapt and illuminated who first or last was not tempted For he is not
God let him do therein as shall best please him Set thou thy self to suffer tribulations and account them the greatest comforts for that the sufferings of this life are not worthy of the glory which is to come although thou alone couldest suffer them all 11. When thou shalt come to this estate that tribulation shall seem sweet and savory unto thee for Christ then thou mayst think it is well with thee for thou hast found a Paradise upon earth As long as it is grievous to thee to suffer and that thou desirest to fly it so long shalt thou be ill at ease and the tribulation thou flyest will follow thee every where 12. If thou dost set thy self to that thou oughtest to wit to suffer and to die to thy self it will quickly be better with thee and thou shalt find peace Although thou shouldest have been rapt even unto the third Heaven with Paul thou art not for this secured that thou shalt suffer no adversity I saith Jesus will shew him how great things he must suffer for my name It remaineth therefore that thou suffer if thou wilt love Jesus and perpetually serve him 13. O that thou wert worthy to suffer something for the name of Jesus how great glory would it be unto thee what joy to all the Saints of God how great edification also to thy neighbor For all do commend patience though few desire to suffer With great reason thou oughtest to be willing to suffer a little for Christ since many suffer far greater things for the world 14. Know for certain that thou oughtest to lead a dying life And how much the more every one dyeth to himself so much the more doth he begin to live to God No Man is fit to attain unto Heavenly things unless he submit himself to the bearing of adversities for Christ. Nothing is more grateful unto God nothing more wholesome to thee in this world than to suffer willingly for Christ. And if it were in thy choice thou shouldest rather wish to suffer Adversities for Christ than to enjoy the delight of many comforts because hereby thou shouldest be more like unto Christ and more conformable to all the Saints For our worthiness and the proficiency of our spiritual estate consisteth not in many sweetnesses and comforts but rather in suffering great afflictions and tribulation 15. If there had been any better thing and more profitable to the health of Man than suffering surely Christ would have shewed it by word and example But he plainly exhorteth all the Disciples that followed him and all that desire to follow him to the bearing of the Cross and saith If any will come after me let him deny himself and take up his Cross and follow me So that when we have read and searched all let this be the last conclusion That by many tribulations we must enter into the Kingdom of God THE THIRD BOOK CHAP. 1. Of the inward Speech of Christ unto a Faithful Soul I Will hear what the Lord God will speak in me Blessed is the soul that heareth the Lord speaking in her and receiveth from his mouth the word of comfort Blessed are those ears that receive the sound of the divine voice and listen not to the whisperings of the world Blessed indeed are those ears that hearken not to the voice which soundeth outwardly but unto the truth which teacheth inwardly Blessed are the eyes that are shut to outward things but open to those things that are internal Blessed are they that enter into the inward things and endeavor to prepare themselves more and more by daily exercises to the attaining of Heavenly secrets Blessed be they that delight to converse with God and rid themselves of all worldly impediments 2. Consider these things my soul and shut up the door of thy sensual desires that thou mayest hear what thy Lord God speaketh in thee Thus saith thy beloved I am thy safety thy peace and thy life Keep thy self with me and thou shalt find peace Leave all transitory things and seek those that be everlasting What are all temporal things but deceiving snares And what do all creatures avail thee if thou be forsaken by the Creator Forsake therefore all earthly things and labor to please thy Creator and be Faithful unto him that thou mayest attain unto the true happiness CHAP. II. That truth speaketh inwardly without noise of words CHristian Speak Lord for thy servant heareth I am thy servant grant me unsterstanding that I may know thy testimonies Incline my heart to the words of thy mouth Let thy speech distil as the dew upon my soul. The Children of Israel in times past said unto Moses Speak thou unto us and we will hear thee Let not the Lord speak unto us lest we die Not so Lord not so I beseech thee But rather with the Prophet Samuel I humbly and earnestly intreat Speak Lord for thy servant heareth Let not Moses speak unto me nor any of the prophets but do thou rather speak my Lord God the inspirer and enlightner of all the Prophets for thou alone without them canst perfectly instruct me but they without thee can profit nothing 2. They indeed may sound forth words but they cannot give spirit and life they speak marvellous well but if thou be silent they inflame not the heart They may teach the letter but thou openest the sense They bring forth mysteries but thou unlockest the meaning of sealed things They declare thy commandments but thou helpest to fulfil them They shew the way but thou givest strength to walk in it They work only exteriorly but thou instructest and enlightnest the heart They water outwardly but thou givest fruitfulness They make a noise with words but thou givest understanding to the hearing 3. Let not therefore Moses speak unto me but thou my Lord God the everlasting Truth lest I die and prove unfruitful if I be warned outwardly only and not inflamed within lest the word heard and not fulfilled known and not loved believed and not observed turn to my condemnation Speak therefore Lord for thy servant heareth for thou hast the words of everlasting life Speak unto me to the comfort of my soul and to the amendment of my whole life and to thy praise and glory and everlasting honor CHAP. III. That the words of God are to be heard with humility and that many weigh them not CHrist. Son hear my words words of greatest sweetness excelling all the knowledg of the Philosophers and wise Men of this world My words are spirit and life not to be weighed by the understanding of Man They are not to be drawn to vain liking but to be heard with silence and to be received with all humility and great affection Christian. And I said Blessed is the Man whom thou shalt instruct O Lord and shalt teach thy law that thou mayest give him rest from the evil days and that he be not destroyed upon earth 2. Christ. I saith our Lord have taught the
Prophets from the beginning and cease not in these days to speak to every one but many are hardned and deaf to my speech The greater number do more willingly listen to the world than to God and follow sooner the desires of their flesh than the will of God The world promiseth temporal and small things and is served with great eagerness I promise most high and eternal things and the hearts of Men are nothing moved therewith Who is he that serveth and obeyeth me with equal care to that with which the world and the Lords thereof are served Blush O Sidon saith the Sea And if thou ask the cause hear wherefore For a little Prebend a long journey is undertaken for everlasting life many will scarce once lift a foot from the ground A thing of small value is sought after greedily for a penny sometimes there is foul contention sor a vain thing and sleight promise Men cease not to toil day and night 3. But alas for an unchangeable good for an inestimable reward for the highest honor and glory without end they are loth to take the least pains Blush therefore slothful and complaining Servant that they are found to be more ready to distruction than thou to life They rejoyce more in vanity than thou in the truth And yet they are sometimes frustrated of their hope but my promise deceiveth none nor sendeth him away empty that trusteth in me I will give that which I have promised I will fulfil that which I have said but to him that remains faithful in my love to the end I am the rewarder of all that are good and do try my devout servants with strong trials 4. Write my words in thy heart and think diligently of them for they will be very necessary in time of temptation What thou understandest not when thou readest thou shalt know in the day of visitation I am wont to visit my elect two several ways to wit with temptation and comfort And I daily read two lessons unto them one reprehending their vices another exhorting them to the increase of virtues He that hath my words and despiseth them hath within himself that shall judg him at the last day A prayer to implore the grace of devotion 5. O Lord my God thou art to me whatsoever is good Who am I that dare speak unto thee I am thy poorest servant and a most vile worm much more poor and contemptible than I can or dare express Remember yet O Lord that I am nothing and can do nothing Thou alone art good just and holy thou canst do all things thou doest all things thou fillest all things only the sinner thou sendest empty away Remember thy mercies and fill my heart with thy grace who will not that thy works be void and in vain 6. How can I bear up my self in this miserable life unless thou strengthen me with thy mercy and grace Turn not thy face from me delay not thy visitation draw not away thy comfort lest my soul become as the thirsty land unto thee Lord teach me to fulfil thy will teach me to live worthily and humbly in thy sight for thou art my wisdom thou dost truly know me and didst know me before the world was made and before I was born in the world CHAP. IV. That we ought to live in truth and humility before God CHrist. Son walk before me in sincerity and truth and ever seek me in simplicity of heart He that walketh before me in truth shall be defended from evil incursions and the Truth shall deliver him from seducers and from the detractions of the wicked If the Truth shall have made thee free thou shalt be truly free and shalt not care for the vain speeches of Men. Christian. Lord it is true According as thou saidst so I beseech thee let it be with me let thy Truth teach me and keep me and bring me safe to an happy end Let it deliver me from all evil affection and inordinate love and I shall walk with thee in great freedom of heart 2. Christ. I will teach thee saith the Truth these things that are right and pleasing in my sight Think of thy sins with great displeasure and grief and never esteem thy self any thing for thy good works Thou art in very deed a sinner thou art subject to and encumbred with may passions Of thy self thou always tendest to nothing thou art quickly cast down quickly overcome quickly troubled quickly dissolved Thou hast nothing wherein thou canst glory but many things for which thou oughtest to despise thy self for thou art much weaker than thou art able to comprehend 3. And therefore let nothing seem much unto thee whatsoever thou doest Let nothing seem great nothing precious and wonderful let nothing seem worthy of estimation nothing high nothing truly and commendable to be desired but that which is everlasting Let the eternal Truth above all things please thee Let thy own great unworthiness always displease thee Fear nothing blame and fly nothing so much as thy vices and sins which ought to displease more than the losses of any thing whatsoever Some walk not sincerely in my sight but led by a certain curiosity and pride will know my secrets and understand the high things of God neglecting themselves and their own salvation These oftentimes for that I resist them do fall into great temptations and sins for their pride and curiosity 4. Fear the judgments of God dread the wrath of the Almighty But discuss not the works of the highest Search thine own iniquities in how much thou hast offended and how much good thou hast neglected Some carry their religion only in Books some in pictures some in outward signs and figures Some have me in their mouths but little in their hearts There are others that being illuminated in their understandings and purged in their affection do always breath after things eternal and are unwilling to hear of the things of this world and do serve the necessities of nature with grief and these perceive what the Spirit of Truth speaketh in them because it teacheth them to despise Earthly and love Heavenly things to neglect the world and all the day and night to desire Heaven CHAP. V. Of the wonderful effect of divine Love CHristian I praise thee O Heavenly Father Father of my Lord Jesus Christ for that thou hast vouchsafed to remember me a poor Creature O Father of mercies and God of all comfort thanks be unto thee who sometimes with thy comfort refreshest me unworthy of all comfort I ever bless and glorifie thee with thy only begotten Son and the holy Ghost for ever and ever O Lord God the holy lover of my soul when thou shalt come into my heart all that is within me will rejoyce Thou art my glory and the exultation of my heart Thou art my hope and refuge in the day of my tribulation 2. But for that I am yet weak in love and imperfect in virtue I have need therefore
to be strengthened and comforted by thee visit me therefore often and instruct me with thy holy discipline Deliver me from evil passions and heal my heart of all inordinate affections that being cured within and well purged I may be made fit to Love strong to suffer and constant to persevere 3. Love is a great thing in very truth a great good which alone maketh every thing that is heavy light and beareth equally that which is unequal For it carrieth a Burden without a Burden and maketh every thing that is bitter sweet and savoury The noble Love of Jesus inforceth Man to do great things and stirreth him up to desire always what is most perfect Love will be aloft and not kept down with any base thing Love will be free and loose from all worldly affection to the end its inward sight be not prejudiced that it be not either entangled by any temporal prosperity or subdued by adversity Nothing is sweeter than Love nothing stronger nothing higher nothing more large nothing more pleasant nothing fuller nor better in Heaven or in Earth Because Love is born of God and cannot rest but in God above all Creatures 4. He that loveth flyeth runneth and rejoyceth he is free and not held in He giveth all for all and hath all in all for that he resteth in one Highest above all from whence all good floweth and proceedeth He respecteth not the gifts but turneth himself above all goods unto the giver Love oftentimes knoweth no measure but is inflamed above all measure Love feeleth no burden weigheth no pains desireth above its strength complaineth not of impossibility for that it thinketh all things lawful and possible It is therefore able to undertake all things and performeth and bringeth many things to pass whereas he that doth not Love fainteth and lyes down 5. Love watcheth and sleeping sleepeth not Being wearied is not tired straitned is not pressed frightned is not troubled But like a lively flame and burning Torch breaking upwards and securely passeth through all If any one loveth he knoweth what this voice cryeth A loud cry in the ears of God is the ardent affection of the Soul which saith My God my Love thou art wholly mine and I wholly thine 6. Enlarge me in Love that with the inward mouth of my heart I may taste how sweet it is to Love and to be melted and swim in thy Love Let me be possessed by Love mounting above my self with excessive fervor and admiration Let me Sing the Song of Love let me follow thee on high my Beloved let my Soul rejoycing through Love spend it self in thy Praise Let me Love thee more than my self and not my self but for thee and all in thee that truly Love thee as the law of Love commandeth which shineth out from thee 7. Love is swift sincere pious pleasant and delightful strong patient faithful prudent long-suffering manly and never seeking it self For where one seeketh himself there he falleth from Love Love is circumspect humble and upright not softly nor light not attending unto vain things sober chast constant quiet and guarded in all the senses Love is subject and obedient to Superiors mean and abject to it self devout and thankful unto God trusting and hoping always in him even then when God imparteth no sweetness unto it For without sorrow none liveth in Love 8. He that is not ready to suffer all things and stand to the will of his beloved is not worthy to be called a Lover A Lover ought to embrace willingly all that is hard and distasteful for his Beloved and not to turn away from him for any contrary accidents CHAP VI. Of the proof of a true Lover CHrist. Son thou art not yet a strong and prudent Lover Christian. Wherefore Lord Christ. Because thou givest over for a small adversity and too greedily seekest comfort A strong Lover standeth firmly in temptations and giveth not credit to the crafty perswasions of the enemy As I please him in prosperity so I am not unpleasant to him in adversity 2. A prudent Lover considereth not so much the gift of his Lover as the Love of the giver He rather esteemeth the good will than the value and placeth all gifts under his Beloved A noble Lover resteth not in the gift but in me above every gift All therefore is not lost if sometimes thou hast less taste of me than thou wouldest That good and sweet affection which thou sometimes feelest is the effect of present grace and a certain fore-taste of the heavenly Country whereon thou mayest not rely too much for it goeth and cometh But to fight against evil motions of the mind which may happen unto thee and to despise the suggestions of the Devil is a notable sign of virtue and shall have great reward 3. Let not therefore strange fancies forced into thee of any matter whatsoever trouble thee Retain a strong purpose and an upright intention to God Neither is it an illusion that sometimes thou art suddenly rapt on high and presently returnest again unto the accustomed vanities of thy heart For thou dost rather unwillingly suffer them than commit them and as long as they displease thee and thou strivest against them it is matter of reward and no loss 4. Know that thy antient enemy doth ever strive to hinder thy desire to good and to deliver thee from all religious exercise to wit from the devout memory of my passion from the profitable remembrance of thy sins from the guard of thine own heart and from the firm purpose of profiting in virtue He injecteth many evil thoughts into thy mind that he may cause a wearisomness and horror in thee to draw thee from Prayer and Holy reading Humble confession is displeasing unto him and if he could he would cause thee to cease from receiving the Sacrament Trust him not nor care for him although he should often set snares of deceit to intrap thee Charge him with it when he suggesteth evil and unclean thoughts unto thee Say unto him Away unclean Spirit blush miserable wretch thou art very unclean that bringest such things unto mine ears Away from me wicked deceiver thou shalt have no part in me But Jesus shall be with me as a strong Warrior and thou shalt stand confounded I had rather die and undergo any torment than consent unto thee Hold thy peace and be silent I will hear thee no more though thou shouldest work me many troubles The Lord is my light and my Salvation whom shall I fear If whole Armies should stand together against me my heart shall not fear The Lord is my helper and my redeemer 5. Fight like a good Soldier and if thou sometimes fall through frailty take greater strength than before trusting in my more abundant grace and take great heed of vain pleasing of thy self and of pride This brings many into error and makes them sometimes fall into almost incurable blindness Let the fall of the proud foolishly presuming of
good shall not be grounded in true joy nor enlarged in his heart but shall be many ways encumbred and straitned Thou oughtest therefore to ascribe nothing of good unto thy self nor attribute goodness unto any Man but give all unto God without whom Man hath nothing I have bestowed all and will that all be returned unto me again and with great strictness I require thanks 3. This is the truth that putteth to flight vain Glory and if heavenly grace and true Love enter in there shall be no envy nor straitness of heart neither shall there be any place for self-love For Divine Love overcometh all and enlargeth all the powers of the Soul If thou beest truly wise in me alone thou wilt rejoyce in me alone thou wilt hope For none is good but God alone who is to be praised above all things and to be blessed in all CHAP. X. That the World being despised it is a sweet thing to serve God CHristian Now I will speak again O Lord and will not be silent I will say in the ears of my God my Lord and my King that is on High Psal. 31. O how great is the abundance of thy goodness O Lord which thou hast laid up for those that fear thee But what art thou to them that Love thee What to them that serve thee with their whole heart Truly unspeakable is the sweetness of contemplating thee which thou bestowest on them that Love thee In this chiefly thou hast shewed me the sweetness of thy Love For that when I was not thou madest me and when I went astray far off from thee thou broughtest me back again that I might serve thee and hast commanded me to Love thee 2. O Fountain of everlasting Love what shall I say of thee How can I forget thee that hast vouchsafed to remember me even when I wasted away and perished Thou hast shewed mercy to thy Servant beyond all my expectation And hast exhibited thy favor and friendship beyond all merit What shall I return unto thee for this grace For it is not granted to every one to forsake all things to renounce the World and to undertake a life of Religious retiredness It is much that I should serve thee whom all Creatures are bound to serve It ought not to seem much unto me to serve thee but this rather seemeth much and marvellous unto me that thou vouchsafest to receive into thy service one so poor and unworthy and to joyn him with thy beloved Servants 3. Behold all is thine which I have and whereby I serve thee And yet contrarywise thou rather servest me than I thee Behold Heaven and Earth which thou hast created for the service of Man are ready at hand and do daily perform whatsoever thou dost command and this is little yea thou hast also appointed the Angels to the service of Man But that which excelleth all this is that thou thy self hast vouchsafed to serve Man and hast promised to give thy self unto him 4. What shall I give thee for all these thousands of benefits I would I could serve thee all the days of my life I would I were able at least for one day to do thee some worthy service Thou art truly worthy of all service of all honor and everlasting praise Thou art truly my Lord and I thy poor Servant that am bound to serve thee with all my might neither ought I ever to be weary of praising thee And this I wish to do this I desire and whatsoever is wanting unto me vouchsafe I beseech thee to supply 5. It is great honor a great glory to serve thee and despise all things for thee For great grace shall be given to them that shall willingly subject themselves to thy most holy service They shall receive the most sweet comfort of the holy Ghost that for thy love shall renounce all carnal delights they shall attain great freedom of mind that for thy names sake shall enter into the narrow way and shall have left off all worldly care 6. O sweet and delightful service of God by which Man is truly made free and holy O sacred state of religious employment which maketh Man equal to Angels pleasing to God terrible to Devils grateful and of great esteem to all the faithful O service to be imbraced and always wished for by which we obtain the greatest good and attain to that joy which never shall have end CHAP. XI That the desires of our heart are to be examined and moderated CHrist. Son thou oughtest to learn many things more which thou hast not well learned Christian. What are those Lord Christ. That thou frame thy desires wholly according to my pleasure and be not a lover of thy self but an affectionate follower of my will Thy desires oftentimes enflame thee and drive thee forwards with violence But consider whether thou art moved rather for my honor than for thine own profit If I be the cause thou wilt be well content with whatsoever I shall ordain But if there lurk in thee any self-seeking behold this is it that hindereth thee and weigheth thee down 2. Beware therefore thou lean not too much upon thy own preconceived desire without asking my counsel lest perhaps afterwards it repent thee and thou begin now to dislike that which before did please thee and which thou earnestly desiredst as the best For every affection that seemeth good is not presently to be followed nor every contrary affection at the first to be avoided It is expedient sometimes to use a restraint even in good desires and endeavors lest by importunity thou incurre distraction of mind and by thy want of self-government beget a scandal unto others or being gainsaid by others thou be suddenly troubled and fall 3. Yet sometimes thou oughtest to use violence and resist manfully thy sensual appetites and respect not what the flesh would or would not but rather to labor that even perforce it be subject to the spirit And it is to be chastised so long and to be forced under servitude until it readily obey in all things and learn to be content with a little and to be pleased with plain things and not to murmure against any inconvenience CHAP. XII Of patience and of striving against conoupiscence CHristian Lord God I perceive patience is very necessary unto me for that many adversities do happen in this life For howsoever I shall dispose of my peace my life cannot be without war and affliction Christ. So it is Son And my will is not that thou seek after that peace which is void of temptations or that which feeleth no contrariety but then think that thou hast found peace when thou art exercised with sundry tribulations and tried in many adversities 2. If thou say that thou art not able to suffer much how then wilt thou endure the Fire hereafter Of two evils the less is always to be chosen That thou maist therefore avoid everlasting punishment in the next World endeavor to suffer
deceived CHAP. XXI That we are to rest in God above all his gifts and benefits CHristian Above all things and in all things O my soul thou shalt ever rest in the Lord for he is the everlasting rest of the Saints Grant me O most sweet and loving Jesus to rest in thee above all creatures above all health and beauty above all glory and honor above all power and dignity above all knowledg and subtilty above all riches and arts above all joy and gladness above all fame and praise above all sweetness and comfort above all hope and promise above all desert and desire above all gifts and presents that thou canst give and impart unto us above all mirth and jubilee that the mind of Man can receive and feel lastly above Angels and Archangels and above all the Heavenly host above all visible and invisible things and above all that thou art not O my God 2. For that thou my Lord God art best of all thou alone art most high thou alone most powerful thou alone most full and sufficient thou alone most sweet and solacing thou alone most lovely and loving thou alone most noble and glorious above all things in whom all good things together both perfectly are and ever have been and shall be and therefore it is too little and not sufficient whatsoever thou bestowest on me besides thy self or revealest unto me of thy self or promisest whilest thou art not seen and not fully obtained for surely my heart cannot truly rest nor be fully contented unless it rest in thee and surmount all gifts and creatures whatsoever 3. O my most beloved Bridegroom Jesus Christ the most pure lover the governor of all creatures O that I had the wings of true liberty that I might flie and rest in thee O when shall it be fully granted me to consider in quietness of mind and see how sweet thou art my Lord God! When shall I fully gather up my self into thee that by reason of my love to thee I may not feel my self but thee alone above all sense and feeling in a manner not known unto every one but now I oftentimes sigh and bear my infelicity with grief for that many evils occurr in this vale of miseries which do often trouble grieve and overcloud me often hinder and distract me allure and intangle me for that I can have no free access unto thee nor enjoy thy sweet embracings wherewith thou ever favorest the blessed Spirits O let my sighs and manifold desolations on Earth affect thee 4. O Jesus the brightness of eternal glory and comfort of the pilgrim soul with thee is my tongue without voice and my very silence speaketh unto thee How long doth my Lord delay to come Let him come unto me his poor Servant and make me glad Let him put forth his hand and deliver miserable me from all anguish Come O come for without thee I shall have no joyful day nor hour for thou art my joy and without thee my table is empty A wretched creature I am and in a manner imprisoned and loaden with Irons until thou comfortest me with the light of thy presence and settest me at liberty and shewest a friendly countenance unto me 5. Let others seek what they please instead of thee but for me nothing else doth nor shall delight me but thou only my God my hope my everlasting salvation I will not hold my peace nor cease to pray until thy grace return again and thou speak inwardly unto me Christ. Behold I am here behold I come unto thee because thou hast called upon me Thy tears and the desire of thy soul thy humiliation and the contrition of thy heart have inclined and brought me unto thee Christian. And I said Lord I have called thee and have desired to enjoy thee being ready to refuse all things for thee For thou first hast stirred me up that I might seek thee Blessed be thou therefore O Lord that hast shewed this goodness to thy Servant according to the multitude of thy mercies 6. What hath thy servant more to say before thee but that he do greatly humble himself in thy sight always mindful of his own iniquity and vileness For there is none like unto thee in all whatsoever is wonderful in Heaven and Earth Thy works are very good thy judgments true and by thy providence all things are governed Praise therefore and glory be unto thee O wisdom of the Father let my mouth my soul and all creatures together praise and bless thee CHAP. XXII Of the remembrance of the manifold benefits of God CHristian Open O Lord my heart in thy Law and teach me to walk in thy Commandments Grant me to understand thy will and to remember thy benefits as well in general as in particular with great reverence and diligent consideration that henceforward I may be able worthily to give thee thanks But I know and confess that I am not able in the least point to give thee due thanks for the favors which thou bestowest upon me I am less than the least of all thy benefits and when I consider thy noble bounty the greatness thereof maketh my spirit to faint 2. All that we have in our soul and body and whatsoever we possess outwardly or inwardly naturally or supernaturally are thy benefits and do speak thee bountiful merciful and good from whom we have received all good things Although one have received more another less all notwithstanding are thine and without thee even the least cannot be had He that hath received greater cannot glory of his own desert nor extol himself above others nor insult over the lesser for he is greater and better that ascribeth least unto himself and is more humble and religious in rendring thanks And he that esteemeth himself vilest of all Men and judgeth himself most unworthy is fittest to receive great blessings 3. And he that hath received fewer ought not to be sorry nor take it grievously nor envy them that are enriched with greater store but attend rather unto thee and highly praise thy goodness for that thou bestowest thy gifts so bountifully so freely and so willingly without respect of persons All things proceed from thee and therefore in all things thou art to be praised Thou knowest what is fit to be given to every one and why this Man hath less and he more it is not ours but thine to judge who dost exactly know what is meet for every one 4. Wherefore my Lord God I esteem it as a great mercy not to have much of that which outwardly and in the opinion of Men might seem worthy of glory and applause so that he who considereth the poverty and unworthiness of his person ought not therefore to conceive grief or sorrow or to be therefore troubled but rather to take great comfort and to be glad for that thou O God hast chosen the poor and humble and the despised of this world for thy self and for thy familiar and domestick attendants
Witnesses are thy Apostles themselves whom thou hast made Princes in all the Earth And yet they lived without complaint in the world so humble and simple without all malice and deceit that they also rejoyced to suffer reproach for thy Name and what the world abhorreth they embraced with great affection 5. Nothing therefore ought so to rejoyce him that loveth thee and acknowledgeth thy benefits as thy will in him and the good pleasure of thy eternal appointment wherewith he ought to be so contented and comforted that he would as willingly be the least as any would wish to be the greatest and as peaceable and contented in the last as in the first place and as willing to be despised and contemned and to be of no esteem or account as to be preferred in honor before all others and to be greater in the world For thy will and the love of thy glory ought to be preferred before all things and to comfort him more and please him better than all the benefits which either he hath received or may receive CHAP. XXIII Of Four things that bring much peace CHrist. Son now I will teach thee the way of peace and true liberty Christian Do Lord I beseech thee as thou sayest for I shall be very glad to hear it Christ. Endeavor my Son to do rather the will of another than thine own Ever choose rather to have less than more Always seek the lowest place and to be inferior to every one Wish always and pray that the will of God may be wholly fulfilled filled in thee Behold such a Man entreth into the bounds of peace and quietness 2. Christian. Lord this thy short speech containeth much perfection It is little in words but full in sense and abundant in fruit For if it could faithfully be kept by me then should I not so easily be troubled For as often as I feel my self unquiet and afflicted I find that I have strayed from this Doctrine But thou that canst do all things and ever lovest the profiting of my soul increase in me thy grace that I may fulfil thy words and work out mine own salvation A Prayer against evil thoughts 3. My Lord God be not far from me my God have regard to help me for sundry thoughts have risen up against me and great fears afflicting my soul. How shall I pass through them without hurt How shall I utterly break them Christ. I saith he will go before thee and will humble the great ones of the earth I will open the Doors of the Prison and reveal unto thee hidden secrets Christian. Do Lord as thou sayest and let all my evil thoughts fly from before thy face This is my hope my only comfort to fly unto thee in every tribulation to trust in thee to call upon thee from my heart and to expect patiently thy comfort A Prayer for enlightning of the Mind 4. Enlighten me O good Jesus with a clear-shining inward light and drive away all darkness from the habitation of my heart Repress my many wandring thoughts and utterly break in pieces those temptations which violently assault me Fight strongly for me and vanquish those evil beasts I mean those inticing desires of the flesh that so peace may be obtained by thy power and that abundance of thy praise may sound in the holy Court of a pure conscience Command the Winds and Tempests say unto the Sea Be still and to the North Wind Blow not and a great calm shall ensue 5. Send forth thy light and thy truth that they may shine upon the earth for I am as the earth without form and void until thou enlighten me Pour out thy grace from above let thy Heavenly dew distil upon my heart supply fresh streams of grace to water the face of the Earth that it may bring forth good and excellent fruit Lift up my mind which is pressed down by the weight of sins Draw up my whole desire to Heavenly things that having tasted the sweetness of supernal happiness it may be irksome to me even to think of earthly vanities 6. Pluck me and deliver me from all the unlasting comfort of creatures for no created thing can fully comfort and quiet my desire Joyn me unto thee with an unseparable band of love for thou even alone dost satisfie him that loveth thee and without thee all things are vain CHAP. XXIV Of flying curious inquiry of the life of others CHrist. Son be not curious trouble not thy self with idle cares What is this or that to thee do thou follow me For what is it to thee whether that Man be such or no or whether this Man do or speak this or that Thou shalt not need to answer for others but shalt give account of thy self Why therefore dost thou trouble thy self Behold I know every one and do see all things that are under the Sun and do understand how it is with every one what he thinks what he would and at what his intention aims All things therefore are to be commited unto me but do thou keep thy self in good peace and let the unquiet be as unquiet as they will Whatsoever they shall have done or said shall fall upon themselves for they cannot deceive me 2. Be not careful for the shadow of a great name or for the familiarity of many nor for the private affection of Men for these things both distract and greatly darken the heart I would willingly utter my words and reveal my secrets unto thee if thou didst diligently observe my coming and didst open the Door of thy heart unto me Be careful and watch in prayer and humble thy self in all things CHAP. XXV Wherein the firm peace of the heart and true spiritual profiting consisteth CHrist. Son I have said Peace I leave with you my peace I give to you not as the world giveth give I unto you All do desire peace but all care not for those things that appertain unto true peace My peace is with the humble and meek of heart Thy peace doth consist in much patience If thou wilt hear me and follow my voice thou mayst enjoy much peace Christian. What then shall I do Lord Christ. In every thing attend unto thy self what thou doest and what thou sayest and direct thy whole intention unto this that thou mayst please me alone and desire or seek nothing besides me Of the sayings and doings of others judg nothing rashly neither do thou entangle thy self with things not commited unto thee and doing thus thou shalt be little or seldom troubled 2. But never to feel any trouble at all nor to suffer any grief of heart or body is not the state of this life but everlasting rest Think not therefore that thou hast found true peace if thou feelest no sorrow nor that then all is well if thou have no adversary nor that all is perfect if all things be done according to thy desire Neither do thou then esteem highly of thy self or account thy self to
Tongues of Men For whether they interpret well or evil thou art not therefore another Man Where is true peace and true glory Is it not in me And he that coveteth not to please Men nor feareth to displease them shall enjoy much peace From inordinate love and vain fear ariseth all disquietness of heart and distraction of the mind CHAP. XXIX How we ought to call upon God and bless him when tribulation draweth near CHristian Blessed O Lord be thy name for ever since it pleaseth thee that this temptation and tribulation should come upon me I cannot flie it but have need to flie to thee that thou mayest help me and turn it to my good Lord I am now afflicted and it is not well with me I am much troubled with this present suffering And now dear Father what shall I say I am caught amidst straits save me from this hour Yet therefore came I into this hour that thou mayest be glorified when I shall be greatly humbled and by thee delivered Let it please thee Lord to deliver me for poor wretch that I am what can I doe and whither shall I go without thee Grant patience Lord even this time also Help me my God and then I will not fear how grievously soever I be afflicted 2. And now in these my troubles what shall I say Lord thy will be done I have well deserved to be afflicted and grieved Surely I ought to bear it and O that I could bear it with patience until the tempest be passed over and it become calm But thy omnipotent hand is able to take even this temptation from me and to asswage the violence thereof that I utterly sink not under it as oftentimes heretofore thou hast done unto me O my God my mercy And how much the more hard it is to me so much the more easie is this change of the right hand of the most High CHAP. XXX Of craving the divine aid and confidence of recovering grace CHrist. Son I am the Lord that giveth strength in the day of tribulation Come unto me when it is not well with thee This is that which most of all hindereth Heavenly consolation that thou art slow in turning thy self unto Prayer For before thou dost earnestly pray unto me thou seekest in the mean while many comforts and delightest thy self in outward things And hence it comes to pass that all doth little profit thee until thou consider that I am he that delivers those that trust in me and that out of me there is neither powerful help nor profitable counsel nor lasting remedy But now thou having recovered breath after the tempest gather strength again in the light of my mercies for I am at hand saith the Lord to repair all not only entirely but also abundantly and in a very plentiful measure 2. Is there any thing hard to me Or am I like unto him that promiseth and performeth not Where is thy faith Be firm and constant Take courage and be patient comfort will come to thee in due time Wait wait for me I will come and heal thee It is a temptation that vexeth thee and a vain fear that affrighteth thee What else doth the care for future contingencies bring thee but sorrow upon sorrow Sufficient for the day is the evil thereof It is a vain and unprofitable thing to be grieved or to rejoyce for future things that perhaps will never come to pass 3. But it is incident to Man to be deluded with such imaginations and a sign of a weak mind to be so easily drawn away by the suggestion of the enemy For he careth not so he delude and deceive thee whether it be true or false which he proposeth whether he overthrow thee with the love of present or the fear of future things Let not therefore thy heart be troubled neither let it fear Believe in me and put thy trust in my mercy When thou thinkest thy self furthest off from me oftentimes I am nearest unto thee When thou judgest that almost all his lost then oftentimes the greatest advantage of gaining is at hand All is not lost when any thing falleth out contrary Thou must not judg according to that which thou feelest for the present nor so take or give thy self over to any grief from whence soever it cometh as though all hope of delivery were quite gone 4. Think not thy self wholly left although for a time I have sent thee some tribulation or withdrawn thy desired comfort for this is the way to the Kingdom of Heaven And without doubt it is more expedient for thee and the rest of my Servants that ye be exercised with adversities than that ye should have all things according to your desires I know the secret thoughts of thy heart and that it is very expedient for thy welfare that thou be left sometimes without taste of spiritual sweetness and in a dry condition lest perhaps thou shouldest be puffed up with thy prosperous estate and shouldest please thy self in that which thou art not That which I have given I can take away and restore it again when I please 5. When I give it it is mine when I withdraw it I take not any thing that is thine for mine is every good and every perfect gift If I send thee affliction or any Cross whatsoever repine not nor let thy heart fail thee I can quickly succor thee and turn all thy heaviness into joy Nevertheless I am righteous and greatly to be praised when I deal thus with thee 6. If thou be wise and considerest this rightly thou wilt never mourn so dejectedly for any adversity that befalleth thee but rather rejoyce and give thanks yea account this thy only joy that afflicting thee with sorrows I do not spare thee As my Father hath loved me I also love you said I unto my beloved Disciples whom certainly I sent not out to temporal joyes but to great conflicts not to honors but to contempts not to idleness but to labors not to rest but to bring forth much fruit with patience My Son remember these words CHAP. XXXI Of the contempt of all creatures to find out the Creator CHristian Lord I stand in need of yet greater grace that I may reach to that pitch as that nor Man nor any creature may be a let unto me For as long as any thing detains me I cannot freely take my flight unto thee He desired to fly freely that said Who will give me wings like a Dove and I will fly and be at rest What thing more quiet than the single eye And what more free than he that desireth nothing upon Earth Man ought therefore to pass over all creatures and perfectly to forsake himself and to remain in excess of mind and to see that thou the Creator of all things hast nothing amongst creatures like unto thee And unless a Man be freed from the affection of all creatures he cannot with freedom of mind attend unto divine things And for this
must be present and it must be seasoned with the sweetness of thy wisdom 2. What is not savory unto him to whom thou art pleasing And whom thou delightest not what can be pleasant to him But the wise of this world and they that relish the things of the flesh come short of thy wisdom for in the world is much vanity and in the flesh is death But they that follow thee by the contempt of worldly things and mortification of the flesh are proved to be truly wise For they are changed from vanity to truth from the flesh to the spirit These relish God and what good soever is found in creatures they wholly refer unto the praise of their Maker Notwithstanding great yea very great is the difference between the sweetness of the creator and of the creature of eternity and of time of light uncreated and of light enlightned 3. O thou everlasting light surpassing all created lights dart the beams of thy brightness from above which may pierce all the most inward parts of my heart purifie rejoyce enlighten and enliven my spirit with all the powers thereof that I may cleave unto thee with abundance of joy and triumph O when will that blessed and desired hour come that I may be filled with thy presence and thou mayest be unto me all in all As long as this is not granted me I shall not have full joy Alas the old Man yet liveth in me he is not wholly crucified he is not perfectly dead He doth as yet lust strongly against the spirit and stirreth up inward wars and suffereth not the Kingdom of my soul to be in peace 4. But thou that rulest the power of the Sea and stillest the rising of the Waves thereof arise and help me scatter the People that desire war destroy them in thy might display thy greatness and let thy right hand be glorified for there is no hope nor refuge for me but in thee my Lord God CHAP. XXXV That there is no security from temptation in this life CHrist. Son there is no security in this life as long as thou livest thou shalt always have need of spiritual armor Thou livest among enemies and art assaulted on the right hand and on the left If therefore thou defendest not thy self on every side with the shield of patience thou canst not be long unwounded Moreover if thou fix not thy heart on me with a sincere will to suffer all things for me thou canst not bear the heat of this battel nor obtain the triumphant reward of the Saints in bliss Thou oughtest therefore manfully to go through all and to use a strong hand against whatsoever withstandeth thee For to him that overcometh is manna given but for the negligent there remains much misery 2. If thou seekest rest in this world how wilt thou then attain to everlasting rest Dispose not thy self to much ease but to much patience Seek true peace not in Earth but in Heaven not in Men nor in any other creature but in God alone Thou oughtest for the love of God willingly to undergo all things even labors griefs temptations vexations anxieties necessities infirmities injuries detractions reprehensions humblings shame corrections and contempts these help to virtue these try a Novice of Christ these make the Heavenly Crown I will give an everlasting reward for a short labor and infinite glory for transitory shame 3. Thinkest thou that thou shalt always have spiritual consolations at will My Saints had not so but they had many afflictions and sundry temptations and many discomforts in all which they did bear up themselves patiently and trusted rather in God than in themselves knowing that the sufferings of this time are not condign to the deserving of future glory Wilt thou have that straightways which many after many tears and great labors have hardly obtained Wait upon the Lord do manfully be of good courage do not despair do not fly but with constancy expose both body and soul for the glory of God I will reward thee in most plentiful manner and I will be with thee in all thy tribulations CHAP. XXXVI Against the vain judgments of Men. CHrist. Son cast thy heart constantly upon God and fear not the judgment of Men when thy conscience giveth testimony of thy piety and innocency It is a good and happy thing to suffer in such a way neither will it be burdensome to an humble heart nor to him that trusteth rather in God than in himself The most part of Men are given to talk much and therefore little heed is to be given them neither is it possible to satisfie all Although Paul endeavored to please all in the Lord and made himself all things unto all yet with him it was a very small thing that he should be judged of Mans judgment 2. He did for the edification and salvation of others as much as he could and lay in him yet could he not hinder but that he was sometimes judged and despised by others Therefore he committed all to God who knew all and he defended himself with patience and humility against evil tongues and such as thought vanities and lies and spake what they listed Yet sometimes notwithstanding he answered lest the weak should be offended by his silence 3. Who art thou that fearest a mortal Man To day he is and to morrow he is not seen Fear God and thou shalt not need to fear the terrors of Men. What harm can the words or injuries of any do thee He rather hurteth himself than thee neither can he avoid the judgment of God whosoever he be Have thou God before thine eyes and contend not with complaining words And if for the present thou seemest to be worsted and to suffer shame without desert do not therefore repine neither do thou lessen thy crown by thy impatience but rather lift up thy eyes to me in Heaven who am able to deliver thee from all shame and wrong and to render to every one according to their works CHAP. XXXVII Of a full and pure resignation of our selves for the obtaining freedom of heart CHrist. Son forsake thy self and thou shalt find me Make no self respecting choice of any thing appropriate nothing to thy self and thou shalt ever be a gainer For greater grace shall be given thee when thou dost perfectly resign thy self and not turn back to take thy self again Christian. Lord how often shall I resign my self and wherein shall I forsake my self Christ. Always and every hour as well in little things as in great I do except nothing but do require that thou be naked and void of all things Otherwise how canst thou be mine and I thine unless both within and without thou be free from all self will And how much the sooner thou dost this so much the better it will be with thee and how much the more fully and sincerely thou doest it so much the more shalt thou please me and so much the more shalt thou gain 2.
Some there are that resign themselves but with some exception for they put not their whole trust in God and therefore they study how to provide for themselves Some also at the first do offer all but afterwards being assailed with temptations do return again to that which they had left and therefore they go not forward in the way of virtue These shall not attain to the true liberty of the pure heart nor to the favor of my sweetest familiarity unless they first make an entire resignation and a daily oblation of themselves unto me For without this there neither is nor can be the fruitive union with me 3. I have often said unto thee and now again I say the same Forsake thy self resign thy self and thou shalt enjoy much inward peace Give all for all seek nothing require back nothing abide purely and with a firm confidence in me and thou shalt enjoy me thou shalt be free in heart and darkness shall not have power over thee Let this be thy whole endeavor let this be thy Prayer let this be thy desire that being stript of all selfness thou mayest even nakedly follow naked Jesus and dying to thy self mayest live eternally to me Then shall all vain imaginations evil perturbations and superfluous cares fly away then shall immoderate fear leave thee and inordinate love shall die CHAP. XXXVIII Of good government in outward things and of recourse to God in dangers CHrist. Son thou oughtest with all diligence to procure that in every place and action or external business thou be inwardly free and Master of thy self and that all things be under thee and thou not under them that thou mayest be Lord and Master of thy actions not a servant or a hireling but rather a Free-man and a true Hebrew passing into the lot and freedom of the Sons of God who standing upon the things that are present view the things which are eternal who look on transitory things with the left eye and with the right do behold the things of Heaven whom temporal things cannot draw to cleave unto them but they rather draw temporal things to serve them and to be disposed by them in such a way as they are ordained by God and appointed by the Creator of all who hath left nothing in his creatures without due order 2. If thou remain stedfast in all events and dost not weigh by the outward appearance nor with a carnal eye the things which thou seest and hearest but presently in every affair dost enter with Moses into the Tabernacle to ask councel of the Lord thou shalt sometimes hear the divine Oracle and shalt return instructed concerning many things both present and to come For Moses had always recourse to the Tabernacle for the deciding of doubts and controversies and fled to the help of Prayer for a defence against the iniquity and dangers of Men. So oughtest thou in like manner to fly to the closet of thy heart earnestly craving the Divine favor For the Scripture testifieth that therefore was Ioshuah and the Children of Israel deceived by the Gibeonites because they asked not councel at the Mouth of the Lord but giving too lightly credit to their fair words were deluded with their counterfeit piety CHAP. XXXIX That a Man be not over-earnest in his affairs CHrist. Son always commit thy cause to me I will dispose well of it in due time wait for my ordering of it and thou shalt find it will be for thy good Christian. Lord I do most willingly commit all unto thee for my care can avail little O that I cleaved not too much to future events but offered my self with all readiness of mind to thy good pleasure 2. Christ Son oftentimes a Man doth earnestly labor for that which he desireth and when he hath gotten it he beginneth to be of another mind for Mans affections do not long continue fixed on one thing but do pass from one to another It is therefore no small thing for a Man to forsake himself even in the smallest things 3. The true spiritual profiting of a Man consisteth in the denying of himself and he that is thus resigned liveth in great freedom and security But the old enemy who always sets himself against all that are good ceaseth at no time from tempting but day and night lieth grievously in wait to cast the unwary if he can into the snare of deceit Therefore Watch and Pray saith our Lord that ye enter not into temptation CHAP. XL. That Man hath no good of himself nor any thing whereof he can glory CHristian Lord what is Man that thou art mindful of him or the Son of Man that thou visitest him What hath Man deserved that thou shouldest favor him Lord what cause have I to complain if thou forsake me Or if thou doest not that which I desire what can I justly say against it Surely this I may truly think and say Lord I am nothing I can do nothing I have nothing that is good of my self but in all things I am defective and do ever tend to nothing and unless thou help me and dost inwardly instruct me I become altogether cold and am dissolved 2. But thou O Lord art always the same and endurest for ever always good just and holy doing all things well justly and holily and disposing all things with wisdom But I that am more ready to go backward than forward do not ever continue in one estate for Seven times are passed over me yet doth it soon turn to the better when it so pleaseth thee and when thou vouchsafest to stretch forth thy helping hand For thou alone canst help me without the aid of Man and so strengthen me that my countenance shall be no more changed but my heart shall be turned to thee alone and there shall rest 3. Wherefore if I could once perfectly forsake all humane comfort either for the attaining of devotion or for mine own necessity which inforceth me to seek after thee for none else can comfort me then might I well hope in thy grace and rejoyce for the gift of new consolation 4. Thanks be unto thee from whence all proceedeth as often as it goeth well with me but I am mere vanity and nothing in thy sight and unconstant and weak Man Whereof then can I glory Or for what do I desire to be esteemed of Is it not even for nothing But this is most vain Truly vain glory is an evil plague and a very great vanity because it draweth Man from true glory and robbeth him of Heavenly grace For whilest a Man pleaseth himself he displeaseth thee whilst he gapeth after the praise of Men he is deprived of true virtues 5. But the true glory and holy rejoycing is for a Man to glory in thee and not in himself to rejoyce in thy Name and not in his own virtue or strength nor to delight in any creature but for thee Praised be thy Name not mine magnified be thy work not mine
is the help of Man How often have I been deceived finding want of faith where I thought it sure And how often have I found faith where I least expected it It is vain therefore to trust in Men but the salvation of the just O Lord is in thee Blessed be thou my Lord God in all things that befal us We are weak and inconstant quickly deceived and soon changed 2. Who is he that in all things so warily and circumspectly keeps himself that he never falls into any deceit or perplexity But he that trusteth in thee O Lord and seeketh thee with a single heart doth not so easily fail and if he fall into any tribulation be he never so much enthralled yet he shall quickly be either delivered or comforted by thee For thou wilt not forsake him for ever that trusteth in thee A friend is rare to be found that continueth faithful in all his friends distress but thou O Lord thou alone art most faithful at all times and there is none like unto thee 3. O how wise was that holy soul that said My mind is firmly settled and grounded in Christ If it were so with me then would not humane fear so easily trouble me nor the darts of words move me Who can foresee all things Who is able to beware before-hand of future evils If things even foreseen do oftentimes hurt us how can things unlooked for choose but wound us grievously But why did I not provide better for my self miserable Wretch Why also have I so easily given credit to others But we are Men nothing but frail Men although by many we are reputed and called Angles To whom shall I give credit Lord to whom but to thee Thou art the Truth that neither dost deceive nor can be deceived And on the other side Every Man is a liar weak unconstant and subject to fall especially in words and therefore we must not easily give credit even to that which in outward shew seemeth at the first to be right 4. O with what wisdom hast thou warned us to beware of Men And because a Mans foes are they of his own houshold not to give credit if one should say Lo here or Lo there I am taught to my cost and O that I might thereby encrease my care and not my folly Be wary saith one be wary keep to thy self what I tell thee and whilst I hold my peace and think it is secret he cannot keep that secret which he desired should be secret but presently discloseth me and himself and goeth his way From such tales and such indiscreet persons protect me O Lord that I fall not into their hands nor ever commit such things Give me to observe truth and constancy in my words and remove far from me a deceitful Tongue What I am not willing to suffer I ought by all means to avoid 5. O how good is it and tending to peace to be silent of others nor to believe promiscuously all that is said nor easily to report what we have heard to lay ones self open to few always to seek after thee who art the beholder of the heart not to be carried about with every wind of words but to desire that all things both within and without be accomplished according to the pleasure of thy will How safe is it for the keeping of Heavenly grace to fly the sight of Men and not to seek those things that seem to cause admiration abroad but to follow that will all diligence which bringeth amendment of life and zeal of godliness 6. To how many hath virtue known and over hastily commended been hurtful How profitable hath grace been kept with silence in this mortal life which is nothing but a temptation and a warfare CHAP. XLVI Of putting our trust in God when evil words arise CHrist. Son be constant and put thy trust in me For what are words but words They fly through the Air but hurt not so much as a stone If thou be guilty see that thou be not unwilling to amend thy self if thou be innocent resolve to suffer this willingly for the sake of God It is but a small matter to suffer sometimes a few words if thou hast not yet the courage to endure hard stripes And why do small matters go to thy heart but for that thou art yet carnal and regardest Men more than thou oughtest Because thou art afraid to be despised therefore thou wilt not be reprehended for thy faults but seekest the shades of excuses 2. But look better into thy self and thou shalt see that the world is yet alive in thee and a vain affection to please Men. For when thou shunnest to be humbled and reproved for thy faults it is evident that thou art neither truly humble nor truly dead to the world nor the world crucified to thee But give diligent ear to my words and thou shalt little regard Ten thousand words spoken by Men. Behold if all should be spoken against thee that could be most maliciously invented what would it hurt thee if thou sufferedst it to pass and madest no more reckoning of it than of a mote could all those words pluck as much as one hair from thy head 3. But he that hath no heart in him nor hath God before his eyes is easily moved with a word of dispraise when as he that trusteth in me and affects not to confide in his own judgment shall be free from humane fears For I am the Judge and the discerner of all secrets I know how the matter passed I know him that offereth the injury and him that suffereth it From me hath this proceded this hath happened by my permission that the thoughts of many hearts may be revealed I shall judge the guilty and the innocent but by a secret judgement I would before hand try them both 4. The Testimony of Men oftentimes deceiveth but my judgement is true it shall stand and not be overthrown It is commonly hidden and not known in every thing but to few notwithstanding it never erreth neither can it erre although to the eyes of the foolish it seems not right Men ought therefore to have recourse to me in every judgment and not to leave to their own opinions For the just Man will not be troubled whatsoever befalleth him from God and if any thing be wrongfully brought forth against him he will not much care neither will he vainly be glad if by others he be with reason excused For he considereth that I am he that searcheth the heart and reins and do judge not according to the outward face nor humane appearance For that is oftentimes found culpable in my sight that in the Judgment of Men is thought to be commendable 5. Christian. O Lord God the just judg strong and patient thou who knowest the frailty and pravity of Man be thou my strength and all my trust for mine own conscience sufficeth me not Thou knowest that which I know not and therefore in every reproof I
endeavor to apply my self to devotion and prepare my heart to obtain some small spark of divine fire by humble receiving of this enlivening Sacrament And whatsoever is hereunto wanting in me good Jesus most holy Saviour do thou supply for me most bountifully and graciously who hast vouchsafed to call us unto thee saying Come unto me all ye that labor and are burdened and I will refresh you 5. I indeed labor in the sweat of my brows I am vexed with grief of heart I am burdened with sins I am troubled with temptations I am intangled and oppressed with many evill passions and there is none to help me none to deliver and save me but thou O Lord my Saviour to whom I commit my self and all that is mine that thou mayest keep me and bring me to life everlasting Receive me to the honor and glory of thy Name who hast prepared thy Body and Blood to be my meat and drink Grant Lord God my Saviour that by frequenting thy mysteries the zeal of my devotion may increase CHAP. V. Of the dignity of this Sacrament and Ministerial function The voice of Christ. IF thou hadst Angelical purity and the sanctity of St. Iohn Baptist thou wert not worthy to receive this Sacrament For it is not within the compass of the deserts of Men that Man should consecrate the Sacrament of Christ and receive for food the Bread of Angels A great mystery and great is the dignity of the Ministers of God to whom is given that which is not given to the Angels It is proper for Ministers rightly instituted in the Church to have power to celebrate and consecrate the Body of Christ. The Priest is the Minister of God using the word of God by Gods Commandment and appointment but God is there the principal Author and invisible Worker to whom is subject all that he pleaseth and all that he commandeth doth obey 2. Thou oughtest therefore more to believe God Almighty in this most excellent Sacrament than thine own sense or any visible sign And therefore thou art to come unto this mystery with fear and reverence Consider attentively with thy self and see what that is whereof the Ministery is delivered unto thee by the imposition of the hands of the Bishop Behold thou art made a Priest and consecrated to celebrate see now that in due time thou doest this faithfully and devoutly and carry thy self so as thou mayest be without reproof Thou hast not lightned thy burden but art now bound with a straiter band of discipline and art obliged to a more perfect degree of sanctity A Minister ought to be adorned with all graces and to give example of good life to others His conversation should not be according to the ordinary and common course of Men but like to the Angels in Heaven or to perfect Men on Earth 3. A Minister is the Vicegerent of Christ to pray humbly with a prostrate mind unto God for himself and the whole People Neither ought he to cease from prayer till he obtain grace and mercy When a Minister doth celebrate he honoreth God rejoyceth the Angels edifieth the Church helpeth the living and maketh himself partaker of all good CHAP. VI. An interrogation of the exercise before Communion The voice of the Disciple WHen I weigh thy worthiness O Lord and my unworthiness I tremble and am confounded in my self For if I come not unto thee I fly from life and if I unworthily intrude my self I incur thy displeasure What therefore shall I do my God my helper and my counceller in necessity 2. Teach me the right way appoint me some exercise sutable to this holy Communion For it is good for me to know how I should reverently and religiously prepare my heart for thee for the profitable receiving of thy Sacrament or for the celebrating of so great and divine a Sacrifice CHAP. VII Of the discussing of our own conscience and purpose of amendment The voice of the beloved ABove all things The Minister of God ought to come to celebrate and receive this Sacrament with great humility of heart and lowly reverence with a full faith and a pious intending of the honor of God Examine diligently thy conscience and to thy power purge and cleanse it with true contrition and humble confession so as there may be nothing in thee that may be burdensome unto thee or that may breed in thee remorse of conscience and hinder thy free access Repent thee of all thy sins in general and in particular bewail and lament thy daily offences And if thou hast time confess unto God in the secret of thy heart all the evils of thy disordered passions 2. Lament and grieve that thou art yet so carnal so worldly so unmortified in thy passions so full of the motions of concupiscence so unwatchful over thy outward senses so often intangled with many vain fantasies so vehemently inclined to outward things so negligent in the interior so prone to laughter and immodesty so indisposed to tears and compunction so prompt to ease and pleasures of the flesh so dull to strictness and life of zeal so curious to hear news and see glorious sights so slack to imbrace what is humble and low so covetous of abundance so niggardly in giving so fast in keeping so inconsiderate in speeh so unbridled to silence so loose in manners so importune in action so greedy to meat so deaf to the word of God so hasty to rest so slow to labor so watchful to tales so drowsie to watch in the service of God so hasty to the end thereof so inconstant in attention so cold in Prayer so undevout in celebrating so dry in receiving so quickly distracted so seldom wholly gathered into thy self so suddenly moved to anger so apt to take displeasure against another so prone to judge so severe to reprehend so joyful in prosperity so weak in adversity so often purposing much good and yet performing little 3. These and other thy defects being confessed and bewailed with sorrow and great dislike of thine own infirmity make a firm purpose always to amend thy life and to endeavor still after a farther progress in holiness Then with full resignation and with thy whole will do thou to the honor of my Name offer up thy self a perpetual sacrifice on the Altar of thy heart faithfully committing thy body and soul unto me that so thou mayest come worthily to celebrate this Eucharistical sacrifice and to receive profitably the Sacrament of my body 4. For Man hath no oblation more worthy nor greater for the destroying of sin than to offer up himself unto God purely and wholly in the holy Communion And when a Man shall have done what lieth in him and shall be truly penitent and shall come to me for pardon and grace as I live saith the Lord who will not the death of a sinner but rather that he be converted and live I will not remember his sins any more but they shall be all
forgiven him CHAP. VIII Of the oblation of Christ on the Cross and resignation of our selves The voice of the Beloved AS I willingly offered up my self unto God my Father for thy sins my hands being stretched forth on the Cross and my body naked so that nothing remained in me that was not wholly turned into a sacrifice for the appeasing of the divine Majesty so oughtest thou also to offer up thy self willingly unto me every day as a pure and holy oblation with all thy might and affections in as hearty a manner as thou canst What do I require of thee more than that thou entirely resign thy self unto me Whatsoever thou givest besides thy self is of little account in my sight for I seek not any gift of thine but thy self 2. As it would not suffice thee to have all things whatsoever besides me so neither can it please me whatsoever thou givest if thou offerest not thy self Offer up thy self unto me and give thy self wholly for God and thy offering shall be acceptable Behold I offered up my self wholly unto my Father for thee and gave my whole body and blood for thy food that I might be wholly thine and thou remain mine But if thou abidest in thy self and dost not offer thy self up freely unto my will thy oblation is not entire neither will the union between us be perfect Therefore a free offering up of thy self into the hands of God ought to go before all thy actions if thou wilt obtain freedom and grace For this cause so few become inwardly free and illuminated for that they are loth wholly to deny themselves My saying is undoubtedly true unless a Man forsake all he cannot be my Disciple If thou therefore desirest to be my Disciple offer up thy self unto me with thy whole affections CHAP. IX That we ought to offer up our selves and all that is ours unto God and to pray for all The voice of the Disciple THine O Lord are all things that are in Heaven and in Earth I desire to offer up my self unto thee as a free oblation and to remain always thine O Lord in the simplicity of my heart I offer my self unto thee this day for a sacrifice of a perpetual praise to be thy Servant for ever Receive me with this holy oblation of thy precious body and may this be for my good and the good of all thy People 2. I offer unto thee O Lord all my sins and offences which I have committed before thee and thy holy Angels from the day wherein I first could sin to this hour upon thy merciful altar that thou mayest consume and burn them all with the fire of thy love and wash out all the stains of my sins and cleanse my conscience from all offences and restore to me again thy grace which I lost by sin forgiving me all my offences and receiving me mercifully to the kiss of peace 3. What can I do with my sins but humbly confess and bewail them and intreat always thy favor I beseech thee hear me graciously when I stand before thee my God All my sins are very displeasing unto me I will never commit them any more but I bewail and will bewail them as long as I live and am purposed to repent and according to my utmost power to please thee Forgive me O God forgive me my sins for thy holy Names sake save my soul which thou hast redeemed with thy most precious blood Behold I commit my self unto thy mercy I resign my self into thy Hands Do with me according to thy goodness not according to my wickedness and iniquity 4. I offer up also unto thee all whatsoever is good in me although it be very little and imperfect that thou mayest amend and sanctify it that thou mayest make it grateful and acceptable unto thee and always perfect it more and more and bring me also who am a slothful and unprofitable profitable creature to a good and blessed end 5. I offer up also unto thee all the godly desires of pious persons the necessities of parents friends brethren sisters and of all those that are dear unto me and that have done good either to my self or to others for thy love and that have desired and begged of me to pray for them and all theirs that they all may receive the help of thy grace and comfort protection from dangers deliverance from pain and being freed from all evils may joyfully give worthy thanks unto thee 6. I offer up also unto thee my Prayers especially for them who have in any thing wronged grieved or slandered me or have done me any damage or displeasure and for those also whom I have at any time sadded troubled grieved and scandalized by words or deeds wittingly or at unawares that it may please thee to forgive us all our sins and offences one against another Take O Lord from our hearts all jealousy indignation wrath and contention and whatsoever may hurt charity and lessen brotherly love Have mercy O Lord have mercy on those that crave thy mercy give grace unto them that stand in need thereof and grant that we may be counted worthy to enjoy thy grace and attain to life everlasting Amen CHAP. X. That the holy communion is not lightly to be forborn The voice of the beloved THou oughtest often to have recourse to the Fountain of grace and of divine mercy to the Fountain of goodness and of all benignity that thou maist be healed of thy sins and passions and be made more strong and vigilant against all the temptations and deceits of the Devil The enemy knowing the great good and advantage which comes by the holy Communion endeavoreth by all means and occasions to withdraw and hinder faithful and pious persons from it 2. Some when they purpose to fit themselves for the holy Communion suffer worse assaults of the Devil For that wicked spirit as it is written in Iob cometh amongst the sons of God to trouble them according to his accustomed malice or to make them over fearful and perplexed that so he may diminish their affection or by subtile assaults take away their faith to the end they may either altogether forbear the Communion or at least come unto it but coldly But there is no heed to be taken of his frauds and suggestions be they never so filthy and hideous but all is to be turned back upon his own head Thou oughtest to contemn and scorn him a miserable wretch and not to omit the holy Communion for his assaults and the troubles which he raiseth 3. Oftentimes also an excessive care for the obtaining such a degree of devotion and some anxiety about confessing thy sins hindereth thee Follow herein the counsel of the wise and put away all doubt and scruple for it is an hindrance to the grace of God and prejudiceth the devotion of the mind For every small vexation and trouble omit not the holy Communion but the sooner confess thy sins and willingly forgive others
there so famous as the Christian People or what creature under heaven so beloved as a religious soul to whom God himself cometh to feed her with his glorious flesh O unspeakable grace O admirable condescent O infinite love singularly bestowed upon Man But what shall I give unto the Lord in return of his grace for so eminent an expression of thy love There is no other thing more acceptable that I am able to give than to give my heart wholly to my God and to unite it most inwardly unto him Then shall all my inward parts rejoyce when my soul shall be perfectly united unto God Then he will say unto me if thou wilt be with me I will be with thee And I will answer him Vouchsafe O Lord to remain with me and I will gladly be with thee This is my whole desire that my heart be united unto thee CHAP. XIV Of the fervent desire of some devout Persons to receive the Body of Christ. The voice of the Discipie O How great is thy goodness O Lord which thou hast laid up for them that fear thee When I remember some devout persons who come unto thy Sacrament O Lord with greatest devotion and affection I am oftentimes confounded and blush within my self that I come so formally and coldly to thy Table of the holy Communion that I remain so dry and without heart affection That I am not wholly inflamed in thy presence my God nor so earnestly drawn and affected as many devout persons have been who out of a vehement desire of the Communion and a feeling affection of heart could not contain themselves from weeping but with the desire both of soul and body they earnestly longed after thee O God the living Fountain being not otherwise able to allay nor satisfie their hunger but by receiing thy body with all joy and spiritual greediness 2. O the most ardent faith of those persons A clear argument of thy sacred presence For they truly know their Lord in the breaking of bread whose heart burneth so mightily within them whilst thou O blessed Jesus conversest with them Such desire and devotion so vehement love and fervency is oftentimes far from me Be merciful unto me good Jesus sweet and gracious Lord and grant me thy poor needy creature to feed sometimes at least in this holy Communion somewhat of thy hearty affectionate love that my faith may be more strengthened my hope in thy goodness increased and that my charity once perfectly enflamed after the tasting of Heavenly Manna may never decay 3. Thy mercy O Lord is able to give me the grace I desire and to visit me most mercifully with the spirit of fervor when it shall please thee For although I burn not with so great desire as those that are so singularly devoted to thee yet notwithstanding by thy grace I desire to have this great inflamed desire praying and craving that I may participate with all such thy fervent lovers and be numbred among them in their holy company CHAP. XV. That the grace of devotion is obtained by humility and denial of our selves The voice of the Beloved THou oughtest to seek the grace of devotion instantly to ask it earnestly to expect it patiently and with confidence to receive it gratefully to keep it humbly to work with it diligently and to commit the term and manner of this Heavenly visitation to God until it shall please him to come unto thee Thou oughtest chiefly to humble thy self when thou feelest inwardly little or no devotion and yet not to be too much dejected nor to grieve inordinately God often giveth in a short moment that which he hath long time denied he giveth sometimes in the end that which in the beginning of prayer he deferred to grant 2. If grace should be always presently given and at hand ever with a wish the weak Man could not well bear it Therefore the grace of devotion is to be expected with good hope and humble patience yet impute it to thy self and thy sins when it is not given thee or when it is secretly taken away It is sometimes a small matter that hindereth and hideth grace from us if yet it be to be called small and not rather a great matter that hindereth so great a good And if thou remove this be it great or small and perfectly overcome it thou shalt have thy desire 3. For presently as soon as thou from thy whole heart givest thy self to God and seekest not this nor that for thine own pleasure or will but setlest thy self wholly in him thou shalt find thy self united and quiet for nothing will relish so well and please thee so much as the good pleasure of the divine will Whosoever therefore with a single heart lifteth up his intention to God and purgeth himself from all inordinate love or dislike of any created thing he shall be the most fit to receive grace and meet for the gist of devotion For the Lord bestoweth his blessings there where he findeth the vessels empty And how much the more perfectly one forsaketh these low things and the more he dieth to himself by contempt of himself so much the more speedily grace shall come and enter in more plentifully and raise up higher the heart that is thus free 4. Then shall he see and be filled and wonder and his heart shall be enlarged within him because the hand of the Lord is with him and he hath put himself wholly into his hands for ever Behold so shall the Man be blessed that seeketh God with his whole heart and busieth not his soul in vain This man obtaineth the great favor of divine union in receiving the holy Eucharist for that he respecteth not his own devotion and comfort but above all devotion and comfort the honor and glory of God CHAP. XVI That we ought to manifest our necessities to Christ and crave his grace The voice of the Disciple O Most sweet and loving Lord whom I now desire to receive with all devotion thou knowest my infirmity and the necessity which I endure with how many sins and evils I am oppressed how often I am grieved tempted troubled and defiled I come unto thee for remedy I crave of thee comfort and succor I speak to him that knoweth all things to whom all my inward parts are open and who can only perfectly comfort and help me Thou knowest what good things I stand in most need of and how poor I am in vertues 2. Behold I stand before thee poor and naked calling for grace and craving mercy Refresh thy hungry beggar inflame my coldness with the fire of thy love inlighten my blindness with the brightness of thy presence Turn all earthly things to me into bitterness all things grievous and cross into patience all low and created things into contempt and oblivion Lift up my heart to thee in Heaven and suffer me not to wander upon Earth Be thou only sweet unto me from henceforth for evermore for thou only
expeller of fear the nurse of devotion the mother of tears What am I without it but a withered piece of wood and an unprofitable stalk only meet to be cast away Let thy grace therefore O Lord always prevent me and follow me and make me ever diligent in good works through Jesus Christ thy Son Amen CHAP. LVI That we ought to deny our selves and imitate Christ by the Cross. CHrist. Son look how much thou goest out of thy self so much mayst thou enter into me As to be void of all desire of external things maketh inward peace so the forsaking of our selves inwardly joyneth unto God I will have thee learn the perfect leaving of thy self to my will without contradiction and complaint Follow me I am the Way the Truth and the Life Without the way there is no going aright without truth there is no knowledge without life there is no living I am the way which thou oughtest to follow the truth which thou oughtest to trust the life for which thou oughtest to hope I am the way inviolable the truth infallible the life which cannot end I am the most straight way the supreme truth the true life yea the blessed life the uncreated life If thou remain in my way thou shalt keep the truth and the truth shall make thee free and thou shalt lay hold on everlasting life 2. If thou wilt enter into life keep the commandments If thou wilt know the truth believe me If thou wilt be perfect sell all If thou wilt be my Disciple deny thy self If thou wilt possess a blessed life despise this present life If thou wilt be exalted in Heaven humble thy self upon Earth If thou wilt reign with me bear the Cross with me For only the Servants of the Cross find the way of bliss and true light 3. Christian. Lord Jesus forasmuch as thy way is narrow and contemptible unto the world grant me grace to imitate thee in suffering worldly contempt For the Servant is not greater than his Lord nor the Disciple above his Master Let thy Servant be exercised in thy holy life for therein my salvation and the true holiness doth consist whatsoever I read or hear besides it doth not recreate or delight me fully 4. Christ. Son now that thou knowest and hast read these things happy shalt thou be if thou do them He that hath my commandments and keepeth them he it is that loveth me and I will love him and will manifest my self unto him and will make him sit with me in the Kingdom of my Father Christian. Lord Jesus as thou hast said and promised so let it come to pass and grant that I may not wholly undeserve this favor I have received the Cross I have received it from thy hand I will bear it and bear it till death as thou hast laid it upon me Truly the life of a good retired person is the Cross but yet it is a guide to Paradise It is now begun it is not lawful to go back neither is it fit to leave that which I have undertaken 5. Let us then take courage my Brethren and go forwards together Jesus will be with us For Jesus's sake we have undertaken this Cross for Jesus's sake let us persevere in the Cross. He will be our helper who is our guide and forerunner Behold our King goeth before us who also will fight for us let us follow him manfully let none be dismaid but be we ready to die valiantly in the battle and let us not blemish our glory by flying from the Cross. CHAP. LVII That a Man be not too much dejected when he falleth into some defects CHrist. Son patience and humility in adversities are more pleasing to me than much comfort and devotion in prosperities Why art thou grieved for every little trifle spoken and done against thee Although it had been much more thou oughtest not to have been moved But now let it pass it is not the first that hath happened nor is it any new thing neither shall it be the last if thou live long Thou art manly enough as long as no adversity happeneth Thou canst give good counsel also and canst strengthen others with thy words but when any tribulation suddenly comes to thy door thou art destitute of counsel and strength See therefore thy great frailty which thou often hast experience of in every small occurrence It is notwithstanding intended for thy good when these and such like things befal thee 2. Put it out of thy heart the best thou canst and if it touch thee yet let it not deject thee nor trouble thee long bear it at least patiently if thou canst not joyfully Although thou be unwilling to hear it and conceivest indignation thereat yet restrain thy self and suffer no inordinate word to pass out of thy mouth whereby the little ones may be offended The storm which now is raised shall quickly be appeased and inward grief shall be sweetned by the return of grace I yet live saith the Lord and am ready to help thee and to give thee greater comfort than before if thou put thy trust in me and callest devoutly upon me 3. Be more patient and prepare thy self to greater suffering All is not lost if thou feel thy self often afflicted or grievously tempted Thou art a Man and not God thou art flesh not an Angel How canst thou look to continue ever in the same state of virtue when an Angel in Heaven hath fallen as also the first Man in Paradise I am he who will strengthen with health them that mourn and do raise up unto divine glory those that know their own infirmity 4. Christian. Lord blessed be thy word more sweet unto my mouth than the hony and the hony-comb What should I do in these my so great tribulations and straits unless thou didst comfort me with thy holy words What matter is it how much and what I suffer so as I may at length attain to the port of salvation Grant me a good end grant me a happy passage out of this world Be mindful of me O my God and direct me the right way to thy Kingdom Amen CHAP. LVIII Of not searching into high matters and into the secret judgments of God CHrist. Son beware thou dispute not of high matters nor of the secret judgments of God why this Man is left and that Man taken into so great favor why also this Man is so much afflicted and that Man so greatly advanced these things are beyond the reach of Man neither can any reason or disputation search out the judgment of God When the enemy therefore suggesteth these things unto thee or some curious people enquire of thee answer that of the Prophet Thou art just O Lord and thy judgment is right And again The judgments of the Lord are true and righteous altogether My judgments are to be feared not to be discussed for they are such as cannot be comprehended by the understanding of Man 2. In like manner I