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practice_n of_o that_o abjection_n he_o love_v for_o our_o sake_n in_o our_o thought_n and_o word_n we_o may_v do_v it_o but_o when_o any_o occasion_n of_o humiliation_n or_o suffering_n happen_v we_o make_v the_o brave_a pretension_n possible_a to_o be_v free_v from_o it_o even_o such_o who_o make_v a_o profession_n of_o devotion_n will_v suffer_v the_o want_n of_o nothing_o nor_o any_o injury_n from_o other_o they_o be_v for_o govern_v affair_n as_o they_o please_v without_o any_o subjection_n or_o dependence_n shun_v abjection_n because_o they_o think_v they_o can_v more_o glorify_v god_n by_o grandeur_n and_o reputation_n in_o the_o world_n this_o be_v a_o mere_a illusion_n of_o self-love_n and_o a_o vanity_n of_o nature_n which_o in_o every_o thing_n affect_v to_o be_v exalt_v and_o not_o to_o be_v humble_v not_o with_o stand_v let_v we_o think_v and_o say_v what_o we_o please_v what_o measure_n we_o have_v of_o the_o spirit_n of_o jesus_n christ_n be_v according_a to_o the_o degree_n of_o true_a mortification_n and_o self-denial_n we_o find_v in_o we_o he_o expect_v we_o shall_v honour_v his_o voluntary_a humiliation_n with_o the_o sacrifice_n of_o our_o pride_n now_o in_o a_o sacrifice_n the_o host_n immolate_a be_v destroy_v and_o deprive_v of_o its_o former_a be_v so_o that_o we_o must_v make_v a_o continual_a sacrifice_n of_o our_o reason_n and_o understanding_n of_o our_o will_n and_o inclination_n to_o the_o judgement_n and_o command_n of_o other_o of_o our_o reputation_n by_o a_o love_n to_o abjection_n of_o our_o good_n by_o poverty_n of_o our_o health_n and_o corporal_a satisfaction_n by_o pain_n and_o austerity_n in_o a_o word_n we_o must_v sacrifice_v all_o our_o natural_a inclination_n to_o the_o honour_n of_o god_n be_v as_o well_o content_a with_o adverse_a accident_n as_o prosperous_a success_n because_o the_o good_a use_n of_o humiliation_n be_v better_o for_o we_o than_o prosperity_n it_o be_v a_o excellent_a lesson_n we_o learn_v by_o the_o love_n of_o abjection_n but_o it_o be_v very_o hard_a to_o take_v out_o and_o without_o a_o continual_a look_v over_o be_v soon_o forget_v the_o virtue_n which_o consist_v in_o action_n be_v more_o easy_o practise_v less_o troublesome_a to_o we_o and_o more_o satisfactory_a to_o other_o but_o those_o that_o consist_v pure_o in_o suffer_v as_o humiliation_n patience_n abnegation_n be_v very_o difficult_a o_o jesus_n abject_a and_o humble_a infuse_v into_o my_o soul_n the_o science_n of_o saint_n and_o a_o relish_n of_o contempt_n of_o the_o world_n and_o i_o shall_v learn_v perfect_o the_o lesson_n of_o true_a humility_n which_o be_v above_o the_o apprehension_n of_o human_a reason_n our_o bless_a saviour_n sometime_o put_v we_o upon_o the_o undertake_n of_o certain_a good_a design_n whereof_o he_o will_v not_o the_o execution_n but_o the_o practice_n of_o many_o virtue_n which_o arise_v in_o their_o pursuance_n and_o fail_v of_o the_o desire_a issue_n nature_n be_v much_o 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render_v a_o marvellous_a homage_n to_o the_o son_n of_o god_n in_o the_o selfsame_a place_n where_o he_o suffer_v for_o we_o perhaps_o this_o glory_n be_v great_a in_o his_o sight_n than_o if_o the_o sword_n of_o st._n lewis_n have_v sacrifice_v all_o the_o infidel_n in_o palestine_n our_o weakness_n and_o imperfection_n be_v as_o ill_a tree_n because_o they_o can_v of_o themselves_o bring_v thing_n to_o maturity_n however_o they_o do_v not_o fail_v of_o bring_v forth_o fruit_n in_o the_o worst_a success_n by_o abjection_n humiliation_n and_o self-denial_n when_o we_o can_v do_v the_o good_a we_o will_v it_o be_v no_o small_a good_a to_o acknowledge_v our_o insufficiency_n and_o unworthiness_n when_o we_o be_v hinder_v from_o our_o usual_a recollection_n by_o some_o incommodity_n we_o may_v hope_v that_o one_o good_a hour_n of_o suffering_n and_o abjection_n with_o a_o content_a mind_n will_v prove_v better_o to_o we_o than_o a_o hour_n of_o prayer_n wherein_o perhaps_o we_o shall_v 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frailty_n be_v the_o profit_n we_o ought_v to_o make_v of_o our_o imperfection_n how_o profitable_a be_v the_o discovery_n of_o my_o misery_n to_o i_o see_v it_o make_v clear_a unto_o i_o all_o these_o verity_n this_o be_v the_o truth_n of_o it_o i_o be_o nothing_o but_o infirmity_n and_o corruption_n and_o more_o than_o i_o can_v comprehend_v and_o for_o the_o love_n i_o ought_v to_o have_v for_o truth_n by_o a_o voluntary_a acquiescence_n i_o love_v and_o adore_v divine_a providence_n which_o have_v bring_v i_o to_o the_o sight_n of_o my_o own_o nothing_o i_o acknowledge_v myself_o to_o be_v miserable_a and_o be_o please_v the_o world_n shall_v know_v it_o and_o use_v i_o according_a to_o this_o verity_n it_o be_v true_a also_o that_o we_o ought_v not_o to_o complain_v of_o whatsoever_o injury_n be_v do_v we_o by_o word_n or_o deed_n for_o it_o be_v always_o less_o than_o we_o deserve_v it_o be_v the_o law_n of_o christianity_n and_o a_o great_a truth_n that_o we_o ought_v to_o love_v abjection_n jesus_n have_v love_v it_o by_o his_o father_n order_n and_o he_o be_v the_o grand_a exemplar_n we_o must_v imitate_v it_o be_v true_a also_o that_o after_o our_o fail_n we_o ought_v to_o comfort_v ourselves_o with_o the_o love_n of_o abjection_n and_o make_v use_n of_o our_o infirmity_n to_o please_v 〈◊〉_d just_a as_o when_o a_o ship_n be_v break_v by_o a_o temâ—â—â—_n we_o get_v some_o shatter_v plank_a to_o save_v we_o 〈◊〉_d perish_v it_o be_v true_a also_o that_o since_o this_o lapse_n i_o perceâ—â—â—_n better_o than_o ever_o the_o bounty_n the_o power_n anâ—_n mercy_n of_o god_n towards_o i_o and_o all_o the_o divine_a perfection_n appear_v unto_o i_o beam_a forth_o more_o splendour_n of_o glory_n just_o as_o the_o moon_n never_o make_v more_o evident_a the_o dependence_n she_o have_v upon_o the_o sun_n than_o in_o eclipse_n it_o be_v true_a also_o that_o a_o soul_n sensible_a of_o her_o infirmity_n be_v content_a with_o her_o talon_n without_o disquiet_v herself_o to_o attain_v the_o perfection_n of_o great_a saint_n whereoâ—_n she_o acknowledge_v herself_o unworthy_a and_o if_o god_n be_v please_v to_o communicate_v unto_o her_o great_a grace_n she_o will_v not_o grow_v proud_a as_o well_o know_v she_o own_o weakness_n but_o rejoice_v in_o this_o that_o god_n thereby_o may_v be_v more_o honour_a it_o be_v true_a also_o that_o be_v convince_v of_o she_o own_o unworthiness_n she_o have_v no_o confidence_n in_o herself_o but_o in_o god_n alone_o to_o who_o entire_o she_o give_v up_o herself_o to_o deal_v with_o she_o as_o he_o please_v in_o mercy_n or_o justice_n she_o wonder_v not_o to_o see_v herself_o leave_v and_o abandon_v to_o sin_n because_o she_o know_v she_o deserve_v no_o better_a and_o then_o bless_v the_o divine_a mercy_n for_o not_o deal_v with_o her_o according_a to_o her_o merit_n it_o be_v true_a also_o that_o a_o soul_n grieve_v to_o have_v displease_v god_n will_v be_v content_a to_o be_v real_o reduce_v to_o her_o 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or_o death_n for_o time_n or_o eternity_n in_o this_o extreme_a weakness_n of_o body_n my_o soul_n find_v herself_o victorious_a and_o triumphant_a to_o see_v that_o fall_n of_o pain_n and_o herself_o full_a of_o love_n and_o instead_o of_o be_v compassionate_a seem_v to_o i_o to_o smile_v at_o these_o suffering_n this_o be_v a_o extraordinary_a effect_n of_o love_n that_o in_o this_o great_a weakness_n of_o body_n my_o soul_n keep_v up_o her_o strength_n and_o especial_o that_o the_o great_a pain_n of_o my_o head_n do_v not_o hinder_v she_o interiour_n occupation_n this_o disposition_n of_o love_n continue_v as_o long_o as_o my_o sickness_n and_o i_o entertain_v my_o friend_n with_o little_a consideration_n and_o i_o believe_v with_o too_o much_o talk_v fear_v now_o to_o have_v discover_v then_o too_o much_o those_o holy_a fire_n that_o inflame_v my_o heart_n and_o that_o self-love_n make_v i_o declare_v too_o free_o my_o inward_a feeling_n my_o thought_n now_o make_v i_o suspect_v this_o defect_n but_o be_v inebriate_v with_o love_n i_o say_v i_o know_v not_o what_o be_v like_o a_o drunken_a man_n that_o for_o a_o time_n forget_v his_o poverty_n and_o misery_n so_o in_o this_o disposition_n i_o forget_v my_o sin_n and_o extreme_a frailty_n and_o cast_v myself_o into_o the_o arm_n of_o love_n that_o i_o may_v be_v unite_v with_o my_o well-beloved_a and_o enjoy_v his_o reciprocal_a embrace_n i_o have_v a_o care_n to_o examine_v my_o conscience_n and_o confess_v my_o sin_n as_o a_o die_a man_n and_o set_v in_o order_n my_o temporal_a affair_n to_o pass_v to_o eternity_n find_v myself_o not_o able_a to_o give_v much_o to_o the_o poor_a it_o be_v a_o joy_n to_o i_o to_o die_v in_o poverty_n and_o i_o be_v as_o well_o content_a to_o give_v
action_n chap._n iii_o that_o the_o centre_n of_o the_o creature_n be_v his_o own_o nothing_o our_o bless_a saviour_n give_v i_o so_o clear_a a_o sight_n of_o my_o own_o nothing_o and_o unworthiness_n that_o i_o be_o convince_v this_o be_v the_o place_n of_o my_o abode_n which_o i_o neither_o can_v nor_o aught_o to_o abandon_v when_o it_o please_v god_n to_o vouchsafe_v i_o no_o heavenly_a influence_n in_o my_o prayer_n and_o recollection_n i_o have_v no_o cause_n to_o complain_v if_o the_o dew_n of_o heaven_n mollify_v my_o heart_n they_o only_o flow_v from_o his_o pure_a mercy_n o_o how_o well-pleased_a be_o i_o with_o this_o view_n of_o my_o own_o weakness_n and_o unworthiness_n in_o this_o i_o acquiesce_v as_o in_o my_o centre_n if_o it_o be_v your_o will_n my_o god_n to_o leave_v i_o in_o this_o place_n i_o be_o content_a for_o this_o be_v only_o belong_v to_o i_o provide_v you_o be_v in_o your_o place_n o_o my_o god_n it_o be_v enough_o that_o be_v to_o say_v in_o your_o own_o 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to_o enjoyment_n without_o have_v regard_n to_o her_o proper_a satisfaction_n chap._n xviii_o consideration_n upon_o the_o natural_a inclination_n we_o have_v to_o evil_n a_o stone_n hold_v in_o the_o air_n if_o let_v go_v fall_v natural_o to_o the_o ground_n by_o its_o own_o weight_n and_o it_o be_v no_o more_o matter_n of_o wonder_n when_o we_o fall_v into_o imperfection_n if_o god_n leave_v we_o to_o ourselves_o we_o be_v present_o in_o our_o own_o nothing_o weakness_n and_o infirmity_n and_o if_o the_o grace_n of_o god_n be_v not_o very_o great_a unto_o we_o we_o shall_v fall_v more_o often_o they_o may_v be_v think_v valiant_a who_o bear_v up_o stout_o against_o the_o blast_n of_o strong_a temptation_n alas_o take_v we_o at_o the_o best_a we_o be_v as_o frail_a as_o glass_n on_o a_o cupboard_n if_o some_o be_v soon_o break_v it_o be_v because_o they_o be_v more_o use_v and_o find_v in_o the_o hand_n of_o a_o ill_a manager_n those_o that_o stand_v still_o on_o the_o cupboard_n if_o 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continual_a propension_n to_o evil_a dear_a saviour_n when_o will_v you_o deliver_v i_o from_o the_o body_n of_o this_o death_n this_o be_v the_o desire_n of_o st._n paul_n which_o i_o take_v the_o courage_n to_o make_v be_v so_o much_o out_o of_o love_n with_o this_o miserable_a life_n the_o end_n of_o the_o first_o book_n book_n ii_o of_o the_o supernatural_a life_n which_o be_v the_o life_n of_o all_o true_a christian_n chap._n i._n the_o idea_n or_o description_n of_o the_o supernatural_a life_n we_o can_v never_o attain_v perfection_n by_o the_o sole_a conduct_n of_o human_a reason_n which_o be_v the_o light_n of_o philosopher_n faith_n be_v the_o light_n of_o christian_n which_o teach_v we_o to_o renounce_v the_o ratiocination_n of_o carnal_a prudence_n to_o follow_v in_o simplicity_n a_o jesus_n crucify_a to_o observe_v the_o commandment_n of_o god_n as_o
according_a to_o nature_n and_o must_v employ_v all_o mean_n and_o motive_n to_o this_o effect_n i_o will_v set_v down_o some_o of_o they_o it_o be_v a_o good_a motive_n or_o mean_n to_o renounce_v all_o creature_n and_o ourselves_o by_o a_o spirit_n of_o denudation_n say_v with_o great_a fervour_n and_o affection_n away_o creature_n get_v hence_o from_o i_o and_o leave_v a_o place_n in_o my_o heart_n for_o god_n alone_o 2._o it_o be_v a_o good_a motive_n to_o do_v this_o by_o a_o spirit_n of_o poverty_n for_o it_o be_v not_o possible_a to_o follow_v jesus_n poor_a and_o abject_a unless_o in_o due_a circumstance_n we_o be_v willing_a to_o leave_v all_o thing_n for_o jesus_n sake_n and_o become_v poor_a to_o follow_v he_o let_v we_o therefore_o be_v content_a to_o quit_v all_o thing_n joyful_o and_o be_v glad_a to_o have_v nothing_o to_o possess_v god_n himself_o alone_o 3._o '_o tisae_n good_a motive_n to_o die_v to_o all_o thing_n by_o a_o spirit_n of_o abjection_n what_o great_a happiness_n be_v there_o o_o my_o soul_n than_o to_o live_v in_o humiliation_n see_v this_o be_v the_o life_n of_o god_n upon_o earth_n to_o be_v despise_v with_o jesus_n be_v a_o state_n of_o beatitude_n worldly_n prosperity_n be_v a_o hindrance_n to_o our_o happiness_n 4._o it_o be_v a_o good_a motive_n to_o abandon_v all_o thing_n by_o a_o spirit_n of_o oblation_n sacrifice_v and_o annihilate_v ourselves_o sincere_o to_o pay_v homage_n to_o the_o infinite_a majesty_n of_o god_n with_o such_o a_o confidence_n in_o he_o so_o as_o to_o rely_v never_o more_o on_o any_o creature_n quid_fw-la enim_fw-la mihi_fw-la est_fw-la in_o caelum_fw-la aut_fw-la à _fw-la te_fw-la quid_fw-la volui_fw-la super_fw-la terram_fw-la deus_fw-la cordis_fw-la mei_fw-la o_o my_o god_n shall_v any_o creature_n take_v part_n of_o my_o heart_n with_o you_o when_o all_o be_v you_o if_o it_o be_v possible_a to_o love_v you_o too_o much_o i_o may_v give_v place_n to_o something_o else_o but_o see_v i_o be_o infinite_o below_o my_o duty_n in_o that_o particular_a what_o creature_n can_v pretend_v to_o have_v the_o least_o part_n with_o you_o chap._n ix_o of_o the_o liberty_n we_o enjoy_v by_o the_o exercise_n of_o the_o supernatural_a life_n it_o be_v wonderful_a to_o see_v the_o great_a liberty_n which_o a_o soul_n enjoy_v by_o the_o exercise_n of_o a_o supernatural_a life_n when_o the_o illumination_n of_o this_o state_n irradiate_a a_o soul_n thorough_o she_o enter_v into_o a_o new_a region_n of_o light_n full_a of_o peace_n and_o love_n marvellous_a large_a and_o spacious_a in_o which_o she_o live_v in_o high_a union_n with_o god_n a_o union_n which_o be_v not_o so_o liable_a to_o vicissitude_n and_o disturbance_n as_o former_o because_o accidental_a occurrence_n as_o sickness_n disgrace_n etc._n etc._n do_v not_o hurt_v such_o a_o soul_n by_o reason_n they_o make_v no_o strong_a impression_n in_o she_o and_o by_o consequence_n be_v become_v less_o sensible_a she_o be_v not_o easy_o 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herself_o in_o this_o high_a condition_n for_o oftentimes_o she_o must_v act_v according_a to_o her_o natural_a inclination_n and_o the_o dictate_v of_o pure_a reason_n which_o afford_v her_o matter_n of_o sigh_n and_o languish_n after_o her_o belove_a this_o be_v that_o which_o kindle_v in_o her_o breast_n a_o ardent_a desire_n to_o be_v dissolve_v and_o leave_v this_o earthly_a tabernacle_n wherein_o by_o the_o common_a misery_n of_o mankind_n she_o live_v a_o life_n displease_v to_o herself_o for_o be_v not_o whole_o for_o god_n as_o she_o desire_v it_o seem_v to_o her_o a_o kind_n of_o death_n and_o see_v she_o can_v continual_o live_v this_o supernatural_a life_n without_o vicissitude_n it_o be_v as_o it_o be_v a_o death_n unto_o she_o a_o death_n unknown_a to_o sensual_a man_n but_o such_o that_o be_v spiritual_a be_v very_o sensible_a thereof_o o_o jesus_n deliver_v i_o from_o this_o life_n of_o mortality_n see_v here_o i_o can_v live_v your_o life_n of_o purity_n in_o comparison_n of_o which_o all_o other_o life_n be_v but_o death_n and_o corruption_n to_o see_v so_o clear_o the_o excellency_n of_o a_o life_n so_o lovely_a and_o not_o to_o be_v able_a to_o live_v but_o little_a of_o it_o consider_v my_o frailty_n make_v i_o resent_v my_o misery_n and_o acknowledge_v dear_a jesus_n how_o necessary_a your_o grace_n be_v for_o i_o o_o how_o great_a be_v the_o dependence_n which_o my_o soul_n have_v on_o your_o mercy_n it_o be_v so_o mighty_a and_o essential_a dependence_n that_o word_n can_v sufficient_o express_v it_o however_o this_o comfort_v i_o herein_o that_o it_o give_v you_o all_o the_o glory_n of_o the_o interiour_n beauty_n in_o the_o soul_n which_o be_v a_o work_n more_o magnify_v your_o power_n bounty_n and_o wisdom_n than_o the_o whole_a outward_a work_n of_o the_o creation_n your_o great_a wonder_n dear_a saviour_n be_v secret_a and_o hide_a a_o soul_n that_o live_v this_o supernatural_a life_n above_o her_o inclination_n do_v more_o 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faithful_o to_o practice_n on_o the_o occasion_n of_o cross_n contempt_n and_o disgrace_n which_o happen_v to_o we_o in_o this_o life_n i_o ought_v daily_o to_o endeavour_v after_o purity_n although_o i_o can_v attain_v the_o high_a practice_n because_o the_o course_n of_o my_o life_n wherein_o god_n have_v place_v i_o will_v not_o permit_v it_o nor_o do_v exact_a of_o i_o to_o attempt_v of_o myself_o the_o grand_a effect_n of_o purity_n lest_o i_o shall_v be_v discourage_v by_o fail_v in_o the_o enterprise_n this_o be_v only_o the_o perfection_n of_o the_o great_a saint_n and_o herein_o we_o must_v give_v ourselves_o up_o to_o the_o conduct_n of_o the_o spirit_n of_o jesus_n christ_n who_o be_v infinite_o wise_a we_o need_v not_o fear_v have_v he_o for_o our_o leader_n but_o as_o we_o ought_v not_o to_o be_v too_o rigorous_a so_o we_o must_v not_o be_v too_o fainthearted_a in_o the_o way_n of_o perfection_n but_o apply_v ourselves_o with_o love_n and_o resolution_n to_o all_o occasion_n by_o suffer_v peaceable_o and_o with_o contentation_n whatever_o injury_n we_o may_v receive_v from_o other_o in_o seek_v too_o much_o their_o own_o interest_n all_o suffering_n be_v to_o be_v entertain_v with_o love_n but_o especial_o what_o we_o suffer_v by_o injustice_n for_o be_v not_o this_o that_o which_o the_o son_n of_o god_n have_v do_v principal_o upon_o earth_n by_o suffer_v innocent_o do_v not_o therefore_o say_v i_o will_v suffer_v this_o injury_n if_o he_o that_o do_v it_o have_v the_o least_o reason_n for_o it_o for_o this_o proceed_v from_o self-love_n and_o passion_n it_o may_v well_o be_v that_o he_o have_v no_o reason_n to_o do_v you_o this_o injury_n but_o divine_a reason_n and_o the_o spirit_n of_o christianity_n teach_v you_o to_o bear_v it_o patient_o it_o be_v good_a to_o suffer_v thus_o and_o in_o this_o to_o imitate_v jesus_n be_v
please_a to_o he_o and_o see_v this_o exercise_n of_o the_o supernatural_a life_n do_v bring_v with_o it_o a_o universal_a peace_n and_o this_o peace_n can_v be_v preserve_v without_o suffer_v content_o all_o injury_n whatsoever_o this_o excellent_a life_n do_v teach_v we_o holy_a patience_n now_o this_o patience_n preserve_v this_o peace_n and_o this_o peace_n bring_v with_o it_o a_o admirable_a liberty_n and_o resolution_n to_o mind_n principal_o the_o one_o thing_n necessary_a which_o be_v to_o give_v up_o ourselves_o to_o god_n and_o his_o direction_n chap._n x._o our_o great_a happiness_n on_o earth_n be_v to_o profess_v the_o way_n of_o christianity_n i_o have_v a_o great_a resentment_n of_o joy_n and_o thankfulness_n to_o see_v myself_o a_o member_n of_o christ_n church_n and_o in_o the_o number_n of_o the_o faithful_a i_o have_v a_o sensible_a taste_n of_o this_o happiness_n which_o be_v incomparable_a o_o my_o god_n what_o shall_v i_o return_v unto_o you_o for_o have_v 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lose_v the_o sight_n of_o the_o light_n of_o faith_n she_o will_v soon_o lose_v herself_o in_o the_o mist_n of_o self-love_n if_o she_o do_v not_o live_v in_o a_o continual_a mortification_n by_o curb_v her_o natural_a appetite_n she_o must_v needs_o fall_v into_o superfluity_n and_o imperfection_n the_o sweetness_n and_o joy_n that_o a_o soul_n receive_v from_o austerity_n cross_n poverty_n denudation_n of_o creature_n make_v her_o spiritual_a peaceful_a cheerful_a and_o afford_v her_o solid_a content_n and_o satisfaction_n the_o content_a and_o delight_n she_o receive_v from_o sensual_a pleasure_n though_o lawful_a as_o meat_n and_o drink_n temporal_a success_n reputation_n etc._n etc._n make_v she_o carnal_a and_o afford_v she_o but_o a_o false_a peace_n and_o vain_a joy_n and_o instead_o of_o elevate_a she_o to_o contemplation_n do_v more_o or_o less_o depress_v she_o to_o sensuality_n chap._n xi_o that_o truth_n be_v only_o find_v in_o the_o spirit_n of_o christianity_n the_o 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behold_v whither_o a_o soul_n be_v conduct_v who_o many_o think_v good_a for_o nothing_o o_o how_o the_o judgement_n of_o man_n be_v different_a from_o the_o thought_n of_o god_n let_v then_o every_o one_o honour_v god_n by_o the_o way_n and_o life_n that_o be_v proper_a for_o they_o otherwise_o they_o will_v fall_v into_o perturbation_n of_o spirit_n and_o be_v disquiet_v will_v become_v troublesome_a to_o themselves_o and_o other_o but_o this_o be_v not_o the_o work_n of_o a_o day_n we_o shall_v find_v it_o a_o hard_a task_n to_o become_v dead_a to_o the_o world_n and_o ourselves_o every_o state_n be_v good_a yea_o the_o most_o abject_a all_o grace_n be_v excellent_a yea_o the_o least_o and_o mean_a there_o be_v many_o sort_n of_o grace_n which_o we_o perhaps_o do_v not_o much_o value_n and_o yet_o be_v real_o to_o be_v more_o esteem_v than_o vision_n rapt_n or_o revelation_n to_o labour_v and_o suffer_v for_o god_n be_v of_o great_a worth_n than_o ecstasy_n it_o be_v a_o truth_n well_o enough_o know_v by_o many_o though_o practise_v but_o by_o few_o that_o a_o little_a matter_n hinder_v the_o operation_n of_o god_n grace_n in_o we_o one_o only_o small_a natural_a inclination_n unmortified_a suffice_v to_o retard_v our_o progress_n to_o perfection_n for_o this_o reason_n we_o must_v exact_o die_v to_o all_o creature_n annihilate_v in_o we_o every_o motion_n that_o tend_v not_o to_o god_n some_o way_n or_o other_o as_o for_o example_n to_o give_v no_o refreshment_n to_o the_o body_n by_o meat_n drink_z or_o sleep_v &c_n &c_n but_o for_o necessity_n we_o must_v also_o mortify_v in_o we_o the_o desire_n of_o honour_n and_o temporal_a commodity_n yea_o love_v abjection_n pain_n and_o poverty_n will_v nothing_o but_o what_o may_v conduce_v to_o advance_v god_n glory_n i_o more_o value_v the_o union_n of_o a_o soul_n with_o god_n in_o humiliation_n and_o suffering_n than_o in_o consolation_n chap._n xiii_o some_o maxim_n concern_v a_o supernatural_a life_n o_o god_n 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supernatural_a life_n 1._o we_o must_v accustom_v our_o body_n to_o austerity_n exercise_v it_o with_o love_a chastisement_n for_o our_o own_o transgression_n and_o the_o sin_n of_o other_o 2._o we_o can_v never_o attain_v to_o contemplation_n and_o a_o perfect_a love_n of_o the_o divinity_n but_o by_o pass_v first_o by_o jesus_n crucify_v poor_a and_o abject_a we_o see_v he_o poor_a and_o despise_a attend_v with_o few_o follower_n because_o we_o refuse_v to_o walk_v in_o those_o rough_a path_n he_o have_v set_v before_o we_o 3._o we_o must_v have_v a_o ardent_a love_n for_o solitude_n and_o recollection_n to_o the_o end_n we_o may_v be_v whole_o for_o god_n and_o correspond_v faithful_o to_o the_o inspiration_n of_o his_o holy_a spirit_n and_o although_o we_o ought_v to_o have_v a_o general_a indifferency_n to_o all_o state_n and_o call_v of_o god_n yet_o it_o be_v better_a to_o incline_v rather_o to_o retirement_n and_o solitude_n not_o mere_o to_o enjoy_v the_o sweetness_n thereof_o but_o that_o we_o may_v not_o be_v want_v to_o cooperate_v with_o the_o grace_n of_o god_n vouchsafe_v unto_o we_o holy_a solitude_n be_v the_o region_n of_o divine_a communication_n ducam_fw-la eam_fw-la in_o solitudinem_fw-la &_o loquar_fw-la ad_fw-la cor_fw-la ejus_fw-la say_v god_n by_o the_o prophet_n i_o will_v lead_v a_o soul_n into_o solitude_n and_o speak_v interior_o to_o her_o heart_n 4._o the_o reason_n why_o we_o see_v so_o few_o even_o devout_a christian_n make_v progress_n in_o perfection_n be_v because_o they_o limit_v the_o grace_n they_o have_v receive_v hinder_v its_o enlargement_n by_o natural_a argument_n and_o human_a prudence_n they_o say_v it_o be_v enough_o for_o i_o to_o do_v this_o or_o that_o i_o ought_v not_o to_o aspire_v to_o so_o high_a perfection_n those_o who_o live_v in_o the_o world_n can_v be_v so_o elevate_v in_o the_o way_n of_o god_n these_o and_o suchlike_a excuse_n they_o make_v which_o hinder_v the_o grace_n of_o god_n from_o work_v full_o what_o he_o intend_v if_o we_o do_v but_o consider_v the_o ardent_a desire_n that_o jesus_n have_v to_o advance_v soul_n in_o the_o way_n of_o divine_a love_n and_o how_o ready_a he_o be_v to_o bestow_v on_o we_o new_a grace_n upon_o our_o faithful_a correspond_v with_o the_o former_a we_o will_v be_v both_o ravish_v and_o ashamed_a also_o to_o be_v so_o backward_o in_o give_v ourselves_o up_o to_o the_o conduct_n of_o god_n who_o desire_v nothing_o so_o much_o as_o that_o we_o may_v love_v he_o perfect_o and_o enjoy_v he_o eternal_o but_o as_o while_o jesus_n be_v on_o earth_n it_o be_v say_v of_o he_o that_o the_o world_n know_v he_o not_o and_o his_o own_o receive_v he_o not_o for_o see_v he_o bear_v in_o a_o stable_a circumcise_a as_o a_o sinner_n live_v poor_o as_o a_o carpenter_n persecute_v accuse_v condemn_v to_o die_v a_o infamous_a death_n on_o the_o cross_n they_o will_v not_o take_v he_o for_o the_o promise_a messiah_n so_o as_o yet_o he_o be_v not_o well_o know_v and_o many_o christian_n themselves_o do_v not_o receive_v he_o nor_o let_v his_o spirit_n and_o maxim_n reign_v in_o their_o heart_n yea_o some_o who_o profess_v the_o way_n of_o perfection_n do_v not_o as_o they_o ought_v esteem_n and_o embrace_v his_o humiliation_n and_o abjection_n for_o we_o too_o much_o desire_v honour_n and_o preferment_n and_o too_o much_o fear_v abjection_n and_o suffering_n o_o my_o soul_n what_o have_v thou_o do_v hitherto_o not_o to_o have_v as_o yet_o begin_v this_o life_n crucify_v and_o annihilate_v i_o confess_v my_o folly_n and_o blindness_n o_o my_o god_n make_v i_o present_o to_o set_v upon_o it_o and_o let_v not_o any_o day_n pass_v over_o without_o the_o happiness_n of_o suffer_v something_o for_o your_o love_n chap._n fourteen_o what_o content_a a_o soul_n receive_v in_o a_o supernatural_a life_n we_o have_v oftentimes_o no_o need_n of_o any_o other_o care_n than_o to_o be_v faithful_a to_o a_o ordinary_a way_n of_o devotion_n without_o pretend_v to_o what_o be_v extraordinary_a and_o we_o have_v reason_n to_o fear_v that_o motion_n now_o and_o then_o to_o undertake_v a_o life_n of_o great_a perfection_n may_v proceed_v rather_o from_o a_o seek_n of_o our_o own_o excellency_n than_o a_o true_a desire_n of_o please_a god_n among_o these_o danger_n blindness_n and_o obscurity_n we_o stand_v in_o great_a need_n of_o the_o light_n of_o grace_n and_o conduct_v of_o some_o holy_a person_n who_o be_v able_a to_o discern_v what_o be_v best_a for_o we_o however_o put_v our_o confidence_n in_o god_n and_o live_v in_o a_o entire_a dependence_n on_o he_o we_o shall_v find_v peace_n and_o quiet_a of_o mind_n if_o we_o have_v desire_n for_o any_o thing_n let_v it_o be_v for_o such_o thing_n as_o jesus_n crucify_v desire_v for_o they_o be_v contrary_a to_o our_o natural_a inclination_n and_o though_o there_o may_v possible_o occur_v some_o self-seeking_a yet_o this_o be_v the_o way_n of_o grace_n inasmuch_o as_o the_o find_a of_o our_o soul_n be_v 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our_o soul_n tend_v to_o he_o as_o to_o her_o centre_n and_o sweet_a repose_n this_o repose_n work_v in_o she_o a_o will_n to_o give_v herself_o up_o whole_o to_o his_o ordination_n with_o a_o entire_a love_n this_o resignation_n when_o it_o be_v general_a and_o real_a indeed_o do_v powerful_o free_v she_o from_o the_o love_n of_o the_o world_n make_v her_o passive_a to_o the_o conduct_n of_o god_n and_o his_o holy_a attract_v and_o inspiration_n what_o good_a thought_n god_n send_v she_o in_o the_o morning_n she_o nourish_v all_o day_n long_o make_v use_n of_o they_o on_o all_o occasion_n and_o take_v from_o the_o hand_n of_o god_n whatever_o happen_v peace_n or_o trouble_n sweet_a or_o bitter_a rest_n or_o labour_n because_o it_o be_v god_n will_n who_o glorify_v himself_o by_o all_o event_n this_o carry_v a_o soul_n on_o to_o the_o practice_n of_o pure_a virtue_n chap._n ii_o the_o presence_n of_o god_n in_o the_o soul_n make_v we_o little_a value_n the_o absence_n of_o the_o creature_n i_o find_v my_o heart_n and_o soul_n so_o content_a in_o that_o god_n be_v inseparable_o unite_v to_o i_o that_o i_o be_o hardly_o sensible_a of_o the_o absence_n of_o my_o dear_a friend_n i_o know_v not_o when_o i_o shall_v suffer_v any_o thing_n for_o all_o mortification_n prove_v sweet_a unto_o i_o by_o reason_n of_o the_o abundant_a joy_n the_o presence_n of_o god_n afford_v unto_o i_o god_n be_v in_o i_o and_o i_o in_o he_o and_o nothing_o can_v separare_fw-la i_o from_z he_o because_o he_o be_v always_o present_a in_o i_o by_o his_o immensity_n which_o be_v his_o essence_n the_o thought_n hereof_o do_v so_o affect_v my_o heart_n that_o i_o value_v not_o the_o privation_n of_o all_o creature_n but_o rather_o i_o get_v this_o advantage_n in_o that_o methinks_v by_o their_o absence_n god_n be_v more_o intimate_o present_a with_o i_o and_o by_o how_o much_o the_o more_o i_o be_o elevate_v above_o all_o creature_n though_o some_o be_v holy_a person_n and_o dear_a to_o i_o 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that_o purity_n wherewith_o i_o ought_v to_o love_v he_o who_o be_v essential_o good_a and_o perfect_a i_o know_v god_n be_v a_o jealous_a god_n who_o will_v admit_v no_o rival_n in_o his_o love_n and_o that_o with_o great_a reason_n because_o he_o be_v only_o true_o amiable_a as_o our_o sovereign_a good_a o_o that_o he_o be_v love_v according_a to_o his_o beauty_n my_o soul_n be_v inflame_v with_o a_o great_a desire_n to_o disengage_v herself_o from_o all_o creature_n that_o i_o may_v whole_o be_v busy_v about_o god_n alone_o i_o see_v clear_o that_o this_o be_v my_o principal_n concern_v and_o not_o to_o meddle_v with_o other_o affair_n without_o necessity_n for_o a_o soul_n who_o god_n attract_v to_o a_o sublime_a union_n with_o himself_o must_v cut_v off_o abundance_n of_o superfluous_a thought_n discourse_n and_o occupation_n or_o else_o she_o will_v be_v liable_a to_o a_o thousand_o amusement_n for_o my_o part_n i_o often_o say_v to_o myself_o come_v my_o soul_n let_v we_o to_o 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work_v but_o according_a to_o the_o measure_n of_o our_o love_n to_o suffering_n which_o suffering_n for_o god_n wonderful_o unite_v we_o to_o he_o with_o the_o bond_n of_o perfection_n purity_n love_n suffer_v god_n what_o will_v we_o more_o if_o providence_n so_o order_n i_o shall_v free_o forsake_v my_o solitude_n though_o most_o dear_a to_o i_o i_o will_v endeavour_v to_o die_v to_o all_o thing_n to_o apply_v myself_o whole_o to_o god_n pleasure_n and_o sacrifice_n myself_o and_o whatever_o i_o have_v to_o his_o holy_a will._n have_v he_o a_o mind_n to_o reduce_v i_o to_o my_o first_o nothing_o if_o he_o will_v have_v it_o so_o i_o be_o content_a will_v he_o have_v i_o in_o a_o suffer_a condition_n he_o will_v be_v do_v neither_o will_v i_o complain_v but_o have_v recourse_n to_o jesus_n suffer_v for_o i_o on_o the_o cross_n and_o rest_v content_v with_o his_o good_a pleasure_n a_o soul_n that_o love_v god_n and_o his_o will_n more_o than_o the_o creature_n be_v content_a and_o peaceable_a in_o all_o event_n see_v faith_n assure_v she_o that_o the_o will_n of_o god_n be_v accomplish_v therein_o she_o embrace_v misery_n and_o affliction_n as_o proper_a mean_n for_o her_o sanctification_n and_o discover_v more_o clear_o therein_o the_o good_a pleasure_n of_o god_n then_o in_o prosperity_n o_o my_o soul_n we_o must_v now_o give_v ourselves_o to_o god_n in_o good_a earnest_n indeed_o by_o embrace_v contempt_n and_o poverty_n forsake_v the_o vain_a respect_n of_o the_o world_n and_o sensual_a delight_n to_o expose_v a_o penitent_a poor_a hide_a abject_a life_n so_o contrary_a to_o worldly_a man_n methinks_v hitherto_o i_o have_v have_v but_o idea_n now_o i_o desire_v to_o fall_v to_o the_o practice_n of_o perfection_n after_o the_o example_n of_o st._n elizabeth_n while_o she_o be_v a_o princess_n how_o do_v she_o abhor_v the_o life_n of_o worldling_n and_o what_o love_n have_v she_o for_o a_o poor_a abject_a life_n o_o my_o god_n when_o shall_v i_o give_v you_o the_o practice_n of_o so_o many_o excellent_a truth_n whereof_o you_o have_v give_v i_o the_o knowledge_n by_o heavenly_a illumination_n o_o my_o god_n speak_v powerful_a to_o my_o heart_n and_o make_v i_o faithful_a in_o my_o obedience_n take_v from_o i_o all_o other_o thing_n and_o attach_v i_o entire_o to_o your_o good_a pleasure_n chap._n xii_o we_o ought_v to_o comport_v ourselves_o with_o a_o respectful_a reverence_n in_o god_n presence_n a_o soul_n that_o see_v god_n present_a with_o she_o by_o the_o light_n of_o faith_n will_v often_o time_n feel_v in_o herself_o the_o great_a veneration_n she_o have_v for_o so_o infinite_a a_o majesty_n and_o benefactor_n she_o can_v but_o have_v a_o respectful_a regard_n for_o all_o the_o inspiration_n and_o secret_a advice_n conduce_v to_o perfection_n all_o good_a desire_n which_o come_v from_o god_n yea_o she_o have_v a_o reverence_n and_o love_n for_o cross_n that_o come_v from_o the_o hand_n of_o her_o sovereign_a good_a the_o soul_n in_o this_o state_n be_v peaceable_a and_o may_v so_o continue_v a_o long_a time_n o_o my_o soul_n remember_v this_o well_o and_o when_o any_o thing_n come_v into_o thy_o thought_n which_o thou_o believe_v to_o be_v a_o inspiration_n cherish_v it_o with_o great_a respect_n and_o be_v faithful_a to_o the_o design_n of_o god_n upon_o thou_o according_a to_o the_o measure_n of_o their_o manifestation_n o_o what_o irreverence_n will_v thou_o be_v guilty_a of_o not_o to_o be_v faithful_a in_o such_o case_n above_o all_o be_v content_a to_o look_v upon_o cross_n and_o humiliation_n with_o respect_n and_o love_n and_o hold_v thyself_o happy_a to_o be_v account_v worthy_a to_o suffer_v for_o christ_n sake_n vobis_fw-la datum_fw-la est_fw-la ut_fw-la in_o jesum_fw-la credatis_fw-la &_o pro_fw-la eo_fw-la patiamini_fw-la god_n be_v please_v to_o manifest_v to_o i_o with_o what_o disposition_n i_o ought_v to_o walk_v in_o his_o presence_n and_o in_o his_o way_n namely_o humility_n patience_n longanimity_n simplicity_n and_o purity_n when_o we_o find_v ourselves_o in_o good_a disposition_n of_o heart_n humility_n make_v a_o soul_n to_o esteem_v it_o high_o be_v it_o never_o so_o small_a and_o think_v herself_o happy_a to_o have_v it_o because_o she_o deserve_v nothing_o yea_o be_v rather_o worthy_a of_o eternal_a punishment_n this_o will_v free_v we_o from_o sadness_n and_o discouragement_n when_o we_o see_v other_o glitter_v with_o great_a grace_n and_o pull_v down_o our_o pride_n from_o exalt_v ourselves_o high_a than_o god_n will_v have_v we_o to_o be_v moreover_o by_o patience_n the_o soul_n be_v well_o compose_v and_o labour_n after_o perfection_n with_o courage_n and_o perseverance_n be_v the_o time_n never_o so_o long_o before_o god_n bestow_v on_o she_o the_o gift_n of_o prayer_n by_o longanimity_n the_o soul_n suffer_v and_o support_v herself_o in_o her_o defect_n and_o imperfection_n so_o that_o self-love_n shall_v not_o discourage_v she_o in_o her_o endeavour_n simplicity_n make_v she_o still_o to_o have_v a_o eye_n to_o god_n and_o to_o follow_v his_o conduct_n whereby_o at_o length_n she_o arrive_v to_o purity_n our_o chief_a work_n must_v be_v to_o do_v penance_n with_o all_o humility_n and_o if_o god_n give_v we_o not_o the_o gift_n of_o sublime_a prayer_n and_o eminent_a virtue_n to_o abide_v peaceable_a in_o that_o little_a we_o have_v and_o we_o shall_v find_v favour_n in_o the_o eye_n of_o god_n what_o we_o ordinary_o want_v be_v a_o noble_a generosity_n to_o support_v cross_n and_o surmount_v the_o contradiction_n we_o meet_v with_o from_o nature_n in_o the_o occasion_n of_o fidelity_n these_o difficulty_n make_v we_o timorous_a and_o fearful_a but_o we_o must_v be_v content_a to_o be_v feeble_a that_o the_o power_n of_o the_o grace_n of_o jesus_n christ_n may_v be_v glorify_v in_o we_o when_o i_o be_o weak_a then_o be_o i_o strong_a say_v st._n paul_n virtus_n in_o infirmitate_fw-la perficitur_fw-la this_o acknowledgement_n of_o 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indisposition_n of_o health_n i_o ought_v to_o value_v it_o and_o not_o forsake_v my_o usual_a devotion_n nor_o have_v recourse_n to_o such_o refreshment_n as_o satisfy_v sensuality_n but_o to_o take_v pleasure_n for_o once_o to_o make_v bold_a with_o my_o body_n that_o have_v often_o make_v bold_a with_o my_o soul_n notwithstanding_o this_o must_v be_v do_v with_o discretion_n 3._o i_o must_v rejoice_v at_o cross_n and_o difficulty_n which_o i_o meet_v withal_o as_o afford_v matter_n to_o practise_v many_o great_a virtue_n which_o prepare_v the_o soul_n for_o great_a grace_n and_o make_v her_o worthy_a of_o great_a love_n what_o god_n please_v to_o give_v oftentimes_o to_o his_o best_a friend_n in_o this_o life_n be_v fair_a occasion_n to_o suffer_v for_o christ_n sake_n by_o a_o generous_a renunciation_n of_o what_o the_o world_n most_o affect_v and_o nature_n most_o desire_n 4._o i_o ought_v to_o be_v strong_o persuade_v that_o i_o shall_v be_v so_o far_o rich_a in_o virtue_n as_o 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pap_n he_o return_v to_o the_o right_n and_o now_o will_v not_o quit_v it_o be_v grow_v wise_a by_o experience_n my_o soul_n thus_o find_v little_a help_n from_o the_o creature_n return_v present_o to_o the_o pap_n of_o providence_n and_o there_o abide_v i_o fear_v sometime_o to_o have_v too_o many_o consolation_n in_o prayer_n but_o this_o do_v satisfy_v i_o that_o god_n will_v have_v i_o live_v as_o a_o infant_n that_o stand_v in_o need_n of_o such_o comfort_n he_o make_v choice_n of_o other_o soul_n for_o great_a performance_n that_o regard_v his_o glory_n if_o a_o infant_n shall_v leave_v the_o bosom_n of_o his_o mother_n to_o do_v her_o service_n he_o will_v fall_v and_o hurt_v himself_o and_o do_v no_o good_a he_o must_v then_o let_v other_o work_n and_o be_v content_a with_o his_o mother_n embrace_n wherefore_o what_o i_o have_v to_o do_v be_v to_o stick_v close_o to_o god_n and_o let_v other_o travel_v in_o great_a affair_n as_o more_o grow_v up_o in_o grace_n in_o comparison_n 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kind_n of_o accident_n and_o nothing_o but_o the_o loss_n of_o abandon_v can_v afflict_v she_o you_o be_v admirable_a o_o my_o god_n you_o be_v admirable_a in_o your_o holy_a operation_n and_o assention_n that_o you_o make_v in_o soul_n who_o you_o conduct_v from_o light_n to_o light_v by_o your_o divine_a providence_n which_o be_v not_o know_v but_o by_o experience_n sometime_o it_o seem_v to_o i_o that_o the_o grace_n to_o love_v abjection_n be_v the_o high_a pitch_n but_o now_o i_o see_v that_o abandon_v mount_v the_o soul_n to_o a_o more_o elevate_a state_n o_o dear_a abandon_v thou_o doubtless_o will_v be_v the_o ultimate_a disposition_n i_o desire_v nothing_o but_o thou_o and_o death_n as_o the_o gate_n whereby_o to_o enter_v into_o a_o eternal_a abandon_v dear_a death_n how_o pleasant_a and_o lovely_a do_v thou_o seem_v unto_o i_o what_o allurement_n do_v i_o see_v in_o thou_o deliver_v i_o from_o my_o captivity_n that_o i_o may_v full_o enjoy_v my_o well-beloved_a however_o 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thou_o that_o be_v to_o say_v let_v thy_o care_n be_v to_o be_v lose_v in_o i_o and_o i_o will_v take_v order_n for_o thy_o affair_n such_o a_o soul_n do_v not_o spend_v much_o time_n in_o the_o thing_n of_o this_o life_n but_o in_o the_o praise_n of_o god_n her_o exercise_n be_v a_o pure_a consideration_n of_o divine_a providence_n in_o who_o arm_n she_o quiet_o repose_v herself_o fear_v nothing_o but_o infidelity_n chap._n fourteen_o how_o the_o perfect_a abandon_v of_o ourselves_o to_o god_n make_v we_o find_v a_o paradise_n upon_o earth_n so_o much_o as_o a_o soul_n be_v faithful_a to_o this_o abandon_v so_o much_o do_v she_o abound_v with_o consolation_n for_o she_o be_v content_a with_o the_o state_n wherein_o providence_n have_v put_v she_o and_o be_v well-pleased_n with_o all_o god_n ordination_n concern_v herself_o as_o be_v most_o for_o his_o glory_n and_o have_v a_o tender_a love_n for_o the_o decree_n of_o god_n will_n who_o from_o all_o eternity_n have_v determine_v to_o 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your_o son_n shall_v ascend_v into_o heaven_n without_o your_o company_n have_v not_o you_o as_o much_o right_a to_o follow_v he_o as_o the_o holy_a father_n detain_v in_o limbo_n they_o be_v his_o servant_n only_o but_o you_o his_o mother_n also_o and_o yet_o you_o remain_v upon_o earth_n to_o partake_v of_o misery_n and_o they_o mount_v to_o heaven_n to_o possess_v joy_n eternal_a and_o a_o crown_n of_o glory_n how_o different_a be_v this_o distribution_n your_o own_o dear_a son_n holy_a virgin_n vouchsafe_v to_o go_v to_o limbo_n to_o assist_v the_o holy_a father_n and_o carry_v they_o from_o thence_o with_o he_o and_o you_o who_o be_v so_o near_o he_o who_o have_v serve_v and_o accompany_v he_o during_o his_o mortal_a life_n even_o in_o his_o passion_n and_o ignominy_n now_o he_o be_v full_a of_o glory_n leave_v you_o here_o and_o what_o i_o more_o admire_v you_o amorous_o acquiesce_v in_o this_o abandon_v and_o be_v content_a to_o want_v his_o corporal_a presence_n with_o 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not_o thou_o to_o desire_v sole_o the_o will_n of_o god_n with_o a_o indifferency_n to_o all_o thing_n else_o if_o thou_o may_v choose_v thou_o ought_v rather_o to_o embrace_v desolation_n than_o consolation_n neglect_v and_o contempt_n than_o honour_n and_o endearment_n see_v jesus_n and_o mary_n have_v most_o love_v a_o suffer_a life_n but_o this_o perfect_a abandon_v this_o holy_a indifferency_n to_o any_o state_n this_o union_n with_o the_o good_a pleasure_n of_o god_n be_v yet_o a_o mine_n of_o great_a treasure_n it_o be_v the_o sublimest_n pure_a perfect_a disposition_n that_o can_v be_v in_o the_o soul_n it_o be_v of_o more_o worth_n than_o other_o disposition_n and_o they_o without_o it_o be_v of_o no_o value_n yea_o in_o some_o sort_n be_v but_o imperfection_n contemplation_n a_o desire_n to_o be_v charitable_a a_o will_v to_o help_v our_o neighbour_n in_o spiritual_a thing_n be_v good_a and_o holy_a disposition_n however_o god_n do_v not_o always_o require_v these_o of_o we_o 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above_o all_o thing_n a_o extreme_a horror_n of_o sin_n there_o be_v nothing_o of_o great_a concern_v to_o we_o in_o this_o world_n than_o to_o manage_v well_o our_o love_n and_o hatred_n to_o which_o passion_n our_o will_n principal_o owe_v her_o motion_n our_o love_n ought_v whole_o to_o be_v fix_v on_o god_n who_o be_v a_o infinite_a good_a and_o our_o final_a happiness_n our_o hatred_n ought_v to_o have_v no_o other_o object_n but_o sin_n which_o be_v a_o infinite_a evil_n and_o utter_a ruin_n of_o our_o soul_n love_n make_v all_o thing_n easy_a and_o what_o be_v do_v with_o great_a love_n be_v of_o great_a value_n in_o the_o sight_n of_o god_n who_o know_v to_o love_v cordial_o know_v how_o to_o do_v whatever_o god_n require_v of_o he_o see_v love_n include_v in_o it_o all_o perfection_n hatred_n also_o make_v all_o thing_n easy_a for_o from_o a_o torrent_n of_o hatred_n common_o flow_v a_o inundation_n of_o evil_n he_o who_o real_o and_o from_o his_o heart_n hate_v a_o infinite_a 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