sins behind thy Back It 's former feares are now set in Peace it's objections silenced it's doubts answered The Lord Jesus hath kissed it with the Kisses of his mouth and so given it information of his good liking intimation of his great love that now the Soul beginneth to hold up it's Head and to walk with some Heart refreshing confidence It saith now as the Philosopher 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 I have found I have found Jesus Christ the Pardon of my sins that I have long sought desired Prayed and been careful for O welcome day and warming season now the Sun of Righteousness ariseth upon me with healing under his Wings and this is the second or reflect Act of Faith the Faith of evidence which God usually giveth in the Work of Effectual Calling and first conversion to some more to some lesse with some he wholly undraweth the Curtain and letteth in the light fully upon them and granteth them such discoveries that Acts 7. 56. with Stephen they can say They see the Heavens opened and Jesus as Intercessour standing on the Right hand of God and with David Ps 30. 6. In my Prosperity I said I shall never be moved To others the Lord sheweth but his Back parts as it were in comparison of what some have before the Soul had Wormwood and Gall mingled with it's Drink But now it hath Nectar and Ambrosia the sweet Hony-dewes of grace distilled to refresh it and some but sip others have large draughts some but kisse the Cup of consolation others are permitted to drink more freely of the River of Psa 36. 8. these pleasures and are abundantly satisfied with the fatnesse of Gods House Some have more and some have lesse of these Apples these Flagons and with some this Sun-shiny day is longer with others shorter 11. Contrition Upon this there followeth S. 12 a further melting and dissolving of the Heart which ariseth from a more clear apprehension of Gods Love to the Soul in Christ Pardoning and forgiving it's many and mighty sins whence is it saith the Soul that the Lord should come thus to such an one as I am and then it 's Heart is affected with sorrow for it's sins against that God who it seeth did intend so great good to it sence of love drawes forth the Heart in a melting way for miscarriages Oh saith the Soul It is a lovely sweet precious gracious redeeming saving Christ that I have sinned against It is sorely troubled to consider and think that all it's sins have been against that God that Christ whose rich grace it hath so sweetly experienced in inviting drawing prevailing with it and forgiving it's sins This is a sweet showre a kindly lamenting an ingenuous mourning And converted Soules can say that this is as strong as any kind of mourning whatsoever though not so desperate yet as affectionate The Lord promiseth Zech. 12. 10. That they shall look upon him whom they have pierced and shall mourn for him and be in bitternesse as for ones first Born And there shall be a great mourning as the mourning of Hadadrimmon in the Valley of Megiddo Alluding to the great mourning that was for the losse of good King Josiah so when the Soul considereth that it is Christ that it hath pierced by it's sins it 's vain thoughts it 's wretched words sinful communication and gracelesse conversation then are the Floudgates of sorrow set open and it's heart-stings are turned to doleful Lacrymae in the highest pitch we have an instance of this nature Luke 7. 38. that poor Woman shed so many Teares that she washed Christs Feet with them and it is said she was a sinner and that in no mean degree Now it is judged and supposed that this Woman Burg. of justification pag. 269. 270. had already some sence of Pardon and comes to Christ for the increase of it and out of that sence of Pardon weeps and laments thus at Christs Feet for her many sins for many they were as Christ saith Vers 47. the goodnesse of the Lord leading her to Repentance so David in Psalm 51. sweetly expresseth his sorrow and repentance and this was after the Prophet Nathan had told him that his sins were Pardoned This I conceive to be the second part of Gospel repentance accompanying the Faith of evidence of which we spake before this sorrow is of great account with the Father these Teares are precious in his eyes he put 's them in his Bottel or rather Cabinet for Jewels 12. Conversation Lastly the soul Acts for S. 13 God walketh in the way of Holinesse path of sanctity and it's Face is set for Heaven now it begins to go upon it's Legs now all that it is and hath is set on work for God Now that it's Heart is enlarged by the grace of God it runs the way of his Commandements Now Ps 119. 32. it 's love Acts towards God The Virgins love thee Cantic 1. 3. It 's desire is after him it 's memory conversant about him The desire of our Soul is to thy name and to the remembrance of thee With my Soul have I desired thee in the night Isai 26. 8 9. We will remember thy love more than wine Cantic 1. 4. It 's thoughts and Meditations are of the best things The gracious Soul delights and Meditates in the Law Ps 1. 2. of the Lord day and night It 's Tongue speaks for God The mouth of the Righteous speaketh wisedom and his Tongue talketh of Judgement Psal 37. 30. It 's eares hearken to Gods counsels Thine eares shall hear a word behind thee saying this is the way walk ye in it Isai 30. 21. It 's eyes look off from evil and look on that which is good Turn away mine eyes from beholding Vanity Psa 119. 37. It 's hands Act for Gods glory It stretcheth not out it's hands to Ps 44. 20. a strange God In a word as before It yeelded its members Servants to uncleannesse and to Iniquity unto Iniquity even so now it yeelds its members Rom. 6. 19. Servants to righteousness unto Holiness These are the Fruits of the former workings of God upon the Soul the streames of that Fountain the Branches growing upon that Root assoon as the Soul is changed it changeth it's wayes it's works it's courses assoon as the Soul is thus hatched and fledged it gets upon the wing and away it flieth towards Heaven so it was with Paul assoon as ever he was converted and effectually called he is up and doing he Prayes is Baptized Preacheth and proveth Christ Act. 9. 11 20. Act. 22. 16. A Man or Woman when these workings have passed upon them manifest a change outwardly to Man as wel as inwardly to God Now are they running in the heavenly race labouring in the Spiritual Vineyard fighting the Christians fight doing the will of God keeping the sayings of Jesus Christ working out their Salvation with fear and trembling many pretend to have a
the seeds plant the slips of grace There is a latter spring but that is not so good In youth are the white houres the Golden seasons Marriages are most in younger time so are Spiritual Contracts with Jesus Christ David was good when young Daniel a young 1 Sam. 17. 23. Dan. 1. 3. 4. 1 Tim. 4. 12. 1 Sam. 2. 18. 1 Kings 4. 3 13. 2 Kings 22. 1 2. Discipulum minimum Christus amavit psurimum Eccles 3. begin Psal 92. â—3 1 Pet. 2. 5. Nullum tempus occurrit Regi Prophet Timothy a young Preacher Samuel began with God betimes Abijah good when a Child so was Jofiah John the youngest of Christs disciples and most beloved for he leaned on Christs bosome There is a season for every thing under the Sun saith Solomon then certainly for grace and Soul-affaires there is a time to be Spiritually born to be planted in the house of the Lord to kill the heart of sin to heal the hurt of the Soul to be built up a Spiritual house to lament for sin to laugh in a sence of Gods love to embrace Christ and refrain from embracing sin to love vertue to hate vice It is true as no place so no time can prescribe against the King of Heaven and Earth yet in this season doth the Spirit usually breed and bring forth its young This is Gods more common order which he can alter when he pleaseth and this time he seemeth to take for these reasons 1. The excellency of firstlings 2. The probability of a change 3. The necessity of service 1. The excellence of firstlings The Lord doth S. 3 this that he may have the first Fruits in which he delighteth First fruits are savoury meat such as the Soul of the Lord loves the first of our Estate our health the first of the day the first of Prov. 3. 9. the week the first of our life the first in regard of time in regard of dignity is to be the Lords In the time of the Law the Lord challenged the Exod. 34. 19 20 23. first of men of Beasts of the Fruits of the Earth How welcome is the Primerose to us because it cometh forth early ye creamy mornings and not the flotten afternoons are of great price we are loath to take into our services of those that have been worn up in others imployments and will the Lord think we accept of our drie bones when the Devil hath sucked R. Jun. out the Marrow as one saith wittily and yet this is the way of the world the common course The first and best not last and worst is to be given to God The morning rather than the evening the Spring rather than autumne Monday rather than Saturday our flourishing rather than our fading dayes are to be devoted to the Lord and such Sacrifices smel sweet in his nostrils The Lord loveth to be served in the first place to have the chief of our strength the choice of our ability The Lord 1 Cor. 7. 36. looketh upon it as uncomely behaviour to himself that we passe the flower of our age and never seek for Marriage with himself It is dearly delightful so purely pleasing to begin with wisedom when we begin with the world that a gracious promise is made to it I love them that love me and they that seek me early shall find me Prov. 8. 17. An early new heart is a rich Pearl timely grace finds great grace in the eyes of the Lord. God calleth and careth for early Piety the Blossomes Buds Fruit of Godlinesse in younger years is grateful to him a young man or woman green all over and putting forth the tender shoots of grace is Jehovah's darling a youth Saint or a Saint youth is the Benjamin the Son of the right hand of the most high his dearest Joseph as the apple of his eye written in his heart and wrought on the palmes of his hand by the engravings of love such indeed are his chosen his choice ones his loved his loving his lovely ones Thus then you see God is in love with early goodnesse to give grace at all times lieth in his hand to receive grace betimes lodgeth in his heart 2. The probability of a change This is the S. 4 second reason Young ones are more likely to be wrought upon grace in youth is most like to be grace in truth soon grace is likest to prove sound grace and early goodnesse hath a probability Quo semel est imbuta testa c. 2 Kings 22. 19. to become ever goodnesse the twigs of youth are more tender when the grown boughes of age are more tough young ones are more plain and simple when old ones are more plicated and subtle The heart is deceitful above all things and desperately wicked who can know it Jer. 17. 9. These words are a fit measure for the hearts of all for young hearts and old hearts are hard and naught but yet the older they grow the worse they grow and the more unlikely to be mended as the expression of the Holy-ghost doth warrant Can the Aethiopian change his skin or the Leopard his spots Then may ye also do good that are accustomed to do evil Jer. 13. 23. It is true the spirit of God knoweth the things of a man as well as his own spirit yea more of man than man doth of himself and hath line and lead wherewith it can sound and reach the profundity Jer. 17. 10. of wickedness and hath a clue wherewith it can find a way into the midst of the intricate labyrinth of mans deceitful heart notwithstanding all the windings and turnings that are in it The Lord hath a fountain wherein he can wash Black-moors white he hath soap and nitre wherein he can take out spots of the deepest stain yet aged inveterate customary sinners contract more rust more filth which calls for more rubbing more filing A tree long rooted may be pulled up yet with more ado than a plant of a years growth As Mr. Bridg. a godly Man illustrates this by Christs raising to life several that were temporally dead as Jairus his daughter to which sinners of the Matth. 9. 25. Luke 7. 14. lower form may be resembled and the widdows son of Naim who was carried forth to be buried to whom may be resembled such sinners as have broken out into more notorious wickednesse and have stood in the way of the ungodly and Lazarus who was laid John 11. 41 42. 43. in his grave and nigh unto stinking to whom may be resembled great sinners that have continued in their sins a great while all these Christ raiseth up one as well as other but with various dispensations the first with a touch of his hand the second with a work and a word a touch and a call the third and the last in a more solemn manner first speaking to his living father then to his livelesse friend and that not with a low but
and lie in the womb of effectual calling so that thou mayst hear the voice of the Lord saying to thee as Isaac to Esau concerning Jacob I have blessed thee and thou Gen 27. 33. shalt be blessed From this mount Nebo from this top of Pisgah mayst thou view all the good land round about without conversion no man or woman can be blessed for the promises which are the seeds of blessings are made to grace Knowing that ye are thereunto called that ye should inherit a blessing No inheritance 1 Pet. 3. 9. without this evidence If the forgivenesse of thy sins the favour of God to thy soul be not a blessing what is now the work of grace upon the heart is the stair the ascent to this throne of happinesse Thou canst not get up into the tree of life and shake soul-satisfying fruit into thy bosome without this ladder Thou canst not attain to saving weal without this sanctifying work Thou canst never get to the top of glory without the staff of grace viruled with the righteousnesse of Jesus Christ Thou canst not be a loved Son unlesse thou be a living Saint many fondly presume and think to commence and take the degree of glory per saltum neglecting grace but it is the path the way thereto such as meet not with God in their heart shall never meet with God in heaven Thou that hast grace hast that threed which will undoubtedly lead thee into the bowre of blisse This compasse will not fail thee but bring thee to the port where thou needest fear neither billow nor blast Thy patent is signed and past whereby heaps and numberlesse sums of felicity are freely given thee out of the Exchequer of grace This gale will bring thee to the Isle of peace upon Beatus vir qui per poenitentiam ad meliora conversus est this silver stream thou shalt with safety slide into the bosome of the quiet Key This is the way the road to all the Scripture calls beatitude The fee simple of true blessednesse is given to the godly pious truly penitent soul 6. The spring of action You are now in S. 9 such a condition that you can act and do something for God Now thou art indued with a spirit that is quick and active like the highest element that finds no rest but in travel nor contentment but in the painful labours of worthy actions To do for the Creator is as great dignity almost as the creature can attain to to be instrumental to his glory to be subservient to his praise is a great preferment To be agent for God to be factor for heaven is a choice flower in a Saints garden a chief diamond in his diademe Now thou hast a talent to trade for God with such a principle whereby thou canst act some suitable part in his service The Apostle beseecheth the Ephesians that they would walk Ephes 4. 1. worthy of the vocation wherewith they were called Those that have life can do the works of living men and women for their living God When we are sick then we think what we would do for God if we were well Thou that hast grace art spiritually well and hast ability from God to work the works of God The wicked can neither think speak nor do for God when thou canst do all these things through that grace that God hath bestowed upon thee It is true nobility and the only Summa apud Deum nobilitas est clarum esse virtutibus advancement of a man or a woman to be fruitful in good works and duties towards God Thou hast cause to account it thy glory and thy crown of rejoycing that thou hast an heart or hand to move towards or do ought for God Those that are in their sins are dead and can do nothing Thou that art a Saint art alive and canst do something Thou canst be a means to promote the glory to predicate the greatness of the Lord. To be able to pray read hear speak believe oppose sin stand up in the behalf of grace is more by far then to be endowed with talents and abilities for temporal and secular undertakings One action done for God from grace is of more worth then all the atchievements of the most eminent without grace When David and his people offered freely to the building of the Temple he was much affected and taken with it acknowledging that he and they were unworthy to be dignified with ability of doing thus for God 1 Chron. 29. 13 14. 7. A sign of affection To be delivered from the Law of sin is a demonstration of the S. 10 love of God To be made willing to good is a manifestation of God's good will The souls love to God is but an effect of God's love to the soul We love him because he first Prior Deus dilexit nos â—â—â—us tantum gratis tantillos tales loved us 1 John 4. 19. Now those that are effectually called do love God for the Apostle joyns them together Those that love God and that are the called according to his purpose Rom. 8. 28. If the Lord's heart had not been towards thee he would never have drawn thy heart towards himself Where the Lord hath been pleased to hang out this sign of grace and a change thou mayst assure thy self there is store of love in his bosome toward thee The work of spiritual life in thee is the fruit of God's working love to thee Had not the Lord loved thee he would never have done thus for thee what cause of comfort then is there to thee who hast the love of God transcribed upon thy heart gracious dispositions flow from God's gracious affections and those to whom the Lord giveth saving and sanctifying grace are his Benjamins his darlings Those that can make out that they are in a living condition may conclude God's loving inclination If the Lord have changed thy nature and renewed thy heart thou mayst look upon it as a love-token with this posey or inscription I love thee freely In these clear waters of grace thou mayst see the smiling serene face of heaven In this book thou mayst read whole Chapters of God's good will And is it not a comforting cordial to know that one is in God's books in his favour Be glad and rejoyce for the Lord loveth thee one dram of God's special love is such a pearl that the whole world is not able to weigh against The Angel in his salutation to Mary Luke 1. 28 30. saith Haile thou that art highly favoured the Lord is with thee So may it be said to thee If Christ and grace be conceived and formed in thy soul it is a sign thou hast found favour with the Lord. 8. A singular condition There is no estate S. 11 like to an estate of grace There are degrees of honour in the world but this above them all and the divine Heraldry will give it the first place The Apostle
ready to rise to do its pleasure 3. Submitting to trial A changed heart is S. 65 willing to be tried and searched and therefore David saith sweetly Search me O God and Psal 139. 23. know mine heart try me and know my thoughts It is a fine thing when one is willing to be searched by God or man Those that are in natural darkness care not for coming in to spiritual light bad wares and dark shops agree well together it is an argument they are too light who are loth to be put into the scale where there is a work of sanctification there is also a will to examination such are willing that their mettal should be tried by a true touch-stone they love to be dealt plainly withal by Christian friends by faithful Ministers Let the righteous smite me it shall be a kindness and let him reprove me it shall be an excellent oyl But thou canst not endure to be Psal 141. 5. Vsitatum generis humani vitium est peccatum commissum negando abscondere convictum defendendo excusare sifted and scanned thou art for excusation and not for examination thou lovest to be tickled rather then to be tried it is a sign they are spiritually scabby who love to be scratched Thou hast such a rotten skin thou canst not endure to be rubbed with a course cloth a searching Sermon is to thee like a bitter potion In your sickness you are angry with those that search you or question your estate and condition though you have often been stirred up to self examination yet you would never buckle to the work this shews you are not in an estate of grace 4. Confiding with fear The spiritual confidences S. 66 of such are mixt with spiritual fear their hopes are not haughty presumptions but humble expectations the flower of their assurance is beset with thorns of jealousie or else the wild beast of hell would soon break in and pluck it up They take the Apostle's counsel Be not high minded but fear They know they Rom. 11. 20. stand in God's favour yet they are afraid lest they fall they know they have grace yet they are jealous lest they lose it Thou that art all confidence and no care art more an hopeful than an holy Christian and hast cause to think thy estate not good Though they stand yet they take heed that they do not fall the fear which 1 Cor. 10. 12. they have is rather careful than despairing other mens confidences may have more of triumph but these thus tempered have more of truth those are not the confidences of converts that cause them to pluck up the hedge to leave open the doors yet such confidences must be the only symptomes of grace with many S. 67 5. It s moving towards God Such an heart is always in motion towards God as it hath its being from the Lord so its acting to the Lord. Its embleme may well be an heart with spread and extended wings flying towards heaven and this its Motto Sursum corda heaven-ward hearts It is continually rising and soaring towards heaven in its thoughts and meditations Through grace it can say as the Church of God The desire of our soul is to thy name and to the remembrance of thee with my Isa 26. 8 9. Quocunque tempore non cogita veris Deum puta te tempus illud amisisse soul have I desired thee in the night yea with my spirit within me will I seek thee early Thales defined the soul to be a nature moving always it is most true of the soul that is in an estate of grace such an heart longs for God and lives with God that time it accounts lost in which its thoughts are not lift upwards heavenly concernments are the subject of its thoughts it is always stirring for God and his glory thinking desiring wishing contemplating contriving resolving about heavenly matters but as for thee thine heart is like a piece of lead it stirreth not to that which is good but lively enough in its motions towards evil and sin as its center the thoughts thereof are like the eyes Prov. 17. 24. of the fool which are in the ends of the earth It is a strange thing with thine heart to look upward or to take a few steps up the hill of holiness towards the Lord thou sittest upon the roost of thy carnal contentments all the week long and never offerest once to get upon the wing to the region of glory to the presence of God 6. It s affecting There is never an one that truly S. 68 lives but truly loves 1. The Word of God 2. The Son of God 1. The Word of God Such have an entire S. 69 love to the word As new born babes desire the sincere milk of the word And to the Ministers 1 Pet. 2. 2. thereof I say not how thou owest unto me even thine own self Dolphins they say love musick Phil. 19. so do these the musick of the word they pant and breath after these fresh streams the word is the joy of their hearts the delight of their souls nothing is more pleasing to them then the hearing reading or meditating thereon Psal 1. 2. Dulcis est pluvia illa dulce est verbum Dei but thou that findest little savour in the word mayst fear thou never hadst a saving work They account the word worth a world but thou hardly worth the waiting on it is their pleasure but thy pain to be much conversant about it Thou loathest this choice manna but they love it as a chief mercy 2. The Son of God Sons of God love the S. 70 Son of God their heart cleaveth unto him he is the only pearl in their eye the bowels of a convert yern toward Christ the stream of their love runs toward this Sea Jesus Christ lieth next their heart He shall lie all night betwixt Cant. 1. 13. Felix conscientia illa in cujus corde praeter amorem Christi nullus alius versatur amor Col. 3. 1. my brests Christ hath the throne in their hearts and though they love other things in subordination to him yet nothing in co-ordination with him The flames of their affections ascend towards heaven where Christ sitteth at the right hand of God They bear such love to him that they could willingly part with their lives for him and their love is upon this twofold account and leans upon these two pillars 1. His perfection in himself 2. His affection to them 1. The perfection in himself There is an S. 71 absolute and incomparable perfection and excellency in Christ and this is the load-stone of their affections this is that which inamoureth and taketh their souls it is his rarity that ravisheth them his dignity that draweth them his worth that wins them He is the Cant. 5. 10. chiefest among ten thousand There is not the least blemish or defect in him he is above beyond men and
Angels he is like the Soveraign among his subjects the Sun among the Planets there is nothing in him but is a strong motive to love and a powerful invitation to affection 2. His affection to them They consider how S. 72 Christ hath loved them and this kindles the fire in their hearts that they cannot but love him again they have received love from him and this makes them render love to him He descended to earth out of love to the sons of Ama amorem illius qui amore tui descendit in uterum virginis 1 Sam. 14. 45. men and they cannot but ascend to heaven out of love to the Son of God The people expressed their love to Jonathan in standing between him and death because he wrought great salvation in Israel Upon the same account do Saints express love to their spiritual Saviour they say and think it is pity but love should have love he hath laid down his life for them and they think they can give no less then their heart-love to him but thou hast no love to Christ thou wilt not part with ought for his sake thou seest no such greatness in him that he should be liked no such goodness that he should be loved if thou have any love towards him it is but from the teeth and not in truth but common and complemental not cordial 7. Improving assurance The incomes of assurance such have from the Spirit make S. 73 them more dutiful to the Spirit they dare not turn the grace of God into wantonness if they hear a voice from heaven saying Thou art my dear son my pleasant child what vigour and life doth this put into them to make them lay out themselves for God It is marrow to their bones and health to their flesh the joy of the Lord is the strength of Neh. 8. 10. their souls intimations of God's love they use as invitations to a good life when the Lord speaks peace to their hearts they think they are bound to act piety with their hands if God speak peace to them they dare not Psal 85. 8. turn to folly peace of conscience with such is mother to piety in conversation if they have a sense of acceptance with God it makes them seek for more acquaintance with his ways when they have but a sip of this cordial how it fills them with activity for the Lord they desire not this Sun-shine to play in but to work in but as for thee thy confidences putrifie and breed corruption and thy security sin Thou thinkest thou art one Non sperare potest coeleste regnum cui super propria regnare membra adhuc non donatur of God's and shalt be saved and therefore takest liberty to thy self to fulfil the lusts of thine own heart thou hast then no grace yet this is the way of many wretched creatures if they can but fancy the sureness of their condition they fear not the sinfulness of their courses But this warm weather is not the prognostication of the divine Almanack it is one of the Divel's Errata's 8. Hating hypocrisie Such are sincere S. 74 not hypocritical Sincerity was part of Paul's prayer for the Philippians when he saith that Phil. 1. 10. ye may be sincere They have their inside and their outside all of one piece of all things hypocrisie goeth most against their stomacks they are what they would seem to be and they seem as they are As the Heathen said so is it here there must be nothing fained In amicitiâ nihil fictum aut simulatum Tull. and counterfeit in the friendship between God and a Saint Painters call the mixture of colours 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 corruption because whatsoever is mixed will more easily corrupt saith Plutarch If you be mixed you are naught if you be a linsey-woolsey Christian you are not of the right make God's people are not open Saints and secret sinners they are not all shew they have substance too if they were anatomized their insides would be found as white as their outsides their hearts as well as their hands are washed their spirit beareth a part in all they do the glory of God the salvation of their souls are the compasses they steer their course by glory credit reputation gain c. are not the white that they shoot the arrows of Religion at but it is far otherwise with thee as thou mayst easily perceive if thou take but a transitory view of thy self 9. Resisting custome Like living fish they S. 59 swim against the stream only the fish Elops swimmeth against wind and water so do these They are Antipodes to the world in their carriages And be not conformed to this world but be ye transformed by the renewing of your Rom. 12. 2. mind saith the Apostle What others are they are not what others are not they are they Contraria juxta se posita megis elucescunt follow not a multitude to do evil they chuse the strait way though they find no company their minds are contrary to the manners their courses to the customes their ways to the works their garb to the guise of the generality of the world Saints are singular other mens practices are no rule for their performances What Christ said of his Disciples then is true of them in all ages ye are not of this world Joh. 15. 19. the world goes west-ward these east-ward the world lies in wickedness these are up and doing the work of the Lord the world is sinfully secure these are seriously seeking the world lazy these labouring the world pursuing their gain these pleasing their God it matters not what crouds there are in the way of vanity these are content to go single in the way of vertue they go cross to the world not from passionate perverseness but from pious principles not from an humorous contrariety but from an heavenly conversion 10. Prizing communion Lastly they S. 80 make the enjoyment of God and Christ their summum bonum their chief good and prize communion with the divine being above all things The Lord is the portion of mine inheritance and of my cup thou maintainest my lot Psal 16. 5. Psal 73. 25. Whom have I in heaven but thee and there is none upon earth that I desire besides thee How did David's desires reach to heaven The participation of God and Christ is the ultimate end of a gracious souls pantings and pains its thoughts endeavours contrivances have a tendency thereunto it makes this the end of its life and liberty the end of its desires and duties the end of its prayers and performances to enjoy its God and Saviour here and hereafter other mens thoughts affections labours are about transitory things and that whereabout men lay out the choice of their intentions and indeavours they make their chief good Thus have I finished this use of examination whereon I have insisted the longer and which I have diversified the largelier because it
Faith sin must out of the House by force for they cannot dwell both together with Love and liking It now lookes upon sin with coynesse and detestation and upon grace with a pleasing smile and saith away ye fawning Flatterers welcome Faithful Friends Christ and grace These namely Faith and Repentance are the Beames and Rayes of that Sun which God set in the Firmament of the Soul when first he Created the new world and implanted grace in the Heart There is a sweet Harmony and loving accord between them though of late some have endeavoured to set them at variance by buzzing causelesse jealousies in their ears whereas God never set the one for the fall of the other CHAP. VII VI. The Degrees and Steps whereby effectual calling ariseth to perfection and is compleated NOw in the next place let us consider those degrees whereby God carryeth on this choice work The rounds of that Ladder whereby he raiseth the Soul from Earth to Heaven from its self to himself Let us track the footing of the Spirit in its ordinary goings For be it from me to confine the Spirit for as it bloweth where it listeth so also how it listeth but this order seems to me probable from the nature of effectual calling and from the experience of converts 1. Cognition Or a knowledge of the Law S. 1 It usually learneth this Horn-book before it get into an higher Forme How can he be what he would be that knoweth not what he is And how can he know what he is that knoweth not what he should be Rom. 7. 7. I had not known sin but by the Law And had he Lex est index peccati Ambr. been ignorant of the Law he might have been ignorant of his sin too It is the hand that doth indigitate and point at sin The Law is a looking-glasse but if we have not eyes to make use of this Glasse what will it avail us Sin is 1 John 3. 1 4 8. the transgression of a Law and where no Law is there can be no transgression and if there Rom. 4. 15. be Law and no knowledge of this Law there can be no knowledge of sin The pages then of the Book of the moral Law or of that we are speaking must be turned over the Soul must meditate upon that God opens the eye now to see his mind in Precepts and Prohibitions in his Law Hath not the darknesse of ignorance kept many an one a sleep still in the Devils Lap Unseen danger maketh no Impression upon the Spirit Doth not the Law speak of guilt danger c. It is true a man may have knowledge of the Law and yet through inconsideratenesse or the strong tide of corruption bearing down all before it till God stop and damme it up with the workings of his special grace may go on in sin and pursue the foolish imaginations of his own Heart but where there is effectual calling this was an Attendant to usher it in in this new Creation Light is one of the first things that is made Gods gracious Works upon the Soul begin with light and his way is from the eye to the Heart To open their eyes and to turn them from darknesse Acts 26. 18. to Light and from the power of Satan unto God And how can they know that they are under the power of Satans Kingdom if they know not the Laws of Gods Monarchy I mention not the Law to derogate from or Eclipse the Splendour of the Gospel 2. Comparation The next thing is the use S. 2 that the Soul makes of the knowledge of the Law namely to compare it's wayes with the Law Now it layes it's Life to the Line it's Wayes to the Word Now it brings it's self to the Trial the Touch-stone the Square The Commandements are Holy and just and good Rom. 7. 12. Rectum est regula sui obliqui And therefore fit to be a measure for every straight thing doth best discover that which is crooked There are the Ballances of the Sanctuary wherein the Soul weigheth it self now it brings it's face to this Glasse and there tells it's Spots not of Beauty but Deformity As 2 Kings 4. 34. Elisha stretched himself upon the Child part to part so doth the Soul bring the Law to it self and it's self to the Law in thought word and deed Doth not the Apostle compare himself and his wayes with the Law in Rom. 7. 14. Where he saith we know that the Law is Spiritual but I am Carnal sold under Sin A Spiritual Law but a Carnal Paul This also was Davids course Ps 119. 59. I thought on my wayes and turned my feet unto thy Testimonies And how could he think on his wayes if he knew not the Law and compared them together The Soul now saith to it's self as Jehu 2 Kings 10. 15. to Jehonadah with a little alteration of the Words Is my Heart Right as the Law is Before the Soul did compare it self with it self with others which were false Rules but now with the unerring word of God which is the justest measure God hates false Ballances and measures in Spirituals as well as temporals 1. Apprehension Of the evil of it's ways 2. Apprehension Of it's lost condition S. 3 The next staire or step that the Soul takes is apprehension or sence and that 1. of sin the evil of its wayes now it seeth it self sick and having looked into the Law it discernes the palenesse of it's countenance the Symptome of it's hearts distemper It may say to the Law as the 1 Kings 17. 18. Widow to Elijah O thou Law of God thou art come to call my sin to remembrance Before all was well now all is ill all whole before now all is naught Now it knoweth it self to be a sinner to be black defiled and polluted all over All the wayes of a Man or Woman are clean in their own eys before but the Lord weigheth Prov. 16. 2. the Spirits He that is first in his own cause seemeth just but his Neghbour cometh and searcheth Prov. 18. 17. him We are too ready to be partial in our own cause but the Law as our Neighbour for it is written in the Heart in some measure cometh and searcheth us The Lord promiseth in his new Covenant that people shall remember their own evil wayes and their doings that were not good and shall loath themselves in their own sight for their Iniquities and for their abominations Ezek. 36. 31. Now doth the Soul call to remembrance it 's former evil Practices and saith I was in the dark before and thought nothing now I am in the light I perceive my self all stained and mired 2. Of it's lost condition Now it seeth the S. 4 Sword of Gods indignation hang over its head by a twine thred now it seeth the Vials of wrath unstopped and ready to empty themselves upon its head in a curse to its Eternal destruction
provide for the good and grace of Soules when his intention is to awake his own Servants there the execution is in part sometimes by making them the Servants of such or such a man when he purposeth to bring them into his orchard he provides sometimes by services a suitable Nursery for them Such as he will bring into the houshold of Faith he sometimes for that end placeth in the houshold of the Faithful and those that shall be brought into Gods Family are sealed first in the Family of those that are Gods and by being Servants of Gods Servants come to be Servants of God themselves by a temporal servitude the Lord making way for a Spiritual Freedome and by an Earthly subjection to an Heavenly manumission So it was with fugitive Onesimus who fled from the house of his Master Philemon and besides his Philem. 10 16. thoughts fel into the hands of his Master Christ Onesimus was Philemon's Servant Philemon was Paul's Friend and so by meanes of the Master Onesimus comes to knowledge of the Minister and as the one was his Earthly Master so the other his Heavenly Father for Paul begate him in his bonds one Prisoner loosing another and travailed of him in birth till Christ was formed in him and so the Servant became as good a man as his Master O Onesimus little didst thou think what God intended to do with thee when he brought thee Bonus etiam si servit liber est under Philemon's Government Thou mayest thou doest blesse God that ever thou camst under his roof so it hath been no doubt with many others besides Onesimus Many may have cause to admire the goodnesse of the Lord in planting them under a good Master and Mistresse or Dame whose counsels have been converting whose words have been working whose perswasions have been prevailing whose prayers have been powerful whose admonitions have been accepted whose motives have been melting whose reproofs have been reclaiming through the grace of God accompanying them The Lord seeth some young men or maids that belong to his election of grace and are Tit. 1. 16. yet in the ways of the reprobate being reprobate to every good work and the appointed time of their conversion draweth neer and beginneth to dawn well saith the Lord thou art mine yet still thine own mine by secret predestination thine own by open abomination mine according to my bosome will thine according to thy basest ways mine by choosing love thine own by sinful life thou little thinkest how I will make thee mine own every way I will incline thine and thy parents heart to put thee forth to pitch upon such a sentence I will displace another to place thee there you look at the ease profit conveniency of the service but though you purpose give me leave to dispose I will so order it that something read heard spoken done by some means or other there you shall be changed and be made restless till you find me without whom you are lost that it shall be said this Psal 81 4. man this maid was born there in the house of one of my Saints and holy ones O the sweet intendings and disposings of the Lord towards us how the Lord can turn things that seek mans way to the accomplishing his own wil. 4. By ordering their station Sometimes the S. 5 Lord pitcheth their tents in such a place where Valet interdum pro animae salute mutatio loci they shall have means God will bring the means and the end together when God fireth his beacon such as he intendeth shall have warning thereby he brings within ken of it when he soundeth the silver trumpet of the word such as he would have prepared thereby to battle with their sins he brings within hearing of it when God sets up a light in any place such as he intendeth shall thereby see the worst of their misery the way to mercy he brings within the beams and rays thereof God is the great Landlord all tenements are of his letting habitations of his appointing dwellings of his disposing he causeth some to wander from their native soil that so they come to have their natures changed the Lord removeth some from town to town that he may translate them from darknesse to light and this we may see in the 18th of the Acts 9 10. Be not afraid hut speak and hold not thy peace for I am with thee no man shal set on thee to hurt thee for I have much people in this City Observe here the ways goings of the Lord He intended to bring Paul to Corinth and to have such and such of his elected ones to be converted there by him whom he therfore first placeth in Corinth that they might be there during the time of Paul's ministring was not this a sweet providence for the Lord to bring them into Corinth for their conversion some places are like Goshen all light others like Egypt all darknesse some places have the dew of heaven and spiritual showres plentifully falling down upon them others like mount Gilboa upon which there cometh 2 Sam. 1. 21. neither rain nor dew some places are as sheep without a shepherd having either no guides or blind guides others enjoy that gracious promise I will give you pastors according to Jer. 3. 15. Plerumque dum â—utatur locus mutatur mentis affectus mine own heart now for the Lord to bring a man into such a Town and there turn him into such a Country and there by the means convert him to change ones house and thereby to change ones heart to change ones mansion and to change ones manners is a precious dispensation for the Lord as he appointed the time and hour so the means and place of conversion yet a fat soil a place of gain a good pennyworth are the things that commend habitations to many They love to sojourn in Mesech and to dwell in the tents of Kedar and have long dwelt with those that Psal 120. 5 6. are haters of goodnesse To live neer the Altar the Ark the Temple is a mercy of God and a means of good To think our selves best when we are farthest from the Sanctuary is a curse to be a door keeper in the house of God is the way to a cure 5. By prolonging their days many live to S. 6 be converted who had they died before had been condemned our times also are in the hands of the Lord he knoweth the day and hour of the conversion of his elect he will keep off dangers remove destruction defer death not terminate their time but continue their natural course lengthen their life till the hour of their holinesse the time of their turning the day of their deliverance be come for had they died before they had died in wickedness and had they died in wickedness they had been undone by wrath they had died in present sin and could not have escaped eternal sorrow as we may see
so little who was of more yeers Aged sinner there are many at 30. years have done much for God through his grace are thriven and grown lusty in piety and have run hard that they are almost at Heavens gate when thou hast done nothing are like Pharaohs lean kine and didst never take two paces in the way of godliness who art 50 60. years of age it may be more and hast enjoyed as good nay it may be better means than they there are many of half thy years that grow rich with a little and thou growest poor with much That have more in their little finger than thou hast in thine whole body you have cause to lay it to heart that you have laid out your heart no more for God Hast thou stood all this while a tree in Gods Orchard and art thou outstripped by a young Plant Hast thou been all this while in Christs School ever 2 Tim. 3. 7. learning and not yet able to come to the knowledge of the truth Art thou still no further than a. b. c. Oh consider this thou that hast forgotten God so long least he tear thee in Psal 50. 22. pieces and there be none to deliver Yet I would not have thee to despair yet there may be some hope concerning thee if thou turn truly repent really pray perseveringly seek seriously and believe savingly Thou hadst need double thy diligence and redeem the time Thou must do two hours work in one Thou must ride all night as well as all day or Plus omnibus religione operam dare senibus convenit quos praesentis seculi florida aetas transacta desemit thou wilt hardly get to they journey's end Thou hadst need borrow time from thy sleep from thy meales from thy recreation and lay it out about thy soul because thou hast neglected thy salvation so long the smalnesse of your remaining time the decay of sence and reason habit in sin the wiles of the Devil render your change doubtful and difficult However give all diligence to make thy calling and Election sure Be importunate with the Lord and like Jacob take no nay The Sun is almost down yet if thou put on hard thou mayest reach thy Fathers house before day-light be quite done 12. The utility of observation Doth the S. 12 Lord convert and call into his bosome by his works and providences Then it is a very good and profitable thing for us to take notice of the providences of God providences well minded may be means of our souls mending Such as have their conceptions filled with them may come to have their conversation filed by them The works of the Lord being throughly pondered are means many times of being truly purified The Lord passeth by us in his dispensations and through our heedlesseness passeth over us in displeasure The Lords works and various dealings are as decoyes and snares to take us but if we step over them we are not like to be caught The Lord openeth these hangings and if we open not our eye to behold them they wil not affect our heart who is there that observeth the Psa 28. 5. works of the Lord or mindeth the operation of his hands in his actings towards them or theirs in their soul or body formerly or lately in greater or lesser affaires in light or dark prosperous or adverse emergencies much might be squeez'd and got out of them It was the commendation of one that he could make something of nothing and great matters of small so the providences of God which others make no account of if Husbanded and improved might amount to the salvation of the soul through God's blessing They are therefore to be recorded in our thoughts and registred in our understandings In the Arke was kept the pot of Manna which was a remarkeable and extraordinary providence of Heb. 9. 4. God towards the Israelites in that they were fed and preserved so long by it A Godly man of late hath set before us a very commendable pattern of this nature I mean Master Ambrose in whose middle things you have a Catalogue of providences c. The footsteps and goings of the Lord are to be marked and observed It is not amisse to keep a Book or List of them let mercy be remembred Beneficia Dei omnibus horis consideranda sunt misery regarded let trials be thought on let afflictions affect us let his providences of all sorts especially those of greatest stature live in our memories and not be buried in the grave of oblivion shall the Lord passe under our window in actings of various and divers kinds and shall not we look out to see what he doth when his hand is stretched out to strike or reached out to stroak shall we regard neither Contemplation of our maker is one great Homo ad contemplandum creatoris suum conditus est end of our making and to view not onely the wayes of the Lord in general towards others but also his goings in particular toward our selves It were but a practice of piety to have Chronicles of this nature as none of the words so none of the works of the Lord should be suffered to fall to the ground by us but we should take them up at the first bound we should shew our selves thrifty in this case and gather up the fragments that nothing be lost we are ready to murmure at God's dealings many times when there is great reason to marvail at them when we see the issue of them Providential actions are the ripening of the Lords previous intentions by providences do his purposes come to the birth and his promises receive accomplishment let them therefore be heedfully observed and carefully preserved 13. The dignity of the word Is the word S. 13 an Instrument in God's hand of changing mans heart then it is a most precious thing and to be much prized by us It is a word of duty to us and therefore must needs be a word of dignity in it self It is a working word through the spirits assistance and therefore a worthy word to our acceptance it is a means of sanctification and there is reason it should be the matter of our estimation it is an invaluable treasure and incomparable Jewel and therefore to be lodged in the heart and laid in the bosome which was the practice of pious David Thy word have I hid in mine heart Psal 119. 11. He had high thoughts and singular conceit of it with such a deep stream did his affection run towards it that himself could hardly sound the bottome thereof as appears by his pathetical expressions O how love I thy Law It is my meditation all the day Ps 119. Scripturae divinae jugiter mente voluantur 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 2 Tim. 3. 16. Si verbum Dei auferas solem è mundo sustulisti 97. The word is of exceeding great use and price it is an universal remedy it is a means of enlightning
yet not the same faith 2. Now we come to speak of those things S. 15 that are more neerly related to effectual calling that are more like unto it then the former but are not it for every like is not the same 1. There may be a feeling of sin and yet S. 16 no faith there may be confession of sin and yet no conversion to God one may be brought so far as to acknowledge their impieties and yet never come so neer as to be acquainted with true piety Many confesse they have done ill who are not careful to do well there may be tongue-confession without heart-contrition Saul said I have sinned 1 Sam. 26. 21. Behold I have played the fool and have erred exceedingly and yet he had no grace One Nil prosunt lamenta si replicentur peccata may sensibly and yet not savingly say they are sinners recognition of sin without reformation of life is nothing many have stept thus far and yet are not got in at the narrow door many can say this lesson perfectly but they must turn over a new leaf before they can be sufficient Schollers This hath too pale a look to have ought of life within 2. One may have disquiet and terror of S. 17 conscience and yet never be effectually called There may be a kind of repenting and yet no kindly returning it may be a stormy day and yet no right showry day there may be an aking and yet no altered heart there may great pangs of spirit and yet no parting with sin There are those that have deep gashes in their consciences and yet do not bleed out their bad blood there are that have been brought into grievous straits and yet were never brought into a gracious state There may be attrition where there is not Attritio nullo modo potest fieri contritio Aquin. contrition many have been sorely amazed in their consciences who were never savingly amended in their conversations one may be plunged over head and ears into the bottome of the sea of vexation and yet never be bathed in the laver of regeneration one may be full of heart-paining dolour and yet never attain to God-pleasing duty Even wicked men may have undergone wearisome days and nights for their sins your conscience hath been all on fire and in a passion hath flown in your face your bones have been broken and anguish and horror hath siezed upon you for your sins you have roared through disquietnesse for your transgressions and have laboured as in the very fire for your abominations your heart hath been lanced it may be in every quarter but put all together and it amounts not to effectual calling Judas was tormented in his mind but never turned in his manners It is said he repented himself Matth. 27. 3. the word 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 signifieth the anxiety and disquiet that he found in his spirit upon the perpetration of his sin It is a gloomy dark winter with many spirits who never yet saw the spring of grace the water-spouts of trouble for sin may drop and fall upon thine head and yet thine heart be barren and unfruitful in the grace and knowledge of Jesus Christ 3. One may be afraid and troubled about S. 18 the committing of sin before they do commit it and yet be without a change one may be loth to that which yet they love there may be found some reluctancy in the spirit and yet at last no refusal of the sin It troubled Herod to think of beheading John the Baptist Mark 6. 26. 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 nay he was very sorry but his sorrow was not boyled to a right and due consistency he did fear but yet did fasten on his sin One may go with a sorrowful countenance and slow pace to the acting of some sins and yet have no grace To make a sowre face at the first taste and yet afterwards to swallow down to be squeamish stomached at first and afterwards with the Estrich to digest iron sins is not effectual calling Some startle at sin for present but soon come to settle upon it with quiet security This or that sin may go against thy conscience and yet thy conscience not be right It may be thou art afraid to touch the Snake yet makest a shift to lay it in thy bosome That conscience that never yet saw day may oppose the commission of sin and he that hath no grace may shrink at the thought of some impieties 4. One may love the truth in some sort S. 10 and be a defender of it and yet have no grace one may hold with the truths of Christ and yet not be a Christian in truth Thus it was with Judas and Julian before his apostacy One may stand up for the cause and worship of God with a kind of zeal and yet have no true fire in their brests So did Jehu when he said Come with me and see my zeal for the 2 Kings 10. 16. Lord. The stream may run swiftly and not be fed with a spring there may be an heat for the true Religion and yet no life within one may plead for the truth and not practice the truth those kiss truth many times who are unwilling truth should be King those may countenance the ways of God who never come into the way of grace one may be forward for God's cause and yet may lie Errat quisquis se veritatem cognoscere putat qui adhuc nequiter vivit Job 15. 16. under God's curse one may side with the truth and yet never be sanctified by the truth There may be a work of common vigour and yet a want of choice vertue one may gallop with a natural zeal and be a leader to others and yet gulp down sin as the Ox doth water till they be lost themselves zeal for the truth doth not always grow upon the stalk of grace 5. One may wish happiness and yet never S. 20 will holiness many think all is well if they desire to die the death of the godly though they care not for living their life many long for a good ending that never loved a good beginning and would fain dwell with the Saints in heaven that never forced how far distant they were from them on earth A desire of salvation is many degrees on this side sanctification It was Balaam's wish Let me die the death of the righteous and let my Numb 23. 10. Jude 11. last end be like his upon whom the Scripture sets the brand of impiety He was willing to bed with the righteous but not willing to board with them he would willingly have tasted of their second course but had no desire to touch their first course he exprest his affection to their eternal gaudies but had not appetite to their dayly fare he loved the sauce but loathed the meat Who is there that liveth never so ill but would be willing to die well If this were grace we should have
a great harvest of Saints Heaven is the desire of many when hell is their desert most desire the Saints paradise when but few care for the Saints piety many who prosecute their sinful lusts will yet earnestly petition for eternal life and would fain be triumphant that care not for being militant he is no right souldier that would wear the crown but is loth to fight to win the field desires of heaven are Non impetrat a deo bonum quod poscit qui ejus legi non obedit in vain unless there be duty on earth He that loatheth grace may yet long for glory yet such desires pass for current coyn with the unskilful multitude and having such desires they think that all is well with them 6. To take delight in and to be taken with the S. 21 preaching of the word is not grace there are that love preaching and yet care not for practice there are those who never were effectually called that yet may account a Minister in his work as one that sings a pleasant song they are content to hear the word of Ezek. 33 32. God but care not for the work of grace the word may please their fancy and yet not prevail with them for faith they may delight to hear the sound and never desire to understand the sense they may countenance the minister Quaerit anima verbum eui consentiat ad correctionem Mark 6. 20. and not consent to his message Such an one was Herod who feared John Baptist and observed him and when he heard him he did many things and heard him gladly and yet lived in his sins He heard the word but he did not hold it Many are taken with the parts and gifts of a Minister and it is that string that sounds sweetliest in their ear they may hear to fill their table-books and never fill the tables of their heart they may love to walk in the dew and soft showres of heavenly doctrine and yet provide that it shall not wet them to the skin one may delight to wait upon the best means and yet continue in their bad manners to be taken with the word and not taken by the word is not true conversion the word may sound sweetly aloft in the ear and never settle savingly below in the heart it may be musick to your sense and not meat to your soul 7. One may desire the prayers of God's S. 22 people and yet not be a Saint the prayers of the godly may be craved and yet their profession may be carped at Wicked men may beg their requests for the renewing of trouble but not for the removing of their temper they may desire an interest in their supplications and yet never imitate them in their sanctification Wretched Pharaoh desired righteous Moses to pray for him Intreat the Lord that there be no more mighty thundrings c. Exod. 9. 28. Moses was a great man in his books I 'le warrant and yet he was glad to make use of Moses beads Open enemies to godliness may yet be willing to have the help of the godly there needs no grace to make one desirous to have the Saints pass Thus it was with Simon Magus also who desired Peter c. to pray to the Lord for him that none of those things which they had spoken might come upon him Acts 8. 24. Those may crave the prayers of others that never had grace to pray for themselves others prayers and to desire the benefit of them is good but it is not grace 8. Nay even a wicked man may so far S. 23 deny himself as to justifie God in his punishing dispensations one may confess God's justice and yet continue in an unjust estate the heart that hath no grace may accuse it self and excuse the Almighty may lay the blame at its own door and vindicate the Lord's dealings Impunitum non debet esse peccatum and acknowledge its sufferings just because it hath been a sinner and yet never accept of the Spirit 's motions and calls to grace And thus did wicked Pharaoh even acknowledge that punishment did not come till it was sent for The Lord is righteous and I Exod. 9. 27. and my people are wicked Now doth he as it were lie at God's foot who yet had an heart that would flie in God's face one may say they have deserved all that is come upon them and yet never sincerely desire the spirit of grace to come unto them one may say they are wicked in their ways worthy of wrath and yet never open to the Lord nor obey his laws many do thus stoop when they are in the snare and fetters who never knew what it was to be swayed by the soveraignty of grace 9. Yet further may a wicked man go There S. 24 may be an outward solemn mourning and yet no inward saving melting the eyes may open their flood-gates and yet the heart not weep carnation-tears one may afflict themselves on fast days and yet not affect a fast from sin Ahab had not true grace and yet 1 Kings 21. 29. he could grant thus much such was his humiliation that the eye of heaven took notice of it one may lie in sackcloth and yet have sin lodge in the heart there may be a bowing down the head and yet no breaking of the Quando sic poenites ut tibi amarum sapiat in animâ quod ante dulce fuit in vitâ jam tum bene ingemiscis ad Deum heart the outward man may be afflicted for sin and yet the inward stand affected to sin there may be solemnity in mourning and yet no sanctity in the mind one may spend themselves with fasting praying and weeping and not speed the work of grace in their souls the body may be brought down by such means and the soul not benefited nor builded up there may be an heavy countenance and yet no heavenly compliance 10. In the next place there may be a promising S. 25 of amendment and yet grace may never ripen in the heart there may be heat and sap enough to bring forth blossomes but no fruit Thus did Pharaoh and I will let you Exod. 9. 28. go and ye shall stay no longer Here were good words but no good works saying and doing are two things There is a fair tree that hath Natural Histor L. Veruulam double blossomes but bringeth forth no fruit many are free to promise but fast when they come to pay they are trees full of leaves but no apples they will say what God would have and yet do as themselves list like the son in the Gospel that said I go Sir but went Matth. 21 31. not They are very forward for subscription but as backward when it comes to action one may be a Christian in tongue and not in truth 11. There may be amendment in some S. 26 things and yet no grace There may be a partial and yet no perfect
may be in this case if the heart say not Amen it is nothing the tongue is to be the hearts interpreter It is a broken and a contrite spirit that is a pleasing sacrifice to God The Lord complains of his people that they cried not unto him with their heart when they howled upon their bed if the heart and the tongue be not confederates it is no right confession 2. Not a vexing for sin only but a change S. 36 from it argueth this work there must be not only trouble but also turning of the mind There is a word that signifieth the change of 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 the mind which is not used for Judas his repentance but another Manasseh's and Judas his repentance did differ very much Judas was so far from being changed from Judam proditorem non tam scelus quod commisit quam indulgentiae desperatio fecit penitus interire 1 Sam. 10. 6 9. bad to better that he fell from bad to worse from sinning against Christ's humanity by treachery to sin against his divinity by despair It is with those that are effectually called as it was with Saul in another case they are turned into other men and women and God hath given them another heart than they were or had before There must be in the soul a motion to good as well as a commotion because of evil it is duty not dolour only that makes and marks a Saint 3. A gracious heart is troubled at the commission S. 37 of sin because it is sin and done against God and in his sight How shall I do Gen. 39. 9. this great wickedness and sin against God saith Joseph Herod was troubled about putting Oderunt peccare mali formidine poenae oderunt peccare boni virtutis amore John to death only for fear of disgrace c. which might come upon him for taking away the life of such an eminent Preacher as John Baptist was Some are afraid to sin for fear of the rod others out of love to the rule the wicked dread the vengeance that follows sin but not the venome that is in sin 4. An heart effectually called loveth the S. 38 truth for it self because it is like God who is truth it self others for their credit profit or to be seen of men Jehu's fire of zeal was to warm himself by it was for a crown or he would never have skipped so high toward heaven But a godly soul is zealous though to its disadvantage I will speak of thy testimonies also before Kings and will not be ashamed Psal 119. 46. It is zealous out of the love it hath to God and his ways not out of sinful passion but sanctified affection 5. An heart effectually called desireth the S. 39 holiness as well as the happiness of God's people and doth as earnestly breath after sanctification as justification or glorification Create in me a clean heart O God and renew a right spirit within me Psal 51. 10. It is for the white as well as the red robe and makes as many prayers for purity as for pardon against the power as against the penalty of sin and when it desires heaven it is upon this account as much as any because it hopes it Nunquam justus arbitratur se comprehendisse nunquam dicit satis est shall be freed from its sins and shall not meet with the Cananite and Hittite in that land it hath insatiable desires as it were after grace and thirsteth exceedingly for these streams it accounteth holiness its great happiness and its glory in heaven to consist in conformity to God as well as communion with God 6. A gracious heart delighteth in the preaching S. 40 of the word because it receives good thereby and because the word meets with its sins It was not so with Herod for then he would have reformed his incest Mark 6. 17 18. A godly heart loveth the word because it is a corrasive as well as because it is a cordial the word is welcome to them when it frowns upon them as well as when it smiles upon them in its condemnations as well as its consolations 7. When converted souls desire others to S. 41 pray for them it is that they may have grace and that their corruption may be healed Jam. 5. 16. it is that sin rather than that sorrow be removed Pharaoh and Simon Magus desired others to pray for them that judgements might be removed or prevented A godly heart accounteth sin worse than evil and the worst of evils it desires an interest in the Saints prayers to perfect conversion and not only to prevent confusion and that the object of the Saints petitions for them may be spirituals rather than temporals special rather than common mercies it looks at God's glory as well as its own good in such requestings and if you ask such an one for what shall I speak unto the King of heaven for thee It will answer for the life of my soul for the slaying 2 Kings 4. 13. of my sins for the increasing of my grace that I may walk worthy of the Lord unto all pleasing 8. A man or woman truly called so justifies S. 42 God in his dealings that it doth improve afflictions and get good by them and can say with David It is good for me that I have been afflicted that I might learn thy statutes It hearkeneth to the voice of the rod it is willing to receive instruction by the rod of correction It so justifies God that it wholly 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 Lam 3. 22. condemns it self even to the pit of hell acknowledging it to be the Lord's mercies that it is not consumed It justifies the Lord when the stroak is off as well as when the stroak is on it justifies the Lord from a sincerely loathing apprehension of its own vileness and unworthiness 9. Such mourn inwardly as well as outwardly S. 43 they rend their hearts rather than Joel 2. 13. their garments their heart runs as well as their eye they mourn truly for their offences as done against Christ and the grace of God Zech. 12. 10. Isa 58. by him outward mourning only God condemneth Many weep with an Oynion when their rocky hearts do not melt many mourn in habit for their dead friends and it may be Non discordet cor tuum a facie tuâ rejoyce in heart But it is not so with such a soul but when it addresses it self to the duties of mourning and sorrow it acquaints the heart with it and invites it to this service and will not be satisfied without its presence the fountains of the great deep of its spirit are broken up its sorrow not only descends from the eyes but also ascends from the heart so that it can say with the Church of God My bowels Lam. 3. 20. are troubled mine heart is turned within me for I have grievously rebelled And with Jeremiah My bowels my bowels I am