in Adversity as in Prosperity Hab. 3. 17. Although the Fig-tree shall not blossome c. yet I will rejoyce in the Lord c. Rom. 5. 3. And not only so but we glory in tribulation c. 1 Sam. 29. 6 the people spake of stoning him but David encouraged himself in the Lord his God Rom. 8. 35. Who shall separate us from the love of Christ c. If even in afflictions I can go unto the same armes of Christ and unto the same brests of divine Love and into the same chamber of Presence if I can look upon God as my God and see him to be my Father that I can make known my heart to him and he can make known his favour to me what should hinder me now to be joyful who still do enjoy him who alone makes all my joy Another is the Testimony of Conscience This is the Friend in adversity This is our rejoycing even the testimony of our Conscience 2 Cor. 1. 12. Conscience is a mans night or day his Hell or Heaven his Palace of delight or Jail of bitterness If Conscience be sanctified or pacified it can speak a peace or joy that none can crush none can hinder but under the greatest afflictions and persecutions a converted man may and doth enjoy the testimony of a good Conscience Thou art upright saith Conscience to Hezekiah on his sick-bed Thou fearest God saith Conscience to Job under the loss of all Thou lovest Christ saith Conscience to Paul even in the Prison Object 2. Now to the second Objection That converting But conversion brings us into a narrow path it is an enemy to many delights Grace brings the person into a narrow path and under the strictest rules even such as condemn a multitude of joys and delights how can that condition be so joyfull which denies and abridgeth c Sol. To this I answer 1. It is granted That converting Grace brings the person into Answered There is a strictness required a very narrow path and under very strict rules A converted man must not walk as other men he must not allow himself to think and desire and love and speak and act as formerly He must fear to sin he must love the Lord with all his heart and with all his soul and with all his might he must order his steps by the Word of God he must deny himself and crucifie his dearest lusts and not shun the hardest duty nor delight in the least iniquity 2. But then This strictness is no adversary to his true joy In This strictness is no adversary to true joy keeping of thy commandments there is great reward saith David Psal 19. 11. Great peace have they who love thy law Psal 119. 165. As many as walk according to this rule peace be on them and mercy upon the Israel of God Gal. 6. 16. I beseech you to consider four things 1. Let thine own Conscience judge whether it be not a more comfortable course to obey God then to disobey God to have grace to serve God acceptably then to have an heart still free and ready to dishonour and provoke God Who hath most true comfort the bones sound and in place or broken to walk on the Land or to be troubled at Sea the Child who runs away from his Father or the Child who waits upon his Father the Child that desires to please or the Child that continues to grieve and vex the wandring and famished Prodigal or the returning and embraced Son Hos 2. 7. I will return to my first Husband for then it was better with me then now 2. Rightly understand what it is strictly to walk with God It is an endeavour in your affections and duties to draw near to God in all well-pleasing and to answer the will of God The Christians course of obedience it is his daily communion with his God in this life When thou prayest what is Praying but a divine conference of the soul with God and when thou hearest what is this but a divine conference of God with the soul and when thou repentest what is that but a recovery and return of the soul to God and when thou believest what is that but the recumbency of the soul on the goodness of God and when thou receivest the Sacrament what is it but a communion a feasting with Jesus Christ If a strict walking be nothing but a divine and heavenly communion with God why doest thou how darest thou to judge of it as the onely Bar to shut out all joy and comfort Was there ever any affectionate Wife that thought it an injury to her Joy to speak with her Husband or to enjoy the society of her Husband Was there ever any faithfull Friend who thought it a misery a burthen to enjoy the society of his Friends to open his heart unto his Friend How then can it be a prejudice to any mans joy to enjoy communion with his God 3. Consult with experience which hath travelled in the strict ways of God either thine own experience if any which day of thy life hath been closed up with heartiest joy whether the day of licentiousness or the day of strictness That day which thou hast let out to thy lusts hath made the night a trembling to thee that day which thou hast redeemed for walking with God hath always given unto thee the sweetest rest and repose at night The experience of godly people have any of them ever found more soul rejoycing then when they have abounded in strictest obedience This is thy burthen but it is their delight the purest walking hath distilled the sweetest joy and their looser walking hath been the cause of their greatest sorrows It is with a strict Christian as with the Sun which still keeps to the Ecliptique Line and is of all the Stars the most glorious and comfortable when it is at the highest and the higher Sun the purer and warmer light And it is with the loose Christian as with the uneven foot the wry stepping is the cause of unjoynting or pinching and paining 4. The strict walking what is it but a path to everlasting life every step of it is a step to heaven Strait is the gate which leads unto life saith Christ There is an easie way for men to walk in but that 's the way to hell and what comfort is it after all to go to hell to go to hell with ease There is a strict way for men to walk in but it is the way to life to eternal life Now even that alone is sufficient to create joy that these steps after a while will bring me to appear before the God of Gods in Sion and truly there is no end whatsoever the which if it be in it self amiable and comfortable but it darts also an amiableness and comfortableness upon all the steps and paths which tend unto it 3. Lastly Converting Grace doth not condemn or deny any lawfull Converting grace denies not any lawfull joy
to another Use Which shall be Not to hide our sins but to declare and acknowledge them in a right penitential manner before the Lord that Vse 2. Exhortation To confess our sins in a penttential manner Not to cover our sins so we may declare our selves true Penitents This exhortation you see consists of two parts Not to Cover To Discover I. Not to hide and cover our sins There is a two-fold Covering of our sin One is natural which is that Vail of Ignorance and blindness drawn over the soul by Original sin keeping the mind in spiritual darkness not able to see it self nor acts nor wayes aright This is such a Cover wherein we our selves are hid from our selves There is another Covering which is voluntary and artificial wherein we dig deep to hide our counsels intentions delights actions from the Lord cunningly contriving and feigning a secrecy as if we could put a curtain or a cloud twixt Gods eyes and our actions doing evil and saying None shall see it And when it is done never bringing that forth by a penitential confession which we did bring out by a sinfull commission Oh take heed of this though we be forward to sin beware lest we be artificial to conceal it If we cannot have eyes to foresee and strength to prevent evil yet let us have hearts to bewail and tongues to confess it Consider seriously 1. This hiding quality is a very ill quality it is an embleme This is a very ill quality of an heart that will not yet be rid of sin As Beggars that will not be cured of their sores for if thou wouldst be cleansed why concealest thou thy disease 2. It adds much to your sin To commit a sin may be an act of It adds much to your sin infirmity but to hide and conceal it argues either strong Atheism that the sinner thinks God regards it not though it be vile or else perverse wilfulness he will not humble he will not turn unto the Lord. 3. It adds nothing to our safety Adam hid himself in the thicket what got he by it what if you keep the fire close in the thatch It adds nothing to our safety You may put gold in a secret place and perhaps it may be under a safer custody but he who will hide his sin doth but put a fair cloth upon a dangerous wound which now rankles gangrenes kills Of all sins those do most endanger the soul for which we are not truly humbled or do not seriously confess them unto God Why should God shew thee mercy who wilt not acknowledge thy self guilty and how can sin but be fiercely reigning where it is most willingly harboured and concealed 4. Nor doth it add to our secrecy For all things are naked and Nor doth it add to our secrecy bare before God c. God can easily discover thy sin 1. He sees it he has an all-seeing eye 2. He can make thy conscience the rack of torment at confession 3. And will at the last day Nothing is hid that shall not be made manifest In two things doth the inconfitent sinner much prejudice himself by hiding of his sins One that he contrives himself for a sore punishment another that he reprieves himself for an open shame It is Gods disposition this that when we discover our sin and condemn our selves then will he cover those sins and not judge our persons 1 Cor. 11. 31. If we would judge our selves we should not be judged But when we with wile and guile contrive to keep them close God then will publish and manifest them for there is nothing in this kind secret which shall not be made manifest Nay simply manifestation is not all judiciary is it he will so discover them as to question as to arraign as to convict as to sentence as to condemn your sins Object But sinners are ready to object Who is able to confess his sins Doth not David say Who knoweth how oft he offendeth Psal 19. Sol. It is true every particular numerical thought and act of sin is not possible to be cited and confessed but who urgeth that This belongs to thee 1. To study thy heart and life 2. To observe what the Lord forbids and commands 3. To hear what thy Conscience will speak for kinds and acts 4. To give diligence to find out as many of thy sins as thou canst and by no means to omit thy special sins and so to spread all of them with humble hearty and mournfull acknowledgment before the Lord. Object This is the way to breed despair to see an Army of sins on a sudden raised up in the soul Sol. 1. See them you must first or last either now to your humiliation or hereafter to your confusion better see them now when you have time to get God to pardon them then after life when it is Gods time onely to condemn you for them And 2. He who bids thee to see thy sins bids thee to confess them and he who bids thee to confess them hath promised also to pardon them Object But I shall be ashamed to confess them so many so foul transgressions Sol. 1. If it were to Man then thou mightst blush and fear he might wonder at thee and perhaps incompassionately censure and blab 2. But it is to a God onely One who is very mercifull and will keep counsel he is very ready to pity and to spare thee 3. The commission of sin should be a shame but the confession of it is an honour it is an honourable thing that a sinner will glorifie God and confess and forsake his sins Let the disease be what it will thou wilt discover it to the Physitian why then this sinfull modesty to reveal thy sins to God And 4. especially if thou considerest thus much that thy confession is not to give him knowledge of any fact with which he is not acquainted but to yield a testimony of thy obedience and repentance and grief and to get thy acquittance and discharge II. But discover and confess them and to move you to this consider 1. Though it be a shame to commit sin yet it is an honour But discover and confess them Motives to confess it My son give glory to the God of Israel and confess unto him said Joshua cap. 7. 19. to Achan 2. Though the commission of sin brings heavy guilt yet the confession of it brings peace and ease It is the letting out of corrupt ulcerous matter which rages and swelleth and boils in the conscience 3. Is it so great a matter being greatly guilty freely and humbly to confess If the Prophet had bid thee to have done some Is it so great a matter for the guilty person freely to confess great thing c. so if the Lord had required of thee some great matter proper and high satisfaction for the wrongs thou hast done unto him thousands of rams or ten thousand rivers of oyl c.
power to come forth to come back to God Rom. 5. Without strength It knows not by its own light one foot of the way and when it is made known alas it finds no power to stir nay if I might have mercy and heaven upon the freest terms but for coming home I am not able to do it O how a found lost soul complains It complains as much of an impotent heart as of a wandring heart I cannot come I cannot turn this wandring heart into the right way come back to my God I should but come I cannot go to Christ I should but go I cannot if Christ doth not come to me I shall never be able to come to him if he doth not seek me I shall never seek him iâ— he finds not me with strength I shall never find him with comfort and safety 3. If God hath indeed found thee Thou wilt above all He will above all thiâ—gs desire to be found in Christ things desire to be found in Christ The found soul presently finds a need of Christ Paul as soon as mercy found him would by no means be found in himself but by all means be found in Christ That I may be found in him saith Paul Phil. 3. 9. There was a Nobleman one Elyearius who was supposed to be lost and his Lady sent up and down to find him One at length meets with him and tels him how sollicitous his Wife was to find him out O answered he commend me to my Wife and tell her That if she desires to find me she must look for me in the heart of Jesus Christ for there onely am I to be found And verily there is no poor soul whom God is finding and bringing home to himself on whom he hath imprinted a true sense of his lostness but presently the soul cries out What shall I do what shall I do to be saved O that I might have Christ and O that I might be found in Jesus Christ Remember two things 1. That the Lord will bring back to himself no soul but by Jesus Christ Christ is the sinners way to the Father he is the door by which you are admitted If ever the Lord casts an eye on thee or take thee by the hand it is for his Christ's sake 2. A lost soul which is found finds an absolute need of Jesus Christ Nothing out of Christ can make peace can justifie can reconcile can set us straight can make us accepted Had I all other things and had not Christ I were still a lost person Had I the righteousness of Angels yet if I had not Christ I were lost could I mourn could I repent could I pray could I live holily could I walk exactly yet I am lost I am still lost until I get into Christ I count all things but loss for the excellency of the knowledge of Jesus Christ my Lord. God will look on me as my Judge he will look on me as his enemy he will not own me as a Father as a reconciled Father but in Christ 4. If thy lost soul be truly found then Jesus Christ may be Jesus Christ may be found in that lost soul found in that lost soul of thine They report of Ignatius that the Letters of Jesus were found written in his heart This I dare affirm That the Picture of Christ the Graces of Christ the Life of Christ is to be found in every found man Paul Lydia the Jailor Christ was sought by them and found in them It cannot be that a sinner should be found if Christ be not to be found in him Why if thou be a Christless man who doubts it but that thou art a lost man Now do not deceive thy soul thou canst say that Christ once was to be found in the Temple and Christ once was to be found on the Cross and Christ is still to be found at the right hand of his Father but is there not one place more where thou canst find him hast thou not a heart Is Christ to be found there I say there in thy heart I find him in thy Ear when thou hearest and I find him in thy mouth when thou speakest and thou findest him in thy mind when thou thinkest but still I ask Dost thou find him in thy heart which loves which fears which joys which delights which embraceth O is Christ in thy heart what a found man and nothing of Christ to be found in thee I know not perhaps wilt thou reply Why this is strange that Christ should be in thee and thou never know it Christ dwels in the broken heart in the believing heart Christ lives in him who onely lives upon Christ Christ was a crucified Christ doth he cruâ—ifie thy heart He was a holy Christ doth he purifie thy heart He was an humble Christ doth he abase thy heart He was a tender Christ doth he mollifie thy heart He was a satisfying Christ doth he pacifie thy heart He was an obedient Christ doth he command doth he lead doth he rule thy heart He did for thee canst thou do for him He died for thee canst thou suffer for him He loved thee canst thou delight in him 5. If the Lord hath graciously found thy lost soul and indeed Then thou wilt find sufficiency in thy Fathers house brought it home unto himself Then thou wilt â—ind sufficiency an enough at least in thy Fathers house There is enough in God to allure and draw a sinner home to keep a sinner at home that he needs not wander abroad mercy and pleasures for evermore This the Prodigal discover'd afar off even in the birth of his finding There is bread enough and to spare God seems a poor thing a mean thing an insufficient thing to a lost man and therefore he wanders up and down and serves his lusts and begs from the Creatures to make him out some delight some pleasure some profit some subsistence some contentment But God is a rich thing a Fulness He alone is enough One God is enough for my one soul if my soul indeed be found of him O he hath Mercy enough for me to save me Love enough for me to delight me Pleasure enough for me to comfort me Dignity enough for me to advance me Help enough for me to preserve me Happiness enough for me to save me If I want Grace he is the God of Grace if I want Peace he is the God of Peace if I want Mercies he is the Father of Mercies if I want for Earth the Earth is the Lords if I would have Heaven he is the God of my Salvation Now friend what say you hath God found your lost soul and what hath your soul found in your God What canst thou say of this God of his Mercy Love Entertainment Communion With thee the fatherless findeth mercy Thy favour is better than life It is good for me to draw near unto God canst thou say thus is there bread enough for thee in thy Fathers
thus and thus and thus have I dishonoured my God Another while he hears and reads and weeps I am that man O Lord I am he of whom thou speakest I am that sinner Iam he who hath out-faced thy Law out-stood thy offers of grace and resisted Oh how often thy good Spirit 5. He is now for the life of God to be wrought in him This he now prizeth as the most excellent life and for this he praies Lord another heart a new spirit 2. The second contrariety respects the time present And As to the time present there are four things for the time present in a truely changed and converted person which never were in him before 1. A present hatred of sin 2. A present flying unto Christ 3. A present love of God 4. A present course of new obedience 1. When the Lord hath converted and changed the heart of a sinner there is wrought in him a present hatred of sin the man loved his sins before and took pleasure in unrighteousness held it fast and defended it sin is now seen as the greatest evil and the more he sees it the more he hates it As soon as ever the heart is changed immediately it is a sin-hating heart I do not say there is no sin but I say the heart hates sin The evil that I hate said Paul Rom. 7. 15. and in Ezek. 36. where God promiseth to give them a new heart he saith Then shall ye remember your own evil wayes and shall loath your selves in your own sight for your iniquities and for your abominations Quest But here now is a great Scruple how a person may know that he hates sin Many think they do so and are deceived How a man may know that he hates sin it proves only a passion Sol. In true hatred there are six things 1. An extream detestation Every dislike is not hatred but true hatred is an extream loathing Thou shalt cast them away as a menstruous cloath thou shalt say unto it Get thee hence Isai 30. 22. 2. An earnest separation He that hated his wife did sue out a Bill of divorce from her in the Law 3. An irreconcileable alienation Two angry men may be made friends but if two men hate each other friendship is everlastingly broken betwixt them 4. A constant and perpetual colluctation If they cannot be severed one from the other they still oppose and conflict one with the other 5. A deadly intention and destruction for nothing satisfies hatred but death and ruine Saul hated David and sought his life Absalom hated Amnon and killed him 6. An impartial aversation hatred is of the whole kind I hate every false way Wilt thou now know whether God hath changed thy heart then ask thy heart What is it that thou abhorrest as the superlative evil what is that which thou wouldst have separated as far from thee as heaven is from hell what is that thy heart will never renew league or friendship with any more what is that against which thy soul doth rise and with which as Israel with Amalek thou hast war for ever what is that which thou wilt be avenged of and daily dost endeavour the mortifying and crucifying of what is that which thou sets thy heart against in the comprehensive latitude thereof whether great or little open or secret If it be sin if it be thy sins assuredly here is true hatred of sin and assuredly here is a most distinguishing Character of a sound Conversion and change It was not wont to be thus with thee nor is this findeable in any unconverted person whosoever Sin was once to thee as Dalilah to Samson and now is it to thee as Tamar to Amnon It was a sweet morsel once which thou heldst fast but now it is the menstruous cloath which thou dost cast away and say get thee hence what have I to do any more with Idols If it be thus with thee bless thy God who hath shewed grace to thy soul 2. When the Lord hath changed and converted the heart of a sinner the sinner presently flies unto Jesus Christ The first stroke of Grace is on the heart and the first breathing of Grace is for Christ as the new born babe flies unto the brests or as any creature doth to its center and place of rest For when the heart is changed by converting grace 1. It breeds the most exquisite discovery and sense of sin and consequently of the souls need of Christ 2. It is most impatient of distance or difference with God and prizeth his reconciled favour superlatively cannot live without it 3. It seeth nothing more valuable in it self or more sutable to its condition then Christ Christus amor meus pondus meum And therefore if you take notice of it you may experimentally find upon the first impressions of Grace that the soul is mostly taken up with Christ and with Faith Oh that I might be found in him Oh that I could believe on him It sees excellency in Christ and Peace in Christ and Redemption in Christ and Righteousness in Christ and Grace in Christ and Kindness in Christ and Help and Life and Heaven and all in Christ In Conversion Christ secretly draws the Soul to himself and being converted the soul strives to draw Christ to it self It would have Christ it must have Christ it is never well it is never satisfied until it hath Christ 3. When the Lord hath converted and changed the heart of a sinner there is wrought in him a present love of God It is wonderful to see how the Tide turns upon Conversion There was once one found weeping very bitterly and being demanded why O said he all other things are loved but Amorum amatur Love it self is not loved So before Conversion a man could find love for his Parents and love for his Relations and love for his Recreations and love for his Profits and love for his Sins but no love for God But after Conversion the man can scarce find any love for any unless it be for his God and in his God A graciously changed Heart is enabled to see 1. The glories in God those most Pure and Amiable Excellencies in God 2. The Transcendent Love of God to it in the Eternity of it in the Freeness of it in the Sweetness and Goodness of it 3. The Unspeakable Communications and Bounties of God towards it in Jesus Christ for the present and for the future It is Grace which makes us to see what a gracious God he is It is Grace which makes us to see what a Royal gift Jesus Christ is It is Grace which makes us apprehensive of all the Love in God and from God and therefore no marvel that the changed heart fals presently in love with God O Love the Lord all ye his Saints into a Love of Friendship and into a Love of Complacence as they speake that it admires God and prizeth Communion with him and takes its full and highest
often an eye-salve than an heart-salve they may be a qualm to bring sin to sence when yet they are not a potion to bring off the sinner from wandring 3. Again twixt impediment to sin and twixt amendment of sin Impediment to sin and amendment of sin Miseries and straits may be a Dam to stop the Current when yet they are not like the Prophets salt effectual to heal the waters A Lock may stop a Thief but not alter him When the the Prophet Eliah met Ahab with a sharp message about Naboth's bloâ—d and Vineyard it made him go softly it cooled his spirit but did not change it Miseries more ordinarily for the present make men less forward and bold in sin as Jupiter's Log did quash the noise of the Frogs when yet they make them not so good as to turn them from sin They do like a shower of rain and hail make the Traveller to stand a while under the Tree who yet intends to hold on his journey again 4. Again twixt Declamation and Declination A sinner under misery may play the Oratour and yet never prove the Penitentiary Declamation ' and Declination he may both indite and accuse the sin which yet by no means he intends to condemn and execute It is one thing to confess that my sins do now hold me in bonds of affliction and thereupon to profess a discharge of such inmates and it is another thing really to repent and to forsake those sins yea the very those which a man more then suspects as patrons of his misery So that straits may bring sin to sight and the sinner to a stand and to a confession yet not always to repentance and to conversion which is true This is true 1. Of inward straits those manacling and severe fetters of conscience to which no distresses are comparable The boylings of Of Inward straits conscience may be but like the boylings of the Sea a person may have many guilts fretting there like a Leprosie and gnawing there like death and flaming there like hell it self and yet not be brought off from sin As Judas who betrayed his Master O think of that sin and fell into quick horrours of conscience and these cured him not but he proceeded to despair and then to self-murther 2. Of outward straits which do never come without cause but many times go off without remedy they may in all the sorts of Of Outwardâ— straits them say oft times as they did of Babylon We would have healed Babylon and she would not be healed They find us evil and they leave us worse as we do our friends upon their dying-beds Ye revolt more and more why should ye be smitten any more Isa 1. 5. This is evident in Pharaoh whose hardnings increased like the iron with the stroaks Or like the Snake which Salvian spake did multiply by occision It was no better with Saul and Ahab nor with that King Ahaz who is blackt and fingred out amongst all the Kings of Judah because he sought not to the Lord in his distress but trespassed yet more against the Lord This is that King Ahaz 2 Chron. 28. 22. Thus it was with the Israelites many a time who felt the scourage but mended not their work but with bleeding shoulders oft times went away to sin and no sooner were the Assizes past but they adventured the way to the prison again If you now demand the Reasons why straits or miseries do not Reasons of it always bring men off from sins I answer 1. Because that onely true Grace is it which brings men off from sins Afflictions may be considered two ways either immediately Onely true grace brings men off from sin and solitarily so they are not forcible to bring any man oâ—f from his sinfull course no punishment whatsoever is an immediate Agent and sufficient to turn a sinner Mediately and concomitantly as they are sanctified i. either as they light upon an heart sanctified or as sanctifying Grace with them or by them is wrought in the soul and so they may bring off the heart from sin not the naked afflictions but grace in the heart afflicted turns the heart for nothing turns the heart from sin buâ— that which is contrary unto sin now though miseries are contrary to the sinner yet not to the sin they are contrary to the sinners ease and way but not to the affection and delight of sin which may and oft times doth live and remain even under extreme miseries Now then many men are in miseries by reason of sin yet they turn not from sin because they want true grace by the strength of which alone men come off from sin for that it is which changeth the sinfull heart You know that Physick ordinarily works as the body is into which it is received there must be some strength of nature to help it else it will not work the Philosophers rule being true Quicquid recipitur recipitur ad modum recipientis The heat which melts the wax hardens the clay and the juice which goes into the Rose makes it sweet but that which goes into the Nettle makes it stink so it is with miseries they work as he is on whom they fall if true grace be not in the heart what good use can an evil heart make of them 2. Secondly Because straits and miseries are sometimes meerly judicial onely the strokes of revenging Justice You know that Straits are somtimes meerly judicial there is a great deal of difference 'twixt a whip which causeth smart and a plaister which causeth healing All miseries which befall us are not healing plaisters sometimes they are judicial lashes they are not the wounds of a friend but of an enemy God is said in Job to distribute sorrows in wrath and then they are not remedial effects but exitial they come not then with their teaching and recovering assistance but are the beginnings of a greater judgment yet to come You know that God plagued Pharaoh in a judicial way the miseries which befel him were as sharp and great and many and came as thick as most that ever befel any man of whom we ever read nevertheless they were so far from reclaiming of him from his sins that still he hardned his heart and exalted himself If you should demand why it should be thus with him that no not quick nor great nor many plagues did him any good I answer One cause amongst many is this Because they came onely in a judicial way they did not come out of the hand of a mercifull Father but of a provoked and revenging Judge If there be not grace in the heart to joyn with and to improve the affliction and if there be not mercy to send out and bless the affliction it will then never do us good it will not turn us from our Sins 3. Thirdly The Heart of a Sinner may be above his miseries There is not such a power in miseries alone as to
deep which no Potion can remove and sin doth not sit close and strong to the heart which no not extreme miseries can occasionally and effectually discharge and quit There are no penalties so grievously and unspeakably afflicting and miserable as those in Hell which cause weeping and gnashing of teeth and yet these though highest for intention and endless for duration never are able to turn the sinning soul so madly and excessively is the person enthralled that the greatest Calamities effectually avail not to bring him off from the least course of Iniquities 3. Not to wonder if some men make ordinary Revolts after ordinary miseries Some persons may like some stones which Wonder not if â—ome men Revolt after miseries yield a sweat in change of weather somewhat reflect on themselves and relent and confess and profess what they will be and do if God will take off his heavy hand And may I not appeal to many of you this day whose hearts have been visited with the plague that thus then it was with you c. Yet when the plague is off and the smart and fear gone the bitterness of death is past that health succeeds the sickness and plenty succeeds the want and strength succeeds the weakness good Lord what are they how live they what do they what mind they what affect they what work they Do they leave their sins ah as the Pharisees made their proselites twice as much more the children of the Devil then before so these men become more vile more profane more careless more rebellious against the truth of God more earthly sensual then ever Brethren if as Solomon spake in another case When thou seest a violent perverting of judgment and justice in a Province marvel not at the matter So Eccl. 5. 8. if thou seest a man to pervert the judgments of the Lord to pervert his afflicting hand to go on in his sins after he is punished for his sins I say in this case do not much marvel at the matter for miseries alone cannot make any saving impression or sanctified alterations If men may hold fast their sins even under their miseries as a Thief may steal under the Gallows what marvel then if they go on in their sins after their miseries And what cause have we to think that any pious semblances and pretences should hold long which did owe themselves to such temporary causes as were never able to alter the sinners heart though they were in some degree able to stop the sinning person But I proceed to a second Use which shall be a little to reflect on our own hearts and wayes and to enquire how it is with us Use 2. Reflect upon our own hearts notwithstanding the miseries and straits that are upon us as Solomon spake concerning sin Who can say My heart is clean that I may speak this day concerning punishment of sin Who can say I have been free As it was in Egypt upon the departure of the Israelites so it hath been of late with most of us there is scarce an house of us where at least one hath not been dead I may confidently affirm That either death in opposition to Life or death in opposition to Livelihood to some one kind or degree of outward comfort hath within this year befallen most of us that are now here this day Nevertheless I pray you tell me Can you shew your repentance yet as you can relate your straits and miseries still Have not we the Ministers of God faithfully and plainly told you of your sins have not your miseries and straits been clear Glasses to represent your sins have not your Consciences delivered up your sins and said as Jonah I know that for my sake so they for our sake this great Tempest is upon you Jon. 1. 12. Were you not in great fears in great griefs and troubles of mind need I say in great Protestations and Purposes But now I demand of you Have your great straits brought you off from your great sins did they not find thee in a sinful way and do they not now leave thee walking in that path Ah! and must the Lord say of you They refuse to receive instruction they turn not to him that smites yet have they not returned to me they will know no shame they are reprobate silver they are not refined nor purged their scum is not departed If we continue in sin after miseries wherefore should they be smitten any more they revolt more and more Well if it be thus with thee yet remember 1. That this continuance in sin notwithstanding our miseries may give us just suspicion to sear that our Corrections come not We may suspect our corrections comâ— not from mercy from mercy because they go off with impenitency You need not ascend into heaven to pry whether your chastisements come out of the land of Indulgence or of Vengeance when they come from a merciful hand they are assisted â—â—th some recovering and curing blessing The Prophet saith That the Lord did not smite his people as he smote others and in two respects he Isa 27. 7. manifests the difference one of Proportion He did debate with them in measure ver 8. Another of Operation v. 9. By this shall the iniquities of Jacob be purged and this is all the fruit to take awy his sins God never strikes in mercy but he in some measure betters the sinner Look as every outward good if it comes in mercy it proves a step unto more holiness so every outward misery if it come in mercy it proves a stop nay an abatement of more sinfulness 2. We may justly fear that our hearts are hardned for the soft We may fear our hearts are hardned heart will tremble with Josiah at a correction in a threatning and much more will it melt and amend when it is in execution as he in Job 34. 31. I have born chastisement I will not offend any more But when the heart can feel wrath as well as hear of it and receive the stroaks with stoutness and strike God by sinning when God strikes it by punishing is it not hardned unsensible I had almost said desperace And is an hardned condition a good or safe condition 3. Do we not treble our accounts unto God by not We treble our accounts to God coming off from sins which have brought on our miseries Now we must answer 1. For the sins which brought down our corrections 2. For the continuing in those sins still 3. For doing this being corrected thus for our sins not onely thy sins but Gods punishments being thus abused come into the account the Vineyard was reckoned with for the pruning as well as the withering 4. And lastly What can we look for from God when former miseries bring us not off from former sins Christ said Sin no What can we look for from God when miseries do not bring us off from our sins more least a worse thing befall
And is this excuse to pass for currant hath not God dealt Answered with thee often didst not thou more often harden thine own heart willingly withdraw thy self and all out of a love to sin 2. Though thou couldst not convert thine own heart yet this thou mightest have done in the times of afflictions c. considered what might move the Lord thus to deal with thee all or some of the causes which thy own conscience did freely suggest and the ends which God pointed thee to to reform them And then to have gone to him by vehement prayer to convert thy heart from thy sins to teach it righteousness to submit to his instructions Thou mightst thus have gone to him who can convert and have waited on him in the means of conversion but thou didst nor desire after him nor delightedst to seek him c. 2. But What may we do to prevent this shuffling and assaying of means to support us in sinning when the Lord deals with us and Means to prevent this shuffling calls upon us for the leaving of sin Sol. I would commend these five Directions 1. Strive to be convinced of this That as long as the Course is a sinfull Course it Be convinced of this That a sinfull course cannot be a 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 safe course can never be a safe Course We may weary our selves in the multitude of our imaginations and ways but run what course you please and pursue your own devices yet this ye shall reap of the Lord you shall lie down in your shame and sorrow you may run to new experiments but misery will follow your sins the next time as well as this and in every way as well as one way Your sins will find you out and as long as you carry your sins with you you cannot keep off calamities from you 2. Of necessity you must return or perish Your sinfull course is You must return or perish a by-path and leads to death It is sinfull and you know it and being sinfull it must be miserable To what end doth the Patient excuse the taking of the Receipt the wholsome Balm he must die if he doth not receive it So consider To what end do I thus vary my paths and shuffle and seek supports there is nothing strong enough to secure a sinner and let me sadly consider that I must one time or other leave these sinnings or else farewel my Soul and Salvation 3. It cannot but be best the sooner it is I must return or perish too soon I cannot return and the sooner the better A Our Return is best the sooner it is Best For Safety Souldier of a middle age a Counsellor of a grave age and a Penitent of a young age are still the best The work which must be done is best done when soonest Best for Safety for thy life is very uncertain and if thou doest not leave thy sins to day thou mayest be in Hell for ought thou knowest for thy sins to morrow For Acceptance the Lord likes it best when For Acceptance one word of Mercy can cause us to trust and one shaking of the Rod can cause us to tremble and when one command sufficeth to turn us when upon the first Arrest we give up our Weapons it pleaseth Soveraignty best For Quietness for we do hereby deliver not onely our Souls but Bodies also from many troubles For Quietness the sooner we do repent and plainly yield why Conscience speaks peace the sooner and God commands mercies the faster strong Sins breed long afflictions but give up the Sins and God gives up the Quarrel throw over Bichri's head to Joab and he will presently remove the siege If a man had health he might take sleep the better but as long as the body is diseased it is unquiet 4. Strive against those diverting Principles which do draw thee from the right and onely way and put thee on by-thoughts and Strive against diverting Principles as Presumption of Mercy Or of thy own Power by-paths and a vain assayment of means to support us As 1. Presumption either of Mercy though thou doest add drunkenness to thirst and still findest out thine own inventions or thine own Power Thou mayest be hindred of the time which thou doest project and mayest want strength to execute thy purposes For sinfull practises do altogether weaken our power whilest they delude us with a conceit of strength hereafter 2. Stoutness and pride of spirit Do not in a bravery of villany dispute with the Almighty Stoutness and pride of spirir God it may prove a sad Victory to thee that thou art able to reject good counsel and to quench all good motions 3. Delight Delight in sin in sin which drowns the errand of all afflictions c. 5. Beseech the Lord at the very first to circumcise the stubbornness Beseech the Lord to câ—rcumcise the stubbornness of your hearts of your hearts and to give you the understanding ear and the obedient spirit that when in the Word he calls upon you to turn from your sins your hearts may fall down and cry out O Lord turn me and when by afflictions he calls upon you to turn you may presently humble your hearts and cry out O Lord pardon me O Lord heal me O Lord turn and save me Let us all think of this You know that the Lord is displeased with us and we have hitherto hardened our hearts against the Lord God hath dealt with us once twice often in publick in private ways and still we seek our own ways delude the work of Repentance set nothing to heart nor repent of our evil doings I I. Now I proceed to the Second thing which is The final The final disappointment of all the Prodigals designs Doct. 2. Nothing shall avail the shuffling sinner till he return but God will disappoint all his pâ—ojects Some things premised This is meantâ— of a sinner whom God intends to convert disappointment of the Prodigals assays and designs in these words And no man gave unto him Whence I observe That nothing shall avail the shuffling sinner until he doth turn from his sins but God will disappoint all his projects batter down all his confidences frustrate all his expectations drive him out of all his harbours and overthrow all the means and ways which he flies unto Before I confirm this Assertion let me premise a few particulars that so you may rightly conceive the scope of it Thus then 1. I intend the Assertion of a sinner whom God doth intend to convert others he may leave to prosper in their imaginations For you see it raised from the disappointment of a Prodigal one whose conversion at length attended his manifold afflictions and as manifold contrivances to keep up his sinfull conversation though such a person knows not it nor thinks on it yet God is secretly against him and thrusts him off from all the Cities of Refuge
Repentance never to be repented of Hast thou rightly considered of sin why what art thou now doing where mayest thou now be found what course doest thou take to leave sin what helps doest thou apply thy self unto what occasions of sin doest thou decline what furtherances of a new life dost thou regard and use If there be no watchfulness over thy spirit no restraint to thy flesh no stoutness of resolution no separation from the occasions of sin no humble study and respect to the Word no fruitfull converse with holy society how is it that thou sayest thou hast considered thy sins Whether the consideration of sin may be right and available to Repentance when yet there are some sins which a man thinks not II. Case Whether Consideration of sin may be right when there are some sins that a man thinks not of Particular inconsideration if it be voluntary doth prejudice Repentance on To this I conjecture it may be thus answered 1. That actual or particular inconsideration if it be voluntary and affected doth prejudice Repentance For it is to be supposed that he who will not take the pains to think of his sins hath 〈◊〉 yet found an heart or a will to leave his sins Therefore consider that actual inconsideration may arise either From want of light or evidence the eyes of the mind are not yet so fully opened they are not so perfectly acquainted with the Law which discovers sin much sin they see but not all not that they would not but because they cannot so a weak eye hath not such clear and full sight Or From hypocrisie of will when means of evidence are present and commands of consideration are urged but either from a secret love of sin or from a laziness of spirit the person will not take pains to consider throughly of his manifold sins this kind of inconsideration being wilfull and affected will be interpreted for Impenitency because the person will not endeavour faithfully the wayes of Repentance 2. That the latitude of the Object considered doth not so immediately discover and decide as the efficacy and influence flowing from consideration it self Though I am not able to find out every particular wherein I do offend yet if by the consideration of those sins which I do consider of my heart doth melt and mourn and strives to loath and forsake them because they are sinfull If these drive me out of my self unto Christ if these occasion me earnestly to acquaint my self with God to beg for Reconciliation for Grace for Mercy for Strength c. though there be many sins which I have not actually thought on yet this may be a right and penitential consideration III. Case Whether a single Consideration of sin be sufficient to repentance Another Case may be this Whether the Consideration of sin tending to Repentance must be frequent or Whether a single Consideration may be sufficient For the resolution of this Case thus 1. Divines distinguish of Repentance that Distinctions premised Repentance is either Initial or Gradual it is either Initial or Gradual The Initial Repentance is the first turning from sin nay the very first will and desire so to do with a purpose and endeavour to effect it The Gradual Repentance is the ripening and perfecting of Repentance in the degrees of all the parts of it 2. Again There is a two-fold consideration of sin One is solemn wherein the There is a twofold consideration of sin Solemn soul sequesters it self earnestly searcheth into the Law of God and into its own spirit and into the ways of Life perusing and reviewing the sinfull condition all over in the parts and kinds in the hainous circumstances and agravations and hereupon solemnly indites it self before the Lord by confessing judging c. Another is ordinary which is a daily looking Ordinary over the Book and perusing of the sinfull Accounts from time to time 3. You must distinguish twixt the Distinguish twixt the Grace of Repentance and the Act of it Grace or quality of Repentance and twixt the Act or exercise of Repentance the Grace is wrought onely by Gods Spirit the Exercise or operation is wrought and occasioned by consideration These things being premised I conjecture thus much 1. That solemn Consideration is necessary to initial Repentance Solemn consideration necessary to Initial Repentance The Heart is not effectually excited to the actual leaving of sin until it doth first seriously examine and try it self find out and ponder the vileness of its sinning and transgression slight thoughts work no more then slight confessions That we are all sinners and there 's an end but the heart must look on sin in the kinds circumstances hellish vileness of its thoughts if ever it will repent indeed 2. That ordinary consideration is necessary to gradual Repentance If ever you would perfect your Ordinary consideration necessary to Gradual Repentance Repentance you must ever think of your sins those that are past those that are present By ordinary consideration I do not mean a slight and perfunctory view of them but a daily view though not in length of time yet having the same disposition of heart to condemn and abhor them and quickning us more fervently to seek God for strength and to decline the occasions of sin and to grow more watchfull and tender c. If you do not ordinarily consider of the vileness of sin you will be ordinarily insnared by the deceitfulness of sin if you would enjoy constant victory and deliverance you must admit of frequent consideration As for the solemn Consideration that I conjecture is not necessary at all times but upon special occasions Either 1. Before we Solemn consideration not necessary at all times The times when it is necessary enter into some weighty business 2. When we lie under some weighty afflictions 3. When we are to die and make straight our weighty accounts 4. When we are more solemnly to meet the Lord and renew our Covenanâ—s with him as in the day of Humiliation or when we are to come unto the Sacrament Now are we more solemnly and seriously to consider of our sins partly 1. Because now the Lord Reasons of it considers them who come into his special presence how you come 2. Because you are seriously to renew your Repentance which you cannot seriously do without serious consideration 3. Because you are to renew your Covenants with God to keep a more serious watch c. Therefore now let us search our hearts try and consider of our ways renew our Repentance turn with all our strength unto the Lord put away iniquity far from us humble our selves low before the Lord confess our sins judge our selves thus if we do we shall find more strength in our Repentance more peace in our Consciences more sweetness in the Sacrament more confidence towards Christ and may comfortably expect the pardon of our sins and salvation by his bloud The third
of hypocrisie or a sink of impiety he loves sin or would not yet leâ—ve it the greatest part of our integâ—ity lies in the hearts frame and purpose that man who is resoled to part with all sin hath an heart who loves all good it is only sound grace which breeds sound resolution 2. It will be a It will be an Apology in case of falling great apology in case of falling that yet it is not presumptuous but of Inâ—irmity The evil that I would not do that do I c. Rom. 7. and rather an affect of a strong temptation then of any secret affection of the heart to sin for where the purpose and resolution of the heart is set against a sin and makes its resistence though the sinning may be great yet it is not presumptuous Four effects this firm Resolution worketh about sin either it doth 1. Cease the motions of it or 2. Abates and lessens them or 3. Disappoints and frustrates them as Joseph about his mistress or else 4. It mitigates and corrects them in the degree of guilt either it keeps me sound or else causeth that the wound is less 3. Such a man may confidently go to God for help and Such a one may confidently go to God for help assistance If I regard iniquity in my heart the Lord will not hear my prayer said David but verily God hath heard me he hath attended to the voice of my Prayer Psal 69. 18 19. Thou shalt not struggle with sin in vain nor cry unto God in vain if once thou couldst be firmly resolved against sin thou shouldst more confidently repair to Christ and shouldst assuredly find more Victory over it as Paul Rom. 7. 24 25. What have I to do any more with idols I have heard him and observed him I am like a green Fir-Tree from me is thy fruit found Hos 14. 8. 4. And more confidently expect the remission of sins past with what face can a mâ—n embolden himself before the And Confidently expect Remission of sins past Lord O Lord I beseech thee to pardon such or such a sin and I trust thou wilt do it but I am not yet resolved to leave it And when a person can come before the Lord and say Search and tell me O Lord if there be any way of wickedness which I know and allow against which I am not resolved and strive Now O Lord thou art a gracious God I beseech thee for thy mercies sake forgive my sins blot them out I hate them with an unfeigned hatred do thou for thine own sake pardon and subdue them 5. You shall much free your selves from the ancient suggestions of Satan about particular Sins It will free us from the Suggestions of Satan about particular sins Resist the Divel and he will flee from you Jam. 4. 7. Where there is no hope of Victory there will be little encouragement to fight firm resolutions are like rocks against which the waves may beat and strike but cannot move nor alter Satan may indeed somewhat molest but the heart is in a sort impregnable which is stedfastly resolved Christiana sum said she I am a Christian who was much assaulted to deny the Faith and Luther in Gen. so silenced all threats and allurements for the abnegation of Christ When they saw Paul's resolution fixed for Jerusalem they gave off their importunity so Temptations will slack when our Resolutions are settled It is in vain I will not hearken thou mayest molest me Satan but I will never yield unto thee 6. You will be less interrupted in your holy services Whilest the heart is any thing indifferent and flexible sinfull motions We shall be less interrupted in our holy services like the Birds will return and flock about the Corn if the Watchman be now there and anon removed When the Minister is speaking to your ear Sin will be speaking to your heart and when your tongues are speaking to God your thoughts will be busied in giving Sin an answer or the World But if the heart were more resolved against sin it would be more united in duty the thoughts and mind and affections would be more collected and center'd upon the 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 the work in hand it would not scatter so much it would not follow that which it cares not for but peremptorily abhors The next Use shall be for Direction and that in two particulars Vse 2. Direction 1. How to raise a solid Resolution 2. How to keep and maintain it First The Means to raise it There are some things of How to raise a solid Resolution which you must take heed and strive against as being vigorous impediments to the rearing of this frame and twisting of this firm cord Take heed of 1. A secret favouring of sin As long as your hearts cunningly connive at and harbour your lusts those evil Inmates A secret faâ—ouring of sin you will never throughly come to a Resolution to cast them off For love will untwist many arguments and prevail against strong Motives it will let down your mind as fast as reasons do raise it up It is the best Friend and strongest Advocate that sin hath You see a Parent perhaps David against Absalom resolved to exile his Child from his presence but natural affection turned him and wrought so after a while that David longs for Absalom again As a Spring will work out that which is cast in so will a secret affection to sin work off the impression of all Arguments and any such preposterous Resolves against sin 2. A tenderness or delicacy of spirit I mean an inordinate Delicacy of spirit self-love Love of sin and so also the love of our selves both of them are adversaries to a penitential Resolution If a man will go to Heaven asleep have his ease and his friends and his liberty and his safeties and his quiet and his pleasures and great matters he will never come to a through Resolution God likes no such bargain no condition as I am willing to serve thee but I am resolved never to suffer for thee I will be good if I may be safe I will go to sea but on condition I shall meet with no storms I will enter into the war but on condition that I will have no blows We must be at a point for all things except what is good if we be resolved to be good indeed no not Life it self must be dearer to us than that which is far better than Life 3. A perversness of spirit on self-wilfulness if you do resolve A perversness of spirit to be your own Master you can never resolve to be Gods Servant if your hearts be not disposable to his will they will never be flexible and fixed on his work You must in many things be contented to deny your own thoughts and to captivate your own judgments and reasonings and to submit both your judgment and will to a Divine Rule and
occulta even your secret sins que sunt contra duo ultima decalogi praecepta Nay those which are committed against the two last commandments circumstancias yea and all the circumstances of your sins this is the confession which the Church of Rome in the Trent Council doth injoin upon pain of Anathema to be made unto the Priest Sess 14. Can. 7. but without any warrant from the Scripture or averment from true Antiquity for Scripture assures us that confession of sin made to God alone obtained remission of sins and favour Psal 32. 5. I said I will confess my sins unto the Lord and thou forgavest the iniquity of my sin Lo here confession to God alone not to a Priest and upon it remission of sins by God himself dares any Popish Priest reverse this absolution or confession because not made to man which yet is accepted with God Saint Chrysostome speaks strange words Let Tom. 5. Hom. de paenit confess Lat. â—d Bas an 1 558. God onely see thee confessing And again upon Hob. 12. Hom. 31. 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 Reveal thy way unto the Lord 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 Confess them before God and again 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 Confess thy sins before thy Judge and Saint Austins tongue needs to be clipped Quid mihi cum hominibus ut audiant confessiones nostras Conf. lib 10. cap. 13. quasi ipsi sanaturi sint omnes languores meas What have I to do with men that they should hear my confessions as though they could heal all my diseases Saint Basil saith that the groans of his In Psal 37. heart did suffice for a Confession Surely here was no absolute necessity to confess all to the Priest but yet again observe there is a use of Confession in case of 1. Injury 2. Anxiety 3. Scandal to the Church as in the next particular 2. Christian and prudential Confession and this is the acknowledging Christian and prudential of sins to men either in case of notorious scandal which the primitive Churches much urged and used or else in case of trouble and thus we deny not but any person may lawfully and warrantably go unto a faithful godly skilful compassionate Minister and confess his sins either to obtain counsel out of the Word of God for the remedy of sins to recover or prevent them or to be imformed aright concerning his present estate or to have his conscience quieted and settled 3. Penitential which is made onely to God this the Scripture Penitential to God doth command and this wee hold as absolutely necessary when wee do repent then to make confession of our sins to God Penitential confession considered In respect of the material part onely or Secondly This penitential confession may be considered either in respect of the material part onely and so it consists of words whereby we acknowledge wherein we have transgressed Hos 4. ver 1 2. Or of the formal part also and thus it conteins these Of the formal also ingredients which specifie and distâ—nguish it from all superstitious or hypocritical or false confessions 1. It is an hearty acknowledgment noâ— nuda confessio feigned And so it is or meerly verbal confession It is affectionate the lips do uâ—ter An hearty acknowledgment the mind of the heart in it cum sensu peccati miseriae as a sick man opens his disease here I feel it c. The publican smote upon his breast and confessed True confession is the language of the very soul being very sensible of sin 2. It is voluntary not coacta confessio the Thief may confess upon the rack though And voluntary there were no wrath in God no rack in conscience no flames in hell yet the true penitent will confess When there is no other cause of confession of sin but that which is penal it is not then truly penitential Pharaoh confessed under the plagues and Judas under the stings of conscience it was an extorted confession but penitential confession is voluntary it is an act that ariseth from an inward displicence with and detestation of sin though there be no apprehension of hell no sense of wrath yet the penitent confesseth even to a Father I have sinned Many of the Saints did I shut up in prison and when they were put to death I gave my voice against them I punished them oft in every Synagogue Acts 26. 10 11. 3. It is distinct and not confused the penitent hath special bills of inditement he knows his sins and And distinct wherein he hath exceeded and failed such sins as he hath most delighted in such as he hath most walked in such as he hath most dishonoured God by such as cleave most unto his nature such as conscience may be most clogged with these he doth more especially confess unto God and indite and condemn himself for small sins as well as great Sauls lap as well as Vriahs murther antient sins as well as present secret sins as well as open But must our confession of sins be particular Sol. Either explicitly so or virtually so the heart hath a particular intention or affection the more particular the better to humble our hearts to obtein mercies to make us fervent As David though hee did give a touch at all his sins in the beginning of the 51 Psalm yet at length brancheth his confession into particulars into that of Adultery and the other of Blood So doth Paul often uncover his special sins of Persecuting the Church and Blaspheming and of Injuriousness Judas cryed out of Blood but not of Covetousâ—ess and Hypocrisie 4. It is Humble and not And Humble proud as Benhadads servants with ropes c. done with Contrition of Heart not with Ostentation of Spirit Like a flash of Lightning breaks out of a cloud rented and Josephs garment was shewed to his father rent and dipt in blood Anciently when they did confess their sins to God they did it with Sackâ—loth and Ashes and the opening of their sins is termed The pouring out of water before the Lord I am vile Job 40. 4. Not worthy c. Luke 15. because when they pâ—ured out their sins in confession of Tongue they likewise poured out contrition of Heart their tears of Grief spake as much as the words of their Lips I will declare mine Iniquities and be sorry for my sin Psal 38. The Papists indeed have as course a Garment and as severe a Garb in penitential confession as any but underneath they have dainty Linnen there lies great pride under all this pretended Humiliation as if all this did merit at the hands of God the Voice is humble Jacob's but the pride upon the act is proud Esau's If they saw the wrong which they did by sinning how could they so proudly challenge God upon their confessing what doth the murtherer deserve because he confesseth But truly Penitential Confession is accompanied with grief in the heart and with
be it in Spirituals or Naturals or Civils or Morals dwell within you and rule over you it may be said of you what the Prophet spake of the stout-hearted They were far from righteousness 3. Few men use the means to make them humble they seldom are at home they are so studious of other mens sins that they Few men use the means to make them humble neglect their own This is a most ordinary truth that they who are so prying after the faults of others seldom search themselvs and hereby onely enable their own pride but disable themselvs for humbleness It is not forreign but experimental knowledge which makes us lowly But you may reply How may it bee known that our hearts are not lofty but lowly that so we may How it may be known that our hearts are not lofty but lowly judge our repentance not to be be formal but sound Sol. Premise a word or two and then I have done that I speak onely of Lowliness as it is to be found in Christians in this life which is not a state of perfection but imperfection Secondly as it in conflict and combate not as absolute and free Now then 1. If you be truly lowly then you live altogether upon free and meer mercy You then live upon meer mercy Every mercy is an alms unto you and is sued out not upon desert but upon promise you can find no mony to buy corn but all must be free gift you will be content to buy without mony and to receive without price 2. You will then be more patient under delays it is but a proud beggar who will be served at first knock or else will be gone It is a very ill sign when we are so You will be patient under delayes quick with God that he shall lose our service if he doth not presently send out his answers Were we indeed sensible of our own unworthiness we would hold it no disparagement to wait at heaven gates he will patiently wait for some mercy who humbly knows that he deservs none Even an humble heart may urge God to make haste but it is our proud heart which accuseth and quarrels with him for delay 3. You will be silent in denials and withdrawments Doth not God answer me Why I deserv no look nor answer Doth he You will be silent in denials not give what I ask but take away what he hath given Why it is the Lord let him do with his own what he pleaseth It is mercy that I have yet any mercy I am unworthy to enjoy any good who am most worthy to enjoy all evil When we are our selves this will be our temper if we be humble God shall use his own authority and pleasure to dispose of the mercies which we crave and of the mercies also which we have we will be more patient in denials and silent in losses What can we say who are unworthy of all 4. You will be very thankful for any answer or the least mercy If nothing will content us but great mercies assuredly we are not You will be very thankful for the least mercy humble but have too great spirits He who indeed judgeth himself not worthy of the least of all the mercies and truth which God shews unto him will take up a great misery with quietness and a little mercy with thankfulness The body of man if it bee sound can stoop for a pin as well as for a piece and the heart if it be humble can bless for little mercies as well as for great The touch of the little finger as well as of the great will make a well-tuned stringed instrument speak and even the whisperings of the voice are ecchoed back in an exact concave The least drops of mercy affect the lowly heart which can awake upon the least noise The proud heart like the mountain yields a poor crop after a shower of mercies but the humble heart like the Gardens yields plenty of sweet smelling sacrifices after the least dews or drops of merciful blessings and answers from God Now say How do you plead with God when you approach unto him what can you shew for the mercies that you ask onely his own mercie no worth in you to move him And how are you when God delaies or denies or removes his mercies can you then be in dust and ashes and not in fire and flames can you yet quietly serve him wait on him depend on him submit to him upon this ground Ah! I am a sinner I have wronged the Father of mercies abused all his mercies am not worthy of the least of mercies It is mercy that ever I had mercy that now I have any that which is lost and denied I am not worthy of them that which I have I am not worthy of And when God answers you either in spirituals to your souls or in temporals to your outward man How do you look upon his answers Do you look a squint on them as he upon Solomons Cities Are you able to abuse great mercies and slight the least 5. If you bee The more meâ—cies from God will make you more humble truly humble then the more mercies and answers from God will still add and make you more humble and lowly Not onely the sense of your iniquities but the experience of Gods mercies will make you low in your eies Mercies have two effects upon humble hearts they make them more humble and more fruitful David in 2 Sam. 7. when God gave him the advouzon and as it were confirmed and added to his former Charter an intention of greater mercy to his posterity Why this casts David down ver 18. Then went King David in and saâ—e before the Lord and he said Who am I O Lord God and what is my house that thou hast brought me hitherto The more corn is in the ear the more it hangs down the head and the tree bends most when laden with fruit But if mercies make us forget God as afflictions make us forget our selves if it be with us as with the Arrow which when the Bow is most bent and drawn it flies farthest from us Or as with the Dial which casts the shortest shadow when the Sun is highest or as with some grounds which yields the rankest corn after the fullest tillage we grow careless of God of his Ordinances in publick of his worship in private scornful of heavenly reproof admonition obedience alas this shews we are not humble If upon due search we find our hearts lifted up with an opinion 2. Vse We should be humbled for the want of this humbleness of our own worth and excellencies and far from penitential humblings We should be humbled for want of this humbleness as Hezekiah though his heart was lifted up yet the text saith He humbled himself for the pride of his heart 2 Chron. 32. 25 26 27. And use the means by which we may become humbly sensible of our own
brests because we are empty that we would find any causes of good in our selves who at our best are unprofitable and unworthy 3. Because it is a very dangerous thing to stand upon our personal It is very dangerous to stand upon personal worthiness worthiness when we approach unto the Lord For Now we come without Christ we do sacrifice alone we take the Office of our high Priest out of his hands Nay we frustrate the worthiness of Christ for we cannot joyn our worthiness and his together if we plead in our own names we make void his As it is in the point of Justification if we stand to our own righteousness we make void the righteousness of Christ So is it in the matter of supplication if we stand to our own worthiness and will be heard for our own sake we exclude the merit of Christs intercession we may as well be our own redeemers as our own intercessours We meet with pure justice for if we stand upon personal dignity then our qualities and actions must necessarily have equality to justice God must dispence to us according to our own deserts when we stand upon our own worthiness then God deals with us in justice if we renounce it then room is made for the mercy-seat Quest But then you will demand how may we know that How we may know that we are truly sensible of our unworthiness we are rightly sensible of our unworthiness in our approaches unto God Sol. I conjecture thus 1. If you are sensible of your own Unworthiness when you pray unto the Lord Then Jesus Christ will be your greatest plea If Jesus Christ be our greatest Plea you will begin to move in his Name and you will urge and prosecute it in his Name and you will shut it up with an expectation in his Name Thou wilt not say I am now in an excellent soft temper and for its sake shall I prevail and I have carried the day through now with more affections and less distractions therefore for this shall I prevail As Leah said I have born my husband this son therefore my husband will love me But in all thy sacrifices and services thou wilt fly unto a Mediator and still plead his Title his Worth his Merit Lord help me to pray for Christ's sake Lord give me mercy and grace for Christ's sake Lord hear accept answer do me good for thy Christ's sake 2. Then the Covenant of Grace will put heart into you and draw If the Covenant of Grace put heart into you you on alone to your performances as the wind alone will stir the Mill or the tide alone will drive the Boat I assure you that if you be rightly sensible of your Unworthiness you will look after a Mercy-Seat and after a Throne of Grace you will be inquisitive upon what terms Grants of Mercy and of Grace are issued out of the Court of Heaven Nor will it seem a small thing in thine eyes that the Lord will do good to an unworthy sinner for his own sake yea that he hath affirmed as much and obliged himself thereto in a firm Covenant This will breed in thee Thankfulness it will be not onely a support to thy soul but a joy to thy heart thy case is yet hopefull for though thou be not worthy yet God will do thee good readily and freely And Vsefulness thou wilt be readily content to accept of mercy upon the terms of mercy A beggar ready to starve will be glad to take an Alms he will put out his hand to receive it and thank you too As the Servants of Benhadad catcht the word Thy servant c. so will you the word of promise Respect Lord for thy Covenant sake At this door of free Grace there you shall have the sinner sensible of his unworthiness standing night and day expecting when the Scepter shall be held out Gods own arguments and motives of doing good which are to be found onely in the Covenant of Grace they are such as you will accept of with all your hearts to plead with God The second Use is for Encouragement That though we be sensible of our Unworthiness either to approach unto God or to Vse 2. Encouragement to draw near to the Throne of Grace speak unto God and much more to deserve any thing from God yet not to be discouraged but humbly and confidently to draw near to the Throne of Grace expecting grace and mercy to help in time of need And to excite you thereto consider 1. It is not our merit but our duty that we must look unto 'T is not thousands of Rams or ten thousand Rivers of Oyl it is not It is not our merit but our duty we must look unto the Pearls of the Sea or the Treasures of the Earth or the Excellencies of Angels alas God puts us not to that to deserve his mercies to deserve his graces if so what one sinner should ever receive mercy or grace no flesh righteous can be justified in his sight and if he should mark what is amiss who should stand before him But the Lord puts us upon our duty Ask and you shall receive knock and it shall be opened unto you Ho every one that thirsts come drink of the water of life freely 2. It is not our worthiness that we must plead but Gods promise It is not our worthiness that we must plead but Gods promise when we pray unto him Remember the word upon which thou hast caused thy servant to hope said David Psal 119. Remember thy Covenant with Abraham Isaac and Jacob said Moses Exod. 32. Thou saidst that thou wouldst do me good said Jacob Gen. 32. Mercies come to thee not for thy worthiness sake but for his promise sake not ex dignitate petentis but ex dignatione donantis 3. You can never be so worthy but that Justice may take exceptions You can never be so worthy but Justice may take exceptions against you nor yet so unworthy but mercy may fill your mouth with arguments Though I were righteous yet would I not answer thee but I would make supplication to my Judge saith Job chap. 9. 15. And Though I am poor and needy yet the Lord thinks upon me said David Psal 40. 17. The proudest Pharisee may find enough to stop his mouth and the humblest Publican may find enough to open it No not the most righteous can stand at the Bar of Justice and yet the most dejected sinner may humbly plead at the Throne of Mercy there are Arguments enough in mercy for any sinner to plead mercy 4. You are not to pray in pride but in faith And then what is We are not to pray in pride but in faith thy condition that Faith cannot deliver up to God through Christ Thou knowest that it is the office of Faith not to present thy worthiness but thy wants It looks on arguments for thee not how good thou art but how
much good thou needest not what thou canst deserve but it looks on what God will bestow Is it the many sins thou hast committed which present an utter unworthiness to thy conscience why Faith will teach thee to confess the debt and yet to crave for pardon Is it the hardness or vileness of thy heart which makes thee afraid Oh! the Lord is of purer eyes than to look on such a dead dog so vile a wretch as I Why Faith will teach thee that though the Lord be lofty and high are his habitations yet of all people he looks after the humble and contrite and hath respect unto them and looks on such through the bloud of the Covenant and that he will give Grace as readily as he will give Mercy and as freely bestow on thee a new heart as a gracious pardon 5. God onely must have the glory to be the Giver of Good and God only must have the glory to be the giver of good therefore be not thou discouraged if thou be admitted onely to be the receiver of good To be King no way befits the Subject the King honours the Subject highly if he make him the Kings Receiver O Christian let it suffice thee let God alone find gifts to bestow do thou study more for hands to receive them if ever thou wouldst have mercy get such an humble and believing heart as to be willing to receive any mercy upon any of Gods terms LUKE 15. 20. And he arose and came to his Father But when he was yet a great way off his Father saw him and had compassion and ran and fell on his neck and kissed him These words contain in them two parts 1. The very Life of true Repentance Which consists not in a bare Resolution but in an active and real Execution I will arise said the Prodigal and here he did arise I will go to my Father and here did come unto his Father He arose and came unto his Father 2. The gracious Acceptance of a real Penitent The Graciousness of it appears 1. In the present observation of him when he was yet a great way off his Father saw him the very intentions much more the present actings of repentance are quickly eyed and observed by a mercifull God 2. In a present affection to him and had compassion the bowels of mercy will stir when the heart of a sinner is penitentially touched 3. In a present Application His Father saw him and his Father pitied him but this is not all His Father also ran and fell on his neck and kissed him Mercy runs and Mercy embraceth and Mercy cheareth the penitent sinner The first part affordeth us this Proposition viz. That penitent intentions and resolutions should be accompanied with present executions and performances The Text properly Doct. 5. Penitent Resolutions should be accompanied with present Executions yields this for the words of it are but the lively and written copy of the Prodigals private and conceived purpose to leave his sinfull courses and to come back to the obedience and service of his Father It is observed of Hezekiah 2 Chron. 29. 3. That he opened the doors of the house of the Lord in the first year and in the first moneth of his reign and repaired them The publick Reformation was the principal work and it was the prime work too So must it be with a true Penitent as soon as God sets up a Throne of Grace in him presently to act that Grace in purging out of sin and walking in the paths of righteousness We read this in Josiah as soon as ever he heard the threatnings of God out of the Law his heart melted and humbled it self 2 Chron. 34. 19 27. and instantly he gathered all the Elders of Judah and Jerusalem v. 29. and made a Covenant v. 31. and they took away all the abominations out of all the Countreys and turned back to serve the Lord their God v. 33. This you see in Practise you may see the same likewise in Precept Joel 2. 12. Therefore now turn unto me with all your heart and with fasting and with weeping and with mourning The Duty is charged upon them for fuâ—ness in all the parts of Repentance and for quickness Now turn c. For the better opening of this Assertion premise with me a few particulars 1. That the execution of a penitential resolution is nothing This is meant of the very practise of Repentance else but an acting course or the very practise of Repentance When not onely the Judgement approves of the parts and rules of Repentance and the Will embraceth them with consent and desire but the Endeavour also doth as it were copy them forth in the Conversation I exercise my self to have a good conscience said the Apostle So when the sinner doth exercise Repentance when he doth hate sin indeed and flies from it and forsakes it indeed and when he doth indeed walk in the ways of new obedience becomes a very servant of righteousness and works the work of God this is the execution or the performance of a penitential purpose and resolution As walking is to a journey or as writing is to a copy or as fighting is to a war that is penitential execution to penitential resolution It is but the Theory as it were drawn down and put forth It is as the tree shooting out into blossoms and fruits It is repentance in life which is the life of repentance 2. That presentness of Execution is an undelayed acting Our actions fall vvithin three spaces of time either of the vvhich is And of an undelayed acting past as vvhat vve have done or of that vvhich is future as that vvhich shall be done or of that vvhich is present as that vvhich is doing Look as true Marriage it is not a future but a present acceptation So true Repentance is not a delayed but a present reformation Or as in Writing the motion of the Pen and the forming of the Letter are simultaneous Or as in a Clock the vvheel doth move and the finger doth move So in the business of Repentance the purpose of amendment should at the same time drop out into the change of heart and vvays To have repentance onely in our purposes is onely to have water in a cloud or physick in a glass it is not yet to do it Resolutions may be for the future but Executions are for the present act an hearing while it is to day and not hardning of the heart As St. Paul being called vvent immediately up to Jerusalem so present execution of repentance is vvhen we do not defer the penitential work a not allowing of our selves in giving vvay to our sins no not an hour as the Apostle spake in another case 3. That there is a two-fold present execution of penitential purposes One is immediate or vvhen the purpose and the acting And of a present execution either for immediateness or seasonableness vvithout distance of time
sinners who do see your sins and will love them and not forsake them be confident that remaining thus there remains nothing for you but an expectation of wrath and just judgment from the righteous God But if you see your sins and desire to repent to bewail them to forsake them with all your heart to turn from your evil wayes why the Lord hath mercy for you he is very ready to pardon and accept of you If we confess our sins 1 Joh. 1. 9. he is faithful to forgive us our sins Obj. But do ye not read the threatnings of God as Jonah 1. 3. Yet fourty dayes and Ninive shall be destroyed Sol. Remember one thing as a Preservative that all Gods threatnings against our sins are to be understood in sensu composito as the schools speak viz. thus if we continue imâ—enitent and not otherwise not in sensu diviso if we return from them like a Kings proclamation of death if the Traitors do not lay down their Weapons but if they do he offers and assures them of his pardon Obj. I this is it I had mercy offered in the Kings Proclamation I did not yield when mercy wâ—s tendered if I would lay down my Weapons but I did not yield when mercy was tendered If I had repented when God formerly offered me mercy there had been hope but I continued in sin where grace abounded and since mercy was offered therefore now too late in vain Sol. To this also let me give answer 1. Indeed it Answered was thy duty to have repented upon the very first proposal of grace and mercy and it was thy sin at all to stand out yea and thy sinnings contract a deep guilt by commission after the tender of divine mercy sin is more sinful where the offer of mercy is more plentiful But secondly Though the precedent refusals of mercy make the course of sin more guilty yet they do not make the condition of the sinner to be hopeless and utterly uncapable of mercy For 1. Mercy is able to pardon even sins against mercy as it is the antidote for sins against the Law so likewise the salve for sins against the Gospel There is so much mercy in God as can rejoice against judgment yea and that can rejoice over sins against mercy too my meaning is that Gods goodness is so natural to him and great that it can pass by the evils against his goodness and kindness 2. And that God is willing and ready so to do it may appear by this that he continues his invitations and offers of mercy though formerly neglected How often would I have gathered thee saith Christ of Jerusalem and let it yet alone one year of the Tree And then know that this is certain as long as God continues a suit of mercy unto thee neither is the date of thy mercy expired nor doth thy former refusal justly prejudice thy present right to or acceptance of mercy If the King renews his Proclama ion of favour to those who have formerly despised it it is now lawfull and safe for them to come in and accept of it But since thy former refusal God hath as it were renewed the Embassage He hath sent other servants unto thee to proclaim unto thee Mercy if thou wilt return yea and hath assured thee that he will pardon all former rebellions in all kinds if now thou wilt hear his voice thou shalt live and not die Therefore now turn unto the Lord this day doth Mercy beseech thee to leave thy sins and saith If thou wilt forsake them I am thine Object But surely the Lord hates me and hath no delight towards God hates me and will destroy me Answered I have been a vassal of sin and now must be a vessel of destruction Sol. Ah foolish and sensless sinner who pleasest thy self with the arguings of an unbelieving spirit Doth God hate thee or doth he delight in thy destruction Had this been so what wants there that hou hadst not been irrecoverably sent to the place of the damned long ere this How easily could he if he had delighted in thy confusion and destruction struck thee at once Doest thou not see that when thou wast mad in renewing thy sins then did his repentings kindle within him When he had just and many and strong occasions and provocations yet he hath spared thee to this day would he have done so had he desired to have destroyed thee 2. And what is the end of all this patience and forbearance Doest thou so ill interpret it an intention of revenge which is altogether a fruit of his great mercy No no it is not thy destruction but thy repentance and conversion which he delights in See Ezek. 33. 11. Not the ruine of thy person but corruptions He delight not in the death of a sinner but rather that he should turn from his wickedness and live Object But I cannot repent and I cannot turn mine own I cannot repent Answered I cannot pray Answered heart Sol. Pray unto him Turn me and I shall be turned Object But I cannot pray Sol. Sigh then and grieve pray that you may pray and mourn because you cannot mourn And therefore leave these false surmizes of God and sinfull foolish unworthy reasonings set upon the work of repentance indeed and thou shalt quickly find that God is so far from hating thee that he will meet thee with loving kindness and great mercies Object O no never such a sinner as I have been a sinner above measure sinfull so wholly sinfull so onely sinfull so continually Never such a sinner as I have been sinfull To this also a word 1. Greatness of sinning it not an absolute impediment to Gods readiness in pardoning for as much as great sinners are called upon to repent as well as lesser Answered sinners and if the duty of Repentance concerns them then there is a capacity of mercy for them 2. God doth upon repentance promise to pardon great sinners Cease to do evil learn to do well Isa 1. 16. Come now and let us reason together saith the Lord. V. 18. Though your sins be as scarlet they shall be as white as snow though they be red like crimson they shall be as wooll Istiduo colores sunt valde tenaces mansivi quibus intelligitur peccata quantumque sint gravia ex genere habituata ex consuetudine divina gratia purgabuntur saith Lyra well upon that place Yea though they have been peccata sanguinea so S. Jerome upon the same place 3. Great sinnings upon repentance have found greater mercies Adam's sin very great whether you consider it formally or causally yet upon repentance mercy pardoned it David's sin of murther it was a crying sin and of adultery it was a wounding sin yet upon his repentance both pardoned by mercy What should I speak of Manasses in the Old Testament or of Paul in the New 4. The greater sinnings should ever prove the quicker reasons of
hast thou prayed would trouble thee if thou didst not pray and therefore hast thou prayed to give it a little quiet as we do a crying child the brest to still it What things soever ye desire when ye pray believe that you receive them and ye shall have them Hast thou and doest thou consider and ponder the promises of Gods mercy made over the penitent persons Hast thou considered of his mercifull nature tender love in and through Christ of his commands to broken and afflicted souls to come unto him for Balm and Oyl Hast thou found how proper his mercifull promises are to thy condition every way good and convenient and doest confess this word of promise a gracious and a good word and judgest him to be faithfull who hath promised and thy self unworthy of mercy and thereupon in the Name of the Lord Jesus hast bended thy heart and knees to the God of mercy trusting through him to find grace and mercy to help in time of need and those his promises to be Yea and Amen to thy soul through Christ Joh. 14. 13. Whatsoever ye ask in my Name that will Ido According to your faith said Christ to the blind men Matt. 9. 29. so be it unto you Alas thy prayers have not found the way to Gods Mercy-seat all this while because they have not had faith for their Guide if our Messenger lose their way no marvel if we stay long for an answer Lastly Why hast thou called home the Embassadors those prayers Hast thou not called home thy prayers of thine which were Leigers at Heaven In a fit of proud impatience and fruitless vexation and bold presumption thou hast limited the holy One of Israel to a day And if at such another prayer God did not sensibly answer thee thou wouldest and hast restrained seeking of him What doest thou mean to beg and yet to prescribe Alas that there should be so much pride yet in an heart which we would think humbled as low as Hell That it should profess it self to deserve a thousand damnations and yet quarrel with God for not being quick in a present expedition of mercy Thou art too quick with God Judge how these answer one the other O Lord I do not deserve the least mercy I deserve never to find mercy and yet if the Lord doth not presently shew me mercy I will not seek unto him any more As you must get humbled hearts so you must get humble hearts He hears the desires of the humble Your Prayers must be patient as well as â—ervent Mercy pardoning mercy is worth the waiting for It is the most excellent of mercies and most sure to the patient Petitioner Psal 40. 1. I waited patiently for the Lord and he inclined unto me and heard my cry Blessed are all that wait for it Isa 30. 18. Or there may be Reasons on Gods part why he doth a while Reasons on Gods part God suspends mercy To give us some taste what it is to provoke him suspend or hold up the demonstration of his mercy to a troubled soul and seeking 1. To give us some taste what it is to provoke him and sin against him Jer. 2. 19. Thine own wickedness shall correct thee and thy back-slidings shall reprove thee know therefore and see that it is an evil and a bitter thing that thou hast forsaken the Lord thy God As we have had years to bath our selves in the delights of sin so we must have some minutes to taste the proper fruits the bitterness of sin Thou wouldst not believe the Gall and the Wormwood c. Lam. 3. 2. To alienate or work off our affections wholly from sin which now is so To alienate our affections from sin deadly a sting so smart a wound so noisome a prison which fills us with such horrible terrours and costs us almost our lives to obtain pardon and mercy Thou wouldst not easily part with sin Who would love sin any more which 1. raiseth so great terrours 2. utterly depriveth of mercy 3. or hinders it and makes it slow to answer 3. To abase us more in our own eyes To abase us the more in our own eyes that we may exalt his mercy that so his mercy may exalt us and we may exalt his mercy to value the excellency of mercy to confess our unworthiness of mercy to enlarge our desires of mercy 4. Nay not onely to exalt his mercy but retain his mercy not easily forfeit the excellency and sweetness of mercy by any future sinning The That we may retain his mercy Church which had much adoe to find Christ she then caught him and would not let him go The pardoning mercies of God ordinarily yield us most sweetness and abide in their strength To make us an Instance of mercy and Instrument of comfort with us after deepest humiliations and difficultest fruitions of them 5. Perhaps the Lord will make thee a great Instance of mercy and a great Instrument to comfort others and therefore suffereth thee to lie a long time in darkness and silence and at length will relieve thee Object Yea but how shall a troubled soul be supported in the How shall not be supported in the interim the interims until mercy pardoning mercy doth come and prayers therein be answered fully Sol. I answer to this also 1. If thou canst not have comfort to feed on yet thou hast duty to work on If thou hast not comfort look to duty Every Christian may either find it an Autumn to gather fruit or else a Spring to set it It is a great mercy that thou art at the gates of Mercy it is a great mercy 1. to enjoy 2. to beg 3. to wait for mercy a comfort to have such an heart to come so near to mercy thou hast a time to search thy heart more and to review thy estate and to peruse thy prayers to mend and continue all All which are but thy improvements in grace and will eventually prove the enlargements of thy mercy and peace No man can make a better progress in his repentance but he doth thereby prepare for the greater for the sweeter for the longer mercies 2. Though you have not experience to support you yet you have faith Though thou hast not experience yet thou hast faith It is written and sealed though not delivered as yet Whosoever doth truly repent mourn for sin forsake it endeavour to walk with God c. though he have not the joy of his pardon in his conscience yet he hath the assurance of his pardon in the promise Now Gods Word should support us as much as Gods Testimony his Word should be as good to our faith as his Testimony is sweet to our sense and feeling 3. The dawnings of pardoning mercy The dawnings of pardoning mercy may support which are rising upon you may also support you Though you cannot read your Pardon under the Broad Seal yet you may find it passing
be his very enemies and vessels of wrath Partly because it frees you from the sorest fears and sharpest torments You know that there are no troubles like those in Conscience nor fears like those concerning our eternal Conditions Whatâ— if I be one whom the Lord hates what if I should dye and then be damned what if I be not in favour with the Lord what if such or such a sin be not yet pardoned Now the evidence that God is reconciled to you doth silence these fears and eases the conscience of these tormenting suspicions The Lord is my light said David Psal 27. 1. whom shall I fear And I will lay me down in peace Psa 4. 8. 3. It is one of the most admirable comforters of the soul in any condition It comforts the soul in any condition If your condition be prosperous why the assurance that God is reconciled unto you makes all your outward comforts the more comfortable unto you It is like health to a good complexion which sprinkles it over and inamels the face with a fair beauty or like the light to colour which unveils and discloseth all their art or like the dew to the herbs which makes them the more fragrant when a man can say I have all things and God is reconciled to me too I have such a Lordship and the King is my friend too such honours friends estate and the Lord hath accepted of me too and I know that all is pardoned is not this a comfort when all is pleasant on earth and all is right in heaven whereas if the Lord be not reconciled to a man what avails all the world If your conditions be calamitous yet the assurance that God is reconciâ—ed to you is an admirable cordial You read in Mat. 9. 2. Of a man sick with a dead Palsey a disease which exceedingly dejects the spirits Christ comes unto him and gives him a Cordial what was it think you why this Son be of good comfort thy sins are forgiven thee You will think this an improper comfort to a man in such a disease but it was not the assurance that our sins are pardoned and that God is reconciled revives and cheers up the heart nothing more So S. Paul speaks of Tribulation Diâ—ress Persecution Famine Nakedness Peril Sword Yea of Death it self Rom. 8. 35 36. and addeth v. 37. In all these things we are more then conquerours he made light of them all they were as nothing How so whence came this why from assurance of Gods love for saith he v. 38 39. I am perswaded that neither death nor life nor any Creature shall be able to separate us from the love of God which is in Christ Jesus our Lard If your condition be pious this evidence is the main thing which makes it most comfortable all the habits of graces are no actual comforts unless they become evident and so far do they comfort you as they are true and real evidences of Gods reconciled love and favour unto you 4. It will be an unspeakable stay unto you in death you know It will be a stay in Death the day of death will shortly overtake every one of us Here is no abiding City and what temptations may befall us then we cannot assure our selves we know not what Satan or conscience may raise up against us When our souls are ready to depart then either to be determinate God is not yet reconciled to me that just God before whom I must immediately appear to answer and make accounts or to be indeterminate It may be I am reconciled it may be I am not I never had any solid evidence of it how distracting a thing is this that the soul one minute hopes the best and presently it doubts the worst Now I think I shall go to Heaven and by and by I fear lest I shall be cast into Hell But if you had obtained to an evidence of Gods reconciled favour unto you that the Lord had pardoned all the sins of your life and had graciously accepted of you in Christ though death it self appears you would not much be moved I know that my redeemer lives said Job c. 19. And we know that if our earthly house be dissolved we have a building of God an house eternal in the heavens saith the Apostle 2 Cor. 5. 1. 5. It is of all the most quickning and forwarding thing to the It is the most Quickning in duty heart for the performance of all sorts of holy duties We oftentimes complain what dull and slow hearts we have to Prayer were we more assured that God is reconciled to us we should quickly find hearts more affected and more enlarged for Prayer though we be afraid and flye from an angry and just God yet we would â—hye in and speed unto a reconciled and gracious God Psal 63. 1. Thou art my God here he discerns that whereof we speak sc God reconciled and then it followes early will I seek unto thee Again we wonder at our listnesses of our spirits to the word that we do not mind it long after it affect it more were you more assured of Gods love being more affected with him we should certainly grow more affected with his word They in 1 Pet. 2. 2. must desire the sincere Milk of the Word as new born Babes .i. with much eagerness and delightfulness but how might this apprehension be wrought in them Why v. 3. If so be that you have tasted that the Lord is gracious q. d. a tast an experience an assurance that God is your gracious God that is it which will whet an edge and appetite after the word I say no more but this you will serve the Lord with more willing hearts and cheerful then ever you did in all your lives if so be you could get assurance that God is reconciled 6. It makes your hearts most confident on God in evil times It makes us Confident in evill times when afflictions are upon you when dangers arise when distractions are in the world when any near calamity breaks in these are like Land-floods which carry away all or like the deluge in Noah's time which exceeded all the mountains so do these drown all the vain hopes and confidences of evil men that are not reconciled to God they know not in the world what to do they have no heart to go in unot God for their consciences now tell them plainly that they are in the estate of enmity and wrath But even now though the foundations of the earth be shaken the assured person who knows God is reconciled to him knows also that his foundation of love stands sure and firm and through all does he make his address unto the God of his mercies and shall find acceptance with him 7. Lastly It is that which will wonderfully inlarge your graces It will wonderfully inlarge our Graces the Apostle delivers it in the general that the knowledg of the love of Christ is a means
Christ have you put it on yea or no Consider 1. It is such a Garment that of all other thou needest most Our It is a Garment that of all others we need most best Garments are many times superfluous we need them not we can attire our selves well enough without them but this best Robe is the most needful thou canst not live without it nor mayst thou dye without it How naked art thou with thy filthiness before the eyes of a pure God And how at once may his wrath pour out it self like fire and consume thee having no covering at all to shelter thee Friend said he to that intruder in the Gospel How camest thou in here without thy Wedding Garment When thou goest to Prayer or steps to the Sacrament or art giving up thy Soul into the hands of God and hast no covering for any of thy sins may not God in the same way of judgment say unto thee and bespeak thee How dost thou present thy self before me with all this sinfulness thou knowest that I am a God of purer eyes then to behold sin and there is no communion twixt light and darkness I tell thee that there is No acceptance of thy person without this Robe the Lord cannot abide the sight of thee without it for thou canst not but provoke him as oft as thou appears before him in thy nakedness and vileness No respect unto thy services not that the Lord doâ—h dislike any duty but that the person must be first covered with the righteousness of Christ if he would have his offering to be accepted 2. By nature we are born naked utterly destitute of this By nature we are born naked precious Robe As for the nativity said God to Jerusalem in the day that thou wast born thy Navel was not cut neither wast thou washed in Water to supple thee neither wast thou salted at all nor swadled at all Ezek. 16. 4. Or as Christ to the Church of Laodica Thou art wretched and miserable and poor and blind and naked So we by nature cloathed only with raggs of corruption with filthy raggs Isa 64. 6. and as Joshua in Zach. 3. 3. Cloathed with filthy Garments destitute of God of Christ of all righteousness as if you should see a naked child born with Sores and Boils and Plagues and Leprosies running and spreading from top to toe 3. You are of We are of no excellency without this Robe no excellency without this Robe Then only we come to excellent Ornaments when this is put on All the Robes you get on you are but the shrouds of dead men or like Velvet cast over an Herse As Solomon said of beauty in a foolish woman it is but as a Jewel in a swines snout So we say of all other Garments they are Ornaments put on a base dead and loathsomesoul 4. The Robe of There is none like it Christs righteousness there is none like it for thy good and benefit For 1. It is an Ornament as well as a Garment All our acceptance It is an Ornament as well as a Garment before God is as we are cloathed with it then are we cloathed with the Sun now are we precious in his eyes it makes us beautiful and lovely and accepted in the eyes of God 2. It is armour as An Armor as well as an Ornament well as Ornament For the preciousness of it it is a vesture of pure Gold and for the strength of it it is as a Coat of Mail Let us put on the Armor of Light Rom. 13. 12. We may by it keep off the strongest accusations of Satan and stand even before the judgment-seat I am black but comely saith the Church Cant. 1. 5. though in her self black yet in this righteousness comely It can answer all our own imperfections and all that Satan can object against us or the Law or our own fearful hearts Sins and imperfections and defects cannot answer God but a perfect righteousness can 3. It is a Garment for warmth as well as for sight When we look on our selves and our own righteousness our spirits may dye within It is a Garment for warmth as welâ— as for sight us but peace and comfort â—low from the righteousness of Christ it was perfect and meritorious and accepted and this will chear the heart above all if we be found in Christ having his righteousness There goes wonderful virtue from the hem of this Garment both to satisfie God and to pacifie the conscience as Jacob got the blessing with the elder Sons Garment so do we get all our mercies and comforts and blessings by being cloathed with the Robe of Christs righteousness But how may we know that we have put on this best Robe How may we know that we have put it on Have we put off our own Rags Sol. I will instance but in three particulars to discover this 1. If we have put on Christs Robe we have put off our own Rags we have put them off 1. Affectu 2. Conatu As it was with Joshua Zach. 3. 4. His filthy Rags were taken away and then he was cloathed with change of Raiment So here no man can assure himself that he is cloathed with Christs righteousness unless he doth dismantle himself of his own unrighteousness Eph. 4. 21. If ye have been taught as the truth is in Jesus v. 22. Put off concerning the former conversation the old man which is corrupt according to the deceitful lusts v. 23. And put on that new man c. Rom. 13. 12. Cast off the Works of Darkness and put on the Armor of light For a man to imagine that he hath the Robe of Christs righteousness and yet to walk in the paths of unrighteousness in chambering and wantâ—nness in strife and envying in all voluptuousness and beastliness c. No man saith Christ soweth a piece of new Clâ—ath to an old Garment Mark 2. 21. 'T is true that none but sinners are cloathed with this Robe but then it is as true that no sinners are cloathed with it but strive with all their might to put off their sinful rags by hearty contrition and confession and conversion 2. Only â—aith puts on this Robe Only faith puts on this Robe And therefore as this Robe is called the righteousness of God both for designation imputation and acceptation So it is also called the righteousness of Faith Not that Faith in a formal sense is our righteousness For Faith did not dye for us noâ— can Faith of it self merit for us nor is Faith of it self compleat but imperfect but because it is the instrument which apprehends Christ and his righteousness and by which we put on Christ with his righteousness Have you Faith or have you not Nay but deceive not your selves The Faith which puts on this righteousness must be able 1. To deny our own righteousness to take of all confidence in the flesh Faith cannot put on Christs righteousness until
it hath put off your own 2. To see a need of this righteousness and to prize and desire to be found in it above and before all other the Laodiceans must see that they are naked and then buy Raiment Rev. 3. 3. To unite us to Jesus Christ It must work in us both estimation for our judgments and acceptation for our wills so that it must make us one with Christ and so we come to be cloathed with the Garment of Christ But perhaps you can rest upon your own good meanings works innocency You are rich and need not to borrow any Garment you are united to your lusts and will not part with them for Christ nor for all his Ornament 3. This Robe This Robe and that of holiness are inseparable of righteousness and that other of holiness are inseparable It is granted that inherent holiness is not formally the same with imputed righteousness it is granted that the one is in Christ the other is in us that the one is perfect the other is imperfect that the one is meritorious the other though it be precious yet it is not meritorious Yet as the light and heat of the Sun though the one be not the other yer they go together so the Robe of righteousness and the Robe of holiness go together the new Garment is only to be seen upon the new man Therefore you read that Christ is made not only Righteousness but also Sanctification Righteousness this is a grace without us whereby we are advanced Sanctification this is a grace wrought within us by which we advance and glorifie God that respects the State this the nature of the person As Grace must reign through righteousness to eternal life Ro. 5. 21. So also holiness must reign to everlasting life Ro. 6. 22. The one as a cause the other as a means Now then as if thou canst discern any light in the morning thou concludest that the Sun is risen so if thou canst discover any true holiness in thy heart thou maist conclude that the Sun of righteousness is risen the appearing of holiness is a sign of the rising of righteousness Yea the Prophet speaking of the Sun of Righteousness saith He shall arise with healing in his wings Mal. 4. 2. to intimate That where righteousness comes there holiness comes Ah! dost thou find no change in thy Nature in thy Judgment in thy Mind in thy Will in thy Affections why as sure as the Lord lives thou hast not yet put on this Robe of righteousness Doth Christ present thy person unspotted before God and doth he thinkst thou leave thy heart with all its spots and filthiness And put a Ring on his Hand This is the second favour conferred on the penitent Prodigal by his Father A Ring is such a piece of substance which is put on the finger partly for Ornament and partly to testifie Nuptial union and conjunction S. Chrysostom doth conjecture that the Ring in this place is Nuptiarum insigne quibus Christus Ecclesiam Sponsat an embleme of the Espousals twixt Christ and his Church So that then we have this Proposition to insist on That God gives unto the penitent person a precious Faith by Doct. 2. Gâ—d gives the penitent person Faith by which he is married to Christ which he is Espoused or Married unto Christ There are three things which being explained will give up unto us the full sense of this Assertion 1. What it is to be married unto Christ 2. That Faith doth Espouse and Marry a person unto Christ and what faith that is and in what respect 3. That the penitent person hath this faith Quest 1. For the first of these What it is to be Espoused or What it is to â—e married unto Christ Married unto Christ which is here signified by putting on the Ring Sol. They who write of Marriage do conjecture that these six things concur unto it 1. Mutuus Consensus a mutual Consenting 2. Mutuus Contractus a mutual Contracting 3. Mutua Obligatio a mutual Obliging 4. Mutua Conjunctio a mutual Union and Conjunction 5. Mutua Potestas a mutual faculty or Right 6. Mutua Societas a mutual use or Society Translate this from a Civil to a Spiritual consideration and then to be married to Christ implyes 1. A Consent to take or accept of Christ Though knowledg of persons be necessary and â—it yet it is not sufficient to marriage It implyes A Consent without conâ—ent for marriage ought to be a voluntary transaction of persons and in it we do in a sort give away our selves but then this is not without our selves yea and therein we do elect make choice for our selves and therefore consent is a necessary concurrence to marriage Now this consent is nothing else but a free and plain act of the will accepting of Jesus Christ before all other to be its Head and Lord. Christ offers himself in the Gospel unto a person I am the only Saviour of sinners and Lord of all designed to be Priest Prophet and King art thou willing to accept of me canst thou like of me before all others dost thou so dost thou make choice of me for thy Saviour and Lord 2. A Contracting of the Soul with Christ Contractus is nothing A mutual Contract else but consensus explicatus a contract is a consent expressed in words but then they must be words proper to make Marriage They must not be verba dubia dubious words as I will marry none but you but verba clara affirmativa affirmative I will marry you for the Rule of the Casuists is good Consensus non datur per meram negationem And as they must not be verba dubia but affirmativa so they must not be verba futura conditionata hereafter or upon such a condition but verba de presenti I now accept or take c. Then a man is Married unto Christ when he doth freely and absolutely and presently receive the Lord Jesus Not I would have Christ if it did not prejudice my worldly estate ease friends c. Or hereafter I will accept of him when I come to dye and be in distress but now when Salvation is offered now while Christ tenders himself I now yield up my heart and life unto him 3. An obliging of the Soul to Christ for ex contractu oritur vinculum A mutual Obligation some call this traditio or resigâ—atio and therefore Marriage is a Knot or Tye wherein persons are mutually limitted and bound each to other in a way of Conjugal separation from all others and this in Scripture is called a Covenant So when any one Marries Christ he doth therein discharge himself in affection and subjection from all that is contrary to Christ and solemnly Covenants and binds himself to Christ alone He will have no Saviour and no Lord but Christ and to him will he cleave for ever Simpliciter indissolubiliter persona statu
departed Sinfull Lost his Excellencies man doth not know what is become of created man yea he hath lost these so long that he knows not whether ever he had any of them or no whether he ever had such an eye or Lamp of exquisite knowledge whether he ever had such a vesture of righteousness whether he ever had such a stock of ability and sufficiency for Obedience As he once could not find Rome in Rome nor they know Jezabel to have been Jezabel just so is it with a poor sinner He once was a child of Light a son of Obedience he was created holy and righteous But what is become of all his created stock But man dieth and man giveth up the ghost and where is he Job 14. 10. So here man hath sinned and man hath lost all his excellencies and where is he Adam where art thou said God A sad question Where art thou An hour since Adam was Adam but upon his sinning Adam where is Adam Where is righteous Adam Where is Adam who had power to believe to love to obey all my will Where is he and where is all this All is lost 5. He hath lost his way his way home Every sinfull man is Lost his way a wandring Meteor a very Planet on earth he is gone from the fold as a silly sheep he is gone from his Fathers house as a silly Child he is gone out of the right path like a silly Traveller in the Wilderness Sin puts us into a Maze into a Labyrinth we go from one sin to another sin out of one by-path into another by-path and the further we go in sinfull paths the more still we go out of the way But the right path which leads back to our God O the sinner hath not an eye to see it and when he hath light to see it yet he hath not an heart to turn unto it nor feet to walk in it Rom. 3. 12. They are all gone out of the way v. 17. The way of peace they have not known Psal 95. 10. It is a people that do err in their hearts and they have not known my ways The lost sinner hath an erring mind and an erring heart and erring affections There is but one way to come back to God which is by Christ I am the way c. but the lost sinner knows not Christ nor the way unto Christ 6. He hath lost his Ability He who once had power to fall Lost his ability being fallen hath now no power to rise any more a self-deliverance is as impossible as a self-creation It must be light which finds that which is lost but sinfull man is darkness it must be strength which raiseth up one who is fallen but lost man is less than weakness He who loseth himself by sin must come back again by grace but the natural man hath no grace no not a desire of it no not a thought of it no nothing of all of it What Sin casts down Faith must set up but the unconverted man doth not nay cannot believe of himself he cannot As all our powers were at first in Adams hands so all our powers now are in Christs hands 7. The sinner is also lost in respect of his Title and Plea and Lost in respect of his liberty in respect of his Liberty and Freedome so that now every sinner is a very slave and bondman Obj. But how comes man to be How man comes to be lost a lost man I answer Man came to be a lost sinner First By Temptation The Devil lost his own happiness and by his cunning seducements Man lost his happiness too Four things he By temptation used for this 1. He raised a suspition and jealousie in our hearts of God 2. Then a dislike of our present condition 3. Then an affectation of an higher condition 4. A false perswasion of Gods threatning Secondly By his own will And there were besides our original Liberty ad utrumlibet four principal sins which By his own will brought us into our Lostness 1. Pride 2. Vnbelief 3. Presumption 4. Discontentment Object But how may a man know that he is as yet in a lost condition How a man may know that he is lost Sol. This may be resolved by these Queries 1. Where is thy Home 2. What is thy way 3. When didst thou return 1. Every lost man is a man afar off In longum abiit he is gone Every lost man is afar off far from home from his Father When the Prodigal was lost where was he then The Text saith That he was gone into a far Countrey When the Ephesians were lost where were they Afar off Ephes 2. 17. When the Israelites were lost where were they They are gone away far from me Jer. 2. 5. A natural man is far from God take me right you can never find God and a wicked man together his nature is far from God and his thoughts are far from God and his affections are far from God O he cannot endure the presence of God he cannot endure Holiness he cannot endure holy Ordinances nor holy Services nor holy Admonitions nor holy Reproofs nor any holy Communion the further he is from these the better doth he think his condition to be A man is never at home till he hath a God and till he stands in Gods presence and till he hath communion with his God But the natural man c. 2. Every lost man is in a false way in Every lost man is in a false way a by-way his ways are sinfull ways The lost man he is out of the common and known Road he is in the Woods in the Ditches in the Deserts in the Fields and he goes from one strange place to another strange place O man whilest thou walkest after thy sins whilest thou runnest from sin to sin whiles thy way and course of Life is in the fulfilling and following of thy Lusts assuredly thou art a lost man 3. Didst thou ever yet return to He is lost who doth not return God If not then as yet thou art in a lost condition O consider this consider it seriously When didst thou return How didst thou return Wherein didst thou return back unto thy God Is not he lost who is still losing of himself who still goes on in his Wilderness And this thou doest where thou wast twenty years ago there thou art still That a lost sinner may be found This my son was lost and is found In Scripture there is a two-fold finding 1. We are Doct. 2. A lost sinner may be found said to find God Seek the Lord while he may be found Isa 55. 6. I found him whom my soul loveth Cant. 3. 4. 2. God is said to find us Now God finds a sinner two ways 1. Judicially and in wrath ad evertendum 2. Graciously and in mercy ad convertendum Here three Questions offer themselves to be discussed Quest 1. Who is it
house If so why doest thou yet run away run abroad to Sin for delight to the Creature for satisfaction 6. If God hath graciously found thee and brought thee out of Thou wilt be afraid to lose thy self again thy lost and wandring condition Thou wilt be afraid to lose thy self again to wander again to go astray again from thy God who hath found thee There are six things which the found and recovered person doth apprehend 1. The great iniquity in his formerly lost and wandring course of life 2. His great vanity all that while to forsake his own mercies to sow the wind and reap the whirlwind What profit had ye in those things whereof ye are now ashamed Rom. 6. 3. The great kindness and love which God hath manifested towards his lost soul in bringing him back to himself and now to own him as a Father doth a Son 4. The great ingratitude to displease that mercy which was pleased to find him 5. The madness of folly to return to an experimental misery and to forfeit sweet mercy which he hath liberally tasted since he was found 6. The great hazard whether mercy will ever look after him any more who hath so presumptuously abused mercy received O no the found sinner hath found such freeness fulness sweetness of entertainment such rich mercy such free love such wonderfull kindness that as Peter in another case it is good for us to be here or as the returning Church it is best being with my first Husband or as Paul about his being with Christ so he about continuing and complying with his God It is best of all And therefore he cries out against all temptations Shall I return to folly when God hath spoken peace shall I sin again since Gad hath given me such a deliverance as this O no O no Canaan is better then Egypt Paradise is better then a wilderness a Fathers House is better then to serve Swine plenty is better then famine Now God smiles on me and shall I raise his frowns Now conscience speaks peace shall I turn this oyle into a Sword O let me never unjoynt the Bones which mercy at length hath set O let me never darken the Sun which shines so comfortably O let me never feed on husks who may still feed on bread O let me never run from a Pallace to a Prison It was Gods mercy and my happiness to be rescued out of a lost condition let it never be my sin and curse to throw my self out of Heaven to cast my self out of Paradise again for a sins sake which formerly lost me to depart from mercy which hath graciously found me 7. If a found person doth stray he cannot be quiet until he be If he do stray he is not quiet till he come back again found and come back again to his God I sal 119. 176. I have gone astray like a lost sheep seek thy servant There is this difference twixt the strayings of the Godly and of the wicked when a wicked man strayes he is then at home sin is his home and sinful paths are the paths in which he loves to wander the mire and dirt are the delightful home of the Swine and therefore he delights to be abroad and cares not to come back again But a Godly man if he strayes if he sins he is now from home he seeth some steps of lostness in every step of sinfulness his heart is apt presently to smite him for it Alas what have I done whether am I going shall I go again from my Fathers House what ayled me thus to step aside I cannot rest thus I will home again what ever comes of it And back he comes with an ashamed heart as Ephraim did and with a mourning heart as Peter did and with a self-judging heart as David did O my God O my Father I even I have sinned sinned again yet for Christs sake accept of me again Me thinks it is with him just as it is with a poor Child whom evil company hath seduced from home his heart akes and he slips from them and under a Bush he sits and there bethinks himself and sighs and weeps as if his heart would break after which he riseth and home he comes and steals to the door and listens and knocks softly and the Servants comes forth and say they where have you been all this while O your Father wonders at you and hath been much troubled that you have dealt thus with him Now the child takes on and is cut to the heart and will not my Father be pacifyed I know that I have oftended him and dealt unkindly with him Never had a Child so good a Father I pray you speak for me and tell him I am without Let him come in saith his Father In he comes and falls down and with floods of tears acknowledges his strayings and humbly intreats his Father to pass by this wandring and to own him again and to look on him as he was wont to do O Sir saith he I cannot live without your favour nor will I live out of your house Even thus is it with a found Child of God if he happens to stray and sin his heart smites him and his heart akes O saith he what have I done to deal thus with my good God and Father I am ashamed and grieved To one Minister he goes and perhaps to another Do you think that the Lord will be merciful to me again Yea to God he goes and confesseth all and beseecheth him to deal with him like a Father Lord saith he it hath been a woful and bitter time to me I cannot stand it out I come in unto thee sin is my burthen and thy displeasure is my burthen I beseech thee to pardon the trespass of thy servant and be reconciled unto me and own me with thy favour and mercy once again 8. He who is truly found by Gods Grace and Mercy doth desire He endeavours so find others and endeavour to find others or that others may also be found Jâ— 1. 43 45. Christ finds Philip and Philip finds Nathaniel There is no good man who would pertake of Grace and Heaven alone and there is no wicked man who would enjoy sin and hell alone Wicked men are like those that are drowning who catch hold on others and every good man is like a Candle which being lighted holds out light to others or like a stick of fire which being kindled would kindle more sticks Good Lord the same Mercy the same Grace the same Christ the same reconciled God and Father for my poor Child too and for my poor Husband too and for my poor Parents too O Lord pity them too they are lost and they know not the misery of a lost condition nay the happiness of a found condition Good Lord open their eyes and bring them home to thy self in Christ And to his friends he goes O continue not in this condition you are lost I was so
Nature say the Philosophers God say we allots unto them Therefore living Christians are compared to a sucking and thriving child which sucks and growes by sucking And to living branches that grow into more strength and in Scripture True Grace which is the same with spiritual life it is of an increasing and growing nature Christ compares it to a grain of Mustard-seed which is little at first but in time growes and spreads exceedingly and Solomon compares it to the Sun which riseth more and more to the perfect day Paul commends the Corinthians that they did abound in all Grace and praies for the Philippians that their love might a bound yet more and more in knowledg and in all Judgment And he himself forgat what was behind and pressed forward and counted himself not to have apprehended O you who take your selves to be alive do you grow in grace Many men grow worse and worse under the means of Grace many grow in notions but they do not grow in Grace many grow into new opinions but they do not grow in holy affections But do you grow in Grace and do you grow in all Grace and do you grow according to the means of Growth Alas many men decay apace and many men like pictures retain the same dimensions sin is no more weakned after forty years living then at the first their old sins retain their old strength and their faith receives no augmentation they are no more able to trust on God for their bodies nor to rely on Christ for their souls then heretofore The barrenness and unfruitfulness of Christians is an unspeakable dishonour to the Gospel and an evident testimony that they have but a form of Godliness without the power of it I might now have shewn you that true spiritual Growth is 1. Especially an inward Growth 2. And a general Growth 3. And the Growth comes in by the Growth of Faith 4. And appears best in the Growth of humiliâ—y 5. A spiritual cry or breath is another sign of spiritual life There is a spiritual breath If a man can but groan and breath that man is a living man When Paul was converted Ananias was sent unto him as to a chosen Vessel Behold said God unto him he prayeth in Zach. 12. 10. The Spirit of Grace and of Supplication are joyned for the one never goes without the other But will some reply This cannot be a sure sign of spiritual life for a wicked man may pray and cry to God we read of their Prayers and cries in Scripture often I grant it But 1. There is a difference twixt a spiritual cry and a natural cry their cries arise from natural principles but not from a spiritual principle 2. It is the cry of a distressed man but not of a renewed man 3. It is a cry for natural and outward good but not for spiritual and everlasting good 4. And when they cry for mercy and heaven it is not that mercy may bring them into an holy communion with God but only that mercy may keep them from wrath and Hell 6. Lastly A spiritual manner of working is an infallible evidence There is a spiritual manner of working of a spiritual quickningâ— When the Lord converts a man and makes him spiritually alive he now works spiritual work 1. By Spiritual Rules 2. From Spiritual Principles in the strength of Christ by Faith and from love 3. With Spiritual Affections willingly cheerfully and delightfully 4. For Spiritual ends 1. By Spiritual Rules To as many as walk according By spiritual rules to this Rule peace be on them Gal. 6. 16. A dead and unconverted man lives by the Rules of his sensual Lusts or the customes of the World or the wisdome of carnal policy sin rules him and men rule him and his profits and pleasures rule him But when the man is converted now God rules him he stands in awe of Gods Word and lives as 1 Pet. 4. 2. To the Will of God His actions intentions desires steps are measured by the word t is not An libet but An licet The word lets him out and brings him in Whether the living Creature went thither the Wheeles went so c. 2. From spiritual Principles O Sirs From spiritual principles a man may do much work which we call spiritual from a Carnal and low principle self-Love vain-Glory Education a quick Conscience may set out much But the living Christians work arises from union with Christ all is done in the strength of Christ and Faith fetcheth strength from Christ to pray and to preach and to mourn and to repent c. 3. With spiritual affections With spiritual affections There is a connaturalness twixt a spiritual heart and a spiritual work Thy word was the rejoycing of my heart I was glad said David when they said unto me let us go to the House of the Lord. I delight saith Paul in the Law of God after the inward man It is good for â—e to draw near to God There are affections in the works of a living man his works drop out of his heart another mans fall out of his parts 4. For spiritual ends So that Christ may be glorifyed we live For spiritual ends unto the Lord unto him that dyed for us Whatsoever ye do do it to the Glory of God that God in all things may be glorifyed through Jesus Christ 1 Pet. 4. 11. Obj. But will some say if these be signs of the life of Complaints of the want of all these Grace of one being made spiritually alive then I am in a sad condition For 1. I find much sin still living in me 2. And I find very dull if not dead affections and I find 3. Exceeding impotency to what is good 4. And I cannot find that old appetite and those old â—ervent crieâ— of Prayer which here 〈◊〉 I found 5. And as for grow hunder spiritual means O my heart sinks to behold the rich seasons of Grace and my barrenness and unfruitfulness under them Sol. I should Answered be â—â—â—th that any truly living Soul should go away with a sad heart therefore give me leave to answer thy fears 1. Generally 2. Then distinctly 1. Generally thus 1. Such complaints as these ordinarily Generally are the language not of the dead but of the living When shall you hear such inditâ—ments from a base lewd sin-loving and serving person O no these are the complaints of an heart that is spiritually sensible and spiritually tender and spiritually jealous and which would not be deceived in its spiritual condition 2. If such complaints as these be attended with inward humblings and abasings of the heart and with desires and endeavours of help assuredly they are the Testimonies of a living man Who shall deliver me O wretched man was the complaint of living Paul 3. If thou canst not at all times find every one of the forenamed Symptomes of life yet if at any time thou canst find
any one of them it is a sign that thou livest if the child doth not go yet if it sucks this shews life if it doth not speak yet if it cry it is alive if it doth not cry yet if it breath it is a sign of life If there be groanings under the burden of sin and â—ighings for help for grace for Christ c. they are a sign of life O Christian the spiritual life is sometimes more open and full and lively and quick in actions and sometimes it is reduced to desires to a will to a complaint to a tear to a sigh to a groan O that I could pray O that I could believe 2. Dictinctly to the particular Cases Obj. 1. Thou fearest that thou art not alive because much Distinctly to the particular cases I am not alive because much sin is living in me Answered sin is yet living in thee To which I answer 1. It is with the Christian made alive by Grace as it was with Lazarus made alive by Christ who had for a while his grave cloathes on him and he was bound hand and foot and yet he was made alive so there may be many sinful corruptions yet cleaving to that soul which is indeed quickned with spiritual life Nay if thou didst feel no sinful corruptions I should question whether yet thou werâ— made alive for spiritual life or grace doth give unto the soul 1. The clearest sense of sin 2. And the greatest grief for sin 3. And the strongest combate and conflict with sin 2. There is a difference twixt a feeling of sin still stirring in us and of the life of sin still ruling in us Thou feelest sin living in temptation but dost thou feel sin living in thy affection Thou feelest sin molesting of thee as a Tyrant but dost thou acknowledg sin ruling over thee as a King 3. And what doest thou when thou findest sin thus working Dost thou dye daily If thou feelest sin as if it were alive doth not this humble thee and doth not this hasten thee by Faith unto Christ for more crucifying virtue Obj. 2. Thou fearest that yet thou art not alive because thou There is much duâ—ness and deadness in my affections and operations Answeâ—ed discernest mâ—ch spiritual dulness and deadness in thy affections and operations Sol. I answer 1. Even the living have soâ—nd too much spiritual deadness in their hearts Davids soul was heavy and cast down and indisposed and a deadness possessed him and he prayes of enâ— O Lord quicken me 2. But is there not a difference twixt deadness and death death is the total privation of life where there is spiritual death there is not so much as the habit of grace but deadness is some diminution or some damp upon the habit of grace that it steps not out to its acts with that liberty and that alacrity as it was wont and such a deadness may be in a living soul And thirdly Thou feelest this deadness and thou dislikest it and thou bewailest it and thou prayest how often how earnestly Lord quicken this dead heart of mine Is it thus where death prevails do dead men do thus 4. The actions of life are various Let the action for the quantity be what it will greater or lesser quick or dull free or checked and interrupted yet if what thou dost be done in the strength of Christ if it be wrought with an humble and an upright heart assuredly thou art not a dead sinner but a living though perhaps troubled Christian Obj. 3. But I have no power to do any good I cannot believe I cannot pray I cannot mourn Sol. 1. What no Power at all I have no power to do any good Answered never any power no power from thy self nor any power from Christ no power perhaps to this work but what no power to any spiritual work no power perhaps at this time to an eminent act but then is there not a power to pray for power Though power appears not in the work doth not power yet appear in the will and desire Rom. 7. 18. I know that in me that is in my flesh dwelleth no good thing For to will is present with me but to perform that which is good I find not I cannot do it but I would do it 2. If there be a power living in the will it is the best sign of life A wicked man doth often the good which his will is against and the good man often doth not the good cannot do the good which his will is yet for Now God looks upon the will more then upon the work If gracious acts be couchant in the will life is in thee 3. However although thou hast not power sometimes let down for spiritual work yet thou hast so much power still remaining as to lifâ— up weak hands for more power Though thou canst not believe nor repent nor mourn as thou thinkest yet there is an heart to seek unto God in Christ for this power to believe c. Obj. 4. But my old lively affections are gone my old estimations My old lively â—ffâ—ctions are gone Answered my old hungrings and thirstings my old delightful communion with God in prayer and in his ordinances Sol. To this I would only say thus much 1. There is a difference twixt the intensive swiftness or flash of affections and the intensive strength and weight of the affections A young Christian is most in the former an old Christian who acts more upon Judgment and Faith is most in the latter 2. The case seems rather to be of a living man like to dye then dead Of a man decaying in Grace rather then totally deprived of grace of a sick Christian rather then of a dead Christian 3. And therefore seriously search the causes of the remission of thy first love of thy ancient favour in holy communion O look whether a dead flye be not fallen into the ointment whether some insnaring lust fleshly or worldly hath not robbed thee of thy strength 4. If so Be humbled greatly and repent and do thy first work Obj. 5. But where there is life there is growth but I find it not I finde no growth Answered Sol. A word to this The denial of growth may be either 1. Negative Never any at all this is impossible if life be wrought 2. Comparative Not so much as another not so much as I have found under such or such means not so much as I desire and this may be where there is life I have finished two Proposition from this Text One respecting the death and the other respecting the life of a sinner I now proceed to a third which is That a very great and notorious Doct. 3. A very great sinner may be converted sinner may be at length converted and changed This my Son was dead and is alive again This Son and who was he or what was he in the precedent Verses you may see his picture you may read
to another or from a present and sudden apprehension of matters or from the defect of strength or from judicial impressions by the appearing of death or from education or from respect to our superiours and friends and hopes which we have from them c. 2. If the heart should never graciously be changed If the heart be never changed the man is damned as sure as God lives the man will be damned though the man may have parts abilities honours be civil ingenuous candid and punctual with men and in-offensive in his dealings O friends the Heart or Soul is that which God looks on and every man is as his heart is as that is so the man is he is so for the present and he is so for eternity Except a man be born again he cannot enter into the Kingdome of God said Christ to Nicodemus Joh. 3. 3. If any man be in Christ he is a new creature saith the Apostle 2 Cor. 5. 17. Old things are past away all things are become new Christ you know is the way the truth and the life Can the Christless man ever be a heavenly man assuredly no Christ no Heaven But then if a man be in Christ he is a new Creature .i. Christ doth change him and forms him a new he strips him of his old heart and puts into him a new heart These things being premised I now come to answer the Case The case answered propounded Only I must crave favour to acquaint you with two things One that I speak not of such a change as implies perfection but only of that which although it be true and saving is nevertheless imperfect for so is all the work of grace in this life Another is that I intend not to give you Characters of a progressive change which may be found in Christians whom God hath called and converted and changed for many years in whom the work of Conversion is come to much maturity and strength but only of an initial change as it stands in truth and sincerity although newly wrought and perhaps it be very feeble and weak yet it is to be found in every man whom Divine Grace doth convert Now this Initial change may be evidenced by the several contrary habitudes and fixed carriages in the converted The initial change evidenced by the several contraricties person as to time past and time present and time future in respect of all which you shall clearly discern a singular alteration if the Conversion be true 1. The first contrariety or alteration respects the time past As to the time past Before the sinner was converted there were four unhappy qualities possessing of him as touching his sinfulness 1. A marvellous blindness and reflexive unsensibleness of his sinful condition dead in trespasses and sins Eph. 2. Past feeling Eph. 4. 19. 2. A wonderful erroneousness and false judgment of his estate thinking highly and proudly of himself as once Laâ—dicea did and the Jews and Pharisees did We are Abrahams seed and never in bondage Joh. 8. 33. 3. A miserable security of spirit extreamly careless and negligent about the internal and eternal concernments of his soul alive once without the Law Rom. 7. 9. Soul take thine ease c. They say peace and safety 1 Thes 5. 3. 4. A remorseless pursuing of his sinful lusts without any heart-smiting troubles for his sinning and provoking of God No man repented saying What have I done every one turned to his course Jer. 8. 6. 5. Alienation from the life of God Eph. 4. 18. Thus it was with the man before God converted him and changed him but now behold the alteration and contrariety 1. There is a graciously quick and active quickning light fallen into him which opens his eyes and affects his conscience to a clear and right sight of his sinful heart and life Rom. 7. 9. But when the Commandment came sin revived c. As if the light of the Sun brake into a darkroom and represented all the nastiness in it Acts 26. 18. To open their eyes and to turn them from darkness to light and from the power of Satan unto God His sins are set before him and conscience acquaints him with his forepast evils so that he is convinced and can make no defence but cries out with the Leper I am unclean unclean 2. All his erroneous and proud conceits of himself are tumbled down the Mountains are laid low and the man judgeth of himself as if he were the greatest and vilest sinner that ever lived he abhors himself Oh how wicked Oh how vain Oh how vile Oh how mad Oh how foolish Oh how beastly I have been a transgressor from the womb I have lived without God against God none so ignorant none so proud none so filthy none so froward and rebellious against the Will of God against the goodness of God as I In me there dwelleth no good thing I am without strength No man living hath such proper thoughts such humble thoughts of himself as he Oh unfit to dye unworthy to live undone if mercy be not free mercy and abundant mercy 3. His Castle of security is demolished and the secure negligent man becomes now a most anxious and solicitous and careful man about the condition of his soul 2 Cor. 7. 11. What carefulness it wrought in you this now takes him up What shall we do say they to John the Baptist And what shall we do say they to Peter And what shall I do to be saved Acts 16. 30. O my Soul my poor lost wandring sinful undone Soul what shall I do what will become of me and what will become of thee for all these sins And now the man inquires and hears and confers and prayes as for his life Oh saith he I need mercy and mercy I must have I need Christ and Christ I must have I need grace and grace I must have and as that impotent person lay at the Pool for cure so doth this converted sinner he lyes at the pool of the word and at the gates of heaven day and night and there he cries out God be merciful to me a sinner and there he wrestles with God as Jacob once I will not let thee go unless thou bless me until thou be reconciled until I have Christ until my heart be sanctifyed 4. His hardned remorselesness is now turned into a singular brokenness and grief of spirit the Rock is smitten and the waters gush out a Fountain is opened within him He who made but a sport of sinning before he who could grasp the nettles and tread on hell and vex mercy and shoot through the heart of Christ and not be moved or troubled at all Oh now how is the man altered I see him trembling and quaking with Paul I see him bitterly weeping with Peter I see him washing his Couch with David I see him in heaviness and bitterness for his sinnings as one for his first born One while he meditates and then weeps
upon the spirit of a man which There may be many changes not inconsistent with the saving change yet are not inconsistent with the saving change of his Spirit Sometimes he may be lively and quick sometimes he may be flat and dull sometimes he may be confident and cheerful and at some other times he may be afraid and mournful sometimes he may be full and enlarged and at some other time he may be aukard and streightned sometimes he may have more sense of Gods Love and sometimes more sense of his own sins None of these things are essential to the converted estate a mans heart may be truly changed by converting grace notwithstanding many crosses and afflictions on his outward estate many eclipses in his comforts many varieties in his spiritual actings many contrarieties twixt his sence and his faith many temptations upon his spirit to many doubts and fears in his heart 4. Sinful corruptions never work with a more sensible strength Sinful corruptions work with more sensible strength when the heart is truely changed then when the heart is truly converted and changed Before Conversion our sins do work more mightily but we do not then perceive the workings because your delight was then in sinning and nothing is burthensome to delight and nothing was in us contrary to our sinnings the strong man kept all the house and every faculty was a friend and servant to sin the river ran all one way But when the heart is converted there is now laid into it 1. The quickest principle of feeling 2. The contrariest principle of resisting 3. The properest principle of destruction to sin and therefore no marvel that we feel our sinful natures more than formerly for all qualities are most active and most felt in cases of resistance and destruction nevertheless none of these must conclude against our Conversion but rather for it because 1. The greatest work of grace is inward 2. The sense of sinful workings joyned with an hatred of them and humbling of the heart under them and with addresses to God for subduing power is certainly a sign of converting grace Therefore hearken unto me thou distressed soul 1. Though the Glory of Grace consists in Victory yet the Truth of Grace appears in Combats the fighting Souldier is as right to the cause as the conquering Souldier there is fire in the smoking flax as well as in the flaming furnace 2. That great corruptions still remaining in temptation are the burdens of a weak Christian but are not the Characters of a false Christian 3. Jesus Christ can by a little grace weaken strongest corruptions The least true grace will help thy soul to Christ through whose strength thou who art now in conflict shalt ere long be made more than a Conqueror 4. True grace begins in weakness goes on with combat but ends in victory There is but little light at the first and more darkness for quantity but the light of the Sun is rising and dissipating and at length remains alone Conquering grace hath comfort conflicting grace hath strength and even mourning grace hath truth Peter's tears shewed truth of Grace as well as Paul's Triumph But how may I descern my change to arise from the power of converting How it may be discerned that this change is from converting grace and â—ot from the power of a troubling coâ—science Answered grace and not from the power only of a troubling conscience Sol. I conceive thus in four particulars 1. When the change is made only from the sting of conscience that change goes off and vanisheth when the trouble of conscience goes off and continues only while that doth continue whiles the trouble of conscience is on the man the man will hear and the man will pray and the man will consult and profess and resolve yea and now too to become a new man yea and he will cry out against his sins and will not come near his sins But when that trouble is off all is off again the Water which was heated grows cold again Saul is pursuing David again and Foelix is covetous again But if the change be from grace though trouble be off yet the heart is against sin and is for good for grace sets us against sin as it makes us unholy and evil and not only or principally as it makes us uncomfortable and miserable 2. When the change ariseth only from a troubling conscience not from a contrariety to God but to us It doth not arise from a hatred of sin and a love of good but only from a hatred of torment a self-love and a love of ease the man loves that sin that he dares not now commit and hates the good which now he doth he doth the good only as a means to take off his trouble he doth it not as a work in which he delights nor doth he flie sin as an evil which he hates he flies sin as it is malum sensibile not as it is malum spirituale But in a gracious change trouble doth not cause hatred but hatred causeth trouble of sin 3. When the change is only from a troubling conscience then when the trouble is gone the mans heart is more hardned and he growes more wicked then ever before and in after sinnings less sensible and less troubled as Iron growes more hardned after it hath been in the fire or water that is stopped more violent If they be again intangled and overcome the latter end is worse with them then the beginning 2 Pet. 2. 20. But where the heart is changed by grace the more grace still the more sense of sin and still the more fear to sin and still the more love of God 4. When the change comes only from the trouble of conscience the change extends no further then to that or those particular sins for which the conscience doth trouble the man if the other sins trouble not they are not left But when the change is wrought by grace this change extends to all sins I hate every evil way saith David they do no iniquity Psal 119. Let us â—leanse our selves from all filthiness of flesh and spirit 2 Cor. 7. 1. Quest How may a man know that his change is not the fruit of Hypocrisie but of Converting grace Sol. This may be discerned How it appears this change is not the fruit of Hypocrisie thus 1 The change by Hypocrisie 1. Is not Cordial no Hypocrites heart is changed In heart ye work wickedness The Hypocrite dares to give way to heart sins Judah turned Answered not with her heart but feignedly 2. Is not Vniversal The Prophet tells the hypocritical Israelites that they were as a Cake half baked and not turned an hypocrite though he forsake many sins yet he loves some sin Jehu cannot part with the golden Calves though he did destroy Baal 3. Is not lasting but changeable sutable occasions are too strong for an heart felsely changed 4. Is not able to abide three Trials of
joy and comfort It doth onely two things 1. It absolutely condemns and abridgeth the soul of man of all sinfull joys of joys and delights which arise from his sinfull lusts and ways and is it not the great goodness of God to deny us leave to drink cups of poison and glasses of hell Or is it possible that any Christian should to thee that sin should be thy delight which is a departing of the poor soul from God which is an incensing of the wrath of God which was such a dreadfull burthen to Jesus Christ which puts the soul under the wrath and curse of God one act whereof must cost more then all the world is worth to pardon it 2. It doth onely order our outward lawfull joys and delights for the seasons for the measures for other circumstances so that they may be our sauce not our food our helps to Godliness not damps thereto It is but the Bridle on the Horse the Pale for the Garden the Finger on the Dial. Conversion abridgeth us of no delight but of that which to want is a true delight and so orders the rest that you may not lose delight Conversion makes us mournful for sin and how can it be so joyfull Answered True grace makes the heart more mournfâ—ll Object 3. Conversion breeds the quickest sense of sin and the deepest mourning for sin yea a continual mourning for sin makes the clouds to drop never mournfull till converted and can that condition be so joyfull which makes the heart so mournfull To this I answer 1. It is certain that true grace 1. doth make the clearest discovery of sin 2. It yields the tenderest sense of sin for it takes away the heart of stone and gives an heart of flesh and nothing makes the heart more mournfull then true grace 2. But then know that mourning for sin and joy in the heart are no way inconsistent Isai 12. 3. With joy shall ye draw water But this is not inconsistent with joy out of the wells of salvation Three things I would grant 1. That love of sin and true joy are inconsistent 2. Worldly sorrow and spiritual joy are inconsistent 3. That terrour for sin and joy of heart are inconsistent Legal terrour and Evangelical joy are so but Evangelical sorrow and Evangelical joy are not so for as one grace is consistent with another grace so one heavenly affection is consistent with another heavenly affection And there are three things which to me fully convince That Evangelical mourning is consistent with Spiritual joy One is That such a mourning is but a drop out of the eye of faith They shall look upon him whom they have pierced and mourn Zach. 12. 10. and certainly nothing comes from faith but what is comfortable all is Gospel that Faith trades in Another is That the mourning heart is a renewed heart and verily the gracious heart is a joyous heart The third is That the mourning sinner is a pardoned sinner Cum intueor flentem sentis ignoscibilem if the fountain of sorrow be set open in the heart the fountain of mercy is set open in heaven Zach. 12. 10. compared with chap. 13. 1. Yea let me add to this also three experiences 1. One is this That the Christian is never more sad and mournfull then when he feels his heart least mournfull He is then cast down O saith he into what a condition am I brought I was wont to find a tender sensible mourning spirit but me thinks now my heart is grown hard again O Lord why am I now hardened from thy fear And the man never gives over with God and himself until tenderness be renewed in his heart again 2. That the Christian is never more joyfull then when he is most mournfull Blessed are they that sow besides all Waters saith the Prophet Blessed are they that mourn for they shall be comforted saith Christ They that sow in tears shall reap in joy saith David Godly sorrow is the Water that is turned into Wine One drop of a guilty Conscience is able to turn all our Joyes into Bitterness and one drop of godly sorrow is able to turn all our bitterness into joy I rejoyce saith Paul that I made you sorry what cause then had they to rejoyce who were sorry sorry after a godly sort sorry with a sorrow that bred repentance unto salvation never to be repented of 3. That the Christian is never more mournful then when he is most joyful The time of a Christians highest joy is the time of his greatest assurance Sealing and assuring times are the soul-raising and reviving times And the times of greatest assurance are the times of our greatest mournings The more manifestation of Gods Love and the more assurance of Gods Mercy do ever cause in the heart more Humility and more sorrow here is now the greatest joy for mercy and here is now the greatest mourning for sinning against mercy Object 4. We see no persons to walk more sadly and more uncomfortably I but no persons walk more sadly then converted persons Answered It is a False Charge then at least many do who are converted persons Ergo. To this give me favour to answer more fully 1. This is a False Charge and a very unjust Calâ—mny take the divisions of the sons of men according to the diversity of their spiritual conditions compare men with men according unto them and I dare confidently affirm That no condition is more dreadfully sad then the condition of men Unconverted and no condition is more comfortably cheerful then the condition of men truly Converted let 's a while peruse the phrases and instances of such Me thinks the terrible passages in Scripture may abundantly convince us of the dreadfulness of an Unconverted and wicked person Isa 57. 20. The wicked are like the raging sea that cannot rest whose waters cast up mire and dirt ver 21. There is no peace saith my God to the wicked Job 20. 16 17 23 24 25. there Zophar sets him out He shall suck the gall of Asps and the Vipers tongue shall slay him He shall not see the Rivers nor the floods and streams of Honey and Butter When he is about to fill his belly God shall send upon him the fierceness of his wrath and shall cause it to rain upon him The bow of Steel shall strike him through the glistring sword cometh out of his gall terrors are upon him Psal 11. 6. Vpon the wicked he shall rain snares fire and brimstone and an horrible tempest this shalt be the portion of their cup. Again did you ever read of any one godly and converted person who fell into that horrible despair as Cain or Judas did But take the hardest agonies incident to true converts they are 1. rather fears then horrours 2. rather doubts then despairs 3. effects of a mistaking Conscience then a rightly condemning Conscience 4. They can look towards the Promises as Jonah did in the deeps towards God 5.
halting to our dying day either we want minds to good or wills or power not able of our selves to haâ—ch one good thought and when the will is present yet we find not power to perform and though sometimes we do good yet evil is present with us like Beer which runs low with the liquor there runs out much muddy grounds or like Abrahams Sacrifice many Birds lighting on it or like Solomons Ointment in which is some dead Flie or like a Candle which burns with a Snuff or like the fire which ascends with much smoke Our actions are like the Arrows which are shot one is too far another is too short another is too wide not one of an hundred that hits the mark so is it with us many Duties and Services are performed by us but which amongst them all is performed with that reverence of Spirit faith on Christ integrity of Affection unitedness of Soul and sole fidelity of intention to Divine Glory Our excellencies are weak and the Lord be merciful unto us how often do we weaken them our work is but little that we do very little take aside the aversness the indispositions the formalities the coldness the distractions the unbelief the weariness the inconstancy the infinite infirmities which accompany them what poor things will they then appear may we not fall down and say having done our best We are but unprofitable servants Nay and that which being known may likewise abase us is this we may justly say of all our poor excellencies as the Widow of her Vessels They are but borrowed ware What have we which we have not received Every Gift and Grace which we have is but a Beam born of the Sun a drop coming from another Fountain then our Natures all our good is but free Gift take the borrowed feathers from the Crow it is then a most black creature alone So that consider our good aright either in the initial cause of it viz. Divine and free Grace or in the upholding cause of it Divine assistance or in the qualities of it how weak and imperfect or in the acts of it how rare and uneven all these are the springs as it were which feed humbleness of heart in the true Penitent Quest 2. Now I proceed to the next inquiry Why true Penitents Why true penitents are humble persons are such humble and lowly persons I am not worthy to be called thy Son Sol. The reasons are most of them insinuated already I will either express them again or add more to them thus then 1. Conversion necessarily infers an alteration in the whole man Though it doth not destroy Substances yet it changeth Qualities of unholy Conversion infers an Alteration in the whole man it makes us holy of ignorant knowing of filthy clean of obstinate flexible of unquiet meek of proud and lofty humble and lowly therefore penitent persons who are converted persons must needs be lowly ex natura rei this is forcible 2. They never did experimentally know themselves till they began to repent Sin was but a delight or a mock or a meer discourse They now experimentally know themselves unto them before the vileness of it the contagious pollution of it the stinging guilt of it the terrible effects of it both in respect of God and themselves they never savv it till novv they see that of sin vvhich they savv not before both for the filth and the guilt of it and they see it with other eyes then they savv it before no marvel then that they become low in their own eyes Should they not be very vile in their own eyes who perceive themselves guilty of that vvhich is most and only vile in Gods I have sinned what shall I say unto thee O thou preserver of men 3. They never saw till now how short they came in that good of duty Job 7. 20. which they owe to God and how unanswerable they are to the many bonds of obedience I have done nothing for They now see how short they come in duty God all my dayes nor to him in any Service and Honour They never knew till now how injurious they have been unto God to the kindness of his Love to the counsel of his Spirit And how injurious they have been to God to the righteousness of his Will how unworthily and stubbornly they have resisted despised him abused all his mercies Thus for the Explication of the point Now for the Application of it to our selves Doth true Repentance produce humble lowliness of Spirit then let us reflect on our own hearts and judge what solidity Vse Let us judge of our Repentance by our lowliness of Repentance is wrought in us by that lowliness and sense of unworthiness which is to be found in true penitents Consider Pride and loftiness and self-worthiness are very natural to us though we be born wholly naked not any external ornament is upon us no inward excellency yet our natures are puft with Pride and self-worthiness are very natural to us wind and a haughtiness and could we be rifled and stript of every sin we should find this of pride so opposite to lowliness most intimately cleaving to us Paradise was not free of it What do I speak of it nay Heaven it self was troubled with it the Divels who are cast into the lowest darkness fell thither by reason of their proud loftinesâ— Look over all sorts of persons it 's a wonder almost to find one truly humble-hearted sinner If a man hath parts the Apostle tells us that knowledge puffeth up the the wind gets into the bladder as it was with Diotrephes c. Who is the Lord said Pharaoh if a man have dignities how rare is it to see greatness stooping and lowliness of heart with highness of honor If a man have riches he needs an Apostles charge Not to be high-minded If a man be poor he is like Diogenes trampling upon the Philosophers chair with greater pride Generally the scum is most light and vuâ—gar spirits most censorious and insolent If a man be ignorant yet Laodicea thinks her self rich and increased and to have need of nothing though indeed she be poor and blind and miserable and naked 2. If habitually and predominantly proud thou art as yet impenitent 't is true that Conversion doth not give an absolute cessation If Habitually Proud thou art impenitent to sin yet it doâ—h take off dominion and causeth diminution It cannot be that a man should have an heart rightly sensible of sin and set against it and yet be high in the opinion of his own excellencies and worth The mountains are cast down into a valley and the high imaginations brought into captivity the swellings of our corrupt spirits are in great measure abated and let out when once Grace enters our hearts and Repentance hath opened our eies Though you may be free from many other actual and gross exorbitancies if yet the spirit of pride