slaine from the beginning of the world yet as a fruite of our repentance expects from vs a holy reuenge vpon our selues We must iudge our selues that wee bee not iudged and least our iudgements become fruitlesse and elusory We must put them in execution seuerely without pitty or partiality Let vs therefore preuent his face of Maiesty his countenance of Authority by confession wich confession is a profession of forsaking our former faults The Iudge we cannot the iudgement we may preuent if we take the opportunity and repent truly and timely of our sinnes thou wilt mercifully and graciously repent thee of the iudgements denounced doomed against vs. Therefore it be houeth euery man to keepe a Court at home and therin to sit as chiefe iustice to indict and arraigne himself at the barre of his owne conscience where he findes the fault there to inflict punishment In as much as at these Assizes the heart must needes be found the greatest offender because from the heart doth flow all vaine and sinfull imaginations all idle and wicked words all lewde and scandalous actions let him doe Iustice vpon his heart in the first place let him correct the pride of it by humiliation the wantonnesse of it by contrition the iolity of it by sorrow the stubornenesse of it by weeping the gluttony of it by fasting the couetousnesse of it by almes-giuing and so according to the rule of Physicke cure each contrary by his contrary affection The physicke must bee applied to that part of the body which is ill affected the salue laid vpon the place that is sore Where the sinne breedes swels there must the sinner cut and launce He must pricke his heart to the quicke and let out store of teares as the former and latter rayne As our hearts haue beene fatted and pampered as it were with sinne so they should grow leane and meagre againe by sorrow for sinne Looke how much the lesse I spare my selfe so much the more wilt thou spare me My repentance doth in a sort execute thy vengeance and with a temporall vexation doth preuent and auoide thine eternall damnation by casting me downe it lifts me vp by making me vgly in mine own it presents me pure in thine eyes by accusing it doth excuse by condemning it doth acquite me It is a kind of vnhappinesse to be seared and cauterized with an hot yron and fretted with an eating powder but those meanes and medicines which doe cure by sharpenesse and sowernesse by the benefit which they procure doe excuse their distastfulnes and by the succeeding profit do allay the present paine By sin thy spirit takes occasiō to increase grace not by the nature of sinne but by the soueraignety of that spirit which euen of sinnes makes a plaister against sin For I being as sicke of sorrow as of sinne may hopefully resort to thee the Physitian of my soule whose end of comming into the world is to cure the sicke especially such as feele themselues sicke enen at the heart I must breake my golden Calfe that is any idoll of sinne which my corrupt heart doth serue and worship I must burne it with zeale and with contrition grinde it to powder and then strowing it vpon the water of teares drinke it vp againe By this thy gracious meanes an Antidote will bee drawne out of poyson the oyle will cure the bitings of Scorpions the worme wil gnaw the wood the moth the cloth that bred it the very excrements of my sinfull soule like dung and mannor will fatten and make it fruitefull in goodnesse The hunted and wounded Hart by eating of an herbe knows how to helpe and heale himselfe and to make the arrow that pierced his ribbes to fall to the ground The Swallow when she hath put out the eyes of her young ones knowes by an herbe of her owne name how to restore their sight againe Thy herbe of grace the iuyce whereof is our repentance doth expell the fiery darts of Sathan shot by sinne into our soules and this eye-salue doth cause vs though neuer so much blinded with sinne to see both our error in committing and thy mercy in pardoning our offences The most powerfull rhetoricke to mooue thee to pitty is repentance and the most delightfull Musicke in thine eares is that dolefull ditty tuned to a trembling tongue and a quauering voyce peccaui in coelum c. Against thee against thee onely I haue offended The string bends the strongest bowe the fire mollifies the hardest steel the Goates blood breakes euen the Adamant I hope my harts humble and melting repentance will appease thy hottest and heauiest indignation conceiued against me The most worne and torne linnen by contusion and grinding in the Mill makes smooth and white paper Euen so my most base and rotten ragges of vanity and wickednesse by true contrition with thy benediction will produce a cleane heart and renew a right spirit within mee The corruption and consumption of the one will prooue the generation or regeneration of the other To sacrifice to kill are expressed by one and the same word in holy writ because euery sacrifice was slaine in thy Leuiticall lawe but this breaking of my heart and offering my body in sacrifice to thee is an Euangelicall sacrifice because therin which may seeme strange the sacrifice is slaine and yet liueth For it is my faith not my death which thou seekest thou thirstest for my holy desires not my polluted blood thou art appeased with my willingnesse to renounce the world not with my departure out of the world This was Abraham the Father of all thy faithfull ones his sacrifice which thou requiredst of him For what did Abraham but offer his owne body in his Son What didst thou require of him but his Faith who as thou diddest command his Sonne to be offered so thou wouldest not suffer him to be killed I hold it a wise and an aduantageous course in any man to dye to sinne that hee may liue to righteousnesse to mortifie the old man that hee may bee quickened in the new to dye daily that hee may liue eternally Wherefore I will dye that I may not dye I will wound my hart with temporary contrition that I may auoyde the deadly wounds of 〈◊〉 who desires my euerlasting destruction I will liue a dying life that I may not dye a 〈◊〉 death For thy sake are we killed all the day long and right deare in thy sight is this death of thy Saints Here I can bee contented to stirre vp an holy emulation betweene those that thus dye and such as are stoned burned or otherwise done to death for defence of thine honor and testimony of thy trueth who by excellency are termed Martyrs These dye but once and at once their paine is soone past but the other dye a lingering death they dye daily and continually It is accounted a mittigation of cruelty and a
kind of mercy to put men to death quickely This Martyrdome of mortification God doth highly prize without that other which is by effusion of blood this must goe before that and that without this is of no worth nor deserues the name of Martyrdome at all Whose Martyrdome shall I dare to compare with the various hideous and tedious sufferings of holy Iob The best is this contention for immortalitie will not onely be mortall but soone at an end The Martyrs of both sorts so I tearme them because they dye in and for thee shall haue fulnesse of felicity to satiate their largest desires for they both shall haue both ioy without measure and life without end they shall both enioy abundance of pleasures at thy right hand for euermore The summe of all is I must drench and drowne my sinnes and the corrupt affections of my wicked heart in the sea of sorrowfull repentance and then my soule will nimbly and swiftly swim to the land of promise and hauen of happinesse They that will offer this sacrifice their hearts must fall from the high mountaine of pride downe into the lowest valley of humiliation and they must bee bruised with the fall pained with the bruise I will present an humble bruised and sorrowfull heart vnto thee Thou O Lord art nigh to them that are of a contrite spirit who speake to thee in bitternesse their soule who crye like the Draggon and Ostriche for griefe of their sinnes committed They who cry De profundis out of the deepe are not in the deepe their very crye reares and raises them vp Thine eare is within mans heart thou perceiuest the hearts first relenting before it come to the tongues relating I did purpose and say within my selfe I will confesse my sinne and thou tookest notice thereof and forgauest the iniquity of my sinne Thus saith the High and lofty One that inhabiteth eternity whose Name is holy 〈◊〉 dwell in the High and holy place with whom with him that is of a contrite and humble spirit to what end to reuiue the spirit of the humble and to reuiue the heart of the contrite ones Thou wilt not despise nay thou wilt highly prize graciously receiue 〈◊〉 and comfort thou wilt giue them beauty for ashes the oyle of ioy for mourning the garment of gladnesse for the spirit of heauinesse As a bone in the arme or legge once broken and being well set againe growes stronger then if it had neuer beene broken so our hearts being well and soundly healed by true repentance of the sores and bruises of sinne become more firme and stable then euer they were before Thus my foule fall becomes foelix culpa I am after a sort happy in my vnhappinesse for out of my great misery through thy greatest mercy a greater happinesse doth arise then euer I felt before 18 O be fauourable to Sion for thy good pleasure HEE that prayes to thee must not pray for himselfe alone Howsoeuer hee beginne with prayer for himselfe when he hath gained some interest in thee for himselfe hee may the sooner preuaile for others hee must end with prayer for thy Church hee must not end till hee haue recommended the whole Church in his prayers vnto thee He that is a liuely and feeling member of that mysticall body whereof thy Christ is the head must pray for the whole body As in the naturall body the heart feeles the akeing of the head and the head the oppression of the heart the heart and head both doe resent a fellon in one of the fingers and the gowt in one of the toes the stomacke simpathizeth with the braine and the braine with the stomacke so and much more is it in the mysticall body True Christians are like those Twynnes who are reported to haue wept and laughed slept and waked liued and dyed together They must weepe with them that weepe mourne with those that lament suffer hunger thirst nakednesse and imprisonment with others their brethren afflicted with such crosses participate with them in all their miseries and aduersities what soeuer Captaine Vriah mine honest seruant could say The Arke and Israel and Iudah abide in Tents and my Lord Ioab and the seruants of my Lord are incamped in the open field and shall I then goe into my house to eate and drinke and lye with my Wife While they are in ieopardy I cannot be in iollity while they liue in feare I cannot enioy security Wherefore be fauourable to Sion to thy Church and chosen I being one of them must abide one and the same fortune and condition with them This is that vnion of the Saints in thy Christ that communion of them among themselues which cannot easily bee comprehended much lesse fully expressed and yet must it bee constantly belieued and will be in some measure continually resented The Church is represented by the name of Sion Sion the holy Mountaine in Hierusalem which thou louest from whence thy lawe should come and where thou wilt dwell for euer Iehouah hath chosen Sion and desired it for his seate and said This is my rest here will I sit euen to perpetuity But besides this generall I acknowledge my selfe tyed by a speciall obligation to pray for Sion for there was no let on my part but that the whole kingdome of thy Christ might haue fallen to the ground for I being raised from the dunghill to the Diadem from the Parke to the Pallace from following the Ewes great with young to feede thy people and anoynted King to the end I should gather thy Church together by my Apostasie haue scattered and wasted it so farre forth as there is great cause to feare the vtter ruine and desolation thereof Wherefore by force and in remorse of conscience I beg for the sustentation and preseruation of thy Church through thy free and vndeserued mercy Thou O Lord art the onely founder of this choise Company and corporation As out of thy loue onely thou didst single and select them from other refuse people before the foundation of the world as by the same loue thou hast supported and preserued them amids all dangers and disasters euer sithence so I beseech thee still to continue thine ancient accustomed and affectionate fauour to them Let not my vnhappinesse impeach their happinesse let not the darke and foggy mists of my wickednes ecclipse the light and luster of thy countenance towards them let them be still as deare vnto thee as the apple of thine owne eye doe not spill them for my faults but spare mee and them for thine owne sake Thou doest often and mayest alwaies punish the people for the sins of their Princes Wherefore I beseech thee not onely to pardon my sins to my selfe but to be fauourable to my people also and not to suffer them to smart and suffer for my offences It is I that haue sinned and done euill indeed but as for these sheepe what haue they done let
pleasing because they were offered with a louing and sincere heart vnto thee Thou doest not accept the person for the sacrifice but the sacrifice for the persons sake The truth and sincerity of the heart is all in all with thee Lastly that it is not so much any vprightnesse in me in regard of the worth and dignity much lesse of the perfection and purity of it that ministers this comfort vnto mee but as it is a fruit of thy fauour and a token of thy loue not it selfe so much as that whereof it giueth me assurance and that in two respects First as it is a signe and seale of my Adoption assuring me that I am thine adopted child For my regeneration whereby this sincerity is wrought in me doeth ratifie and seale vp my Adoption the old man harboureth no such ghest None are thy Adopted but such as are thy regenerated children and on the other part all that are thine by Regeneration are thine by Adoption also Now as earthly parents loue their children not so much for their wit and comelinesse as because they are theirs so doest thou O God loue thy children because they are thy children If thou doest not loue them before they haue they shall neuer haue any thing to make them bee loued of thee So then this beginning of true grace argueth thy child and a weake child of thine being yet thy child as well as a strong may in that regard expect a childes portion in thy heauenly inheritance Secondly as it is an earnest or Gods-penny of my glorification For this sincerity is the earnest of that Spirit which thou giuest me before-hand for full 〈◊〉 of the faithfull performance of all thy gracious promises afterward Therefore as a penny giuen in earnest bin deth as strongly as a pound the person that giueth it being a sufficient man Euen so the least measure of true grace being thy earnest bindes thee to the faithfull ac complishment of all thy fauours promised to all thy faithful seruants whatsoeuer It is thou only ô Lord that preparest my heart and workest this truth in it and thou wilt neuer frustrate the desire that thou thy selfe hast there wrought As no man canseeke thee but hee that hath found thee so no man can desire grace but hee that hath grace for euermore hee that desireth Grace hath grace to desire it It is thy gracious Proclamation The Lord God will be mercifull yea hee hath beene alreadie and is mercifull to those that set their hearts aright that desire to feare his name Whereupon I take heart and say Then shall I not bee confounded when I haue respect to all thy precepts and when I am vpright with my God The louing kindnesse of the Lord is from euer and for euer vpon those that thinke vpon his commandements to doe them and therefore vnto such also is ioy in plaine termes promised The righteous shall bee glad in the Lord and trust in him and all without exception that are but vpright in heart shall reioyce And therefore hauing by warrant of the blessed Spirit pronounced them blessed not that neuer sinned but that haue sincerely repented their sinnes and in whose soule there is no guile I conclude with an Iniunction awarded vnder the seale of the same Spirit and laid vpon all such to reioyce Be glad ye righteous and reioyce in the Lord be merry not onely in your owne selues and soules but euen with acclamations and iubilations shout for ioy all you that are vpright in heart The summe of all is I doe not finde my heart so free from sin or so full of grace as it would and should bee but I finde it to be true plaine and vpright wherein I appeale to thee O thou searcher of hearts not such as hath no sinne for it hath in a manner nothing but sinne but such as loues no sinne not such as wants no grace but such as is hum bled for want of grace hauing the grace to feele that want 6. In the secret of my heart thou shalt teach me wisdome or Thou shalt teach the seacrets of wisdome in my heart or hidden part THe conscience of my vnfained sorrow for sin on the one side my true desire to serue thee better hereafter on the other doe raise my dciected soule and make me beleeue and hope that thou in thy gracious goodnesse wilt teach me more wisedome euen the mystery of godlinesse and art of Religion which is the soule of the soule in the secret of my heart I say thou shalt because I begge earnestly and hope confidently that thou wilt teach mee such Wisedome The teaching of the inward man by the true instruction of heauenly wisdome the end wherof is eternall saluation belongeth to thee alone It is thy proper and peculiar worke whereupon thine elect ones are termed The taught of God for flesh and blood reueales not these things vnto me Hee hath his chaire in heauen that teacheth the heart and to thy schollers it is only giuen to know the secrets of thy Kingdome Therefore I trust thou wilt teach me thy wayes and thy statutes thou wilt open mine eyes that I may sce the wonders of thy Law thou wilt giue me true vnderstanding and send me thy good Spirit as a perfect Pylot to leade and guide me into all truth goodnesse This is the wisedome of the heart and brest not of the head and braine whereby I shall become not more learned or politicke but more godly 〈◊〉 vertuous not more able to discourse and dispute but to doe and liue well 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 become righteous that is by a little variati on of the word right wise For whē all is said done That is right wisedome which makes me wise vnto Saluation That is not seeming and shining but sound and solid wisedome that is reall and operatiue not speculatiue and formall wisedome The true information and thereby Reformation of the soule is the soule of wisedome It is neuer taught enough which is neuer sufficiently learned and this wisedome is of that nature that the soule is neuer satiated therewith but is still hungry and couetous of more I haue heard and read many lessons by way of instruction in this wisedome but either through my dulnesse I could not apprehend them or through my obliuion I could not remember thē or through my infirmity I could not practise them Howbcit by the supereminent authority of thee the Teacher the excellencie of the matter taught and the increase of my diligence all happily concurring together I hope at length to attaine the depth of wisedome in the deepe and secret corners of my heart 7 Purge me with Hysope and I shall be cleane THe tongue wil be licking where the tooth is aking the finger will be touching where the paine is fretting The Leprosie of my sinne is so irkesome and lothsome vnto mee as
extremity of cold in the cleere water that distilleth from the cloudes Thy celestiall ayre and light which surpasseth all bodily and naturall whitenesse being gathered into my soule when it is melting into the teares of repentance makes it cleere and bright euen to admiration Christ by washing my soule hath taken my spots out of mee vpon himselfe hee himselfe remaines all 〈◊〉 and stained with my sinnes insomuch that the Spouse is amazed at it and wondring demands Wherfore doest thou weare garments all spotted and dyed with blood like vnto them that stampe grapes in the wine-presse Thy seruant Moses out of his kinde and vndeserued loue tooke an Aethiopian woman to his wife No wife is deformed in her owne husbands eyes if he be such a husband as he ought to be The mysticall Moses who in loue hath married himselfe vnto his Spouse the Church not onely blacke and deformed but vgly and filthy in her selfe hath by his gracious election of her though neither by her beauty nor manners recommended vnto him made her because he so esteemeth her faire comely and graceful he hath changed her color and complection yea and her nature and condition too so as she sticks not to say I was black by nature but I am faire by grace Can that which is blacke as Pitch or Ebeny become perfectly white and whiter then snow yes verily for my state by adoption and regeneration in Christ is of more perfection then Adam his happiest condition in Paradise This might and did faile that can neuer alter or decay but abides firme and sure to all eternity Blacke by the art of man can take no other hue nor can this whitenes by the fraud or force of the prince of darkenesse be euer either darkned or defaced Snow is white without and within on euery side Thy Grace will make mee not like a painted sepulcher faire without and foule within not hypocritically specious but really sound and sincere and the beauty of the soule thus washed will infinitely exceede the whitenesse of any body yea euen of snow it selfe Make mee to heare of 〈◊〉 and gladnesse c. O Lord I beg of thee the whole tree of life growing by the riuer side in the Garden of Eden whose roote is iustification by remission of my sinnes and whose fruite is true ioy and consolation in thy gracious fauour There may bee a roote without a stocke as when a Tree is hewne downe a stocke without 〈◊〉 as in the winter season but nor fruite nor stocke where no roote is The forgiuenesse of my sinne is the root of all my ioy O Lord giue me the fruite of that roote and that will assure me of the roote of that fruite Vnlesse thou make me I cannot heare Vnlesse thou open mine eare the voice of gladnesse will not enter or if it goe in at the one it will go out at the other eare I shall be neuer the better for hearing Thou must not only tel me the tale but finde me eares also thou must not onely present the obiect but enable my faculty also to perceiue or receiue it The Adder or Cockatrice is as some say naturally as some others cunningly deafe laying the one eare close to that ground stopping the other with his tayle purposely to preuent the skill of the Charmer who seekes to enchant him in such sort as he shall not be able either to bite or sting So man in his pure or rather impure naturals is either sencelesly deafe and cannot or voluntarily deafe and will not heare any voice that tends to the spirituall solace of his soule no not the sound of sound ioy not the melodious noise of true gladnesse vnlesse thou that sendest the tidings of Grace doe giue him the grace also to entertaine those tidings Now what is the end and indeuor either of this corruption by nature or peruersenesse by will but that none of thy words or spels O God none of thy holy Spirit his motions or inclinations may haue power wickednesse being so powerfull to charme or inchant me but that I may still bite and sting still hurt and annoy both my selfe and others I desire ioy and gladnesse doubled that is both of soule and body and I cannot rest contented with one or two or a few comforts I seeke to haue them multiplied that as my tribulations were increased so in like proportion my consolations may be inlarged and I terme this ioy and gladnesse indefinitely because this is the onely solid ioy and true gladnesse All other ioyes are but toyes like false fires and counterfet 〈◊〉 such as deserue not the name of ioyes at all I beseech thee O Lord not onely to blot out my transgressions and to take away the guilt of my sins but for the raising of my deiected the relieuing of my distressed soule to let me know so much also let me heare this ioyfull Word in the eare of my heart from thine owne mouth by thine holy breath and Spirit Thy sins are forgiuen thee Not onely bee vnto me a Sauiour but say vnto my soule I am thy saluation For I may stand pardoned and iustified in thy gracious 〈◊〉 and certaine resolution and yet not know so much and not knowing it how can I be but grieuously perplexed fearefully distracted in my conscious distrustfull cogitations Wherefore O Lord let thy Spirit certifie my spirit that All is peace Let my soule sensibly feele though it cannot fully conceiue this peace which passeth all vnderstanding To a Prisoner conuicted and condemned for high treason to cruell death and euery houre expecting execution according to course of Iustice what greater ioy can there bee then to heare of a gracious and free pardon of all his offences from his Soueraigne This is the true character of my selfe and euery other sinner in respect of our spirituall condition Wee were damned before wee were borne in sinne since our birth wee haue liued in sinne we haue multiplied sinne vpon sinne wee haue drunke vp iniquity as a fish drinketh vp water wee haue committed sundry hainous and horrible treasons against thy diuine 〈◊〉 to say nothing of other capitall crimes wee haue after all this wilfully drawne downe thine indignation and called for thine eternall vengeance vpon vs In this deplorable and euen desperate case what more welcome tydings then to heare of this Iubile Sinne doth not onely bring me into a dull slumber but euen into a dead sleepe also In sleepe all my sences are bound vp as it were in chaines when I am fast asleepe I heare nothing at all Wherefore awake me O Lord and make me to heare Make mee to heare thy Word the conduit of comfort openly taught with such diligence and deuotion as is meete make mee to heare the secret whisperings of thy blessed Spirit with such reuerence and obedience as is requisite make me so to heare as I may beleeue faith commeth by hearing with thy blessing
creature which thy hands haue made and fashioned looke vpon thine owne Image which thou hast stamped vpon me looke not vpon my sinnes which haue blemished and disfigured my soule which haue almost quite defaced that thine Image and in stead thereof haue placed the very portraicture of Satan Although custome of sinning haue made my sin another nature in me although I be so compassed with infirmities so inclosed in my corruptions as they may seeme to be incorporated in me and become my very substance yet thou O Lord canst distinguish between the 〈◊〉 and the rust between thine owne and Satans worke between man and a sinner Thou canst looke on that which thou hast made and look off that which I haue marred with one and the same Eye of pitie and mercie When thou seekest a sinner thou 〈◊〉 the man and not his sinne that thou mayest despise the sin which is mans worke and not lose the man which is thy worke Hee that loseth a precious Iewell seeketh it in all the sluts corners and stickketh not to rake the kennell and stirre the dunghill to finde it The Iudge when he will pardon lookes vpon the man not vpon his fault the father when he is disposed to pitty his child thinkes vpon his owne affection and not vpon his sonnes transgression Euen so O Lord thou art mindfull of thine owne worke that thou mayest forget the worke of another thou turnest thy face to the tone that thou mayest hide thy face from the tother O Lord at least hide thine angry face from me I cannot deny but that I neede correction and am not therefore altogether vnwilling to beare it if thou holdest it meete Correct me but not in thy fury chastize me but not in thy displeasure let mine afflictions be instructions not destructions rather medicines then punishments castigations not condemnations Let them be the wounds of a louer Let me perceiue thy grace euen when thou doest seeme to frowne vpon me let me discerne the sweete sunshine of thy mercy thorow the thickest cloudes of thy fiercest wrath I will follow the way which thou hast taught me I will set my sinnes before mine owne face that thou mayest hide thy face from them I will remember that thou maiest forget them I will confesse that thou mayest forgiue them I am much ashamed and agreeued to see mine own sinnes I am much more ashamed and agreeued that thou with thy pure eyes and bright face shouldest behold the fowlenesse and filthines the folly and madnesse the absurdity and grossenesse of them Yet O Lord let mee behold my sinnes alwaies so as thou wilt be pleased to hide thy face from them altogether Thou canst but thou doest not alwaies because thou wilt not sometimes in fauour see the faults 〈◊〉 thy people Thou diddest not because thou wouldest not see iniquity in Jacob nor peruersenesse in Israel If thou canst not in Iustice but looke towards my sinnes yet I beseech thee in mercy to suffer the Blood of thine Immaculate Lambe to interuene betweene thy glorious face and my lothsome corruptions Let that spectacle either diuert or restraine thy sight and hinder the representation of the vgly shapes of my faults to thy pure and perceiuing eyes Looke vpon that precious obiect first and there stay and terminate thy sight or at least looke through it as men looke through a coloured glasse that the foule obiect may appeare in the colour of the glasse and not in his owne colours Let the robe of the Lambes innocency couer the shamefull nakednesse of my vnrighteousnesse so as it may be hidden from thy angry face and fearefull countenance Blot out all my transgressions When a man feeles his soule laden with the burden and his 〈◊〉 affrighted with the apparition of some one or two grieuous offences lately done hee begs earnestly for pardon of those sinnes in particular or 〈◊〉 his sinnes indefinitely 〈◊〉 falls not at the first into computation or consideration of the rest of his sinnes in former times committed The fresher wounds seeme euer the more fearefull and the new terrible obiect doth so dazle and confound the soules sight as it cannot looke either beyond or besides it But the more grieuous and enormous sinnes after awhile doe occasion vs to make a more narrow inquisition and take a more exact suruey of the whole course of our sinfull life whereby wee cannot but finde that we haue runne into many errors and manifold crimes the remembrance and recognition whereof wee had formerly in a sort neglected Then we beginne seriously to consider that in this generall muster there is not any one sin seeme it neuer so light or slight but being an offence against an infinite Maiesty and a violation of the whole Law of God deserueth an heauy iudgement in the seuerity of 〈◊〉 and that if some of our sinnes 〈◊〉 bee remitted and others retayned we remaine still in a most wofull condition therefore doe not content ourselues with a praier that some or many of our spots and sinnes may bee wyped out but craue with a note of vniuersality an abolition of them all Blot out all my transgressions my sinnes in thought word and deede my sinnes of omission and my sinnes of action my sinnes of childhood youth middle-age and elder yeeres my sins of infirmity and my sins of presumption my sinnes within and my sins without my body my bloody and my vnbloody sinnes my sinnes committed in mine own person and my sins committed by others through my ill example for they are mine too my single sinnes committed by me as a priuate person my double sinnes committed by me as a publike magistrate who when hee sinneth doth rather teach then act sinne my lesser and my greater sinnes the sins of Soueraignes are 〈◊〉 sinnes my secret and open my knowne and vnknowne sins who can tell how 〈◊〉 he offendeth my sinnes past present yea and to come for whilst I liue in this body of death I cannot but sin all my sinnes whatsoeuer when I say all I except none no minyon or darling sinne at all Thou diddest command 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 the 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 the 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 be 〈◊〉 away Who is not sinfully 〈◊〉 and whose sinnes are not more in number then the haires of his head Let them all come vnder the Raisor of true repentance and then they will come within the reach of thy free remission Not one Egyptian escaped out of the red Sea Saul was commanded to kill all the Amalekites men such as offend of malice women such as offend of infirmity children such as transgresse out of ignorance onely Create in mee a cleane heart and renew a right spirit within me Whoso beggeth Iustification which is the foundation will seeke Sanctification also which is the goodly frame 〈◊〉 thereupon and cannot but after sinnes committed and remitted shine and flourish in holinesse of life and conuersation Hee that hath that fire cannot
not onely in the aliens reprobates but euen in the domesticks of the houshold of faith in thy most inlightned and best disposed children euen in the Elect themselues and those that are sealed vp for the Day of Redemption Wherefore I must say freely as I may truly I am thy workemanship not onely of thy power as all other creatures are but of thy mercy also created in Christ vnto good workes whereof he is the sole Author and Actor working effecaciously in mee both the will and the deed according to his good pleasure O Lord giue me a liuely Faith thy Gift alone which hath power to quicken my dull to enlyue my dead to purifie my impure heart Giue me grace stedfastly to beleeue thy Word to take sure hold of thy promises euermore to cleaue and sticke fast to thy goodnesse Kindle this fire in my soule which will inflame my loue of all good duties on the one and on the other side waste and consume eate vp and de uoure my concupiscence and all my carnall desires and cause them to returne into that dead sea whence they were first exhaled Renew a right Spirit within me Hee whose spirit is deserted by Gods Spirit loseth the vigor and viuacity of his spirit his spirit waxeth old crooked in him Sinne where it inuades makes such spoile and hauocke of all goodnesse and vertue in the soule as it cannot subsist vnlesse it be timely repaired and truly renewed by repentance When a man lyes groueling vpon earthly and houering vpon fleshly desires his spirit which should directly 〈◊〉 vpward is bowed downe and made crooked A 〈◊〉 spirit then is a sincere and vpright heart raysed and lifted vp into heauen and heauenly things What is sinne else but an obliquity a depriuation or deprauation of that rectitude and vprightnesse which was originally and should be continually in the soule if it were throughly purged and purified I haue impayred this rectitude and vprightnesse which once I had in some measure by my heynous and enormous transgressions and therefore resort to thee for helpe who onely art able to renewe and repaire it againe Giue me O Lord a spirit rectified in it selfe directed by thy Spirit corrected by thy discipline and erected to thy glory a spirit firme without failing constant without varying and durable without decaying that I may happily choose new waies walke in them carefully and perseuere in them constantly giue me grace to turne ouer a new leafe as they say to abandon the old man with the lusts and affections thereof and to put on the new man and so to serue thee in holinesse and newnesse of liuing all the dayes of my life hereafter I doe wittingly and thankefully ascribe the purity of my heart to thy Creation the vprightnesse of my spirit to thy renouation alone as to giue thee thy due honour so to preuent and anticipate the proud and fond conceit of those men if any such there be or shall be hereafter who to grace thēselues wil abate the power diminish the lustre of thy grace who though they cannot but confesse that they neede the assistance of thy Spirit that they are holpen by thy both preuenting and following grace yet betweene those two graces for their own credit will needes vainely interpose or rather violētly intrude mans reason whereby he chuseth what is good and mans will whereby he assenteth to thy diuine power in the blessed worke of regeneration But hereby I take secret comfort in my selfe to preserue my perplexed soule from vtter despaire that I discerne the foulenesse of my heart feele the weaknes of my spirit and therefore pray earnestly for a purification of the one and a renouation of the other for I know I cannot craue either of those graces without some measure of grace As the sunne cannot be seene but by the Sunne nor the light be perceiued but by meanes of the light so neither can I begge a full cleansing of my heart without some cleanenesse in it nor a through-renouation without some newnesse in my decayed spirit at least in true affection and vnfaigned desire Cast me not away from thy presence and take not thy holy Spirit from me I feare and cannot but feare thy face and yet I feare withall to be cast from thy face 〈◊〉 presence Mine owne 〈◊〉 makes me on the one side to feare the face of a seuere Iudge and my worthlesse weaknesse on the other being not able to subsist at all without the light of thy countenance makes mee desire thy presence and sight What-euer thou doe with me while thou lookest vpon me I shall indure though not without feare and perplexity But if thou cast me quite away from thy presence I am vtterly vndone for euer The presence of the Physicion is a present if not helpe yet comfort to the sicke patient But thy presence Lord being the soueraigne Physicion ministers all comforts and cures all maladies both of soule and body Therefore I loue the habitations of thy house and the place where 〈◊〉 honour dwelleth As the hunted and chased Hart desireth the water brookes So longeth my soule after thee When shall I come and appeare before thee O how amiable are thy Tabernacles My soule euen longeth and fainteth for the courts of the Lord. One day in thy Courts where thou art present and resident is better then a thousand elsewhere I had rather bee a dorekeeper there then to dwell at liberty and in iollity in the tents of the vngodly The priuation of Gods presence is the position of all misery and the withdrawing of his countenance drawes with it all manner of discomforts Heauen it selfe were not heauen if thou wert not there present and Hell could not be hell if thou wert not absent thence To bee cast out of thy presence is to be cast out of ioy into sorrow out of light into darkenesse out of life into death not the first onely but the second also out of heauē into hel The very sight and vision of thee is of it selfe and in it selfe the height of happinesse In thy presence is the fulnesse of ioy and at thy right hand is plenty without satiety of pleasure and delight for euermore Wherefore though I haue multiplyed and increased my contumacie beyond all measure yet I beseech thee O Lord not to excommunicate me I submit my selfe with teares in mine eyes and anguish in my heart humbly and wholly to thy discipline I am content to endure any penance rather then to bee banished from thy presence What the want of this presence is none can know but he that feeleth and he that feeleth cannot make another know by any relation Hee may indeuour to shaddow it out slenderly but hee is not able fully to expresse it If the Master turne his seruant out of doores if the Father abandon his sonne from his fight if the King command his subiect from the Court that hee come not within the Vierge how
grieuous and irkesome will the damage and disgrace be to euery or any of these respectiuely Thou O God art our Master and to serue thee is to raigne with thee Thou art our Father and what greater preeminence then to bee the Sonne of God Thou art our King and to be in subiection to thee is our chiefest dominion How then doth it concerne me being an vnfaithfull Seruant a prodigall Childe and a trayterous Subiect to beg earnestly of thee my bountifull Master my louing Father my gracious Soueraigne that thou wilt not take away thy 〈◊〉 banish me from thy fight nor expell mee from thy Courts As the soule doth excell the body and the 〈◊〉 the flesh beyond proportion so the one losse is incomparably greater then the other Thou O God art present with me by thy good Spirit and so long as I haue this Ghest in my soule I haue the fruition of thee and thy presence wherefore suffer not this noble Ghest to be dislodged and taken from mee Thou and thy Spirit are vndeuided companions If thou cast me from thy presence thou takest thy holy Spirit from me and if thou takest 〈◊〉 Spirit thou takest thy selfe from me I doe yet enioy thy presence in a sort I behold thy countenance though full of anger I feele thy Spirit within mee though sad and grieued for I find contrition in my heart confession in my mouth and confusion in my face for my grieuous offences I hate my sinnes and my selfe for my sinnes This smoake cannot ascend but from that fire of thy Spirit this fruit cannot grow but from that roote of repentance Howbeit when I behold the vglinesse of my offences with an vnpartiall eye and consider how hard harsh a thing it is for Purity and Holinesse to dwell or abide with wickednesse and filthinesse I tremble and quake in an awefull feare that thou wilt as iustly thou mayest depriue me of thy gracious presence and bereaue mee of thy blessed Spirit Lord thou art in all things by thine Essence thou art in all places and at once by thy Power and presence I may well bee asked Whither wilt thou flye from his Spirit or whither wilt thou goe from his presence c If thou shalt say The darkenesse shall couer me euen the night shall bee light about thee Yet thou canst and wilt cast me from thy presence and withdraw thy holy Spirit from me if I be settled vpon the dregs of my sinnes without remorse in contempt of thy Maiestie and abuse of thy mercie If thou in thy iust iudgement and wrathfull indignation abandon mee from thy presence thou castest me out of thy prouidence and protection thy blessed Spirit doth quite desert mee I am banished out of the land of the liuing into the Desert of desolation which is without the compasse of the whole Vniuerse that thou didst create and d'st vphold In that case happy were I to bee no more but I shall be most vnhappy to bee and continue helpelesse and hopelesse in endlesse misery Thy holy Spirit is by a speciall title stiled The Comforter by excellencie because all other comforters and comforts are cold and vncomfortable without and beside it I haue I confesse with griefe many times checked this Spirit when it hath presented good motions to my minde and good desires to my hart I haue grieued it exceedingly while I carelesly neglected and stubbornely refused the good counsell it ministred vnto me Howbeit sithence without this Comforter I must bee for euer comfortlesse in the depth of discomfort I 〈◊〉 thee not to take vtterly and finally thy holy Spirit from me Thy gifts O Lord are without repentance therefore I trust I shal neuer be without repentance whō thou louest once thou doest euer loue if thou begin thou wilt perseuere to loue Although I doe not alwayes feele the graces of thy Spirit in my sinfull soule yet I shall 〈◊〉 trust haue 〈◊〉 euer because once I had them My sinne may take away the sence and 〈◊〉 for a while but not the interest and property if I may so say which I haue in thy blessed Spirit Which notwithstanding the fruition of this Spirit being so precious and the losse of it so inualuable I cannot but in feare and anxiety of soule instantly pray that it may not be taken from me Although the seed of thy Word whereby I am begotten againe to a liuely Hope be immortall and incorruptible yet it is so choked with the weeds of fleshly desires so intangled with worldly allurements it lyeth so buried in the furrowes of my hard and stony heart as I may much doubt and in a manner distrust the shooting and springing of it vp againe without an extraordinary influence of thy heauenly grace which cannot descend vpon me vnlesse my humble and earnest prayers ascend vp to thee Wherefore retaine mee O Lord in thy fauour and permit thy blessed Spirit not onely to soiourne for a season but to remaine continually with me Let me so keepe a doore in the Sanctuary of my soule which is one of thy Courts as I may neuer suffer this Ghest to goe out of it 12 Restore vnto mee the ioy of thy saluation and vphold mee with thy firme Spirit or stablish mee with thy free Spirit I Doe not say Giue mee what I neuer had but restore vnto mee what I had and haue lost by mine owne fault and folly It is a greater fauour to restore then to giue in as much as it is a greater vnhappinesse to lose a Iewell which I had then neuer to haue had it Priuation is a greater punishment then want It is the height of misery to haue beene happy To come out of darknesse into light out of sicknesse into health out of perplexity into security out of sorrow sadnesse into ioy and gladnesse and so by the contrary to come out of cheerfulnesse into pensiuenesse sets out more liuely and causes to be felt more sensibly both the one and the other condition One contrary is a foyle vnto another We then make the tru est valuation of thy greatest mercies O Lord when we are for a time depriued of them which is one speciall cause why thou takest them from vs that by the want we may learne the worth of them and shew our selues accordingly thankefull because thou diddest vouchsafe vs the fruition of them so long and much more ioyfully imbrace and charily preserue them when thou pleasest to restore them to vs againe For as the eyes cannot discerne a goodly obiect when it is held close vnto them but when it is remoued in some distance so our vntoward vnthankfull hearts cannot iudge of the excellency and sweetnesse of present graces but when they are withdrawne a while from vs then doe we more cheerefully behold and fully obserue the riches of thy bounty mercy in them This ioy of thy saluation consisteth in an assured
so euen thy praises must come from thy 〈◊〉 to set forth thy glory Thou desirest not sacrifice else would I giue it or had giuen it In regard of the heauy burthen of many sins oppressing my soule and the feareful apprehension of thy iust indignation conceiued against me to ease and free my selfe to appease and please thee what would I not doe what would I not suffer what would I not offer But I haue nothing whereby I might redeeme thy fauour towards mee For if I had Mountaines of Gold if I had Riuers of Oyle if I had tenne thousand sacrifices to bestow vpon thee it booted mee nothing they are all thine owne already and besides thou makest not account or esteeme of any of these things at all which I doe not deliuer to disallow or altogether disualue all kinde of 〈◊〉 by slaughter of Beasts and Birds appointed by thee and prescribed by thine owne Law but because these are signes onely and representations to the weake capacities of mortall men of that reall effectuall renowned and eternall sacrifice once to be offered for the redemptition of mankinde I know O Lord by the illumination of thy holy Spirit that it is an inward and internall not an outward or externall sacrifice which thou being a spirit delightest in Thou lookest vpon the heart and pious affections thereof alone I conceiue that to draw thine owne people from the superstitious Idolatry whereunto the Gentiles through the blindnesse of their vnderstanding and the delusions of Satan were so prone and so much addicted and to teach them to embrace such worship of thee as thou shouldest prescribe not themselues 〈◊〉 thou hast instituted sundry kindes of sacrifices vpon seuerall occasions to be offered vnto thee with an indulgent respect to our infirmity who being carnall delight in outward shewes without which wee cannot so easily comprehend those inward seruices and spirituall duties to bee performed by vs and euer with relation to the true substance of the hearts affections to be erected and consecrated wholly to thine honour For thou hast not 〈◊〉 or 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 for thy selfe 〈◊〉 wouldest not drinke the bloud of Bulls and Goats The eternall God doth neither hunger nor thirst c. But a single and sincere minde fearing God of those that offer such things as they haue from thee is a sweet smelling and well-pleasing sacrisice to thee by thy gracious acceptation who dost not so much regard the thing that is done in this kinde as the minde where with it is done and the end wherfore it is done to wit thine owne glory Thou dost not respect the shadow but the substance not the shel but the kernell not the chaffe but the corne not the signe but the thing signified At least thou doeft not esteem the type without the truth nor the figure in any degree of comparison with that which is represented thereby and therewith to be presented vnto thee that is a broken heart The sacrifices of God in the plurall number because this one is many sacrifices this one is all the sacrifices that thou expectest at our hands A broken heart a contrite spirit diuers words importing one and the same thing is a heart wounded a spirit deiected and perplexed with the sight and sense of sin committed mourning and melting into teares through the remorse of conscience grieuously lamenting that it was so wretched and wicked as gracelesly and vngratefully to reiect the iust lawes of so powerfull a Iudge and to neglect the kinde inuitations of so pittifull a Father and all for a little vaine idle foolish frothy and fruitlesse pleasure which was mingled with 〈◊〉 in that little time wherein it was so greedily 〈◊〉 and pleasingly 〈◊〉 Now 〈◊〉 doth thy gracious goodnesse wonderfully shew and 〈◊〉 forth it selfe that thou not only 〈◊〉 to teach vs what to doe and what to say how to 〈◊〉 our actions and frame our supplications that both in word and deed wee may please thee but also whē we haue offēded displeased thee to tell vs how to pacifie and appease thee againe The Sacrifices of God are c. Nay further thou dost not require such a sacrifice as must be procured and purchased from abroad with much care and cost farre fetcht and deare bought as they say but such a sacrifice as we haue or may haue in our owne bosomes 〈◊〉 à te extrâ to quaeritur Thou requirest nothing from mee but what is within mee Beyond all this thou doest vs the honour and trustest vs with the office of Priests that wee may be sure to see this Sacrifice duly performed We must our selnes for our 〈◊〉 offer vp our 〈◊〉 in humility contrition which is 〈◊〉 only 〈◊〉 and vnbloody 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 and 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 thee Euery 〈◊〉 as a 〈◊〉 Priest 〈◊〉 a victime within 〈◊〉 to offer the franke-Incense that must be put vpon the Altar in his owne bowells in his owne heart a Sacrifice that is of force to 〈◊〉 and winne thee to compassion he neede not seeke for a beast abroade to slaughter and burne to ashes he hath within himselfe that hee may and should kill He may slay sin he may mortify his earthly members he may strike with the hammer of sound repentance vpon the hard Anuile of his stony heart till it be mollified bruised and brayed to pieces and then it will be thy time turne as it is thy greatest honour to binde vp and heale the wounded and broken hearted Hee may kill and sacrifice to thee his Bull of pride his Goat of lasciuiousnesse his Ramme of stubbornenes his Birds of flying and wandering imaginations and so the rest of his carnall sensuall affections which being beastly doe turne men into beasts defacing that Image of thee wherein they were created to holinesse and righteousnesse The morall whereof is this He may in a life of vertue and piety offer vp the death of his vices iniquities to thee He that repents his sins doth chide and braule quarrell and brabble hee doth expostulate and fall out with himselfe in this tune Oh vnhappy wretch why wouldest how couldest thou so basely stoope to the lure of fleshly wantonnesse of wordly profit of spitefull reuenge of trecherous infidelity how couldest thou be induced to sell thine inheritance for a mesle of Pottage thy euer during treasure in heauen for a little flitting and vnconstant trash of the world What fruite hast thou now of 〈◊〉 the forbidden fruite of enioying those sinfull and momentany pleasures whereof thou art so much ashamed was not the terrible voice of the Law thundring out hell and damnation of power to fright thee from rebellion were not the sweete promises of the Gospell of force to inuite thee to the 〈◊〉 and constant seruice of God Nay beyond chiding and brauling a true penitent must chastise and punish himselfe Thy Lustice O God although it be fully satisfied by that all sufficient obedience and propitiatory Sacrifice of the Lambe
THE PSALME OF MERCY OR A MEDITATION vpon the 51. Psalme by a true Penitent LONDON Imprinted by Felix Kyngston and are to be sold by Matthew Lownes 1625. TO MY REVEREND FRIEND Mr. IOHN DOVVNAME Bachelar in Diuinity and Preacher of Gods Word REVEREND SIR WHen first I fell into my grieuous affliction as a man surprized with a mighty Tempest I did in the midst of mine astonishment bethinke my selfe how to apply my courses to the appeasing of Gods anger whence 〈◊〉 crosse proceeded and the sauing of my perplexed soule the mayne marke whereat 〈◊〉 aymed In that case I suddainely and strongly resolued to take Gods Booke into my hand by it as by the true Card and compasse to saile safely thorow the sea of this worlds troubles in hope ioyfully in the end to arriue at the hauen of rest and true 〈◊〉 Among the bookes of holy Writ I 〈◊〉 mine eyes and thoughts specially vpon the Psalmes of Dauid which are a short and sweete 〈◊〉 of all Scripture and 〈◊〉 mysteries therein comprized Among the Psalmes I conuersed more frequently in those that are singled from the rest and stiled by a speciall title The Penitentialls as the fittest medicines for my malady which are as one saith the Anatomy of the spirit and the heart as it were of the new man True it is which I confesse ingenuously though to mine own reproach that albeit I had very often heretofore heard and red those Psalmes wherein Dauid his pangs and passions are liuely described with a kinde of 〈◊〉 delight and pleasing regret as men behold Tragedies on a stage and reade lamentable stories Yet could I not fully rellish and truly tast them whiles I liued in quietnesse and contentment nor indeed vntil I had by personall experience felt in some proportion Dauid his 〈◊〉 and wounded spirit So true is that which sundry of the Fathers haue obserued and Saint Bernard deliuers in these words You shall neuer rightly vnderstand Dauid vntill by experience you haue put on the very affections in which Dauid his Psalmes were endited for none can expresse a passion that feeles it not neither can the penne deliuer but what it copieth out of the 〈◊〉 Now being best acquainted with mine owne disabilities and defects I did 〈◊〉 chuse this Plaine-song to 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 being the prime 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 Penitentiall and a liuely Character of a true Mourner though shaped to the particular condition of Dauid yet fitting euery penitent sinner because it seemes to require the compunction of the heart rather then the consideration of the head an imitation rather then an interpretation an application rather then an explication This is The Psalme of Mercy by excellency so called because it beginneth with Miserere which prisoners indicted and conuicted for lesser fellonies at our Assizes and 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 doe so often call and 〈◊〉 for at the Iudges hands For 〈◊〉 that can neither vnderstand nor reade the Latine tongue can say it by rote as they say and doe craue mercy in desiring to be put to reade this Psalme of mercy But without all question the most holy and iust man vpon earth had neede to beg of the great Iudge of heauen and earth that hee will 〈◊〉 to heare him read with his tongue and tune with his heart this sweete though 〈◊〉 Psalme of mercy in his daily 〈◊〉 lest he be condemned when hee comes to be arraigned at the grand Assizes When all offendors without witnesse or Iury are to be accused conuicted 〈◊〉 the 〈◊〉 and 〈◊〉 of their own consciences 〈◊〉 not to appeare it will bee impossible and to appeare without this Psalme of mercy it will be intolerable For who is he among the sonnes of men that may not truly say with that ancient Father A sinner I am spotted with all manner of staines borne for nothing else in this life but to act repentance all my life what other person 〈◊〉 I sustaine vpon the stage of this world Vpon perusall of the Psalme and some few 〈◊〉 thereof for I did not 〈◊〉 many chewing the Cud as it were I haue cast it and them into mine own mold expressed the sense in 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 plaine language and paralelling mine with Dauids perplexities applied his plaisters to my sores I 〈◊〉 with the same measure of spirit I hope with the like successe of grace If you meruaile that I being no Diuine should aduenture the conceiuing much more the publishing of a Meditation of this nature My answere is briefely That the subiect of it belongs to the art of Christianity which euery man is bound to know and not onely to the profession of Diuinity and that in absence of the Master one 〈◊〉 now and than teacheth another and he that learnes of his Schoolefellow will sometimes apprehēd it sooner from 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 from his Master And I hope to suffer the more gentle censure for suffering this weake Essay to see light in this Age which is actiue in scribling and printing euen to ryot and excesse because I see mens wills of their gifts to charitable vses daily printed to incite others by their example to the like courses Why then may not any man declare publish the pious bequest of his soule as it were and set the presse on worke to expresse and record his repentance build his tombe of black-Marble erect it in the Temple of Gods people that by looking vpon 〈◊〉 Ensignes and reading the Epitaph others may be mooued as in Christian affection to condole with him so by a kinde of reflection to mourne for themselues If a man would prouide a mourning suite for his sorrowfull heart what hurt or losse were it to see diuers formes and fashions to make choyce of for patternes The more course the Stuffe and lesse curious the fashion the fitter for the grat Dueil or solemne mourning My model may better please some mourner then a better If no other vse be made The often iteration and frequent renouation of this matter 〈◊〉 vsuall and ordinary resort to houses of mourning may giue occasion to refresh and reuiue that diuine passion which should euer liue in vs till it dye with vs to wit Repentance What fruite others may reape by this my meditation I know not but sure I am that by entertayning the time and employing my thoughts vpon this subiect I haue excluded a world of idle fancies and tumultuous cogitations which otherwise would haue seized vpon me and swallowed many indignities and discontentments that would haue disturbed the peace of my soule had it not beene foreprized by an exercise of this nature as an Antidote against such poisons The cause why I present and submit it to your view and censure is not only for that I reuerence your great learning and singuler piety well knowne to our whole Church by your sundry books but specially in a recognition of the much contentment I found in that worke of yours which deseruedly beares the Title of Consolations for the afflicted or
I cannot but it erate my earnest Petition and re-enforce my humble Prayer to bee purged thereof and for the fitter application and better operation of the purgation to bee purged with Hysope Thou O Lord didst appoint Hysope to be vsed in thy Law for diuers purposes In the institution of the Passeouer the blood of the Lambe was appointed to bee sprinkled vpon the doore cheekes with a bunch of Hysope and with a Scarlet lace In the purgation of the Leper the bunch of Hysope was to bee dipped in the blood of the Sparrow In the burning of the red Heifer which was to bee chosen without spot or wrinckle the Priest was to put in Hysope besides Cedar wood and Scarlet By the blood of the Lambe the Sparrow and the red Heifer the blood of that immaculate Lambe was vndoubtedly prefigured and represented By the bunch of Hysope the besprinkling of the soule with that blood and the applying of it thereunto by faith by the red or crimson lace the vnion and communion of thy Saints was shaddowed who are tyed together by a True-loues knot and sprinkled with that same blood for the remission of their sinnes Whiles I suruey the vertues and qualities of this herbe to vnfold this riddle of thy Law I may iustly take occasion as to magnifie thy goodnesse O God who hast prouided so powerfull a medicine to cure all mans corruptions so to obserue thy wisedome who for our better apprehension hast so fitted the signe and figure to the thing signified and represented thereby Hysope whence I borrow this Allegory hath many things whereby it doth aptly and neerly resemble Christ. It is obscure base and low the Hysope as the lowest herbe is opposed to the Cedar as the tallest tree In the person of Christ I haue said I am a worme and no man the reproach of men and despised of the people all they that see me doe scoffe at me they 〈◊〉 a mowe with the lip and they wagge the head Hysope growes of it selfe among stones not planted by man Christ was hewne out of the Rocke without hands Hysope is bitter and sowre vnpleasing to the taste so Christ his Crosse by which we are crucified to the world the world vnto vs is harsh and vnsauourie to flesh and blood Though Hysope bee sowre it is wholesome for the body The bitter medicines are euer the better so the Recipe of repentance albeit odious to the flesh is most profitable to the soule The doctrine which is seasoned with salt and Hysope is fitter for vs then that which is sweetened with honey For on the one side honey was neuer appointed to be vsed in any sacrifice on the other side not any sacrifice but was to bee seasoned with salt Hysope as Physicians tell is powerfull to purge the lungs The humility of Christ like Hysope doth purge our pride which floteth in the lungs and is discouered by the fuming puffing and blowing thereof Hysope being hot in operation doth cut and extenuate the grosse and flegmaticke humours of the body So true grace takes away all the dulnesse and drowzinesse of my Spirit makes me feruent in prayers and zealous in holy duties Hysope euacuateth the body nourisheth the natiue colour cureth the biting of Serpents prouoketh the appetite sharpeneth the sight warmeth the blood cooleth Feauers So grace purgeth by contrition spitteth foorth by confession warmeth by charitie seasoneth by temperance quencheth the fiery inflamations of vnruly passions maketh vs hungry after righteousnesse quicke-sighted to discerne our own errours and faults yeeldeth remedies against the stings of concupiscence restores againe that spirituall vigour which we daily lose by our manifold transgressions Hysope hath many vertues and properties if well vsed for the health of our bodies But that which is shaddowed by it towit the bloud of Christ cures all the diseases of the soule and clenseth vs from all our sinnes With Hysope this blood is sprinkled vpon vs that is by faith it is applied to our consciences to purge and purifie them from dead workes 7 Wash me O Lord and I shall be whiter then snow BEcause I finde my selfe so spotted with the staines so polluted with the dirt and drosse of my sinne so soone soyled againe after my washing euen in the teares of repentance so prone with the Dog to returne to my vomit with the Hog to the myre wherein I formerly wallowed therefore I harpe still vpon this string which I touched before I doe iterate this Petition also and cry againe Wash me c. If thou Lord bee pleased to wash mee often and thorowly I shall not onely be freed from the foule blacknesse which my grieuous sinnes haue cast vpon mee but I shall become neate faire and white yea whiter then snow If I wash my selfe with snow water saith holy Iob and make my hands neuer so cleane yet shalt thou plunge me in the ditch or myre that is thou shalt discouer an vncleannes in me which was not perceiued before and mine own clothes shall abhorre me But if thou Lord bee pleased to wash me I shall be whiter then snow that is I shall abandon all euill affections and preserue my heart pure and holy consecrating all the faculties of my soule and members of my body to thy true and sincere seruice Can the Blackamore change his skinne or the Leopard quit his spots If that cannot be yet thou O Lord canst so wash me that I shall be whiter then snow That which is impossible by nature is possible and factible by grace That foulenesse which is propagated to mee by discent and bred in me by naturall generation as also nourished and increased by continual actuall transgression is not only remooued but quite changed by free iustification and supernaturall regeneration If my sinnes bee as red as skarlet thou canst make them as white as wooll if they bee like crimson thou canst make them whiter then snow O wonderfull mysterie O incomprehensible miracle that blood should make me white that the washing and bathing of my soule in the blood of that immaculate Lambe should make wee whiter then snow that euen the garments of thy Saints by washing in this blood should become white which yet shall bee reuealed to and wrought vpon thy Saints I shall bee white heere by grace yea whiter then snow I shall bee bright heereafter in glory brighter then the starres yea then the Sunne in the firmament grace heere shall be the beginning of glory there and glory there shall bee the complement and perfection of grace here This is arcanum 〈◊〉 diuini a secret of thy Diuine state and gouernement which thou shalt I am hopefull thou wilt not onely teach by infallible demonstration but also worke by thy blessed Spirit his powerfull operation in the secrets of my heart The cause of the snow his whitenesse is held by Philosophers to bee the store of ayre shut vp by the
bee without this heate he that hath that Sun cannot be without this light When my great and enormous sinnes had plunged me into the sea of misery finding no other meane of helpe in that fearefull danger I catched vp and tooke hold of the planke or boordof Repentance to saue me from drowning Repentance hath two faces and so looketh two wayes backward and forward to sinnes past and holinesse to come I haue grieuously lamented my offences formerly done and importunately begged pardon for them accounting this remission because thou art pleased O God so to esteeme it my iustification I now earnestly craue a cleane heart and a new spirit that being clensed I may keep my selfe cleane that being renewed I may entertaine newnesse of life for my sanctification For if I fall againe vpon the same rock of presumption which caused my shipwracke before it will plainely appeare that I haue not really acted but formally counterfeited repentance in which case I must pronounce an heauie doome against my selfe for dissembled holinesse is double wickednesse wickednesse masking vnder the sinfull vayle and vizard of hypocrisie Repentance neuer attaines her Crowne and Garland till shee haue brought forth amendment of life after lamentation for sin to make some kind of reparation That which thou requirest of me O God is my heart and how can I deny thee one thing that hast giuen me all things for what haue I that I haue not receiued of thee Well then I resolue as it is meet to giue thee my heart But when I looke into my heart by the helpe of thy suruey for it is thou that declarest vnto man what and how ill his heart is I finde it so foule and full of corruption as I am ashamed to present it vnto thee in that plight Nay I tremble to thinke that thy Pure and Radiant Eyes should behold such a puddle and sincke of sinne as lurketh in my heart For alas euery imagination of the thoughts of my heart is onely euill continually Were my heart such as it should be I would cheerefully giue thee my heart O Lord therefore create in mee a cleane heart Thou madest my heart first in Adam hee marred it and I in him by disobedience from him to all his posterity the contagion of this pollution is spred and propagated wherefore create my heart againe create it a cleane heart either a cleane heart or no heart at all I affect purity of heart by thy grace for indeed I cannot so much as affect much lesse effect it without thee Vnlesse thou take the worke in hand it will be vndone My heart that is originally and totally vncleane by naturall generation and daily soiled by actuall transgression cannot become cleane and neate without spirituall washing and supernaturall regeneration and that is thy proper operation Seeke not to new make mould my defiled hart out of the forebeing matter thereof That may seeme a strange enterprize and fruitlesse worke But thou O God who by thy power madest the world of nothing by thy powerfull grace Create which is thy peculiar attribute a cleane heart within me To create is not to make a thing out of the power of any subiect or matter formerly being But to create is to make a thing of nothing and that is an act of diuine power that is a case excepted and a prerogatiue reserued to thee alone The production of grace in a gracelesse heart is a wonderfull and gracious creation Create in mee powerfully and of nothing without any 〈◊〉 matter create in me 〈◊〉 and for nothing without any precedent merit of mine a pure heart so 〈◊〉 thou crowne in mee not my deserts but thine 〈◊〉 gifts if ought proceed from my heart to my tongue or hand not displeasing vnto thee Worke this worke thy selfe and take the praise of it to thy selfe alone O God Not vnto mee not vnto me I doe iterate and ingeminate my disclaymer but vnto thy Name giue all the glory It is another manner of power to make the quality then the substance of the heart yea it is a harder taske to make a heart cleane that hath beene soiled with the filth and tainted with the putrifaction of sin then to make a pure and innocent heart at the first The more shall be my thankfulnesse if thou O Lord vouchsafe me so great a fauour I will not curiously enquire into the meanes or manner of atchieuing this worke Let me henceforth really finde by the imaginations and inclinations of it that it is a cleane heart conformed as it may be in the frailty of 〈◊〉 flesh 〈◊〉 thy holy 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 all is well As a woman 〈◊〉 by the stirring of the 〈◊〉 in her wombe that 〈◊〉 hath conceiued so 〈◊〉 me feele by the effectuall motions of thy good 〈◊〉 that I am begotten anew vnto a liuely 〈◊〉 by the resurrection of Christ according to his abundant mercy The summe of all is Giue me O Lord what thou enioynest and then enioyne mee what thou pleasest I am of no ability to do what thou commandest and therefore am enforced to beseech thee thy selfe to do in me what thou requirest to bee done of me Create a cleane heart in me If my heart as the spring and conduit head be pure and cleane the waters that flow thence though conueighed in earthen pipes will be cleare still my secret thoughts my open words my visible workes though they sauour somewhat of earth and flesh will not be altogether vncleane and vnsauoury A man must bee twice borne ere he can enter into the kingdome of heauen As he is made to the similitude of the first Adam so must he be made to the similitude of the second Adam and the regeneration is a more excellent worke then the generation the re-creation then the creation In the first man was wrought out of clay in the other God workes grace out of sinne In the former he breathed a soule into the dead body here he breatheth his holy Spirit into a dead heart In the creation he made man perfect in all his members In this re-creation not only all the members of the body but the faculties of the soule also must be framed anew It is a greater matter to raise a man dead in sinne then to raise a rotten carkasse out of the graue In the one birth and the other the heart is the first 〈◊〉 that is enlyued my 〈◊〉 must first take fire 〈◊〉 can I neuer bee 〈◊〉 with the true zeale of 〈◊〉 glory and mine owne saluation In the first creation this 〈◊〉 Chaos and darke 〈◊〉 was couered by thy 〈◊〉 without any contradiction or resistance Thou spakest but the word and all was readily done and perfectly framed But in my re-creation my flesh or my spirit or my fleshly spirit doth oppose and incounter thy holy Spirit grieueth and maketh it sad laboureth to quench it euen then when it striueth to reuiue repaire and reforme me This is notoriously verified
hope and hopefull assurance of eternall happinesse This hope is the heart of my soule and the very life of my life It putteth spirit into my decayed spirit and vigor into my dead heart for a hopelesse is a heartlesse life and were it not for this hope amidst the inward and outward crosses of this life my very heart would breake All the ioyes vpon earth cannot make me cheerfull vntill I bee seized of this ioy nor can all the crosses and calamities which the world affoords dishearten me while I finde and feele this ioy of thy saluation What greater ioy to an afflicted soule lying 〈◊〉 oppressed vnder the heauy apprehension of thy wrathfull indignation and for a long and tedious time suffering euen hell out of hell then to receiue a gracious pardon of all his sinne freely granted vnto him by thee through the mediation of thy Christ sealed by thy blessed Spirit and deliuered to his spirit into the hand of faith Wherefore turne O Lord my mourning into dancing loose my sackcloth and gird mee with gladnesse O Lord let me shout out songs of deliuerance from the captiuity and thraldome of sinne and Satan I haue wilfully put my selfe out of possession of this ioy which I so happily enioyed O Lord restore it vnto me againe by a new order iniunction out of thy Court of equity and mercie let mee returne into it by Remitter hold it as in my former ancient right I haue iust cause to stile it Thy saluation For I am the patient onely thou O God the onely agent thou hast not the greatest share but all the interest in this affaire Thou art the sole not only Author but also actor in it For the purchase thereof I neede thy first grace of Initiation and thy second of Confirmation thy preuenient and thy subsequent grace thy accompanying and thy perseuering grace All is thy grace and thou art all in all and therefore to thee alone I ascribe all the honour and glory It is meerely and intirely thy saluation Christ his righteousnesse imputed and imparted to me is the true roote ioy and peace are the happy fruite and faith is the rooting of it in my soule Though there come a winter of affliction to restraine the sap and hinder the shewe yet the Summer of cheerefulnesse will make all to flourish againe in perfect lustre But how can I expect the serenity and Sunshine of this ioy in the valley of teares Why should I desire this garment of gladnesse when my heart ought cōtinually to weare the sables of sadnesse and the mourning weede of repentance for my daily or rather howrely sinnes how can there be any time or place left for ioy when there is almost a 〈◊〉 of sorrow enioyned He that will reconcile himselfe to thee O God may easily reconcile these different passions make them dwell together in his soule with amity and vnity Else thou that hast required mee oft-times to mourne wouldest neuer haue commanded mee to reioyce alwaies The faithfull man hath a sorrow mingled with ioy and a ioy mingled with sorrow There is a griefe in ioy as there is a ioy in griefe nay which may yet seeme more strange the greater griefe sometimes the greater ioy and the greater ioy the greater griefe for one and the same man at one and the same time may bee exceeding sorry for his sin and excceding ioyous with the apprehension of thy mercy in the free forgiuenesse of his sinne The greater griefe hee conceiueth for his sinne the more comfort he may iustly take euen in that regard And the greater ioy hee feeleth in the hopefull assurance of thy fauour the greater sorrow must hee needs conceiue for his sinne that bred thy displeasure for the more assurance hee hath of thy loue towards him the more hee will loue thee Loue is the loadstone 〈◊〉 loue and will draw loue euen from an yron heart and the more hee loueth thee the more his soule must melt into teares when he recounts considers how by his wicked and rebellious courses he hath demeaned himselfe wretchedly and vnworthily towards that God whom he findeth so graciously and pittifully affected towards him Sorrow may bee sometimes vnseasonable but this spirituall ioy as wee say of some kinde of meates is neuer out of season The precept of reioycing though conceiued in the affirmatiue doth alwaies binde at all times Reioyce in all things and euermore reioyce The grace I beg is the complement crowne and garland of all the graces I haue formerly craued For although I be washed neuer so cleane from my former staynes though my hart be neuer so throughly purged from old corruptions my spirit neuer so well renewed and rectified for the time to come yea though I obtaine a full restauration of the ioy of thy saluation which I had and haue lost yet vnlesse thou bee pleased to confirme and stablish me with thy firme and free 〈◊〉 none of those blessings apart nor all of them 〈◊〉 together can much auaile me For without this 〈◊〉 and establishment I 〈◊〉 neuer be able to 〈◊〉 and perseuere in true Piety of Religion in sincere probity of 〈◊〉 Well I may like a bankrupt Marchant supplied by friends or credit set vp my trade of godlinesse awhile but I shall soone be enforced to shut vp shop againe Well I may beginne to runne the race of godlinesse but I shall neuer get the goale well I may enter the lists afresh with my old and deadly enemy the Deuill and his two valiant Champions the World and the Flesh but I shall quickly be foyled I shall neuer 〈◊〉 the victory fully and finally Wherefore do not onely raise mee that am falne but vphold me when I am raised sustaine mee continually with thy firme Spirit that I may not onely begin well and proceed cheerefully but also perseuere constantly and end happily I did endeauour when time was in some sort to serue and please thee I frequented publike assemblies in thy holy Tabernacle I sent vp sundry Prayers from my priuate Oratory and the secret closer of my heart vnto thy Maiestie I laboured to gouerne my people with Iustice and equity to punish wilfull offenders seuerely to reward well-deseruers cheerefully to deliuer the oppressed to relieue the needy but this notwithstanding how soone alas was I taken with the sight of Bathsheba and through my frailty carried captiue into Adultery to satisfie my 〈◊〉 and into Murther to conceale my Adultery Wherefore settle confirme and establish me O Lord. I haue directed generally All you that trust in the Lord be strong and hee shall establish your heart he keepeth the faithfull and vpholdeth the iust by him alone the steps of men are established that is firmely directed and perfected My spirit which must bee wrought vpon by thy Spirit through the contagion of my flesh and the carnality of it is become almost wholly carnall and by that meanes weake and fraile soone weary of well doing it
thine hand bee on mee and my Fathers house but not on thy people that they should bee plagued Let not the contagion of my corruption spread vnto them let not the punishments which I their head haue deserued fall vpon their heads be fauourable to them howsoeuer thou be displeased with me I doe acknowledge that looke how farre Kings do exceed other men in place and dignity so farre doe their sinnes surpasse other mens sinnes in quality Their sinnes though lesse in their owne nature are greater by reason of their persons they are crying capitall and sinning sinnes Wherfore it behooues me to repent more deepely to pray more earnestly not onely for my selfe but for my people also whom I haue scandalized by my ill example and exposed as much as in mee lay to thy heauiest vengeance For thy good pleasure in thy good pleasure according to thy good pleasure I can propound no other motiue to induce thee I can name no Saint nor Angell in heauen for whose 〈◊〉 I should intreate thee Therefore for thy good pleasure be fauourable to Sion No sacrifice either without or within mee is sacred enough no sincerity in my thoughts no holinesse in my words no vprightnesse in my actions is of power to merit the least grace from thee I for my selfe and as Procurator for thy Church doe renounce all right disclaime all desert by meanes of any 〈◊〉 all of these It is thine own louing kindnesse that must ouer come thee There is no reason of thy loue but thy loue no reason of thy good will but thy good pleasure Stat pro ratione voluntas Thy will is perfect iustice stands for a law Thou art not only louing but loue it selfe for thou didst loue thy Church and chosen first thou didst not chuse them worthy but by chusing didst make them worthy to inherit thy Kingdome thou didst loue them gratis freely Grace is not grace any way vnlesse it be free and gracious euery way without any precedent merit or so much as loue on our parts Build thou the walls of Ierusalem I pray as for thy Church so for thy Common-wealth Sion thy Chuch Ierasalem thy Citty Sion thy holy habitation Ierusalem the mother City of the Kingdome of Israel I haue done wrong to both and therefore desire to make reparation to both That I can in no wise make but by thy gracious fauour vpon mine humble and earnest supplication Ierusalem though a City of peace as the word Salem imports yet must bee prepared and fortified for warre It must haue Castles Towers and walles to defend them against the encounters of their enemies which are many and mighty There be walls of this City which the world sees not for thou O Lord art a wall of brasse about her and a wall of fire to consume her foes thine Angels pitch their tents about her Inhabitants Shee hath also visible walles framed of a number of liuely stones which being first rough are hewne by affliction in the quarry of this world squared by repentance and cemented by loue and so pollished and made fit for the heauenly Ierusalem that truly glorious City But I will not pray onely for the defence and safety but also for the peace and prosperity of the earthly Ierusalem O pray for the peace of Ierusalem they shall prosper that loue her peace bee within her walles and plenty within her pallaces because of my brethren neighbours and companions for the loue I beare them out of naturall affection and ciuill respect I pray for Ierusalem but chiefely and mainely for thy House sake O Iehouah This house is the heart of this body it puts life into all the outward parts and members thereof and in a 〈◊〉 relation though not in like proportion those outward parts doe guard and defend and cherish his heart Thine Israel must needes be in much affliction and reproch whiles the walles are vnbuilded Thou hast forbidden thy people to offer in euery place There thou art well pleased to haue thy name called vpon I haue much battered these walles I haue made large breaches in them by my haynous offences O Lord I beseech thee who art the Arch-builder to re-repaire these breaches to build vp these walles that Ierusalem may continue in safety and 〈◊〉 in prosperity not 〈◊〉 a few moneths or 〈◊〉 but euen till the comming of thy Christ. Sion is the ioy of the the whole earth not only all the creatures but all other men also are created 〈◊〉 and disposed for her good For thy loue of them I must loue them for I cannot loue thee vnlesse I loue thy spowse in whome thou delightest which is mystically yet really one flesh with thee I pray for fauour to Sion in the first place for building the walles of Ierusalem in the second place for good to the Kingdome in regard of the good that will thereby accrew to thy Church the prosperity whereof is the the prime obiect and last complement of my desires Then when thou art become fauourable to Sion thy Church and chosen when the place is builded which thou hast singled out for thy seate and seruice then wilt thou accept and the people offer their sacrifices inward and outward vnto thee This correspondency and restipulation as it were betweene thee and thy people that they shall offer cheerefully and thou graciously entertaine their seruices is the foundation and height of true felicity But they must be right sacrifices or the sacrifices of righteousnesse such as are required by thee and in faith tendred vnto thee else will they not hit the marke whereat they ayme For it is not the deede done alone that will auaile or worke any good effect it is not enough that the thing that is done bee good but it must bee well done also Bonum benè the Noune without the Aducrbe is of no value or vertue at all The burnt offerings of beasts and birds and other things wholy giuen vp in fire by the Priests and consumed to Ashes the other oblations of peace and thankesgiuing made by the Laity according to thy prescription though thou do not esteeme them at all when they are disioyned from an humble and penitent heart yet being happily conioyned consorted together will be most gratefull and highly pleasing vnto thee They shall offer Bullocks vpon thine Altar and there slay them which is the signe figure they shall withall tender the calues of their lips in praises and prayers which is the substance and body thereby repesented Thy Christ as their high Priest shall offer himselfe the sasacrifice and vpon him as their Altar they shall put their Incense of heartie deuotion by that meane to become sweet smelling in thy nostrils Hee shall be the Priest the Sacrifice Altar all in all himself To him be all honor and glory c. A SVMMARY PRAYER FRAMED OVT OF the Psalme and Meditation together O Most powerfull wise and mercifull God who hast created all
things in heauen earth for the seruice of man and man for thy seruice who hast disposed all things in number 〈◊〉 and measure who hast caused all things contained in holy Writ to be recorded for the instruction and direction of thy Church and chosen giue me grace so to behold this mirror of humane frailety and diuine mercy with the eye of true iudgement that I may not with the Spider draw poyson to the destruction but with the Bee sucke such honey as may bee gathered out of it to the solace of my sinfull soule Thou diddest permit Dauid being an holy Prophet as well as a mighty King aduanced anoynted specially for the gouernement of thy people to fall fouly into the heynous and grieuous sinnes of Adultery and Murder that no man might presume of thy fauor or confide in his owne strength but euermore serue thee in feare and reioyce in thee with reuerence Thou didst also endue him with grace after his fall by humiliation and repentance to rise againe and recouer his former estate notwithstanding his long security and carelesse continuance vpon the dregs of his wickednesse as it were in contempt of thy Iustice that no man might dispaire of thy rich and tender mercy Thou didst propound his fall for caution that all men might shun that dangerous racke whereon he suffered shipwracke his repentance for imitation that euery man plunged into the sea of sinne might catch hould of the planke of repentance to saue himselfe from drowning As thou didst bring light out of darkenesse and life out of death so dost thou in an incomprehensible manner draw good out of euill turne the very sinnes of thy seruants to thy glory and their good Farre be it from mee to vouch this example by way of excuse or defence much lesse warrant to offend as hee did howbeit 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 hope confidently with Dauid when and after I haue offended through thy gracious goodnesse and free promise by the teares of mine eyes the contrition of my heart and prayer of my spirit to obtaine a full and gracious pardon of all my offences whatsoeuer Thou canst not O Lord but be highly displesed when wormes of the earth dust and ashes rottennesse and corruption hauing without any desert at all beene adorned with thy gifts and enlightened with thy graces shall presume of thy fauour so farre as vngraciously and vngratefully instead of thankes and prayses to returne contempts and dishonours to thy diuine Maiesty But on the other side thou canst in no wise endure that the most wretched caitiffe the most shamefull and wilfull sinner that Satan can furnish out of hell should despaire of thine endlesse and bottomelesse mercy wherein aboue all other things thou dost so much delight and glory which doth so farre surmount thy iustice as thou dost continually wooe inuite thy greatest enemies to the participation thereof O Lord being a sinner as Dauid was I cannot but pray for mercy as he did and because I haue grieuosly sinned pray for great mercy and because I haue many times and many waies multiplied my sins so as they are growne to a number numberlesses pray for a multitude of thy tender mercies that the whole debt-booke wherein my sinnes are registred may be quite crossed and defaced I must begge againe and againe that thou wilt wash me againe againe wash mee thorowly from the pollution and filth of my sinne Giue me grace O Lord to see my sinnes fully to confesse them freely intirely to giue thee the glory to take the shame to my selfe deseruedly Giue me leaue to lay open my festred wounds and lothsome sores to thy viewe in abasement and humiliation to stirre thy bowels of tender commiseration Make me to loue in my selfe what thou louest inme to wit truth and sincerity of heart accept O Lord my honest study and faithfull indeuour for true and full performance Let me solace my soule in the conscience of my vnfained sorrow for my sins past and my true though weake desires to serue thee better in time to come for which purpose enable me with wisedome teach me the art of godlinesse and the mysteries thereof in my hidden parts And because the Leprosie of sin hath infected mee from top to toe temper and prepare for mee a powerfull purgation with those ingredients which are of strongest operation that is without shadowes or figures the bloud of that Immaculate Lambe slayne from the beginning of the world applied by a liuely faith to my diseased soule Be pleased to bathe my vgly soule in thy Lauer of Iustification till I become white and bright in thy pure and piercing eyes Let mee when I am confounded in my selfe and cast downe into the Dungeon of Sorrow through the sight of my sinnes yet hopefully and zealously seeke ioy and comfort in thee and thy saluation Let mee so place my sinnes before mine owne sorrowfull face that thou mayest hide thy face at least thine angry face from them or rather so quite deface them that they may 〈◊〉 be to be seene hereafter that they may 〈◊〉 rise vp in iudgement either to shame me in this or condemne me in the next world And because my iustification which consists in thy free remission of my sinnes cannot subsist without sanctification and holinesse of conuersation as the light of that Lampe and heate of that fire And because it is impossible to draw a cleane out of an vncleane thing I beseech thee Lord to worke a wonder on me that is to create a cleane heart within mee Purge the fountain and then the streames which 〈◊〉 from it in my thoughts words and actions will be clearer and purer Giue mee a 〈◊〉 spirit that 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 carry my selfe 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 thee and for 〈◊〉 this spirit 〈◊〉 becomes decayed and distorted by the peruersnesse of my nature and obliquity of my transgressions vouchsafe to renew it in me from time to time by a continuall supply of thy heauenly grace Although I haue many wayes and times deserued thy iust indignatiō yet for thy mercies sake abandon me not from thy presence banish mee not from thy Courts let me behold thy face though ouerclouded with a storme of displeasure Although I haue grieued yea and despighted thy good spirit when it endeauoured my reformation direction and consolation yet I beseech thee not to take it vtterly from me let not that holy fire though raked vp vnder the ashes of my sins bee quite extinguished When thou doest for my sinnes bereaue mee of the comfortable confidence I found in the assurance of thy saluation giue mee leaue to claime still mine interest in it euen when I tremble and quake at thy iudgements and thereby to craue a restitution of that tranquility of minde and peace of conscience which I formerly enioyed with contentment make mee by the want rightly to value the worth of so great a fauour then which
Ut liberiùs 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 ignorant Bern. de grad humi Nemo est 〈◊〉 insanabilior qui sibi sanus 〈◊〉 Greg. in 〈◊〉 Initium salutis notitia 〈◊〉 Qui peccarese nescit corrigi non vult 〈◊〉 Frustrà medicantis auxilium expectat qui valnus non 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 Non 〈◊〉 scire quo modo morbos curare conueniat qui vnde hi sunt ignorat Cornel. Cels. de Re 〈◊〉 lib. 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 coelo descendit c. Gen 6. Chrysol Rectum index sui 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 Gen. 4. Peccatores somniantibus similes Ioan. Her Insepulta sepultara Peccata non nocent si nō placent August de temp Job Meum cognoscere Meum agnoscere Tuum ignoscere August Explorandum 〈◊〉 Implorandum 〈◊〉 Syst. Omne sub regno grauiore regnum est 〈◊〉 Chrysol Fac illum 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 quem 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 is 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 Chrysol Chrysost. Confessio peccati est professio desinendi Hilar. Seneca Reatus redundat ad iudicem si Poena percellat innoxium Chrysol 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 Nisi homini Deus placuerit Deus non erit Homo iam Deo propitius esse 〈◊〉 Tertul Apolog. Peccatum poena peccati causa peccati Aug. contra Iuli. 〈◊〉 Chrysost. Aug. 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 14. 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 Sapiens 〈◊〉 Deus est 〈◊〉 fractumnon recipiet 〈◊〉 Bernard de gradib obed Iob 36. 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 meretur quà m amicum simuans inimicus 〈◊〉 de Conuers cap. 27. Tota vita honi Christiani est sanctum desiderium Aug. in 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 tota posita est in voluntate faciendi bona Lact. 〈◊〉 l. 6. Melius 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 auri 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 in Cantic Nec vinum 〈◊〉 etsi fecem habeat 〈◊〉 aurum quamuis 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 de 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 Voluntas pro facto 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 Ep. 77. 〈◊〉 Iuris Res mira ille viuit 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 homicida Illa casta tu tamen 〈◊〉 Aug. de verb. Dom. Nisi fortè putetur in 〈◊〉 quà m in bono c. Nos etsi 〈◊〉 minus diligimus quá 〈◊〉 diligimus 〈◊〉 qu 〈◊〉 valemus 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 vt à 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 vnde amplius diligamus 〈◊〉 Epist. 85. 〈◊〉 5. 6 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 14 21 30. Mal. 1. 14. Leu. 14. 22 30 31 32. 2. Cor. 8. Quic quid vis non potes 〈◊〉 Deus reputat Aug. Gen. 4. Si 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 ea quae 〈◊〉 merita nostra sunt spei quaedam seminaria bernard de 〈◊〉 lib. arbit Si non dilexisset 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 amicos Sicut nec quos 〈◊〉 essent si non dilexisset qui nondū erant Bern. in Cant. 20. Qu 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 inuenit neminem saluat nisi quem 〈◊〉 idem de 〈◊〉 li ber a. b 〈◊〉 10. Arra potius quà m 〈◊〉 quia 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 arra 〈◊〉 August de 〈◊〉 Apost Pignus donum est verbo 〈◊〉 vt Iureconsulti nec potest esse sine pacto pignus Ipse vt diligeretur dedit qui non dilectus dilexit Aug. in Joan. Psa. 119. 6. Psal. 64. Psal. 32. Psal. 32. 11. Cathedram in Coelo habet 〈◊〉 docet August Sol non omnes quibus lucet etiam calesacit Sic sapientia 〈◊〉 quos docet 〈◊〉 sit facien dum non 〈◊〉 accendu ad 〈◊〉 Bern. in Cant. Non 〈◊〉 sapientem sed timor facit quia afficit Grego Nunquam nimis dicitur quod nunquam satis dicitur Lingua sequitur dentem dolentem Vbidolor ibidigitus Ex. 12. 22. Leu. 14. 6. Num. 19. Prouerb Vermis non homo Omnis 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 Cyrill Hug. Card. Lorin in Psal. 51. Iob 9. 30. Ier. 13. 23. Esay 1. Reuel 7. Esa. 63. Num. 12. Nulla vxor proprio marito deformis 〈◊〉 Nigra formosa Cantic 1. 5. Potest esse radix sine 〈◊〉 stipes sine fructu sed nec stipes nec fructus sine radice Mat. 9. 2. Psal. 35. 3. 〈◊〉 antequam nati Bern. Iob 15. 16. 〈◊〉 redditur arra 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 Bernard Gaudium in praesenti exhibitione Gaudium in futurâ expectatione Et res plena gaudio 〈◊〉 Idem Gaudium in fine sed gaudium sine fine Bernard Iob 15. 35. Esa. 57. 20. Psal. 4. Cùm de transitorijs 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 non poterit non transire laetitia 〈◊〉 ijs de 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 ignis 〈◊〉 de Temp. Exod. 7. 〈◊〉 Psal. 32. 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 Deut. 32. Psal. 23. Psal 27. 8. Duo nomina Homo Peccator August Chrysol Chrysol Chrysol August in Psal. 103 〈◊〉 a diligentis Leuit. 〈◊〉 1. Sam. 15. Simulata aequitas non est aequitas sed duplex iniquitas quia 〈◊〉 simulatio August in Psal. 63. Amos 4. Psal. 115. 1. Cor. 15. Primum 〈◊〉 Arist. Psal. 42. Psal. 84. Psal. 1 39. 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 13. 1. 〈◊〉 31. 3. Semel 〈◊〉 semper 〈◊〉 Mulier soetum conceptum non semper molitantem 〈◊〉 vbi tamen semel iterum 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 se esse non ambigit Spin. de 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 1. Pet. 1. 23. Tertull. de poenit Quid boni sanitas habet languor ostendit Hier. Gratior est reddita quā retenta sanit as Post tempestatem dulcior serenitas Quint. Desiderata dulcius obtinentur August de Verb. Dom. Quoniam ob bona 〈◊〉 gratias Deo non agimus necessaria nobis est priuatio vt quid habutrimus sentiamus Basil. Plus sensimus quod habuimus postquam habere desinimus Hier. in Consol. 1. 〈◊〉 5. 16. Rom. 8. 15. Ex. 13. 13. Onerat nos Deus 〈◊〉 quando 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 Aug. in Ps. 〈◊〉 iniquorum 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 quia tales 〈◊〉 Bonum naturá sui diffusiuum Naturalis opus viuen gignere sibi simile Arist. Homines malunt exempla quā verba 〈◊〉 act 〈◊〉 ver sap Validior 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 quà m oris oratio Greg. Regis ad exemplum nec sic inflectere 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 edicta valent ac vita regentis Claud. Habent opera suam linguam Author de dupl martyr Sinne of infirmity Rom. 6. Vitia catenata inter se. 〈◊〉 in lib. Sapient Sinne of presumption Volo te praesumere ne diffidas 〈◊〉 praesumere ne torpescas Bern. Ep. 87. Psal. Bernard Psal. 101. 1 Absit vt redundantia clementiae coelestis libidinem faciat humanae temeritatis Tertul. de poenit Prauicordis est ideò 〈◊〉 esse quia Deus bonus est Bern. in Cantic Qui 〈◊〉 poenitenti veniam non 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 August Psal. 34. 15 Psal. 2. 11. Sinne of Desperation 〈◊〉 1 3. Facilè impetratur quod filius 〈◊〉 Tertul. de 〈◊〉 Esa. 49. Tam pater nemo tam 〈◊〉 nemo 〈◊〉 depoenit Iob 19. 25. 〈◊〉 16. 1. Rom. 8. 31. 〈◊〉 variata 〈◊〉 non fides August in Psal. 51. 2. Cor. 6. Ezek. 18. Esa. 1. Gen. 4. August Job 13. 15. August in Psal. 51. August ibid. August in Psal. 51. Chrysost. in Psal. 51. Nec enormitas criminis nec extremit as temporis Inter pontem fontem Sera 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 vera Psal. 48. 1. 95. 3. 〈◊〉 2. Verse 9. Leuit. 7. 26 27. Psal. 3. 8. Psal. 95. Debitorem se fecit deus non accipiendo Sed 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 c. Augus Psal. 25. 10 Psal. 132. 11. Ezech. 33. 11. O nos soelicis quorum causd Deus iurat O nos 〈◊〉 si nec Deo c. Tertul. 〈◊〉 Quid retribuam Psal. 116. 12. Inuenit 〈◊〉 aliquid Aug. Iob 22. 2. 1 Cor. 4. 7. Psal. 103. 〈◊〉 cont Mar cio 〈◊〉 50. 〈◊〉 PP 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 Aug in 〈◊〉 Omnis quē poenitet rixatur secum Aug. in Psal. 33. Peccatores vindica 〈◊〉 exige de te poenas crucia teipsum c. Aug. in Psa. 140 Currat poenitentia 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 sententia Cbrys. In quantū tibi non peperceris in tantum tibi Deus parcet Tertul. de poenit Exod. 32. Tertul. de poeniten 〈◊〉 Nerue curuabitur arcus Igne Chalibs Adamas Sanguine corde Deus Mantuan Hostia 〈◊〉 ctatur viuit Crysol in 12. Rom. Sicut offerri iussit sic non 〈◊〉 occidi Chrysol Cyprian de dupl 〈◊〉 Genus 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 cito occidere Seneca Morsque minus poenā quam mora 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 Maxim Eleg. Non Mar 〈◊〉 Sola sanguinis effusio consummat nec solam dat Palmam exustio illa 〈◊〉 Multi ducunt 〈◊〉 in 〈◊〉 Aug. Auth. de dupl Martyr Iob. 30. 29. August in Psal. Psal. 32. Esay 57. Esay 61. 3. Firmior est fides quam 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 de 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 5. Psal. 132. 14. Saluian Saluian Non Elegit 〈◊〉 sed c. Aug. Quare gratia quia gratis datur Quare gratis datur quia merita tua non 〈◊〉 sed beneficia Dei te 〈◊〉 Aug. in Psal. 30. Haue mercy vpon me O Lord c. 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 c. I know my 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 c. Behold I was borne in iniquity c. Behold thou louest truth in the 〈◊〉 c. And in the 〈◊〉 of my heart c. Purge mee with Hysop c. 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 and I 〈◊〉 be 〈◊〉 c. Make mee to heare of ioy c. 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 sinnes c. Create in me a cleane heart c. Renew a right spirit within me c. Cast me not away from thy presence c. Take not thy holy spirit from me c. Restore vnto me the ioy of thy saluation c. Vphold me with thy free or firme spirit Then will I teach 〈◊〉 c. Deliuer me from bloud c. Thou God of my saluation c. I will sing aloud of thy righteousnesse c. O Lord open thou my lips c. The sacrifices of 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 c. A broken and a contrite heart c. Be fauourable to Sion c. Build 〈◊〉 the walls 〈◊〉 Ierusalem c. For thy good 〈◊〉 c. Then 〈◊〉 thou accept c.