invidious Death O why so soon Why must her Night come e're sh 'as ended Noon Well may those Wretches fear to die Whose ill-spent Life No Prospect but Eternal Wee does give Thou calmly didst surrender up thy Breath Unterrify'd at the Approach of Death Nor did emasculating Grons betray Thee emulous of any farther stay Or loth the gastly Summons to obey Thy Life was wondrous but its Exit is A Glorious Apotheosis Thus though with Splendor Phoebus gilds The Morning of his Race Yet are his brightest Beams reserv'd The setting Sun to grace Feb. 19. 1693 4. Sic moerens deflevit HEN. CUTTS The CONTENTS of the Papers Paper I. AN humble Avouchment of God to be her Portion pag. 34. Paper II. An earnest Expostulation with her self in reference to the great Concern of her Pretious and Immortal Soul p. 37. Paper III. Her most serious Thoughts on this Passage You will not come unto me that you may have Life p. 44. Paper IV. Her grave and godly Advice to her Children p. 47. Paper V. Her humble and chearful Deportment under Afflictions p. 53. Paper VI. A thankful recounting of many particular Mercies vouchsafed to her p. 55. Paper VII The Scriptures of great Use and Comfort p. 63. Paper VIII Serious Reflections on the late Earthquake p. 67. Paper IX X. An awful Sense of Death and her own approaching Dissolution p. 71 76. Paper XI A delightful Contemplation of the Blessedness of the Saints in Heaven p. 82. Paper XII Texts of Scripture that yielded great Comfort and Support under her desponding Thoughts p. 90. Paper XIII An earnest Desire to be fitted for and brought unto Heaven p. 99. A Funeral Sermon 1 COR. 7. 30. And they that weep as though they wept not I Shall insist upon that Clause at this time In it I shall observe 1. A Concession He grants them some kind of Sorrow and Grief 2. A Correction He moderateth it 1. He grants them some kind of Sorrow in that he puts Weeping for Adversity the Affection for the Condition the Effects for the Cause as allowing them an holy Sensibleness of their Misery they that weep Then he correcteth and moderateth this Sorrow as if they wept not because he will not trust such a dangerous Weapon in their own Hands and leave the Corinthians to the Vileness and Waywardness of their own Affections though I allow you to weep yet 't is as if you wept not The Points are two I. That God alloweth yea requireth of his People some Sorrow and Sensibleness of their Condition II. That the Heart must be so managed under this Sorrow that we may be said not to weep rather than to weep at the same time it must be with such Moderation Or thus Christians should so sorrow under the Sense of their Condition as if they did not sorrow I shall speak briefly of both these Doct. I. God requireth and alloweth some Sorrow They that weep I shall 1st shew you that God doth so 2dly Shew you what this Sorrow is 1. To prove that so it is I will not stand to instance Places of Scripture in a Point so familiar The Reasons are 1st This is the End why we have Affections that they may be exercised in their Season God hath planted in every Man Affections sutable to every Condition in which he placeth him It is said the Stars in their Order fought against Sisera so Affections We have Joy for Prosperity Sorrow for Adversity What did God mean to give us such contrary Affections if not that they should be acted in their Order and Time that these Affections should like the Spokes turn with the Wheel of Providence And therefore God complaineth much as if he were frustrated of his End when we do not answer Providence by an Exercise of those Affections that are sutable to it as Ier. 5. 3. I have smitten them and they have not grieved God wondereth they should be so unnatural as not to grieve when stricken by him So for Mercy Hos. 11. 3. I taught Ephraim to go taking them by their Arms but they knew not that I healed them that is they were not sensible of it did not take notice and were not sutably affected with the Love of God They are ranked among the rest of Men that are under their natural Condition who are 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 without natural Affection to be flinted hornyhearted such as have no Smartness no Quickness of Affection especially when the Misery is of such a Nature that near Friends are taken from us is very displeasing to God 2dly Because that due Exercise of Sorrow under Affliction is very serviceable and beneficial to the Soul 1. To help spiritual Duties Anima nunquam melius agit quam ex impetu insignis alicujus affectus The Soul works best when it hath the Advantage of an Affection When the Soul is made better by the Bitterness of Grief we feel and the Soul maketh the Affection of Sorrow to be Vehiculum a kind of a Chariot to carry on the Work of Repentance Ier. 2. 19. Know and see that it is an evil thing and bitter that thou hast forsaken the Lord thy God When the Iron is hot if you strike in you may get good take the Advantage of your Hearts under your Sorrows 3dly To make it serious Sorrows gather the Soul together and make it more it self A Man cometh to himself in his Grief Usually God taketh this Course with his People though they begin in the Flesh they end in the Spirit Sorrow maketh Reason to stand still Solomon speaketh of bethinking themselves in the Land of their Afflictions 1 Kings 8. 57. Jolly Persons are slight never think upon any thing Those that wallowed in Pleasures did put far away the Day of the Lord Amos 6. 3. Till the Prodigal was tamed by outward Grief and Want he never had Thoughts of returning They that did not grieve when God struck them Ier. 5. 3. refused to receive Correction The more sorrowful the Mind is the more serious Sorrow drieth up all those swimming Thoughts and pleasing Imaginations by which Men drive away their Time and divert their Care and therefore there is a great deal of Benefit comes by it it puts the Soul in an advantagious way of receiving Good 4thly This would double the Affliction not to grieve for such things as nearly touch us To break the Bent and Course of Nature is dangerous Affections when strongly stirred must have their Exercise for fear of greater Harms It is an Ease sometimes to mourn Strangled Grief choaks the Heart 1 Sam. 25. 37. Nabal's Heart became as a Stone within him when he heard Tidings that mightily affected him it had been better he had wept and mourned As Chirurgeons first let the Sore soften before they begin to draw it Iob 2. 13. Iob's Friends said not a Word to him the first seven Days for they saw that his Grief was great They let Sorrow have its Course for a
that should light upon her Children by the Stomachfulness that was in Rachel Jer. 31. 15. Weeping for her Children she would not be comforted Men have no Ear to hearken to what may be said for God and therefore are resolved to hold the Bitterness of their own Thoughts This stubborn Pettishness and wilful Grief may be sometimes in God's own Chosen it was in Iacob Gen. 37. 35. He refused to be comforted for he said I will go down into the Grave unto my Son mourning I will it was a stomached wilful Grief Christians by a perverse peevish justifying of their Passions they say of their Sorrows as Ionah did of his Anger Ionah 4. 9. I do well to be angry When Men take it for granted they do well in it they resolve then to shut their Ears against whatever might appease and quiet their Thoughts 3. Such as are impatient and discontented as if God had not dealt wisely or worthily with them When a full Vessel is shaken the Water will plash over And when there is such a Tumult in the Heart unseemly Expressions will drop from us as if God should not have dealt thus with us as to take away these Comforts in which were all our Solace the Staff and the Stay of the Family We that are Neighbours are apt very often in Discontent to say What a serviceable and useful Person hath God taken away and so many bad ones left as if God had not made a right choice Foolish Man would be accounted wiser than God But if a Man were well skilled in God's Attributes he would never murmur especially if he did but consider this cometh from a Wise God The Cause of all the Disorder in the Heart is the want of fearing God's Name we are not skilled in his Attributes Alphonsus blasphemously said Si in principio mundi ipse Deo adfuisset multa melius ornatiusque condenda essent things should have been ordered better if he had been of God's Council Many of you do not utter such Expressions but yet too often conceive such Thoughts in your Hearts you will not think so ay but what mean the bleating of the Sheep and the lowing of the Oxen such Expressions as these O! would to God I had died first as David 2 Sam. 18. 33. O Absalom my Son my Son would to God that I had died for thee And again would to God I had been dead a long time ago rather than to survive my Happiness all my Estate gone in an instant as Brethren in these empty trying Times it is many a Man's Case but remember foolish Man the All-wise God thought it fittest for thee Yet thus doth the Prophet Elijah when he was driven into the Wilderness by Jezebel 1 Kings 19. 4. in a Discontent requests for himself that he might die It is enough now O Lord take away my Life 4. Such as unfit for Duty Affections are no further lawful than they fit for Duty When Grief taketh off our Hearts from the Duties of our general or particular Calling it is an evil Grief See Gen. 35. 19 21. Rachel died and was buried and Israel journied and spread his Tent. Having lost so dear a Wife he doth not stand puling by the Tomb but Israel journied he went on about his Business We ought so far to be sensible of Providence as may serve to quicken us to Duty not to hinder us There is a great Question now whether we ought to fear or hope in our Misery some of one side cry down Fear some on the other side cry down Hope Why Brethren there is not much Matter in the Exercise of either of these Affections but according as they do more or less quicken you to Duty If you be the more earnest in Prayer because you hope Success is near truly that is a good Disposition of Heart if because Fear that is the most unchristian I confess Fear is good when it ends in Duty Iehosaphat feared and set himself to seek the Lord 2 Chron. 20. 3. And Noah moved with Fear prepared an Ark Heb. 11. 7. Brethren the bare Exercise of Affections is but a natural and an indifferent thing the great Trial of them is when they fit you the more for the Service that God requires of you Therefore when Persons grieve so for the Loss of an Husband Wife Children or Estate that they have no mind to pray no mind to go about their Callings with any Comfort that is an evil Grief It is true that God winketh at some Omissions of Duties for a small while in such cases till we are able to manage our Thoughts and digest our Sorrow and the Letter of the Law giveth place to such great Necessities as Aaron's Excuse is but reasonable Levit. 10. 19. Such things have befallen me this Day that if I had eaten the Sin-offering should it be accepted with the Lord The Death of his two Sons though he held his Peace he could not tell how for the present to frame his Heart to a joyful Duty As if a Minister cannot tell how to bring his Heart to preach if God hath entered upon his Family taken away a Wife or Children thence I confess this cometh from Corruption but in such Cases God winketh at it for a short time The Reasons are 1. Because otherwise our Carriage would be very dishonourable and derogatory to Jesus Christ as if he were not better to us than all the Comforts that we lose 1 Sam. 1. 8. as Elkana said to Hannah Why weepest thou am not I better to thee than ten Sons So why weepest thou Is not Christ better to thee than ten Wives ten Children ten Parents a thousand times as much as thou hast lost If we had but Faith to see it Christ is to a Believer whatever he wanteth The People of God in the Wilderness wanted Houses Psal. 90. 1. Lord thou art our Habitation A Christian hath never more Comfort than when he seeth that particular thing made up in Christ which was taken from him by the Providence of God If a Believer has lost her Husband she seeth Christ her Husband So for any other Relation if a Parent seeth Christ his Parent if a Brother Christ's a Brother We are to Christ instead of all these Relations and therefore why should not Christ be so to us See Matth. 12. 50. Whosoever doth the Will of my Father the same is my Brother and Sister and Mother Mark we are so to him and therefore why should we not account Christ to be so to us Certainly it is a great Dishonour and Disparagement to him if we do not see all our Losses abundantly made up in him 2. It would be a Dishonour to our Profession It is a Credit to Christianity that the Professors of it can be joyful in all Conditions Heb. 10. 34. Ye took joyfully the spoiling of your Goods 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 though all they had were snatch'd from them by rude Hands yet they were joyful Let guilty
while Stop Floods in their full Career and they rage and swell When the Death of a near Friend hath opened the Sluces let the Waters play a little in the Channel till it be calmer Passions spend and tire themselves in their Exercise Grief is sometimes eased by the Expression of it There is Reason too for it if that of Cardan be true that an heavy Heart is eased by nothing so much as by Sighs and Tears because Tears empty the Head of some Vapours with which it is surcharged and Sighs lighten the Heart of some fuliginous Damps that oppress it These are Nature's Offers for Ease You see the Reasons 2. What Grief and Sorrow this is that God alloweth and approveth What is sinful Grief I shall shew you in the next Point here what is lawful and required I answer Not every Sorrow For there is 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 as well as 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 a godly Sorrow and a worldly Sorrow 2 Cor. 7. 10. Godly Sorrow worketh Repentance to Salvation not to be repented of but the Sorrow of the World worketh Death In the general it must be a godly Sorrow In these Respects 1. You must see somewhat of God in the Affliction It is a Motive this on both Hands both to Sensibleness and Patience that it is from God Heb. 12. 5. My Son despise not thou the Chastening of the Lord because it is from God A Man slights every ordinary Chance but when it is from God then it worketh more effectual upon the Spirit As we see in the case of the Philistines 1 Sam. 6. 9. If that Stroke that happened upon them were a Chance they would trouble themselves no further about it but if it were from the God of Israel they would advise about sending home the Ark. 2. It must be serviceable Sorrow to set you the nearer to God Sorrow is of the Nature of those things that are required not for themselves but 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 for some farther thing You must not rest in your Sorrow but make use of it that it may work kindly employ it about the Work of the Sanctuary Do not cherish your Affections for their own sakes but so as they may be helpful to the Soul Do not go about to still the Affection to think that 's all that is required let it do the Soul Service and be glad you have your Hearts under such an Advantage You know how Ioshua served the Gibeonites he did not slay them but condemned them to be Hewers of Wood and Drawers of Water for the Sanctuary Grief and Sorrow well managed will make a good Drawer of Water for the Sanctuary Make your Sorrow your Servant now to draw Water for you to make you smart and bleed for a good Use and Purpose There is a gracious Promise to them that sow in Tears Psal. 126. 5. They that sow in Tears shall reap in Ioy. Now we are in Tears but we do not sow Tears Tears are not Seed we have not the Crop But what shall we do to make them Seed spiritualize them make them spiritual Tears let the Water run in a holy Channel and then like the Waters of the Sanctuary they will be healing Waters The Death of a Friend though never so dear to us will never cause any but carnal Tears they minister a good occasion of Mourning but they do not minister a Cause and Ground of Mourning It is good to distinguish between the Cause and the Occasion At such a time God calleth for more than ordinary Sensibleness and Sorrow but not because he hath declared his Pleasure concerning our Friends that is Murmuring not Mourning We should take this occasion indeed but our Sorrow should work upon a spiritual Ground and Object 1st We should take this Occasion to mourn for our own Sins Miseries are but the Effects of Sin You should labour to make Sin bitter by your present Feeling There should be I say a special renewing of our Repentance by such Providences Experience teacheth best Now you see what Sorrow Sin bringeth If Men would but improve their Occasions of Sorrow thus their Hearts would be more keen against Sin It is a great Argument to make Men continue in a Course when it never proveth Evil to them Therefore God challengeth them Ier. 2. 5. What Iniquity have you found in me that you depart from me Just as a Martyr said I have served Jesus Christ thus many Years and should I deny him now But if Men would thus observe these Experiences Sin cannot make this Challenge We can say of Sin Thou hast killed my Husband or Wife at such a time my Daughter my Brother at such a time c. Consider and say Have not I provoked God to remove the Comfort of a Parent or near Relation from me It is said of Gideon Iudg. 8. 16. that with Briars and Thorns he taught the Men of Succoth So God many times teaches us 2dly We should take this Occasion to weep for the publick Abominations When Polus the Tragedian was to act a mournful Part he brought in the Urn or the Pot of Ashes of his own dead Son that drew real Tears from him We are all to act a mournful Part now even to mourn for our Abominations before the Lord. It may be your Grief is flat and low awaken it by these private Instances But take heed let it not stay there this is but to give the Occasion some other thing must be the Cause and the Object of it O pour out a little Water upon the publick Sins they are Sparks that we have kindled as the Prophet speaks Isa. 50. 11. Behold all ye that kindle a Fire and compass your selves about with Sparks It is meant of Sins not as it is wrongly expounded of walking in our own Duties Well pour out this Water upon these Sparks When a Town is on Fire every one will bring his Bucket Why when the whole Kingdom is compassed about with these Sparks God giveth you these private Occasions that you may bring your Bucket to quench the common Flame So Luke 23. 28. Weep not for me but weep for your selves and for your Children Alas who could choose but shed Tears to part with such a blessed Companion as our Saviour Yet not for me saith he but for the Survivors Weep for your Sins and Calamities that are coming upon you Let such an Occasion open the Flood-gates but then cut out a Passage for them that they may run this way 3dly For the publick Miseries Private Sorrows should be swallowed up in the publick Look as private Mercies are no Mercies unless it be well with Sion and therefore it is annexed as a special Blessing Psal. 128. 6. that they should see their Childrens Children and Peace upon Israel Descensive Love is strong always but in these times more strong because every one expected the Messiah to come of his Race but that is nothing without Peace upon Israel it is not a consummate Mercy
without that Private Griefs are nothing in comparison of the Miseries of Sion 1 Sam. 4. 21. The Glory is departed the Glory is departed Though she lost a Father lost an Husband that was sad but she reflects upon the principal Cause of Grief the Misery of the Church of God So see Ier. 22. 10. Weep ye not for the Dead neither bemoan him but weep sore for him that goeth away for he shall return no more to his native Country Not for good Iosiah but the Misery of wicked Shallum Thus it must be Godly in respect to the End to draw you to God these ways Use 1. It condemneth that Slightness of Spirit that is in most Persons God entereth into their Families and taketh thence a principal Pillar a Husband or Wife but they are not affected with it they carelesly slight it as if nothing had been done or some chance had befallen them A Roman bragged Se nunquam cum matre c. They may say they were never comforted they never needed it they lay nothing to Heart Brethren the Use of Divinity indeed is to compose and still the Spirit not to make it stupid I am sorry that I am forced to speak any thing to trouble you I had rather comfort but there is no true Rest where there hath not been a due Trouble therefore I must a little speak against this Stoical Patience and Insensibleness And because Discovery of Sin doth more wound the Heart than all the Forcibleness of Expression we can use I shall not cudgel it with barren Invectives but labour to discover this sinful careless Insensibleness to the Heart and distinguish it from an holy Patience I have been often upon such like Subjects therefore shall say the less now I shall difference it chiefly in their Grounds 1. This Slightness proceeds 1st From want of Consideration There can be no Patience where there is no Sense of Evils They will not give their Thoughts leave to work upon such Objects I do not say we must make it the Cause or Object of our Mourning yet I say we must make it the Occasion this must awaken sad Thoughts in us about our own Sins or others Sufferings but they will not think of it These are such as are described by the Prophet to put far away the evil Day Amos 6. 3. that is all Consideration of God's Dealings with them or others 2dly From indulging Pleasure A voluptuous Spirit is an insensible Spirit Eph. 4. 19. Who being past feeling give themselves over to work Uncleanness with Greediness So it is said Hos. 4. 11. Whoredom and Wine do take away the Heart that is all Smartness and Quickness of Affection When the Soul is sleeping in Pleasure there is a Brawniness brought over it Pleasure is the Drunkenness of the Soul and a drunken Man feeleth nothing Prov. 23. 35. They have stricken me shalt thou say and I was not sick they have beaten me and I felt it not 3dly Vain Thoughts Ier. 4. 14. How long shall vain Thoughts dwell within thee Evil Workings of Spirit either seeking a way how they may get out or contriving how it maketh for their worldly Advantage The Devil darts evil Thoughts in us how a Cross by some sinful course may work for our temporal Good our State augmented thereby or capable of farther Contentment and Advancement in the World 2. Christian Patience cometh from this Ground it doth not exclude a Sense of Evil but a quieting of the Heart against Evil. These are the Grounds and Workings of the Thoughts 1st It seeth God in it 1 Sam. 3. 18. It is the Lord let him do what seemeth him good Psal. 39. 9. I was dumb and opened not my Mouth because thou didst it 2dly It seeth God acting with Soveraignty Dan. 4. 35. None can stay his Hand or say to him What dost thou Job 9. 12. Behold he taketh away who can hinder him Who will say to him What dost thou Job 33. 13. What dost thou strive with him he giveth no Account of his Matters 3dly This Soveraignty mollified with Attributes As 1. With infinite Justice Dan. 9. 14. The Lord our God is Righteous in all the Works which he doth Just and righteous in all his ways It is just because God doth it His Will is the measure of his Actings Deut. 27. 15. All the People to say Amen it is just Lord. 2. With infinite Wisdom Isa. 28. 29. He is wonderful in Counsel and excellent in working He knoweth what is better for you than you your selves for God hath the Bowels of a Mother so the Wisdom of a Father 3. With infinite Love It looketh upon God as a Father Iohn 18. 11. The Cup that my Father hath given me shall I not drink of it Though a bitter Cup it is from my Father 4. With infinite Faithfulness Psal. 119. 75. I know thy Iudgments are right and that in Faithfulness thou hast afflicted me It looketh upon Afflictions as a Means in God's Hands I proceed to the second Point Doct. II. That Christians ought so to sorrow under the Sense of their Afflictions as if they did not sorrow Their Affections must be moderately exercised Having in the former Point shewed what Sorrow may be allowed or is required of a Christian I shall shew you here what Sorrow is disallowed or unlawful 1. Such as overwhelmeth and dejecteth the Spirit so as you are not your own Man This is called a Fainting or a sinking of the Soul under Affliction Heb. 12. 5. Faint not when thou art rebuked of the Lord. As we must not slight it so we must not faint under it Fainting is quando anima dejicitur de statu when the Soul is put out of the Condition of a free Soul and delivered over to the Possession of another God hath given every Man this Fee-simple to possess himself Now we are not our selves when we are overcome with Grief and Sorrow and therefore it is said Luke 21. 19. In Patience possess your Souls implying that a Man hath not the use and command of his Soul when he is overcome with Grief it doth as it were dispossess a Man of himself You know of a drunken Man we say he is not himself because he hath not the free Use of his Reason Now this being overwhelmed with Sorrow is expressed in Scripture by this very Term being drunk as Isa. 63. 6. I will tread them down in mine Anger I will make them drunk in my Fury that is bring such Affliction as they shall not be able to injoy themselves under it to have the free Use and Exercise of their Reason 2. Such as is peevish When Men indulge themselves in their Disquiets and will not hearken to what might make for the Settlement of their Souls When the Heart yieldeth to Passion and huggeth Grief and will not let it go There is a great deal of Pride and Stomach in Men against God's Dispensations and therefore the Prophet expresseth that intolerable Misery
We cannot comfort you in a carnal way Psal. 94. 19. In the Multitude of my Thoughts within me thy Comforts refresh my Soul Mark thy Comforts To comfort a Man's self upon carnal Grounds argueth an Insensibleness of God's Hand and it is a shrewd Sign that God gives us over to our selves Therefore if you take Comfort take it from your Interest in spiritual Mercies If you cannot look upon them under a Condition of Propriety as yours as every Christian cannot yet at least so far look upon them that from thence all your Comfort must be fetched It is a Neglect of Providence to go away with a general Thought We must not sorrow too much and yet we are to consider whether we have good Ground why we should be comforted God giveth wicked Men these Experiences of Sorrow that he may awaken them and shew them there is no Comfort to be had thence whence they would fetch their Comforts in carnal Delights Isa. 57. 21. There is no Peace saith my God to the Wicked There is a Peace in their Fancies and Conceits but no Peace saith my God There is a great deal of hurt done this way by Sermons Ministers instruct Men in a Moral way that they should not grieve too much but they do not instruct a Man upon what Grounds he should not grieve You must be sure of better Mercies or at least look after them for your Comfort A Man that has an Interest in Christ is 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 a four-squared Man unmoved in all Conditions There can be no Peace between a Man's Affections and Condition till there be a Peace between him and God Mark that Eccles. 9. 7. Go thy way eat thy Bread with Ioy and drink thy Wine with a merry Heart for God now accepteth thy Works When God accepteth us we may then eat our Bread with a merry Heart let things fall out how they will 2dly Live in a continual Expectation of the Creatures Change Things are not half so burdensom when we look for them A Burden cast upon a Man's Back breaketh it but when it is compacted and fitted for his Shoulders he goeth away well enough with it It was some Solace that Iob could say Iob 3. 25. The Evil that I feared is come upon me Suppose it be your own or your Friends Dissolution live in a continual Readiness to part with Life or any thing else at God's Call and Intimation and it will not be so grievous to you when it comes 3dly Learn an holy Greatness of Mind to be able to live above the Creature Consider the Happiness of Man is in God alone All Happiness consisteth in Conformity to and Communion with God the chief Good so that though the Creature be gone your Happiness is not gone That troubleth a Man most when his Happiness is gone he will not care so much for other things It is good to see by what Injoyment they reckon themselves happy if to have Husband Wife or a House well furnished every thing to our Command then when God taketh away these things your Comfort is gone There is much of Peoples Conceits this way But consider what do you reckon the best of your Injoyments that you have God for your Portion Psal. 144. 15. Happy is the People whose God is the Lord. So see Psal. 30. 7. Thou didst hide thy Face and I was troubled Set but the Heart right in this Point and it will be well Grace is but the Change of a Man's chiefest Good and utmost End that is only the Difference between a natural Man and a spiritual Man about the Conceits of Happiness There are other Considerations as the Shortness of our Misery the continual Abode of other Comforts with us though some be gone we are not left naked to the World the happy End of all the Good of our Souls But this for a Taste Men will think a Sermon is to no purpose that is spoken to comfort Persons in this kind To this end 1. Consider there is none of us but may have need of Comfort one time or other though our Mountain standeth strong for the present it may be removed And it is good to lay up against a dear Year Such Truths are most welcome when they come in their Season 1st Consider you may have a Season when it will be necessary for you Who knoweth what a Day may bring forth The Woman that entertained the Prophet he would fain do her good no saith she 2 Kings 4. 13. I dwell among mine own People But now that very Woman as in 2 Kings 8. 5. She cried to the King for her House and her Land she that did not stand in need of the Prophet stood in need of the Prophet's Man You have your Wife your Children and Friends about you O there may a time come when you will be glad of one Drop of this Comfort to support you when they are gone 2dly Consider when it is upon you you will find it the hardest thing in the World truly to asswage your Grief to grieve so as if you did not grieve Afflictions are evil and we are apt to make them worse to turn Wormwood into Poison Heb. 12. 11. No chastening for the present but will seem grievous Seneca could slightly speak of Miseries when he had the Use of rich Gardens about Rome but when he had lost all he was as much to seek as others Now I shall apply all that hath been spoken to this present Occasion 1st To shew you why we should mourn 2dly Why mourn so as if we did not mourn First Why we should mourn Consider we have lost a pious Neighbour and that deserveth Sensibleness 1. Because such are a great Loss We have lost her Service Help and the Benefit that we might have had by her There is no Member of Christ but one way or another is useful to the Community And indeed we found her to be so we lose an Example we lose useful Conference we lose the Pledg of a Blessing to a Family to a Neighbourhood May we not say of her as of David Acts 13. 36. After he had served his Generation by the Will of God he fell asleep She did serve her Generation and it was her Grief that she did it no more and better it should be ours that she did it no longer Serviceable Christians are a great Loss especially in these times of need 2. It is a sad Intimation to us and therefore we ought to be very sensible of such a Loss Isa. 57. 1. The Righteous perish and no Man layeth it to Heart none considering that they are taken away from the Evil to come Wicked Men think they are the Bane of a Place Plurimos defecit Christiani nominis gratia Christianos ad Leones Wicked Men are but preserved in reference to the Godly they are but as a Fence of Thorns about a Garden of Roses Now when the Roses are cropp'd off what shall become of the Thorns but be
in some measure bethink my self and consider my latter End Lord I have reason to conclude that few Sands remain in my Glass to run With what Astonishment Anguish and Trouble may I review my Life past not one Thought Word or Action but needs a Pardon I blush to see how vile I have been and if I cannot bear the Scrutiny of my own Conscience how shall I abide thy severe Trial who hath kept an exact Account of all my Sins and Offences A numberless Number of Sins may be charged upon me which I confess I have been guilty of To whom shall I betake my self for Relief and Mercy but to thee O my gracious God for that I have heard that the God of Israel is a merciful God that he is slow to Anger and plenteous in Mercy that he doth abundantly pardon and forgive the Sins Offences and Provocations of his poor Creatures and therefore as I would not presume so I dare not despair Lord I fly from the Throne of thy Justice to the Throne of thy Mercy and humbly implore Pity Pardon and Compassion for thy Son's sake Magnify thy Grace in pardoning me though my Sins have abounded let thy free Grace superabound Blot out all my Sins out of the Book of thy Remembrance and let my Name be written in the Book of Life Let me be meet for the Inheritance of the Saints in Light when this earthly Cottage shall crumble to Dust. Let me be admitted to that Building an House not made with Hands eternal in the Heavens Let not me though unworthy be excluded from thy Presence Look on me in and through thy well-beloved Son in whom only thou art well pleased and for his sake be reconciled to me a vile Wretch By his Stripes let me be healed I have nothing to plead for my self only the Satisfaction of my Blessed Saviour on whom alone I rely for Pardon and Life Give me some undeniable Evidence that I do belong to the Election of Grace and that within a little while I shall be released from this Body of Sin and Death and shall be made perfectly blessed in a full Injoyment of thee to all Eternity Let me have some comfortable Hopes and Foretaste of a blessed Immortality to sweeten my Passage through and out of this World I am hastning and posting apace into an endless Eternity O that I were ready for my Appearance at thy Bar. Ah Lord if my Judg be not my Advocate with what Dread and Astonishment must I needs think of thy Tribunal where I must appear before a Heart-searching and a Sin-revenging God! There is not one Sin in my whole Life but is seen to thine all-seeing Eye and is all naked and open to thee Lord I would humbly beg that my Sins though many and great may all be pardoned and forgiven Many horrid Sinners have been received to Mercy and though my Sins are of a Crimson and Scarlet Dye yet the Blood of an All-sufficient Saviour can wash them white He is able and willing to save all those that come to God through him and he ever lives to make Intercession for them Help me by Faith to lay hold on this Redeemer who came into the World on this very Errand to save poor Sinners and reconcile them to God If so I dare not I will not despair yet Lord I beg I may not presume Help me humbly to cast my self prostrate at thy Feet and implore thy Heavenly Benediction Bless me even me in turning me away from all my Sins let them never separate between thee and my poor Soul Let them all be remitted and then it will be as if they had never been committed In my last and sorest Agonies let me see thou art reconciled to me Be with me till I die and when I die and when this World can yield me no Help Comfort or Support let me find it all in thee I know thy Presence can sweeten all the Troubles of this Life and Death it self Then let me not be dismayed at that last and great Enemy When I pass thorow the Valley and Shadow of Death I will fear no Evil for thou wilt be with me O Lord I beg thou wouldst not then be a Terror to me Thou art my Hope in the Day of Evil Help me then to hold up my Head with Comfort hoping my Redemption draweth nigh Let not this World have such possession of my Heart and Affections as to make me unwilling to dislodg and go hence when thou callest me off the Stage of this Life Let the last Scene of my Life be the best part of my Days Let me honour thee by doing thy Will and submitting to whatever thou my God shalt think fit to lay on me Help me to bear patiently thy afflicting Hand either Sickness or worldly Crosses or Death it self Let me not dare to murmur grumble or complain when Death looks me in the Face Let me not be too much daunted startled and affrighted at its Approach Thousands and ten thousands have gone through that dark Passage and shot that Gulph and there is no escape for any of the Children of Adam they that have deserved Death Eternal have no cause to grumble at Death Temporal especially if it be unstung nay then there 's Cause of Triumph for it is an Entrance into Life and Messenger to Glory therefore I hope and firmly believe and trust that that God who hath conducted so many safe through those dark Regions will not leave my poor Soul in its last Conflicts PAPER X. I Sensibly find my outward Man perish and decay but how comfortable would it be to me if I could as easily perceive the inward Man to be renewed day by day This Earthly Tabernacle is tottering and e're long will tumble down but in what plight is the poor Soul that now inhabiteth this ruinated Cottage What Provision hath it made against that Day when it must be turned out hath it got an Interest in and a Title to an enduring Substance a House above eternal in the Heavens This Life of mine is but a Vapour it appeareth but for a little while and then vanisheth away Lord teach me to number my Days that I may know how frail I am This outward Man is daily consuming wasting perishing and decaying and shall I be careless negligent remiss and unconcerned about my future State how it will go with me hereafter in the other World Though my bodily Strength abate yet let the inward Man be renewed every Day and wax stronger and stronger When the Comforts of this Life are as Iob saith of the White of an Egg unsavory have no Relish and are no Satisfaction to me let me have Comforts and Cordials that this World knoweth not of even the Light of thy Countenance and that will put Gladness into my Heart more than all the Treasures and Pleasures of this vain World Whatever thou deniest me deny me not thy self to be my God and Portion and let me have an
Interest in thy Son my only Saviour and Redeemer and do thou graciously give thy Holy Spirit to direct guide quicken counsel and comfort me the remaining part of my sojourning here How few Days may put a Period to my Life I know not In all probability it will not be long before I leave the Stage of this World and be summoned before the Bar of God to give a strict and impartial Account of my past Life O it is an awful thing to die and come to Judgment I beg O Lord I beg that I may be made meet for the Inheritance of the Saints in Light Sanctify me wholly let my whole Spirit Soul and Body be preserved blameless unto the Coming of my Lord Jesus Christ. O be thou pleased to preserve me unto thy Heavenly Kingdom Many Fears and much Ground for Fears have I that I shall never enter into Rest But blessed Lord do not exclude me from thy comfortable Presence hereafter Do thou make me fit to be a Member of those blessed Inhabitants of the New Ierusalem Though I am altogether unworthy yet if thou O Lord please to account me worthy I may then be so happy as to stand before the Son of Man with Courage and Comfort Keep thou me by thy Almighty Power through Faith unto Salvation Let me be preserved from fainting sinking and desponding in my last Conflicts and Agonies Let me see thee who art invisible and with an Eye of Faith look within the Vail whence I look for the Saviour the Lord Jesus Christ to change this vile Body of mine that it may be fashioned like to his glorious Body Let this Saviour be my Saviour and Redeemer even the Lord Jesus Christ and let me be assured that he is mine and I am indeed his and that this vile contemptible wretched Body shall be changed and made like to his glorious and blessed Body This is such an Honour and Privilege that I have hardly a Face to ask But I find a Warrant in thy Word to look long expect pant and wait for so happy a Day and Time as to be in a sinless State and Condition where we shall see our Saviour and be like him where earthly Troubles and Sorrows shall vanish and decay where the World the Flesh and the Devil shall have no Power to tempt molest or disturb those that thou O Lord God Almighty shalt admit into thy Heavenly Kingdom and Glory O blessed Souls that are here owned by thee approved by thee and shall at last be received by thee into those Eternal Mansions above Lord I humbly put in for a Share in these inestimable Mercies and Privileges Earthly things cannot content me without some Hopes some Prospect some Glimpse of thy Love and Favour If thou afford me this I may then bear the Inconveniencies the Hardships and ill Usage I meet with here in this howling Desart Let not my Unworthiness be a Bar and Hindrance to hinder good things from me Look not on me as in my self a vile polluted wretched undone Creature but behold me in and through thy well-beloved Son and for his sake alone be gracious and merciful to me I have been guilty of black and horrid Sins and Millions of Sins have I been committing daily without Sense Sorrow or Remorse O may such a Sinner as I find Mercy Lord I sometimes doubt and despair and conclude there is no Hopes for me I fear Heaven-Gate is shut against me and though I cry and knock it may all be in vain Lord I cannot bear such a Thought as to think I am rejected forsaken and cast off by thee I e'n cry out with the Jailor What shall I do to be saved What shall I do to obtain Eternal Life I find many comfortable Promises in thy Word to repenting and returning Sinners that those that come to thee thou wilt in no wise cast out and that the Blood of Jesus Christ thy Son cleanseth from all Sins Lord I desire to come to thee and come in a right manner and humbly beg thou wilt not cast me out nor cast me off as one whom thou no more canst love Let me have the Benefit of that healing cleansing Peace-speaking Blood of the Lamb of God which taketh away the Sins of the World I find in thy Word a black Catalogue of Sins and Sinners too who have been guilty of gross Offences whose Crimes would certainly exclude them Heaven unless thy unlimited Mercy and Compassion had inclined thee to look with Pity on them When the Apostle had mentioned those foul and horrid Sins that should deprive poor Souls of the Joys of Heaven he immediately for the Benefit of After-Ages and the Comfort of desponding Souls adds But such were some of you but ye are washed but ye are sanctified but ye are justified in the Name of the Lord Iesus and by the Spirit of our God Lord thou alone knowest what numberless Numbers of Sins I am guilty of and for which e're long I shall be summoned to give a strict and severe Account Lord I have nothing to plead for my self why I should not be condemned but I humbly cast my self at the Throne of thy Grace and implore Mercy Mercy Lord Mercy I need without this I cannot live comfortably nor die safely O let me even me be washed let me be sanctified let me be justified in the Name of the Lord Jesus let me be a Partaker of the Benefits of his Death Resurrection Ascension and Intercession and let me be assured I am one of those that shall live and reign with him World without end In my sorest Distresses and last Agonies and Conflicts let me see thee a God in Covenant and reconciled to me Let not my Evidences for Heaven be then to get When I come to die let me have nothing to do but to die and surrender up my Soul into the Hands of that God who gave it me Let not the Foresight or Prospect of Death be so terrifying as to overwhelm me and cause me to fall from thee Be with me when I pass through the dark and dismal Passage of Death When Flesh Heart and all Creature-Comforts fail and forsake me O Blessed Lord be thou the Strength of my Heart and my Portion for ever-more PAPER XI WORK while it is Day the Night is coming in which none can work Now is the Day of God's Patience and Forbearance this is the only time that God hath allotted for Work and Service He that doth the Work for which he came into the World faithfully and carefully shall in the Evening of the Day receive a bountiful Reward but if he neglects his Opportunity and squanders away his Time in Idleness and Sloth the Night will surprise him and then it will be too late to begin that Work which before he would not be perswaded to set about This Counsel is serious and grave every one hath Work to do O that all would be convinced of this great Truth we have Souls to