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good_a youth_n do_v *_o to_o be_v angry_a with_o himself_o and_o for_o it_o yet_o more_o dear_o *_o to_o love_v i_o for_o thou_o have_v say_v it_o long_o ago_o 9.8_o pro._n 9.8_o rebuke_v the_o wise_a and_o he_o will_v love_v thou_o yet_o i_o then_o intend_v no_o rebuke_n towards_o he_o but_o thou_o employe_v we_o know_v and_o not_o know_v in_o thy_o design_n according_a to_o the_o order_n thou_o have_v appoint_v and_o that_o order_n be_v always_o most_o just_a thus_o from_o my_o heart_n and_o tongue_n thou_o apply_v burn_v coal_n whereby_o thou_o may_v scorch_v and_o awaken_v the_o stupefy_v soul_n of_o that_o hopeful_a disposition_n and_o so_o may_v heal_v it_o let_v he_o conceal_v thy_o praise_n who_o weigh_v not_o thy_o mercy_n which_o from_o the_o bottom_n of_o my_o soul_n be_v confess_v unto_o thou_o for_o alipius_n present_o upon_o those_o word_n recover_v himself_o out_o of_o that_o deep_a ditch_n wherein_o he_o be_v willing_o sink_v and_o blind_v with_o a_o miserable_a 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delight_v in_o the_o bloody_a show_n of_o the_o gladiator_n he_o pursue_v the_o secular_a course_n of_o life_n which_o be_v press_v upon_o he_o by_o his_o parent_n be_v go_v to_o rome_n before_o i_o to_o study_v the_o law_n there_o and_o there_o be_v again_o carry_v away_o to_o the_o gladiatory_a show_n with_o a_o incredible_a passion_n and_o after_o as_o incredible_a a_o manner_n for_o he_o be_v much_o averse_a from_o and_o detest_a such_o sport_n some_o friend_n and_o fellow-student_n meet_v he_o in_o the_o street_n after_o dinner_n with_o a_o familiar_a violence_n will_v needs_o hurry_v he_o along_o with_o they_o though_o make_v much_o resistance_n and_o many_o excuse_n to_o the_o amphitheatre_n upon_o a_o day_n when_o those_o cruel_a and_o mortal_a sport_n be_v there_o exhibit_v he_o say_v to_o they_o if_o you_o do_v hale_v my_o body_n thither_o and_o fix_v it_o there_o yet_o can_v you_o force_v i_o to_o lend_v my_o mind_n or_o my_o eye_n at_o least_o to_o such_o a_o loathe_a 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from_o a_o deceitful_a tongue_n can_v only_o more_o increase_n but_o not_o extinguish_v it_o nevertheless_o because_o that_o by_o reason_n of_o thy_o name_n now_o so_o glorify_v through_o the_o world_n such_o our_o purpose_n and_o vow_n must_v needs_o find_v many_o commender_n it_o seem_v *_o that_o it_o may_v appear_v to_o have_v some_o relish_n of_o vainglory_n in_o i_o not_o to_o have_v patience_n till_o a_o vacation_n so_o near_o but_o to_o desert_v a_o profession_n so_o public_a and_o eye_v by_o all_o before_o it_o and_z *_o that_o the_o mouth_n of_o all_o man_n reflect_v on_o this_o my_o act_n and_o how_o near_o a_o breaking-up_a school_n i_o will_v yet_o prevent_v may_v say_v many_o thing_n as_o if_o i_o affect_v to_o magnify_v myself_o and_o seem_v some_o great_a one_o and_o yet_o what_o matter_a it_o to_o i_o that_o man_n shall_v divine_v and_o dispute_v my_o intention_n 14.16_o rom._n 14.16_o or_o that_o our_o good_a shall_v be_v thus_o evil-spoken_a of_o but_o beside_o the_o 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baptism_n chap._n iii_o verecundus_n a_o citizen_n of_o milan_n offer_v his_o countryhouse_n for_o their_o retirement_n the_o death_n of_o verecundus_n and_o of_o nebridius_fw-la not_o long_a after_o s._n augustine_n conversion_n be_v both_o first_o make_v christian_n 6._o christian_n see_v l._n 8._o cap._n 6._o verecundus_n be_v much_o afflict_v concern_v this_o our_o purpose_n because_o thus_o he_o see_v himself_o by_o reason_n of_o the_o many_o bond_n wherewith_o he_o be_v most_o strait_o tie_v deprive_v of_o our_o society_n himself_o not_o yet_o a_o christian_a though_o his_o wife_n a_o baptize_v professor_n of_o the_o faith_n and_o yet_o be_v he_o *_o retard_v by_o she_o as_o one_o of_o his_o straight_a fetter_n from_o follow_v our_o intend_a course_n *_o and_o do_v deny_v to_o become_v a_o christian_a upon_o any_o other_o term_n than_o these_o he_o can_v not_o perform_v true_o he_o very_o courteous_o offer_v and_o lend_v we_o for_o the_o time_n of_o our_o abode_n in_o that_o place_n the_o use_n of_o his_o countryhouse_n thou_o o_o lord_n shall_v recompense_v he_o at_o the_o resurrection_n of_o the_o righteous_a since_o the_o lot_n of_o the_o righteous_a be_v already_o happen_v to_o he_o who_o though_o in_o our_o absence_n after_o we_o have_v remove_v to_o rome_n be_v seize_v by_o a_o corporal_a sickness_n be_v in_o it_o make_v a_o christian_a and_o a_o fidelis_n and_o so_o depart_v this_o life_n in_o which_o thing_n thou_o have_v mercy_n not_o only_o on_o he_o but_o on_o we_o lest_o consider_v the_o great_a courtesy_n of_o this_o friend_n towards_o we_o and_o not_o able_a to_o number_v he_o among_o thy_o flock_n we_o shall_v have_v be_v torment_v with_o too_o disconsolate_a a_o sorrow_n thanks_o be_v to_o thou_o our_o god_n thy_o care_n we_o be_v all_o thy_o exhortation_n and_o thy_o consolation_n sufficient_o show_v it_o faithful_a in_o all_o thy_o promise_n thou_o shall_v return_v to_o verecundus_n for_o that_o his_o house_n at_o cassiacum_n where_o from_o the_o tumult_n of_o the_o world_n we_o quiet_o repose_v in_o thou_o i._o psal_n 68.15_o 16._o vulg._n in_o in_o monte_fw-fr incascato_fw-la monte_fw-fr tuo_fw-la monte_fw-fr ube_fw-mi i._o the_o amenity_n of_o thy_o eternally-green_a and_o flourish_a paradise_n because_o thou_o have_v remit_v unto_o he_o his_o sin_n here_o on_o earth_n in_o the_o mountain_n of_o fat_a pasture_n the_o hill_n of_o god_n that_o fruitful_a hill_n thus_o be_v verecundus_n afflict_v but_o nebridius_fw-la as_o much_o joy_v for_o although_o he_o not_o as_o yet_o a_o christian_a have_v former_o fall_v into_o the_o pit_n of_o that_o most_o pernicious_a error_n to_o believe_v the_o flesh_n of_o thy_o son_n only_o a_o empty_a apparition_n yet_o now_o reclaim_v from_o it_o he_o be_v a_o most_o earnest_a inq_fw-fr isitor_n of_o truth_n though_o not_o as_o yet_o initiate_v in_o any_o sacrament_n of_o thy_o church_n who_o become_v also_o not_o long_o after_o our_o conversion_n and_o regeneration_n by_o thy_o 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for_o my_o own_o sake_n but_o for_o my_o neighbour_n good_a i_o ought_v to_o take_v content_a in_o my_o praise_n but_o whether_o indeed_o it_o be_v so_o i_o be_o ignorant_a and_o less_o do_v i_o know_v of_o myself_o than_o of_o thou_o in_o this_o matter_n therefore_o i_o beseech_v thou_o o_o my_o god_n reveal_v thou_o myself_o unto_o i_o that_o i_o may_v confess_v my_o discover_a wound_n unto_o my_o brethren_n who_o may_v pray_v to_o thou_o for_o i_o let_v i_o yet_o more_o diligent_o question_v myself_o in_o this_o matter_n if_o it_o be_v in_o respect_n of_o my_o neighbour_n benefit_n only_o that_o i_o be_o so_o touch_v with_o my_o own_o praise_n why_o then_o be_o i_o less_o move_v in_o the_o injurious_a disparagement_n of_o another_o than_o if_o it_o be_v of_o myself_o and_o why_o be_o i_o much_o more_o nettle_v with_o a_o contumely_n throw_v upon_o myself_o than_o when_o it_o be_v so_o upon_o another_o in_o my_o presence_n with_o the_o same_o injustice_n 141.5_o psal_n 141.5_o can_v i_o also_o plead_v my_o ignorance_n and_o uncertainty_n for_o this_o or_o shall_v i_o endeavour_v here_o also_o to_o delude_v myself_o and_o nor_o confess_v the_o truth_n before_o thou_o both_o in_o heart_n and_o tongue_n lord_n such_o a_o folly_n put_v thou_o far_o from_o i_o and_o let_v not_o my_o own_o mouth_n go_v about_o to_o anoint_v and_o perfume_v my_o head_n with_o the_o flatter_a oil_n of_o sinner_n i_o be_o poor_a and_o needy_a and_o the_o best_a when_o with_o secret_a lament_n displease_v myself_o and_o invocate_a thy_o mercy_n until_o these_o my_o deficiency_n be_v repair_v and_o perfect_v into_o a_o full_a repose_n and_o peace_n a_o peace_n hide_v from_o the_o eye_n of_o the_o arrogant_a and_o self-conceited_a chap._n xxxviii_o â–³_o incur_v also_o from_o the_o contemn_v of_o praise_n as_o this_o also_o be_v a_o thing_n praiseworthy_a chief_z speech_n that_o be_v eloquent_a and_o good_a action_n that_o be_v public_a and_o eminent_a cause_n in_o we_o a_o most_o perilous_a temptation_n from_o this_o our_o love_n of_o praise_n which_o subtlety_n assay_v to_o procure_v the_o applause_n of_o other_o to_o the_o advance_n of_o my_o own_o private_a excellency_n even_o then_o also_o when_o such_o love_n of_o praise_n in_o i_o be_v censure_v by_o i_o and_o for_o that_o very_a reason_n because_o it_o be_v so_o censure_v and_o often_o do_v a_o man_n more_o vain_o glory_n of_o the_o very_a contempt_n of_o vainglory_n and_o therefore_o now_o in_o truth_n the_o contempt_n of_o vainglory_n be_v not_o gloryed-of_a by_o he_o for_o he_o utter_o contemn_v it_o not_o so_o long_o as_o within_o himself_o he_o retein_v still_o some_o glory_v chap._n thirty-nine_o incur_v also_o from_o self-love_n and_o self-conceit_n without_o regard_n to_o praise_v from_o other_o there_o be_v yet_o within_o we_o another_o disease_n in_o the_o same_o kind_n of_o temptation_n namely_o a_o vanity_n in_o man_n of_o self_n love_v and_o pleaâ—â—ng_v themselves_o in_o themselves_o *_o whether_o it_o happen_v that_o they_o please_v or_o that_o they_o displease_v abroad_o and*_n wherein_o they_o affect_v not_o the_o please_a of_o other_o but_o these_o man_n whilst_o thus_o please_v themselves_o much_o do_v they_o displease_v thou_o not_o only_o in_o glory_v in_o some_o thing_n not_o good_a as_o in_o good_a but_o also_o in_o thy_o good_a thing_n as_o if_o in_o their_o own_o or_o also_o in_o glory_v in_o they_o as_o thou_o but_o as_o confer_v on_o they_o for_o some_o merit_n of_o their_o own_o or_o also_o as_o in_o thou_o without_o any_o their_o merit_v but_o yet_o not_o sociable_o joy_v in_o they_o but_o as_o envy_v the_o same_o grace_n of_o thou_o to_o other_o in_o all_o these_o and_o the_o like_a peril_n and_o travel_n thou_o see_v the_o fear_n and_o tremble_n of_o my_o heart_n and_o i_o rather_o perceive_v such_o wound_n to_o be_v by_o thou_o continual_o cure_v within_o i_o than_o not_o to_o be_v at_o all_o receive_v chap._n xl._n a_o recapitulation_n of_o the_o thing_n former_o speak_v in_o this_o book_n s._n augustine_n sometime_o extraordinary_a transportment_n in_o the_o contemplation_n and_o love_n of_o god_n o_o truth_n where_o have_v not_o thou_o walk_v along_o with_o i_o and_o be_v instruct_v i_o what_o i_o shall_v avoid_v and_o what_o affect_v when_o i_o recount_v unto_o thou_o my_o mental_a discovery_n such_o as_o i_o be_v able_a to_o make_v and_o consult_v thou_o concern_v they_o i_o surveigh_v the_o world_n abroad_o with_o the_o sense_n serve_v i_o for_o that_o purpose_n and_o after_o this_o i_o reflect_v *_o upon_o the_o vegetable_a life_n of_o my_o own_o body_n and_o *_o upon_o those_o my_o sense_n from_o hence_o i_o enter_v further_o into_o the_o inner_a chamber_n of_o my_o memory_n those_o manifold_a capacity_n fill_v with_o a_o innumerable_a store_n of_o wonderful_a thing_n i_o consider_v they_o and_o remain_v amaze_v at_o they_o and_o none_o of_o they_o can_v i_o discern_v without_o thou_o and_o yet_o i_o find_v none_o of_o they_o 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it_o be_v i_o now_o confess_v my_o fault_n who_o have_v pity_v on_o i_o before_o i_o confess_v they_o unto_o thou_o whilst_o i_o seek_v thou_o not_o according_a to_o the_o high_a reason_n of_o my_o understanding_n in_o which_o thou_o have_v please_v to_o advance_v i_o above_o beast_n but_o according_a to_o the_o exterior_a sense_n of_o my_o carnality_n when_o as_o thou_o meanwhile_o waste_v more_o interior_a to_o i_o than_o what_o of_o i_o be_v most_o intimate_a and_o more_o superior_a than_o what_o be_v my_o high_a i_o light_v upon_o that_o shameless_a 9.16.17_o prov._n 9.16.17_o witless_a woman_n s_z emblem_n of_o error_n sit_v at_o the_o door_n of_o her_o house_n and_o say_v come_v eat_v you_o secret_o of_o my_o pleasant_a bread_n and_o steal_v you_o a_o draught_n of_o my_o sweet_a water_n who_o easy_o seduce_v i_o because_o she_o find_v my_o soul_n inhabit_v abroad_o in_o the_o eye_n of_o my_o flesh_n and_o chew_v its_o cud_n upon_o such_o food_n as_o it_o have_v before_z receive_v 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elias_n hunger_a in_o the_o desert_n be_v feed_v with_o flesh-meat_n that_o john_n the_o baptist_n a_o man_n endue_v with_o a_o miraculous_a abstinence_n receive_v no_o pollution_n from_o live_a creature_n 1._o locust_n make_v his_o food_n and_o on_o the_o otherside_n i_o know_v that_o esau_n be_v deceive_v by_o the_o lust_n of_o a_o few_o lentile_n and_o david_n censure_v by_o himself_o for_o the_o desire_n of_o a_o draught_n of_o water_n and_o that_o our_o king_n be_v tempt_v not_o in_o a_o matter_n of_o flesh_n but_o of_o bread_n only_o and_o therefore_o also_o the_o people_n in_o the_o wilderness_n not_o simple_o because_o they_o desire_v flesh_n but_o because_o in_o the_o desire_n thereof_o they_o murmur_v against_o the_o lord_n deserve_v to_o be_v reject_v i_o therefore_o place_v among_o the_o same_o temptation_n be_o strive_v every_o day_n against_o this_o concupiscence_n in_o eat_v and_o in_o drink_v for_o it_o be_v no_o such_o thing_n which_o i_o can_v resolve_v to_o cut_v 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and_o perfume_n from_o the_o allurement_n of_o sweet_a smell_n i_o suffer_v no_o great_a trouble_n when_o absent_a i_o do_v not_o miss_v they_o when_o present_a not_o refuse_v they_o and_o be_o willing_a for_o ever_o to_o be_v without_o they_o thus_o i_o appear_v to_o myself_o but_o perhaps_o mistake_v for_o much_o to_o be_v lament_v be_v the_o darkness_n wherein_o my_o very_a ability_n and_o faculty_n which_o be_v within_o i_o lie_v obscure_v and_o hide_a from_o i_o so_o that_o my_o own_o mind_n when_o question_v itself_o concern_v its_o own_o strength_n know_v not_o well_o how_o to_o believe_v itself_o because_o much_o within_o it_o lie_v secret_a and_o conceal_v from_o it_o till_o
within_o it_o whole_a army_n of_o such_o copious_a vanity_n hence_o be_v our_o very_a prayer_n also_o often_o interrupt_v and_o disturb_v and_o even_o before_o thy_o face_n and_o whilst_o the_o voice_n of_o our_o heart_n be_v present_v unto_o thy_o ear_n so_o important_a a_o affair_n be_v sudden_o break_v off_o by_o the_o rush_n in_o i_o know_v not_o from_o whence_o of_o such_o nugatory_a cogitation_n have_v i_o account_v this_o sort_n of_o temptation_n a_o contemptible_a matter_n or_o be_v there_o any_o thing_n that_o among_o such_o infirmity_n revive_v my_o hope_n save_v whole_o thy_o mercy_n because_o thou_o have_v already_o begin_v to_o effect_v a_o change_n in_o i_o chap._n xxxvi_o 3._o his_o remain_a infirmity_n concern_v the_o temptation_n of_o the_o pride_n of_o life_n the_o great_a danger_n of_o vain-glorying_a â–³_o incur_v from_o the_o approbation_n and_o praise_n of_o man_n and_o thou_o know_v in_o how_o great_a a_o part_n thou_o have_v reform_v i_o who_o to_o come_v now_o to_o the_o three_o sort_n of_o temptation_n the_o pride_n of_o life_n have_v long_o since_o heal_v i_o from_o the_o lust_n of_o revenge_a myself_o or_o of_o vindicate_v my_o reputation_n and_o integrity_n that_o so_o thou_o may_v forgive_v all_o the_o rest_n of_o my_o iniquity_n 5._o psal_n 103.3_o 4_o 5._o and_o may_v heal_v all_o my_o disease_n and_o may_v redeem_v my_o life_n from_o corruption_n and_o crown_v i_o with_o love_a kindness_n and_o tender_a mercy_n and_o satisfy_v my_o mouth_n with_o good_a thing_n when_o thou_o have_v crush_v my_o pride_n with_o thy_o fear_n and_o tame_v my_o neck_n to_o thy_o yoke_n and_o now_o i_o bear_v it_o and_o it_o be_v light_a unto_o i_o because_o so_o thou_o have_v promise_v and_o so_o thou_o have_v make_v it_o and_o indeed_o so_o it_o be_v always_o but_o i_o know_v it_o not_o when_o i_o be_v so_o much_o afraid_a to_o undergo_v it_o but_o yet_o o_o thou_o lord_n who_o alone_o do_v lord_n it_o without_o all_o pride_n because_o thou_o only_o be_v the_o lord_n who_o have_v no_o other_o lord_n have_v this_o sort_n of_o temptation_n whole_o cease_v from_o i_o or_o can_v it_o cease_v at_o all_o in_o this_o life_n namely_o to_o desire_v to_o be_v reverence_v and_o to_o be_v love_v by_o man_n not_o for_o any_o other_o end_n save_v only_o that_o we_o may_v rejoice_v ourselves_o in_o it_o where_o be_v no_o cause_n of_o joy_n but_o such_o a_o life_n be_v true_o miserable_a and_o this_o boast_a full_a of_o shame_n for_o from_o this_o thing_n chief_o arise_v their_o not_o entire_o love_v thou_o and_o their_o not_o chastly-fearing_a thou_o 4.6_o jam._n 4.6_o therefore_o do_v thou_o resist_v such_o proud_a but_o give_v grace_v unto_o the_o humble_a and_o thou_o thunder_v over_o the_o head_n of_o the_o ambitious_a of_o this_o world_n and_o make_v the_o foundation_n of_o these_o mountain_n to_o tremble_v yet_o here_o because_o for_o the_o better_a perform_v several_a duty_n of_o humane_a society_n it_o be_v necessary_a both_o to_o be_v love_v and_o fear_v of_o man_n the_o adversary_n of_o our_o happiness_n press_v sore_o upon_o we_o in_o this_o matter_n strew_v on_o every_o side_n upon_o his_o snare_n euge_fw-la euge_fw-la that_o greedy_o gather_v up_o this_o we_o may_v be_v unaware_o catch_v by_o the_o other_o and_o may_v lay_v aside_o our_o joy_n in_o the_o truth_n of_o thou_o that_o we_o may_v place_v it_o in_o the_o falsehood_n of_o man_n and_o may_v covet_v to_o be_v love_v and_o fear_v of_o man_n not_o for_o thy_o sake_n but_o in_o thy_o stead_n and_o so_o be_v make_v like_o unto_o he_o he_o may_v also_o link_v we_o with_o he_o not_o in_o the_o union_n of_o love_n 14.13_o esas_fw-la 14.13_o but_o in_o the_o fellowship_n of_o punishment_n who_o strive_v to_o exalt_v his_o throne_n in_o the_o side_n of_o the_o north_n that_o he_o imitate_v thou_o in_o a_o opposite_a way_n his_o vassal_n contrary_a to_o the_o light_n and_o heat_n of_o love_n which_o thou_o enjoy_v may_v serve_v in_o cold_a and_o darkness_n but_o we_o o_o lord_n behold_v we_o be_v thy_o little_a flock_n keep_v thou_o still_o the_o possession_n of_o we_o stretch_v forth_o thy_o wing_n over_o we_o and_o let_v we_o fly_v under_o they_o be_v thou_o all_o our_o glory_n let_v we_o love_v and_o be_v love_v only_o for_o thy_o sake_n and_o let_v thy_o word_n only_o be_v fear_v in_o we_o he_o that_o belong_v to_o be_v commend_v by_o man_n when_o thou_o disapprove_v he_o shall_v not_o be_v justify_v by_o man_n when_o thou_o judge_v he_o nor_o rescue_v by_o man_n when_o thou_o condemne_v he_o and_o when_o vulg._n psal_n 9.29_o vulg._n not_o he_o that_o be_v a_o sinner_n be_v bless_v in_o his_o wickedness_n which_o he_o have_v do_v but_o a_o man_n be_v commend_v for_o some_o good_a which_o thou_o have_v give_v he_o and_o yet_o that_o man_n rejoice_v more_o within_o himself_o that_o he_o be_v commend_v than_o that_o he_o have_v from_o thou_o that_o gift_n for_o which_o he_o be_v so_o praise_v he_o also_o be_v commend_v whilst_o thou_o disallow_a 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but_o i_o do_v not_o 19.12_o psal_n 19.12_o for_o in_o other_o kind_n of_o temptation_n i_o have_v some_o way_n of_o try_v myself_o but_o in_o this_o almost_o none_o at_o all_o for_o both_o in_o the_o pleasure_n of_o the_o sense_n and_o curiosity_n of_o science_n i_o perceive_v how_o much_o i_o have_v my_o mind_n wain_v from_o they_o whenas_o i_o happen_v to_o be_v without_o such_o thing_n whether_o voluntary_o when_o they_o be_v absent_a or_o upon_o necessity_n when_o they_o be_v also_o want_v for_o at_o such_o time_n i_o ask_v myself_o how_o much_o great_a or_o less_o trouble_v i_o have_v than_o former_o to_o be_v without_o they_o and_o so_o for_o riches_n which_o be_v covet_v to_o this_o end_n that_o we_o may_v by_o they_o serve_v some_o one_o of_o the_o forementioned_a lust_n or_o also_o two_o or_o all_o of_o they_o if_o my_o mind_n can_v life_n namely_o those_o 1_o jo_n 2.16_o lust_n of_o the_o flesh_n lust_n of_o the_o eye_n pride_n of_o life_n in_o the_o possession_n of_o they_o 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