consulted what to do for mee But concluded there was no help but I must dye But when I heard that I said there is yet help in God and it was set upon me to believe that if I could but touch the hemm of the garment of Jesus Christ that is believingly go to him I should be healed being also put in minde of that promise that whosoever forsake any thing for his sake and the Gospels Mat. 19 29. should receive an hundredfold then I cryed Lord give me to be healed of this distemper by thee seing thou art pleased to deny help by man And one day our Pastor called in to visit me as he was going to the meeting whom I did desire to pray for me and to stirre up the bretheren to joyn with him and I much incouraged him that they should pray in faith believing for what they asked telling him that by faith and prayer he would assuredly heal me and verily according unto my faith it was done unto me for ever blessed be God for J. Christ for as they were praying in his name the distemper departed Next the Lord was pleased to lay his afflicting hand upon another of my children then did I much desire that all afflictions might be sanctified rather then removed and that by all I might be made more conformable unto Jesus Christ was I helped then to read and mind thad place in Job Job 34 32. That which I see not teach thou mee if I have done iniquâ—â—y I will do no more Then our Pastor coming again to visit me I asked him how we should know the mind of God in these many afflictions he answered mee that a man having an orchard or vineyard walkes therein and among all the trees he makes choyce it may be of some one tree whose standing is more pleasant and conveniâ—nt then others and that tree he chops hacks and makes an Arbour to sit in for his delight and said hee if God wil do so by you will you not there with be content Oh! yes said I if that be the good will of my heavenly father and blessed be God I did find it so for though I have sowed in tears I have reaped in joy and have found the times of greatest outward trouble and affliction have been the onely times of greatest inward and spiritual joy and soul consolation verily I cannot express with tongue nor pen the large experience I have had upon this account And this I have found that when a poor soul is faithful and single hearted for God walking up to the light id hath received this is the very way to injoy the presence of God and his blessing upon him in what state and condition so ever he is in for this I can declare from mine own experience that lose is the way to gain troublet is the way to peace sorrow is the way to joy and death is the way to life he that looseth his life for my sake saith Jesus Christ the same shall find it through the valey of tears lieth the way to the mountain of joy for whilst I set my self in good earnest to seek the Lord for instruction into the truth as it is in Jesus I met with many difficulties but yet out prayer hearing God was pleased to come in by degrees having through his grace given me faith in his son who was exalted as a Prince and a SÃ viour to give me repentance made mee also willing to be baptised for the remission of sins Now that which made me willing to obey the Lord in this Ordinance was the Command of Jesus Christ in Mat. 28 19. and Act. 10 48. and the example of Christ and the practise of the Apostles and pâ—imitive Saints together with the promise of the gift of the Holy Ghost anexed thereunto Acts 2 38. And indeed this truth a last was so set upon my heart by the Lord that though many difficulties lay in the way yet the Lord carried me through them all and after I had obeyed the Lord therein in very faithsulness I must declare that I did injoy the incomes of God in a more plentisul manner then before But Satan for some time laboured to hinder mee in obeying the Lord in this piece of service with this temptation that by this meanes a death in all likelyhood and in an eye of reason would fall upon my livelyhood but God made it a furtherance to mee and to others also so that many of us were at that time after waiting on God by fasting and prayer baptized together And after that the Lord was pleased to bless mee in my imployment that following year with more then ordinary success by which the Devil was proved a lyar But afterward I had some fears that my imployment might be a suare unto mâ—e as the world is to many and that I should bee too earthly in it for this Scripture did follow mee very much which I desire to give good heed unto Oh! Earth Earth hear the word of the Lord. And often in prayer I did cry unto God saying speak Lord for thy servant desires to hear and was very desirous to know what the Lord would have me to understand by this word and when I had considered I found some thing in my imployment sinsul and a hinderance unto my spiritual injoyments to convince mee of which the Lord waâ— pleased to with hold his blessing upon that imployment which before I had found therein to the convincing and converting of some to himself so finding something in it contrary to his will I was constreined to leave it of and after much seeking of the Lord for councel these Scriptures were much with mee Math. 7 7. Ask and it shall be given you seek and ye shall find knockâ— and it shall be opened unto you If ye then being evil know how to give good guifts unto your children how much more shall your father which is in heaven give good things to them that ask him Math. 7 11. And on my servants and on my hand maidens will I pour out of my spirit and they shall prophesy Acts 2 18. These promises did dwell with mee for a long season so that I was much stirred up to pray to the Lord that he would please to accomplish them upon mee and pour out of his blessed Spirit upon mee And after long seeking espâ—cially one day being very earnest and importunate with the Lord after which I went out to walk and on a sudden I was indued with the gift of singing in such a way and manner as I had not been acquainted with before and immediately this following song came in as fast as I could sing as followeth it was in the year 1655. in the Moneth of February Come home come home thy work is done My glory thou shalt see Let all the meek ones of the earth Come home along with thee Cast of the world it is too base And low for thee to dwell I have redeem'd thee from
the pit And lowest place of Hell Admire admire my love to thee VVhich took thee from so low And set thee in high places free VVhere thou my love might'st know VVing thou aloft and cast thy self Into mine Arms of love Look up look up and thou shalt see My glory is above Let not the wicked know thy joy But let my servants hear VVhat I have done for thee my love Since thou to mee drew'st near My servants walk in clouds and bogg's They do not see my light The day draws near and will appear That I will shine most bright I will appear in my glory and be a perfect light Admire admire the thing that I will do All nations shall it hear and know VVhat I am doing now I will a habitation be To them that fear my name They shall lie down in safty and Give glory to the same All they that in high places sit And takes their honours low Shall be made tremble quake and pine VVhen they my Iustice know Come hide come hide come hide with me Come hide thee in the Rock Come draw thy Comforts high from mee I my treasures unlock Also it was agreed upon by some of the Lords people with whom I was then present that we should appoint and keep a day of solemn seeking the Lord by fasting and prayer that wee might know what was the duty Gods poor Children ought to be found in at that time but after this was agreed upon and the day appointed I was before the time came removed about 30 miles from them and so that thing went out of my minde but God by his Spirit set me upon the same work by five in the morning the same day and about the middle of the day God brought to my remembrance that agreement so we were at the same work at the same time though far distant one from another and indeed the Lord was graciously present pouring out much of the spirit of prayer and supplication after which earnest seeking of God was this following prophesye given in unto mee Shall light appear and darkness done away Shall Sommers green be cloathed all in gray Shall a bright morning set in shadowees dark Oh! England Englandâ— take heed thou dost not smart And after this prophesy was set upon my heart that notable promise 2 Chro. 7 14. Iâ— my people which are called by my name turn from their wicked wayes then will I hear from heaven and forgive their sin and will heat their Land Next morning about four of the clock being in my bed I had this laid before mee that God would affict that nation with great afflictions but I not knowing what God would try the Nation with did desire this of the Lord that I might chuse with David rather to fall into the hands of God then into the hands of merciless men it was much upon my heart at that time that the Lord would turn a fruitful land into barreness for the wickedness of them that dwell therein Then the Lord was pleased to lay upon mee a sore affliction which I finding my self very unable to bear did as it were repent mee that I in any measure had chosen my condition and did not rather wholy submit to the will of God but the Lord did mee good by it and his strength was made persect in my weakness Then was it much set upon my heart to consider what then were the sins of the nation for which there was cause of great humiliation and indeed the consideration of these following evils was much set upon my heart 1. That great sloathfulness deadness and unfruitfulness under the means of grace which we injoyed for which the Lord threatened of old Isa 5 vers 5 6. To lay his vineyard wast to plucke up the hedge and breake downe the wall there of 2. That great abounding sin of unbelief notwithstanding the large experiences we had of Gods power for us and love to us And this I saw did cause persons to seek themselves and the world Unbelief cut them and us short of that rest that many yea the most of us promised to our selves As this unbelief of old cut Israel short of rest Heb. 3 10 11. 3. That Idolatry which mee thought I saw abounding in the nation in a threefold sence 1. First in respect of false wayes of worship contrary to the rule of the Gospel and primitive exemple 2. Secondly in respect also of resting upon duty and so not resting upon Iesus Christ that Rock of ages this also was one of poor Israels evils crying out the Temple of Lord c. Ier. 7 4. 3. In respect of coveteousness this in Scripture is called Idolatry also Oh! that too too earnest desire that was in some after the Foulish vanities of this present evil world and in others after the vain profits of the world and in others also after the vain glory and preferment thereof these things were much upon my heart and this was that for which God was angry of old with his people and smote them and hid his face from them Isa 57 17. 4. Fourthly That pride that I saw abounding in the lives of many I fear was in the hearts of others Which appeared in their slighting the Councel of Gods Spirit and their persifting to go on in seeking and setting up self nothwithstanding the hand of God against them These sins being very much set upon my heart with a deep consideration of many Scriptures some of them was very great and sore threatnings and other some were most sweet and precious promises to such as repent and departe from all iniquity one of which I remember was that very remarkeable place 2 Chron. 7 14. Then I looked upon it as my duty to make this known that people might be warned to depart from sin that so they might not partake of the great wrath and sore displeasure of God which I much feared was coming Then soon after I had an oppertunity to declare this to some that then were in high places and in the very entring I had this added which I also declared Didst thou not hear a voyce from on high Deny your selves take up the crosse or verily you shall die And this was approved on by some and received as a very sluitable and seasonable word but pour soules for not hearkening unto councel in departing from sin they were soon brought down and laid low yet there is mercy with the Lord that he may be feared and he will manifest his love to all them that truely repent and we may all make a good use of this experience therefore let others harms become our warnings Also about the year 1658. to the best of my remembrance for having lost my book in which I had set them down in order I now wait onely upon the Lord and as he by his Spirit helps mee so I give an account of these things It was given in with aboundance of power upon my spirit these few
is that glorious hold That God vvill keep both safe and sovvnd Zion is that pleasant Plant That God vvill hedg about each hour O! Zion is Gods heritage And he vvill keep it by his povver Therefore let not thy heart novv faint For Zions sake hold not thy peace For our God vvill hear Zions Plaint Therefore give thy God novv no rest Till thou vvith Zion he hath blest Let Zion knovv her time dravves near She may look up novv vvithout fear Let Zion knovv her God doth live That hath her portion for to give Let Zions Children novv rejoyce And lett hem praises sing O! let them lift up pleasant voyce In honnor to their King Let Zion knovv her God is true That vvill her mercies novv renevv She shall receive great things from him Who is her glory and her King Althoug afflictions should hold on And troubles should arise Yet God vvill ovvn his precious one Their prayers hee 'll not despise Our King shall reigne in righteousness His glory shall shine forth He vvill come forth in Iudgment then For his poor saints comfort Our King shall reigne in glory then He shall himself come up His ennemies then shall fall vvith speed And be made but a puf Then let my people quiet sit And vvait on him vvith joy There is a time dravves near at hand Nothing shall them Anoy THE poor then of the flock shall find a rest And I their God and portion will them bless And they shall to me for a refuge fly And I will be their helpe continually Then shall their souls alone in mee rejoyce That I have made of them my onely choyce I vvill sill them in that day vvith my povver So they shall vvait on me then every hour Their soul shall be as vvattered plants vvith devv And I my mercy vvill to them renevv Their heats shall be ingaged vvith my love For I vvill move in them from povver above This is the portion that I novv vvill give Vnto all those that strifes humbly to live Therefore rejoyce in God your onely guide VVhich in this day of trouble vvill you hide END Awake awake put on my strength And mine owne comelyness Look upon mee for I have Wroght thy deliverance Thou art black but comely in Mine eyes that doth behold Thee swearing mine owne righteousness Which glory can not becould I waited long on thee to see When thou wouldst mee â—mbrace And when thou would'st look up to mee To see my glorious face And now what say'st thou unto mee Have I not done thee good And have not spar'd to set thee free 〈◊〉 own Sons pretious blood Therefore let all thy life be now A sacrifice of praise And to my holyness give up Thy self in all my wayes Let not the World so sad thy heart Nor cast thee down solow For â—f thou wait upon my grace My secrets thou shalt know Be watchful and keep do close to meâ— Thy Garments do not staine And that will be to thy poor soul A certain heavenly gain Take heed of glorying in my love But walk humbly and low â—or it is onely my fulness That makes thee thus to flow There is by pathes to wander in That Sathan would advance But I will keep thee by my power And be thy deliverance Be watchful and keep close to mee My Garments do not soyl For they are thine to cover thee Be watchful then a while OH where shall I find now A people quicken'd still That seek all times to live on God And eck to do his will A people that deny them selves And eck the cross up take That doth delight in God alone And eck the World for sake A people that abhor themselves And over their sins weep A people mourning o'r the Land And doth him dayly seek A people that believes in God By faith drawes vertue still Lay hold on promise which is true Contented with his will A people that the word esteem Keeping close there dayly And for a rule the same doth take When others from it fly Their hearts are fastened on the Lord They for are fuge fly That God vvould novv help by his povver In their extremity Their cries are novv unto the Lord Thy seek in him to hide To take of novv his heavy hand And not let vvrath abide With such a people vvould I spend My life and dayes novv here Oh! think upon thy servant Lord And to me novv dravv near I assure you COURTEOUS READER these are not studed things but are given in immediately FIN †For the confirmation hereof do ye mind these two Scriptures Esai 45 13. and Psalm 89 19.
words following Awake therefore to righteousness This was again brought to mind in January 1662. The Lord is near at hand And will afflict now very sore By sea and like by land And this seemes to agree with and is a further addition to what wa's given mee in before in the Year 1657. which is as followeth There is a time approaching near at hand That men shall be in fear by sea and land There is a time there will be alteration And this same time doth hasten to this nation Let now my children hearken to my will And they shall see I will be with them still These with many more such things came upon my spitit and then after seeking the Lord he was pleased to shew mee by degrees what was the work of the day for I am a stranger and a Pilgrim therefore I seek sor a Kingdom whose Buylder and Maker is God I desire not to set up the Idol of covetâ—ousness but to have it to be my meat and drink to do the will of my Father which is in heaven and 't is my onely desire to deny my self and to honor him seeking to know the present work of the day some Scriptures with many waity considerations were set upon my heart Hezekiahs prayers and tears which were accepted of God when his heart was broaken A broaken and a comrite heart is acceptable in the sight of God and he will dwelâ— with such Isa 57 15. rend your hearts and not your garments and turn to the Lord indeed when much of the sorm of Godliness appears but the power is waming then it is a time to mourn and in some it hath been so in all ages theresore Gods Prophet was bâ—d cry aloud and spare not Isa 58 1. VVhen sinlies hiden in the heart nothing is accepted Isai 58 2. Yet yoe seek mee early and desire to know my wayes as a nation that did righteousness read and mind the whole Cnap Isa 15 16. Cease to do evil saith the Lord and learn to doe well c. But unto the wicked God saith what hast thou to do to declare my statutes or that thou shouldest take my covenant in thy mouth seenig thou hatest to be refâ—rmed then it came upon my heart that the duty of the present time was for the people of God to be very much in these following things The work of the day 1. First to be watchful that the caâ—es of this world and the deceitfulness of riches make us not to forget the coming of Christ and the glory that shall then be revealed 2. Secondly be moderate in all things the Lord is at hand be patient and act much faith be much in prayer do good lay up treasures in heaven these be all very weighty things 3. Be much in humiliation seek not great things for your selves in a day when God is pulling down God pronounceth a 〈◊〉 to them that are at case in Sion that put far away the evil day and cause the seat of violence to come near A mos 6. vers 3 4 5 6. that lie upon beds of Ivory and stretch themselves upon their couches and eat the lambs out of the flock and the calves out of the midst of the stall and so fill themselves in seasting delighting in Musick and drinking wine in bowles but are not grieved for the afflictions of Joseph And the same evil the Prophet Isaiah complaines of also in the 22 of Isa vers 5 9 12 13 14. In that day the Lord God of Hâ—asts called to weeping and mourning and to baldness and girding with sackâ—loath and behold joy and 〈◊〉 slâ—ying oxâ—n and killing of sheep c. In what day was this you may sâ—e in the 5 and 9 verses it was a day of trouble and â—teading down and peâ—plexity But see how the Lord takes notice of this their contrary â—â—â—riage in the 14 verse he chargeth it upon them as such an iniquity as he tells them shall not be purged from them till they dye verse the 14. It is said when the Judgments of God are abroad in the earth the inhabitants thereof shall learn righteousness But it is threatened they shall have no peace who go on in the wayes of sin and wickedness but all that would have peace must come from sin unto Jesus Christ and walk in the way of peace by this way we hide in the rock and enter into the secret chambers where God had promised to keep us till his indignation be over past Then benig troubled in my spirit the Lord was pleased to give in these following promises as special comforts against those great and publique calamities which were coming I even I am he that blotteth out thy transgressions for mine own sake and will not remember thy sins Isai 34 25. I also will leave in the midst of thee an afflicted and poor people and they shall trust in the name of the Lord. Zeph. 3 12. And they shall be mine saith the Lord in the day that I make up my Iewels and I will spare them as a man spareth his own son that serveth him Malachy 3 17. And the Lord shall guide thee continually and satisfy thy soul in drought and make fat they bones and thou shall be like a wattered garden and like springs of watter whose watters faile not Isa 58 11. And Moses said unto the people Fear ye not stand still and see the salvation of the Lord which he will shew to you to day for the Egyptians whom you have seen to day you shall see them again no more â—or ever Exod. 14 13. The name of the Lord is a strong Tower the Righteous run into it and is safe Prov. 18 10. They that wait upon the Lord shall renew their strentgh they shall mount up with wings as Eagles they shall run and not be weary and they shall walke and not faint Isa 40 31. Also the Lord set it upon my heart how the people of God ought to caâ—ry it in such a day of calamity namely that they ought to have upon their hearts a deep sence of sin which is the cause of sorrow as Lots righteous soul was grieved with the unclean conversation of the wicked therefore God took care of him and he was preserved when others were destroyed with the firy storme of Gods Also God is pleased to set a mark upon the fore-heads of them that mourn for the abomination of the times Also it was given me in to believe that God would be a wall of fire about his people with this promise That all things shall work together for good to them that love God who are the called according to his purpose Rom. 8 28. And the Lord said All things were made for himself and nothing shall be destroyed vvithout mee And God appeared unto Abraham saying I am God alsufficient c. Gen. 17 1. Let my word be a light to thy feet and a Lanthorn to thy pathes for I will keep them in perfect peace whose