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that_o this_o thy_o love_n may_v floâ—_n in_o such_o abundance_n into_o the_o harâ—_n of_o all_o capable_a thereof_o that_o the_o sonâ—_n of_o thy_o love_n and_o praise_n may_v contiâ—nually_o be_v hear_v through_o out_o all_o the_o earth_n o_o what_o do_v we_o do_v love_a vanity_n and_o seek_v a_o lie_n what_o do_v â—â—e_z abuse_v the_o most_o noble_a capacity_n of_o our_o soul_n by_o desire_v that_o which_o pass_v away_o like_a smoke_n what_o do_v â—â—e_z love_v that_o which_o be_v more_o changeable_a than_o the_o moon_n can_v any_o â—hing_n satiate_v our_o heart_n but_o our_o god_n can_v we_o find_v true_a repose_n out_o of_o he_o â—s_v any_o thing_n worthy_a of_o our_o love_n but_o â—hat_n goodness_n which_o be_v love_n it-self_n and_o â—hom_n the_o more_o we_o love_v the_o more_o we_o â—re_n able_a to_o love_n because_o for_o love_n he_o make_v we_o capable_a of_o love_n but_o alas_o my_o god_n my_o soul_n be_v in_o honour_n â—nd_v i_o know_v not_o it_o i_o be_v compare_v â—o_o 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god_n o_o no_o my_o god_n let_v that_o be_v far_o from_o i_o i_o here_o renounce_v before_o heaven_n and_o earth_n all_o inordinate_a affection_n to_o creature_n place_n with_o thy_o own_o hand_n tâ—â—_n love_n in_o their_o roomâ—_n that_o it_o expel_v thence_o all_o â—hat_n now_o be_v therein_o displease_v to_o tâ—ine_a eye_n thou_o maâ—â—_n thy_o selâ—_n whole_o possess_v i_o give_v and_o distribute_v my_o affection_n and_o dispose_v the_o passion_n of_o my_o haâ—â—_n according_a to_o thy_o sweet_a will_n which_o only_o be_v just_a only_o holy_a and_o true_a iâ—_n it-self_n c_o how_o sincere_a then_o be_v oâ—_n affection_n when_o we_o love_v our_o neigâ—â—bour_n only_o in_o and_o for_o thou_o theâ—â—_n we_o pity_v not_o one_o and_o be_v hard_o heart_v to_o another_o according_a to_o the_o inclination_n of_o our_o perverse_a nature_n but_o behold_v thou_o in_o all_o and_o consequent_o willing_o serve_v and_o assist_v all_o for_o thy_o love_n then_o we_o do_v not_o show_v our_o seve_v meek_a only_o to_o our_o friend_n but_o also_o to_o those_o by_o who_o we_o suffer_v most_o contradiction_n and_o glad_o upon_o all_o occasion_n extend_v our_o charity_n for_o there_o be_v no_o true_a friendship_n but_o that_o which_o be_v found_v upon_o thou_o and_o which_o be_v maintain_v without_o impediment_n to_o thy_o love_n ☜_o this_o be_v only_o the_o love_n of_o charity_n which_o charity_n know_v not_o how_o to_o repine_v to_o be_v angry_a to_o be_v exceptious_a to_o be_v inconstant_a to_o be_v troublesome_a to_o be_v suspicious_a or_o jealous_a for_o it_o regard_v thou_o in_o all_o and_o desire_v thou_o above_o all_o it_o take_v all_o in_o good_a part_n it_o wonder_v not_o to_o see_v man_n exceed_v in_o word_n find_v it-self_n so_o often_o to_o offend_v in_o
for_o her_o humble_a soul_n think_v it-self_n too_o unworthy_a of_o such_o a_o favour_n when_o thou_o do_v put_v she_o in_o mind_n that_o she_o be_v to_o conver_n with_o thou_o in_o a_o more_o spiritual_a manner_n then_o before_o neither_o do_v she_o reflect_v on_o the_o labour_n pain_n and_o grief_n she_o have_v sustain_v for_o as_o thou_o know_v love_n feel_v no_o labour_n nor_o complain_v of_o any_o burden_n for_o only_o to_o have_v see_v thou_o alive_a again_o be_v sufficient_a to_o make_v she_o forget_v all_o former_a affliction_n for_o her_o sake_n and_o for_o all_o their_o sake_n that_o love_v thou_o be_v merciful_a to_o my_o sin_n and_o bring_v i_o by_o true_a love_n to_o be_v unite_v to_o thou_o with_o they_o where_o for_o ever_o without_o cease_v i_o may_v praise_v thou_o my_o only_o belove_a amen_n the_o xlvii_o confession_n o_o lord_n my_o god_n i_o will_v speak_v to_o thou_o again_o and_o again_o i_o will_v call_v upon_o thou_o the_o entire_o belove_a of_o my_o hart_n i_o will_v melt_v away_o in_o thy_o praise_n and_o i_o will_v invite_v all_o thy_o spouse_n to_o to_o seek_v thou_o alone_o above_o all_o thy_o gift_n and_o above_o all_o creature_n for_o in_o thou_o alone_o be_v true_a peaee_n and_o comfort_n to_o be_v find_v and_o enjoy_v o_o how_o happy_a shall_v i_o esteem_v myself_o if_o i_o be_v able_a to_o praise_v thou_o without_o cease_v or_o be_v any_o cause_n that_o any_o shall_v more_v and_o more_o languish_v with_o thy_o love_n what_o shall_v i_o do_v be_v bear_v down_o with_o the_o weight_n of_o mortal_a flesh_n and_o diverse_a internal_a affliction_n so_o that_o i_o can_v many_o time_n scarce_o think_v on_o thou_o what_o shall_v i_o do_v i_o sayâ—_n but_o liâ—t_v up_o my_o hart_n with_o my_o hand_n as_o it_o be_v by_o main_a force_n sometime_o by_o word_n and_o sometime_o by_o write_v unto_o thou_o which_o i_o do_v not_o do_v as_o to_o one_o that_o be_v far_o of_o from_o i_o ☞_o but_o as_o to_o one_o who_o be_v more_o near_o to_o i_o then_o i_o be_o to_o myself_n and_o of_o who_o goodness_n who_o wisdom_n whose_o beauty_n who_o mercy_n and_o most_o absolute_a and_o incomparable_a greatness_n i_o be_o more_o assure_v of_o than_o i_o be_o of_o any_o thing_n i_o see_v with_o my_o corporal_a eye_n o_o who_o will_v not_o love_v this_o goâ—nes_n this_o majesty_n and_o submit_v themselves_o â—o_o this_o most_o amiable_a belove_a oâ—_n our_o soul_n if_o any_o comfort_n or_o happiness_n be_v to_o be_v find_v out_o of_o he_o we_o be_v something_o excusable_a in_o neglect_v and_o forget_v our_o chief_a good_a â—ut_fw-la see_v we_o can_v even_o in_o this_o mortal_a liâ—e_z find_v any_o content_n but_o by_o love_v praise_v and_o true_o seek_v and_o serve_v he_o we_o be_v too_o miserable_a and_o too_o blame_v for_o lose_v ourself_n by_o rest_v with_o love_n and_o inordinat_a affection_n in_o transitory_a and_o visible_a thing_n o_o far_o be_v it_o from_o thy_o spouse_n to_o set_v their_o affection_n upon_o any_o thing_n bâ—â—_n thou_o or_o to_o bereave_v thou_o of_o the_o affection_n which_o from_o all_o be_v to_o thou_o only_o due_a all_o that_o we_o be_v and_o have_v be_v too_o little_a for_o thou_o let_v we_o not_o therefore_o of_o that_o little_a we_o have_v take_v from_o thou_o o_o let_v we_o love_v thou_o above_o all_o and_o all_o other_o in_o and_o â—or_a thou_o i_o do_v bemoan_v this_o misery_n above_o all_o misery_n that_o those_o who_o have_v dedicate_v themselves_o to_o thou_o shall_v seek_v the_o love_n and_o favour_n of_o other_o to_o their_o own_o and_o the_o other_o impediment_n in_o thy_o love_n and_o service_n oftentimes_o we_o comply_v and_o correspond_v under_o pretence_n to_o get_v temporal_a mean_n the_o while_n neglect_v thou_o ☜_o who_o feed_v the_o bird_n and_o clothe_v the_o beast_n of_o the_o earth_n who_o neither_o sow_n not_o reap_v neither_o be_v they_o solicitous_a of_o any_o thing_n but_o depend_v of_o thy_o mere_a providence_n and_o yet_o thou_o provide_v for_o they_o can_v we_o think_v thou_o will_v have_v less_o care_n of_o we_o that_o have_v leave_v all_o the_o world_n for_o thou_o then_o of_o the_o unreasonnable_a creatue_n make_v only_o for_o our_o service_n have_v not_o thou_o say_v by_o the_o spirit_n of_o all_o truth_n that_o first_o seek_v for_o the_o kingdom_n of_o god_n and_o his_o justice_n all_o thing_n else_o seal_v be_v add_v to_o you_o 6.33_o o_o let_v we_o therefore_o leave_v all_o thing_n true_o that_o we_o may_v confide_v in_o thou_o cast_v our_o care_n upon_o thou_o who_o will_v nourish_v our_o soul_n and_o body_n if_o we_o will_v but_o faithful_o and_o constant_o adhere_v unto_o thou_o our_o supreme_a and_o only_a good_n let_v we_o leave_v pretend_v any_o thing_n but_o thou_o for_o often_o even_o under_o the_o pretence_n of_o get_v prayer_n of_o other_o we_o pour_v out_o ourself_n in_o the_o mean_a time_n neglect_v to_o have_v relation_n to_o thou_o who_o will_v more_v willing_o give_v than_o we_o can_v ask_v if_o we_o will_v but_o true_o and_o faithful_o adhere_v to_o thou_o and_o not_o stray_v out_o of_o ourselves_o hinder_v both_o ourselves_o and_o other_o from_o adhere_v to_o thou_o to_o who_o we_o owe_v all_o we_o be_v and_o can_v do_v and_o and_o therefore_o be_v great_o to_o blame_v when_o we_o do_v not_o endeavour_v to_o love_v thou_o with_o all_o our_o soul_n with_o all_o our_o mind_n and_o all_o our_o strength_n which_o grant_v for_o thy_o own_o sake_n we_o may_v endeavour_v to_o do_v to_o thy_o honour_n and_o glory_n who_o be_v praise_v love_a and_o adore_v for_o all_o eternity_n amen_n the_o xlviii_o confession_n shall_v not_o my_o soul_n be_v subject_a to_o god_n o_o my_o lord_n far_o be_v it_o from_o i_o to_o will_n or_o desire_v any_o thing_n but_o according_a to_o thy_o divine_a will_n which_o be_v only_o holy_a let_v i_o never_o resist_v thy_o will_n signify_v to_o i_o by_o any_o mean_n whatsoever_o let_v my_o soul_n be_v whole_o turn_v into_o a_o flame_n of_o divine_a love_n that_o i_o may_v aspire_v and_o tend_v to_o nothing_o else_o but_o thy-self_n alone_o blot_v out_o my_o sin_n that_o my_o soul_n may_v return_v to_o thou_o by_o love_n from_o who_o by_o sin_n it_o have_v stray_v o_o let_v nothing_o but_o this_o desir_n of_o thou_o my_o god_n possess_v my_o hart_n let_v that_o be_v my_o solace_n in_o labour_n pain_n temptation_n desolation_n and_o all_o affliction_n of_o body_n or_o mind_n let_v not_o my_o hart_n draw_v by_o thou_o to_o seek_v after_o nothing_o but_o love_n be_v so_o base_a as_o to_o covet_v desir_n and_o rest_n in_o any_o thing_n but_o thou_o thou_o be_v my_o life_n my_o choice_n and_o my_o only_a belove_a when_o i_o hear_v theâ—_n but_o name_v my_o lord_n god_n it_o forcible_a draw_v i_o into_o myself_n that_o i_o may_v attend_v unto_o thou_o forget_v myself_n and_o whatsoever_o else_o beside_o thou_o for_o which_o benefit_n be_v thou_o infinite_o praise_v amen_n the_o xlix_o confession_n 150._o omnis_fw-la â—piritus_fw-la lâ—udet_fw-la dominum_fw-la bonedicite_fw-la omne_fw-la opera_fw-la domini_fw-la domino_fw-la 3.37_o laudate_fw-la &_o super_fw-la exaltate_fw-la eum_fw-la in_o saeoula_fw-la let_v every_o spirit_n praise_v our_o lordâ—_n bless_v our_o lord_n all_o the_o work_n of_o oâ—â—_n lord_n praise_n and_o exalt_v he_o for_o ever_o o_o my_o god_n that_o i_o be_v able_a with_o a_o pure_a soul_n and_o love_a hart_n to_o extol_v thy_o praise_n but_o alas_o 9_o thy_o praise_n be_v not_o seemly_a in_o the_o mouth_n of_o a_o sinner_n but_o shall_v i_o for_o this_o hold_v my_o peace_n if_o i_o do_v yet_o permit_v i_o this_o comfort_n for_o thy_o own_o sake_n that_o i_o may_v invite_v other_o more_o worthy_a to_o sing_v and_o set_v forth_o the_o praise_n of_o thy_o divine_a majesty_n with_o who_o yet_o as_o the_o last_o and_o least_o my_o soul_n shall_v join_v in_o the_o praise_n of_o thou_o our_o dear_a creator_n and_o in_o that_o which_o be_v so_o worthy_o possess_v by_o thy_o sweet_a goodness_n i_o will_v rejoice_v with_o all_o the_o force_n of_o my_o hart_n and_o soul_n o_o my_o holy_a and_o dear_a delight_n what_o a_o most_o harmonious_a melody_n will_v refound_v over_o all_o the_o earth_n if_o thy_o will_n and_o just_a disposition_n take_v place_n in_o all_o thing_n behold_v all_o thy_o work_n praise_v thou_o every_o one_o in_o their_o kind_n only_a man_n for_o who_o help_n and_o comfort_v all_o other_o thing_n on_o â—arth_n be_v create_v â—_o pervert_v the_o order_n of_o thy_o justice_n by_o miâ—uâ—ing_v that_o noble_a free_a will_n which_o thou_o give_v he_o to_o choose_v and_o love_v thou_o with_o o_o what_o can_v thou_o have_v do_v more_o then_o with_o such_o a_o noble_a gift_n to_o have_v endue_v we_o certain_o
if_o we_o will_v intend_v thou_o in_o all_o and_o have_v relation_n to_o thou_o in_o all_o who_o be_v more_o present_a to_o our_o soul_n than_o we_o be_v to_o ourselves_o we_o shall_v hear_v thou_o give_v answer_n sometime_o by_o other_o sometime_o by_o thyself_o and_o sometime_o by_o tâ—e_v word_n of_o holy_a scripture_n and_o ancient_a father_n and_o subject_n will_v be_v tractable_a to_o superior_n rather_o govern_v by_o thou_o then_o by_o themselves_o what_o thoâ—_n will_v command_v they_o will_v commend_v and_o in_o all_o not_o seek_v their_o own_o glory_n or_o exaltation_n will_v glory_v in_o thou_o not_o in_o their_o own_o pour_v and_o what_o be_v do_v by_o thou_o they_o will_v then_o account_v only_o well_o doneâ—_n but_o what_o they_o do_v oâ—_n themselves_o they_o will_v account_v little_a profitable_a ☞_o as_o to_o the_o advancement_n oâ—_n soul_n than_o they_o will_v be_v able_a to_o see_v whaâ—_n be_v fit_a for_o every_o soul_n undeâ—_n theiâ—_n chardg_n and_o when_o thou_o permittedâ—_n this_o not_o to_o be_v so_o clear_a to_o they_o theâ—_n will_v humble_v themselves_o acknowâ—ledging_v it_o happen_v for_o their_o unâ—woâ—thines_n beseech_v thou_o to_o do_v thaâ—_n by_o thy-self_n which_o can_v not_o be_v do_v by_o they_o and_o if_o thou_o shall_v perhaps_o let_v another_o though_o their_o subject_n to_o see_v and_o discern_v what_o be_v fit_a in_o that_o case_n or_o case_n though_o he_o be_v but_o the_o last_o and_o low_a and_o of_o the_o least_o esteem_n in_o the_o convent_n yet_o certain_o such_o superior_n will_v not_o account_v it_o to_o derogate_v from_o their_o authority_n that_o such_o a_o one_o shall_v supply_v their_o place_n and_o offifice_n upon_o occasion_n because_o they_o seek_v thy_o honour_n and_o not_o their_o own_o and_o though_o thou_o have_v give_v they_o power_n to_o command_v yet_o no_o otherwise_o will_v they_o use_v it_o then_o according_a to_o such_o manner_n and_o in_o such_o case_n as_o thou_o do_v require_v they_o 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for_o from_o the_o bottom_n of_o their_o soul_n those_o that_o be_v thy_o enemy_n among_o which_o they_o â—ould_v verr_o believe_v they_o shall_v have_v be_v the_o great_a if_o thou_o of_o thy_o sweet_a mercy_n have_v not_o prevent_v they_o also_o inferior_n that_o true_o live_v to_o thou_o and_o desire_v nothing_o else_o but_o thou_o though_o thou_o do_v teach_v and_o instruct_v they_o about_o the_o use_n of_o indifferent_a thing_n by_o a_o internal_a light_n which_o discern_v between_o custom_n and_o true_a reason_n between_o their_o natural_a desire_v and_o thy_o true_a justice_n which_o only_o ought_v to_o take_v place_n in_o all_o thing_n yet_o they_o account_v themselves_o whole_o unworthy_a of_o be_v instruct_v by_o thou_o most_o willing_o hear_v thy_o will_n and_o command_n not_o only_o from_o superior_n but_o from_o any_o creature_n whatsoever_o account_v it_o sufficient_a for_o they_o that_o it_o be_v signify_v to_o they_o that_o it_o be_v thy_o will_n the_o which_o we_o 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since_o oftentimes_o out_o of_o blindness_n we_o give_v caesar_n thaâ—_n which_o be_v god_n and_o deny_v to_o he_o that_o which_o be_v due_a to_o he_o by_o the_o 〈◊〉_d of_o god_n as_o also_o if_o superior_n anâ—_n priest_n shall_v stand_v upon_o point_n uâ—_n surp_v that_o to_o themselves_o whicâ—_n thou_o have_v reserve_v to_o thyself_o what_o shall_v become_v of_o subject_n certain_o they_o will_v not_o well_o know_v what_o to_o do_v unless_o it_o be_v very_o right_a between_o they_o and_o thou_o but_o alas_o 15._o si_fw-mi shall_fw-mi evanuerit_fw-la in_o quo_fw-la salietur_fw-la if_o the_o salt_n loose_v its_o virtue_n in_o what_o shall_v it_o be_v salt_v happy_a be_v they_o that_o light_n upon_o a_o good_a superior_a but_o much_o more_o happy_a be_v they_o who_o by_o true_a light_n in_o humility_n and_o abnegation_n be_v instruct_v by_o thou_o who_o be_v the_o only_a true_a teacher_n of_o humility_n true_a obedience_n and_o perfect_a pryer_n o_o my_o lord_n when_o shall_v it_o 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earth_n as_o in_o heaven_n the_o earth_n will_v resemble_v heaven_n whereby_o the_o pain_n and_o grief_n of_o our_o banishment_n will_v be_v sweeten_v with_o â—_o comfort_n almost_o heavenly_a and_o thaâ—_n together_o with_o resign_v ourselves_o to_o thy_o holy_a will_n to_o be_v content_v to_o be_v deny_v for_o a_o time_n till_o thy_o will_n may_v thereby_o be_v whole_o accomplishedâ—_n and_o after_o that_o come_v to_o see_v thy_o glorious_a face_n and_o enjoy_v thou_o as_o thou_o anâ—_n in_o thy-self_n who_o be_v our_o only_a happiness_n the_o expectation_n whereof_o will_v makâ—_n this_o world_n tolerable_a to_o we_o and_o wâ—_n shall_v then_o seek_v thy_o glory_n and_o thâ—_n fulfil_v of_o thyâ—ustice_n â—ustice_z in_o all_o thing_n and_o not_o our_o own_o comfort_n anâ—_n honour_n very_o all_o thy_o disposition_n be_v so_o
do_v even_o say_v to_o my_o soul_n peace_n be_v humble_a and_o subject_a in_o all_o to_o thy_o god_n who_o thou_o be_v not_o worthy_a so_o much_o as_o to_o name_v with_o thy_o defile_a mouth_n indeed_o my_o lord_n who_o power_n and_o majesty_n prostrate_v i_o acknowledge_v and_o adoreâ—_n with_o all_o my_o hart_n and_o soul_n if_o i_o shall_v neither_o in_o this_o nor_o in_o the_o next_o world_n ☞_o receive_v any_o other_o reward_n but_o what_o already_o thou_o have_v bestow_v on_o i_o which_o i_o have_v i_o must_v needs_o contesse_v receive_v gratis_o of_o thy_o mercy_n without_o any_o desert_n of_o my_o own_o hereupon_o yet_o that_o which_o tâ—ou_fw-mi have_v so_o already_o do_v for_o i_o be_v sufficient_a to_o declare_v to_o heaven_n and_o earth_n the_o superaboundance_n of_o thy_o mercy_n and_o clemency_n to_o a_o sinful_a and_o contempâ—tible_a creature_n i_o will_v there_o for_o sing_v unto_o thou_o mercy_n and_o judgement_n all_o the_o day_n of_o my_o life_n wish_v always_o that_o thy_o will_n which_o be_v justice_n itself_a may_v be_v whole_o and_o perfect_o accomâ—plishâ—d_v in_o i_o thy_o sinful_a servant_n let_v i_o live_v aslong_a as_o it_o please_v thou_o or_o die_v in_o the_o very_a beginning_n of_o these_o my_o desire_n to_o love_n send_v sickness_n or_o health_n sudden_a or_o linger_a death_n poverty_n or_o abundance_n good_a fame_n or_o that_o i_o be_v by_o all_o the_o world_n despise_v and_o in_o fine_a in_o all_o do_v with_o i_o as_o it_o be_v most_o for_o thy_o honour_n for_o in_o this_o i_o plaâ—e_v all_o my_o comfort_n and_o happiness_n faithful_o to_o serve_v thou_o and_o to_o be_v little_a or_o great_a in_o thy_o eye_n as_o seem_v best_a to_o thou_o for_o i_o account_v it_o a_o sufficient_a reward_n for_o all_o that_o ever_o i_o shall_v be_v able_a to_o do_v or_o suffer_v that_o thou_o have_v admit_v i_o unworthy_a wretch_n into_o a_o place_n of_o live_v where_o i_o may_v know_v and_o even_o see_v with_o my_o eye_n how_o to_o serve_v and_o please_v thou_o this_o i_o say_v be_v more_o than_o can_v be_v deserve_v by_o i_o for_o to_o serve_v thou_o be_v a_o honour_n above_o all_o that_o can_v be_v imagine_v by_o i_o yet_o without_o any_o regard_n of_o recompense_n it_o be_v due_a to_o thou_o that_o i_o serve_v and_o love_v thou_o with_o all_o the_o force_n of_o my_o body_n and_o soul_n which_o grant_v i_o may_v now_o begin_v to_o do_v and_o persevere_v therein_o till_o my_o end_n that_o i_o may_v for_o thy_o own_o sake_n obtain_v the_o happiness_n eternal_o to_o praise_v thou_o o_o remove_v all_o impediment_n between_o my_o soul_n and_o thou_o let_v i_o die_v to_o all_o create_a thing_n that_o i_o may_v live_v alone_o to_o theeâ—_n o_o let_v all_o creature_n be_v to_o i_o as_o if_o they_o be_v not_o to_o the_o end_n i_o may_v more_o full_o attend_v to_o thou_o in_o the_o bottom_n of_o my_o soul_n where_o i_o will_v in_o silence_n harken_v to_o thou_o speak_v peace_n to_o my_o soul_n that_o i_o may_v be_v capable_a of_o thy_o voice_n more_o sweet_a than_o all_o thing_n whatsoever_o speak_v to_o my_o hart_n but_o speak_v so_o as_o i_o may_v hear_v thou_o teach_v i_o how_o to_o practice_v to_o thy_o honour_n those_o divine_a virtue_n which_o make_v soul_n so_o please_v to_o thou_o to_o wit_n charity_n humility_n obedience_n patience_n and_o discretion_n which_o judge_v between_o custom_n and_o true_a reason_n between_o opinion_n and_o thy_o true_a justice_n which_o manifest_v itself_o to_o those_o soul_n who_o seek_v only_o to_o love_n and_o praise_v thou_o this_o pious_a soul_n have_v write_v thus_o far_o go_v no_o far_o be_v surprise_v with_o a_o bodily_a indisposition_n upoâ—_n the_o 29._o or_o 30._o of_o july_n 1633._o which_o prove_v to_o be_v hâ—r_n last_o sickness_n that_o bring_v she_o to_o a_o happy_a death_n upon_o the_o 17._o of_o august_n follow_v the_o last_o of_o these_o confession_n save_o one_o she_o begin_v as_o there_o appear_v upon_o s._n mary_n magdalen_n day_n be_v the_o 22._o of_o july_n next_o bâ—fore_o her_o death_n here_o follow_v some_o other_o sentence_n and_o say_n of_o the_o same_o pious_a soul_n find_v in_o some_o other_o paper_n of_o she_o the_o interior_a or_o spiritual_a disposition_n os_fw-la man_n be_v of_o that_o great_a and_o infinite_a worth_n and_o moment_n that_o so_o it_o be_v well_o all_o other_o matter_n will_v also_o go_v well_o and_o be_v in_o good_a plight_n and_o the_o good_a state_n of_o the_o interior_a and_o thereby_o also_o of_o the_o exterior_a proceed_v from_o the_o harken_v to_o and_o follow_v of_o the_o divine_a interior_a cal_n or_o inspiration_n the_o which_o to_o a_o â—oul_n capable_a of_o a_o internal_a life_n be_v or_o aught_o to_o be_v as_o all_o in_o al._n and_o woe_n to_o such_o a_o soul_n who_o overcome_v by_o threat_n or_o perswaâ—ions_n from_o without_o or_o by_o temptation_n within_o she_o or_o other_o occasion_n whatsoever_o gâ—ueth_v over_o her_o prosecution_n of_o mental_a prayer_n by_o mean_n whereof_o only_o be_v she_o capable_a of_o discern_v and_o follow_v the_o divine_a will_n and_o cal._n and_o therefore_o o_o you_o soul_n that_o be_v capable_a of_o internal_a prayer_n do_v you_o according_o prosecute_v it_o and_o be_v grateful_a to_o god_n for_o the_o grace_n of_o it_o for_o it_o cause_v the_o great_a happiness_n that_o be_v to_o be_v get_v in_o this_o liâ—e_z and_o a_o answarable_a happiness_n in_o the_o future_a for_o by_o it_o in_o this_o life_n one_o pass_v through_o all_o thing_n how_o hard_o and_o painful_a soever_o they_o be_v by_o it_o we_o become_v familiar_a even_o with_o god_n him-self_n and_o to_o have_v our_o conversation_n in_o heaven_n by_o it_o all_o impediment_n will_v be_v remove_v between_o god_n and_o the_o soulâ—_n by_o it_o you_o shall_v receive_v light_a and_o grace_n for_o all_o that_o god_n will_v do_v by_o you_o by_o it_o we_o shall_v come_v to_o regard_n god_n in_o all_o thing_n and_o profitable_o neglect_v ourselves_o by_o it_o we_o shall_v know_v how_o to_o converse_v on_o earth_n without_o prejudice_n to_o our_o soul_n and_o in_o fine_a by_o it_o we_o shall_v praise_v god_n and_o become_v so_o unite_v to_o he_o that_o nothing_o shall_v be_v able_a to_o separate_v we_o for_o time_n or_o eternity_n from_o his_o sweet_a goodness_n and_o let_v he_o be_v all_o in_o all_o to_o we_o who_o only_o can_v satisfy_v our_o soul_n he_o be_v his_o own_o praise_n iâ—_n which_o and_o by_o wâ—ich_a we_o be_v infinite_o happy_a though_o of_o ourselves_o we_o aâ—e_v able_a to_o praise_v and_o love_v he_o but_o in_o a_o very_a poor_a manner_n who_o can_v say_v that_o desire_v nothing_o but_o to_o love_n and_o praise_v he_o that_o they_o be_v poor_a see_v he_o who_o be_v more_o they_o than_o they_o be_v their_o own_o be_v so_o rich_a and_o to_o who_o nothing_o be_v want_v that_o shall_v make_v he_o a_o infinite_a happiness_n in_o this_o let_v we_o joy_n in_o this_o jet_n we_o glory_n without_o intermission_n when_o we_o be_v not_o able_a to_o attend_v unto_o he_o and_o praise_v he_o as_o we_o will_v let_v we_o commend_v our_o hart_n and_o soul_n to_o the_o saint_n in_o heaven_n who_o without_o cease_v praise_n our_o lord_n let_v we_o do_v that_o by_o they_o which_o we_o be_v not_o able_a to_o do_v by_o ourselves_o yea_o let_v we_o desire_v he_o who_o be_v his_o own_o praise_n and_o only_o be_v able_a to_o do_v it_o as_o he_o deserve_v to_o have_v it_o do_v to_o supply_v what_o he_o desire_v we_o shall_v wish_v he_o lâ—t_v we_o sâ—ek_v no_o other_o comfort_n but_o to_o be_v able_a without_o all_o comfort_n to_o be_v true_a to_o he_o let_v we_o rest_v in_o he_o alone_o and_o and_o not_o in_o any_o thing_n that_o be_v or_o can_v be_v creaâ—ted_v let_v we_o not_o seâ—ke_v the_o gist_n but_o the_o giver_n o_o how_o little_a be_v all_o the_o love_n we_o can_v give_v he_o in_o comparison_n of_o that_o he_o deserve_v from_o we_o where_o therefore_o shall_v thâ—re_o be_v room_n for_o any_o create_a thing_n in_o out_o soul_n let_v we_o wish_v and_o desire_v and_o as_o far_o as_o it_o lie_v in_o we_o procure_v that_o all_o love_n be_v give_v to_o he_o let_v he_o have_v all_o glory_n all_o honour_n and_o all_o praise_n let_v we_o desire_v the_o favour_n of_o none_o but_o he_o alone_o to_o who_o free_a disposition_n let_v we_o stand_v for_o time_n and_o eternity_n as_o absolute_o by_o ouâ—_n will_v as_o if_o we_o never_o have_v any_o other_o freedom_n of_o wâ—l_n in_o us._n nothing_o we_o do_v or_o suffer_v let_v we_o esteâ—me_v great_a for_o our_o sin_n deserve_v much_o more_o let_v our_o whole_a care_n tend_v to_o the_o magnify_v of_o he_o let_v his_o honour_n bâ—_n we_o and_o let_v we_o seek_v nothing_o
and_o ever_o will_v be_v to_o thy_o honour_n from_o who_o proceed_v all_o good_a if_o he_o i_o say_v stand_v need_n of_o gather_v out_o of_o thy_o soly_n scripture_n and_o the_o write_n of_o holy_a saint_n somewhat_o that_o may_v elevate_v his_o mind_n to_o thou_o when_o he_o grow_v more_o cold_a by_o reason_n of_o human_a frailty_n as_o he_o profess_v before_o his_o manuel_n who_o word_n i_o will_v hereafter_o bring_v in_o as_o be_v most_o sweet_a to_o i_o whaâ—_n need_v then_o have_v my_o poor_a soul_n to_o gather_v together_o certain_a devout_a and_o amouâ—rous_a word_n who_o scarce_o in_o the_o read_n thereof_o can_v lift_v up_o my_o hart_n to_o thou_o but_o my_o hope_n be_v in_o thy_o metcy_n whiâ—h_o be_v above_o all_o thy_o work_n and_o out_o of_o whiâ—h_n thou_o have_v say_v by_o thy_o prophet_n 35._o man_n and_o beast_n thou_o will_v save_v to_o this_o mercy_n i_o fly_v in_o this_o mercy_n be_v all_o my_o comfort_n and_o consolation_n i_o cast_v myself_n into_o the_o arm_n of_o this_o thy_o mercy_n and_o pity_n i_o have_v nothing_o wherein_o i_o can_v trust_v some_o have_v suffer_v for_o thou_o in_o their_o body_n other_o in_o their_o mind_n other_o in_o both_o some_o for_o thou_o have_v take_v great_a pain_n and_o undergon_v great_a labour_n and_o austerity_n other_o by_o couradgious_o support_v disgrace_n and_o misery_n have_v become_v thereby_o most_o dear_a to_o thou_o other_o while_o they_o be_v afflict_v and_o persecute_v pray_v to_o thou_o for_o their_o enemy_n and_o thereby_o procure_v pardon_n for_o their_o own_o sin_n but_o alaâ—_n my_o god_n as_o for_o i_o when_o i_o cast_v back_o my_o eye_n upon_o my_o life_n past_a i_o can_v find_v nothing_o do_v or_o suffer_v by_o i_o wherein_o i_o can_v hope_v wherein_o i_o can_v trust_v all_o those_o thing_n which_o i_o behold_v other_o daily_o to_o practice_v be_v far_o fromme_v i_o have_v live_v in_o this_o house_n of_o who_o i_o may_v true_o say_v 23._o haec_fw-la est_fw-la generatio_fw-la 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which_o i_o take_v thereat_o that_o i_o will_v not_o refuse_v to_o suffer_v any_o kind_n of_o punishment_n for_o thâ—_n same_o o_o jesus_n whatsoever_o thy_o will_n shall_v be_v that_o i_o shall_v do_v i_o desire_v to_o perform_v it_o according_a to_o thy_o holy_a wil._n i_o have_v nothing_o to_o offer_v unto_o thou_o but_o a_o hart_n willing_a to_o do_v whatsoever_o thouâ—ouldst_a â—ouldst_z have_v i_o 2._o hâ—er_o i_o offer_v myself_n bind_v both_o hand_n and_o foot_n and_o i_o lie_v prostrate_a at_o thy_o foot_n crave_v pardon_n for_o my_o abominable_a sin_n and_o offence_n 3._o i_o fly_v not_o away_o i_o appeal_v not_o from_o thy_o sentence_n otherwise_o then_o from_o thy_o justice_n to_o thy_o mercy_n which_o we_o sinner_n do_v daily_a experience_n to_o be_v above_o all_o thy_o work_n 4._o i_o do_v not_o plead_v to_o be_v release_v of_o any_o punishment_n but_o rather_o that_o thou_o may_v judge_v i_o according_a to_o thy_o own_o bless_a will_n only_o let_v i_o not_o be_v 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therefore_o thou_o own_o merit_n see_v i_o have_v none_o of_o i_o own_o for_o those_o that_o shall_v any_o way_n revenge_v thy_o quarrel_n by_o afflict_v she_o who_o deserve_v nothing_o but_o hell_n for_o have_v so_o often_o offend_v thou_o after_o something_o which_o she_o have_v collect_v out_o of_o the_o follow_v of_o christ_n concern_v prayer_n she_o write_v as_o follow_v o_o my_o lord_n god_n how_o much_o do_v thy_o saint_n praise_n and_o commend_v the_o holy_a exercise_n of_o prayer_n o_o how_o happy_a be_v â—hose_v that_o have_v no_o other_o study_n or_o care_n then_o how_o to_o extol_v and_o praise_v thy_o divine_a majesty_n and_o in_o humility_n of_o hart_n to_o make_v their_o necessity_n know_v unto_o thou_o who_o be_v the_o father_n of_o mercy_n &_o dius_n totius_fw-la consolationis_fw-la qui_fw-la consolatur_fw-la nos_fw-la in_o omni_fw-la tribulatione_fw-la nostra_fw-la and_o the_o god_n of_o all_o consolation_n who_o comfort_v we_o in_o all_o our_o tribulation_n to_o 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