and my poor soul to be reconciled and oh my soul what if these be so already or what if one had told thee of these things some five years agone certainly they would then have been too great for thy belief but what shall they now be so small as not to be worth thy praise oh disingenious soul Oh Lord pardon my unthankfulness oh that all the Angels in Heaven should rejoyce and bless God for what he hath done for thee even for thee for my poor soul And what canst not thou find in heart to endeavour to set forth his praises as much as thou art able that so it may be known that at least thou desirest to give all the glory to God and not to dare to take any to thy self oh my soul what sayest thou What say I oh I say again not unto me not unto me but unto the great and glorious Jehovah be all the glory given And because I hope thy desires are greater than thy expressions therefore fail not my soul to shew forth thy love and praises by giving up thy self wholly to serve and love fear and admire that God who hath done such great and wonderful things for thy soul that passeth thy understanding My Beloved is mine and I am his oh how art thou sure of that What is the peace concluded oh happy Conclusion oh blessed Conjunction shall the Stars dwell with the dust or the wide distant Poles be brought to mutual embraces and co-habitation but oh my soul here the distance is infinitely greater And now Rejoyce O Angels shout O Seraphims and all the friends of the Bridegroom prepare an Epithalamium be ready with the Marriage Song loe here is the wonder of wonders For Jehovah hath or is about to betroth himself for ever to his poor Captive my poor soul And is he so indeed as I hope he is then he owns the Marriage before all the World and is become one with me and I with him And now O my Lord and my God cauâ—â— thy face to shine on the soul of thy â—â—â—vant and shew him more and more 〈◊〉 vileness that he may lye very low even in the Dust and be humbled at thy feet and let the work which thou hast begun in the heart of thy poor Servant be established for ever and do more for me than I can require that thy name may be Magnified for ever and that all that hear of this may say The Lord of Hosts is the God of Israel Amen Hallelujah FINIS These Books with several others are Printed for and to be sold by Dorman Newman at the Chirurgions Arms in Little-Brittain near the Hospital-Gate Folio A Relation in form of a Journal of the Voyage and Residence of Charles the Second King of Great Brittain c. in Holland By Sir William Lower Knight Memoires of the Lives Actions Sufferings and Deaths of those noble Reverend Personages that suffered by Death Sequestration Decimation or otherwise for the Protestant Religion and the Great Principle thereof By David Lloyd A. 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Christ the Bread of Life on John 6.35 Christs two Disciples doers of Gods will on John 7.17 Fear of losing Salvation and the way to obtain it on Heb. 4.1 The Persevering Saint shall be crowned Saint on Rev. 3.11 Walking in Christ a sign of our right receiving of Christ on Col. 2.6 Light Discovered and Man Recovered on 1 Tim. 1.10 Christs Temptation the Saints Supportation on Heb. 2. and the last Verse Christs provision for mans Direction on Isa 40.11 Heaven upon Earth or the Best Friend in the Worst Times By James Janeway Unhappy Prosperity expressed in the History of Aâ—lius Sejanus and Philippa the Catamian The Practice of Quietness directing a Christian how to live quietly in this troublesome World The CHURCH MILITANT Historically continued from the Year 33. to the Year 1640. By Sir William Vaughan Knight A most Comfortable and Christian DIALOGUE between the Lord and the Soul By William Cooper Lord Bishop of Galloway The Vertue Vigour and Efficacy of the Promises Displayed in their Strength and Glory Duly methodised and fitly applyed to every Christians particular Case and Condition In a Soliloquy wholly Scriptural between the Soul and the Comforter With a Divine Rapture of the Soul now resting satisfied by the Spirit of the Holy Promise By Thâ— Henderson Hollingworths Justification In Duodecimo FINIS
witness to a lye Will goodness it self put a cheat upon poor Creatures and that in a matter of such vast consequence as Eternity Can we conceive that he which commands us not to deceive our Neighbour should deceive us Shall any that calls himself a Christian entertain such blasphemous apprehensions of the blessed Jehovah Well then if it be so that Children of God love solid and unexpressible joys many times even on this side Glory Doth not this then prove that hereatter they shall be happy and that beyond the apprehensions of Men and Tongue of Angels For the Saint in his greatest dimensions fullest enjoyments and tallest stature on this side the Grace is but a Childe a Dwarf a Worm in comparison of what he will be the next moment after his dissolution For the proof of this you may read over these and other Scriptures Psal 16.11 Psal 42.5 Luk. 16.22 2 Cor. 4.7 Revel 13.14 3. May I not bring in the wicked themselves as witnesses of the Saints happiness and their own misery the Saints wisdom and their folly what else is the meaning of Balaam's wish Why should he be so desirous to dye the death of the Saint and to have his latter end like his if he were not thorowly convinced of this that holiness were no madness piety no fancy and religion no delusion What is it that makes those in Mat. 26.8 to cry out so importunately Give us of your Oyl for our Lamps are gone out I am perswaded that all the Reprobates in Hell will one Day justifie the Children of God for their seriousness and wish a thousand times that they had had their scornes losses torments It is no unusual thing for them which have to do with dying Persons to hear them crying out with anguish when their time is spent and their sands are run out O you are happy O that I were but in the condition of the poorest and miserablest Saint upon Earth O that I had but prayed with fervency heard with seriousness and minded my Soul in good earnest Happy are they that have not all their work to do in a dying Hour O happy are they that have some Cordial to comfort them in a time of such distress O a Christ a Christ ten thousand Worlds now for that Christ which I despised These are things we are acquainted with Well then our Enemies themselves being Judges an Israelite indeed is a Person of true worth and without controversie his estate is and shall be comfortable blessed and glorious 4. How great are the absurdities that else would follow Would not the Devil boast that he hath done more for his followers than Christ hath done for his Would it not follow that Saints are the most miserable fools in the World then it would be to no purpose to deny ones self to fight with Beasts at Ephesus to bear the contradiction of sinners then Christ dyed for nothing or hath done his work by the halves then there is no credit to be given to the Bible God is worse than his word and the Scripture promises are false then Paul's confidence was madness and his boasting made void then all preaching is a cheat and the Ministers of Christ are Impostorâ— and the wicked are in the right then David would have better reason to say he hath cleansed his hands in vain and that his frequent devotions were to no purpose and his Songs at Mid-night but the dotages of an extravagant fansie and hours which were spent in Prayer and Meditation were purely lost What saist thou to this O Christian Would not this be sad news indeed if all thy hope should come to this But be of good cheer this is the doctrine which the Devil and his Ministers do preach as long as God is true you shall not be deceived as long as he is happy you shall not be miserable and till Hell hath got above Heaven you are well enough Go on therefore resolutely and let nothing daunt thee 't is but yet a little while and you shall see all this and more than this a thousand times made good to thee Fear not 't is God who hath spoken it and he commanded his Servant John to write and Jeave it upon Record That they which dye in the Lord are blessed and they shall rest from their labours and their works do follow them 3. The next thing which I promised to speak to was to shew wherein the blessedness of departed Saints doth consist But what work am I now about Who is sufficient for these things What Tongue can utter the least part of that Glory What Heart imagine its transcendent excellency And what Ears can bear it should such a one as Moses Enoch or Elias come sparkling in his Robes in the habit of a glorified Saint and should he but tell you what a sight he hath seen what melody he hears what imployment he is ingaged in what possessions he enjoys where would he endure it I am perswaded if in this mortal state God should let in the Soul the hundreth thousandth part of that Glory which Saints enjoy in Heaven it would in a moment sink a Man and make such Bodies as ours now are wither to dust I have seen a great many fine things in my time I have heard of more but I can easily imagine more than ever all the Princes of the Earth in their greatest splendour enjoyed and yet here I am at a loss and no wonder For it is beyond the reach of Saints and Angels in Heaven fully to conceive what their own happiness is and I believe it is no small part of their joy that they serve a Master who loveth to out-doe not only deserts and expectations but even the imaginations of his Creatures How then can such a poor Worm as I am mannage such a work as this is because I can't say all must I say nothing and pass this over with silence and admiration because this is a great deep which our Plummet can't fathom an Ocean that hath no shoar shall we therefore never sail in it God forbid O may it be my work in time and to Eternity to praise that infinite boundless excellency that is in my God Though these are matters which one would think should command attention and affection both yet if we consult the lives of all yea the highest experiences of the best notwithstanding these things are so frequently inculcated and so passionately recommended to our consideration yet where is the Man or Woman to be found that lies under the lively impressions of these things And therefore I shall think it not impertinent if I dwell upon that an Hour which will be the subject of your Meditation and Foundation of your comfort if ever you understand what Christianity in the life of it means This only by the by a little to quicken your attention I come now to my business to shew you wherein the Saints happiness after death consists 1. It consists in a
defilements and taken out her stains and have decked her with his Jewels and put on her Wedding Garment That Day is coming O my soul when will the shaddows flee away when will Days and Nights be all at an end when will time be spent when shall the Curtain be drawn O that that 's the place thou shalt then love that precious Jesus with a Seraphick and Angel-like love thou wilt then as much delight and rejoyce in him as Abraham David and Paul did Thy drowsie Soul shall be as nimble and active in the service of thy great Maker as Enoch and Elias thou shalt praise him Day and Night and be no more weary than the Angels themselves thou shalt perfectly understand the vvill of God and readily obey it thou shalt be holy as God is holy And what vvould you now give for such a frame hovv glad vvould you be to feel a connaturality to divine imployments hovv happy vvould you think your selves if your heart vvere alvvayes as God vvould have it Is it not for this that you fast and pray Is it not for this that you hear read and meditate Is not this the end of Sacraments Well be of good cheer in Mount Zion there shall be deliverance and holiness Obed. 17. And is all this nothing seemeth it still a small priviledge to be a Child of God and like our Father vvho that understands this vvould not bid Death vvelcome and say novv Grave do thy vvorst Ask Paul and he vvill tell you that upon this account he groans enquire of David and he vvill let you understand that he never expects satisfaction till he avvake vvith God's likeness Psal 17. 3. Another thing vvherein the blessedness of a Christian at Death lyes is this the sight of Christ What can be more desired by a Child of God than to behold and enjoy him by vvhom all the mercies we have and all that we expect slow in to us Eph. 1.11 That good old Saint Luk. 2.30 thought it a Heaven upon Earth to see him though his Majesty was vailed and the brightness of his glory wrapped up and covered by his humanity he doth sing a Requiem to his Soul and say Now let thy Servant depart in peace for mine Eyes have seen thy Salvation How were Peter James and John affected at his transfiguration Mat. 17 2. What an admirable frame doth the Spouse seem to be in when she saw only the shadow and back-parts of this beloved one Cant. 5.16 She can't tell when to have done commending of him But all this is but a small thing compared to the sight which they shall see when their graces shall be compleat and their Soul like him and then shall they behold the King in his beauty no longer the contempt and scorn of the World no longer in poverty and want no longer crucified and rejected but Jesus the express Image of his Father and the brightness of his glory accompanyed with Millions of Angels all at his command and yet for all this casting a gracious Eye upon them then shall the Soul behold him face to face who did and suffered such wonderful things for it 't was he that came out of his Fathers bosome 't was he that stept out of his Throne and put off his Robes that came leaping over the Mountains and skipping over the Hills running thorow a thousand difficulties that he might pluck thee out of thy misery and deliver thee out of the paw of the Lyon and the Bear that he might redeem thee from the power of Sin Death and Hell How will the Heavens eccho with Songs of joy when the Bride the Lamb's Wife shall come to dwell with her Husband for ever Isay 33.17 Christ is the desire of Nations the joy of Angels the delight of the Father and he in whom he is well pleased What solace then must that Soul be filled with that hath the possession of him to all Eternity Is not his love better than wine and a look of his countenance to be preferred before Corn and Oyl Is not his kindness to be valued above life it self What meanest thou then O my Soul that thou dost so dread his coming Why art thou so loath to be with him Why art thou afraid of the enjoyment of him Will thy Redeemer make thee a slave hath Heaven changed his Nature and made him less desirable Will thy Saviour make thee miserable Awake then O ye Saints and stand a tip-toe wait watch and long till thou see him who alone can fill thy Soul fight strive and run till you enjoy One smile of his one look of his love is worth the pleasures of ten Worlds where is thy heart where are thy desires what 's become of thy love if Christ doth not affect draw and fire thee what will but when thou shalt see Christ indeed his very looks will so warm thy Soul that thou shalt in a moment feel a divine flame which shall never be extinguished as long as Christ the object of thy love shall live the sight of Christ will put new life into thy Soul and make thy love and joy fresh for ever this is he O my Soul that was wounded that thou mightest be healed this is he who was Crowned vvith Thorns that thou mightest be Crovvned vvith Glory this this is he that dyed that thou mightest live Is not all the Glory of Heaven vvrapped up in him Are not the Treasures of divine kindness which vvere sometimes hid in him novv opened Tell me now O my soul is there any in tvvo Worlds comparable to him Was not that he that sheltered thee from the storms of God's vvrath Was not that precious Body the Shield vvhich blunted the Svvord of Justice and kept the Arrovves of the Almighty from doing dreadful execution upon thee an Enemy Traytor and Rebel Was it not he that laid dovvn the price that bought thy pardon that purchased this Inheritance vvas it not he that fed thee vvith his Body that broached his heart blood to quench the thirst of thy Soul the lusts of thy heart and the flames of God's indignation Look upon him is he not made up of love I see now it is not for nothing that the Virgins did love him it was not vvithout good reason that the Spouse vvas sick it vvas not vvithout very good cause that the Saints did so long to be vvith him to be with him did I say vvho that hears of him can choose but vvish to see him vvho that sees him can live without him who that lives vvith him can leave him What mean the World Sure they are dead blind or mad but vvhere am I now This is a subject so svveet that I can't tell hovv to make an end O that I might see knovv and enjoy look dear Jesus upon me and let me go and tell the World thy beauties let me every day have a little sight of thee that I may commend thee a thousand times more feelingly and that I may
Touchstone and not to be satisfied till he findes that he hath got more than ever any Hypocrite yet had or can have The best of God's Children are most suspicious of themselves and afraid of their own deceitful hearts Do but see how David carrieth it in Psal 139. What is his great request that he must have granted or he can't be satisfied Is it not that God would deliver him from mistakes in matters of everlasting consequence so Psal 119.80 Pardon this tediousness upon these things if most of the Professors of the World did not split upon these Rocks I should pass these things over with silence Fourthly All that dye quietly are not happy after Death It 's no unusual thing for the wicked to carry their false peace with them to the Grave I have heard indeed many poor People boasting of their deceased Friends and pleasing themselves to think how happy they were Because they dyed like Lambs to use their own expression Alas alas how many thousands are there that dye like Lambs that are but Swine and have the Devil 's Brand upon their Foreheads It 's dangerous arguing from peoples carriage upon a Death-bed what their state is in another World such is the hardness of Mens hearts so dreadful the searedness of their Consciences and so great the subtilty of Satan that many are carried very quietly to Hell and fear nothing till they feel and are not brought to their senses till unspeakable horror and anguish doth it And on the other side how many of the precious Sons of Zion have seat in a Cloud how many of the dear Children of God may go out of the World thorow a painful Death are not their intellectuals sometimes impaired their reason Clouded and their Bodyes upon the Rack and yet in a moment they feel themselves swallowed up of that Glory and the doleful antecedents of their happiness did but make their rest more sweet and welcome and put an accent upon their bliss The truth of it is it hath not a little puzled some as well as David to construe God's dispensations to see the wicked dye quietly Psal 73.4 and the godly to have a strange Death but God will shortly resolve this Riddle and I think it were no very difficult thing for a serious understanding Man to give himself considerable satisfaction in this business May not the wicked dye quietly because his Conscience is quite seared and he may perswade himself that he hath made an agreement with Death and Hell may he not hope that there is no such place as Hell or if there is that it is tolerable may he not make himself believe that the Word of God is not true and invisibles are all but fansies or that God is so merciful as that he will not damn him and many such things the Devil helps his Servants with that so his service may not be disparaged and that he may have the better advantage to tempt others There is much also in the nature of the Disease and it may be God may try his own Children with acute pains and let Sathan buffer them to manifest the excellency of his Power and their Grace to try others of his Children whether for all this they will serve him and some Persons of admirable attainments and great experiences while in health may have some considerable Tryals upon a Death-bed that poor Christians which were ready to fear because they had not their enjoyments that therefore they had nothing at all might see that great Saints have their Tryals as well as they but I shall be far briefer in other things I come now to shew you who they are that are blessed at their Death and to give them a brief Description of those which dye in the Lord. First They are such who are made thorowly to understand that they were sometimes quite dead in sins and trespasses that they were Aliens from the Common-wealth of Israel and strangers to the Covenant of Grace Secondly They are Persons which are convinced of that misery of such a state and made to know that if they dye in their sins they must be buried in Flames Thirdly Vpon this they are out of love with their most beloved sins and count that which was their life joy and pleasure to be a very Death misery and Hell whereupon they set themselves in good earnest against sin as the greatest evil in the World they believe now That if they live after the Flesh they shall dye but if through the Spirit they mortifie the deeds of the Flesh they shall live Upon this account they use all the means that they can to get their corruptions weakned an inward principle Divine Life Now he begins to act them which is as contrary to Sin as Heaven to Hell a Spirit of ingenuity restrains them How shall they do this and sin against God They now see sin in its colours as it is contrary to the best good God they can see its killing and damning Nature in the Agonies and Sufferings of Christ and they feel the doleful effects of sin in their Soul and body both and upon this account they can say what have I to do with Vanity any more Shall I still hug this Serpent shall I still Sail with this Jonah in my Vessel and shall I after all this keep this Dalilah in my Bosom No but O that I could hate it Ten Thousand times more than I do There is an enmity raised in the Soul against sin which can't be satisfied till it see the Death of Sin now this is a Person that is fit for Death and Death it will as you shall hear afterwards do him a World of kindness in shewing him the Heads of all his Enemies 4. An other quality of this Person which is like to make such a blessed end is this he is one that is dead to the World Faith hath discovered a better Country to him it hath spyed that new Jerusalem and those blessed Regions and now the Soul thinks the World scarce worthy of a serious thought or look he takes himself to be a kind of Prisoner here and the whole World but a Dungeon if compared with that state of liberty and glory he now joyns with David and says Whom have I in Heaven but thee and there is none upon Earth that I can desire beside thee This is the Man that is like to be a gainer by Death he who contemns Earth and makes Heaven his choice shall never finde himself a loser 5. Another property of the Man which shall be blessed at Death is this he is one that takes Christ for life and happiness Time was indeed he was of an other mind sin was his delight and none so despicable in his Eye as Christ but God in free and rich grace hath taken away the Scales from his Eyes and healed him of his miserable blindness and let him see such a loveliness in the Lord Christ as that now he is able to say
full everlasting freedom from evil or any imperfection 2. It consists in a compleat perfect and eternal enjoyment of all the good that our natures are capable of First It consists in a full and everlasting freedom from evil or any imperfection And here I shall insist upon some of those evils and imperfections which a Child of God shall be freed from as soon as ever Death hath let the Soul out of the Body First The Saint is free from all sin The Bolts shall be knockt off the Prison walls broke down and the poor Captive set at liberty O blessed Jubilee How glad would Paul have been if when he cryed out in such an agony O wretched Man who shall deliver me if he had heard a voice from Heaven saying thy groans have pierced the Clouds thy Prayer hath reached the Heavens thy Petitions shall be granted immediately would not this have been grateful news When before a few days be at an end this shall be the condition of every one of God's People Now indeed if you lissen to their Closets you should hear how dolefully they bemoan their condition if you follow them into their Families what is it that they would most desire of God is it not freedom from sin what complaints do they make of themselves that there should be so great an unsutableness in them to God that their hearts are unsensible of the worth of divine things that they should have so little love to the Lord Christ and be so little taken with the kindness of the Redeemer How weak and faint how cold and dull in duty how ready to betray their Lord how cowardly in the cause of God But death will for ever silence these complaints death tares off Joshua's rags and presents him before the Lord without spot or wrinckle or any such thing sin indeed accompanyeth the ungodly into another World he rests from his pleasures and his wicked works follow him but it is far otherwise with the godly sin was his burden and Death shall unload â—im sin shall be confined to Hell Heaven enterâ—ains no such deformity This Tyrant shall no more inslave any of Christ's subjects The house of Saul and the house of David shall no longer â—ontend that bloody conflict between the flesh and spirit shall then be determined by a final Victory then the Soul will say farewell my hard heart farewell unbelief farewell ingratitude then thou shalt never entertain an unkind thought of God more the lame and the blinde and the Jâ—busites shall be smitten when King David comes to make his Palace in Zion thy sins must dye when the Lord cometh to take the full possession of this Fort Royal confession of sin shall shortly be needless no darkness shall cloud the understanding no perversness the will no disorderliness in the affections no treachery in the memory the Eyes shall be better employed than in beholding of vanity the Eares shall not be locked against truth the Hands far from violence the Tongue from deceit and the Feet from walking in ways of wickedness And seems this a light matter to you who have gone bowed all your dayes under the pressure of sin is it nothing to you to have all your iniquities done away as a Cloud and your transgressions as a thick Cloud Thus see what a kindness that formidable enemy doth to all the subjects of Christ's Kingdom what prayers teares and groans did gradually it doth at one blow Thus the oppressed is delivered the mourner made to rejoyce and the great make-bate between God and the Soul for ever discarded and turned out of Doors Eph. 5.27 Es 44.22 2. When a Christian ayâ—th he shall be freed from all the temptations of Sathan Death sets the Soul out of the Devils reach this Angel hath nothing to do in Heaven this Serpent shall not come into the higher Paradise nor Sathan creep into this Eden Now indeed he goes up and down like a roaring Lyon seeking whom he may devour novv he sets his Ginnes every vvhere to catch the unvvary Christian he useth his stratagems to surprize them but then this adversary shall be trod under Foot his Fiery Darts shall be quenched and his designes broken O happy Day vvhen will it come vvhen the Devil shall be as unlikely to tempt as our hearts to close vvhen vve are got once safe to rest the Devil shall as easily shake God's Throne as our happiness Death turns the Key Bolts and Bars this Enemy out then O then thou shalt see this Pharaoh cast dead on the shore and for ever disabled from making any resistance against thee or in the least disturbing thy peace Rev. 20.10 3. The blessedness of the People of God consisteth in their being freed from the frownes and flatteries of the World In life time thou art fain to fight thy way to peace to dispute every step thou goest and canst never have a quiet Hour vvhile thou hast such ill Neighbours There is an old quarrel between the Seed of the Woman and the Serpent and the enmity is radicated and the â—end can be cooled with nothing but Death Christian expect not as long as any of that Cainisâ— Generation breath that thou shouldest be long â—â—cure In the World you shall have tribulation â—ut be of good cheer Christ hath overcome the World Joh. 16.33 What though they speak â—â—eat words Prison Halters Faggot Thou shalt â—e long ride in state to glory and then let them 〈◊〉 their worst When thou art in Heaven they â—ay curse and increase their own misery but â—â—ey shall not in the least diminish thy tranquillity â—â—d as for their flatteries they shall signifie nothing thing the beauty of this inseriour World will be darkned by the brightness of that Light which Death leads thee into its excellencies will be quite eclipsed its allurements will lose their power Who can choose but contemn the Earth that knows what Heaven meaneth O how low an esteem have the most experienced Men here oâ— the World Honours and riches are accounted very inconsiderable things to them which understand the difference between finite and infinite the disproportion between time and Eternity Death bloweth the dust out of our eyes it pluckâ— off the Vail and shews one quickly the glory oâ— both Worlds and so it is not lest long to determine which is to be preferred dross or silver brass or gold a dunghil or a Palace there wiâ—â— be no thought of returning to Egypt or Gosheâ— either in them which know the fruitfulness of thâ— spiritual Canaan the accommodations of the neâ— Jerusalem the pleasure of the holy Court 4. At Death he shall rest from all his pains there is no fear of sickness sorrowes and achâ—â—â— The Stone Gout and Plague are Distempers thâ—â— none labour with there that Aire is clear anâ— sin which infecteth other places never got footing there they that scarce know what a Dayâ—â— ease now means shall then forget their sorrow their constitutions shall be mended their
crazâ— Bodies that needed to be propped up by Aâ—â— have now no need of such helps the lame shaâ—â— leap the blinde see the weak shall be strong thâ— crooked strait they which were in deaths oft shaâ—â— be never in danger O happy alteration thâ— Grave will refine and alter our Bodies and theâ— shall there bury all imperfections and this mortâ— shall put on immortality and this corruptible incorruption There the weary shall be at rest Esa 61.3 33.24 60.18 Job 3.17 5. The blessedness of the deceased Saints consisteâ—h in their perfect freedome from all wants and fear of want Here they have their daily want and in the sweat of their brows they must eat their Bread The World in its best estate is made up of vanities and troubles How much need have we of the help of our fellow-creatures we can't live without the use of their bodies and lives we want their service to till our Grounds and to carry our weak Bodyes that can sometimes scarce go under their own burden What shift could we make if the influences of the Sun Moon and Stars were suspended what lamentable complaint should we make if God should seal up the Fountains of Water how soon should we faint if he should make the Heavens as Iron and the Earth as brass What Element can we want what Creature could we well spare But the time is coming that Day will shortly begin whose brightness will make the Sun dark and the Moon to disappear and all the Stars to leave their Spheres as useless O unbelief how miserably dost thou rob us of the comforts which the very fore-thoughts of that hour might bring in Dwell O my trembling Soul upon the Meditation of these things Is there no truth nor weight in â—hose Scriptures Es 60.19 Es 21.29 Give in thy Answer Why then art thou cast down O my soul and why art thou disquieted within me Wait upon the Lord and be of good courage wait I say upon the Lord. 6. This happy Man shall be quite freed of whatsoever may argue an imperfect state Some of those very graces that are now so useful and necessary when their work is done shall be laid aside as useless I mean Faith Hope Patience desire all which speak something of imperfection shall then be swallowed up of love They now help to lead the Soul out of Egypt conduct thorow the red Sea and Wilderness and send Spices into Canaan and bring good tidings out of that Land they see Sihon Og and Amaleck discomfitted and their Power broken they go to the Borders of the promised Land nay they get up to Pisga and upon Mount Nebo there they bid the Soul farewell Faith like a skilful Pilot keeps close to the Ship till it see it out of danger Faith like loyal Barzillai brings in abundant provisions for the Soul in all its streights and comes with it to the banks of Jordan to the brink oâ— eternity but there there it takes its final leave and sends over young Chimham to wait upon the King at Jerusalem it sends love over into Heaven tâ— dwell there with the Lord for ever O blessed state when faith shall be swallowed up of sight Here we live by faith and not by sense or sight in glory we shall live by sense and sight and not by faith The shaddow shall vanish when the substance is come hope patience desire and fear shall all pass away and be swallowed up with an eternal fruition possession and security Happy are the People that are in such a case their clouds are quite blown over they need neither Wind or Sails now they are safe landed What think you now of a Child of God is it worth the while to be religious is holiness a folly now and yet this is not all come a little further and I will shew you greater things still All this is buâ— the privative part of their happiness I come now to touch a little upon the positive part but what an Ocean am I now lanching into who can tell all the priviledges of a Citizen of Zion what Pen can describe the honour and dignities of the Sons of God But that I may heighten your spirits and a little antedate your comforts I shall in the next place shew something of the positive part 2. The blessedness of those which dye in the Lord consists positively First in this that they shall enter into the Society of the Angels they shall leave any longer conversing with mortals and instead of weeping friends see themselves compassed with singing Angels How do you think that Lazarus was affected who instead of Beggars Crippels and Dogs had a Guard of Angels waiting upon him What an extasy of joy was he surprized vvith Luk. 16.22 This honour have all the Saints We think the sight of a King the look of a Prince the company of a Lord a great matter what are they it compared with the least of the Captains of the Lord's Host How vast is the difference between Flesh and Spirit and yet this favour the Lord is pleased to confer upon the least of his Children And how glad are the Angels themselves of the society of the poorest Saint they are glad even here to be doing offices of love for them many a danger they delivered them from many a mercy they conveyed from their Father to them but these earthly Bodyes were scarce capable of communications with such noble and spiritual Creatures but at Death they shall know their old friends and fellow-servants and bless God with them and for them for ever Heb. 12.22 And these Chariots and Horsemen of Israel shall carry up Joseph to his Fathers House and there the Sons of God shall shout for joy Time was the sight of an Angel would make a Saint tremble but then it shall make them to Triumph and what stories will they tell them of the providences of God toward them and joyn with them in the high praises of his goodness and love But all this is but little to what follows 2. At Death the souls of believers are made perfect in holiness How will they in a moment see themselves as white as Snow how glorious shall the Kings Daughter be when her beauty is perfect how lovelily will she look when she 's clad with innocent purity how excellent when her royal Husband the Lord Christ shall be infinitely taken with her Will he not then say thou art all fair my love there is no spot in thee Come with me from Lebanon my Spouse with me from Lebanon from the top of Amana from the top of Shenir and Hermon from the Lyons Dens from the Mountains of Leopards Thou hast ravished my heart my Sister my Spouse thou with one Chain of thy Neck How fair is thy love my Sister my Spouse c. Cant. 4.7 8 9 10. If the Lord see so much beauty here in his Church what will he do hereafter when he shall have wash'd away all her
to the Bar. Depart from me ye cursed into everlasting Fire prepared for the Devil and his Angels And now my beloved the Cloud is quite gone come now into my Armes I will never frown more come away my love my Dove my undefiled and rejoyce in my love you and I will never part more what I have is yours I am well pleased in my choice my Father loves you as I do you shall be where I am and have the same pleasures that I have and live as I do to Eternity Amen hallelujah even so come Lord Jesus come quickly Mat. 26.81 c. John 17.24 Rev. 21.9 c. 1 Cor. 15.33 54. Daniel 12.2 3. Mal. 8.16 17 Mal. 4.1 1 Thes 4.14 15 16 17 18. And is not this a sufficient reward for those poor services which the believer doth perform while he lives upon the Earth Is there nothing in all this Seemeth it to you a small matter to be free from sin Is it no favour to be secured from Saâ—han Is not that a desirable place vvherein there is so much glory that the World in its best dress looks like a deform'd ugly thing â—o it Who would not be glad to have all Diseases cured pains removed and wants supplied Will not that be a Day of comfort indeed when Faith shall be ended in sight hope in enjoyment desire in a delightful and Eternal fruition vvhen patience shall have done all its work when an everlasting Jubilee shall put a period to all sorrows Is it no honour to be conveyed into Heaven by a Guard of Angels Do you count it an inconsiderable favour to see King Jesus in his Throne Have you no desire to be with all your good friends and to know all the Favourites of Heaven Would you not reckon it a great mercy to have all your Prayers answered to the full Will there be no pleasure in the beatifical Vision Would not all this be the more considerable if it might last alwayes Is it no satisfaction to you to know that your Body shall be raised like Christ's Body and that your Body and Soul shall be publickly acquitted owned and blessed before the great Court and after this live in the same glory that Christ lives in If all this be worth the having then the departed Saint is no loser and we may well say Blessed are the Dead which dye in the Lord. Thus I have shewed who are they which dye in the Lord and proved that such are blessed and shewed wherein their blessedness doth consist I now come to make some Improvement of this Doctrine USE I First by way of Information that holiness is no such silly thing as the World thinks it to be Sure if there be any thing in rest happiness and glory then the Saint scarce deserved the imputation of Fanaticisme They which have received their Wages vvill say that the service of God is not unprofitable and they finde themselves to be no loosers though credit estate and blood were spent in the cause of Christ Should you ask them who thorow may Tribulations have entred into the Kingdom of Heaven Whether they repent of their diligence for Heaven whether God hath not paid them double for their self-denyal losses and kindnesses VVould they not cry out truly God is good to Israel how great is that Treasure that is laid up for them that fear him Never let any grutch to serve God cheerfully for verily he is a rewarder of them which diligently seek him USE II If the Saint be so happy in another World then let us all examine whether we are in the number of those Persons for whom such things are prepared Consider sirs that this is not like to be every Mans portion all Men and Women are not Kings and Queens nor all the Sons of Adam Heirs of such an Inheritance few run so as to obtain few fight so as to conquer and get the Field few act as if this blessedness were worth the minding and let me tell you Heaven is not got with a vvet Finger most do their work by the halves and though the Spirit move them the Word providence call them the Ministers beseech them yet all will not do they will not be perswaded but a few lazy wishes will do as well as all the seriousness in the World and thus they will put things to the venture and count a hazard in the matters of their Souls and Eternity but a trivial thing VVe can't for our lives get Men to be in good earnest but they will bless themselves though God curse them and take it for granted that all is well when God knows they are in as sad a condition as can well be imagined on this side of Damnation We tell them that most mistake and that mistake here is the most deplorable and yet still Men are asleep and what if this should be thy condition O Sinner that comest hither for fashion sake and sits there very trim and cheary VVhat sayst thou Man art provided for Eternity What title hast thou to glory Dost thou knovv what it means to be convinced of sin Was it ever made loathsome to thee And canst thou say thou hatest it with a perfect hatred and that not only as contrary to thee and as it brings Hell Misery and Damnation with it but as it is contrary to God abusing his goodness hating his purity dethroning his Majesty hath sin ever looked you in the face besmeered with the blood of Christ Were you ever made to understand your absolute need of Christ Did you ever make a compleat resignation of your self to him and hath it been your business to act for him and have you felt any strength coming from him enabling of you to bring forth fruit meet for repentance and to dye unto sin and to live unto righteousness and yet after all this have you looked upon your self as an unprofitable servant what experience have you in these things put this question home to thy conscience say am I acquainted with such things or no are these things Riddles to me or do I know what they mean well now have you done as I bid you and what saith conscience is it altogether silent or doth it put you off till another time why then speak again and again and ask it whether this be not a serious question and a business of some importance but because People for the most part trifle in this great business I shall speak something by way of Lamentation and conviction USE III It is so that they are blessed that dye in the Lord then what a case are they in which live and dye out of Christ if none but the friends and Children of God be thus happy what will become of them which are aliens from the Common wealth of Israel that live without God in the World Where shall the wicked and ungodly appear O what a lamentable condition are most of the World in if we could see all the dead Souls in
were like to make a seperation between Christ and thee I should then be far from blaming these thy fears but I should rather wonder that they are not a thousand times greater But me-thinks a Soul that hath had many a sweet kiss from Christ that understands what he is worth and that hath some good reason to say my beloved is mine and I am his me-thinks I say such a one should not desire that the Day of Marriage should be protracted Sure were this but cleared it were nothing to dye but life it self would be as considerable an exercise of patience as any thing in the World let me therefore again expostulate the case with thee and do what I can to shake off those unwarrantable fears What is it that you are so much afraid of Is it of pains why when you are dead you will feel none they be the living which feel pains and I believe there are few living but at one time or other feel as much pain as some do in their death and if their pains be acute they are like to be short and if they be not acute they may be the more easily born Are you loath to leave your friends I hope God's Saints and Angels are other guess friends than any you have here You have a fine House and sweet conveniences alas 't is but a Hog-sty or a Dunghil if compared with Heaven But how shall I do for my Children what will become of them when I am dead and gone Why do you make nothing of God's promise Is not he a Father to the Fatherless And is it not his command that we should leave our Fatherless Children with him Can't God take as good care of them as you O but the Grave is a doleful place and who can think with any comfort of being nail'd up in a Coffin and covered over with Earth and of rotting under ground Why Man is the Resurrection no comfort to thee if there were no such thing this arguing were the more excusable who are you I pray that you should be priviledged above all the Kings and Monarcks since the beginning of the World which of them have secured themselves from the power of Death which of them could retain their breath a moment when Death had received his Commission to stop it Are you better than Abraham Isaac and Jacob did not David see corruption and the Fathers where are they nay did not Christ dye and dye so bitter a death as I believe never any from the foundation of the World ever did Must God make thee the third that must be singled out from Man-kind to be translated to Glory do you walk as Enock and Elias did and if you do I know you would then be so humble not to expect this prerogative and so full of love to God as to be contented to die if it were a hundred deaths so you might but enjoy him for ever And what say you now is there not a root of unbelief at the bottom is there not something of Atheism in this hath not the world a prevailing interest in your affections do you think you have not had time enough yet to sin would you sain displease God a little more do you imagine that you have not sufficiently abused his goodness if not what is the matter O I want Assurance did I but know that I am indeed reconciled to God then O then I could die as willingly as sleep The truth of it is there can be no other reason that can bear any great weight except this and a desire to glorifie God more in bringing in souls to him As for this latter I wave it few of my hearers being so much concerned in that as Ministers are but as for the former I would upon this account put you upon the most speedy and serious diligence in this work I believe the Apostle had some reason on his side when he did so earnestly perswade the people of God to use all diligence to make their Calling and Election sure and to work out their own salvation with fear and trembling Why then should not every Christian without delay set upon this And then the next news we should hear would be Come Lord Jesus why are thy Chariot wheels so long a coming O that I might but come to eternal life though thorough the valley of the shadow of death 'T is our trifling with God that makes the thoughts of our appearing before him to be so dreadful Our formality deadness and coldness our worldly mindedness and laziness doth us a world of injury This this disturbeth our peace this strengthens Satan and blurs our evidences and makes us go desponding into another world and this brings me to the next Use USE 5 Is it so that they are blessed that die in the Lord c. be hence exhorted to live so as that you may die in the Lord. Will you take so much pains for a little gains in this life and will you take none at all for eternal blessings How many hazardous voyages have some of you made to Ginnee and the East Indies to get Gold and Spices how many terrible storms have you been in and what inconceivable hazards have you run that you might enjoy your selves in age and have something to carry you comfortably and decently to your graves O why should you not be as solicitous in your soul concerns Remember my dear friends that you are bound for another world and you must ere long sail into the Ocean of eternity Consider what your laiding is and whether it will return to any account when you come home to your great Owner Methinks you of all men should think Grace the best commodity and Christianity the best trade and the securing of everlasting happiness the greatest wisdom How can you live within a few inches of death and look the King of terrours in the face every day without some well-grounded evidences of your interest in Gods love O who would not labour to get out of danger who would not think it a blessed estate to be beyond fears who can take it to be an unnecessary work to secure a soul is not this the one thing needful what should a man get if he should gain the whole world and lose his own soul and what shall a man give in exchange for his soul But you Professors above all it concerns you to make as sure as can be possible of something better than you can have here below What a lamentable thing would it be for you to undergo so many reproaches for Christs sake to venture your liberties and to hazard your estates and after all to be left in woful uncertainties It would be a dreadful thing to lose the comforts of both worlds O make sure work your pains and cost here will pay its own charges be not daunted 't is a thing hath been done what do you say will you take some pains in the examining of your heart will you
keep any guard over your self will you wrestle for this blessing O what courage and comfort should you be endowed with with what a chearful countenance may you meet death and how quietly lie down in your grave being supported with the hopes of a blessed Eternity and a glorious Resurrection But I shall a little alter my discourse and turn my self to the careless ones of the world which think little of death and less of eternity I had occasion before to bewail your condition and now I might renew my lamentations as fearing that what I have spoke or may speak will have very little operation upon you but however I cannot leave you thus but I must try once more how a plain compassionate exhortation will prevail O hat I could tell what words to speak that might each your heart O that I could express my self in such melting words that might break the very stones O that you may feel this exhortation Men Brethren and Fathers give me leave to lâ—t you understand how dearly I love you and to shew my affections in the most real demonstrations that may be Sirs I am come to bâ—g of you for Gods sake to be willing to live I beseech you despise not the blessing but accept Christ and salvation while they are offered Were it a thing possible to be happy any other way but by Christ and a holy life I should spare my labour If Glory could be obtained upon easier terms than the Gospel speaks of I should ease my self and you of this trouble And if any were like to be blessed after death but such as die in the Lord I should be the more indifferent in this matter but since that cannot be methinks those three weighty words Life death eternity should have a mighty influence upon you O let not a day pass without a few serious thoughts of this I need hot perswade you to love your lives nature teacheth you to do that but there is another life which is hid from the world which most forget O think of that that 's a life indeed a life of joy happiness and pleasure Death sounds oft in the ears every passing bell tells you that your breath is going and that your turn is coming and all the Coslins that are carried by your doors say prepare do your work quickly 〈◊〉 will shortly be too late But who understands the meaning of this Preacher who takes any thought of another life makes ready for death and looks into eternity O Eternity Eternity how rarely do men think of Eternity O that now some would begin to be wise Do you think your Sun will never set will your sands be never ran out and do you know what dying is then the keepers of the house will tremble the windows shall be â—hut and instead of the Daughters of Musick the voice of groaning lamentation and weeping It may be death will lay his cold hand first upon thy feet and bind them and they are as cold as the earth and what a damp doth this put upon thy spirit and then you cry once more send for the Doctor and he comes in haste O Sir a world for breath half my estate to preserve my life a day or two longer and what answer doth he make Sir 't is but a folly to flatter you all the art in the world will not keep you alive two hours longer what did you send for me for to a dead man and so he flings away in a rage and how doth the fainting Patient hear such tidings O what shall I do what will all forsake me can no body help me well send for a Minister and what saith he Sir how have you lived did you pray in your family do you know experimentally what Regeneration is what do you say Sir I do not understand that word What did you never hear a Sermon in your life were you born in England To be regenerated is to be born again do you know what that is O no that 's impossible Why then Sir you are in a lamentable condition indeed you cannot live an hour longer and if you die in this state you must go to Hell as sure as God is in Heaven O how doth that word strike the man to the heart and what a flame hath he within and what horrour is his soul filled with It cannot be imagined what Agonies the soul as well as the body now labours under O that I might die the death of the Righteous and are all my hopes come to this woe woe woe to me poor wretch whither am I now going where shall I now dwell who shall be my companions for ever O that I had but now a little of that grace which I despised in others but it 's now too late O my heart I am pained at my heart O my breath it is going it is just a going O what shall I do O 't is too late O what shall And thus his breath goes and his friends come round about him and one lifts up his hand and that falls down again like a log and others feel upon his nose and there 's no breath and then they say he is gone and so one closeth his eyes and others strip him and lay him out and two daies after he is put into the grave but where where is the soul And thus one goes after another and shortly all this generation will be served thus And thou O careless soul as little as thou mindest all this it may be thou mayest be the next and what will become of thee if death take thee unprovided Now Sirs what will you do will you go on just as you did will you put far from you the thoughts of the evil day will you shake off the sense of this as soon as you can I believe that this is none of the pleasantest discourses to some of you But I would have you to know that my business is not to please your fancy but to save your souls and to wake you out of your dead sleep and if I do but this I have enough Once more therefore I must ask you what you intend to do will you indeavour to live to Christ that you may die in the Lord or will you do as others do put off the thoughts of these things till it be too late Is this a question so hard to be answered Well methinks the very looks of some of you speak you to be persons resolved and by this time you are ready to ask how you shall do to be of this number that shall die in the Lord and be blessed how you may trade so as to get the most durable riches and how you may live so as to gain by death In general I answer If you would have death gain you must live to Christ make it your work and business to secure an interest in Christ let Religion run thorow all you do but for your fuller information in this matter I shall refer you to
was Matth. 11.28 Come unto me all ye that are weary and heavy laden and I will give you rest and therefore I now seeing my self weary with my own duties and heavy laden with my own Righteousness as well as with my sins which before I could not so clearly say oh how sweet how sweet how incomparably sweet was this word Come and so upon these accounts the Lord was pleased to enable me to see how then even then he was pleased to call as it were to my poor soul in particular to come unto him and submit to his grace and so with great hungrings and thirstings after Christ to cover my poor soul from the eye of a just and holy God through some fear and as I hope with great humiliation although not so great as I would have had it with some hope that the Lord would meet me and bless me I approached to the solemn banquet where I did not only taste and sip a little but obeyed as the Lord enabled me that great command when he said drink yea drink abundantly oh my beloved then oh then I did earnestly endeavour to make the eye of my soul so see him and my heart so embrace him that from thenceforth I might fully satisfie my soul with the enjoyment of him and him alone and not from any thing that self or the World presented to me and now me-thought I was much comforted and did endeavour from that time to this to own nothing for a comfort or cause of rejoycing but as it lead me to Christ who alone is the Author and I hope the finisher of my Faith and the Horn of my Salvation and with this Caution I will conclude this tedious discourse as I fear it may be to you although to me through Grace very pleasant not that hereby I mean to neglect any duty whatsoever I know to be my duty or think them indifferent whether they be performed or no oh no I say again God forbid but this I desire to do through grace but not self and the Lord of his infinite grace inable me that I may so far honour and respect them as I find them a means to carry me to Christ for which cause I think they were appointed with respect to the glorifying of God and such like and now if I know my own heart and for fear it should deceive me I will begg of the Lord that whenever I hear I may hear for Christ and whenever I pray I may more and more make clear my interest in Christ and whenever I perform any duty whatsoever I may more and more get into Christ and more out of my self And now you have heard all that the Lord hath out of his abundant grace enabled me from what I have found as I hope in great measure wrought in my own heart to declare unto you and for fear I should in this weighty matter be guilty of a lye and so delude my own soul I will with great humility acknowledge that every particular in this latter clause I mean in the Lords dealings with me since I first received the Sacrament I cannot so fully clear as I would I could but I hope I need not to fear but that I have felt all that I have spoken of working more or less upon my heart but whether just in order as I have declared them I cannot punctually say but do earnestly begg that the Lord Jesus Christ would be so pleased as to sprinkle what I have said with his own blood and that whatever sins of failings there may be in it through the pride or ignorance of my own heart oh I do earnestly again beg of God that for Christs sake he would look upon what I have done so as to pardon all that is amiss and that he would in his due time open my eyes to see my errours and to amend them and now I do earnestly beg your advice concerning these things for as I said before my heart doth mourn within me by reason of that interest self got in me and I now find it so very hard to be overcome but I have already told you my earnest desires concerning this and oh that I could prevail with you this once to allow me an interest in your Prayers and for what doubtless you will know better than I can tell you but especially for this that he who is the searcher of hearts and knows the state of every soul better than it doth it self would be pleased that if I be deceived for Christs sake to undeceive me and grant that if I have not true grace I may not think I have and so be in a Fools Paradice and that the Lord who is my heart maker would be my heart searcher and my heart discoverer and my heart reformer and that the Lord may so do I shall not cease to be an earnest suitor at the Throne of grace so long as I am on this side the grave But what because all is not so clear as I could wish they were shall I be cast 〈◊〉 and my soul disquieted within 〈…〉 if I was sorry that God hath been 〈…〉 at work in my soul or as if 〈…〉 Jehoâ—â—h was not able to finish 〈◊〉 he hath begun and so rob God 〈◊〉 glory 〈◊〉 my poor soul of comâ—â—◠〈…〉 my 〈◊〉 these things ought not so to be I fear-there is much of self in this who is somewhat troubled to see the glory of its Temple so much defaced and its treachery so much found out and so much out of Favour as never more to be embraced again And is it so is God indeed become my God and can I indeed say with Thomas My Lord and my God my Christ and my Saviour Oh I cannot forbear to say Lord who is a God like unto thee Oh God there is no God besides thee and oh what is man that God should be mindfull of him and what am I surely the worst of men that God should so regard me Oh that I could now even now this once from the bottom of my heart bless and admire him but oh what a dead and barren heart have I that cannot worthily praise him Oh my soul bless the Lord and all that is within me bless his holy name bless the Lord oh my soul and forget not all nay not one of his benefits oh if I had the tongue of an Angel and all the Angels in Heaven to assist me in this great work yet I say we could never sufficiently utter my dear fathers praises and now shall my faith triumph and my heart be glad and my glory rejoyce but not in self or in any thing of my own but in him and him alone who is the God of my Salvation Wonder oh Heavens and be moved oh earth at this great thing which the Lord hath wought in my soul be astonished and even ravished with wonder for the infinite breach is in a way to be made up the offender to be appeased and God