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like_o a_o child_n that_o fear_v to_o be_v beat_v let_v i_o tremble_v at_o thy_o judgement_n like_o a_o child_n that_o fly_v into_o his_o father_n lap_n let_v i_o kiss_v thou_o for_o thy_o mercy_n correct_v i_o 39_o o_o lord_n but_o not_o in_o thy_o anger_n for_o how_o shall_v i_o stand_v in_o thy_o displeasure_n o_o i_o know_v as_o there_o be_v no_o son_n who_o a_o father_n will_v not_o correct_v with_o the_o rod_n of_o his_o love_n so_o be_v there_o no_o father_n who_o have_v not_o a_o desire_n to_o deliver_v his_o son_n correct_v i_o o_o lord_n as_o thou_o be_v my_o saviour_n oh_o let_v it_o never_o be_v in_o thy_o heavy_a displeasure_n chap._n 18._o his_o contempt_n of_o the_o second_o in_o his_o practise_v mischief_n against_o his_o neighbour_n one_o may_v commit_v murder_n and_o shed_v no_o blood_n the_o very_a thought_n of_o our_o heart_n may_v become_v conspirator_n against_o our_o neighbour_n and_o so_o we_o murder_v he_o in_o our_o desire_n cain_n sâ—ew_v his_o brother_n abel_n which_o make_v he_o turn_v runagate_n by_o fly_v from_o god_n presence_n o_o how_o often_o have_v i_o slay_v my_o brother_n in_o conceive_v cruel_a thought_n which_o reflect_v upon_o his_o life_n fame_n and_o substance_n o_o how_o often_o have_v i_o in_o my_o heart_n wish_v a_o sudden_a end_n unto_o my_o enemy_n and_o yet_o i_o be_v persuade_v he_o be_v not_o well_o prepare_v for_o death_n when_o i_o wish_v this_o unto_o he_o so_o as_o my_o desire_n be_v bend_v to_o murder_v he_o both_o in_o soul_n and_o body_n by_o wish_v he_o so_o sudden_a and_o unprepared_a a_o death_n in_o his_o departure_n from_o the_o body_n yea_o i_o will_v confess_v against_o myself_o and_o with_o much_o bitterness_n of_o heart_n will_v i_o acknowledge_v it_o that_o neither_o rich_a nor_o poor_a have_v be_v free_v from_o those_o murdâ—ring_a imagination_n which_o my_o corrupt_a heart_n have_v secret_o nurse_v for_o if_o he_o be_v rich_a i_o murder_v he_o with_o envy_n and_o in_o this_o act_n not_o only_o he_o but_o myself_o waste_v and_o eat_v up_o my_o own_o marrow_n consume_v my_o own_o strength_n and_o fall_v away_o with_o a_o languish_a desire_n of_o other_o ruin_n again_o be_v he_o poor_a i_o to_o my_o power_n murder_v he_o by_o hold_v from_o he_o the_o staff_n of_o bread_n when_o i_o may_v have_v relieve_v he_o by_o grate_v and_o grind_v the_o face_n of_o the_o needy_a by_o oppress_v he_o injurious_o by_o lay_v heavy_a burden_n on_o he_o than_o he_o can_v bear_v o_o how_o can_v i_o remember_v these_o and_o sink_v not_o down_o with_o the_o horror_n of_o they_o can_v i_o think_v that_o just_a god_n who_o hear_v the_o orphan_n cry_v and_o bottle_n up_o the_o widow_n tear_n will_v not_o avenge_v himself_o of_o these_o thing_n can_v he_o tender_v his_o little_a one_o &_o not_o revenge_v himself_o of_o those_o who_o make_v a_o prey_n and_o spoil_v of_o his_o little_a one_o o_o no_o my_o lord_n i_o know_v my_o guiltiness_n be_v not_o hide_v from_o thou_o nay_o i_o know_v well_o thou_o have_v thy_o bow_n ready_a bent_n and_o thy_o arrow_n in_o thy_o quiver_n to_o shoot_v at_o the_o malicious_a and_o evil_a doer_n even_o at_o he_o that_o be_v of_o a_o subtle_a and_o deceitful_a heart_n how_o then_o may_v i_o make_v my_o peace_n with_o thou_o how_o may_v i_o find_v favour_n in_o thy_o sight_n what_o shall_v i_o be_v able_a to_o answer_v for_o myself_o against_o those_o my_o many_o accuser_n while_o here_o one_o prove_v how_o i_o seek_v his_o life_n and_o with_o many_o bitter_a imprecation_n discover_v my_o malice_n unto_o he_o another_o accuse_v i_o with_o impeach_v his_o good_a name_n that_o precious_a perfume_n of_o every_o good_a man_n the_o three_o of_o his_o substance_n say_v that_o my_o wish_n be_v often_o that_o he_o may_v be_v rest_n of_o it_o or_o it_o of_o he_o or_o that_o i_o myself_o may_v enjoy_v it_o with_o the_o loss_n of_o he_o thus_o like_o a_o cruel_a and_o bloody_a nimrod_n have_v i_o hunt_v for_o blood_n and_o though_o i_o do_v not_o actual_o shed_v it_o yet_o in_o desire_v it_o and_o not_o seek_v where_o i_o may_v to_o prevent_v it_o i_o can_v plead_v less_o then_o that_o i_o be_o guilty_a of_o it_o now_o my_o fact_n be_v so_o foul_a that_o shall_v i_o with_o the_o poor_a condemn_a prisoner_n demand_v my_o book_n i_o can_v not_o hope_v to_o have_v the_o benefit_n of_o it_o yet_o there_o be_v a_o book_n wherein_o i_o have_v read_v what_o may_v afford_v i_o much_o comfort_n by_o it_o at_o what_o timâ—_n soever_o a_o sinner_n do_v repent_v he_o of_o his_o sinâ—e_n from_o the_o bottom_n of_o his_o heart_n i_o will_v put_v away_o all_o his_o wickedness_n out_o of_o my_o remembrance_n say_v the_o lord_n it_o be_v the_o lord_n that_o have_v say_v it_o even_o he_o who_o as_o he_o be_v gracious_a in_o his_o promise_n so_o be_v he_o faithful_a in_o his_o performance_n hence_o be_v my_o trust_n that_o though_o my_o sin_n be_v as_o red_a as_o scarlet_a the_o blood_n of_o the_o lamb_n will_v make_v they_o white_a though_o my_o garment_n be_v all_o red_a as_o those_o who_o come_v from_o bosro_n my_o saviour_n have_v in_o store_n a_o white_a robe_n for_o i_o as_o white_a as_o the_o snow_n of_o salmon_n shall_v my_o soul_n be_v make_v though_o she_o be_v now_o soil_v with_o the_o leprosy_n of_o sin_n yea_o but_o dangerous_a wound_n require_v long_a cure_n my_o afflict_a conscience_n tell_v i_o that_o i_o have_v grievous_o sin_v against_o his_o sacred_a majesty_n both_o in_o quantity_n and_o quality_n i_o have_v not_o have_v god_n before_o my_o eye_n the_o path_n of_o righteousness_n be_v estrange_v from_o i_o those_o sin_n which_o with_o such_o
shall_v come_v to_o pass_v that_o every_o one_o work_n good_a or_o evil_n shall_v be_v bring_v back_o to_o our_o remembrance_n â—_o and_o by_o the_o sight_n of_o the_o mind_n shall_v be_v see_v with_o a_o wonderful_a quickness_n to_o the_o end_n that_o knowledge_n may_v accuse_v or_o excuse_v conscience_n that_o so_o all_o and_o every_o one_o may_v at_o once_o be_v judge_v o_o my_o soul_n shake_v and_o tremble_v i_o consider_v thy_o condition_n with_o that_o heavy_a indictment_n that_o shall_v bring_v thou_o to_o confusion_n for_o whatsoever_o thou_o be_v now_o ashamed_a to_o confess_v shall_v be_v then_o make_v manifest_a unto_o all_o yea_o whatsoever_o in_o a_o dissemble_a manner_n thou_o seek_v here_o to_o cover_v shall_v then_o by_o that_o avenge_a flame_n of_o god_n justice_n be_v bring_v to_o a_o fearful_a censure_n and_o by_o how_o much_o the_o long_a god_n expect_v thy_o amendment_n if_o thou_o neglect_v time_n so_o much_o strict_a shall_v be_v his_o judgement_n severe_a thy_o punishment_n o_o but_o will_v thou_o say_v who_o can_v keep_v the_o commandâ—ments_n this_o be_v a_o hard_a task_n for_o flesh_n and_o blood_n but_o i_o must_v tell_v thou_o if_o thou_o have_v charity_n it_o will_v make_v thy_o burden_n light_n and_o thy_o yoke_n easy_a if_o thou_o do_v thy_o endeavour_n and_o with_o a_o pure_a affection_n beg_v assistance_n of_o thy_o sweet_a saviour_n when_o all_o outward_a help_n fail_v thou_o he_o will_v be_v near_o thou_o he_o who_o bear_v his_o cross_n for_o thy_o sin_n will_v nail_n all_o thy_o sin_n upon_o his_o crosse._n he_o who_o bid_v thou_o do_v this_o and_o live_v will_v do_v this_o for_o thou_o that_o thou_o may_v live_v he_o who_o command_v thou_o that_o these_o thing_n shall_v be_v do_v will_v do_v for_o thou_o whatsoever_o he_o have_v command_v to_o be_v do_v but_o this_o poor_a pilgrim_n thou_o know_v long_o since_o his_o goodness_n can_v be_v no_o strange_a thing_n unto_o thou_o see_v his_o natural_a propriety_n unto_o goodness_n his_o universal_a power_n and_o omnipotence_n and_o his_o specioll_n experience_n have_v not_o only_o make_v he_o know_v to_o thy_o infirmity_n but_o move_v he_o to_o compassionate_v thy_o infirmity_n both_o willing_a and_o able_a be_v he_o to_o hear_v thou_o in_o the_o bitterness_n of_o thy_o soul_n to_o cheer_v thou_o in_o the_o bed_n of_o thy_o sickness_n to_o cure_v thou_o and_o will_v thou_o yet_o complain_v and_o say_v this_o yoke_n be_v hard_a this_o burden_n be_v heavy_a when_o he_o who_o tread_v the_o vinepresse_a alone_o will_v make_v thy_o burden_n light_n thy_o yoke_n easy_a o_o my_o sweet_a saviour_n make_v i_o to_o take_v delight_n in_o thy_o commandment_n ps._n 119._o 54._o that_o thy_o statute_n may_v be_v my_o song_n in_o the_o house_n of_o my_o pilgrimage_n give_v mâ—e_v the_o â—eet_a of_o a_o roe_n that_o i_o may_v run_v after_o thou_o o_o draw_v i_o after_o thou_o and_o i_o will_v follow_v thou_o set_a before_o i_o what_o thou_o have_v do_v for_o i_o to_o shall_v the_o memory_n of_o thy_o cross_n make_v my_o burden_n light_n and_o my_o yoke_n easy_a chap._n 13._o he_o examine_v himself_o touch_v the_o first_o commandment_n though_o thou_o have_v not_o hear_v the_o voice_n of_o the_o lord_n with_o moses_n yet_o have_v thou_o hear_v the_o will_n of_o the_o lord_n from_o the_o hand_n of_o moses_n thou_o have_v hear_v how_o he_o be_v a_o jealous_a god_n he_o will_v have_v none_o to_o partake_v in_o his_o honour_n nor_o share_v with_o he_o in_o what_o be_v only_o due_a to_o he_o he_o have_v tell_v thou_o how_o he_o be_v thy_o lord_n thy_o god_n and_o that_o thou_o shall_v have_v no_o other_o god_n but_o he_o now_o lie_v thy_o hand_n on_o thy_o heart_n and_o tell_v i_o have_v thou_o perform_v this_o yes_o will_v thou_o say_v i_o be_v never_o so_o have_fw-mi thenish_a as_o to_o worship_v any_o god_n of_o the_o gentile_n it_o be_v his_o house_n i_o go_v unto_o his_o name_n i_o do_v honour_n to_o i_o join_v in_o the_o supplication_n of_o saint_n i_o go_v after_o no_o strange_a god_n it_o be_v the_o lord_n of_o host_n who_o i_o serve_v the_o lord_n of_o the_o whole_a earth_n who_o i_o honour_v yet_o tell_v i_o be_v there_o no_o other_o lord_n on_o earth_n who_o thou_o serve_v yea_o do_v thou_o not_o make_v the_o very_a earth_n thy_o lord_n in_o prefer_v it_o before_o heaven_n and_o the_o hope_n of_o a_o better_a life_n whatsoever_o be_v by_o we_o most_o love_a that_o for_o a_o god_n be_v by_o we_o worship_v now_o resolve_v i_o unhappy_a pilgrim_n wherein_o can_v more_o love_v be_v show_v then_o in_o weaken_v and_o enfeeble_v our_o spirit_n with_o pursuit_n of_o what_o we_o love_v now_o compare_v thy_o hour_n which_o thou_o have_v bestow_v on_o the_o service_n of_o mammon_n with_o those_o thou_o have_v more_o happy_o employ_v in_o the_o court_n of_o zion_n have_v thou_o not_o bestow_v ten_o hour_n on_o earth_n for_o one_o on_o heaven_n nay_o have_v thou_o not_o depend_v more_o upon_o those_o egyptian_a reed_n these_o help_n on_o earth_n than_o those_o hope_n of_o heaven_n though_o thou_o go_v to_o the_o lord_n house_n and_o with_o a_o seem_a humility_n cast_v thyself_o down_o before_o he_o though_o thy_o prayer_n be_v mingle_v with_o tear_n and_o thy_o weak_a devotion_n with_o lift_v up_o of_o eye_n and_o beat_v of_o thy_o breast_n with_o other_o seem_a sign_n of_o humiliation_n yet_o be_v not_o thy_o heart_n there_o whole_o offer_v where_o it_o seem_v to_o be_v present_a for_o long_o before_o have_v thou_o build_v a_o little_a bethel_n in_o thy_o heart_n where_o thou_o offer_v thy_o daily_a sacrifice_n and_o here_o do_v thou_o erect_v a_o shrine_n of_o gold_n for_o thy_o god_n earth_n be_v thy_o deity_n thus_o in_o the_o chamber_n of_o thy_o heart_n do_v thou_o commit_v idolatry_n for_o have_v thou_o take_v he_o who_o thou_o professedst_a to_o serve_v for_o thy_o god_n thou_o will_v not_o have_v disinherit_v his_o providence_n but_o with_o a_o holy_a and_o heavenly_a affiance_n rely_v on_o his_o promise_n nay_o have_v thou_o take_v he_o for_o thy_o god_n thou_o will_v have_v serve_v he_o as_o he_o command_v thou_o and_o with_o all_o thy_o heart_n love_v he_o as_o he_o well_o deserve_v from_o thou_o thou_o will_v not_o have_v suffer_v his_o member_n to_o have_v starve_v while_o thou_o surfeit_v nor_o his_o family_n of_o faith_n to_o have_v mourn_v while_o thou_o riot_v thou_o will_v have_v have_v the_o staff_n of_o bread_n in_o readiness_n to_o support_v they_o counsel_n in_o store_n to_o advise_v they_o all_o sit_v supply_n in_o the_o time_n of_o their_o necessity_n to_o relieve_v they_o mean_a time_n thy_o heart_n be_v more_o hard_a than_o the_o nether_a millstone_n with_o a_o dease_fw-mi ear_n can_v thou_o hear_v their_o groan_n with_o a_o pitiless_a eye_n behold_v their_o tear_n nay_o so_o far_o be_v it_o thou_o from_o take_v he_o for_o thy_o god_n as_o thou_o sle_z to_o other_o god_n choose_v rather_o to_o lose_v god_n by_o abuse_v his_o goodness_n then_o to_o lose_v any_o of_o thy_o substance_n the_o wizard_n and_o the_o soothsayer_n must_v be_v visit_v by_o thou_o the_o witch_n of_o endor_n must_v not_o lose_v her_o honour_n tell_v i_o be_v this_o to_o put_v thy_o trust_n in_o god_n be_v this_o to_o have_v no_o other_o god_n before_o he_o be_v this_o the_o way_n to_o espouse_v thyself_o unto_o he_o be_v this_o in_o a_o true_a and_o religious_a way_n of_o obedience_n to_o serve_v he_o no_o no_o thou_o can_v not_o serve_v two_o master_n god_n and_o belial_n thou_o must_v put_v off_o the_o old_a man_n before_o thou_o put_v on_o the_o new_a thou_o must_v leave_v those_o grove_n and_o high_a place_n and_o in_o the_o low_a valley_n of_o a_o humble_a and_o contrite_a heart_n come_v before_o god_n and_o with_o the_o penitent_a prodigal_n throw_v thyself_o down_o before_o he_o with_o i_o be_o not_o worthy_a to_o be_v call_v thy_o son_n close_v thy_o supplication_n with_o this_o humble_a petition_n lord_n be_v merciful_a to_o i_o a_o sinner_n a_o sinner_n aye_fw-mi i_o a_o most_o grievous_a and_o heinous_a sinner_n one_o who_o in_o the_o fatness_n of_o his_o heart_n have_v turn_v himself_o from_o god_n one_o who_o in_o the_o foolishness_n of_o his_o heart_n have_v say_v there_o be_v no_o god_n for_n have_v thou_o retain_v in_o thou_o one_o think_v of_o god_n thou_o will_v have_v tremble_v to_o have_v do_v that_o which_o thou_o have_v do_v against_o the_o majesty_n of_o god_n nay_o whereas_o he_o have_v tell_v thou_o that_o there_o be_v but_o one_o god_n and_o he_o shall_v thâ—u_fw-mi serve_v thou_o have_v make_v to_o thyself_o many_o god_n one_o to_o fulfil_v thy_o pleasure_n another_o to_o advance_v thou_o to_o
honour_n another_o for_o filthy_a â—ucre_n oh_o how_o can_v i_o remember_v this_o without_o heaviness_n oâ—_n heart_n to_o leave_v he_o who_o give_v i_o be_v to_o leave_v he_o who_o be_v my_o portion_n without_o who_o i_o have_v no_o be_v o_o my_o good_a god_n do_v not_o leave_v i_o for_o what_o be_o i_o without_o thou_o or_o what_o can_v i_o do_v unless_o thou_o help_v i_o all_o the_o god_n of_o the_o gentile_n be_v devil_n iâ—_n be_v thou_o lord_n only_o that_o have_v make_v heaven_n &_o earth_n thou_o only_o o_o lord_n be_v my_o god_n those_o god_n who_o have_v not_o make_v heaven_n and_o earth_n let_v they_o perish_v from_o heaven_n and_o earth_n let_v heaven_n &_o earth_n praise_n that_o god_n who_o have_v make_v heaven_n and_o earth_n chap._n 14._o his_o breach_n of_o the_o law_n touch_v the_o second_o commandment_n bring_v forth_o thy_o golden_a calf_n thy_o treasure_n of_o horeb_n thy_o dagon_n thy_o moloc_n tell_v i_o have_v thou_o not_o rear_v these_o idol_n in_o thy_o heart_n these_o be_v but_o make_v of_o gold_n and_o silver_n &_o these_o be_v the_o metal_n which_o thou_o do_v honour_n where_o the_o treasure_n be_v there_o be_v the_o heart_n oh_o upon_o how_o unworthy_a a_o subject_a have_v thou_o bestow_v it_o oh_o that_o thou_o have_v raze_v those_o moult_a image_n those_o grave_a idol_n too_o long_o engrave_v in_o thy_o heart_n which_o thou_o so_o unhappy_o adore_v oh_o that_o thou_o have_v see_v into_o the_o vanity_n of_o this_o paint_a earth_n what_o a_o folly_n it_o be_v for_o a_o unthankful_a thankful_a people_n to_o set_v they_o up_o a_o god_n in_o the_o image_n of_o a_o calf_n that_o eat_v hay_n and_o be_v thou_o any_o wise_a in_o thy_o generation_n of_o corruptible_a thing_n have_v thou_o make_v thy_o god_n and_o on_o those_o who_o can_v not_o help_v themselves_o have_v thou_o rely_v what_o daily_a sacrifice_n have_v thou_o offsr_v to_o those_o moult_a image_n these_o keep_v thou_o a_o wake_n when_o thou_o shall_v sleep_v these_o make_v thou_o fearful_a to_o die_v these_o make_v thy_o thought_n stranger_n to_o thy_o true_a god_n oh_o how_o bitter_a be_v death_n unto_o he_o that_o put_v his_o trust_n in_o his_o riches_n o_o hstefull_a idolatâ—ry_n to_o be_v so_o unhappy_o wealthy_a as_o to_o make_v a_o reasonable_a soul_n to_o do_v worship_n unto_o vanity_n gehazi_n become_v a_o soul_n leper_n by_o make_v himself_o such_o a_o idolater_n o_o my_o loose_a thought_n whether_o do_v you_o hale_v i_o nay_o to_o what_o fearful_a conclusion_n have_v you_o already_o bring_v i_o reason_n tell_v i_o beside_o that_o weak_a beamling_n of_o grace_n that_o dart_v upon_o i_o that_o there_o be_v nothing_o in_o these_o but_o vexation_n of_o spirit_n how_o the_o love_n of_o the_o creature_n take_v i_o off_o from_o love_v my_o creator_n how_o bow_v to_o these_o so_o harden_v my_o heart_n as_o it_o can_v sinde_v no_o knee_n to_o bow_v to_o heaven_n o_o depart_v from_o i_o you_o worker_n of_o iniquity_n you_o drawer_n of_o i_o to_o idolatâ—ry_n in_o you_o have_v i_o find_v nothing_o but_o vanity_n vain_a in_o your_o promise_n but_o light_a in_o your_o performance_n you_o and_o none_o but_o you_o bring_v i_o to_o forget_v god_n from_o who_o come_v all_o good_a and_o to_o â—ight_a under_o his_o banner_n who_o be_v a_o profess_a enemy_n to_o the_o cross_n of_o my_o saviour_n but_o alas_o where_o shall_v i_o turn_v i_o where_o may_v i_o sly_a for_o succour_v in_o this_o time_n of_o danger_n i_o have_v flee_v from_o he_o who_o have_v comfort_n in_o store_n for_o i_o and_o pollute_v my_o soul_n with_o spiritual_a idolatry_n it_o be_v best_a for_o i_o to_o leave_v myself_o and_o to_o lean_v on_o he_o who_o give_v himself_o for_o i_o my_o soul_n be_v of_o too_o precious_a a_o price_n to_o be_v leave_v to_o such_o a_o keeper_n as_o will_v betray_v she_o to_o her_o enemy_n for_o a_o moment_n pleasure_n o_o my_o sweet_a saviour_n receive_v thou_o i_o into_o thy_o bosom_n decline_v my_o affection_n whole_o from_o adore_v these_o moulten_n image_n of_o worldly_a vanity_n let_v i_o imprint_v thou_o my_o crucified_a 〈◊〉_d in_o my_o heart_n so_o shall_v i_o ascribe_v all_o honour_n to_o he_o who_o i_o love_v best_a â—y_a bless_a redeemer_n chap._n 15_o his_o transgress_v of_o the_o three_o in_o profane_v god_n name_n vile_a worm_n filthy_a dung_n sinful_a dust_n dare_v thou_o profane_v his_o name_n at_o who_o voice_n the_o mountain_n shall_v quake_v &_o tremble_v at_o the_o breath_n of_o who_o nostril_n the_o high_a hill_n shall_v be_v melt_v the_o mountain_n shall_v be_v lay_v level_n with_o the_o valley_n the_o whole_a foundation_n of_o the_o earth_n shall_v shake_v and_o be_v remove_v and_o yet_o unhappy_a pilgrim_n thou_o feared'_v none_o of_o these_o thing_n thou_o went'stâ—n_v in_o dishonour_v his_o name_n nay_o in_o miut_v new_a oath_n as_o if_o the_o reprobate_n have_v not_o already_o find_v out_o enough_o to_o dishonour_v his_o maker_n and_o these_o thou_o hold_v a_o great_a grace_n to_o thy_o discourse_n for_o the_o imagination_n of_o thy_o deceitful_a heart_n be_v so_o set_v on_o mischief_n as_o thou_o held_v deep_a oath_n the_o breath_n or_o accent_n of_o a_o brave_a spirit_n the_o strength_n or_o sinew_n of_o any_o discourse_n this_o make_v thou_o consort_v and_o keep_v company_n with_o the_o dame_n of_o the_o time_n for_o with_o this_o tâ—tle_n be_v they_o high_o please_v to_o suck_v from_o they_o this_o profane_a venom_n this_o spawn_n of_o the_o most_o odious_a senseless_a sin_n that_o ever_o the_o devil_n suggest_v senseless_a indeed_o for_o there_o be_v no_o one_o sin_n which_o either_o one_o way_n or_o another_o afford_v not_o some_o vain_a delight_n unto_o the_o sense_n whereas_o this_o sin_n be_v so_o senseless_a of_o any_o such_o object_n as_o it_o only_o affright_v the_o conscience_n affright_v yea_o and_o worthy_o may_v it_o affright_v see_v god_n judgement_n shall_v never_o depart_v from_o the_o swearer_n house_n stand_v amaze_v poor_a miserable_a pilgrim_n while_o thou_o hear_v this_o put_v thyself_o in_o the_o balance_n and_o tell_v i_o whether_o during_o all_o these_o day_n of_o thy_o unhappy_a pilgrimage_n thou_o have_v not_o practise_v this_o sin_n sometime_o in_o deceive_v thy_o brother_n with_o subtle_a contract_n bind_v the_o value_n of_o thy_o commodity_n with_o a_o oath_n to_o enforce_v he_o to_o believe_v what_o thy_o conscience_n tell_v thou_o be_v not_o true_a sometime_o in_o thy_o good_a resolve_n call_v god_n to_o witness_v that_o thou_o have_v fix_v thy_o resolve_n on_o this_o and_o if_o god_n please_v thou_o mean_v to_o effect_v it_o and_o thou_o be_v it_o persuade_v that_o it_o will_v please_v â—od_a that_o it_o shall_v be_v effect_v mean_v time_n thou_o either_o weak_o fail_v in_o what_o thou_o intend_v or_o else_o never_o mean_v to_o perform_v what_o thou_o so_o ceremonious_o vow_v again_o how_o earnest_o have_v thou_o swear_v and_o herein_o take_v his_o bless_a name_n high_o in_o vain_a that_o thou_o will_v not_o sleep_v till_o thou_o have_v revenge_v thyself_o of_o thy_o enemy_n and_o far_o more_o constant_a be_v thou_o in_o pursuit_n of_o this_o ill_a then_o in_o perform_v aught_o that_o be_v good_a how_o deep_o have_v thou_o vow_v to_o procure_v thy_o pleasure_n which_o enjoy_v how_o careless_o be_v thy_o vow_n regard_v with_o what_o coldness_n render_v thou_o have_v read_v how_o such_o profane_a transgressor_n as_o these_o shall_v be_v take_v away_o from_o the_o presence_n of_o god_n never_o to_o see_v his_o face_n and_o yet_o for_o all_o this_o will_v not_o thou_o lose_v the_o glory_n inglorious_a glory_n of_o one_o oath_n for_o the_o forfeit_n of_o such_o a_o prize_n not_o one_o part_n or_o member_n of_o thy_o glorious_a maker_n thy_o sweet_a saviour_n but_o must_v be_v piece_n meal_n rend_v tear_v &_o divide_v to_o have_v thy_o hateful_a humour_n satisfy_v that_o precious_a head_n that_o be_v with_o thorn_n crown_v must_v be_v affresh_o pierce_v that_o precious_a side_n which_o be_v with_o a_o spear_n pierce_v must_v be_v again_o wound_v those_o broad-spreading_a arm_n so_o cruel_o rack_v those_o pure_a hand_n so_o pitiful_o nail_v must_v be_v anew_o open_v those_o humble_a foot_n which_o be_v so_o unmerciful_o bore_v must_v be_v again_o pounce_v every_o wound_n must_v be_v revive_v all_o his_o sorrow_n renew_v o_o unworthy_a wretch_n what_o hope_n can_v thou_o have_v that_o he_o will_v look_v on_o thou_o in_o mercy_n who_o have_v so_o cruel_o renew_v his_o wound_n and_o increase_v his_o torment_n with_o thy_o profane_a oath_n and_o hateful_a blasphemy_n how_o may_v thou_o think_v to_o hide_v thyself_o in_o those_o wound_n which_o thou_o have_v thus_o aggravate_v with_o thy_o impiety_n be_v it_o not_o sufficient_a for_o thou_o
will_v keep_v itself_o for_o thou_o when_o thou_o will_v neither_o knock_v that_o it_o may_v be_v open_v to_o thou_o nor_o seek_v that_o it_o may_v be_v find_v of_o thou_o health_n thou_o know_v well_o come_v not_o from_o the_o cloud_n without_o seek_v nor_o wealth_n from_o the_o clod_n without_o dig_v and_o yet_o heaven_n must_v be_v get_v without_o knock_v or_o seek_v but_o great_a prize_n be_v not_o to_o be_v so_o purchase_v for_o as_o heaven_n gate_n be_v straight_o and_o few_o there_o be_v that_o enter_v so_o be_v our_o tribulation_n to_o be_v many_o that_o we_o may_v be_v of_o that_o few_o that_o shall_v enter_v but_o i_o hear_v thou_o now_o cry_v out_o as_o one_o that_o have_v some_o sense_n of_o his_o sin_n and_o of_o the_o loss_n he_o have_v incur_v by_o sin_n woe_n be_v i_o i_o can_v look_v upon_o this_o earth_n i_o tread_v on_o without_o blush_v nor_o can_v i_o think_v upon_o death_n without_o sorrow_v nor_o the_o day_n judgement_n without_o tremble_v nor_o of_o hell_n without_o shake_v nor_o of_o the_o joy_n of_o heaven_n without_o astonish_v for_o earth_n i_o love_v it_o so_o well_o and_o well_o may_v i_o blush_v at_o myself_o for_o for_o bestow_v my_o love_n so_o ill_o as_o the_o remembrance_n of_o death_n become_v sorrowful_a for_o by_o it_o i_o understand_v how_o i_o be_v to_o be_v bring_v to_o judgement_n of_o all_o other_o most_o fearful_a and_o from_o thence_o as_o have_v nothing_o to_o answer_v in_o my_o own_o defence_n i_o be_v to_o be_v hale_v to_o hell_n a_o place_n disinall_n and_o doleful_a and_o consequent_o to_o forfeit_v all_o my_o title_n and_o interest_n in_o heaven_n which_o can_v not_o choose_v but_o astonish_v i_o be_v a_o place_n so_o joyful_a this_o i_o like_v well_o in_o thou_o for_o this_o knowledge_n of_o thy_o infirmity_n may_v bring_v thou_o to_o look_v for_o remedy_n and_o by_o degree_n to_o find_v recovery_n loin_n then_o with_o i_o and_o offer_v up_o thy_o prayer_n to_o the_o throne_n of_o grace_n that_o he_o in_o his_o mercy_n will_v look_v upon_o thou_o gracious_a god_n though_o i_o be_v altogether_o unworthy_a to_o lift_v up_o my_o eye_n unto_o heaven_n or_o to_o offer_v up_o my_o prayer_n unto_o thou_o much_o less_o to_o be_v hear_v by_o thou_o yet_o for_o his_o merit_n and_o mercy_n sake_n who_o sit_v at_o thy_o right_a hand_n and_o make_v intercession_n for_o i_o reserve_v a_o place_n in_o thy_o heavenly_a kingdom_n for_o i_o dear_a lord_n in_o thy_o house_n be_v many_o mansion_n o_o bring_v i_o thither_o that_o i_o may_v join_v my_o voice_n with_o those_o voice_n of_o the_o angel_n and_o sing_v praise_n to_o thou_o who_o sit_v in_o the_o high_a heaven_n for_o ever_o chap._n 70._o with_o the_o remembrance_n of_o these_o he_o become_v afflict_v in_o spirit_n o_o but_o yet_o i_o find_v my_o soul_n like_o dry_a ground_n where_o no_o water_n be_v wheresoever_o i_o turn_v i_o i_o find_v affliction_n and_o misery_n on_o all_o side_n encompass_v i_o o_o what_o shall_v i_o do_v where_o shall_v i_o fly_v to_o for_o behold_v while_o i_o take_v myself_o aside_o from_o the_o world_n into_o some_o withdraw_a room_n purposely_o to_o forget_v the_o world_n and_o prepare_v myself_o for_o the_o joy_n of_o a_o better_a life_n while_n i_o say_v i_o begin_v to_o commune_v with_o my_o own_o thought_n in_o the_o secret_a chamber_n of_o my_o heart_n i_o become_v so_o affright_v with_o the_o representment_n of_o those_o four_o last_o remembrance_n as_o i_o whole_o forget_v what_o i_o intend_v to_o speak_v my_o tongue_n begin_v to_o cleave_v to_o the_o roof_n of_o my_o mouth_n my_o spatle_n be_v dry_v within_o i_o those_o active_a faculty_n of_o my_o soul_n leave_v i_o and_o my_o understanding_n depart_v from_o i_o o_o death_n death_n how_o bitter_a be_v the_o remembrance_n of_o thou_o o_o how_o i_o think_v thou_o summon_v i_o and_o like_o a_o surly_a guest_n break_v in_o upon_o i_o nay_o uninvited_a resolve_v to_o lodge_v with_o i_o and_o present_o i_o feel_v myself_o wound_v and_o so_o mortal_o as_o not_o to_o be_v cure_v o_o how_o my_o divine_a eyesight_n now_o darkness_n my_o paint_a breast_n beat_v my_o hoarse_a throat_n rutle_v how_o my_o tooth_n by_o little_a and_o little_o grow_v black_a and_o draw_v to_o they_o a_o kind_n of_o rust_n how_o my_o countenance_n grow_v pale_a â—ort_n and_o all_o my_o member_n stiff_o how_o every_o sense_n and_o faculty_n fail_v how_o my_o waste_a body_n threaten_v a_o speedy_a dissolution_n yet_o desire_v my_o poor_a soul_n to_o be_v a_o guest_n still_o though_o there_o be_v cold_a comfort_n to_o be_v find_v in_o such_o a_o for_o lose_z inn_n but_o what_o be_v all_o these_o terror_n of_o death_n to_o that_o fearful_a day_n of_o judgement_n when_o at_o the_o sound_n of_o the_o trump_n all_o flesh_n shall_v rise_v where_o none_o may_v be_v exempt_v but_o all_o judge_v o_o i_o death_n be_v nothing_o unto_o this_o for_o what_o comparison_n betwixt_o a_o death_n temporal_a and_o eternal_a and_o such_o shall_v be_v the_o sentence_n of_o every_o reprobate_n among_o which_o i_o the_o chief_a o_o how_o terrible_a will_v that_o great_a judge_n appear_v to_o such_o as_o in_o this_o life_n will_v neither_o be_v allure_v by_o his_o promise_n nor_o awaken_v with_o his_o judgement_n o_o how_o doleful_o will_v that_o voice_n sound_v in_o their_o care_n depart_v from_o i_o i_o know_v you_o not_o and_o how_o ready_a will_v that_o officious_a jailor_n be_v upon_o the_o delivery_n of_o this_o heavy_a sentence_n to_o hale_v they_o to_o ulter_v darkness_n a_o place_n of_o endless_a torment_n where_o the_o curse_n and_o howl_n of_o fiend_n and_o fury_n shall_v entertain_v their_o melodious_a â—are_n ugly_a and_o hideous_a sight_n shall_v entertain_v their_o lascivious_a eye_n loathsome_a stenche_n their_o delicious_a smell_n sulphur_n and_o brimstone_n their_o luscious_a taste_n grasping_n and_o embrace_n of_o snake_n their_o amorous_a touch_n anguish_n and_o horror_n every_o sense_n where_o those_o miserable_a damn_a soul_n shall_v be_v torment_v both_o in_o their_o flesh_n and_o spirit_n in_o their_o flesh_n by_o fire_n ever_o burn_v and_o never_o decay_a and_o in_o their_o spirit_n by_o the_o worm_n of_o conscience_n ever_o gnaw_v and_o never_o die_v where_o there_o shall_v be_v grief_n intolerable_a 3._o fear_v horrible_a filth_n incomparable_a death_n both_o of_o soul_n and_o body_n without_o hope_n of_o pardon_n or_o mercy_n and_o now_o to_o close_v with_o the_o last_o the_o loss_n whereof_o exceed_v our_o suffering_n in_o all_o the_o rest_n o_o to_o consider_v how_o i_o unhappy_a i_o have_v not_o only_o get_v hell_n the_o lake_n of_o horror_n and_o misery_n but_o lose_v heaven_n the_o place_n of_o endless_a joy_n and_o felicity_n o_o what_o heart_n can_v consider_v it_o and_o not_o resolve_v itself_o into_o a_o sea_n of_o tear_n in_o contemplation_n of_o it_o for_o what_o may_v the_o wretched_a soul_n think_v when_o she_o lift_v up_o the_o beam_n of_o her_o mind_n and_o behold_v the_o glory_n of_o those_o 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ground_n where_o no_o water_n be_v so_o have_v she_o thirst_v after_o thou_o and_o now_o lord_n that_o i_o may_v present_v myself_o before_o thou_o with_o more_o humility_n i_o will_v ever_o set_v my_o imperfection_n before_o i_o remember_v what_o good_a i_o have_v omit_v when_o i_o have_v opportunity_n to_o do_v it_o again_o what_o evil_a i_o have_v commit_v when_o the_o remembrance_n of_o thy_o mercy_n may_v have_v decline_v i_o frâ—_n it_o among_o which_o let_v i_o now_o call_v to_o mind_v those_o blessing_n thy_o gracious_a goodness_n have_v pronounce_v to_o every_o faithful_a follower_n and_o then_o examine_v myself_o whether_o i_o deserve_v or_o no_o to_o be_v list_v in_o that_o number_n chap._n 40._o bless_a be_v the_o poor_a in_o spirit_n for_o for_o they_o be_v the_o kingdom_n of_o heaven_n hvmility_n be_v the_o path_n that_o lead_v to_o glory_n there_o be_v no_o virtue_n that_o can_v subsist_v without_o it_o this_o may_v be_v one_o reason_n why_o the_o very_a first_o beatitude_n be_v ground_v on_o it_o but_o what_o be_v we_o to_o learn_v from_o hence_o not_o to_o be_v high-minded_a but_o of_o a_o humble_a and_o meek_a spirit_n in_o suffer_v dishonour_n for_o the_o honour_n of_o our_o saviour_n in_o possess_v our_o soul_n with_o patience_n in_o mitigate_a wrath_n with_o mildness_n in_o relinquish_a himself_n in_o prefer_v other_o before_o himself_o in_o judge_v well_o of_o other_o but_o worst_a of_o himself_o in_o wish_v unto_o other_o as_o to_o himself_o in_o rejoice_v in_o nothing_o but_o in_o the_o cross_n of_o christ_n yet_o unfeigned_o suffer_v with_o those_o who_o suffer_v for_o christ._n now_o return_v and_o account_n proud_a pilgrim_n whether_o there_o appear_v any_o token_n of_o this_o poor_a spirit_n in_o thou_o have_v thou_o not_o ever_o retain_v a_o good_a opinion_n of_o thy_o own_o worthless_a worth_n have_v thou_o not_o be_v of_o a_o contentious_a spirit_n have_v thou_o not_o answer_v reproach_n with_o reproach_n have_v thou_o not_o be_v more_o ready_a in_o defend_v thy_o own_o honour_n then_o advance_v the_o honour_n of_o thy_o saviour_n have_v thou_o not_o be_v so_o far_o from_o possess_v thy_o soul_n in_o patience_n as_o thou_o can_v not_o endure_v the_o least_o affront_n without_o much_o violence_n have_v thou_o with_o soft_a word_n mitigate_v wrath_n nay_o have_v thou_o never_o suffer_v the_o sun_n to_o set_v upon_o thy_o wrath_n have_v thou_o in_o a_o humble_a contempt_n of_o thyself_o prefer_v other_o before_o thyself_o nay_o rather_o haste_v thou_o not_o with_o the_o spirit_n of_o contradiction_n oppose_v thy_o judgement_n against_o other_o and_o out_o of_o a_o foolish_a presumption_n make_v a_o idol_n of_o thyself_o have_v thou_o in_o the_o scale_n of_o charity_n prefer_v other_o before_o thyself_o or_o rather_o have_v thou_o not_o rash_o judge_v other_o in_o thy_o heart_n and_o in_o thy_o too_o strict_a examination_n of_o he_o conclude_v with_o that_o proud_a pharisee_fw-mi i_o be_o not_o as_o this_o man_n be_v in_o a_o word_n have_v thou_o judge_v well_o of_o other_o but_o worst_a of_o thy_o self_n or_o wish_v unto_o other_o as_o to_o thy_o self_n or_o rejoice_v like_o a_o faithful_a champion_n in_o the_o cross_n of_o christ_n or_o like_o a_o compassionate_a member_n suffer_v with_o those_o who_o suffer_v for_o christ_n o_o no_o nothing_o less_o can_v i_o find_v in_o myself_o unhappy_a pilgrim_n i_o have_v ever_o hold_v a_o poor_a spirit_n in_o contempt_n and_o a_o unfit_a companion_n to_o take_v acquaintance_n of_o in_o this_o world_n how_o then_o dear_a saviour_n may_v i_o expect_v a_o inheritance_n in_o the_o kingdom_n of_o heaven_n who_o be_o so_o far_o estrange_v from_o a_o mild_a spirit_n on_o earth_n o_o my_o lord_n incline_v thy_o ear_n to_o my_o petition_n renew_v a_o right_a spirit_n within_o i_o so_o shall_v i_o be_v endow_v with_o what_o delight_v thou_o by_o account_v a_o meek_a spirit_n a_o spiritual_a beauty_n and_o after_o this_o life_n through_o thy_o mercy_n become_v inheritor_n of_o that_o kingdom_n which_o thou_o have_v prepare_v for_o those_o that_o love_v thou_o chap._n 41._o bless_a be_v the_o meek_a for_o they_o shall_v possess_v the_o earth_n here_o be_v a_o promise_n that_o the_o meek_a shall_v possess_v the_o earth_n and_o yet_o be_v it_o hard_o to_o find_v a_o spirit_n true_o meek_a upon_o the_o earth_n by_o which_o thou_o may_v gather_v poor_a pilgrim_n that_o there_o be_v another_o earth_n beside_o this_o earth_n we_o here_o tread_v on_o which_o shall_v be_v give_v for_o a_o possession_n to_o the_o meek_a that_o desire_a earth_n prepare_v only_o for_o such_o who_o have_v wain_v their_o desire_n from_o earth_n this_o be_v a_o land_n which_o flow_v with_o better_a thing_n than_o milk_n and_o honey_n a_o heavenly_a havilah_n where_o the_o pure_a gold_n be_v to_o be_v find_v nay_o where_o the_o very_a street_n be_v pave_v with_o gold_n the_o wall_n be_v of_o precious_a stone_n the_o gate_n be_v make_v of_o the_o best_a margarite_n those_o many_o mansion_n found_v of_o square_a 25._o stone_n build_v of_o saphire_n arch_v over_o with_o golden_a brick_n which_o none_o must_v enter_v but_o he_o that_o be_v clean_o none_o must_v inhabit_v that_o be_v defile_v where_o then_o must_v thy_o possession_n be_v in_o this_o land_n of_o promise_n what_o mansion_n may_v thou_o expect_v in_o this_o holy_a city_n woe_n be_v i_o i_o be_o unclean_a i_o be_o unclean_a from_o head_n to_o foot_n there_o be_v nothing_o in_o i_o but_o boil_v sore_n and_o run_n how_o may_v i_o then_o look_v there_o to_o receive_v any_o mansion_n see_v to_o a_o clean_a lord_n be_v require_v a_o clean_a habitation_n how_o may_v i_o think_v that_o my_o master_n will_v look_v on_o i_o who_o all_o my_o life_n time_n have_v observe_v lest_o what_o he_o command_v most_o practise_v nothing_o more_o than_o what_o he_o prohibit_v neglect_v nothing_o more_o than_o what_o he_o command_v how_o may_v i_o expect_v from_o his_o hand_n a_o blessing_n or_o this_o promise_a possession_n of_o that_o earth_n who_o never_o show_v so_o much_o as_o the_o least_o meekness_n upon_o earth_n yet_o do_v that_o meek_a lamb_n who_o become_v a_o offering_n for_o i_o leave_v such_o a_o pattern_n unto_o i_o that_o if_o i_o be_v not_o whole_o unmindful_a of_o my_o soul_n honour_n nor_o whole_o forgetful_a of_o the_o love_n of_o such_o a_o master_n i_o can_v not_o choose_v but_o after_o his_o example_n become_v his_o meek_a and_o obedient_a follower_n for_o his_o whole_a life_n be_v a_o mirror_n of_o meekness_n see_v from_o the_o cratch_n to_o the_o cross_n he_o suffer_v all_o thing_n patient_o bear_v all_o reproach_n meek_o to_o reach_v unto_o thou_o from_o the_o tree_n of_o his_o cross_n a_o crown_n of_o glory_n o_o my_o redeemer_n imprint_v this_o meekness_n of_o thou_o in_o my_o memory_n let_v it_o never_o depart_v from_o i_o put_v a_o meek_a and_o mild_a answer_n into_o my_o mouth_n when_o any_o one_o shall_v revile_v i_o let_v i_o refer_v my_o cause_n unto_o thou_o and_o that_o with_o such_o christian_a charity_n as_o i_o may_v sincere_o pray_v for_o my_o enemy_n and_o in_o meekness_n of_o spirit_n to_o imitate_v the_o example_n of_o that_o meek_a lamb_n who_o with_o so_o resign_v a_o will_n become_v a_o sacrifice_n for_o i_o chap._n 42._o bless_a be_v they_o that_o mourn_v for_o they_o shall_v be_v comfort_v that_o wise_a preacher_n can_v say_v it_o be_v better_a go_v to_o the_o house_n of_o mourning_n then_o to_o the_o house_n of_o rejoice_v and_o yet_o how_o little_a do_v this_o admonition_n work_v upon_o thy_o thought_n how_o pleasant_a have_v those_o consort_n of_o death_n those_o brethren_n in_o evil_n seem_v unto_o thou_o how_o merry_o the_o hour_n go_v away_o nothing_o be_v want_v to_o make_v your_o delight_n more_o complete_a but_o that_o you_o want_v time_n to_o make_v your_o folly_n more_o complete_a full_a cup_n merry_a song_n profane_a oath_n be_v the_o only_a actor_n that_o present_v themselves_o in_o this_o expense_n 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guest_n for_o his_o complexion_n seem_v so_o wither_v and_o decay_a his_o body_n so_o meager_a and_o macilent_a as_o he_o appear_v rather_o like_o some_o anatomy_n than_o any_o live_a creature_n this_o poor_a marrow-eaten_a wretch_n i_o find_v sigh_v and_o make_v a_o pitiful_a moan_n as_o if_o some_o heavy_a mischance_n have_v befall_v he_o but_o inquire_v the_o reason_n of_o his_o sorrow_n he_o tell_v i_o that_o the_o occasion_n of_o his_o grief_n proceed_v not_o from_o any_o mishap_n fall_v to_o himself_o but_o for_o the_o happiness_n he_o perceive_v many_o other_o live_v in_o for_o to_o see_v another_o field_n flourish_v or_o his_o good_n to_o increase_n and_o prosper_v be_v such_o a_o eyesore_n unto_o he_o as_o nothing_o can_v more_o distemper_n he_o this_o i_o conceive_v to_o be_v a_o base_a condition_n and_o such_o as_o to_o humanity_n have_v very_o small_a relation_n so_o as_o i_o resolve_v to_o quit_v my_o house_n of_o he_o and_o give_v he_o his_o passport_n find_v nothing_o 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can_v want_v variety_n of_o subject_n to_o minister_v to_o he_o that_o content_n which_o he_o desire_v i_o must_v indeed_o confess_v quoth_v he_o that_o i_o be_o of_o necessity_n now_o &_o then_o to_o encounter_v with_o some_o argument_n of_o discontent_n as_o i_o do_v this_o very_a morning_n in_o see_v your_o neighbour_n pasture_n so_o fruitful_a their_o harvest_n so_o hopeful_a but_o for_o one_o of_o these_o object_n i_o shall_v find_v a_o hundred_o occasion_n of_o content_a no_o place_n be_v exempt_v from_o i_o no_o person_n except_v from_o play_v one_o part_n or_o other_o in_o this_o interlude_n of_o folly_n o_o how_o it_o joy_v i_o to_o see_v a_o proud_a ambitious_a spirit_n enter_v list_n with_o his_o competitor_n where_o the_o one_o must_v necessary_o fall_v to_o advance_v the_o other_o honour_n be_v their_o bait_n and_o it_o prove_v their_o bane_n again_o to_o see_v a_o love-sick_a amorous_a fool_n put_v his_o whole_a patrimony_n on_o his_o back_n to_o enamour_v his_o light_a mistress_n with_o a_o fantastic_a dress_n and_o in_o the_o end_n come_v home_o with_o a_o repulse_n and_o so_o like_o a_o child_n put_v singer_n in_o the_o eye_n or_o lay_v it_o to_o heart_n make_v the_o loss_n of_o her_o fancy_n the_o close_a of_o his_o misery_n again_o to_o see_v a_o miserable_a covetous_a father_n scrape_v up_o a_o injurious_a estate_n for_o a_o prodigal_a child_n who_o before_o his_o father_n funeral_n be_v solemnize_v take_v as_o much_o pain_n how_o to_o scatter_v it_o as_o ever_o his_o rake_n father_n do_v to_o gather_v it_o or_o to_o see_v a_o base_a worlding_n spend_v himself_o in_o sigh_n and_o tear_n for_o the_o loss_n of_o his_o beast_n make_v himself_o no_o better_o by_o his_o foolish_a mourning_n then_o that_o poor_a senseless_a creature_n for_o which_o he_o mourn_v to_o see_v wiseman_n lament_v for_o the_o death_n of_o their_o child_n as_o if_o death_n be_v some_o new_a thing_n or_o that_o there_o be_v no_o hope_n after_o death_n to_o see_v a_o confident_a client_n fail_v in_o his_o suâ—te_n or_o a_o earthworm_n strip_v of_o his_o estate_n and_o be_v not_o this_o brave_a sport_n for_o a_o envious_a spirit_n this_o i_o consider_v and_o methinks_v i_o begin_v to_o be_v take_v with_o the_o pleasure_n of_o it_o the_o report_n of_o other_o welfare_n become_v distasteful_a to_o i_o their_o misfortune_n cheerful_a news_n unto_o i_o other_o weale_n become_v my_o woe_n other_o woe_n my_o weal_n o_o my_o redeemer_n thou_o who_o be_v perfect_a charity_n remove_v from_o i_o the_o rust_n of_o envy_n too_o long_o have_v this_o â—anker_n eatâ—n_v i_o o_o let_v i_o neither_o do_v nor_o wish_v that_o unto_o another_o which_o i_o will_v not_o have_v do_v nor_o wish_v to_o myself_o o_o make_v i_o such_o a_o enemy_n to_o this_o sin_n as_o i_o may_v live_v in_o love_n yea_o rather_o cease_v to_o live_v then_o surcease_v to_o love_v thou_o for_o thyself_o my_o neighbour_n for_o thy_o sake_n chap._n 53._o gluttony_n no_o soon_o have_v i_o dismiss_v 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circumspection_n i_o grow_v ashamed_a of_o my_o condition_n acknowledge_v nothing_o to_o be_v due_a unto_o i_o but_o reproach_n and_o confusion_n for_o when_o at_o any_o time_n i_o pray_v i_o mind_v not_o what_o i_o pray_v nor_o to_o who_o i_o pray_v how_o may_v i_o then_o hope_v for_o any_o help_n from_o he_o to_o who_o i_o pray_v or_o that_o my_o prayer_n shall_v be_v hear_v by_o he_o 8._o see_v i_o myself_o do_v not_o hear_v myself_o in_o the_o prayer_n which_o i_o make_v unto_o he_o the_o precious_a stone_n diacletes_n though_o it_o have_v many_o rare_a and_o excellent_a property_n in_o it_o yet_o it_o lose_v they_o all_o if_o it_o be_v put_v in_o a_o dead_a man_n mouth_n so_o prayer_n which_o be_v the_o only_a sovereign_a pearl_n and_o jewel_n of_o a_o christian_a though_o it_o have_v many_o rare_a and_o exquisite_a virtue_n in_o it_o many_o promise_n confer_v on_o it_o yet_o it_o lose_v they_o every_o one_o if_o it_o be_v put_v into_o a_o man_n mouth_n or_o into_o a_o man_n 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