in our mind and this will conduce much to the composing our souls when their Words of Complaint are answered with Grounds of Comfort and Rules of Direction CHAP. I. The Souls Conflict from the importunate Crowd of Vain Thoughts OUr secret Thoughts are commonly the immediate issue of our inward Principles vile affections still begetting vain imaginations and holy desires administring matter for divine thoughts Wherefore when our Lord Jesus Christ sets up his Throne in the Heart he there governs by the golden Scepter of his Grace which Grace it is that casts down every high imagination and brings into captivity every vain thought to the obedience of Christ 2 Cor. 10 5. 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 which vain thoughts however they may seem small sins yet their strength of evil like that of the Egyptian caterpillars it is in their number Ps 10 5.34 35. whereby they prevail oftentimes to eat up every green thing in the land every good motion in the heart And this importunate crowd of vain Thoughts is not the least of Satans temptations in which he is right Beelzebub the God of Flyes Mat. 12.24 for as busie Flyes were to the Altars sacrifices so are vain thoughts to our holy services their continual buzzing disturbs the Mind and distracts its devotion This Cogitationum tumultus this tumult and crowd of vain Thoughts was once S. Bernards trouble of which he complains Bern. de inter Dem. that introeunt exeunt they pass and repass come in and go out and will not be controll'd Amovere volo nec valeo I would fain saith he remove them but cannot either as slie Thieves they creep in undiscern'd or as bold Guests they force admittance though they find no welcome Now because nothing is more dreadful to the godly man then sin 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 so says S. Chrysostom that to him is death that to him is hell Even therefore though no exorbitancie of life be discerned by man yet is he afflicted deeply afflicted for the very risings and rebellions of his Thoughts which being in the secret closet of the Heart can only appear unto God And in this his affliction hear we his Complaint The Words of Complaint Oh the perplexing trouble of my distracting thoughts How do they by their slie insinuations and secret importunities continually disturb the quiet of my mind and make my holy duties become a weariness to my soul They cool the heat they damp the vigor they dead the comfort of all my devotions Even when I pray God to forgive my sins I then sin whilst I am praying for forgiveness yea whether it be in the Church or in the Closet so frequently and so violently do these vain Thoughts withdraw mine heart from Gods service that I cannot have confidence he hears my suit because I know by experience I do not hear my self and therefore sure needs must God be far off from my prayer whilst my Heart is so far out of his presence hurried away with a crowd of vain Imaginations The Grounds of Comfort 1. These vain Thoughts O thou afflicted soul being indeed thy burden they shall not be thy ruine and though they do take from the sweetness yet they shall not take from the sincerity of thy devotions Yea 2 King 10.16.31 Ps 26.2 3. hereby thy sincerity is approv'd for that some external interest of temporal relations may make us guard our words our actions but it must be some internal Principle of holy fear which makes us to watch our thoughts our desires If then thy devotions were not sincere thy heart would not be troubled for to be taken off from a work we regard not Ps 119 115. is no disquet to the mind but it is an argument we set a value and esteem upon the work in hand when we are loth to be disturbed in the doing Ps 7.9 139.2 Jer. 11.20 2. It is no little glory which we give to God in the acknowledgment of his omnipresence and omniscience that we own him present in the Closet of our Hearts and privy to the first risings of our most inward thoughts And as it is the excellencie of Gods law that it reacheth our thoughts to discern and judge them Heb. 4.12 Luk. 2.35 so it is the riches of Gods mercy that it goes beyond the number of our thoughts to remit and pardon them Were it not indeed for the multitude of Gods compassions Ps 51.1 Gen. 6.5 dangerous yea desperate were our condition in the multitude of our sinful imaginations Which Imaginations being in number infinite are not to he forgiven but by those Mercies which are infinite and numberless Ps 145 8 9. This oh this is the sure foundation of firm comfort to the soul the tender mercies of its God! 3. It is much the experience of Gods children even the devoutest Saints that their thoughts of God and of Christ of heaven and of holiness are very unsteady and fleeting Like the sight of a Star through an Optick glass when held by a Palsey-hand such is our view of Divine objects we are long in finding them and soon lose them our thoughts wavering through our minds weakness Besides when we are most intent and our eye fixt then is Satan ready to strike us on the elbow Ps 57.7 Ps 31.21 22. and by some suggestion to shake us from our steadiness and disturb our devotions Indeed as Satan so the World and the Flesh they are most importunate suitors and let our communication with God and with Christ in fervent Prayer or any other holy service be ne'r so earnest and secret yet will they thrust in upon the soul for reception and audience Yea though we observe our Lords command and watch unto prayer Mar. 13.33 yet in our strictest Watch how do these enemies slip by our Guards If we stop and turn back some vain Thoughts yet even then whilst we are busied in that watchful care how are we surprised with some other as vain imaginations notwithstanding all our care and watchfulness Think not then O distressed soul think not 1 Cor. 10 13 in the common condition of Gods children that thou art cast out of Gods favor 4. Know thou hast the gracious mediation of an alsufficient Saviour to supply thy defects and procure an acceptance of thy sincere though imperfect Devotions In thy Saviours mediation Heb. 2.17 Joh. 6.27 Luk. 4.18 Rom. 8.34 Heb. 7 25. behold him a merciful and a faithful High Priest seal'd of the Father and annointed by the Spirit to this very office that being entred the Holy of Holies and set down at the right hand of the Majesty on high he should ever live to make intercession for us so that he he it is who compassionately toucht with a feeling of our infirmities Heb. 4 15. presents the sincere desires of our souls and holy purposes of our hearts as the firstlings of our flock made acceptable unto God through
us belongeth confusion of f ce to our Kings to our Princes and to our Fathers because we have sinned against thee Yea humility prompteth the soul in the midst of Gods judgments to an advancement of his mercy Thus the Psalmist Psal 1â—3 10 He hath not dealt with us according to our sins neither hath he rewarded us according to our iniquities and it is the humble acknowledgment of Gods Church in her lamentations of sorrow saying Lam. 3.22 It is of the Lords mercy that we are not consumed § 15. 2. Faith the Apostle calls faith 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 as the substance Heb. 11 1. so the subsistence of things hoped for the subsistence makeing that glory and blessedness that salvation and deliverance to have a present subsistence with us which we look upon through hope as in their future existence to us Wherefore then is it that the conscientious confessoâ—s of Christs truth so calmly so patiently yea so chearfully suffer the disgrace of the world and the violence of the wicked is it not because they see by faith that to suffer for righteousness truely makes them what Turtullian elegantly stiles them Coelestis gloriae candidatos Candidates of the celestial glory haveing received the earnest of the spirit the seal of their redemption 2 Cor. 1.22 Ephes 4.30 Rom 8.23 the first fruits of glory they see by faith that whilst men load them with injuries they heap up their rewards whilst they spoil their earthly goods they encrease their heavenly treasure yea each scornful reproach they see by faith it does but add a flower to their garland each violent act a jewel to their Crown 2 Cor 4 17. all their light affliction which is but for a moment they see by faith how it works for them a far more exceeding and eternal weight of glory § 16. 3. Hope such as that of Davids which he commends unto the Church upon his own experience of good success Psal 130.7 Let Israel hope in the Lord for with the Lord there is mercy and with him is plentious redempteon Wherefore when the Church mourneth and the gates of Zion languish this the hope which strengthens the patience and comforts the souls of Gods Saints that he will either vouchsafe them a temporal deliverance or crown their sufferings with an eternal salvation this that hope of which saith the Apostle Rom. â— 5 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 non confundit so the vulg it brings no shame of face no confusion of soul it fears no deficiency on Gods part and preserves from Apostacy on mans part and so becomes a right what the Apostle stiles it the Anchor of the soul Heâ— 6 â— both sure and stedfast § 17. 3. What the best duties of devotion Answ Solemn humiliation fervent prayer and a worthy receiving the blessed Eucharist 1. solemn humiliation solemn for time for measure and the manner of performance for time some day in the week or at least in the moneth set apart and dedicated to this service For measure not the dropping of a tear the breathing of a sigh and so away Psal 51 1â— no we must offer unto God the Sacrifice of a broken heart and a contrite spirit the sorrows of our contrition must be like that of one mourning for the dead a funeral sorrow the deepest of mournings yea Zech. 12.10 like that of one mourning for her onely Son the saddest of Funerals Indeed the Church by our sins is laid in the depth of calamities fit it is that we for our sin lie down in the deepest of humiliations For manner of performance confessing the guilt of sin bewailing the bitterness of distress deprecating Gods wrath and imploring his mercy § 18. To affect our souls with the greater relentings of contrition and meltings of compassion see oh see we how this Church our Mother Lam. 1.1 sits as a disconsolate widow mourning in her distress her hair dishevel'd her beauty defac'd her garments rent her body wounded her blood flowing her spirits fainting yea see see a flood of tears overtakes her streams of blood her sorrow accompanies her pain and her mourning her affliction And yet how do too too many who boast themselves her Sons Oh! how do they by their oaths their drunkenness their whoredoms and other their abominable pollutions how do they even drag this their Mother by that hair which sorrow hath dishevel'd How do they trample upon her whilst she sits in the dust how do they widen her wounds sharpen her pains imbitter her sorrows and every way aggravate her misery Wherefore as many as are affected with the Churches deep affliction and wait upon God for her gracious restauration let them thus wait even in this sacred duty of holy devotion Solemn humiliation Iam. 5.13 § 19. 2. Fervent prayer this is St. James's Catholicon his general remedy for all spiritual distempers If any man among you be afflicted let let him pray the Original is very emphatical 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 where the word 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 taken in the large sence as here most proper we may thus paraphrase the words of the Apostle Doth any among you suffer any evill of body or of mind as the readiest means of his redress and succour let him pray and in our prayers do we prescribe to our selves some solemn service of devotion more peculiarly appropriate to this sacred blessing Nehem. 1. Dan. 9. the Churches restauration and peace Thus did Nehemiah thus did Daniel and Psal 137. the faithful are so zealous for Jerusalem the type of the Church that they seal the resolution of earnest prayer with this 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 this dreadful imprecation Psal 137.6 that if they remember her not their tongues may cleave to the roof of their mouthes intimating this zealous wâ—sh that they may never have tongues to pray for themselves if they forget to pray for Jerusalem § 20. 3. The blessed Eucharist here we have an unmoveable center to rest on God our portion Christ our fulness an object larger then the heavens Oh that our faith were now suitable to its object the firmness of our trust to the fulness of our God our Jesus had the widow of Sarepta prepared more vessels she had received more oil 1 King 17.14 and that we receive less in the supplies of grace and the bounties of love from God and Christ it is because we are straitned in our faith not God or Christ straitned in his bounty we less capable to receive not he less willing or able to give the Widows vessels were all filled and here each humble soul shall be replenish'd according to the measure of their capacity not the riches of Christs fulness who as the Sea can fill the vessels though never so large and therefore where the measure is but little there the vessels are but small Enlarge we then the thirsting desires of our soul that the fountain of Christs
the flesh less danger and damage in overworking then in too much indulging the outward man For where one man sails his course of piety with too full a gale of zeal an hundred lie becalm'd with lukewarmness Rev. 3.16 In the Close Beware of attributing to duties what is proper to Christ A chief reason doubtless though little notice be taken of it a chief reason it is of dryness and barrenness in holy performances that we have an overprising opinion an overvaluing esteem of them For the softning and melting the raising and enlarging the comforting and reviving the heart Ps 11â— 32 Isa 57 18. 2 Cor. 1.3 Ps 34 15. these are all the works of Christ and his Spirit not to be attain'd by labour and toil but by humility and faith Hear David The eyes of the Lord are upon the righteous and his ears are open unto their cry First Gods eyes are upon their persons and then his ears are open unto their prayers It is not the duty we perform but the promise Christ gives or rather Christ in the Promise which brings rest to the soul And he vouchsafe thee O thou afflicted soul a gracious portion of this spiritual rest as a pledg and earnest of that full inheritance even rest eternal Amen CHAP. VII The Souls Conflict from the misapprehension of Gods withdrawing the Comforts of his gracious presence SUch is the deceitfulness of mans heart and the subtlety of Satans suggestions that many there are who forsake God yet think they have him and many that have him yet think themselves forsaken of him Many are so enlighten'd that they come near to the Kingdom of Heaven which yet are cast down to Hell Again many there are so dejected as to come nigh to Hell which yet are received to Heaven The discomforts of the faithful through their frailty do cause their great dejection Isa 49 14 Isa 14.12 13. but the enlightenings of the wicked through their pride make for their greater condemnation Such is the 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 the exceeding craft and cunning of Satan Eph. 6.11 in his 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 his arts and methods of temptations made the more expert by many thousand years experience such I say is Satans art and cunning that he suits his suggestions to our affections and tempers his temptations to our dispositions And therefore the va n Enthusiast who prides himself in his fancied converses with God and conceiteâ— raptures of his spirit him Satan heightens in his presumption But the afflicted Saint from whom God hath hid his face and withdrawn the comforts of his gracious presence him Satan presseth down in his dejections He heightens the Enthusiast in his presumption by feeding his fancy with renewed delusions of false joys and the imagined ravishments of Gods love Again he depresseth the afflicted Saint in his dejection by filling his heart with renewed jealousies of false fears and imagined terrors of Gods wrath Thus there is none more near or dear unto man then himself yet none more a stranger more an enemy For what man is he that can fadom the depth Jer 17 9. and so know the deceitfulness of his own heart Again what man is he that doth not cause the wounds and destroy the comforts of his own soul by diffidence impatience throwing off the healing balm and casting away the reviving cordials of grace and mercy Ps 143 9. So that well might S. Bernard cry out in a devout gloss upon the Psalmists text Libera me Domine ab inimico meo id est à me ipso Deliver me O Lord from mine enemy that is from my self See this true in the afflicted Saint dejected in soul distressed in conscience deep in desertions Oh! how doth his soul become cruel to it self refusing to be comforted With him Mourning observes no method but his full sorrow poures out its Complaints as a bottle doth its liquor in sudden and disordered eruptions rather thâ—n effusions Thus then complains the languishing Soul The Words of Complaint Oh! what a misery is it to have been happy The thoughts of those comforts I once felt sharpen the sense of those sorrows I now feel Time was when from the Mount Nebo of Divine Contemplation I could by the Perspective of Faith take a view of the Heavenly Canaan in the riches pleasure and glory of it But now my belly cleaveth unto the dust I lie down in the valley and shadow of death clouds of darkness cover me and the light of all heavenly comforts is hid from mine eyes Those holy duties Ordinances and Promises which have been as honey sweet to my soul at once feeding and delighting mine inward man they are all become bitterness and barrenness anguish and distress misery and mourning Oh what were those quickening beams from the Sun of Righteousness those refreshing those ravishing delights in communion with God through Christ Alas O my soul those blessed delights were but pleasant dreams and now thy fancied Paradise is become a real Wilderness And oh how do I wander and weary my self in a maze of perplexities the bitter waters of Marah flowing in upon my soul and the fiery Serpents of hellish fears stinging my Conscience All my streams of Comfort are turn'd into floods of Sorrow and oh that I could drown my sorrow in tears But my misery is beyond moans my grief beyond tears yea my torments beyond death For I have lost that treasure those joys that bliss which I would willingly redeem with the loss of life O sweet and joyful presence O sad and dreadful absence of my Jesus and oh the filthy lusts of my foul heart which have made him quit his lodging and be gone and with him all peace all comfort all joy all life all bliss are fled from my soul Woe is me that I should receive mercy to make miserable once enjoy a Saviour and after cast him off to the loss of all salvation yea to the heightning the horror of my condemnation Oh he came in love and he is gone in anger and woe is me I not only lose his favor but also bear his displeasure He is gone and I fear never oh this this the deep wound more deadly then death it self He is gone and I fear never to return more In his favor is life and therefore when he hides his face in wrath needs must my soul be in death Oh! my spirits waste my strength faints my flesh consumes mine whole man languisheth yea my stroke is heavier then my groans my sorrow more bitter then my complaints so that with Job My soul is weary of my life and yet though my life be full of torment death is full of terror lest be everlastingly shut out from Gods presence Oh Eternity Eternity how does this gulf swallow up my soul how does this weight more heavy then a mountain press down my drooping heart and crush my fainting spirits yet whilst there is life there is hope though my