be_v matth._n 11.28_o come_v unto_o i_o all_o you_o that_o be_v weary_a and_o heavy_a lade_v and_o i_o will_v give_v you_o rest_n and_o therefore_o i_o now_o see_v myself_o weary_a with_o my_o own_o duty_n and_o heavy_a lade_v with_o my_o own_o righteousness_n as_o well_o as_o with_o my_o sin_n which_o before_o i_o can_v not_o so_o clear_o say_v oh_o how_o sweet_a how_o sweet_a how_o incomparable_o sweet_a be_v this_o word_n come_v and_o so_o upon_o these_o account_n the_o lord_n be_v please_v to_o enable_v i_o to_o see_v how_o then_o even_o then_o he_o be_v please_v to_o call_v as_o it_o be_v to_o my_o poor_a soul_n in_o particular_a to_o come_v unto_o he_o and_o submit_v to_o his_o grace_n and_o so_o with_o great_a hungring_n and_o thirsting_n after_o christ_n to_o cover_v my_o poor_a soul_n from_o the_o eye_n of_o a_o just_a and_o holy_a god_n through_o some_o fear_n and_o as_o i_o hope_v with_o great_a humiliation_n although_o not_o so_o great_a as_o i_o will_v have_v have_v it_o with_o some_o hope_n that_o the_o lord_n will_v meet_v i_o and_o bless_v i_o i_o approach_v to_o the_o solemn_a banquet_n where_o i_o do_v not_o only_o taste_v and_o sip_v a_o little_a but_o obey_v as_o the_o lord_n enable_v i_o that_o great_a command_n when_o he_o say_v drink_n yea_o drink_v abundant_o oh_o my_o belove_a then_o oh_o then_o i_o do_v earnest_o endeavour_v to_o make_v the_o eye_n of_o my_o soul_n so_o see_v he_o and_o my_o heart_n so_o embrace_v he_o that_o from_o thenceforth_o i_o may_v full_o satisfy_v my_o soul_n with_o the_o enjoyment_n of_o he_o and_o he_o alone_o and_o not_o from_o any_o thing_n that_o self_n or_o the_o world_n present_v to_o i_o and_o now_o methought_n i_o be_v much_o comfort_v and_o do_v endeavour_v from_o that_o time_n to_o this_o to_o own_o nothing_o for_o a_o comfort_n or_o cause_n of_o rejoice_v but_o as_o it_o lead_v i_o to_o christ_n who_o alone_o be_v the_o author_n and_o i_o hope_v the_o finisher_n of_o my_o faith_n and_o the_o horn_n 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and_o whenever_o i_o pray_v i_o may_v more_o and_o more_o make_v clear_a my_o interest_n in_o christ_n and_o whenever_o i_o perform_v any_o duty_n whatsoever_o i_o may_v more_o and_o more_o get_v into_o christ_n and_o more_o out_o of_o myself_o and_o now_o you_o have_v hear_v all_o that_o the_o lord_n have_v out_o of_o his_o abundant_a grace_n enable_v i_o from_o what_o i_o have_v find_v as_o i_o hope_v in_o great_a measure_n wrought_v in_o my_o own_o heart_n to_o declare_v unto_o you_o and_o for_o fear_v i_o shall_v in_o this_o weighty_a matter_n be_v guilty_a of_o a_o lie_n and_o so_o delude_v my_o own_o soul_n i_o will_v with_o great_a humility_n acknowledge_v that_o every_o particular_a in_o this_o latter_a clause_n i_o mean_v in_o the_o lord_n deal_n with_o i_o since_o i_o first_o receive_v the_o sacrament_n i_o can_v so_o full_o clear_a as_o i_o will_v i_o can_v but_o i_o hope_v i_o need_v not_o to_o fear_v but_o that_o i_o have_v feel_v all_o that_o i_o have_v speak_v of_o 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