a gracious man yet be without grace as the Ape imitateth the actions of reasonable men yet is without reason or as a Tragedian acteth the part of a passionate man but is all the while without passion Some men have wrought hard at duties when a naturally inlightened Conscience not God hath been the Master to set them on work they would but cannot neglect duties at so cheap a rate as others as he said Sollicitor nullos esse putare deos I could find in my heart to think there were no God but could not As they say of the Wolf in the body if you feed not it it will feed on you so if Conscience when its mouth is opened should not be fed with duty it would feed on them and therefore to keep it from gnawing them they stop its mouth with performances though they never do them from a renewed Principle Do not therefore Reader hang the weight of thy soul upon such weak wyers since men do so ordinarily take the way of duties no otherwise then Amaziah did the way of the garden-house 2 Kings 9.27 meerly for necessity to escape an enemy that followed him wherein he was at length pursued and slain Remigius a Judge of Lorraighn telleth us how the Devil gave some in those parts mony which at first appeared to be good coin but being laid up and when need was taken out to be spent it proved to be nothing but dry leaves Reader I wish it may not be so but it is possible for thee to drive a great Trade in duties while thou livest to hoord up a a great heap of those riches and they may seem to be currant coin good silver to have the image and stamp of the King of heaven upon it but when thou comest to die that thou art to spend it for then thy works will follow thee and God will give thee according to thy works it may then prove but dry leaves of no worth or profit to thee Though these unsound bottoms hold out well enough in a fair sea when they are put to no stresse yet stormy weather will quickly discover their rottennesse Not a few take up duties onely because they were educated in such a Religious manner not from any rellish or savour which they find in them and truly 't will be an easie matter to part him and his work who never took any pleasure in it The stone for a time may against its nature be mounted upward but when the force of that imprest vertue which moved it is spent 't will fall downward according to its nature Partridges that are hatched under an hen may walk with her and answer her call for a time but anon they flie away and shew what they are Reader I write not these things to dishearten thee from duties which are the body of Religion but to quicken thee to mind Regeneration which is the soul of it Sixthly The commendation of others though they be real Saints will not prove thee to be in a state of salvation The holiest mans confidence of thee is a pittiful evidence that thou shalt be happy How many have there been in the City who made a great noise were cried up by their knowing judicious neighbors to be very rich and to be worth thousands when on a sudden we have heard of their breaking and being worse as we say then naught so many even by them which are godly and discerning may be counted rich in grace rich towards God and on a sudden either by some temptation or at their dissolutions they break and God takes away from them what they seemed to have How was good David mistaken in Achitophel Surely he thought him Gods Favourite otherwise he would never have made him his familiar and bosom friend It was thou O man mine equal my friend and my acquaintance we took sweet counsel together and walked to the house of God in company Psal 55.12 13 14. How was Simon Peter deceived in Simon Magus who believed wondered at the miracles which were wrought and was baptised but notwithstanding that was in the gall of bitterness and bond of iniquity Acts 8.13 20. How was holy Paul mistaken in Demas Luke the beloved Physitian and Demas greet you Coloss 4.14 there he ranks him with one that was eminently religious but Philemon vers 24. he puts him before Luke and calls him his fellow-laborer yet 2 Tim. 4.10 which Epistle was the last of all Pauls Epistles Demas hath forsaken me having embraced this present world he turned as some write Idol-priest he followed the chase till he met with the honey and Jonathan-like then left the pursuit How much were all the holy Apostles deceived in Judas If Peter as their mouth speaks of their faith Judas is included Joh. 6.69 We believe and are sure that thou art Christ the Son of the living God When he speaks of their good works Judas is not excepted Behold we have forsaken all and followed thee Matth. 19.27 Further when a Traytor is mentioned Judas is not suspected his carriage was so fair that they were more jealous of their own hearts then of him Mat. 26.22 and yet he was a Traytor a Devil Infallibility was never annexed to the godly mans choice Dedalus made an image that moved it self by art which made the spectators believe that it had a living principle the Hypocrite may walk so exactly perform duties so devoutly that Saints may judge such motions to flow from a principle of spiritual life Because men have the exact resemblance of Christians therefore godly men who are charitable abroad and censorious at home judge them to be true Christians Now in regard there may be a resemblance of a Christian in external actions where there is not the essence of Christianity in internal sanctified affections therefore they though they sin not yet sometimes they err in their judgements 1 Sam. 16.6 7. When Samuel came to Jesse being sent to annoint a King and seeth Eliab a proper handsom person he presently crieth out Surely the Lords annointed is before him but mark what God saith Look not on his countenance nor the height of his stature for I have rejected him for God seeth not as man seeth for man looketh on the outward appearance but God looketh on the heart So when godly men see their neighbors lovely in their lives civil in their practices high in their profession strict in performances they according to their duty say inwardly at least Surely the Lords annointed is before him these are the blessed of the Lord annointed to the Kingdom of heaven but God may often answer them Look not on their profession or their performances for I see their hearts that they serve not me but themselves of me We read of Zeuxes the Painter that he drew grapes so to the life that he deceived the birds who came flying to them and pecking at them as if they had been real grapes Certainly a graceless man may have such a compleat
unconverted may sometime be full of fear and horror Caligula used all the art he could to blow out this light and fortified himself with all the arguments he could get against a Deity but could not accomplish his ends for as often as it thundred he was miserably affrighted and would run under a bed So we read that Felix an Heathen trembled when Paul reasoned of judgement to come Act. 24.25 Sin in its dooms-day dress as 't is cloathed with fire and fury may be terrible even to the ungodly And the consideration of this may make them leave many sins that do not loath any sin The Mariner throweth over-board those goods in a storm which he wisheth for and it may be gathereth up in a calm As a man in a feaver loveth drink yea longeth much for it yet dares not meddle with it because 't will make him worse The sinners in Sion saith the Prophet are afraid fearfulness hath taken hold on hypocrites Why what 's the matter Who can dwell in everlasting burnings who can abide devouring flames Isa 33.14 Mark it is not Who ever abused such an ocean of love who ever despised such a matchless life who ever provoked such a gracious Lord but who can dwell in everlasting burnings The sting of sin to the unregenerate is punishment and the sting of punishment to the regenerate is sin Exod. 9.28 Hos 14.1 to fear sin as it bringeth an heavy rod usually proceeds from nature but to fear sin as it is a wandring from an holy rule can proceed only from grace Truly as Phaltiel parted with his wife Michal whom Saul had injuriously taken from David and given unto him so unregenerate men part with their sins when David came to the crown he sendeth for Michal Phaltiel dares not disobey the King but he brings her on her way weeping and bemoaning his loss he looks after her as far as Bohurim many a sad thought he had for her when she was by force divorced from him Thus unregenerate men may leave their lusts when they are afraid to keep them but many a longing heart they have after them and are not by choice but constraint separated from them As parents they go to the funeral of those children of their corrupt hearts with no small sorrow Sickly persons forbear some meats which they love dearly because those meats do not love them they either feed their diseases or are hardly digested Some sinners dare not feed in their actions on some sins which are as sweet to their affections as the honey and the honey comb because they fear that they will rise in their stomacks and the reckoning will be too heavy for them to pay Or possibly thou art entring upon some solemn act of devotion and upon that account at present forbearest thy corruptions as some write of Serpents they lay by their poison when they go to drink and afterwards take it up again Thou mayst like Abraham to his servant bid thy sin stay below while thou goest up to the mount to worship Gen. 22. and when the duty is done return to it again Reader do not relie upon these affections which thou seest may be in them which are not regenerated for as the Sorcerers seemed to do as much as Moses but did nothing in reality so thou mayst seem to do as much as a Christian when all is but counterfeit Thy fear of sin may be forced not flow freely from thee Fearfulness hath taken hold on the hypocrites Isa 33.14 as a Serjeant takes hold on a bad debtor or an armed man on a coward being more bold then welcome Thou mayst fear sin as the Medes and Persians the Jews when the fear of the Jews fell upon them Esther 8.17 when the presence of this fear is as Christs presence is to the Devils a torment to thee Mat. 8.29 Nay thy fear may be only for a fit like a mushrom which groweth up in a night and perisheth the next day The people when they saw Amasa weltring in his blood in the way stood still but he being quickly removed they went on When thou thinkest of others weltring in their soul-blood in hell or seest the judgements of God upon others thou mayst be afraid and stand still a little at present but these thoughts being soon removed thou mayst go on in the way of thine own heart It is reported of Cassander that he trembled at the sight of Alexanders Statue when Alexander was dead and Cassander had gotten possession of Macedonia The regenerate man when he seeth with the eye of faith the curse of the Law the wrath of God the torments of hell his flesh trembleth for fear of them and he is afraid of Gods righteous judgements though they are all dead to him he being not under the Law but under grace but it may be t is the life in them and their power to hurt thee which makes thee afraid of them Friend in all these passions thou mayst but like a Stage-player in the robes of a Prince act the part of a Christian and therfore canst not thence conclude thy right to the revenues of his place The whole life of a man unregenerate is but an interlude Regeneration alone can make a man live in good earnest Reader if thou art a civil person a great Professor enjoyest the outward Priviledges of the Gospel aboundest in Duties and Performances if God hath given thee gifts and parts if godly men commend thee and thou art sometimes confident of thy own good condition If thou walkest according to thy natural light and joynest with them that fear the Lord If some good affections like a flash of lightning on a sudden surprise thee though most of these are good yet do not hence conclude thy undoubted right to salvation for all these may consist with unregeneracy and Christ telleth thee That except thou art born again thou canst not see the Kingdom of God As the Alchymists gold appeareth as good as the true gold but it will not endure the seventh fire nor comfort the heart as a cordial both which the true gold will so if all these should meet in thee they would make thee look like a Saint but beleive it they will never endure the fire of Scripture which must shortly trie thee whether thou art true gold or counterfeit nor comfort thy soul as a cordial when Physitians shall give over thy body THirdly If without Regeneration none can attain salvation it informeth us of the difficulty of salvation that it is an hard thing to get to heaven it is no easie matter to be regenerated and made holy and therefore 't is no easie matter to be glorified and made happy Where the gate is straight 't is hard to get in If the righteous scarcely be saved where shall the sinner and ungodly appear 1 Pet. 4.18 The Apostle there intendeth not the uncertainty but the difficulty of the salvation of the godly If it be so hard for them to be saved
no solid food for his hungry and thirsty soul heareth at last Christ calling to him Ho every one that thirsteth come to the waters buy wine and milk without money and without price cast thy sins thy soul on me and thou shalt finde rest Lord thinks he I have tried creatures and they cannot help me I have tried duties and they cannot ease me I have taken much pains and caught nothing and should I come to thee wouldst thou open thine eye upon such a wretch my unworthiness makes me mistrust the success nevertheless at thy command I will do it and now he cometh in his sinking estate to take hold on the arm of the Lord which the Gospel stretcheth out to him and thereby he is saved The last step is a resolution of the sinner to give up himself to all the Laws of Christ or an hearty acceptation of the Redeemer as Saviour and Soveraign The heart of the man is so melted by Evangelical sorrow for sin and the heat of Gods love to his soul that he is like soft wax for any impression God may command him what he pleaseth he cleaveth to the Lord with full purpose of heart Before he was like the Prodigal he must go as far as he could from his Fathers house the orders there were too pure the Laws there too strict the discipline there too severe he travelleth therefore into a far Country but now the man is hungry he will submit to do the duty of a Son so he may but have the childrens bread and diet nay now he is come to himself it is his meat and drink to do the will of God he seeth such equity in Gods will such beauty in his worship such excellency and comfort in his wayes that he would not part Jesus Christ and his holy precepts which he now savoureth for all earthly pleasures he is tied so firmly to his Master with the bond of unfeigned love that Satan himself will but work at the labour in vain when he goeth about to separate him and his service He writes Holiness to the Lord upon his body soul estate family relations and all that he hath thankfully acknowledgeing Gods propriety in all and his own felicity to consist in improving all for God He considereth how infinite his obligations to God are what an hell of endless horror he is redeemed from what an heaven of love and happiness he is called to and wisheth that he had or could do something worthy of such a God And because he hath nothing more or better he gives himself to God as Aeschines when he saw his fellow-schollers give their Master Socrates large presents being poor and having nothing to give went and gave himself to his Master acknowledging that he was his devoted servant The sinner before was unbroken and so as unfit for subjection as the unbroken colt for the saddle but now the heart being humbled the eare is heedy to whatever God speaketh Lord what wilt thou have me to do Acts 9.6 It is with an humbled M. Fenner of the kiling power of the Law and with an unhumbled sinner as with two men that are going to market whereof the one hath need he and his family are in extreme want ready to perish for bread now this man will go what ever weather come if it raine never so fast he will go when he comes there whatever the price be he will buy though he pawn his cloaths he will have bread why he is like to famish for want of it bread he comes for and bread he must have The other hath no great need therefore if he like the weather he will go if not he will stay at home if he goeth when he comes to the Market he will buy or forbear as the price of things pleaseth him he is indifferent whether he lay out his money or no if commodities are held at an high rate he will go as he came and buy nothing and all because he hath no need he can do well enough without them thus an humbled sinner seeth nay feeleth his extreme need of Christ that he must perish everlastingly without an interest in him and therefore what ever it cost him he will have Christ he is resolved to deny himself to crucifie the flesh to hate father mother house name land all for Christ let God hold the price of his Son never so dear he will sell all but he will buy this pearl and what is the reason truly because this man hath need he knoweth the absolute necessity which he standeth in of Christ that none but Christ can deliver him from the weight of his sins the Almighty Gods fury and the vengeance of eternal fire therefore a Saviour he comes for and a Saviour he will have what ever commands or prohibitions are joyned with him but an unhumbled finner feeth not his extream need of Christ and therefore though when he heareth of the infinite perfections in Christ and the unspeakable priâ—iledges which the regenerate have by Christ he will acknowledg that the wares are good he hath nothing to say against them but the price is too dear he will not come up to it and why truly because he seeth not his need of Christ he thinks he can do well enough without Christ If God would let him serve Christ and the world and flesh with him he would not care much if he did buy but if he cannot have Christ at his own price farwel Christ and pardon and mercy and God and eternall life Mat 9.12 farwel for ever for him and all because the man is an whole man unbroken unhumbled But you have read in the former steps that the sinner before he comes thus far is throughly melted and therefore he is for any mould which God thinks good Yet I believe that a man or woman whom the Spirit of God hath brought over to Jesus Christ doth by the new nature bestowed on them or the law of God written within them resolve upon all known duties and against all known iniquities more out of love to God and holiness then out of any slavish fear of wrath and hell The man seeth by the law the contrariety of sin to the image of God and consequently to his own real and spiritual good whereby there ariseth within him not onely an estrangedness from but an emnity against sin though it were the object of his affections before yet t is the object of his passions now So for duties the soul is brought through working of the Spirit to approve and delight in the good and perfect and acceptable will of God Communion with God and conformity to God are the utmost of his desires and indeavours O how willingly doth this Christian take upon him the yoak of Christ not complaining of its uneasiness but of his own unholiness The man formerly was as a Virgin before marriage she standeth upon her terms she will indent with her Sweet heart what shall be setled upon
brains dasht out his great care is every day to conquer his corruptions The body of sin and death to which he is tied is as noisom to his soul as a dead body to his senses Lust is as burthensom to him as a withered arm which hangs on a man like a lump of lead Never did prisoner more ardently desire to be rid of his fetters then this Saint to be freed from subjection to his sins The distressed Jews did not groan so much under their Egyptian slavery as this true Israelite for spiritual liberty O wretched man that I am saith he who shall deliver me from this body of sin and death Rom. 7.29 His great end and endeavor in every providence and every Ordinance is not the repression but the ruine of this evil of sin If the Sun of mercy shine warm upon him he makes use of it to put out the kitchin fire of wickedness When God folaceth his spirit with extraordinary kindness the sacrifice of thanksgiving that he offereth up is the beast of some sin which he layeth on the Altar and poureth forth its blood before the Lord When the storm of affliction ariseth he enquireth for the Jonah which raised the tempest and endeavoureth that he may be cast over-board and drowned And as he makes use of divine Providences so likewise of divine Ordinances for the weakening his corruptions In prayer like the sick childe he pointeth at the place of his pain he indicteth accuseth and condemneth sin and intreateth that it may be executed his prayers and tears are his daily weapons wherewith he fighteth against his most inward and secret wickedness When he perceiveth lust like Adonijah usurping the throne of his heart he goeth in to God as Bathsheba to David sighing and saying Did not my Lord promise his servant that the true Solomon should reign in my soul that Jesus Christ the Prince of Peace should sway the scepter in my spirit And now behold his foes which thou hast sworn to make his footstool have trayterously aspired to the Crown and forcibly made me subject to their commands As Esther he is very desirous of these Hamans destruction and watcheth continually for a fit opportunity to present his Petition to the King of Kings for that end and when in any duty he seeth the God of glory to hold out the golden Scepter of mercy towards him O then he beggeth for justice If I have found favour in thy sight O King and if it please the King let the life of my soul be given me at my Petition and the death of my sins at my request Did thy dear Son die for sin and shall thy poor servant live in sin shall not these thine enemies which would not have thee to reign over me be slain before thy face Order my steps by thy word and let not any iniquity have dominion over me Psal 119.133 Thus by prayer as by one main piece of his spiritual armour he becomes prevalent The Romans overcame their enemies sitting that is the Senate by their prudent counsels but the Christian kneeling by his holy valour he wrestleth with God and through the power of Christ gets the victory 2 Cor. 12.6 And because the devil of some lusts will not be cast out without fasting and prayer therefore he joyneth fasting to supplication and trieth to starve his corruptions Before-hand he fitteth himself for that day of purging out his ill humors by the preparatory potion of meditation The consideration of his sins how bloody and hainous in their nature how crying and crimson in their circumstances makes his physick work the better He thinketh before The day of mourning for offending my father is coming and then I will slay my brother Jacob my dearest and nearest sin This man bringeth under his natural body which he may lawfully cherish that he may abate the strength of the body of death as men sometimes in a feaver open a vain and let out their blood though it be not bad that they may weaken their enemy In reading and hearing the Law of God he setteth his lusts naked before that sword of the Spirit that they may be hewn by the Prophets and slain by the words of Gods mouth He desires that it may pierce deep to the dividing of soul and spirit of the joynts and marrow and to the discovering of the thoughts and intents of his heart His voice to the Minister is like the Prophets to his neighbour Smite me I pray thee and likes him best that in smiting wounds his sin most he approves of that Chirurgion that searcheth his wounds throughly though he put him to pain he rejoyceth that the Preacher revealeth to him his errors that he may follow them with Hue and cry till they are taken and punished and so Gods pursuit of him may be prevented If the Minister give him a bitter pill of reproof he doth not like a queasie stomach favour his malady and loath his medicine but takes it down willingly knowing that though such things be not toothsom yet they are wholesom and that they must be bitter things that breaks the bag of worms in his stomach sweet things will nourish and cherish them He is glad that the word is fire that thereby his dross may be consumed that it is water because his heart thereby may be washed and purified He hideth the word in his heart that he may not sin against God Psal 119.11 He goeth to the Lords Supper that the blood of his sins may be shed by the blood of the Saviour The Cross of Christ is the souls armour and sins terror there is life in it for the death of sin Pliny saith that the fasting spittle of a man will kill Serpents Sure I am the blood of Christ applied by faith will mortifie sin and therefore the Saint frequenteth the Sacrament He goeth to it as Naaman to Jordan to be cured of his spiritual leprosie when he approacheth the table of the Lord and seeth in the bread broken and the wine poured out by faith Jesus Christ crucified before his eyes O how his heart burneth within him in hatred and indignation against his sins and in desires after and delight in his Redeemer He beholdeth there the knives of his pride unbelief hypocrisie malice and the like all redded in the blood of the Mediator and now his eyes sparkle with fire and fury and his soul swelleth with wrath and revenge against them were but his hand answerable to his heart I mean his power to his will he would put sin to as much pain make it suffer as much shame cause it to undergo as cursed a death as ever Jesus Christ did Now this frame of spirit exceedingly pleasing to the King of Saints he bespeaks the soul at the Sacrament as Herod did the damsel Ask of me what thou wilt and I will give it thee to the half nay to the whole of my Kingdom The soul having before consulted with his regenerate part for this
while thou livest As a burnt child thou shouldest ever dread that fire thy broken hone being once well set would be stronger then before Compare 2 Sam. 11.4 and 15. with 1 Câ—ron 11.18 19. Mark 14.29 with Iohn 21.15 16 17. thou shouldst after thy falls walk more dependingly on Christ more compassionately towards others and more watchfully over thine own heart What ever thy condition were it should tend to thine eternal consolation Every wind that blew whether the nipping North-winde of adversity or the cherishing South-winde of prosperity should neither of them wrong thee for Christ would give them a charge concerning thee as David his Captains concerning Absolom Do this young Convert no harm no discourtesie but deal gently with him for my sake yea they should both blow a blessing to thy soul though the providences of God might be sometimes painful to thine outward yet they should be alwayes profitable to thine inward man Infinite love would send all infinite wisdom would temper all and infinite power would dispose all for thy benefit the rod would ever be in the hand of a loving Father and therefore never used to ruine or harm thee but ever to reform and heal thee As in the revolution of the Heavens every Planet moveth in its proper orb their motions are various nay opposite yet by the wheeling round of the primum mobile they are all brought about to one determinate point And as the wheels of a watch though they move contrary wayes yet all serve to carry on the end of the workman to tell us the time of the day So though the providences and dealings of God be never so cross seemingly yet they should all tend to thine advantage really and finally and to carry on Gods design which is thy spiritual and eternal felicity In a word if afflictions did wait upon thee if temptations watch against thee if mercies did flow in or by iniquity thou didst fall down whether the dayes of thy pilgrimage were cloudy or clear shining or showring whatever weather thou travellest in towards thy Father House All things should work together for thy good if thou didst once love God and wert called according to his purpose Rom. 8.28 As all Gods providences should be profitable to thee so also in all thy performances thou shouldst be acceptable to God When thou shouldst approach the Lord of Glory he would give thee a meeting in the means of Grace he would bid thee welcom into his presence and warm thine heart with his spiritual influences thou mightest hear him speaking to the solace and wonder of thy soul O my Dove shew me thy face let me hear thy voice for sweet is thy voice and thy countenance is comely Cant. 2.14 The Spirit of God would assist thee in all thy performances enabling thee to offer up to God what came first from God and O how exceedingly would the Father be taken with and delight in his own childe The fruits of his Spirit would be pleasant fruits indeed Rom. 8.26 Cant. 4. ult Thou shouldst in every sacrifice give God thine heart which he could not but take kindly at thy hands Thy prayer would be his delight Sozomen said of Apollonius 〈◊〉 at he â—ever as â—ed that thing of God which was denied Prov. 15.8 Thy sweet breath would abundantly please him no musick could be so melodious to thee as thy prayers to him thou shouldst never ask any thing but he would grant it either in specie or pondere in money or money-worth The King of Heaven is not he that could do any thing against thee as that earthly King said Jer. 38.5 Thy prayer should come before him like incense and the lifting up of thine hands as morning and evening sacrifices which his soul would smell a sweet savour in His eyes would be alwayes open upon thy person with acceptance and therefore his ears would be open to thy prayers with audience Gen. 4.4 Thou like Esther shouldst be arrayed in thy best raiment the robes of thy Saviours righteousness and so appearing in the presence of the King shouldst finde such favour in his eyes that thy Petition should be granted and thy request performed though it were to the half to the whole of his Kingdom Thy duties should be performed with sutable graces At a Sacrament or in a Prayer thou shouldst draw nigh to him by faith Hebr. 10.22 Know thy distance from him by godly fear Hebr. 12.28 be made one with him by love John 17.23 which would enlarge thy heart in desires after him and ravish thy soul with delight in him Psal 73.25 Job 22.26 and thou shouldst walk with him throughout the duty with one foot of hope and the other of humility Thus graciously shouldst thou look up to him and he would graciously look down upon thee little dost thou think what powerful loadstones these Graces would be to draw forth his love Observe and admire Thou hast * Taken away my heart or behearted me Hebr. ravished my heart my sister my spouse thou hast ravished mine heart with one of thine eyes with one chain of thy neck How fair is thy love my sister my spouse how much better is thy love then wine and the smell of thine oinments then all spices Cantic 4.9 10 11. to the end Besides all thy performances would be perfumed by the Mediator There would indeed still be imperfection in thy graces which are poured by the Spirit into thy soul as pure liquor into a foul vessel Spring waters as they pass thorow the veins of the earth will taste of the minerals which they there salute so would thy gracious actions have their faults and defects because thou wouldst have stil an unregenerate part therefore duties as they came from thee would not have a good savour but Christ the Angel would stand at the Altar with sweet incense intercepting thy sacrifices and prayers in their passage to heaven purge away the iniquities of thy holy things with his own blood perfume thy duties with his infinite merits and so present them to his Father in his own name without the least defilement and then O then how pleasing and acceptable must they needs be to him Revel 8.3 4. As when a Servant is with a Master upon liking he doth his business so coldly and carelesly and is so indifferent about it that his Master takes little notice either of him or his work and all that time is lost But when he is once bound and the Indentures sealed and his father engaged for his faithfulness the Apprentice falls to his work with another manner of spirit and the Master now esteems it as service carrieth himself towards him as a Master resolves to teach him his trade and his time every day goes on So whilst a man is unregenerate he serveth God so coldly hypocritically and carnally that God accepts it not nay loaths it his performances they are as the cutting off of a dogs neck or the offering up of swines
prophaning it either by idleness or worldly labours or omission of duties and ordinances against the fifth in not carrying himself according to his duty towards them that are above him equal to him or below him Against the sixth seventh eighth ninth and tenth in wronging his neighbours either in regard of life chastity goods name relations either in thoughts words or actions It sheweth him the darkness of his understanding the stubbornness of his will the disorderedness of his affections the hardness of his heaâ—t the searedness of his conscience the mis-improvement of his outward parts how his eyes have beheld vanity his ears been open to iniquity all his senses been through-fares to sin all the members of his body instruments of unrighteousness how from the crown of the head to the soals of his feet there is no sound part in him nothing but wounds bruises and putrified sores It is not one or two sins that trouble this sinner but innumerable evils compass him about whole swarms of these Bees flie in his face and sting his conscience it may be one sin did first set upon him some sin against the light which God had given him and now that creditor hath cast him into prison all the rest come and clap their actions upon him to keep him there his sins in his dealings with men in his duties to God his sins against seasonable corrections against merciful dispensations his sins against the motions of Gods Spirit against the conviction of his own spirit against light love purposes promises they all compass the sinner round that he cannot escape now he sees the ugly loathsomness of all his lusts how they are against an infinite God against a righteous Law against a precious soul how by reason of them he is wholly unlike God and become the very picture of the Devil and truly now he is far from having those flattering thoughts of himself and favourable thoughts of his sins which formerly he had for sins part t is abounding polluting poisonous sinful sin He seeth the wrinckles of this Jezabels face under her paint and O how ugly is she in his eyes and for himself he is more out of love then ever he was in love with himself Some say after they have had the Small-pox that they come to see themselves in a glass they look so ugly by reason of their spots that they cannot endure to see themselves Truly this poor sinner beholding himself in the glass of the Law and viewing those hellish spots of sin all over his soul and body he abhorreth himself in dust and ashes This is the first thing the Spirit convinceth the soul of and that is sin When he is come he shall convince the world of sin Joh. 16.8 God never cured a spiritual Leper but he caused him to fall down first and cry out unclean unclean Secondly The Spirit convinceth him of his miserable and dreadful condition Now the commandments of God come to the soul sin reviveth and the sinner dieth He thought before that he was whole a sound man to have little need of a Physician but now he both seeth his sores and feeleth his wounds Ministers before had frequently told him of his dangerous damnable estate but he had a shield to keep off all their darts He was not so bad as they took him to be somewhat they must say for their money and besides though he were as bad as such precise censorious Preachers would make him to be yet God was a merciful God and Jesus Christ died for sinners and he hoped to be saved as well as the best of them but now God comes to him as he did to Adam after his fall Adam where art thou Hast thou eaten of the tree of which I said unto thee thou shalt not eat Sinner where art thou Dost thou know what thou art doing and whether thou art going how darest thou prophane my day blaspheme my name scoff at my people neglect my worship cast my Laws behinde thy back and hate to be reformed Darest thou provoke the Lord to anger art thou stronger then he how will thine heart endure or thine hands be strong in the day that I shall deal with thee Dost not know poor dry stubble that 't is a fearful thing to fall into my hands for I am a consuming fire Now the sinner heareth the voice of God and is afraid Alas alas thinks he I am a dead a damned man the Almighty God is angry the weight of my sins at present is heavy but the sufferings which I am every moment liable to are infinite and eternal O that I should ever be born to do as I have done Now the lightnings of divine fury flash in his eyes and the canons of the Laws curses thunder in his ears he seeth a sharp sword of pure wrath hanging by a slender thread of life over his head he feeleth the stingings of his sins those fiery serpents at his heart There is no rest in his flesh because of Gods anger nor quietness in his bones because of his sins the arrows of the Almighty are within him and the poison thereof drinks up his spirit the waves and billows of God go over his soul and he sinketh in deep waters God writeth bitter things against him and makes him to possess the sins of his youth Now the man is calmed he will hear what God speaketh before though God himself had told him out of his word what a wicked wretched man he was he would not minde it but storm and rage at it he was like a wilde Ass snuffing up the wind and as an untam'd heifer impatient of the yoke he would kick and fling like a mad man What he give credit to the doctrine and submit to the severe discipline of a few whimsical Puritans that must be wiser then all their neighbors no not he though they shewed him the very hand of God in Scripture to those warrants which they desired him to obey But now he is of another mind for the Law hath shut him up under sin and guilt Gal. 3.22 The Law hath pent him in and shut him up that he cannot possibly get out As Lions Bears and wilde beasts are tamed by being shut up and kept in so the Law causeth wrath Rom. 4.15 shuts the sinner up under it and keeps him in that his former starting holes cannot help him and thereby tames him While he was unconvinced of his sins and misery his conscience was seared not troubled at all the threatnings which were denounced against him but now his conscience is sore touch it which way you will you put him to pain tell him under this conviction of his drunkenness or swearing or atheism or eagerness after this world heartlesness about the things of the other world his neglecting God in secret of not instructing and praying with his family tell him how cold and customary he was in his devotion saying to others that they took more pains for heaven
then they needed to do of his justifying himself in his transgressions and taking part with Satan against his own soul he crieth Guilty Guilty when such Bills of indictment are read against him but every word in them is a deep wound to him the wolf in the brest and worms in the belly do not cause half that pain which his wickedness doth by gnawing in his conscience Tell him of the Gospel how infinitely merciful God is and how inconceivably meritorious Christ is and how freely the glad tidings of the Gospel are offered to all O this toucheth him to the quick the sword of the Gospel cuts him more to the heart then the sword of the Law O saith he This this is my death were it not for this I should have some hopes of life but alas I have abused mercy which is the only friend I have left I have despised Christ and neglected the great salvation which was tendred to me in the Gospel Vile creature that I am Mercy Love and Grace came many a time woing me how did Jesus Christ himself with pardon and life come beseeching me begging of me to open my heart and let him in and yet cursed wretch that I was I denied him when the world could lie warm in my bosom all night and sin get a good room in my soul yet my Saviour must stand without and not be thought worthy to be let in I have most unworthily spurned against his bowels of compassion scorned his sweetest and most affectionate perswasions most desperately refused the only means of my recovery and therefore I what shall I do whether shall I go If one man sin against another the judge shall judge him 1 Sam. 2.25 but if a man sin against the Lord who shall entreat for him If I had sinned only against my Creator my Redeemer might have satisfied for me but I wretched I have sinned against my Redeemer and therefore who shall intreat for me O the frights and fears the horrors and terrors which this poor creature suffereth under the sight and sence of his sins and guilt but the fore-thoughts of an everlasting miscarriage in the other world sinks him quite down that he is able to hold up no longer Thus the Spirit first plougheth up the fallow-ground of the heart before he casteth into it the seed of grace he first captivates the sinner and brings him into a spiritual dungeon under chains of guilt and horror that the very irons enter into his soul before he proclaimeth liberty to the captive Isa 61.1 2. and the opening of the prison to them that are bound Some indeed are brought lower then others with legal terror but surely not a few have sailed to Heaven by the very gates of Hell God is resolved that men shall feel sin either here or hereafter Thirdly The Spirit convinceth him of the impotency and weakness of all the things in the world to help him that in the whole garden of Nature there is never an herb which can make a salve to heal his wounded conscience Now the sinner is scorched with the heat of Gods wrath he is like a man in a burning feaver full of pain and he tumbleth and tosseth from one side of the bed to the other trying and hoping for ease he goeth to this carnal comfort or that humane help to have his pain abated and his sores cured but none of them will do as fast as he claps on those carnal plaisters the Spirit causeth his conscience to rub them off It may be first the man useth forreign drugs he being troubled in conscience goeth with Cain to the building of Cities to earthly imployments that the noise of the hammers might drown the voice of conscience that his minde and body being occupied about other things conscience might have no time nor leasure to proceed in preaching its cutting Lectures or else like Saul he runneth to his musick to carnal contentments to merry meetings jovial companions his preferment or pleasures in the world or some carnal diversion if it be possible to turn the water of his thoughts into another channel and so to keep that mill from going which makes such a clacking dreadful noise in his ears and threatneth to grind him to powder Thus sinfully foolish is man as soon as ever a fire is kindled in his soul which would aspire to heaven he runneth with his buckets to earthly springs and fetcheth water thence to quench it the throws of the new birth do no sooner come upon him but he like some simple women takes cooling things which cause his labour to go back again But the Holy Ghost for I am now speaking of one in whom the Spirit goeth through with the work makes all these things empty to him the vertue of those poor cordials is soon spent and now the man is as sick as before Conscience for all these interruptions still followeth him with its Hue and Cry by a warrant from Heaven for the breach of Gods Statutes that the sinner can house nowhere in any of these worldly comforts but conscience is at his heels raising the Town upon him and giveth him no rest the man finds this physick but like hot water to one in a cold fit of an ague which warms a little at present but makes his hot fit the more violent When the sinner findes that his exotical drugs will not cure him he will try in the next place Kitchin physick he will be his own both Doctor and Apothecary he hopeth that his praying and grieving and trouble of minde and resolution to be better will satisfie Gods justice and pacifie his own conscience and heal it throughly O how the man endeavors to lick himself whole man is a proud creature unwilling to beg or borrow of his neighbors very solicitous rather to make a poor shift with what he hath of his own The Mariners will row hard in a storm to get to shore by their own power before they will awake Jesus with Save us Master or we perish But the Spirit convinceth him of the insufficiency of all his prayers and tears and duties to appease God or satisfie his Law the Spirit sheweth him the narrowness and shortness of all his rags how they cannot possibly cover his nakedness conscience telleth him that by his very duties he is so far from paying his old score that he runneth further in debt Alas saith Conscience thy very duties may damn thee He who is of purer eyes then to behold iniquity seeth a thousand holes in thy best coat the holy God seeth sins enough in them to send thee into Hell for them Canst thou poor begger with thy counterfeit farthings think to pay an infinite sum Can thy poor finite performances satisfie infinite Justice for the violation of his righteous precepts And for thy resolutions of better obedience canst thou think that future obedience can satisfie for former disobedience No though thou couldst offer thousands of rams and ten
Cor. 3.8 Rom. 1.12 Gal. 3.2 As that word of God to Abraham Sarah thy wife shall have a Son Gen. 18.10 That word I say gave birth and being to Isaac when there was no likelyhood or possibility of his being from his parents so the word of God give a spiritual birth and being to men and women when there is no likelyhood or possibility in nature yea when their natures are in flat opposition and contrariety to it The word discovereth our diseases Rom. 7.7 Jam. 2.9 makes us feel our sickness Rom. 7.9 applyeth the medicine for our cure Mat. 11.28 Isa 55.1 Rom. 10.14 The word killeth sin casteth down Satan enliveneth the soul Eph. 6.15 Jer. 23.29 Rev. 12.11 Joh. 5.24 Joh. 17.17 Isa 11.6 7 8 9. Rom. 1.16 1 Cor. 1.18 Jam. 1.18 Thus thou seest that the Physitian of souls hath several meanes for the cure of thy malady do not thou neglect any neither reading nor hearing neither fasting nor praying neither meditation nor godly conference neither secret nor private nor publike duties for thou knowest not which may do the deed Christ may wait at that very door which thou keepest shut at that ordinance which thou omittest to enter into thy soul If thou desirest that he should meet thee in any duty do thou meet him in every duty How foolish art thou to take any one horse out of the team when the load is so weighty even thine endless welfare and all little little enough to draw thine untoward heart towards heaven The Husbandman that hath a piece of ground which lyeth at the end of his fallow still balked before will be sure to plough that up and expecteth a better crop out of that then out of any such quantity of ground in the field Reader if thou hast balked any of the forementioned duties for thy souls sake set upon it speedily for undoubtedly thou mayst reap a greater harvest by it then thou imaginest Friend have a care of secret private publike duties for all must be minded by them that would be new-moulded How many thousands among us do wilfully murder their souls some poison them by crying enormities others starve them by the omission of duties It was a pitiful equivocatiof the Duke D' Alva before Harlem that promised the Souldiers their lives and afterwards kild them with hunger saying That though he promised them their lives yet he did not promise that they should have food Art not thou a cheater and murderer of thy foul in promising it spiritual life when thou denyest it the means of life As ever thou wouldst have an harvest of grace do thou plough up and sow the ground of thine heart with all the means which God hath ordained for that end Thirdly be thou serious in thine attendance on the ordinances of God Be in earnest when thou art about soul affairs consider when thou art praying or hearing or reading or conferring with Christians it is for thy life it is for thy soul it is for eternity and do whatsoever the Lord calleth thee to do for the quickening thy dying soul with all thine heart with all thy might for there is no doing it in the grave whither thou art hastening When Samson would destroy the enemies of God He bowed himself with all his might Judg. 16.30 When David was waiting upon the Ark of God He danced before the Lord with all his might 2 Sam. 6.14 So when thou hearest for the death of thy sins thou shouldst hear with all thy might Ezek 40.4 When thou prayest for the life of thy soul thou shouldst pray with all thy might 1 Thes 5.17 Ah how should they hear and read and pray for regeneration that have but a few days nay hours possibly to do it in between whom and eternal burnings there is but a little airy breath and if they be not Regenerated before they die they are ruined they are damned for ever A childe may handle the mothers brest and play with it and kisse it but all this while he gets no good till at last he layeth his mouth to the breast gets the Nipple fast sucks with his might and strength and then he draweth nourishment Reader it may be thou hast minded duties and frequented ordinances yet possibly hast got no good by them 't is likely then that thou dost but play with them dally about them doing them as if thou didst them not if ever therefore thou wouldst get good by them thou must be serious and in earnest about them do them with all thy soul with all thy strength knowing that they are of infinite weight and endless concernment to thee considering that if God do not now hear thee in thy day of grace he will never never hear thee and if thou do not now hear him thou shalt shortly never never more have such an offer I doubt not friend but thou art serious about toys and trifles thou canst rise early and go to bed late and work hard all day and have thy mind stedfastly occupied about these foolish things of the world from which within a short time thou shalt be parted for ever How busie are vain men like a company of Ants to increase their heap of earth O think of it is it not pity such a plant should grow in Egypt which would thrive so well in Canaan How fitly how finely would that seriousness and fervency which thou usest about earth become and sute with heaven Ah t would be worth the while to be most covetous and sedulous about the things of God and Christ thy soul and Eternity Fourthly Be constant in the use of the means of Grace pray and wait hear and wait read and wait watch and wait In the morning sow thy seed in the evening with-hold not thine hand for thou knowest not whether shall prosper either this or that or whether they both shall be alike good Eccles 11.6 in every morning sow thy seed pray read meditate in the evening with-hold not thine hand do the same for thou knowest not which shall prosper at which the Spirit of God will give thee a gracious effectual meeting for thy conversion or salvation or whether both shall conduce equally to thy spiritual and eternal advantage Do not expect like the Hyperboreans to sow and reap in a day allow some distance between seed time and harvest Physick doth not work immediately when it s taken into the body be confident thou shalt reap in time if thou dost not faint Suppose thou wert sick of some mortal painful disease a dead man in thy own and others thoughts and an able faithful Physitian should warrant thy cure in time upon condition that thou wouldst follow his advice and diet thy self all the while wouldst thou not use all that he prescribed and wait and long to be recovered Thou wast wounded in a moment but art not so soon recovered 't is good to wait Gods leisure what Christ said in regard of his coming in Judgement I say in regard of