blesses them they shall be blessed and promises they shall be filled Mat. 5. 6. Righteousness imputed is and that with very good reason prized by Believers and Righteousness inherent is earnestly desired they long to be made more holy more holy in heart more holy in all manner of conversation to have cleaner hands hearts purer they groan earnestly to be sanctified throughout in Body Soul and Spirit and to be established unblameable in holiness to the end Doest thou vehemently desire to be bettered by every mercy To be refined more and more every time thou art cast into the furnace of affliction And to become more holy by every Ordinance thou engagest in This Sacra Fames holy hunger is in thee and thou art blessed 6. Those are in a State of Grace who prize the Word of God at an high rate All that are born again desire as new born Babes the sincere milk of the Word that they may grow thereby 1 Pet. 2. 2. Hark to our Lord. Joh. 8. 47. He that is of God heareth Gods words ye therefore hear them not because ye are not of God With good reason do gracious Souls value the Word of God for it is the incorruptible seed whereof they are born again 't is the Food whereby they are nourished 't is the Physick whereby they are healed 't is the Cordial whereby they are revived 't is the Weapon wherewith they defend themselves against their spiritual Enemies Finally 't is the main Deed they have to shew for the heavenly inheritance If this Word of God be understood believed and received by thee in the love of it if thou desirest to be cast into the mould of the Word and in all things to conform to it if Davids language be thine Psal 119. 33 34 35. Teach me O Lord the way of thy Statutes and I shall keep it to the end Give me understanding and I shall keep thy Law yea I shall observe it with my whole heart Make me to go in the path of thy commandments for therein do I delight This will argue that thou hast a good and honest heart indeed 7. Those are in a state of grace who have the Spirit of Prayer The Apostle Paul assoon as ever translated into this state has this Character Behold he prayeth Act. 9. 11. 't is more than probable he had spoken the words of prayer many a time before while he was a zealous Son of the Jewish Church but now he prayed in Gods account now he prayed in the holy Ghost They that are hypocrites may excell in the gift of Prayer God may be much in their mouths and their expressions may be fluent and seemingly affectionate when yet he is far from their reins But the Spirit of grace and supplication is peculiar to the Saints Now such as have the Spirit of prayer their desires are drawn forth with greatest strength and fervour after Spiritual and eternal blessings They intreat the favour of God and fellowship with him with their whole heart they beg for the increase of Faith Fear and Love and every other grace and that they may be filled with the fruits of righteousness which are by Jesus Christ unto the glory and praise of God and that being delivered from every evil work they may be preserved to his heavenly Kingdom Thus the Spirit makes intercession for them according to the will of God Rom. 8. 26 27. 8. They are in a state of Grace who love the brethren 1 Joh. 3. 14. Hereby we know we are passed from death to life because we love the brethren Now right love to the brethren is love with a pure heart and a good conscience 't is a fervent love 't is love to all the Saints though but poor in the world though of a different persuasion The image of God is loved wherever 't is found and the more of it is found 't is lookt upon as more lovely 'T is one thing to love the Saints because they are good natured because they are beautiful because they are bountiful because they are wise and discreet and 't is another thing to love them because they are holy And truly if the more holy they are the more we love them and the more plainly they deal with us by reprehension and advice in order unto our progress in sanctification and holiness the more and better we like them this is a clear and solid evidence of our being Saints our selves Moreover true Saints are of a publick Spirit they are concerned for the whole Church Militant and cry aloud that she may be preserved in purity unity and love and may more than conquer all enemies and come at last to be Triumphant 9. They are in a state of Grace who endure to the end and are not weary of well-doing He that endures to the end shall be saved says Christ and If ye continue in my word then are ye my Disciples indeed Joh. 8. 31. The sincerely Righteous ones not withstanding all difficulties oppositions trials tribulations hold on their way and they that have clean hands do wax stronger and stronger Job 17. 9. They fight the good fight of Faith to the last breath and by patient continuance in wel-doing they seek for glory honour and immortality and at last lay hold on eternal life Rom. 2. 7. Thus you have the Touchstone of the Word to prove your selves by And what this Word binds on earth is bound in heaven what this Word looses on earth is loosed in heaven If you continue in a state which this Word pronounces bad you will certainly be condemned but if your state be such as this Word declares good you will as certainly be acquitted rewarded and crown'd at the great approaching Day In the sixth place I am to inform you of the special seasons when this duty of self-proving is to be performed and the seasons are these 1. We ought to prove our selves before we engage in the ordinance of the Lords Supper There must be a Spiritual life or else there cannot be a fitness to be a guest at the Lords Table A dead Corps set at a Feast would be a frightful Spectacle to all there neither could a dead body eat any of the dainties prepared He that is dead in trespasses and sins is not a worthy Communicant for he wants the grace of Faith which is as the eye to discern the hand to receive and the mouth to eat the Lord Jesus who is the bread of life The Lords Supper is not an Ordinance designed to work the first grace for if 't were then none ought to be excluded the greatest Sinners are to be admitted to converting Ordinances and there would be no such thing as Excommunication in the Church of Christ But the design of it is to increase and strengthen and make more and more evident that grace which is already wrought Therefore we must prove what we are before we engage 1 Cor. 11. 28 29. But let a man examine himself and
turned into shame and thy Tongue is set on fire of Hell Examine thy self strictly whether thou dost abhor lying Words As one that beleives all lyers shall have their portion in the Lake that burns with Fire and Brimstone which is the second Death Rev. 21. 8. Examine whether thou dost make Conscience of Backbiting thy Neighbour of Receiving and spreading a reproach against him If thou art a backbiter a slanderer a railer where is thy love to thy Brother and how canst thou call thy self a Citizen of Sion Psal 15. 1 2 3. Filthy and foolish talking and Jesting is unbecoming a Christians mouth this is to be avoided as well as Oaths and Cursing And ever remember that in multitude of Words there wanteth not sin and therefore what Job speaks unto his Friends turn it into a petition unto God Job 6. 24. Teach me and I will hold my Tongue unless my duty oblige to speak to thy Glory 8. Ask thy self Have I been spiritual in my civil Employments Was my conversation at all in Heaven or did I only mind Earthly things all the day long 'T is the duty of Christians to have the things of this World as though they had none of them to Buy as though they possessed not to use this World as not abusing it because the fashion of this World passeth away 1 Cor. 7. 30 31. The work of the Calling is to be minded and to be idle therein is to walk very disorderly 2 Thess 3. 11 12. But yet the working out of our Salvation is to be lookt upon as the main business of our lives unto which we should make our other actions to become subservient As the Grace of God makes a difference between the Christian and another man so the Christian should not only Pray and Hear but also Buy and Sell and Trade and deal in the matters of the World after a different manner He should always be in the Fear of God always eying his Rule and act conscientiously He should be wise unto that which is Good but simple concerning Evil He should not be over eager after nor trust in uncertain Riches nor be high-minded because of them But remember his time on Earth is short and as he must quickly leave the World so he must also give an account whether he has improved the World to the Glory of God and by doing of Good with what he has he has made unto himself a friend of the Mammon of Vnrighteousness Luke 16. 9. 9. Ask thy self Have I been careful to Redeem Time I count my Jewels my Gold my Silver too precious to throw about the Streets but have I not been prodigal and lavish of time which is of greater value and which no price can purchase when once 't is past and gone Those who are in Heaven how glad are they that they improved Time and made good provision for Eternity And they who are in Hell how do they Curse their Folly in wasting such a Treasure and wish they had never had either any time or any being since the time which was given them to repent in was spent inmaking themselves for ever miserable Mark O man how thy time passes How fast how constantly thy glasse runs Examine what becomes of all thy time and unto what account it turns If the filings of Gold are saved surely every parcel of time is highly worth Redeeming Let things that must be done have time sufficient let things that may be done have time convenient and for those things which ought not to be done le them have no time at all In a word so number thy dayes as to apply thy Heart unto Wisdom Psal 90. 12. Every day think of Death which will end all thy days 10. Ask thy self Have I received Mercies thankfully and born Crosses patiently A Christians Pilgrimage is chequer-work a mixture of black and white together sometimes he may want sometimes he may abound He should know how to do both as the Apostle did Phil. 4. 12. Mercies are designed to be as cords to draw thee and Afflictions as rods to drive thee nearer unto God let both attain their end What high ingratitude is it against Heaven and what an injurious disservice to thy self to take the Mercies of God and serve thy Lusts and Satan with them Let every days kindness overcome thee and be sure to glorifie that God in whose hand thy Breath and Life is and from whose hand thou dost receive every benefit and in whom is all thy hope of future happiness And if he does afflict thee do not murmur for whom the Lord Loves he chastens whom he chastens he does design their profit and can there be truer profit then to be made in a greater measure partakers of the Lords Holiness Heb. 12. 6. 10. If thou dost but wait a while thou will see a light some lamp to follow a smoaking Furnace Gen. 15. 17. An happy issue of all thy troubles Affliction will be a means so to clear thy sight and cleanse thy Soul that thou wilt grant there is reason to kiss the rod and to acknowledge the faithfulness and care of him that used it 11. Ask thy self How much am I advanced in Heavens way farther to day then I was yesterday How many new steps have I taken towards the New Jerusalem Have I indeed gone forward in the narrow path which leads to Life or have I stood still or gone backward 'T is our duty to grow in Grace 2 Pet. 3. ult To follow on to know the Lord and to follow still harder after him Our Salvation growes nearer and nearer every day and therefore our motions should be more strong and sprightly towards our home and centre Examine every day what Grace thou hast strengthened what corruption thou hast weakned that day Hast thou lower thoughts of thy self And higher thoughts of the Grace of God Is thy Faith more firm and operative Is thy love more ardent and constraining Art thou more fit for thy Masters use and prepared unto every good work and more meet to be a partaker of the Inheritance of the Saints in Light That day is certainly lost in which more Grace is not gained and in which never a step is taken in the way Everlasting Oh! Be such Just and Righteous ones as Solomon speaks of and let your path be as the shining Light which shineth more and more unto the perfect day 12. Ask thy self Have I waited on God all this day long Has my dependance been upon him My expectation of all good from him And my care to do what is good in his sight 'T is both our duty and our honour to wait on our God continually as a Servant waits upon his Master as a Son upon his Father Hark unto David Psal 25. Lead me in thy truth and teach me for thou art the God of my Salvation on thee do I wait all the day We ought to be sensible that all our springs are in God and that 't is
it than if it were not of Divine Original and Authority but meerly of humane invention Joh. 3. ult He that believeth not the Son shall not see life but the wrath of God abideth on him Mar. 16. 16. He that believeth not shall be damned Joh. 8. 24. If ye believe not that I am He the true Messiah the only Saviour ye shall die in your sins Hell is in a special manner called the portion of the unbelievers If Jesus Christ the only expiatory sacrifice for sins be despised there remaineth no other besides but a certain fearful looking for of vengeance and of fiery indignation which shall devour the adversaries Heb. 10. 3. They are in a state of Nature that are resolved workers of iniquity Let the Lord be never so angry and threaten what he pleases they dare to sin notwithstanding Children of disobedience must needs be the children of wrath Col. 3. 6. The wrath of God cometh upon the children of disobedience Those whose hearts speak that language Jer. 44. 16. As for the word which thou hast spoken to us in the name of the Lord we will not hearken to thee but are bewitched by the pleasure and gain of sin still to continue the servants of it these are the persons which shall at last receive the wages of sin death eternal 'T is a mad resolution to be proud and filthy and unjust and profane whatever the Gospel commands to the contrary 't is in effect to give consent to be punished with everlasting destruction from the presence of the Lord and from the glory of his power 2. Thes 1. 8. 9. 4. They are in a state of Nature who under a profession of Religion practise wickedness secretly or at least regard iniquity in their hearts How many woes does our Lord thunder out against Hypocrites in one Chapter and at last concludes with a terrible vehemency Ye serpents ye generation of vipers how can ye escape the damnation of hell Mat. 23. 33. Hell is especially prepared for the Hypocrites as well as for the unbelievers If our hearts and hands are full of wickedness malice filthiness and secret dishonesty if we can commit sin delightfully and securely as long as 't is done closely what do all our duties signifie The Lord abhors both us and them Hark how he speaks to such Hypocrites Bring no more vain oblations Sabbaths and calling of Assemblies I cannot away with it is iniquity even the solemn Meeting they are a trouble to me I am weary to bear them And when you spread forth your hands I will hide mine eyes from you and though you make many prayers yet I will not hear you Esa 1. 13 14 15. 5. They are in a state of Nature who are lovers of this present World 1 Joh. 2. 15. Love not the World neither the things that are in the World if any man love the World the love of the Father is not in him The love of the Father may be taken actively and passively The lover of this World has no sincere love to the Father nor any interest in the Fathers special love How plainly and severely does the Apostle James speak Jam. 4. 4. Ye Adulterers and Adulteresses know ye not that the friendship of the World is enmity with God whoever therefore will be a friend of the World is the enemy of God Then we may be said to be friends and lovers of the World when we conform to the sinful customs and manners and fashions of the World living by sence as the World does and when in our hearts and eager pursuits we prefer the VVorld and the gain delights and preferments of it before God before Christ before Grace before Glory Thou that in thy heart despisest a Treasure in Heaven and really esteemest Silver and Gold of far greater value 't is as impossible for thee while of this mind to go to Heaven as for a Camel to go through the eye of a Needle The young man in the Gospel was of an unblameable conversation but he wanted one thing and indeed the principal to make him a real Saint a true Disciple because he valued his great possessions above Christ and a treasure in Heaven that was offered to him Mat. 19. 20 24. Of this mind was that worldly-minded Papist who said He would not leave his part in Paris for a part in Paradise 6. They are in a state of Nature who go about to establish their own Righteousness this was the fault and the ruine of the Jews of old they thought their own righteousness sufficient and the establishing of their own righteousness was their own downfal a proud conceit of their own righteousness hindred them from submitting to the righteousness of God Rom. 10. 3. Trusting in our righteousness will prove as destructive to us as continuance in our iniquities If we think by our prayers and duties and deeds of righteousness to satisfie for the sins which we have committed against the Lord of Heaven 't is a sign we do not understand the Holiness and Justice of God nor the nature and demerit of Sin nor the imperfection of our very best services 'T is a sign of great pride and that Jesus Christ and our need of him are not rightly understood and thus being whole in our own conceit or thinking we can make our selves whole we shall fall short of the onely Saviour who came to seek and to save that which is lost Luk. 9. 10. Who is a Physician not to the well but to the sick Who came to call not the Righteous but Sinners to repentance Mat. 9. 12 13. 7. They are in a state of Nature who are haters of their Brethern God is love but malice is one great part of the Devils Image 1 Joh. 3. 15. Whosoever hateth his Brother is a Murtherer and ye know that no Murtherer hath eternal life abiding in him The malicious man Cain is his Brother Beelzebub is his Father but he is certainly a stranger and enemy to the God of love and peace Let a man speak never so confidently that he is in the light yet if he hate his Brother he is in darkness even until now 1 Joh. 2. 9. so 1 Joh. 3. 10. In this the Children of God are manifested and the Children of the Devil whosoever doth not righteousness is not of God neither he that loveth not his Brother True love will suffer long and be kind it will not envy or be easily provoked it will bear and believe all things it will forgive and cover a multitude of sins But they that will not forgive others 't is expresly said themselves shall not be forgiven Mat. 6. 15. If ye forgive not men their trespasses neither will your Father forgive your trespasses Hatred of the Brethren is a black mark indeed especially if the Brethren are hated because they faithfully reprove and for their holiness sake 8. They are in a state of Nature who embrace damnable Heresies being given up to strong delusions to
upon things above Slavish fear does not act us but the Sanctifying Spirit Slavish fear cannot make us desire to be acted not by Slavish fear but it must needs be some other Principle that is put within us Augustine compares Childlike and Slavish fear unto two Women that are married the one is Chaste the other desires to be an Harlot but is not one through fear of her Husbands anger The chaste one fears her Husbands displeasure but loves his company the wanton one fears her Husbands displeasure but wishes his absence Now suppose this wanton Wife should begin to grudge her heart to others and should desire to love and delight in her Husband she would then be no longer acted by a Slavish fear but it would argue her mind changed and that there were some beginning of conjugal affection and sense of her duty A desire to love the Lord above all can never be the product of meer fear but manifests a sense that he is indeed most desirable 6. They that are acted meerly by Slavish fear though they are affrighted at the thoughts of Hell yet Spiritual things are not suitable to them they do not mind and savour the things of the Spirit but only the things of the Flesh which shews an unchanged heart though there be an awakened Conscience The heart of such is all for the earth and carthly things and these things are really preferr'd before grace and glory The World unto such unrenewed ones is lookt upon as a better and more proper portion than God himself If therefore the World is become low in our esteem and the vanity of it evident and we had rather have the Lord to be our God and Father and portion than to have the greatest abundance of earthly enjoyments without him this speaks a real love and not a servile fear only 't is a good sign when the greatest outward felicity and prosperity is judged inferior to that happiness of having the Lord to be our God Psal 144. ult 7. They that are acted meerly by Slavish fear are not jealous of themselves and afraid lest they should be acted by nothing else This very concernedness and godly jealousie argues gracious desires and principles In a word Slavish fear will never carry us so far as to make us consent unto a true and lasting Conversion unto God False motives can never make us desire to be truly sincere and upright Christians and to be acted only by motives that are right If therefore in Religion we are willing that our Principles should be pure and good our ends right and our actions and the manner of doing them according to the will of God it may serve to satisfie us that we are of Davids mind who prayed and such a prayer never meets with a deaf ear Psal 119. 80. Let my heart be sound in thy Statutes that I be not ashamed Case 5. The fifth Case is this How may we know that we have indeed accepted Christ He is offered unto all received by few He stands at the door and knocks but few hear his voice and open the door to him We may call our selves by his Name and profess to be his and receive his Ordinances and engage in them and yet not receive himself and yet this Reception must be else there can be no Reconciliation no Adoption no Salvation Thus therefore we may prove our selves and know whether we have indeed received Christ 1. If we have accepted Christ we have seen so as to be affected with our need of him The prodigal was ready to perish in the far Country necessity drove him home to his Fathers house The Israelites in the Wilderness were stung and ready to die by the fiery Serpents and then they lookt up unto the Brazen Serpent for cure We shall never upon right terms receive our Lord and Saviour till we perceive we are lost and ruin'd and must needs be everlastingly miserable without him Oh then we shall subscribe to any Articles of agreement that Jesus may be ours who can justifie us by his blood and deliver us from the wrath to come 1 Thes 1. ult 2. If we have accepted Christ we have been made dead to the Law Rom. 7. 4. Wherefore my Brethren ye are become dead to the Law by the body of Christ that ye should be married to another even to him that is raised from the dead that we should bring forth fruit unto God So Gal. 2. 19. I am dead to the Law that I might live unto God You must not imagine by deadness to the Law is meant such a disobligation from it that we have no tie upon us to obey it for the Apostle hear speaks of living unto God and bringing forth fruit to him Now living unto God and bringing forth the fruits of righteousness is what the law requires Then therefore we are dead to the Law when we are not irritated and provoked to transgress because the Law forbids transgression and when we expect no justification before God by our obedience to the Law By the deeds of the Law shall no Flesh be justified in his sight Rom. 3. 20. There is not any Law given which can give life to the Sinner for then righteousness and justification should have been by the Law Gal. 3. 21. Those therefore that receive Christ receive him as The Lord their Righteousness and dare not expect justification before God upon the account of any obedience or righteousness of their own 3. If we have accepted Christ we are reconciled to the Cross we shall rely upon Christ crucified being persuaded that the blood shed upon the Cross for Sin was the blood of him that was truely God as well as man and consequently sufficient to make an atonement for us and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness 1 Joh. 1. 7. We shall also conform to the crucifixion of Christ by crucifying the Flesh with the affections and lusts of it Gal. 5. 24. The World also will be crucified to us Gal. 6. 14. Sin has laid it under a Curse and we shall look upon the World as the Jews did on Christ when they crucified him as having no form nor comliness no such beauty in it that we should so eagerly desire it Finally we shall be willing to take up the Cross and deny our selves and suffer persecution and go through any tribulation which lies in our way to the Kingdom of Heaven They that are offended at persecution and in such times of temptation fall away never received Christ or his Word into their hearts indeed 4. If we have accepted Christ we submit unto his Scepter entertain his Word and are willing to obey him God hath exalted him to be a Prince and a Saviour and Believers must gladly consent that this Saviour should be exalted into the throne of their hearts and rule as Prince there They who will not have this Lord to reign over them are Enemies and shall be dealt with and destroyed as Enemies at last
sorrow when the heart is grieved it is so hard and can sorrow no more for Sin Such an heart will carefully shun whatever has an hardning effect and oh how is that promise prized and the accomplishment of it longed for Ezek. 36. 26. A new heart will I give you and a new spirit will I put within you and I will take away the heart of stone out of your flesh and I will give you an heart of flesh And when once Sinners are sensible so as to inquire and seek unto the God of Israel to do this for them here is a good work begun in them I grant such may fear sometimes they are judicially hardned but that very fear plainly shews the contrary if they were under such a judgment they would cease to be afraid of it 2. It argues a beginning of a work of Grace when a Sinner is troubled to see such an opposition in his corrupted nature against God and desires to be turned indeed Thus Ephraim bemoans himself that he was as a Bullock unaccustomed to the Yoke and he cryes to be instructed and that God would shew his power and grace in the turning of him Jer. 31. 18. and vers 20. we find the Lord owns Ephraim as his dear Son as a pleasant Child and says he does earnestly remember him and will surely have mercy upon him It argues a new nature when we are weary of the old and that the bent and inclination of the heart is really changed when backwardness unto what is good begins to be burthensom 3. There is a work of Grace where there is a resolution to go unto God and confess all Sin unto him without hiding any through a desire to keep it When David thus without guile does resolve upon Confession God resolves upon Remission and forgives him presently Psal 32. 5. I acknowledged my sin unto thee and my iniquity have I not hid I said I will confess my transgressions to the Lord and thou forgavest the iniquity of my sin Selah Hark what Solomon says He that covereth his Sins shall not prosper but he that confesseth and forsaketh them shall have mercy And the Apostle speaks a great word 1 Joh. 1. 9. If we confess our Sins he is faithful and just to forgive us our Sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness O thou sensible and drooping and trembling Soul who comest unto God with black Bills of Indictment against thy self Is all thy wickedness down there that thou knowest Hast thou not left out one or other that is a darling Oh no here are all down and the darling sins in a special manner acknowledged and aggravated and I am willing to forsake all as well as to have the pardon of all If it be so chear up for Confess and be saved is the Gospel language When David said I have sinned against the Lord Nathan answers The Lord hath put away thy Sin thou shalt not die 2 Sam. 12. 13. 4. There is a work of grace where there is a desire to believe He that searcheth the heart takes notice of the desires which are there and as a desire to kill is Murther as a lusting after a Woman is Adultery so a desire after that which is good is accepted A desire to repent is repenting and a desire to believe is believing Abraham is said again and again to have offered up Isaac because he had a will to do it at Gods Command though actually he never did it Heb. 11. 17. which shews the truth of that passage of Augustine Coronat Deus intus bonam voluntatem ubi non invenit facultatem Where there is a defect of ability God does own and crown a real willingness Such desires must needs be very pleasing unto God who willeth that his grace should be earnestly desired and therefore says the same Father Desiderare auxilium gratiae est initium gratiae Grace is begun when Grace is desired When once a Sinner desires with his heart to believe and cries out with the man in the Gospel Lord help my unbelief Mar. 9. 24. When he desires that his heart may be set wide open that Christ who knocks there may enter in when he desires to receive Christ just so as Christ is willing to be received and to rely upon him as the onely Mediatour and Saviour renouncing all other Confidences Here is saving faith most certainly 5. There is a work of Grace where there is a weariness of other Lords and a willingness to submit unto Christ the Lord of Glory 'T is a good sign when there is a consent to cast off the yoke of Sin and to take on us the easie yoke of Christ for none but they that are truely gracious are willing to be delivered from the power of darkness and to be translated into the Kingdom of the Son of God Col. 1. 13. If we dislike the bondage of corruption and are unwilling to be led captive by Satan at his will if we look upon our selves as foolish and deceived while we were disobedient and served diverse lusts and pleasures Tit. 3. 3. If we count the Service of our Lord Jesus freedom and freedom indeed and lust against the Flesh which counts his Commands grievous certainly the Spirit of the Lord has begun to set us at liberty our eyes have been opened our hearts changed Voluntas non esset libera nisi liberata The will would not be thus free to be subject unto Christ unless it had been made free by Him 6. There is a work of Grace where there is a desire to fear the name of God Neh. 1. 11. Let thine ear be attentive and so it was unto the prayer of thy Servants who desire to fear thy Name That Soul is renewed that would fain stand in awe of God and of his Word and has a will to do good though evil is present and the Flesh is weak The weakness of the Flesh Christ excuses as long as he saw the Spirit of the Disciples was willing to have done their duty Mat. 26. 41. That which was Gods wish concerning Israel of old is it thy wish concerning thy self Oh that there were an heart in me to fear the Lord and to keep all his Commandments always that it may be well with me for ever Deut. 5. 29. This is certainly the breathing of the new creature In such there is a consent to be the Lords and to serve him and a trouble when they are overpowr'd by sin and temptation and a jealousie lest they should be deceived which shews that their desire to fear and obey the Lord is the more honest and sincere 7. There is a work of Grace where there is an uncontentedness without God before the Sinner was without Christ and liv'd without God in the World as he thought well enough Eph. 2. 12. but the heart being savingly changed cannot be put off with the World or any thing therein for its portion as the Needle being toucht by the Loadstone
of their hearts they call judicial hardness and when the black vapours ascend and seize upon their spirits and torment and affright them as if Nature were just ready to be dissolved this they are apt to think the hellish agonies of Cain and Judas and to conclude them the foretastes and certain forerunners of eternal Wrath and Vengeance Satan represents the grace they have as no grace that he may discourage them from duty if he does not persuade them to act desperately against their own lives Then a thought comes in that God is an hard Lord who will not give grace though they desire it above all the World but is resolved to destroy them Again Satan represents the Truth they have embraced and which the generality of the Generation of the Righteous do embrace as no truth and violently hurries them and bears it in upon their spirits especially in duty to distract and dead their hearts that they ought to turn to this or that or t'other erroneous way else they will never know peace Whatever comforts and encouragements the Gospel hands forth to them they with a strange obstinacy reject as too good for them and not belonging at all to them And though the hand and hatred of Satan be in all this yet he is so subtle as to hide himself under the dark shades of Melancholy so that he is unperceived Now for the relief of such I shall shew how the truth of Grace may be discerned under the prevalency of Melancholy 1. Melancholick ones that are gracious have usually very low thoughts of themselves they have not confidence in the flesh but are convinced that their own righteousness is rags their wisdom folly their strength weakness they see that no flesh has reason to glory in the Lords presence and being thus humble God has promised to have respect to them Psal 138. 6. Though the Lord be high yet hath he respect unto the lowly And Psal 10. 17. Lord thou hast heard the desire of the humble thou wilt prepare their heart an heart prepared to pray they desire thou wilt cause thine ear to hear 2. Melancholick ones who have grace though they are full of fears yet their fears are without Scripture ground they are apt to conclude themselves Hypocrites but not from Scripture premises Satan in a violent way does inject such thoughts that God hates them never was indeed near them or has quite left them and never any Saints were in the like condition and hereupon follows a stinging perplexity but not one word of God is produced to prove all this Though Satans injections are direful and doleful yet the Word speaks hopefully concerning them because they are weary of Sin willing to close with Christ and hunger after righteousness and true holiness and had rather have an assurance of the love of God and the light of his countenance than Corn and Wine and all the things of the World in the greatest plenty and abundance 3. Melancholick ones who have grace though they are filled with a great many fancies and fears yet the fear of God is predominant and they are afraid of Sin as the greatest evil The favour of God is most desirable his anger most formidable in their esteem therefore they dare not use sinful or suspected means for their relief and help They are not like Saul who in his distress and sadness ran to the Witch of Endor they dare not turn Gluttons and Drunkards nor attempt to drown their sorrows in sensuality but had rather remain Melancholick Saints than become boon Companions and jolly Sinners They do indeed imagine and fear a thousand things without reason but truely with a great deal of reason the fear of God rules in their hearts and they eschew what is evil in his sight 4. Melancholick ones who have grace endeavour to improve their melancholy after a gracious manner Now the World appears vain Creatures are miserable comforters delights have lost their relish and are become undelightful They take hold of the advantage to get more loose from the World and more above it If one perplexing fume turns all the World into an empty bubble into an insignificant cypher Why says the gracious Soul should I ever dote upon this World more Under Melancholy Death seems very near and as they are going to bed or at other times they have very strong and startling impressions of Eternity Gracious Souls take hold of this advantage the more seriously to prepare for Death and to provide for Eternity and this argues they are indeed the Children of Wisdom Psal 90. 12. 5. Melancholick ones who have grace have a great care of the Gospels credit nay truely sometimes this lies nearer their hearts than their own lives They are afraid of madness and frenzy lest Religion which they are professors of should suffer by it they resist temptations to self-Murther because if they who have heard and talkt so much of the Gospel should lay violent hands upon themselves prophane Sinners would speak evil of the way of Truth and be more strongly prejudiced and hardned against the Gospel as a Doctrine that has but a bad tendency this shews that they love the Gospel in truth and consequently are of God Joh. 8. 47. This care of the Gospel farther appears in that when their melancholy abates their seriousness remains Indeed the better their heads are their hearts are in a better frame because then their Souls and their Grace can act with greater freedom They long for clean hearts and desire clear heads that with heads and hearts they may be more serviceable unto God 6. Melancholick ones who have grace in all their distress and trouble desire to look unto God though they fear he is an enemy yet they cannot but look to him for help though they do but chatter as a Crane and mourn as a Dove yet they cannot refrain speaking Hezekiahs and Jobs language O Lord I am oppressed undertake for me Esa 38. 14. I am full of confusion see thou my affliction Job 10. 15. Case 10. The tenth Case is this How may Repentance be known to be true when 't is a Death-bed Repentance Or just before a Malefactors Execution It must needs be granted that Repentance at last is possible and that 's all probable or usual 't is not One instance we have in Scripture to hinder despair and but one to hinder presumption To dally and to delay in Religion how dangerous is it 'T is perfect madness willingly to lie under the wrath of God under the Devils power under the guilt and dominion of Sin and upon the brink of Hell one minute longer The longer you delay Sin grows stronger evil habits are more rooted Satan entangles you faster in his snare the heart grows harder the Spirit of the Lord is more grieved and Repentance becomes more difficult and unlikely We have cause to fear that many thousands who talked of Repentance hereafter have been surprized by Death and have suddenly dropt
into Hell before that Hereafter came Well but some at last have seem'd very penitent and How shall the truth of Repentance be discerned Unto this I answer 1. Such who repent truely at last are very ready to accuse and very severe in judging of themselves they give glory to God and take shame to themselves they justifie the Lord in putting a period to their days and acknowledge that he might justly laugh at their calamity and mock at their fear and distress and anguish and refuse to pitty and pardon and kill the Body and damn the Soul together This judging of themselves is a very good sign and there is a promise of escaping judgment that is condemnation annexed thereunto 1 Cor. 11. 31. For if we should judge our selves we should not be judged 2. Such who repent truely at last are very jealous over their own Spirits lest the distress they are in and the nearness unto death be the only motive unto Repentance therefore their cries are the more earnest to be sincere Converts They prize new hearts and beg that God would deliver them from their natural guile and wickedness and make them indeed new creatures Oh how do they long not only for a pardon but that they may feel the power of the renewing and sanctifying Spirit of Christ Heal me and I shall be healed turn me and I shall be turned save me and I shall be saved Jer. 17. 14. are their strong cryes and oh with what vehement desires are they accompanied 3. Such who repent at last truely are filled with an holy indignation that all their time and strength has been wasted in serving Sin and Satan and dishonouring that God that made them to whom they owe themselves How angry are they and displeased at themselves that when they should have been labouring in the Lords Vineyard they either were standing idle in the Market or wrought iniquity with both hands earnestly Now this holy indignation is by the Apostle made an argument of sorrowing after a godly manner of repentance unto salvation 2 Cor. 7. 11. 4. Such who repent truely at last do look unto Jesus Thus did the Thief upon the Cross Lord remember me Luk. 23. 42. Christ is their hope and the grace of God in him which does superabound though Sin has never so much abounded They look upon his Blood as the Blood of God and able to do away the greatest guilt the foulest spot and stain the most monstrous defilements They perceive that the Blood of Jesus speaks better things than the Blood of Abel Heb. 12. 24. Cryes louder for Mercy and Salvation than Abels did for Vengeance Hereupon they are encouraged and enabled to act the faith of reliance and believing on Jesus they shall not be confounded 1 Pet. 2. 6. Oh how is this Saviour now prized How are they grieved at their former and so long continued neglect of him And though the Lord forgets their Sins they cannot but remember them though he justifies them they cannot cease condemning themselves the truth is they are ashamed and confounded and open not their mouths because of their shame though the Lord is pacified towards them for all that they have done Ezek. 16. 3. 5. They who repent truely at last have a care of Gods honour and are willing to prevent others delaying their repentance Their mouths therefore are full of cautions they blame their own folly and exhort others to grow wiser and while 't is called to day to harden their hearts no longer The Earl of Rochesters dying care was to have his prophane and lewd Writings burnt as being only fit to promote Vice and immorality by which he had so highly offended God and shamed and blasphemed that holy Religion into which he was baptized and all his obscene and filthy pictures which were so notoriously scandalous He wisht his Son might never be one of those wretched creatures who pride themselves in abusing God and Religion adding That no Fortunes or Honours were comparable to the love and favour of God To a Friend of some Note that came to see him he thus expressed himself Oh remember that you contemn God no more We have been all mistaken in our conceits and opinions our persuasions have been false and groundless therefore God grant you repentance And in his dying Remonstrance signed before Witness having bewailed his pernicious opinions and vile practices he thus speaks to all whom he had drawn into Sin I warn them in the name of God and as they regard the welfare of their immortal Souls no more to deny his Being or his Providence or despise his goodness no more to make a mock of Sin or contemn the pure and excellent Religion of my ever blessed Redeemer though whose merits alone I one of the greatest of Sinners do yet hope for mercy and forgiveness Case 11. The eleventh Case follows which is this How may Grace be discovered in Saints that are fallen When I speak of the falls of Saints I mean not their Sins quotidianae incursionis of daily incursion for there is not a day nor a duty wherein the best do not in some respect offend but faults that are more gross and offensive that approach nearer unto the nature of presumptuous transgressions That Saints do sometimes thus fall is evident from Scripture and Experience therefore all of them should be the more watchful humble and cry to be upheld living by faith on that God who is of power to establish them Rom. 16. 25. Rom. 11. 20. Well because of unbelief they were broken off and thou standest by faith be not highminded but fear But when they do fall there is a difference between the manner of theirs and others transgressing 't is said of such as are born of God that they cannot sin because they are born of God 1 Joh. 3. 9. i. e. they cannot sin in such a manner as the unregenerate do I am to present to you a Child of Light under an Eclipse and yet even now there is a great difference between him and them that are under the power of darkness 1. A Saint when he falls sins not with the full consent of his will not only his Conscience does declare against Sin but even his Will so far as sanctified and renewed is also against it His purpose is to take heed to his ways that he may not offend Psal 39. 1. therefore when he falls he is surprized and in the hurry of a temptation and though in this hurry Conscience is not heard and corruption like a torrent carries him away yet there is a secret dislike of Sin which arises from the Spirits lusting against the Flesh Hence it is that Saints cannot take that delight in Sin which others do because their wills do not fully close with the temptation Though in Davids transgression there was too much of deliberation and contrivance especially in his carriage towards Vriah yet if you consider the matter you may find he was
Christ though the World seemed to be turned Arrian when persecutions cannot affright us from our Duty nor others Apostasies make us dislike Religion but we are the more stedfast and walk more closely with the Lord this shews that grace is much increased 9. Then we grow in Grace when our fruit is really better than formerly for quality and more for quantity If we bring forth more fruit than in times past it argues us more fruit than in times past it argues us more purged Joh. 15. 2. Every branch that beareth fruit he purgeth it that it may bring forth more fruit When we are filled with the fruits of righteousness as this is to the praise and glory of God so it declares that he has made all grace to abound towards us that we might abound unto every good work 2 Cor. 9. 8. Case 13. The last Case is this How may we understand when our joy is true and well grounded There is a joy of the Hypocrite the Hearers compared unto the stony ground received the Word with joy the Jews rejoyced in John that burning and shining light for a season so that there is a great deal of false joy which whoever entertain they will lie down in sorrow Esa 50. 11. How then shall true joy be known To this I answer 1. True joy follows after true sorrow they who reap in joy do first sow in tears Ps 126. 5. Our Lord tells us that the mourners are blessed for they shall be comforted Mat. 5. 4. Rest is given to the weary and the heavy laden That joy is sinful and utterly unseasonable where Sin is made light of and never was lookt upon as a burthen But if we are humble and broken and weary of all Sin and of all that is in Sin desiring to be delivered from the force and filth as well as from the guilt of it and then are revived we may conclude our peace is from the God of peace and comfort for though he be the high and the lofty one who inhabits Eternity yet he dwells with him that is of an humble and contrite Spirit to revive the Spirit of the humble and to revive the heart of the contrite ones Eze. 57. 15. 2. True joy has ever the Lord Jesus for the foundation of it Phil. 3. 3. We rejoyce in Christ Jesus says the Apostle And Rom. 5. 11. If we joy in God 't is through our Lord Jesus Christ by whom we have received the atonement The Comforter does ever glorifie Christ so as to make us understand that all grace mercy and peace is given to us through a Mediatour His sorrows have purchased pardon and salvation and the joy of that Salvation The Churches joy is built upon the same Rock on which the Church her self is built and that Rock is Christ therefore her consolation is the stronger 3. True joy is never without true holiness The Spirits sanctification always goes before and ever accompanies his consolations Peace and righteousness do kiss each other where peace is of the right kind Rom. 14. 17. The Kingdom of God is righteousness and peace and joy in the Holy Ghost A true Saint if he makes bold with Sin his joy will be lessen'd perhaps lost his peace which has been spoken to him will be broken if he return to folly 4. True joy is Spiritually rational not an Enthusiastical business my meaning is there can be good Scripture-reason produced for it The Spirit of God works sanctifying grace in the heart increases that grace and acts that grace so that there is a powerful exercise of it and then he does bear witness to the truth of it The Spirit discovers unto the Soul that he has made it willing to receive Christ and to hunger after holiness and willing to be the Lords and to serve him in sincerity and to escape the corruption that is in the World through lust and now his testimony of adoption is rational and may be received as indeed the witness of the Spirit Whereas when joys are but the fruits of stubborn and irrational impulses and the comforts of the Gospel are applied without any Scripture ground comfortable Scriptures are not brought by the True and Good but by the Bad and lying Spirit 5. True joy is not a seal unto error and delusion Some have fallen away from the truths of Christ and got above his Ordinances and cast his Word behind their backs and despised his Blood and yet have bragg'd of Joy Oh the subtlety of the Evil One As he makes use of false Teachers false Opinions and false Hopes so of false joys to ruine Souls 6. True joy is strength to them that have it Nehem. 8. 10. The joy of the Lord is your strength Spiritual joy affords great ability to do the work of God to bear Afflictions and Tribulations and to resist and overcome the Tempter and the World and the lusts thereof The joyful Christian is a man of might he wrestles with the principalities and powers of darkness and is too hard for them he is discouraged at no difficulty in Religion he mounts up with wings as an Eagle he runs and is not weary he walks without fainting Esa 40. ult he is faithful unto death and at last is rewarded with a Crown of life Rev. 2. 10. Thus have I resolved all the Cases I propounded I come now to the Application I begin with some inferences that may be drawn from this Doctrine If this be true that it highly concerns all to Examine and Prove themselves then 1. Hence I infer the misery of Man by nature who is in darkness so that till he is enlightned from above he is not capable of understanding himself his condition or his interest Man by nature is under the power of darkness of this power you read Col. 1. 13. and how deliverance from it is to be valued Darkness has a great power to keep men under Sin to make them careless stupid and utterly unconcerned what becomes of them to Eternity therefore evil Angels are stayled the Rulers of the Darkness of this World Nay the Natural Man is in the abstract called darkness it self Eph. 5. 8. For ye were sometimes darkness but now are ye light in the Lord. Now how can he that is in darkness look into himself or look into the Lord Oh the misery of dark Souls What unspeakable danger are they in and their not seeing their own peril does but the more increase it We pitty a man that has sustained a breaking loss and does not know it a Begger that being blind is near a precipice and does not perceive it but much more compassionable is the case of the Natural Man who neither knows himself nor the things which concern his peace 2. Hence we may infer the folly of the Natural Man who is so prone to cry peace unto and to deceive himself He loves to go upon sure grounds in other matters and is very serious about trifles but wofully trifles
Thus have I finished this Subject of Self-Examination a Duty which the Ungodly mind not which Hypocrites are afraid and do not care to meddle with and which if Saints would more frequently and thorowly engage in there would be less unbelief and fear more joy and Faith in the Church of Christ You that are Saints In this discourse I have been helping of your Joy Let it not be hindred by your selves Some clusters of Canaan might be brought to the Wilderness and more of Heavens joys might be tasted in the Vale of Tears if the Heirs of Heaven would but take more pains in self-trial to clear up their Title And as for you that are Hypocrites and Vnbeleivers I have don you a kindness in telling you what you are and what you may expect hereafter If after all you will put a cheat upon your own souls you must be blamed and your selves must smart for it If you will cry peace and safety till Christ himself does thunder that sentence in your ears Go ye Cursed into Everlasting fire Who can help it Alas Alas 'T will be too late to look up to Heaven and to look into your selves when the Gulph is fixed between Heaven and you Let every sinner therefore try his own ways and cry to the Lord to search and change and turn his Heart For 't is the greatest Wisdom to prevent those mistakes which will be the mistakers Eternal ruine and which after death will be found impossible to be corrected Herbert page 105. CAnst he idle Canst thou play Foolish soul who sinn'd to day Rivers run and springs each one Know their home and get them gone Hast thou tears or hast thou none If poor soul thou hast no tears Would thou hadst no faults or fears Who hath these those ills forbears But if yet thou idle be Foolish Soul who di'd for thee Who did leave his Fathers Throne To assume thy Flesh and Bone Had he life or had he none If he had not liv'd for thee Thou hadst di'd most wretchedly And two deaths had been thy fee. He so far thy good did plot That his own self he forgot Did he die or did he not If he had not di'd for thee Thou hadst liv'd in misery Two lives worse than ten deaths be He that loseth Gold though dross Tells to all he meets his cross He that sins hath he no loss He that finds a silver vein Thinks on it and thinks again Brings thy Saviours death no gain Who in Heart not ever kneels Neither sin nor Saviour feels Meditations ON THE LORDS SUPPER MEDITATIONS I. WHerefore do I spend my money for that which is not Bread And my labour for that which can never satisfie Many a time have I made trial of the things that are visible but the higher my expectations have been raised the greater has been my disappointment I have sought that among the Creatures which is not to be found Sin has turned this World into a Country far from God and truly Husks are the best fare that ever this World hath yeilded me 'T is high time to come out from the World and to be separate left my Soul perish for hunger there Meat that perishes is improper for a Soul that is of an immortal nature and of an Everlasting duration I will arise and go unto my God and Father He has promised to satiate and replenish the weary and sorrowful Soul In his House I am sure there is Bread enough and to spare MEDITATION II. Boast not O Mammon of thy Treasures Unless thou hast that which is of sufficient value to be a ransom for me Can all the Wealth of both the Indies pay the debt which by sin I have contracted Can Riches satisfie for the wrong I have done to the justice of God by my Transgression Oh no I was not Redeemed with corruptible things as Silver and Gold but with the precious Blood of Christ as of a Lamb without blemish and without spot Pardon Grace and Glory are such gifts of God as are not to be purchased with money for if they were so many Rich men would not be lost for ever Wealth cannot buy any out of the Devils possession but rather brings them more under his power it cannot save any from Hell but rather proves a means to send them thither For they that will be Rich fall into Tempttaion and a Snare and into many foolish and hurtful lusts which drown men in Destruction and Perdition MEDITATION III. O my Soul strive not to load thy self with the thick clay of this present World this will debase thee exceedingly and defile and burthen thee Thou needest that which is of more value then Gold that perishes to enrich thee and that is precious Faith Thou needest a garment to cover thy nakedness which no Shop on Earth can furnish thee withal and that is the Robe of Christs Righteousness Thou needest Food to satisfie thy hunger which cannot be got for money or price but may be had without it and that is the Bread of God which came down from Heaven to give Life unto the World Thou art of Heavenly original and therefore mind not Earthly things for it can never be well with thee untill thou return to that All-sufficient Lord who is the Father of Spirits and alone can fill them out of his own fulness MEDITATION IV. Lord Thou who art full of Love nay love it self and art jealous of my love lest it should be misplaced Turn away my Eyes that they may not be set upon that which is not If Riches take to themselves wings and fly away as an Eagle towards Heaven let my Heart be so wise as to get the start of them and fly away first from such transitory and fading vanities and fly towards the highest Heaven of all How great a gain will it be to lose my love to the World And though it be no gain at all to thee for me to love thee who art so self-sufficient from Everlasting to Everlasting yet I shall hereby be an Eternal gainer and shall be interested in that love which is Everlasting and unchangeable Oh! Love me freely in the Son of thy love and inflame my Heart with love to Thee 'T is my Honour that I have leave to love thee who art so high and glorious and 't is thy first and great Command that I should love thee with my whole Heart and Soul and Strength Let this Command be kept and let not the biggest offer the World can make me ever tempt me to break it so as to prevail with me MEDITATION V. Pleasures of sin and sence have often charmed and deceived me Those things which have gratified the Eye the Ear the Touch the Taste have had a kind of an inchanting Force and Power Sensual Delights have been some of the finest and strongest cords of vanity to draw me a way from God and Duty But now I see what madness 't is to please my self and displease my Lord