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80.19_o ps_n 80.19_o tvrn_v we_o unto_o thou_o o_o god_n of_o power_n show_v we_o the_o beauty_n of_o thy_o countenance_n and_o we_o shall_v be_v whole_a for_o which_o way_n soever_o the_o soul_n of_o man_n turn_v itself_o it_o be_v consign_v unto_o sorrow_n unless_o only_o towards_o thou_o yea_o though_o it_o seize_v upon_o all_o those_o other_o beauty_n that_o be_v out_o of_o itself_o and_o out_o of_o thou_o which_o yet_o can_v be_v none_o at_o all_o unless_o they_o be_v from_o thou_o all_o which_o have_v their_o rise_n and_o their_o set_n their_o spring_n and_o their_o fall_n and_o in_o their_o spring_a they_o begin_v as_o it_o be_v to_o be_v and_o then_o grow_v on_o to_o attain_v perfection_n perfect_v
toothache_n after_o he_o be_v render_v thereby_o speechless_a cap._n 4_o his_o acquaint_v s._n ambrose_n by_o letter_n with_o his_o former_a error_n and_o present_a resolution_n desire_v his_o advice_n what_o part_n of_o scripture_n chief_o he_o shall_v read_v who_o direct_v he_o to_o isaiah_n cap._n 5_o his_o return_n to_o milan_n the_o easter_n follow_v to_o receive_v baptism_n from_o bishop_n ambrose_n together_o with_o his_o son_n adeodate_v and_o alipius_n who_o travel_v thither_o barefoot_a s._n augustine_n ravishment_n and_o melt_a into_o tear_n upon_o hear_v the_o church-service_n and_o music_n cap._n 6_o the_o original_a of_o sing_v the_o church-psalme_n and_o hymn_n at_o milan_n after_o the_o manner_n of_o the_o eastern_a church_n the_o body_n of_o the_o martyr_n gervasius_n and_o protasius_n discover_v to_o s._n ambrose_n by_o divine_a revelation_n find_a uncorrupted_a many_o miracle_n do_v by_o they_o whereby_o the_o fury_n of_o the_o arrian_n empress_n towards_o s._n ambrose_n and_o the_o catholic_n be_v much_o lenify_v cap._n 7_o s._n augustine_n return_n by_o rome_n for_o africa_n the_o death_n of_o his_o mother_n in_o italy_n at_o ostia_n a_o description_n of_o her_o pious_a education_n and_o life_n cap._n 8_o her_o dutiful_a deportment_n towards_o and_z at_o last_o conversion_n of_o her_o husband_n patricius_n to_o profess_v the_o christian_a faith_n cap._n 9_o the_o discourse_n between_o he_o and_o his_o mother_n at_o ostia_n some_o few_o day_n before_o her_o sickness_n concern_v the_o felicity_n of_o the_o next_o life_n her_o desire_n of_o death_n cap._n 10_o her_o sickness_n death_n careless_a of_o her_o funeral_n only_o desire_v from_o they_o a_o remembrance_n of_o she_o at_o the_o altar_n of_o the_o lord_n cap._n 11_o s._n austin_n refrain_v from_o weep_v though_o suffer_v much_o inward_a grief_n to_o which_o after_o her_o burial_n he_o indulge_v some_o tear_n cap._n 12_o his_o prayer_n for_o his_o decease_a mother_n monica_n and_o father_n patricius_n cap._n 13_o lib_fw-la x._o in_o this_o book_n s._n austin_n make_v confession_n of_o the_o several_a lapse_n and_o infirmity_n of_o his_o present_a condition_n since_o his_o regeneration_n by_o baptism_n cap._n 1_o the_o end_n and_o fruit_n of_o confess_v his_o present_a condition_n mental_o to_o god_n cap._n 2_o the_o end_n and_o fruit_n of_o his_o confess_v his_o present_a condition_n public_o before_o man_n cap._n 3_o yet_o not_o able_a to_o see_v or_o confess_v all_o of_o himself_o which_o god_n see_v in_o he_o cap._n 5_o description_n of_o his_o present_a condition_n in_o the_o state_n of_o grace_n that_o he_o now_o true_o love_v god_n concern_v who_o he_o proceed_v to_o examine_v what_o it_o be_v he_o love_v when_o he_o say_v that_o he_o love_v god_n that_o it_o be_v *_o no_n object_n of_o sense_n *_o no_o part_n of_o the_o visible_a world_n abroad_o *_o no_o part_n or_o faculty_n within_o himself_o cap._n 6_o neither_o the_o vegetative_a nor_o yet_o the_o sensitive_a cap._n 7_o nor_o yet_o the_o more_o interior_a and_o most_o admirablâ—_n faculty_n of_o the_o memory_n the_o many_o wonder_n of_o which_o to_o the_o great_a glory_n of_o the_o maker_n thereof_o he_o most_o subtle_o discourse_v unto_o the_o 26_o chapter_n cap._n 8_o etc._n etc._n that_o god_n who_o he_o love_v is*_n something_o within_o but_o yet_o above_o his_o soul_n *_o not_o confine_v by_o place_n omnipresent_v etc._n etc._n cap._n 26_o that_o though_o he_o now_o true_o love_v god_n abstract_v from_o and_o far_o above_o all_o other_o creature_n and_o also_o above_o himself_o cap._n 27_o yet_o he_o enjoy_v not_o as_o yet_o a_o perfect_a union_n unto_o he_o but_o have_v a_o perpetual_a combat_n with_o many_o other_o false_a joy_n and_o grief_n and_o fear_n cap._n 28_o not_o have_v yet_o a_o perfect_a continency_n in_o respect_n of_o all_o other_o object_n beside_o god_n but_o extend_v some_o undue_a attention_n and_o affection_n unto_o they_o cap._n 29_o he_o examine_v himself_o and_o confess_v his_o present_a infirmity_n in_o the_o several_a branch_n of_o concupiscence_n 1_o john_n 2.16_o 1._o the_o lust_n of_o the_o flesh_n 2._o the_o lust_n of_o the_o eye_n 3._o the_o pride_n of_o life_n and_o here_o he_o confess_v 1._o his_o remain_a infirmity_n concern_v the_o temptation_n of_o the_o lust_n of_o the_o flesh_n and_o among_o these_o 1._o concern_v the_o temptation_n of_o the_o touch_n relate_v to_o carnal_a concubinage_n cap._n 30_o 2._o concern_v the_o temptation_n of_o the_o taste_n in_o eat_v and_o drink_v cap._n 31_o 3._o concern_v the_o temptation_n of_o the_o smell_n in_o sweet_a odour_n and_o perfume_n cap._n 32_o 4._o concern_v the_o temptation_n of_o the_o ear_n in_o music_n where_o whether_o music_n be_v useful_a in_o church_n cap._n 33_o 5._o concern_v the_o temptation_n of_o the_o eye_n in_o splendid_a fair_a and_o well_o proportion_v object_n cap._n 34_o 2._o his_o remain_a infirmity_n concern_v the_o temptation_n of_o the_o lust_n of_o the_o eye_n or_o curiosity_n of_o vain_a science_n cap._n 35_o 3._o his_o remain_a infirmity_n concern_v the_o temptation_n of_o the_o pride_n of_o life_n the_o great_a danger_n of_o vain-glorying_a â–³_o incur_v from_o the_o approbation_n and_o praise_n of_o man_n cap._n 36_o which_o be_v not_o avoidable_o to_o well-doing_n cap._n 37_o â–³_o incur_v also_o from_o the_o contemn_v of_o praise_n as_o this_o also_o be_v a_o thing_n praiseworthy_a cap._n 38_o â–³_o incur_v also_o from_o self-love_n and_o self-conceit_n without_o regard_n to_o praise_v of_o other_o cap._n 39_o a_o recapitulation_n of_o the_o thing_n former_o speak_v in_o this_o book·_fw-la s._n augustine_n sometime_o extraordinary_a transportment_n in_o the_o contemplation_n and_o love_n of_o god_n cap._n 40_o 41_o his_o recourse_n for_o a_o remedy_n to_o all_o these_o his_o malady_n not_o *_o to_o evil_a angel_n or_o demon_n with_o the_o platonist_n or_o other_o practise_v evil_a art_n as_o mediator_n between_o god_n and_o man_n because_o sinner_n like_o man_n spirit_n like_o god_n cap._n 42_o but_o *_o to_o christ_n who_o be_v the_o only_a true_a mediator_n mortal_a like_o man_n righteous_a like_o god_n through_o who_o else_o desperate_a he_o confident_o hope_v a_o perfect_a cure_n of_o all_o his_o disease_n cap._n 43_o the_o end_n and_o purpose_n of_o these_o his_o confession_n cap._n 44_o the_o confession_n of_o s._n augustine_n declare_v the_o story_n of_o his_o life_n lib_fw-la i._o chap._n i._n cap._n 1_o invocation_n and_o praise_n of_o god_n so_o great_a so_o incomprehensible_a and_o yet_o so_o near_o and_o intimate_v to_o his_o creature_n and_o require_v of_o man_n so_o vile_a a_o thing_n by_o sin_n to_o love_v to_o invocate_v to_o praise_v and_o to_o confess_v unto_o he_o this_o in_o the_o five_o chapter_n follow_v great_a be_v thou_o o_o lord_n and_o exceed_o to_o be_v praise_v 147.5_o psal_n 145.3_o &_o 147.5_o great_a be_v thy_o power_n and_o thy_o wisdom_n be_v infinite_a and_o yet_o 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god_n my_o sweet_a dear_a delight_n be_v i_o yet_o then_o also_o any_o where_n or_o any_o thing_n which_o none_o can_v tell_v i_o neither_o father_n nor_o mother_n that_o beget_v i_o neither_o other_o experience_n nor_o my_o own_o memory_n and_o do_v not_o thou_o now_o deride_v this_o my_o curiousity_n demand_v thou_o such_o question_n who_o only_o require_v my_o laud_v of_o thou_o and_o confess_v unto_o thou_o concern_v thing_n within_o the_o circle_n of_o my_o knowledge_n i_o confess_v therefore_o unto_o thou_o lord_n of_o heaven_n and_o earth_n and_o give_v thou_o praiâ—e_v for_o that_o my_o first_o conception_n and_o that_o my_o newborn_a infancy_n in_o which_o thing_n though_o beyond_o our_o remembrance_n thou_o have_v give_v unto_o we_o a_o conjecture_n of_o ourselves_o from_o our_o experience_n of_o other_o and_o from_o the_o authority_n of_o those_o who_o then_o attend_v we_o then_o have_v i_o be_v and_o life_n and_o cogitation_n and_o towards_o the_o wane_n of_o my_o infancy_n invention_n of_o expressive_a sign_n to_o make_v my_o meaning_n know_v to_o other_o and_o whence_o such_o a_o vital_a sensitive_a piece_n of_o matter_n as_o i_o be_v then_o but_o from_o thou_o o_o lord_n can_v any_o be_v his_o own_o creator_n or_o can_v there_o be_v derive_v from_o any_o other_o source_n the_o small_a vein_n 100.2_o psal_n 100.2_o that_o may_v stream_n essence_n and_o life_n into_o we_o but_o only_o from_o thou_o who_o thus_o have_v make_v we_o in_o who_o be_v and_o live_v be_v not_o a_o several_a thing_n but_o thou_o be_v one_o and_o the_o same_o high_a supremity_n of_o both_o for_o 102.26_o ps._n 83.18_o psal_n 102.26_o thou_o be_v the_o most-high_a and_o thou_o be_v not_o change_v neither_o do_v today_n ever_o passeaway_a in_o thou_o and_o yet_o in_o thou_o it_o be_v that_o it_o pass_v away_o for_o even_o these_o transitory_n be_v not_o but_o as_o in_o thou_o nor_o have_v they_o any_o way_n of_o pass_v away_o but_o as_o convey_v through_o thou_o and_o yet_o mean_a 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in_o not_o apprehend_v to_o conceive_v nothing_o but_o right_a of_o thou_o incomprehensible_a thou_o that_o be_v that_o thou_o be_v incomprehensible_a than_o in_o apprehend_v amiss_o to_o conceive_v something_o below_o thou_o chap_n vii_o and*_n of_o its_o sin_n and_o his_o praise_a god_n for_o its_o good_a endowment_n hear_v o_o god_n wo_n wo_n unto_o the_o sin_n of_o man_n and_o man_n confess_v this_o thou_o take_v compassion_n of_o he_o because_o thou_o have_v make_v he_o but_o yet_o make_v not_o sin_n in_o he_o o_o who_o can_v recount_v unto_o i_o the_o conceal_a sin_n of_o my_o unknown_a infancy_n from_o which_o none_o be_v pure_a in_o thy_o sight_n o_o lord_n not_o the_o child_n that_o be_v a_o day_n old_a 25._o
yet_o cure_v of_o the_o former_a how_o much_o better_o have_v it_o be_v for_o i_o to_o have_v be_v so_o early_o heal_v and_o that_o with_o my_o own_o and_o my_o friend_n strict_a care_n the_o health_n of_o my_o soul_n thus_o restore_v may_v have_v be_v ever_o after_o keep_v entire_a by_o thy_o preserve_n what_o thou_o have_v restore_v this_o sure_o have_v be_v much_o the_o better_o but_o that_o my_o good_a mother_n already_o foresee_v how_o many_o and_o how_o great_a billow_n of_o temptation_n after_o my_o childhood_n spend_v be_v ready_a to_o assault_v and_o to_o ore-set_a my_o more_o unbridled_a youth_n choose_v rather_o to_o expose_v to_o their_o blow_n i_o now_o before_o baptism_n as_o yet_o a_o lump_n of_o rude_a clay_n which_o by_o it_o afterward_o may_v be_v new_o mould_v than_o i_o when_o by_o the_o sacrament_n thy_o new-formed_n image_n which_o so_o perchance_o may_v happen_v to_o be_v deface_v chap._n xii_o of_o his_o sin_n and_o error_n at_o school_n and_o of_o they_o that_o 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first_o learning_n to_o read_v and_o write_v and_o cast_v up_o a_o account_n i_o think_v as_o afflict_v and_o vexatious_a as_o the_o greek_a and_o whence_o this_o also_o but_o from_o sin_n and_o the_o vanity_n of_o this_o life_n because_o i_o be_v flesh_n and_o a_o wind_n that_o pass_v away_o and_o come_v not_o again_o 78.39_o psal_n 78.39_o for_o that_o first_o learning_n be_v for_o the_o better_a because_o true_a and_o more_o certain_a which_o enrich_v i_o with_o a_o faculty_n necessary_a and_o as_o easy_o retain_v whereby_o i_o both_o read_v now_o what_o i_o find_v write_v and_o write_v myself_o what_o i_o have_v a_o mind_n than_o this_o other_o in_o which_o i_o learn_v and_o be_v enjoin_v to_o remember_v the_o error_n and_o wander_n of_o i_o know_v not_o what_o aeneas_n forgetful_a of_o my_o own_o error_n and_o shed_v tear_n for_o the_o death_n of_o one_o dido_n who_o kill_v herself_o for_o love_n when_o meanwhile_o i_o behold_v myself_o in_o these_o amorous_a toy_n perish_v from_o 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