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away_o she_o depart_v into_o africa_n vow_v unto_o thou_o never_o to_o know_v any_o other_o man_n and_o leave_v with_o i_o the_o son_n i_o have_v by_o she_o but_o unhappy_a i_o not_o able_a to_o imitate_v a_o woman_n impatient_a of_o the_o two_o year_n delay_n in_o which_o time_n i_o may_v not_o enjoy_v she_o i_o make_v suit_n to_o and_o be_v not_o so_o much_o a_o lover_n of_o marriage_n as_o a_o slave_n of_o lust_n get_v i_o another_o though_o no_o wife_n that_o so_o by_o the_o continuance_n of_o the_o same_o custom_n with_o she_o i_o may_v sustain_v and_o preserve_v in_o its_o vigour_n or_o also_o augment_v that_o disease_n of_o my_o soul_n till_o it_o may_v arrive_v to_o the_o kingdom_n of_o marriage_n and_o thus_o be_v the_o wound_n that_o be_v make_v in_o i_o by_o the_o cut_n off_o of_o my_o former_a concubine_n not_o now_o cure_v at_o all_o but_z after_o most_o acute_a and_o burn_a torment_n grow_v more_o putrify_v and_o corrupt_a and_o under_o a_o cold_o and_o less_o violent_a pain_n a_o more_o desperate_a sore_n chap._n xvi_o yet_o his_o lust_n somewhat_o restrain_v from_o the_o fear_n he_o have_v *_o of_o death_n and_z *_o of_o the_o soul_n immortality_n and_o *_o of_o future_a judgement_n to_o thou_o be_v praise_n to_o thou_o be_v glory_n fountain_n of_o mercy_n thou_o come_v still_o more_o near_o as_o i_o become_v more_o wretched_a and_o even_o very_a now_o be_v thy_o right_a hand_n ready_a when_o i_o be_v quite_o sink_v to_o pull_v i_o out_o of_o this_o mire_n and_o to_o wash_v i_o clean_o and_o i_o know_v nothing_o thereof_o nor_o be_v there_o any_o thing_n that_o stay_v i_o from_o yet-a-deep_a stream_n of_o carnal_a voluptuousness_n save_o the_o fear_n of_o death_n and_o thy_o judgement_n to_o come_v which_o terror_n by_o all_o my_o various_a opinion_n can_v never_o be_v quite_o deface_v in_o my_o soul_n and_o often_o i_o reason_v with_o my_o friend_n alipius_n and_o nebridius_fw-la *_o of_o the_o end_n of_o good_a and_o wicked_a person_n and_o *_o that_o epicurus_n above_o all_o man_n with_o i_o shall_v carry_v away_o the_o prize_n but_o that_o i_o believe_v the_o soul_n after_o death_n still_o live_v and_o be_v treat_v according_a to_o its_o meritâ—_n a_o thing_n which_o epicurus_n credit_v not_o and_o i_o ask_v whether_o if_o so_o be_v we_o may_v be_v immortal_a and_o may_v live_v in_o the_o perpetuate_v pleasure_n of_o the_o body_n without_o any_o fear_n at_o all_o of_o lose_v they_o any_o more_o whether_o i_o say_v this_o be_v not_o enough_o to_o be_v happy_a or_o whether_o some_o thing_n else_o be_v desirable_a to_o it_o not_o know_v that_o this_o also_o be_v a_o great_a part_n of_o my_o misery_n that_o so_o deep_o plunge_v and_o blind_v i_o can_v not_o cast_v my_o thought_n upon_o the_o fair_a light_n of_o virtue_n and_o honesty_n and_o that_o sovereign_a beauty_n interior_o by_o the_o soul_n discern_v though_o not_o by_o the_o eye_n of_o flesh_n which_o be_v embrace_v gratis_o and_o without_o any_o bodily_a pleasure_n issue_v from_o it_o neither_o consider_v i_o so_o wretched_a from_o what_o principle_n it_o come_v that_o this_o be_v to_o i_o a_o great_a pleasure_n sweet_o to_o confer_v with_o my_o friend_n even_o concern_v these_o filthy_a pleasure_n and_o that_o without_o friend_n also_o i_o can_v not_o be_v happy_a according_a to_o my_o then_o opinion_n though_o in_o never_o so_o much_o affluence_n of_o those_o carnal_a delight_n yet_o which_o friend_n i_o love_v gratis_o without_o any_o interest_n of_o my_o corporal_a pleasure_n and_o so_o perceive_v myself_o gratis_o also_o of_o they_o belove_v o_o crooked_a path_n wo_n to_o the_o audacious_a soul_n that_o depart_v from_o thou_o foolish_o hope_n elsewhere_o to_o find_v something_o better_o and_o when_o she_o have_v turn_v and_o return_v herself_o on_o back_n and_o side_n and_o belly_n she_o find_v all_o thing_n hard_a and_o uneasy_a and_o thou_o only_o rest_v and_o yet_o behold_v thou_o patient_o stay_v by_o we_o and_o free_a we_o from_o these_o our_o miserable_a wander_n and_o put_v we_o into_o thy_o way_n and_o encourage_a we_o and_o say_v run_v and_o i_o will_v sustain_v you_o and_o i_o will_v conduct_v you_o through_o whither_o you_o desire_v to_o go_v and_o at_o your_o journey_n end_n also_o i_o will_v sustain_v you_o lib_fw-la vii_o chap._n i._n his_o entrance_n now_o be_v thirty_o year_n old_a into_o man_n estate_n his_o apprehension_n of_o god_n as_o inviolable_a incorruptible_a immutable_a every_o way_n infinite_a but_o yet_o corporeal_a *_o decease_a now_o be_v my_o youth_n so_o evil_a and_o so_o profane_a and_o i_o *_o enter_v into_o the_o state_n of_o manhood_n advance_v in_o vanity_n as_o in_o age_n and_o imagine_v no_o substance_n but_o only_o such_o as_o with_o these_o our_o eye_n we_o usual_o behold_v i_o indeed_o never_o think_v thou_o o_o god_n to_o bear_v a_o humane_a shape_n since_o the_o time_n i_o have_v hear_v any_o thing_n of_o wisdom_n i_o always_o avoid_v so_o gross_a a_o conceit_n and_o be_v much_o joy_v when_o i_o find_v the_o same_o also_o to_o be_v the_o faith_n of_o our_o spiritual_a mother_n thy_o catholic_n church_n but_o what_o other_o thing_n i_o shall_v think_v thou_o to_o be_v be_v not_o easy_o resolve_v and_o i_o a_o man_n and_o such_o a_o man_n yet_o endeavour_v to_o know_v and_o apprehend_v thou_o the_o supreme_a and_o the_o only_a and_o the_o true_a god_n and_o from_o the_o bottom_n of_o my_o soul_n i_o believe_v thou_o to_o be_v incorruptible_a and_o inviolable_a and_o immutable_a because_o how_o and_o whence_o i_o know_v not_o but_o i_o plain_o see_v and_o be_v assure_v 4._o exit_fw-la l._n 7._o c._n 4._o â–³_o that_o that_o which_o can_v be_v corrupt_v nor_o injure_v and_o hurt_v nor_o change_v be_v doubtless_o more_o perfect_a and_o more_o excellent_a than_o what_o be_v capable_a of_o corruption_n or_o violation_n or_o mutation_n and_o then_o again_o â–³_o that_o no_o soul_n ever_o be_v or_o shall_v be_v able_a to_o imagine_v any_o thing_n which_o shall_v be_v something_o better_a than_o thou_o who_o be_v the_o very_o best_a and_o chief_a good_n but_o since_o the_o incorruptible_a be_v most_o true_o and_o certain_o preferable_a before_o the_o corruptible_a i_o can_v with_o my_o thought_n have_v ascend_v unto_o something_o that_o will_v have_v be_v better_a than_o my_o god_n unless_o thou_o be_v incorruptible_a but_o still_o i_o be_v force_v to_o imagine_v thou_o though_o not_o figure_v like_o a_o man_n yet_o as_o something_o corporeal_a have_v a_o certain_a space_n of_o be_v either_o infuse_v into_o and_o through_o all_o the_o world_n or_o also_o diffuse_v infinite_o beyond_o it_o because_o what_o i_o abstract_v from_o be_v in_o such_o space_n seem_v to_o i_o not_o to_o be_v at_o all_o i_o therefore_o conceive_v thy_o greatness_n o_o life_n of_o my_o life_n to_o be_v such_o as_o to_o penetrate_v by_o a_o extension_n through_o a_o infinite_a space_n on_o every_o side_n the_o whole_a mass_n of_o the_o world_n and_o to_o flow_v to_o all_o immensity_n beyond_o it_o without_o any_o limit_n so_o that_o thou_o the_o earth_n have_v the_o heaven_n have_v thou_o all_o thing_n have_v thou_o and_o they_o be_v bound_v in_o thou_o but_o thou_o no_o where_o and_o as_o this_o body_n of_o air_n which_o float_v above_o the_o earth_n hinder_v not_o the_o dart_a of_o a_o sunbeam_n through_o it_o which_o beam_n penetrate_v it_o not_o by_o cut_v or_o break_v the_o part_n but_o by_o fill_v the_o whole_a in_o such_o manner_n i_o conceive_v the_o body_n not_o only_o of_o the_o heaven_n or_o of_o the_o air_n or_o water_n but_o of_o the_o thick_a earth_n also_o transpassable_a by_o thou_o and_o in_o all_o her_o least_o as_o well_o as_o great_a part_n pierceable_a to_o receive_v every_o where_o thy_o presence_n thus_o with_o thy_o secret_a inspiration_n both_o intrinsically_a and_o extrinsecal_o actuate_a and_o manage_v all_o those_o thing_n which_o thou_o have_v create_v so_o i_o conceit_a not_o able_a to_o think_v of_o any_o other_o way_n though_o this_o be_v false_a for_o thus_o a_o great_a part_n of_o earth_n will_v receive_v a_o great_a part_n of_o thy_o essence_n and_o a_o lesser_a a_o less_o and_o in_o such_o a_o sense_n will_v all_o thing_n be_v full_a of_o thou_o that_o the_o body_n of_o a_o elephant_n will_v contain_v a_o great_a quantity_n of_o thou_o than_o that_o of_o a_o sparrow_n by_o how_o much_o it_o be_v big_a an_o possess_v a_o great_a space_n and_o so_o thou_o shall_v apply_v thy_o presence_n to_o the_o part_n of_o the_o world_n by_o parcel_n a_o great_a part_n of_o thou_o to_o the_o large_a and_o a_o lesser_a to_o the_o small_a but_o thou_o be_v nothing_o so_o notwithstanding_o as_o yet_o thou_o have_v not_o so_o far_o
enlighten_v my_o darkness_n chap._n ii_o chap._n iii_o still_o unsatisfied_a concern_v the_o cause_n of_o evil_a and_o why_o angel_n and_o man_n be_v create_v by_o the_o most_o good_a god_n there_o shall_v by_o he_o be_v place_v in_o they_o a_o power_n to_o will_v evil_o but_o although_o i_o thus_o grant_v thou_o uncontaminable_a and_o unalterable_a or_o liable_a to_o misery_n in_o any_o part_n or_o member_n of_o thou_o from_o the_o manichean-feigned_n opposition_n of_o i_o know_v not_o what_o gens_n tenebrarum_fw-la or_o adverse_a malignant_a power_n arise_v out_o of_o another_o lump_n of_o matter_n contrary_a to_o that_o which_o thou_o have_v make_v which_o can_v it_o any_o way_n have_v hurt_v thou_o thou_o must_v then_o the_o very_a name_n of_o which_o all_o abhor_v have_v be_v suppose_v both_o violable_a and_o corruptible_a as_o be_v well_o press_v by_o nebridius_fw-la long_a since_o at_o carthage_n and_o have_v then_o much_o startle_v we_o that_o hear_v it_o and_o although_o i_o also_o firm_o acknowledge_v thou_o our_o lord_n the_o true_a god_n that_o make_v not_o only_o our_o soul_n principle_n soul_n whereas_o the_o manichee_n suppose_v the_o body_n produce_v by_o another_o evil_a principle_n but_o body_n but_o all_o *_o of_o we_o and_o *_o of_o all_o thing_n notwithstanding_o as_o yet_o i_o apprehend_v not_o clear_o and_o free_a from_o scruple_n the_o cause_n of_o evil._n yet_o whatever_o it_o be_v such_o i_o see_v it_o must_v necessary_o be_v as_o may_v no_o way_n oblige_v i_o to_o believe_v *_o thou_o the_o immutable_a god_n to_o be_v subject_a to_o change_v nor_o *_o thy_o substance_n to_o suffer_v evil_a rather_o than_o we_o to_o do_v any_o evil_n lest_o so_o myself_o shall_v become_v that_o i_o seek_v for_o and_o i_o strain_v hard_a to_o see_v and_o discern_v what_o i_o have_v hear_v that_o our_o own_o freewill_n be_v the_o cause_n that_o we_o do_v evil_a and_o thy_o righteous_a judgement_n that_o we_o suffer_v it_o but_o i_o be_v not_o yet_o able_a 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