wherein_o we_o judge_v amiss_o and_o whereupon_o we_o ground_n our_o particular_a fear_n for_o that_o be_v the_o easy_a way_n to_o remove_v they_o 8._o let_v we_o weigh_v the_o virtue_n of_o the_o physic_n we_o the_o virtue_n of_o the_o physic_n which_o must_v cure_v we_o which_o must_v cure_v our_o disease_n to_o wit_n first_o the_o infinite_a goodness_n of_o god_n and_o christ_n merit_n and_o what_o soul_n can_v fear_v have_v so_o gracious_a a_o god_n and_o so_o great_a a_o ransom_n 2._o the_o credit_n and_o compassion_n of_o the_o bless_a virgin_n and_o the_o prayer_n and_o patronage_n of_o saint_n and_o angel_n who_o be_v secure_a for_o themselves_o be_v solicitous_a for_o we_o 3._o the_o testimony_n and_o sweet_a promise_n of_o holy_a scripture_n for_o how_o often_o have_v god_n tell_v we_o i_o be_o prone_a to_o pity_v i_o be_o ready_a to_o receive_v sinner_n i_o will_v help_v they_o who_o do_v their_o endeavour_n if_o therefore_o he_o deny_v not_o his_o mercy_n to_o they_o that_o 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up_o christ_n action_n for_o our_o offence_n self_n in_o this_o sort_n first_o cast_v a_o eye_n upon_o thy_o sin_n and_o perceive_v that_o thou_o can_v not_o hope_v to_o pacify_v god_n wrath_n nor_o satisfy_v his_o divine_a justice_n by_o thy_o own_o endeavour_n address_v thyself_o to_o thy_o saviour_n life_n passion_n and_o death_n and_o fix_v upon_o some_o one_o or_o other_o action_n or_o suffering_n of_o he_o as_o upon_o his_o fast_n or_o his_o pray_n or_o the_o effusion_n of_o his_o precious_a blood_n then_o reflect_v that_o he_o offer_v that_o his_o action_n or_o passion_n to_o his_o eternal_a father_n for_o thy_o sin_n and_o to_o reconcile_v he_o to_o thou_o as_o if_o he_o say_v i_o do_v now_o o_o my_o heavenly_a father_n full_o satisfy_v thy_o divine_a justice_n for_o the_o sin_n of_o this_o thy_o servant_n n._n oh_o let_v it_o please_v thou_o to_o spare_v he_o and_o to_o receive_v he_o into_o the_o number_n of_o thy_o elect_a 8._o do_v thou_o also_o make_v the_o same_o 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thou_o may_v give_v a_o oblation_n how_o to_o know_v the_o sincerity_n of_o thy_o oblation_n probable_a guest_n concern_v thy_o own_o oblation_n that_o it_o proceed_v from_o a_o sincere_a and_o disinterest_v heart_n if_o thou_o can_v perfect_o practice_v it_o in_o time_n of_o adversity_n bear_v it_o with_o true_a patience_n and_o be_v then_o ready_a to_o execute_v god_n holy_a will_n in_o all_o thy_o desolation_n and_o distress_n this_o be_v the_o right_a way_n o_o my_o dear_o belove_v to_o make_v a_o beneficial_a truck_v and_o traffic_v of_o thyself_o for_o thy_o saviour_n who_o will_v give_v thou_o himself_o in_o exchange_n if_o thou_o bequeathe_v and_o sacrifice_a thyself_o thus_o total_o to_o his_o divine_a majesty_n chap._n xxxiv_o how_o to_o petition_v for_o divine_a grace_n have_v make_v this_o perfect_a oblation_n goodness_n text._n first_o encourage_v thyself_o with_o confidence_n in_o his_o goodness_n of_o this_o most_o precious_a treasure_n which_o be_v no_o less_o than_o christ_n himself_o with_o all_o his_o glorious_a merit_n to_o the_o eternal_a father_n thou_o may_v appear_v with_o confidence_n before_o the_o throne_n of_o his_o mercy_n to_o petition_v for_o the_o supply_n of_o thy_o necessity_n and_o that_o thou_o may_v do_v it_o with_o the_o more_o decency_n first_o encourage_v thyself_o with_o confidence_n remember_v his_o benefit_n bounty_n and_o liberality_n towards_o thou_o for_o nothing_o can_v more_o strengthen_v thy_o hope_n of_o obtain_v new_a supply_n than_o than_o the_o reflection_n upon_o god_n former_a favour_n in_o time_n of_o necessity_n and_o know_v that_o this_o confidence_n give_v the_o whole_a efficacy_n to_o thy_o petition_n so_o that_o without_o it_o never_o expect_v to_o obtain_v from_o god_n any_o thing_n which_o thou_o demand_v 2._o second_o take_v special_a care_n that_o it_o second_o join_v humility_n with_o it_o this_o confidence_n be_v couple_v with_o humility_n distrust_v total_o thou_o own_o merit_n and_o rely_v bold_o upon_o christ_n mercy_n not_o that_o i_o advise_v thou_o to_o become_v fearful_a and_o pusilanimous_a upon_o pretence_n of_o humility_n so_o as_o not_o to_o beg_v large_a benefit_n from_o god_n bounty_n for_o though_o it_o behoove_v to_o know_v thy_o own_o baseness_n and_o to_o consider_v how_o little_o thou_o deserve_v yet_o thou_o must_v beware_v of_o distrust_v the_o divine_a bounty_n or_o undervalue_v his_o liberality_n no_o be_v not_o deject_v for_o as_o thou_o deserve_v nothing_o so_o thou_o have_v great_a occasion_n to_o demand_v much_o since_o god_n gift_n be_v not_o ground_v upon_o thy_o desert_n but_o upon_o christ_n merit_n which_o be_v desire_n three_o press_v thy_o petition_n with_o fervent_a desire_n of_o infinite_a worth_n and_o dignity_n 3._o three_o endeavour_v to_o press_v thy_o petition_n with_o frequent_a and_o fervent_a desire_n that_o be_v that_o thou_o ardent_o wish_v to_o obtain_v what_o thou_o ask_v for_o since_o thou_o petitione_v a_o most_o pious_a father_n for_o a_o supply_n of_o thy_o necessity_n who_o not_o only_o bid_v thou_o ask_v great_a thing_n but_o be_v also_o angry_a if_o thou_o ask_v not_o and_o have_v pass_v his_o promise_n to_o perform_v thy_o petition_n why_o shall_v thou_o not_o have_v inflame_v desire_n â—o_o obtain_v what_o thou_o demand_v 4._o and_o indeed_o we_o most_o common_o demand_n the_o want_n whereof_o hinder_v the_o effect_n of_o our_o demand_n fail_v in_o the_o effect_n of_o our_o demand_n because_o we_o want_v this_o fervour_n in_o our_o desire_n and_o make_v our_o petition_n tepid_o rather_o because_o faith_n and_o reason_n dictate_v unto_o we_o that_o such_o thing_n be_v needful_a for_o we_o than_o that_o we_o zealous_o covet_v to_o receive_v they_o the_o true_a cause_n of_o which_o tepidity_n be_v for_o that_o our_o affection_n be_v fasten_v to_o earthly_a thing_n we_o prize_v they_o in_o our_o will_n though_o we_o sleight_v they_o in_o our_o understanding_n and_o consequent_o though_o we_o know_v in_o our_o judgement_n that_o our_o mind_n be_v to_o be_v raise_v up_o to_o high_a object_n yet_o we_o do_v not_o serious_o seek_v to_o be_v separate_v from_o they_o whereas_o if_o we_o very_o and_o vigorous_o humble_o and_o hearty_o desire_v it_o our_o prayer_n will_v soon_o return_v we_o a_o happy_a effect_n 5._o last_o provide_v that_o thy_o petition_n charity_n four_o let_v not_o thy_o petition_n want_v charity_n want_v not_o first_o affection_n of_o charity_n to_o thy_o neighbour_n for_o it_o shall_v not_o suffice_v thou_o to_o pray_v fervent_o for_o thyself_o but_o to_o extend_v thy_o piety_n in_o petition_v the_o divine_a grace_n for_o all_o other_o second_o perseverance_n for_o our_o perseverance_n perseverance_n love_a lord_n use_v sometime_o to_o prolong_v and_o to_o put_v off_o the_o fulfil_n of_o our_o petition_n for_o our_o great_a profit_n and_o the_o better_a increase_n and_o enkindle_n of_o our_o holy_a desire_n as_o may_v be_v exemplify_v in_o the_o cananean_a woman_n and_o 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myself_o or_o something_o belong_v to_o myself_o but_o in_o this_o i_o give_v the_o principal_a leave_v no_o right_a to_o myself_o nay_o i_o be_o no_o more_o myself_o but_o thy_o servant_n and_o slave_n 3._o why_o be_v we_o be_v 3._o this_o be_v the_o end_n of_o our_o life_n and_o be_v place_v in_o this_o world_n o_o my_o soul_n but_o to_o perform_v the_o will_n of_o god_n why_o enter_v we_o into_o the_o school_n of_o perfection_n but_o to_o learn_v to_o practice_v it_o pure_o and_o perfect_o to_o what_o end_n be_v all_o our_o prayer_n communion_n exercise_n etc._n etc._n but_o to_o know_v god_n holy_a will_n and_o to_o follow_v it_o what_o profit_n have_v we_o reap_v by_o follow_v hither_o to_o our_o own_o will_n what_o will_v become_v of_o we_o if_o we_o continue_v in_o it_o what_o mean_n be_v there_o to_o amend_v it_o for_o the_o future_a but_o humble_a obedience_n and_o absolute_a submission_n of_o our_o will_n in_o all_o and_o to_o all_o leave_v all_o to_o god_n do_v all_o for_o 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faith_n henceforth_o there_o be_v lay_v up_o for_o i_o a_o crown_n of_o righteousness_n which_o our_o lord_n the_o righteous_a judge_n shall_v give_v i_o at_o that_o day_n and_o not_o to_o i_o only_o but_o unto_o they_o also_o that_o love_n his_o appear_v james_n 1._o 12._o bless_a be_v the_o man_n that_o endure_v temptation_n for_o when_o he_o be_v try_v he_o shall_v receive_v the_o crown_n of_o life_n which_o our_o lord_n have_v promise_v to_o they_o that_o love_v he_o revelation_n 2._o 10._o be_v thou_o faithful_a until_o death_n and_o i_o will_v give_v thou_o the_o crown_n of_o life_n finis_fw-la errata_fw-la in_o the_o conflict_n page_n 32._o line_n 2._o for_o from_o read_v form_n p._n 45._o l._n 15._o for_o weary_a r._n wary_a p._n 69._o l._n 25._o for_o mediation_n r._n meditation_n p._n 143._o l._n 28._o for_o his_o r._n he_o p._n 143._o l._n 29._o for_o its_o r._n he_o p._n 161._o l._n 29._o for_o ordinary_a r._n ordinary_o p._n 201._o l._n 2._o for_o pleasure_n r._n please_v 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source_n of_o all_o goodness_n thank_v he_o for_o all_o his_o benefit_n and_o blessing_n for_o the_o inspiration_n he_o have_v send_v thou_o and_o the_o good_a desire_n of_o virtue_n he_o have_v give_v thou_o for_o his_o deliverance_n from_o danger_n and_o defence_n against_o thy_o enemy_n chap._n xl._n be_v a_o conclusion_n of_o the_o whole_a worke._n 1._o much_o more_o may_v be_v say_v of_o sufficient_a this_o short_a book_n weâ—l_o practise_v be_v sufficient_a these_o important_a matter_n but_o let_v this_o which_o be_v here_o deliver_v according_a to_o my_o poor_a talon_n suffice_v for_o the_o present_a which_o sure_o if_o thou_o endeavoure_v to_o keep_v in_o thy_o memory_n and_o accomplish_v in_o thy_o action_n thou_o have_v sufficient_o learn_v and_o labour_v 2._o but_o in_o respect_n of_o thy_o weak_a capacity_n and_o my_o propose_a brevity_n it_o will_v be_v necessary_a that_o thou_o use_v a_o studious_a diligence_n in_o often_o revolve_v and_o meditate_v upon_o these_o forego_n precept_n for_o by_o frequent_a consideration_n and_o continual_a exercise_n thou_o will_v certain_o increase_v thy_o inward_a strength_n whereby_o to_o conquer_v all_o thy_o enemy_n explication_n above_o all_o thing_n beg_v incessant_o of_o the_o divine_a goodness_n the_o gift_n of_o perseverance_n in_o thy_o unwearied_a endeavour_n against_o thy_o passion_n and_o imperfection_n it_o be_v the_o chief_a weapon_n in_o this_o spiritual_a warfare_n against_o thy_o never-dying_a enemy_n which_o like_o ill_a weed_n be_v ever_o bud_v and_o break_v forth_o so_o long_o as_o the_o earth_n have_v any_o life_n in_o it_o to_o nourish_v they_o 3._o resolve_v therefore_o to_o betake_v thy_o manful_o text_n if_o thou_o resolve_v to_o fight_v manful_o self_n to_o these_o propose_a arm_n of_o defence_n and_o to_o fight_v stout_o manful_o and_o constant_o because_o no_o man_n can_v avoid_v this_o combat_n without_o endanger_v the_o loss_n of_o the_o conquest_n nor_o can_v there_o be_v any_o hope_n of_o peace_n with_o such_o enemy_n which_o endommage_n they_o most_o who_o most_o desire_v to_o enter_v league_n and_o friendship_n with_o they_o 4._o neither_o be_v thou_o terrify_v at_o power_n and_o not_o to_o be_v terrify_v at_o thy_o enemy_n power_n their_o seem_a power_n and_o cruelty_n since_o all_o their_o force_n and_o fury_n be_v in_o the_o more_o powerful_a hand_n of_o that_o supreme_a captain_n for_o who_o honour_n thou_o be_v engage_v in_o the_o battle_n wherein_o none_o can_v be_v vanquish_v but_o they_o that_o will_v themselves_o and_o if_o thy_o lord_n for_o who_o thou_o wage_a this_o war_n do_v seem_v sometime_o to_o withdraw_v his_o assistance_n and_o delay_v thy_o conquest_n over_o thy_o enemy_n for_o a_o time_n yet_o be_v not_o thou_o fainthearted_a but_o fight_v on_o courageous_o be_v most_o certain_a and_o secure_a that_o his_o goodness_n power_n and_o providence_n direct_v all_o event_n and_o more_o especial_o all_o adversity_n to_o the_o best_a profit_n of_o his_o soldier_n 5._o these_o thought_n will_v beget_v in_o on_o though_o the_o victory_n seem_v to_o come_v slow_o on_o thou_o a_o generous_a spirit_n and_o a_o constant_a heart_n to_o resist_v and_o fight_v with_o courage_n and_o therefore_o though_o the_o victory_n come_v slow_o on_o believe_v firm_o that_o this_o defer_v be_v either_o to_o free_v thy_o soul_n from_o secret_a pride_n and_o conserve_v thou_o in_o true_a humility_n or_o else_o to_o perfect_v thou_o in_o virtue_n and_o to_o teach_v thou_o to_o become_v a_o try_a soldier_n by_o these_o long_a continue_a conflict_n or_o sure_o for_o some_o other_o good_a of_o thou_o which_o thy_o lord_n then_o conceal_v from_o thou_o for_o thy_o great_a merit_n and_o improvement_n 6._o go_v on_o therefore_o o_o my_o dear_o belove_a and_o enter_v these_o list_n with_o a_o cheerful_a and_o heroic_a mind_n lest_o thou_o seem_v ungrateful_a to_o thy_o love_a lord_n god_n who_o so_o much_o tender_v thy_o good_a that_o he_o suffer_v death_n for_o thy_o sake_n and_o attend_v careful_o to_o every_o counsel_n and_o command_n of_o thy_o captain_n christ_n jesus_n that_o thou_o may_v total_o rout_n and_o ruin_n all_o thy_o enemy_n for_o if_o thou_o permit_v but_o one_o only_a to_o live_v and_o lurk_v in_o thy_o soul_n it_o will_v be_v as_o a_o moat_n in_o thy_o eye_n and_o as_o a_o lance_n in_o thy_o bowel_n and_o prove_v a_o perpetual_a impediment_n in_o the_o progress_n of_o so_o glorious_a a_o victory_n apoc._n 2._o 7._o to_o he_o that_o overcom_v i_o will_v give_v the_o hide_a manna_n 1._o king_n 15._o 18._o thou_o shall_v fighe_v against_o they_o until_o their_o utter_a destruction_n the_o general_a table_n contain_v the_o several_a chapter_n of_o this_o treatise_n as_o they_o stand_v divide_v into_o number_n and_o be_v a_o brief_a compendium_n of_o the_o whole_a work_n the_o spiritual_a conflict_n or_o the_o arraignment_n of_o the_o spirit_n of_o self-love_n and_o sensuality_n at_o the_o bar_n of_o truth_n and_o reason_n chap._n i._n wherein_o christian_a perfection_n consist_v the_o importance_n of_o this_o knowledge_n be_v very_o great_a numb_a 1._o some_o place_n perfection_n in_o austerity_n 2._o other_o in_o recite_v many_o prayer_n 3._o other_o in_o exact_a observance_n 4._o all_o which_o be_v good_a mean_n but_o not_o direct_o tend_v to_o perfection_n 5._o and_o they_o that_o rest_n in_o these_o low_a exercise_n be_v in_o great_a danger_n 6._o as_o may_v appear_v by_o the_o rest_n of_o their_o action_n 7._o and_o especial_o by_o their_o want_n of_o resignation_n in_o time_n of_o affliction_n 8._o true_a perfection_n therefore_o consist_v in_o the_o knowledge_n of_o god_n and_o ourselves_o in_o the_o love_n of_o god_n and_o hatred_n of_o ourselves_o in_o resignation_n to_o god_n will_n and_o deny_v our_o own_o 9_o all_o which_o christ_n have_v teach_v we_o by_o word_n and_o example_n 10._o and_o we_o must_v also_o do_v it_o if_o we_o mean_v to_o purchase_v victory_n 11._o nor_o be_v there_o any_o thing_n more_o glorious_a to_o ourselves_o or_o more_o grateful_a to_o god_n 12._o but_o to_o obtain_v it_o we_z wust_z provide_v four_o necessary_a weapon_n 13._o chap._n ii_o first_o distrust_v of_o ourselves_o which_o be_v get_v by_o a_o deep_a sense_n of_o our_o own_o nothing_o 1._o by_o prayer_n 2._o and_o by_o often_o reflect_v upon_o our_o own_o weakness_n 3._o and_o this_o self-knowledge_n be_v a_o lesson_n must_v be_v well_o learn_v 4._o and_o we_o must_v be_v careful_a to_o rise_v speedy_o after_o our_o fall_n 5._o the_o great_a necessity_n of_o this_o distrust_n in_o our_o own_o strength_n be_v enforce_v by_o the_o corruption_n of_o our_o nature_n and_o the_o frailty_n thereof_o and_o by_o consider_v how_o much_o this_o acknowledgement_n please_v god_n and_o presumption_n displease_v he_o 6._o chap._n iii_o second_o confidence_n in_o god_n which_o be_v obtain_v 1._o by_o prayer_n 2._o by_o consider_v the_o divine_a power_n wisdom_n and_o goodness_n by_o which_o he_o can_v know_v how_o and_o be_v willing_a to_o help_v we_o 3._o by_o meditate_v upon_o holy_a writ_n 4._o another_o mean_n be_v by_o think_v on_o our_o own_o frailty_n and_o god_n omnipotency_n at_o the_o begin_n of_o each_o action_n whereby_o we_o shall_v not_o be_v foolish_o deject_v at_o our_o frequent_a fail_n 5._o a_o necessary_a caveat_n for_o all_o spiritual_a people_n 6._o by_o god_n assistance_n we_o can_v do_v all_o thing_n but_o many_o be_v deceive_v in_o presume_v upon_o their_o own_o strength_n 7._o chap._n iu._n three_o continual_a exercise_n 1._o which_o consist_v in_o the_o right_a use_n of_o the_o understanding_n 2._o which_o be_v to_o be_v keep_v from_o ignorance_n by_o prayer_n and_o by_o a_o diligent_a discussion_n of_o our_o own_o action_n judge_v thing_n according_a to_o their_o true_a worth_n and_o this_o will_v open_v our_o eye_n to_o see_v the_o meanness_n of_o all_o worldly_a vanity_n 3._o a_o necessary_a caution_n to_o keep_v the_o will_n from_o fix_v its_o love_n until_o the_o understanding_n have_v first_o ponder_v the_o object_n 4._o and_o the_o same_o caution_n be_v necessary_a also_o in_o holy_a thing_n 5._o the_o understanding_n be_v to_o be_v furthermore_o wean_v from_o curiosity_n 6._o how_o high_o this_o conduce_v to_o perfection_n and_o how_o cunning_o the_o devil_n plot_n against_o it_o by_o suggest_v pride_n to_o our_o understanding_n 7._o which_o be_v far_o more_o dangerous_a and_o more_o difficult_o cure_v than_o pride_n of_o the_o will._n 8._o chap._n v._n of_o the_o will_n and_o the_o end_n to_o which_o we_o be_v to_o direct_v all_o our_o action_n a_o will_v to_o do_v well_o suffice_v not_o but_o our_o action_n must_v also_o be_v perform_v only_o to_o please_v god_n 1._o which_o to_o attain_v to_o apply_v thy_o understanding_n to_o know_v god_n will_n 3._o and_o take_v heed_n of_o be_v deceive_v because_o nature_n be_v
and_o not_o only_o acknowledge_v thy_o own_o baseness_n but_o use_v thyself_o according_o 7._o and_o stick_v to_o this_o amid_o all_o praise_n or_o applause_n of_o other_o 8._o and_o let_v not_o the_o memory_n of_o thy_o good_a deed_n puff_v thou_o up_o with_o vanity_n 9_o for_o thou_o will_v find_v the_o best_a of_o they_o very_o imperfect_a 10._o and_o that_o thou_o have_v no_o colour_n to_o glory_n in_o they_o but_o to_o accuse_v thy_o want_n of_o duty_n 11._o learn_v therefore_o humility_n which_o be_v the_o foundation_n of_o all_o virtue_n and_o without_o which_o thou_o be_v less_o than_o nothing_o 12._o it_o be_v the_o only_a way_n to_o find_v praise_n and_o please_v god_n 13._o to_o who_o thou_o be_v bind_v for_o permit_v thou_o to_o be_v scorn_v as_o also_o to_o they_o that_o do_v it_o 14._o be_v ever_o wary_a of_o the_o devil_n and_o of_o thy_o own_o inclination_n 15._o of_o rash-judgement_n which_o spring_v from_o self-esteem_a and_o pride_n 1._o the_o devil_n strive_v to_o keep_v open_a our_o sense_n upon_o our_o neighbour_n action_n but_o we_o must_v be_v as_o diligent_a to_o shun_v as_o he_o be_v to_o lay_v his_o plot_n first_o by_o deny_v to_o give_v any_o sentence_n 2._o second_o by_o look_v homeward_o upon_o ourselves_o where_o we_o shall_v find_v some_o root_n of_o the_o same_o fault_n we_o blame_v in_o they_o 3._o if_o the_o fault_n be_v manifest_a put_v a_o charitable_a construction_n upon_o it_o if_o monstrous_a have_v recourse_n to_o god_n secret_a judgement_n and_o tremble_v at_o the_o proceed_n of_o his_o providence_n 4._o and_o know_v that_o all_o charity_n proceed_v from_o god_n good_a spirit_n and_o all_o bitterness_n from_o the_o devil_n 5._o of_o the_o mean_n to_o shield_v ourselves_o against_o the_o attempt_n of_o our_o enemy_n at_o the_o time_n of_o death_n the_o way_n to_o be_v then_o conqueror_n be_v to_o fall_v upon_o our_o enemy_n before_o hand_n 1._o and_o to_o make_v timely_a preparation_n by_o study_v now_o the_o answer_n of_o the_o four_o challenge_n our_o enemy_n will_v then_o sendus_fw-la 2._o the_o first_o be_v against_o faith_n and_o the_o remedy_n be_v to_z retreat_z from_o thy_o understanding_n to_o thy_o will._n 4._o and_o to_o give_v no_o answer_n to_o thy_o enemy_n question_n 5._o but_o to_o fix_v thy_o thought_n upon_o christ_n crucify_v 6._o the_o second_o assault_n be_v of_o despair_n where_o thou_o be_v to_o observe_v this_o certain_a rule_n etc._n etc._n and_o to_o have_v a_o perfect_a hope_n and_o humble_a confidence_n in_o god_n 7._o and_o never_o to_o distrust_v his_o mercy_n and_o the_o merit_n of_o his_o passion_n 8._o the_o three_o be_v of_o vainglory_n which_o be_v conquer_v by_o distrust_n of_o thyself_o and_o trust_v in_o god_n 9_o the_o four_o be_v by_o fâ—lâ—â—_n illusion_n against_o which_o have_v recourse_n to_o the_o confession_n of_o thy_o own_o nothing_o and_o admit_v of_o no_o apparence_n though_o they_o seem_v to_o come_v from_o heaven_n 10._o after_o these_o general_a temptation_n follow_v other_o in_o particular_a 11._o chap._n xx._n that_o we_o must_v never_o flatter_v ourselves_o as_o have_v subdue_v our_o enemy_n but_o ofteâ—_n renew_v our_o exercise_n for_o perfection_n be_v very_o high_a and_o hard_o to_o be_v obtain_v 1._o 2._o chap._n xxi_o of_o holy_a prayer_n the_o four_o main_a weapon_n in_o this_o spiritual_a warfare_n 1._o which_o must_v have_v these_o property_n first_o a_o desire_n to_o serve_v god_n second_o perfect_a faith_n three_o conformity_n to_o god_n will_v because_o thou_o own_o will_n be_v subject_a to_o error_n but_o the_o divine_a will_n be_v infallible_o right_a four_o a_o connexion_n with_o practice_n five_o thanksgiving_n for_o receive_a favour_n six_o a_o reflection_n upon_o god_n goodness_n and_o promise_n and_o upon_o christ_n passion_n seven_o perseverance_n prayer_n must_v also_o be_v strengthen_v with_o hope_n and_o though_o god_n seem_v to_o reject_v thy_o prayer_n yet_o persevere_v knock_v and_o always_o grateful_o thank_v he_o as_o well_o when_o he_o deny_v as_o grant_v thy_o request_n chap._n xxii_o what_o mental_a prayer_n be_v and_o what_o contemplation_n mental_a prayer_n include_v always_o either_o a_o virtual_a petition_n of_o something_o 1._o 2._o 3._o 4._o or_o a_o actual_a ask_n of_o it_o by_o word_n express_v in_o the_o mind_n 5._o 6._o chap._n xxiii_o how_o to_o join_v contemplation_n to_o this_o inward_a prayer_n by_o take_v some_o point_n of_o christ_n death_n or_o passion_n 1._o and_o apply_v his_o action_n to_o the_o virtue_n thou_o demand_v as_o for_o example_n to_o patience_n 2._o mark_v how_o meek_o he_o suffer_v and_o learn_v thereby_o to_o suffer_v patient_o thy_o small_a adversity_n 3._o and_o compel_v thy_o will_n to_o take_v up_o thy_o cross_n quiet_o 4._o chap._n xxiv_o of_o another_o certain_a manner_n of_o prayer_n by_o way_n of_o pray_v and_o meditate_v together_o 1._o consider_v christ_n merit_n and_o the_o content_a his_o heavenly_a father_n take_v in_o his_o obedience_n 2._o and_o present_v they_o both_o to_o god_n 3._o chap._n xxv_o of_o a_o way_n of_o pray_v by_o the_o intercession_n of_o the_o b._n virgin_n 1._o first_o fix_v thy_o mind_n upon_o the_o eternal_a father_n 2._o consider_v the_o content_a he_o have_v in_o he_o self_n concern_v she_o from_o all_o eternity_n 3._o and_o the_o wonder_n he_o wrought_v in_o she_o when_o she_o have_v a_o be_v 4._o second_o upon_o god_n the_o son_n 5._o last_o upon_o the_o sacred_a virgin_n 6._o chap._n xxvi_o how_o to_o pray_v and_o meditate_v by_o mean_n of_o the_o holy_a angel_n and_o heavenly_a citizen_n first_o address_v thyself_o to_o the_o eternal_a father_n 1._o next_o unto_o the_o glorious_a angel_n and_o saint_n themselves_o 2._o divide_v they_o into_o quire_n according_a to_o the_o day_n of_o the_o week_n 4._o but_o every_o day_n pray_v to_o the_o bless_a virgin_n to_o thy_o particular_a partron_n and_o to_o s._n joseph_n chap._n xxvii_o how_o to_o meditate_v upon_o christ_n passion_n and_o to_o enkindle_v holy_a affection_n 1._o by_o reflection_n upon_o his_o love_n and_o goodness_n 2._o how_o to_o get_v constant_a hope_n 3._o and_o a_o spiritual_a joy_n 4._o as_o also_o affection_n of_o sorrow_n and_o compassion_n 5._o and_o contrition_n for_o thy_o sin_n 7._o with_o a_o perfect_a hatred_n of_o they_o 8._o and_o to_o admire_v god_n bounty_n by_o consider_v first_o who_o sufer_v second_o for_o who_o three_o by_o who_o four_o what_o five_o how_o six_o when_o and_o where_o 9_o a_o further_a declaration_n of_o the_o profit_n which_o may_v be_v draw_v from_o the_o meditation_n upon_o christ_n passion_n and_o particular_o of_o the_o imitation_n of_o his_o virtue_n the_o first_o profit_n be_v a_o confusion_n at_o the_o sight_n of_o our_o imperfection_n the_o second_o a_o desire_n and_o demand_v of_o pardon_n with_o a_o resolution_n of_o amendment_n the_o three_o a_o persecution_n of_o our_o passion_n the_o four_o a_o imitation_n of_o christ_n virtue_n another_o way_n to_o meditate_v on_o the_o passion_n by_o consider_v first_o how_o christ_n soul_n carry_v itself_o towards_o the_o heavenly_a father_n second_o how_o the_o father_n to-towards_a christ_n soul_n three_o how_o the_o soul_n towards_o itself_o and_o its_o sacred_a body_n four_o how_o thy_o saviour_n carry_v himself_o towards_o thou_o five_o how_o thou_o shall_v carry_v thyself_o towards_o thy_o saviour_n christ_n crucify_a be_v the_o best_a book_n to_o read_v in_o and_o wherein_o to_o learn_v all_o virtue_n if_o thou_o make_v fit_a application_n to_o thy_o particular_a practice_n chap._n xxviii_o of_o sensible_a devotion_n and_o spiritual_a dryness_n devotion_n be_v best_a know_v by_o the_o effect_n it_o produce_v 1._o how_o to_o make_v profit_n of_o all_o spiritual_a sweetness_n in_o devotion_n 2._o three_o cause_n of_o spiritual_a dryness_n the_o devil_n ourselves_o and_o god_n 3._o search_v out_o the_o true_a cause_n thereof_o 4._o and_o keep_v on_o thy_o accustom_a practice_n of_o piety_n without_o seek_v outward_a comfort_n 5._o nor_o pray_v to_o have_v comfort_n in_o thy_o cross_n 7._o because_o to_o suffer_v for_o god_n be_v the_o best_a prayer_n and_o make_v thou_o true_o devout_a 8._o and_o not_o the_o feel_n of_o sensible_a devotion_n 9_o wherein_o many_o be_v deceive_v 10._o what_o thou_o be_v to_o do_v in_o time_n of_o distress_n and_o dereliction_n 11._o chap._n xxix_o that_o the_o worthy_a frequent_v of_o the_o most_o bless_a sacrament_n be_v a_o efficacious_a mean_n to_o conquer_v our_o passion_n 1._o meditate_v the_o day_n before_o thy_o communion_n of_o thy_o saviour_n desire_n etc._n etc._n to_o come_v to_o thou_o 2._o who_o affirm_v that_o his_o delight_n be_v to_o be_v with_o we_o 3._o and_o move_v thy_o soul_n to_o a_o reciprocal_a desire_n and_o affection_n towards_o he_o 5._o then_o provoke_v thy_o passion_n to_o battle_n
remember_v what_o i_o be_o after_o so_o many_o signal_n benefit_n on_o thy_o part_n and_o serious_a promise_n on_o i_o i_o be_o ashamed_a to_o think_v what_o i_o deserve_v i_o be_o afraid_a to_o call_v to_o mind_n what_o i_o desire_v i_o be_o ignorant_a how_o to_o ask_v lord_n for_o thy_o mercy_n sake_n for_o thy_o mother_n sake_n by_o thy_o bowel_n of_o mercy_n and_o her_o breast_n of_o meekness_n by_o all_o that_o thou_o have_v suffer_v for_o i_o and_o she_o for_o thou_o by_o all_o that_o be_v dear_a to_o thou_o in_o heaven_n and_o earth_n forget_v and_o forgive_v what_o i_o have_v be_v my_o past_a folly_n and_o wickedness_n pity_v and_o protect_v what_o i_o be_o my_o present_a frailty_n and_o weakness_n be_v satisfy_v for_o what_o i_o deserve_v supply_v what_o i_o desire_v and_o be_v mindful_a of_o i_o in_o life_n and_o death_n how_o much_o o_o my_o god_n do_v i_o wish_v to_o leave_v all_o and_o lose_v myself_o to_o find_v thou_o to_o humble_a myself_o to_o please_v thou_o and_o to_o hate_v myself_o to_o love_v thou_o but_o these_o hard_a and_o high_a matter_n i_o dare_v scarce_o promise_n how_o then_o and_o when_o shall_v i_o practice_v they_o yet_o without_o thou_o o_o sacred_a humility_n there_o be_v no_o solid_a centre_n to_o rest_v in_o no_o true_a sweetness_n to_o take_v gust_n in_o therefore_o o_o my_o god_n i_o come_v to_o thy_o school_n to_o learn_v this_o necessary_a lesson_n teach_v i_o touch_v i_o wound_v i_o and_o win_v i_o unto_o thou_o 3._o pure_a intention_n to_o please_v and_o praise_n god_n only_o to_o be_v all_o his_o ever_o he_o in_o what_o manner_n and_o measure_n he_o best_a like_v both_o in_o this_o prayer_n and_o all_o thing_n whatsoever_o behold_v therefore_o o_o my_o lord_n how_o out_o of_o pure_a obedience_n to_o thy_o will_n intention_n 3._o pure_a intention_n and_o confidence_n in_o thy_o mercy_n i_o now_o approach_v to_o please_v and_o praise_v thou_o not_o to_o receive_v great_a matter_n from_o thou_o for_o i_o be_o unworthy_a nor_o to_o conceive_v great_a matter_n of_o thou_o for_o i_o be_o uncapable_a but_o to_o leave_v all_o for_o thou_o to_o be_v humble_a of_o heart_n beyond_o all_o and_o to_o love_v thou_o more_o than_o all_o this_o be_v both_o conform_a to_o my_o condition_n and_o obligation_n i_o come_v to_o prayer_n o_o my_o only_a lord_n and_o love_n not_o to_o have_v much_o but_o to_o give_v up_o all_o to_o be_v thou_o all_o thou_o ever_o thou_o in_o life_n and_o death_n for_o time_n and_o eternity_n as_o thou_o best_o please_v i_o come_v o_o my_o centre_n and_o sweetness_n to_o seek_v thou_o and_o sigh_v after_o thou_o yet_o i_o be_o content_a neither_o to_o find_v thou_o nor_o feel_v thou_o but_o only_o to_o see_v thou_o by_o faith_n and_o to_o suffer_v for_o thou_o with_o fidelity_n i_o be_o satisfy_v and_o content_a that_o thou_o be_v so_o good_a great_a glorious_a rich_a and_o happy_a in_o thyself_o and_o i_o be_o confident_a that_o thou_o in_o thy_o good_a time_n will_v make_v i_o rich_a in_o thy_o mercy_n and_o happy_a in_o thy_o love_n for_o in_o this_o pilgrimage_n i_o desire_v no_o other_o happiness_n than_o true_a humility_n nor_o great_a riches_n than_o naked_a charity_n the_o second_o part_n be_v consideration_n show_v these_o three_o thing_n first_o to_o ourselves_o and_o then_o to_o our_o god_n as_o his_o poor_a beggar_n 1._o our_o wound_n both_o internal_a and_o external_a to_o wit_n our_o sin_n ingratitude_n daily_a fayling_n strong_a passion_n etc._n etc._n ah_o my_o sick_a and_o sinful_a soul_n how_o wound_n 2._o part._n 1._o our_o wound_n weak_a and_o wound_v be_v we_o in_o every_o degree_n in_o all_o part_n in_o each_o member_n of_o body_n and_o faculty_n of_o mind_n 1._o all_o be_v out_o of_o order_n all_o be_v pride_n and_o self-love_n how_o impenitent_a be_v we_o in_o sorrow_v how_o impatient_a in_o suffer_v how_o unconstant_a in_o persevere_v and_o yet_o how_o importune_a in_o sin_v 2._o my_o understanding_n be_v blind_a to_o good_a clear-sighted_a to_o evil_n my_o will_n be_v perverse_a peevish_a cold_a sensual_a my_o memory_n be_v weak_a full_a of_o idle_a image_n subject_a to_o distraction_n 3._o my_o affection_n be_v vain_a my_o passion_n violent_a my_o inclination_n vicious_a 4._o my_o faith_n be_v little_a my_o hope_n less_o my_o charity_n lest_o of_o all_o 5._o so_o forward_o to_o extroversion_n and_o dissolution_n so_o backward_o to_o introversion_n and_o compunction_n so_o full_a of_o imperfection_n and_o immortification_n 6._o so_o little_a confidence_n in_o thy_o mercy_n so_o little_a patience_n in_o my_o misery_n and_o almost_o no_o performance_n of_o mâ—_n good_a purpose_n 7._o so_o curious_a tâ—_n censure_v other_o so_o careless_a to_o keep_v mâ—self_n and_o curb_v my_o own_o sense_n final_o all_o be_v self-love_n self-will_n self-conceit_n self-seeking_a pride_n propriety_n partiality_n which_o be_v my_o daily_a and_o dangerous_a disease_n o_o father_n of_o mercy_n and_o only_a physician_n of_o my_o soul_n thou_o be_v almighty_a and_o all-bounty_n these_o be_v my_o wound_n and_o impurity_n and_o if_o thou_o will_v thou_o can_v both_o cure_v and_o cleanse_v i_o and_o if_o thou_o will_v not_o i_o will_v remain_v content_a as_o i_o be_o i_o be_o willing_a to_o continue_v weak_a so_o i_o be_v not_o wicked_a to_o be_v weary_v and_o wound_v so_o i_o be_v not_o utter_o tire_v over-turned_n defeat_v and_o lose_v the_o victory_n cut_v kill_v crucify_v o_o lord_n only_o spare_v i_o for_o eternity_n 2._o our_o want_n for_o we_o be_v not_o only_o needy_a but_o naked_a not_o only_o poor_a but_o beggar_n who_o neither_o know_v how_o to_o deserve_v a_o alm_n nor_o how_o to_o desire_v it_o o_o my_o poor_a soul_n what_o do_v we_o want_n 2._o our_o want_n want_v nay_o what_o do_v we_o not_o want_v 1._o true_a light_n true_a liberty_n true_a love_n true_a life_n 2._o a_o settle_a attention_n a_o simple_a intention_n a_o serious_a introversion_n a_o sincere_a conversion_n 3._o humility_n of_o heart_n conformity_n of_o will_n purity_n of_o soul_n indifferency_n of_o spirit_n 4._o wisdom_n to_o know_v god_n will_v strength_n to_o execute_v it_o patience_n to_o persevere_v in_o it_o 5._o resolution_n to_o suffer_v for_o our_o saviour_n devotion_n to_o sigh_v after_o he_o diligence_n to_o find_v he_o constancy_n to_o remain_v with_o he_o 6._o courage_n to_o endure_v all_o faith_n to_o forgo_v all_o hope_v to_o expect_v all_o charity_n to_o give_v all_o and_o confidence_n to_o gain_v all_o final_o we_o want_v all_o we_o shall_v have_v yet_o our_o love_a lord_n be_v ready_a to_o bestow_v on_o we_o all_o that_o he_o have_v o_o my_o god_n and_o all_o thou_o be_v all_o that_o i_o want_v give_v i_o thyself_o and_o all_o my_o want_n and_o wish_n will_v be_v at_o a_o end_n thou_o be_v all_o my_o safety_n and_o my_o only_a security_n all_o my_o refuge_n and_o my_o only_a centre_n until_o i_o can_v return_v unto_o thou_o or_o whole_o turn_v into_o thou_o let_v thy_o cross_n be_v my_o purgatory_n and_o thy_o will_n be_v my_o paradise_n for_o other_o heaven_n upon_o earth_n i_o can_v never_o hope_v to_o find_v until_o then_o i_o must_v be_v content_a to_o sweat_v and_o sigh_v under_o the_o burdeâ—_n of_o this_o mortal_a life_n to_o sit_v like_o job_n upon_o a_o dunghill_n forlorn_a and_o forsake_v by_o all_o full_a of_o soar_v and_o sorrow_n to_o remain_v a_o perpetual_a and_o pitiful_a patient_n scarce_o feel_v patience_n in_o myself_o and_o find_v no_o compassion_n in_o other_o 3._o our_o wish_n and_o desire_n what_o can_v a_o wound_a wretch_n wish_v but_o to_o be_v care_v for_o and_o cure_v what_o can_v a_o naked_a beggar_n desire_n but_o to_o be_v clothe_v and_o comfort_v with_o some_o few_o rag_n and_o crumm_n what_o can_v a_o blind_a and_o cold_a person_n ask_v but_o light_n and_o love_v this_o o_o my_o sovereign_a and_o sweet_a wish_n 3._o our_o wish_n lord_n be_v the_o sum_n and_o substance_n of_o all_o my_o wish_n and_o request_n o_o that_o i_o can_v go_v out_o of_o myself_o and_o get_v into_o thou_o that_o i_o be_v dissolve_v from_o my_o loathe_a body_n to_o the_o end_n i_o may_v dilate_v my_o heart_n in_o thy_o love_n contemplate_v thy_o divine_a face_n in_o perfect_a liberty_n and_o please_v and_o praise_v thy_o majesty_n eternal_o for_o in_o this_o prison_n of_o flesh_n and_o vale_n of_o tear_n i_o faint_v under_o the_o weight_n of_o my_o temptation_n i_o fall_v under_o the_o burden_n of_o my_o trouble_n and_o i_o continual_o fail_v in_o the_o prosecution_n of_o my_o pious_a purpose_n oh_o that_o thy_o will_n do_v so_o rule_v i_o and_o reign_v over_o i_o that_o it_o be_v a_o torment_n to_o decline_v never_o so_o little_a from_o it_o o_o that_o thy_o love_n do_v so_o free_o and_o full_o
sure_o the_o proud_a have_v no_o true_a 2d_o isay_n 48._o 2d_o rest_n there_o be_v no_o peace_n to_o the_o wicked_a let_v we_o remedy_n it_o therefore_o by_o learning_n of_o christ_n true_a humility_n and_o meekness_n out_o of_o which_o there_o be_v no_o hope_n of_o quiet_a 5._o a_o indiscreet_a zeal_n and_o zeal_n 5._o indiscreet_a zeal_n over-greediness_n of_o perfection_n which_o make_v we_o eat_v more_o than_o we_o can_v digest_v and_o so_o cast_v it_o up_o again_o with_o great_a pain_n undertaking_a austerity_n exercise_n introversion_n etc._n etc._n beyond_o our_o capacity_n without_o counsel_n and_o so_o we_o remain_v afflict_v be_v unable_a to_o go_v forward_o and_o ashamed_a to_o go_v backward_o let_v we_o remedy_n this_o by_o humble_a obedience_n to_o a_o discreet_a guide_n 6._o want_v of_o fervour_n in_o our_o vocation_n heart_n 6._o instability_n of_o heart_n instability_n of_o heart_n and_o inconstancy_n in_o our_o exercise_n leave_v change_a interrupt_v they_o through_o laziness_n or_o lightness_n this_o leave_v a_o worm_n gnaw_v upon_o our_o conscience_n with_o continual_a disquiet_n and_o sadness_n let_v we_o remedy_n this_o with_o s._n bernard_n counsel_n will_v thou_o never_o bernard_n s._n bernard_n be_v sad_a live_v well_o a_o good_a man_n be_v always_o merry_a and_o a_o good_a conscience_n be_v a_o continual_a feast_n 7._o disordinate_a love_n and_o affection_n creature_n 7._o love_n to_o creature_n to_o creature_n let_v we_o love_v all_o only_a for_o god_n and_o we_o shall_v be_v content_a and_o quiet_a in_o the_o loss_n of_o the_o most_o lovely_a and_o belove_a creature_n in_o the_o world_n god_n alone_o will_v supply_v all_o other_o love_v and_o loss_n 8._o a_o jealous_a and_o envious_a eye_n eye_n 8._o a_o envious_a eye_n this_o be_v a_o dangerous_a and_o lamentable_a cross_n for_o all_o the_o perfection_n of_o oâ—hers_n be_v we_o when_o we_o love_v they_o â—n_n other_o but_o when_o we_o hate_v they_o they_o be_v nail_n in_o our_o eye_n and_o thorn_n in_o our_o heart_n which_o do_v extreme_o torment_v we_o o_o madness_n have_v we_o infoelix_fw-la parum_fw-la tibi_fw-la est_fw-la si_fw-la ipse_fw-la sis_fw-la foelix_fw-la nisi_fw-la alter_fw-la sit_fw-la infoelix_fw-la not_o sufficient_a misery_n at_o home_n in_o ourselves_o but_o we_o must_v suck_v poison_n like_o spider_n out_o of_o other_o honey_n and_o what_o be_v their_o crown_n must_v be_v our_o cross_n what_o great_a wickedness_n than_o to_o pine_v away_o with_o grief_n at_o other_o good_a the_o remedy_n of_o this_o be_v by_o endeavour_v to_o get_v true_a charity_n the_o property_n whereof_o be_v to_o weep_v with_o the_o weeper_n rejoice_v with_o the_o joyful_a to_o love_v other_o good_a as_o our_o own_o let_v we_o avoid_v curiosity_n if_o we_o will_v eschew_v envy_n for_o a_o curious_a eye_n be_v the_o fuel_n of_o a_o envious_a heart_n let_v we_o remain_v like_o bee_n in_o our_o hive_n of_o introversion_n &_o there_o make_v provision_n for_o the_o winter_n of_o death_n &_o eternity_n etc._n etc._n 9_o frequent_a fail_n in_o good_a relapse_n 9_o frequent_a relapse_n purpose_n and_o relapse_n into_o sin_n we_o question_v whether_o our_o sin_n past_a be_v pardon_v and_o be_v uncertain_a that_o our_o present_a confession_n be_v good_a this_o be_v of_o one_o evil_a to_o make_v two_o foâ—_n we_o have_v do_v amiss_o and_o now_o by_o lose_v courage_n and_o confidence_n we_o make_v ourselves_o unfit_a to_o do_v better_o let_v we_o remedy_n it_o by_o acknowledge_v our_o fault_n use_v violence_n to_o ourselves_o and_o follow_v direction_n other_o remedy_n against_o sadness_n prayer_n orhe_a remedy_n against_o sadness_n jam._n 5._o 13._o 1._o prayer_n 1._o prayer_n be_v a_o sovereign_a remedy_n be_v any_o one_o sad_a among_o you_o let_v he_o pray_v god_n be_v our_o only_a joy_n and_o comfort_n let_v we_o lift_v up_o our_o heart_n to_o he_o and_o lay_v open_a our_o want_n and_o desire_n before_o he_o with_o resignation_n who_o both_o can_v and_o will_v abundant_o comfort_v we_o ah_o my_o poor_a soul_n why_o be_v thou_o sad_a and_o whence_o come_v it_o that_o thou_o thus_o trouble_v i_o be_v not_o our_o god_n good_a and_o gracious_a who_o hear_v thy_o sigh_n and_o see_v thy_o sorrow_n what_o want_v thou_o which_o he_o can_v or_o will_v not_o give_v thou_o when_o he_o see_v it_o most_o expedient_a for_o thou_o 2._o sometime_o let_v we_o sing_v spiritual_a singing_z 2._o singing_z song_n which_o great_o confound_v the_o devil_n 3._o other_o time_n we_o may_v fit_o divert_v recreation_n 3._o recreation_n our_o thought_n by_o some_o external_a recreation_n or_o employment_n 4._o let_v we_o endeavour_v to_o make_v act_n 4._o fervent_a act_n external_a and_o internal_a act_n with_o fervour_n though_o without_o gust_n as_o embracing_z and_o kiss_v a_o crucifix_n and_o speak_v reverent_o and_o love_o unto_o it_o etc._n etc._n 5._o a_o discreet_a take_n of_o a_o discipline_n discipline_n 5._o a_o discipline_n obtain_v wonderful_a comfort_n for_o the_o soul_n be_v call_v from_o the_o inward_a troublesome_a pensiveness_n to_o the_o outward_a pain_n and_o the_o devil_n fly_v away_o see_v his_o companion_n the_o flesh_n so_o hardly_o handle_v 6._o frequent_a communinn_n be_v a_o communion_n 6._o communion_n excellent_a cordial_a strengthen_v our_o heart_n and_o rejoice_v our_o spirit_n 7._o let_v we_o discover_v the_o effect_n it_o 7._o discovery_n of_o it_o and_o manner_n of_o our_o sadness_n to_o our_o spiritual_a guide_n and_o take_v his_o advice_n simple_o and_o humble_o this_o be_v the_o remedy_n of_o remedy_n 8._o let_v we_o take_v heed_n of_o make_v indifferency_n 8._o indifferency_n use_n of_o these_o remedy_n only_o that_o we_o may_v be_v at_o ease_n and_o avoid_v affliction_n but_o for_o the_o prevention_n of_o danger_n which_o may_v ensue_v and_o for_o the_o rest_n remain_v perfect_o indifferent_a and_o resign_v 9_o if_o we_o will_v be_v free_a from_o sadness_n desire_n 9_o few_o desire_n we_o must_v labour_v to_o 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