word O God the word whereby all thinges are made without whom there is not any thing made Wo is me wretch so often blinded for that thou art the light and I am without thée Wo is me wretch so often wounded for that thou art the salue and I am without thée Wo is me wretch so often ouerséene for that thou art the truth I am without thée Wo is me wretch so often straying for that thou art the way I am without thée Wo is me wretch so often dead for that thou art the life and I am without thée Wo is me wretch so oftē brought to nought for that thou art the word by which all thinges were made I am without thée with out whom nothing was made O Lord the worde O God the word who art the light by whō light was made who art the way truth and life in whom there is no darknesse ouersight vanitie nor death O light without whiche all is but darknes O truth with out which all is but leasing O life without whiche all is but death Lord say the word that light may be made so as I may sée the light eschew darknesse sée the way eschew straying sée the truth and eschew leasing sée life and eschew death Shyne forth O Lord my light my inlightening my welfare whom I will reuerēce my Lord whom I will prayse my God whom I will honor my father whom I wil loue my bridegrome to whō I will kéepe my selfe Shyne forth O light shine forth I say to this blind soule of mine which sisteth in darknesse in the shadow of death and guide my féete into the way of peace that I may passe thereby into the place of thy wonderfull Tabernacle euē to the house of God with the voyce of gladnesse and confessiō For true confession is the way whereby I may enter vnto thée which art the way whereby I may returne from bywayes and whereby I come agayne to thée which art the way for thou art the very way of life ¶ Of the fall of the Soule into sinne AS long as I was without thée I was as nothyng And therfore I was blind deafe and senselesse For I did neither discerne the good nor shunne the euill nor féele the grief of my woundes nor sée myne owne darknesse bycause I was without thée the true light which inlightenest euery man that commeth into this world Wo is me they haue wounded me and I was not sorie they haue haled me and I felt it not For I was as nothing bycause I was without life which is the word wherby all things are made And therfore O Lord my light mine enemies haue done what they lifted to me they haue strikē me they haue berayed me they haue marred me they haue wounded me and they haue killed me bycause I shrunke backe from thee and am become as a thing of nothing without thée ▪ Alas Lord my life which madest me my light which hast guided me then defender of my life haue mercie vppon me Rayse me vp againe O Lord my god My hope my power my strength my comfort haue an eye to mine enemies in the day of my trouble and rescue me Let them that hate me flée away from my face and let me liue in thée by thée For they haue lyen in wayt for me O Lord and whē they saw me without thée they despised me They parted amōg them the garmentes of the vertues wherewith thou haddest apparelled me They made their way through me they trampled me vnder their féete they defiled thy holy temple with the filth of their sinnes and they left me desolate forpyned with sorrowe I went after them blind and naked and shackled with the fetters of sinnes They dragged me after them roūd about from vyce to vyce and from myre to myre and I went without strength before the face of him that pursued me I was a bondslaue and yet I loued slauerie I was blind still I longed for blindnesse I was manacled yet I misliked not my manacles I thought bitter to be swéete swéete to be bitter I was a wretch wist it not And all this came to passe bycause I was without the word wherby al things are preserued without which all thinges are worse then nothing For like as al things were made by the word and nothing was made without it euen so by it are all thinges preserued and mainteyned what soeuer they be either in heauen or in earth or in the Sea or in any déepes One péece should not cleaue to another in a stone or in any of the thinges that be created vnlesse they were mainteyned by the worde whereby all thinges were made Therfore will I sticke vnto thée O word that thou mayst preserue me for assoone as I step aside from thée I am vndone in my selfe sauyng that thou which madest me hast also renued me agayne For whē I had sinned thou didst visit me when I was falue thou didst lift me vp agayne when I was ignoraūt thou didst teach me and when I could not sée thou didst inlighten me ¶ Of Gods manifold benefites WRetch that I am my God shew me how much I am bound to loue thée Make it appeare to me how much I ought to prayse thée Make me to know how much I ought to please thée Lord thunder thou downe into the inwarde care of my hart Teach me and saue me and I will prayse thée For thou hast created me when I had no being thou hast inlightened me when I was in darknesse thou hast raysed me whē I was dead thou hast fed me with thy benefites euen from my youth vp This vnprofitable worme which stinketh with sinne thou nourishest with all thy singular good giftes Open vnto me O thou key of Dauid which openest and no man shutteth agaynst him to whom thou openest and shettest and no man openeth vnto him whom thou shettest out Open me the doore of thy light that I may enter in and both know acknowledge vnto thée with my whole hart that thy mercy is great towardes me that thou hast deliuered my soule from the bottom of hel O Lord our God how wonderful and prayse worthy is thy name through all the earth And what is mā that thou art mindfull of him or the sonne of man that thou visitest him O Lord whiche art the hope of the Saintes and the tower of their strength O God the life of my soule wherby I liue and where without I dye O light of myne eyes by which I see and without which I am sightlesse O ioy of my hart and chearer of my spirites let me loue thée with all my hart with all my mind with all my strength and with all intiernesse for thou hast loued me first And why hast thou done so to me O maker of heauen and of earth and of the bottomlesse déepe who hast no néede of me Wherupō commeth it that
thou hast created me of nothing I besech thee O Lord to giue me the grace to be thankefull vnto thée ¶ Of Gods almightinesse THy almighty hand kéeping alwayes at one stay created the aungels in heauen the silie wormes vpon earth and yet was neither higher in the one nor lower in the other For like as none other hand could haue created an aungell so could none other hād haue created a worme Like as none other could haue created heauen so could none other haue created a leaf of a trée Like as none other could haue made a body so could none other make a heare white or blacke but onely thine almyghty hand whereunto all thinges are possible alike For it is not more possible with him to create a worme then an aungell nor more impossible to spread out the heauē than a leafe nor easier to fashion a heare then to fashion a body nor vneasier to stablish the earth vpon the water then the waters vppon the earth but all that he listed to do that hath he done According as he listed he hath made all thinges in heauen in earth and in the Sea and in all déepe places among all other things he hath also made me accordyng as hee listed could and knew how to do it Certesse Lord thy hand could haue made me some stone or some bird or some Serpent or some beast and it knew how to haue done it but it would not bycause of thy goodnes Why then am not I some stone some trée or some beast Bycause thy goodnesse hath so ordeined it and that thou shouldest so ordeine it there were no merites of myne goyng afore ¶ Of the incomprehensible prayse of God. HOw shall I doe Lorde whence shal I haue prayse to prayse thée withall for like as thou madest me without myne aduise as it liked thy selfe best so hast thou prayse without me as it liketh thée Thou thy selfe Lord art thine own prayse Thy workes prayse thée accordyng to thy manisolde greatnesse thy prayse O Lord is incomprehensible No hart can comprehend it no toung can measure it no eare can receiue it for these thinges passe awaye but thy prayse O Lord continueth for euer Thoughtes haue a begynning thoughtes haue an end voyces make a sound and forthwith passe away the eare heareth and the hearing ceaseth but thy prayse standeth fast for euer Who is he then that can prayse thée What man is able to vtter forth thy prayse Thy prayse is euerlasting and not transitorie That man prayseth thée whiche beleueth thée to be thyne owne prayse The man prayseth thée whiche acknowledgeth him selfe vnable to atteine to thy prayse O prayse perpetuall whiche neuer fadest in thée is our prayse in thée shall my soule be praysed It is not we that prayse thée but it is thou thy selfe that doest it both thy selfe and in thy selfe we also haue prayse in thée Thē haue we true prayse when we haue prayse of thée when light alloweth light for thou beyng the true prayse yeldest vs true prayse And looke how often we séeke for prayse at any other badies hand then thine so often do we forgo thy prayse bycause the other is shadowish but thine is euerlasting If we hunt after the transitorie prayse we lose the eternall prayse O prayse eternal O my Lord God of whom is all prayse without whō there is no prayse I am not able to prayse thée without thée Let me haue thée and I will prayse thee For what am I of my self Lord that I should prayse thée I am but dust and ashes I am but a dead and stinkyng dogge I am but wormes and rottēnesse I. What am I to praise thée O most mightie Lord God Howe can the breath of no better then fleshe prayse thee which dwellest in euerlastingnesse Can darknesse prayse light or death life Thou art light I darknesse thou life I death Can lying prayse truth Thou art truth and I am a mā no better thē vanitie it self How shall I then prayse thée O Lord Shall my wretchednesse prayse thée Shall stinch prayse swéete sentes Shall mans mortalitie which is here to day and gone to morow prayse thée Shall man whiche is but rottennesse or the sonne of man whiche is but wormes prayse thée O Lord Can hee prayse thée whiche is breed borne and brought vp in sinfulnesse Prayse is not séemely in the mouth of a sinner O Lord my God let thine own incomprehēsible power let thy vnbounded wisedome let thine vnspeakable goodnesse let thine ouer passing mercy let thy superabundant pitie and let thine euerlasting vertue and Godhead prayse thée Praysed be thou by thine owne almightie puissance and also by thy singular gracious goodnesse and louingnesse wherby thou hast created vs O Lord God the life of my soule ¶ Of liftyng a mās hope vp vnto God. ANd I thy creature wil put my trust vnder the shadow of thy winges and in thy goodnesse where thorough thou hast created me Helpe thy creature whō thy gracious goodnesse hath created Let not that perishe through my naughtinesse which thy goodnesse hath wrought Let not that perish through my wretchednesse whiche thy singular mercy hath made For what auayleth it me that thou hast created me if I shall sinke downe into myne owne corruption O God hast thou made all the sonnes of men in vayne Thou hast created me O Lorde rule thou the thing that thou hast created Despise not the worke of thine own handes O god Thou hast made me of nought O Lord if thou gouerne me not I shall returne to nought agayne For lyke as whē I was not thou madest me of nothing so if thou gouerne me not I shal yet againe be brought to nothing in my selfe Helpe me O Lord my life least I perish in mine owne naughtynesse Lord if thou haddest not created me ▪ I should not haue bene at all but bycause thou hast created me I am Now if thou gouerne me not I am vndone For it was not mine owne merites or mine owne deseruings that made thée to create me but thine own most gracious goodnesse and mercifulnesse That louingnesse of thine O Lord my God whiche made thée to create me I besech thée let the same make thée to gouerne me For what booteth it that thy louingnesse caused thée to create me if I must perish in mine own wretchednesse and that thy right hand gouerne me not O Lord my God let this mercyfulnesse whiche caused thée to create the thing that was not created cause thée also to saue that whiche is created Let the louingnesse which wonne thée to create winne thée also to saue sith it is no lesse now than it was then for thou art the very loue it selfe and thou continuest alwayes one Lorde thy hand is not shortened that it should not be able to saue nor thyne eare deafed that it should not be able to heare but my sinnes haue put a partition betwene me and thée betwene
other thynges doth the sonne of Beliall euen Sathā him selfe practise agaynst vs O Lord our god He lyeth in wayt to ketch our soules one while as a Lyon and an other while as a draggō openly and priuely within and without day and night But deliuer vs thou O Lord which sauest them that trust in thée that he may be gréeued at vs thou mayst be praysed in vs O Lord our God. Of Gods benefites I The sonne of thy handmayd who haue cōmended my selfe into thy hand by these my poore complaintes will prayse thée my deliuerer with all my hart and cal to my minde all the good that thou hast done me frō my youth vp For I know that vnthankfulnesse doth greatly displease thée which is the roote of all spirituall euill and a wynde that blasteth and burneth vp all good damming vp the foūtaine of thy godly mercy for euer Through it the workes that be dead already reuiue not and the workes that be alyue do dye out of hand and recouer not agayne But I will giue thākes to thée O Lord least I be vnthankfull to thée my deliuerer for thy deliueryng of me How often had that dragon swalowed me vp long ago but that thou O Lord hast plucked me out of his mouth How often haue I sinned and he stode ready to snatch me vp but that thou didst defēd me O Lord my God When I delt wickedly when I brake thy commaundements he stode wayting to cary me away to hell but thou withstodest him I offended thée and thou didst defēd me I feared thée not yet thou didst kéepe me I started away frō thée and yelded my selfe to myne enemy and yet thou didst fray him away that he should not take me These good turnes hast thou done for me O Lord my God I wretch wist it not For so hast thou oftentymes deliuered me out of the deuils chappes plucked me out of the Lyons mouth and many and sundry wayes brought me backe agayne from hell though I wist it not For I haue gone downe to the very gates of hell but thou hast held me frō goyng in I drew neare to deathes doore but thou hast not suffered it to take me in Also thou hast oftentymes preserued me from bodily death O my Sauiour when I haue bene attached with sore sicknesses And when I haue bene in many daungers by Sea and by land thou hast alwayes stode by me deliueryng me from fire and from sword and from all perill and mercyfully preseruyng me Truly Lord thou knowest that if death had dispatched me at that time hell had receiued my soule and I had bene dāned for euer But thy mercy thy grace preuented me rescuyng me from bodily death and also from the death of my soule O my Lord god These and many other good turnes hast thou done for me I was blind and wist it not vntill thou inlightenedst me Now therfore O light of my soule my Lord God my life whereby I liue the sight of mine eyes wherby I sée behold thou hast inlightned me and I perceiue how I liue through thée And I yeld thée thankes though litle worth and slender and farre vnder thy benefites howbeit yet such as my frayltie hath to giue For thou onely art my God and my gracious maker whiche louest our soules and hatest none of the thyngs that thou hast made Behold I am the chief among the sinners whom thou hast saued that I may be an example vnto others of thy most mercyfull louyng kyndnesse I will acknowledge thy great benefites vnto thée for thou hast plucked me out of the bottom of hell once twyse and thrice and a hundred tymes a thousand tymes Yea I alwayes made towardes hell and thou didst alwayes bring me backe againe whē thou mightest iustly haue damned me if thou hadst would But thou wouldest not O Lord my God bycause thou louest mens soules and bearest with mens sinnes that they might repent all thy wayes be full of mercy Now therfore O Lord my God I sée these thynges and discerne them by thy light my hart is astonished at thy great mercy towardes me in that thou hast deliuered my soule from the bottome of hell and brought me backe agayne to lyfe For I was starke dead and thou hast made me throughly aliue again Therfore am I altogether beholden to thee for my life and whole as I am I yeld my selfe wholly vnto thée Let my whole spirite my whole hart my whole body and my whole life liue vnto thée my swéete lyfe for thou hast deliuered me whole that thou mightest possesse me whole thou hast made me whole new agayne that thou mightest haue me whole againe And therfore let me loue thee O Lord my strength let me loue thée O my vnspeakable ioy and let me liue hence forth not to my selfe but vnto thée All my whole life which was perished in myne owne wretchednesse is reuiued agayne in thy mercy for thou art a pitifull and mercyfull God ▪ and many are thy compassions toward thousandes in them that loue thy name And therfore O Lord my God thou my sanctifier hast commaūded me in thy law that I should loue thée with all my hart with all my might yea euē frō the bottom of my hart at all houres tymes wherin I inioy the benefites of thy mercy For I should perish for euer but that thou rulest me euer I should euer dye but that thou euer quickenest me yea euery moment thou byndest me vnto thée in as much as euery momēt thou bestowest thy great benefites vppon me Therefore lyke as there is no houre or instāt of time in all my life that I haue not the vse of thy benefites so ought there to be no moment wherin I should not haue thée in remembraunce before myne eyes and loue thée to thée vttermost of my power But this am I not able to do except thou make me able of whō cōmeth euery good gift euery excellent gift for thou art the father of light in whō there is no chaūge nor intercourse of darknes for to loue thée cōmeth not of our own will or of our own running but of thy mercy Lord it is thy gift whose all good things are Thou commaūdest vs to loue thée giue vs that which thou cōmaundest commaunde what thou wilt Of the feruentnesse of loue or Charitie I Am in loue with thée my God I couet to be alwayes in loue with thée more more For in déede thou art swéeter thē all honye more nourishyng then all milke and brighter then all light And therfore I set more by thée then by all the gold siluer and precious stones in the world For I mislyke all that euer I haue to do within this world in respect of thy swéetnesse and in respect of the beawtie of thy house which I haue loued O fire which euer burnest neuer goest out O loue which euer glowest neuer coolest inflame me I
vnapprochable and secret depth of the incōprehensible iudgemētes of thy wisedome alwayes rightful though vnespiable thou hast without any desert of theirs predestinated before the world called out of the world iustified in the world and wilt glorifie thē after the world But thou doest not this vnto all men wherat all the wise mē of the earth 〈◊〉 maruell and are abashed Yea and euen I O Lord when I bethinke me of it am afrayde and amazed at the depth of the riches of thy wisedome and knowledge wherunto I cannot reach and at the incomprehensible iudgements of thy Iustice for that of one selfe same péece of clay thou makest some vessels vnto euerlasting honor and othersome vnto euerlastyng shame Therfore whō thou hast chosen to thy selfe out of the multitude to be thy holy temple thē doost thou make cleane pouryng out cleane water vpon thē the names and number of whom thou knowest who onely tellest the nūber of the starres and callest thē all by their names Who also are written in the booke of lyfe who cannot in any wise perish and vnto whom all thinges worke to the best yea euen their sinnes For when they fall they be not broosed bycause thou puttest thy hād vnder them and kéepest all the bones of them so as not one of them is broken But most miserable is the death of sinners I meane of those sinners whom thou hast foreknowē vnto eternall death before thou madest heauen and earth accordyng to the great depth of thy secret howbeit alwayes rightfull iudgementes the number of whose names and of their lewd deseruinges is with thée which reckenest the nūber of the sand of the Sea and hast measured the bottom of the bottomles pit whom thou hast left vp to their owne vncleanesse and vnto whom all thinges worke to the worst and euen their prayer is turned into sinne so that if they should clymbe vp into the ayre and aduaunce their head aboue the cloudes yea and build their nest among the starres of the skye yet shall they bee destroyed in the ende as a dunghill Of such as first are righteous and afterward become wicked and contrariwyse GReat are these thy iudgementes O Lord God thou righteous mighty iudge which iudgest vprightly doost things that are déepe vnsearchable Which when I consider all my bones quake for of all men liuing vpō the earth there is none of vs sure to serue thee deuoutly purely in feare all the dayes of our lyfe nor to ioy in the with reuerence so as our seruice may bee without dread our ioy without trembling He that putteth on armour may not glory as he that putteth it of for before thee may no flesh glory but must quake tremble at thy presēce For we haue séene O Lord we haue heard of our fathers which thing I cānot thinke vpō without great dread nor speake of without great shudderyng that many haue heretofore clymbed after a sort vp to the skyes built their nest among the starres yet haue afterward falne downe euē into hell and their soules haue bene forehardened with euilles We haue sene starres fall from heauen by force of the stroke of the dragons tayle and them that lay in the dust of the earth wonderfully mounted vp at the present helpe of thy hand O lord We haue sene the liuyng dye and the dead rise from death them that walked among Gods children in the middes of firie stones wash away to nothyng like a péece of clay We haue séene darknesse quēch light light procede out of darknesse For publicanes harlots go before the natiue people into the kyngdome of heauen the childrē of the kingdome are cast out into vtter darknes And why commeth all this to passe but bycause they be mounted vp into that hill whereinto the first of their race went vp an Aungell and came downe a deuill Now thē looke whom thou hast predestinated them hast thou also called sanctified and clensed that they may bee a méete dwellyng place for thy maiestie with whō and in whō is thy holy cleane delight in whom thou hast pleasure makest their youth chéerefull dwelling with them in their remembraunce so as they be thy holy tēple which is a great dignitie and commendation of our manhode That the faythfull mās soule is Gods sanctuarie THe soule whiche thou hast created not of thyne owne substaunce but by thy word nor of the substaunce of any of the foure elementes but of nothing which truly is reasonable vnderstandyng spirituall euerlyuing and euer mouyng whiche thou hast sealed marked with the light of thy countenaūce and halowed by the power of thy washyng is so made capable of thy maiestie as it may be filled by thée onely and by none other And when it hath thée thē hath it the full lust there remaineth not any thyng els that it can desire outwardly But as long as it desireth any thyng outwardly it is manifest that it hath not thée inwardly for be thou once had there is not any thing more to be wished for For sith thou art the souereine good yea and all the good that may be there is no more for it to desire bycause he possesseth thée which art all the good Now if he desire not the whole good it resteth that he desireth somewhat which is not the whole good and therfore also not the souerein good so consequently not God but rather a creature But if he long after a creature he must néedes be euer hungry still bycause that although he atteine his desire of the creatures yet it abydeth vnsatisfied still in asmuch as there is nothyng that cā fill it but thou vnto whose image it is created And thou fillest them that desire nothyng but thée thou makest them worthy of thee holy blessed vndefiled and Gods frendes who count all thinges as dung that they may winne thée onely For this is the blessednes which thou hast bestowed vppon man this is the honor wherwith thou hast innobled him among all thy creatures and aboue them that thy name might be wonderfull ouer all the earth Beholde O most high souereine good and almighty Lorde my God I haue foūd the place where thou dwellest euen in the soule which thou hast created after thyne owne image and likenesse whiche séeketh and desireth none but thée alone and not in the soule that séeketh and desireth thée not That God cānot be founde neither by the outward senses nor by the inward wittes I Haue straied like a lost shepe séekyng thée outward whiche art inward And I haue taken much paine to séeke thée without me thou dwellest within me at leastwise if I haue a desire to thée I haue gone about the lanes and stréetes of the Citie of this world séekyng thée and haue not foūd thée bycause I did amisse to séeke that thing without whiche is as within I sent abroad all myne outward senses as messengers to séeke thée
without losse health fulnesse without impayring aboundance without want lyfe without death continuance with out corruption blessednesse with out abatement all good things in perfect loue beawtie and beholding face to face full knowledge of all thinges and in all thinges where Gods souereine goodnesse is séene his inlightening light is glorified of the Saints where the present maiesty of God is beheld and the mindes of the beholders satisfied therewithall as with the foode of life The more they sée it the more they desire to sée it yet desire they it without disquietnesse and haue their fill of it without wéerinesse There the daysunne of righteousnesse cheareth all meÌ„ with the wonderous sight of his beawtie and so in lighteneth all the Citizens of the heauenly soyle that they them selues yeld light euen the light that God hath behighted them light more lightsome then all the brightnes of our daysunne theÌ„ the clearenesse of all the starres For they cleaue to the immortal Godhead and thereby are made immortall and incorruptible theÌ„ selues according to this promise of our Lord and Sauiour Father as for those whoÌ„ thou hast giuen me I wil haue them to be where I am that they may sée my glory and that they may be all one as thou father art in me and I in thée and that they also may be one in vs. ¶ Of the kingdome of heauen O Realme of heaueÌ„ O most happy Realme O Realme without death O kingdome without end where is no succession of time by ages where the day lasting continually without night woteth not what time meaneth where the souldier that getteth the vpper haÌ„d is rewarded with vnspeakable gifts for his labour and hath an euerlasting garland set vpon his noble head Would God that Christ of his heauenly pitie hauing released the burthen of my sinnes would commaunde me the basest of his seruaunts to lay aside the fardell of this flesh that I might passe into the endlesse ioyes of his Citie to repose my selfe so as I might keepe coÌ„panie with the holy sort aboue stand before the glorious maiestie of my creator with the blessed spirites behold the present countenaunce of God be touched with no feare of death reioyse in suretie of the incorruptiblenesse of the euerlastyng immortalitie and being linked to him that knoweth all thinges forgoe all blindnes of ignoraunce nothing esteeming all earthly things and not vouchsauyng to looke vppon this vale of teares or to remeÌ„ber it any more whereas our lyfe is a painfull life a corruptible life a lyfe full of all bitternesse a lyfe that is mistresse of mischief and haÌ„dmayd of hell whom humors make to swell whom paynes abate whom heate parcheth whoÌ„ ayres make diseased whom meates puffe vp whom fastings forepyne whom mirth maketh nyce whoÌ„ heauines consumeth whom thought pincheth whom ease dwelleth whoÌ„ riches pranke vp whoÌ„ pouertie pulleth down whoÌ„ youth setteth aloft whoÌ„ age makes to stoope whom sicknesse defaceth whom sorow thrusteth downe whom the deuill layeth wayt for whom the world flattereth whom the flesh delighteth where the soule is blinded where the whole man is put out of order After all which so many and so great mischieues succeedeth cruel death and in such wise maketh an end of all vayne ioyes that wheÌ„ they be once past they may be thought to haue neuer bene In what wise God coÌ„forteth the sorrowfull soule after the loÌ„g mornyng therof BVt what prayses or what thankesgiuinges are we able to render vnto thée O Lorde our God who ceassest not to coÌ„fort vs with the wonderfull visitation of thy grace among the great miseries of our mortalitie Behold while I feare the end of my lyfe whyle I consider my sinnes while I stand in feare of thy Iustice while I thinke vpon the horror of death while I shudder at the punishement of hell whyle I knowe not with what straitnes thou doost boult out and wey my workes while I am vtterly ignoraunt with what end I shall close them vp and while I bethinke me of these and many other thynges to my selfe in my hart thou O Lord God of thine accustomed pitie art ready at haÌ„d to comfort me wretch replenished with many griefes and in the middes of these monynges sore complaints and déepe sighes of my hart thou takest vp my sad and sorrowfull minde to the toppes of the high mountaines eueÌ„ to the beddes of sweete spyces putting me in a place of pasture by the riuers of swéete waters where thou preparest a table diuersly furnished against I come to refresh my appalled sprights and to cheare vp my heauy hart through which deinties I beyng at length refreshed do forget my manifold miseries beyng lifted vp aboue the heigth of the earth do take my rest in thée which art the true peace ¶ Of the sweetnesse of the loue of God. I Loue thee my God I loue thee and more more would I fayne loue thée My Lord God thou rest of all the childreÌ„ of meÌ„ graunt me to long for thee to loue thée as much as I would and as much as I should Thou art vnmeasurable and must be loued without measure specially of vs whom thou hast so loued whom thou hast so saued and for whom thou hast made so great so goodly thinges O loue whiche burnest euer and art neuer quenched O swéete Christ O gracious Iesu O my God which art loue it selfe set me wholly on fire with thy fire with the loue of thée with thy swéetnesse with desirousnesse of thée with likyng of thée with ioying and reioysing in thée with thy pitifulnesse pleasantnesse and with the pleasure and delight of thée which is holy and good chaste and cleane that being throughly full of the swéetnesse of thy loue wholly besmoked with the flame of affection towardes thée I may loue thée my Lord God most swéete and most beawtifull with all my hart with all my soule with all my streÌ„gth with all my power with much sorrow of hart sheading of teares with much reuerence and trembling hauing thée in my hart in my mouth before mine eyes alwayes in all places so as there may be no rowme in me for any counterfet or vncleane loue ¶ Of ioy O Swéete loue O louyng swéetnes let my belly eate thée and let my bowels be filled with the pleasaunt wyne of thy loue let my minde vtter forth good wordes O charity my God swéete honny snowye milke the foode of Aungelles make me to growe in thée that I may eate thée with a sauorie tast Thou art my life whereby I liue the hope that I sticke vnto the glory that I desire Hold thou my hart rule my mynde guide myne vnderstandyng cheare vp my loue lift thou vp my Soule drawe the mouth of my spirite whiche thirsteth after thée vp to the water streames that are aboue I beséech thée let the troubleoâ—â—nesse of the flesh cease Let the fancies of landes waters aire and skye hold their peace Let
the darkenesse and the light betwene the image of death and life betwene vanitie and truth betwene this wauing life of myne and that endlesse life of thine ¶ Of the snares of concupiscence SVch are the shadowes of the darknesse wherewith I am couered in the dungeon of this darke prisō wherin I lye grouelyng till the day may dawne and the shadowes vanishe and light appeare in the firmament of thy power Let the voyce of the Lord in his strength let the voyce of the Lord in his mightfull power say let there be light let darkenesse be chased away and let the dry ground appeare and let the earth bring forth gréene herbes such as beare the séede and good frute of the righteousnesse of thy kingdome O Lord my father God the life wherby all thinges liue where without all things are as good as dead leaue me not in my naughtie thoughtes and giue me not vp to the loftinesse of myne owne eyes Take away my lustes from me and giue me not ouer to an froward and fātasticall minde but hold thou my hart to thée that it may alwayes thinke vpō thée Inlighten myne eyes that they may looke at thée not be lifted vp before thée which art the euerlastyng glorie but that they may haue a lowly meaning not medlyng with maruels that are aboue them and which are at thy right hand Let thyne eyliddes goe before my steppes for thyne eyliddes peruse the sonnes of men Asswage my lust with thy swéetnesse whiche thou hast layd vp for them that feare thée that I may lust after thée with endlesse lōgyng so as mine inward fast may not be allured and deceiued by vayne things to take bitter for swéete and swéete for bitter darknesse for light and light for darknesse but that I may be deliuered frō the middes of so many trappes as are set by the enemie in the way of mens hauntes to catch the soules of sinners where the whole world is full whiche thing the Apostle saw and passed it not ouer with silence but sayd what soeuer is in the world is either the lust of the flesh or the lust of the eyes or the pride of life Lo my Lord God the whole world is full of the snares of lust whiche they haue layd for my féete and who can escape these snares Doutlesse euen he from whom thou takest away his loftie lookes so as the lust of his eyes catch not hold of him and from whō thou takest away the lust of the flesh that the lust of his flesh attache him not and from whom thou takest away his froward fantasticall minde that the pryde of life do not craftely beguile hym O how happie is he to whom thou doest so for he shall scape vnpunished Now my redemer I beséech thée by thy selfe helpe me that I fall not in the sight of mine aduersaries nor be caught in the snares whiche they haue layd for my féete to bryng my soule to the ground But plucke me out thou strength of my welfare least thine enemyes which hate thée may laugh at me Vp Lord my God my strong champion breake the aray of myne enemies and let them that hate thée flée away before thée Like as waxe melteth awaye at the heate of the fire so let the sinners perish at thy presence but let me be hidden in the couert of thy face and reioyce with thy children as inioying my fill of all thy benefites And thou O Lord God the father of the fatherlesse and thou mother of the motherlesse heare the shréekyng of thy children and stretch out thy wynges that we may flée vnder them from the sight of our enemie For thou art the tower of Israels strength which neither sléepest nor slumberest in keping Israell bycause the enemie that assaulteth Israell doth neither sléepe nor slumber ¶ Of mans miserie and Gods benefites O Light which no other light cā sée O brightnesse which no other brightnesse beholdeth O light whiche darkneth all other lightes O brightnes which blindeth all outward sight O light of whom cōmeth all light O sight of whom commeth all sight O brightnesse in comparison wherof all other brightnesse is but dimnesse all other light is but darknesse O light vnto whom all darknesse is light and all dimnesse bright O souerein light which no blindnesse can ouer shadow whiche no mist can dim which no let can forclose whiche no shadow can kéepe of O light whiche inlightenest all things whole together at once and euer swalow me vp into the depth of thy brightnes that I may sée thée throughly in thy selfe my selfe in thée all thinges vnder thée Forsake me not least the shadowes of mine ignoraūce increase and my misdéedes growe out of nomber For without thée all thynges are darkenesse vnto me and all thinges are euill bycause nothyng is good without thée the true onely and souerein goodnesse This I know and this I confesse O Lord my God that wheresoeuer I am without thée it is ill with me for want of thée not onely without me but also within me for all aboundaunce besides thée my God is nothyng els but starke beggerie But I shall thē haue my fill when thou appearest in thy glorie And thou O Lord my blissed life make me to confesse my wretchednes vnto thée whiche I am falne into by slippyng from the vnitie of thy goodnesse the souerein and onely good thing since which tyme the manifoldnesse of tēporall things hath caried me awaye through my fleshly senses and scattered me from one into many thinges by reason whereof plentie is become painfull to me and pouertie plentifull while I raughted after this and that and was satisfied with nothing bycause that in my selfe I found not thée the vnchaungeable singular and vndeuided good whiche had I once atteyned I should no more wāt which had I once gottē I should no more be gréeued which had I once possessed my whole lōgyng were satisfied Alas how miserie commeth vpō miserie when my miserable soule is fled from thée with whom it hath aboūdaunce and ioy and foloweth the world with whō it hath euermore scarcitie and sorow The world calls me to vndo me thou O Lord callest me to reuiue me and such is my wicked wretchednesse that I rather folow hym that vndoeth me then hym that reuiueth me This is vtterly mine infirmitie O Ghostly Phisician heale it that I may giue prayse vnto thée the health of my soule with all my whole hart for all thy benefites wherewith thou féedest me from my youth vnto myne olde age and euen till my last gasp I beseech thée by thy selfe forsake me not Thou madest me when I was not thou redéemest me when I was forlorne yea when I was both forlorne dead thou camest downe to me and tookest mortalitie vpō thée Thou beyng my kyng camest downe to thy seruaunt To redéeme thy seruaunt thou gauest thy selfe To the intēt that I might liue thou tookest vpō
thée to dye and ouercamest death Thou diddest set me vp agayne by abasing thy selfe low I was vndone I was gone away in my sinnes I was sold to sinne theÌ„ camest thou for me to buy me out agayne and thou didst loue me so well that thou gauest thine own bloud for my raunsome Lord thou hast loued me more then thy selfe for thou didst finde in thy hart to dye for me Vpon this condition hast thou with so deare a price brought me backe from banishment rauÌ„somed me out of boÌ„dage rescued me from punishment called me by thyne owne name and sealed me with thy bloud that the remembraunce of thée should be euermore with me and that he should neuer departe from my hart who for my sake shunned not the crosse Thou hast anoynted me with the oyle wherewith thou thy selfe wart annoynted that I might be called a ChristiaÌ„ after thy name Christ Behold thou hast registred me vpoÌ„ thine handes to the end that the remeÌ„braunce of me might be alwayes present with thée yet notwithstandyng so as if the remembraunce of thée be alwayes preseÌ„t with me Thus theÌ„ haue thy grace mercy alwayes preuented me For thou hast ofteÌ„tymes deliuered me from many great perils O my deliuerer When I went astray thou broughtest me backe agayne wheÌ„ I was ignoraunt thou taughtest me wheÌ„ I sinned thou didst chastise me when I haue bene in heauinesse thou hast cheared me when I haue bene in dispayre thou hast recoÌ„forted me wheÌ„ I haue â—ene falne thou hast lifted me vp when I haue stode thou hast vphild me wheÌ„ I haue gone thou hast guided me when I haue come thou hast receiued me wheÌ„ I haue slept thou hast watched me and when I haue cryed vnto thée thou hast heard me ¶ That God doth continually behold and marke mens doynges intentes THese and many other good turnes hast thou done vnto me O Lord my God the lyfe of my soule and it were a pleasure to me to be alwayes talkyng of them alwayes thinkyng vppon them and alwayes giuyng thée thankes for them so as I might euer prayse thée for all thy good giftes and loue thée with all my hart and with all my soule and with all my minde and with all my streÌ„gth yea and with the very bowelles and intrayles of my hart and of all my sinewes O Lord my God the blessed swéetenesse of all that delight in thée But thine eyes haue sene myne imperfection Thine eyes I say are much clearer then the sunne vewyng throughly all the wayes of men and the bottome of the déepe and in all places alwayes beholdyng both the good and bad For in asmuch as thou ouerrulest all thynges fillyng euery thing and art wholly present at all times in all places hauyng regard of all thinges which thou hast created for thou hatest not any of the thinges that thou hast made thou takest such heede to my steppes and my pathes and kéepest such watch and ward ouer me day and night diligently markyng all my walkes lyke a continuall ouerséer as though thou hadst forgotten heauen and earth all the creatures in them and haddest regard of me alone without caryng for any of the rest For the vnchauÌ„geable light of thine eye sight increaseth not to thy selfe ward though thou looke but vpon one thing neither is it diminished though thou looke vppon sundry and innumerable thinges For like as thou coÌ„siderest the whole perfectly at once so thy whole sight beholdeth euery seuerall thynge perfectly at once and whole together be they neuer so diuers Neuerthelesse thou viewest all thinges as one and ech one thing as all thy selfe beyng whole together without diuision or chaunge or abatemeÌ„t Thou therfore being whole at all times beholdest me whole at once and alwayes without tyme as if thou haddest nothyng els to thinke vppon Yea and thou standest in such wyse my gard as if thou haddest forgotten all other thynges and wouldest taske thy selfe to me alone For thou euer shewest thy selfe present thou euer offerest thy selfe ready if thou finde me ready Whether soeuer I go thou forsakest me not except I forsake thée first Where soeuer I be thou departest not from me For thou art euery where so as whiche way soeuer I go I may finde thée by whom I may be that I perish not without thee sith I cannot be without thée I coÌ„fesse in déede that what soeuer I do and where soeuer I do it I do it before thée what soeuer I do thou séest it better then I that do it For what soeuer I am workyng thou art euer standyng at myne elbow a continuall beholder of all my thoughtes intentes delightes doinges Lord all my desire is euer before thée al my thoughts are before thée Lord thou knowest froÌ„ whence my spirite commeth where it resteth and whether it departeth for thou art the weyer of all spirites Thou knowest right well whether the roote that seÌ„deth forth faire leaues abroad be swéete or bitter yea thou searchest narrowly eueÌ„ the very pith of the rootes within as a iudge and by the discussing light of thy truth thou considerest numbrest vewest and perusest not onely the intent but also the very innermost pith of the roote of it that thou mayst render vnto euery man not onely accordyng to hys worke or intent but also euen accordyng to the very inward hidden pith of the roote of them out of which the intent of the worker procéedeth What soeuer I purpose when I worke what soeuer I thinke and wherein soeuer I delight thou séest it thyne eares heare it thyne eyes behold it and coÌ„sider it thou markest it thou takest heede of it thou notest it and thou writest it in thy booke be it good or euill that afterward thou mayst render for the good reward for the euill punishment at such tyme as thy bookes shal be opened and men shal be iudged accordyng to the thinges that be written in thy bookes And peraduenture this is it that thou mentest when thou saydest vnto vs I will consider the last of them which is ment when it is sayd of thée O Lord hee considereth the ende of all thinges For in all thinges that we do thou vndoutedly regardest more the end of the intent then the act of the deede Now when I consider this O Lord my God which art terrible and mightie I am abashed with feare of thine excéeding strength bycause it staÌ„deth vs greatly on hand to lyue iustly and vprightly for asmuch as we do all thinges in the presence of the iudge that séeth all thynges ¶ That man can do nothing of him selfe without Gods grace MOst puissant and mighty-workyng God the creator of the spirites of all flesh whose eyes are vppon all the wayes of Adams children from the day of their birth to the day of their departure to giue vnto euery of theÌ„ accordyng to his workes either good or euil shew me how I may confesse myne owne pouertie For I sayd I