will receive the cup of salvation and call upon the name of the Lord and offer unto him the sacrifice of thanksgiving through Jesus Christ. Amen Psal. 116.11 12 15. AT RECEIVING THE CUP· CHAP. XIII I. AMen Jesus Master have mercy on us Luke 17.13 Let this Blood purge my Conscience from dead works to serve thee the Almighty and most gracious Father to honour thee the Everliving Saviour and for ever to obey and fear thee most holy and quickning Spirit Amen Lord I will serve thee better I will obey thee Succour my weakness pity my infirmity Dear Lord. Lord thou knowest all things thou knowest that I love thee Iohn 21.17 What honour hath Almighty God done me that I should be the vessel of this divine mystery and bear within my breast the Lord Jesus I adore I give thanks II. Thou art made whole go and sin no more no more by anger lust excess fraud slandering c. Ioh. 8.11 Our God is a consuming fire to the perverse and impenitent Our God is a merciful Father to the humble and relenting Orator As is his Majesty so is his mercy Ecclus. 2.18 Both infinite and incomprehensible both to be acknowledged admired and adored O Majesty everlasting I fear thee I worship thee I trust in thee through Jesus Christ. Amen Let me not O let me not again pollute this body and soul with my habitual and grievous sins as c. after I have received thy body and blood O Lord who hast created me and redeemed me Grant me thy grace O God that I may fulfil the places and offices thou callest me to in this life Amen III. Lord bless these and the rest of my brethren and let us live eternally together ever praising and Adoring thee For by this great and attractive sacrament we all become one bread one bloud one soul and consent have all one faith one hope one heaven one Lord the blessed Lord Jesus the knot and center of this most immense and pious fraternity and eminently one God and Father of all who is above all and through all and in us all to whom be glory and obedience everlasting Amen in heaven Amen on earth From thy one precious body O wonderful Saviour thou feedest and revivest five thousand and five thousand thousand millions of thy disciples and followers Aeternae tanta est opulentia mensae Prudent Say O Lord and thy word is omnipotent This day salvation is come unto this house Luk. 19.9 IV. The bread of God is he that came down from heaven and giveth light to the world Lord evermore give us of this bread Ioh. 6.33 34. Thus thus will we shew sorth thy death O Jesus till thou comest again and blessed are those servants whom at the end of the world the Lord shall find so doing yea verily blessed is he that eateth meat in the kingdom of God. Luk. 12. 43. c. 14.15 He that solemnly and faithfully and seriously contemplates my Passion and Philanthropy and amends his life for that consideration He that eateth my Flesh and drinketh my Blood hath eternal life and I will raise him up at the last day Amen Holy Jesus who art the Resurection and the life Ioh. 6.54 56. Master it is good for us to be here Mark. 9.2 Do not our hearts burn within us while the Lord opens to us the scriptures opens to us his precious side Full is the satisfaction inexpressible the joy of those that love thee O Jesus Angels and men consent heaven and earth joyn together to praise thee serve and worship thee and with these my poor soul the meanest of all thy creation Good Lord accept us I will give thanks unto thee among thy people and sing praises unto thee among the faithful My heart is fixed O God my heart is fixed For thy â—ercy is greater then the heavens and thy truth reaâ—heth above the clouds Set up thy self O Lord above the heavens and thy glory above all the earth Thou hast wrought redemption in the midst of the earth O Jesus and vanquisht all the enemies of guilty mankind and art seated at the right hand of Father the Lord and worship of angels Hosanna in the highest The right hand of the Lord hath the preeminence the right hand of the Lord bringeth mighty things to pass The word was made flesh the beloved Son of God died for us Let them now that fear the Lord confess that his mercy endureth for ever V. I â—ill read Ioh. c. 18. and c. 17. the security and consolation of the Church and also Rom. c. 8. and the hymn Come holy Ghost our souls inspire c. In the ordering of Priests Almighty God who hast given thy onely Son to be unto us both a sacrifice for sin and also an example of Godly life Give us grace that we may always most thankfully receive that his inestimable benefit and also daily endeavour our selves to follow the blessed steps of his most holy life through the same Jesus Christ our Lord. Amen Most holy spirit the efficacy and life of this mystery bless me with these thy gifts and fruits meekness modesty sobriety prudence diligence honesty fidelity constancy chariâ—y kindness and devotion from the time of this holy Sacrament For I have now dedicated and given up entirely my soul senses and affections my will wit and reason to the glory and service of Jesus Christ who dyed for me I must I will obey him in all things Lord forgive Lord help me My soul doth magnifie the Lord and my spirit rejoyceth in God my Saviour O how plentiful is thy goodness which thou hast laid up for them that fear thee and that thou hast prepared for them that put their trust in thee Psal. 21.21 I am altogether confounded and swallowed up with the immense grace of God I am throughly possest glorious Lord with thy love and boundless favour to me I long I here endeavour yet cannot tell how to express my thankfullness and obedience My thoughts and contrivance and my words and lauds my action and zeal cannot do it to any fitness or content Lord still excite and still direct my gratitude I would be as thankful to thee as humble as obedient as any creature in heaven or earth Father Almighty make me so Amen Now Lord Jesus who wast expanded on the cross for me command me what thou wilt Use me in the hazards and difficulties of thy Church thy purchase and thy glory Bid me walk upon the sea I will obey thee and thy right hand shall hold me up And I will not deny thee in the Court or in the Garden I am ready to lay down my estate my liberty and also my life would to God it were a clean and entire sacrifice for Christs religion and to be obedient unto the death Assist and strengthen my mind O blessed Saviour by thy grace thy intercession thy example Amen All power is given unto me in heaven and in earth faith the ascending Jesus Go ye therefore
When I awake I am alwayes with thee thanking and praising and adoring thy Majesty who continually keepest the world from returning to nothing from whence thou first mad'st it Unto thee lift I up mine eyes O thou that dwellest in the heavens with the affection and reverence of a child with the fear and solicitude of a servant Psal. 123.1 2. Holy holy holy Lord God Omnipotent which was and is and is to come glory and honour and worship be to thee world without end Amen Rev. 4.8 Keep thy servant by thy grace O Lord that Hypocrisy Pride Envy Anger Gluttony Covetousness or Sloth or any other grievous sin may never have the dominion over me and become habitual and customary to me and ever keep me O Lord most holy from Fornication Drunkenness Theft and Dishonesty Idolatry Manslaughter Cursing Swearing and Lying Extortion and Oppression and all other scandalous and heinous actions and practices But engraft in my heart the contrary fruits of thy holy Spirit Piety Humility and Mildness Faithfulness and Honesty Modesty Temperance and Chastity Content and Quietness Compassion Charity and Liberality Prudence Care and Diligence and let this be my habit my custom and my life for Jesus Christ his sake Amen V. Thursday THe Lord is my strength and my praise There is none holy as the Lord neither is there any rock like our God. The Lord killeth and maketh alive he bringeth down to the bed and to the grave and bringeth up He keepeth the feet of his saints and exalteth the horn of his anointed Hallelujah My heart rejoyceth in his salvation 1 Sam c. 2. Thou art my hope in the land of the living thou art the hope of all the ends of the earth and of them that dwell in broad sea yea thou O God art my hope and joy to all eternity Amen Psal. 141.4 The Providence of the Father almighty guide me the Wisdom of his eternal Son enlighten me and the Power of his holy Spirit quicken me Amen What now shall I render unto the Lord for all his benefits â—or my Birth my Education my Baptism Catechism and Confirmation What for the blessed Eucharist for the Sermons and the Prayers of this Church What for Sundry Deliverances and special Blessings through so many years of living Yea what shall I render unto thee holy JESUS for thy expiatory Blood for thy grand Example for the Mission of the Holy Ghost with various and unexpressible Grace and for the reserve of everlasting Blessedness O Lord what shall I render unto thee Take O take again most merciful Lord these Gifts together this Soul and Body and their abilities which I now kneeling humbly and faithfully offer to thy everadored Divinity O despise not but take again the works of thy own hands and receive all into the bosom of perpetual happiness Amen Hallelujah Or Is not this to be my last day and then Eternity O prepare me for thy self holy JESUS I know not the day nor the hour of thy Judgment Matth. 24.30 Or receive to thee in peace or visit this dearly purchased soul this piece of Immortality drencâ—t in thy Blood. Yea come quickly Lord Jesus Amen I will magnifie thee O God my King and praise thy name for ever and ever Every day will I give thanks to thee and bless thy name for ever and ever Great is the Lord and marvelous worthy to be praised There is no end of his Greatness no end of his Mercy Hallelujah Psal. 145.1 23. c. Grant me I humbly beseech thee Almighty and most merciâ—ul Father a quiet Mind and a â—ound Body a good Report and a liberal Conversation in all Piety Prudence Charity Honesty and Chastity and at last if I may not be a Martâ—r for thy Truth grant me a mild Death and happy Immortality for Christ Jesus his sake the Source of all Blessings as well visible and secular as invisible inconceivable and everlasting Amen Christ is ascended up on high hath led captivity captive and given gifts unto men that God might dwell amongst us Set up thy self O JESUS above all the heavens and thy Glory above the earth I now worship thee with all humility and affection as thy Apostles did when thou departedst from mount Olivet to the Joy of supercâ—lestial Glory The fowls of the air are thine O bountiful Creatour and the fishes of the sea and whatsoever passeth through the paths of the sea and thou feedest them and multipliest them Wherefore I will seek the kingdom of God before food and rayment For our heavenly Father knoweth that we have need of these things Matth. 6.25 VI. Friday I Awakt and lookt up and my sleep was sweet unto me Blessed be the Lord our God the God of our fathers who satisifieth the weary soul and replenisheth every sorrowful heart who converteth the shadow of death into the morning and daily renews the face of the earth and maketh the evening and the morning alternately to praise him Ier. 31.25 26. Psal. 104.30 and 65.9 Who holdeth our soul in life and suffereth not our feet to slip who ruleth with his power for ever Hallelujah On this day O crucified Saviour have mercy on me and all mankind Amen I will walk this day God being my helper soberly chastly decently humbly and in diligence and content as a child of light and of God. Sufficient to the day is the evil and trouble of it I fully trust in the perpetual Grace of my heavenly Father through his Eternal Son. Amen Or I have remembred thy name O Lord in the night and have kept thy law Psal. 119.55 Our help standeth in the name of the Lord who made heaven and earth Psal. 124.8 O Lord God of hosts blessed is the man who putteth his trust in thee yea blessed is the man to whom thou imputest no sin Psal. 84.13 All the world doth worship thee sing of thee and praise thy name which is great wonderful gracious and holy Hallelujah Praise the Lord O my soul. O Father Eternal Almighty God Lord and Possessor of infinite perfection Majesty and mercy Maker and Upholder of all things visible and invisible O blessed Jesus Lamb of God Son of the Father who hast loved us and dyed on the cross for us O most holy Spirit founder and fountain of light and knowledge of vertue and grace of liâ—e peace and bliss everlasting with utmost humility intention of mind and affection I adore and glorifie thee All power and riches and wisdom and salvation and glory and honour and blessing be to the eternal Trinity now and for ever Amen Hosanna in the highest Hosanna I bless thee O Lord Almighty that thou hast made the world out of nothing and created me and all mankind after thy own image and hast set us over the works of thy hands and given thy holy angels charge of us to keep us in all thy ways and that after the early loss of paradise c. many and late transgressions and presumtions thou yet openest
angels saying Holy Father I am prostrate at thy dreadful Tribunal I humble my self both soul and body before thee and bowe down my grieved head at thy Footstool as once my Meek and Dying Saviour did My God my God forsake me not Look O heavenly Father on the Scars and Merits of Jesus O hear his Mediation receive his Intercession and be merciful unto me a sinner a vile and ungrateful sinner What I have neglected what I have ignorantly or wilfully committed against thy Majesty most Holy most Mighty and Long-suffering from my Birth and Baptism unto this moment by sundry sorts of vain Thoughts and irregular Imaginations by inordinate Desires and Affections by injurious and corrupt Discourses and by innumerable evil Actions Follies and Provocations for Christs sake forgive me Such is my Condition so many and great my sins and relapses that unless thy mercy were infinite I could have no hope no comfort I have transgressed beyond all humane pardon beyond seventy seven times For the Bowels of the Saviour that were opened on the Cross for me for thine own immense Goodness which embraceth Heaven and Earth Holy Father have mercy upon me and pardon me Consider my Sorrow and Contrition Accept most merciful God my Tears my Subjection my Repentance my Vows and resolved Amendment And then speak Peace to my Conscience through Jesus Christ my onely Hope and Redeemer Amen Call to remembrance O Lord thy tender mercies and thy loving kindnesses which have been ever of old Oh remember not the sins and offences of thy servants Spare us all good Lord spare thy people whom thou hast redeemed with the Blood of thy dear Son. Amen Psal. 25.5 6. See CHAP. XVI of this Book III. At the Absolution O Lord God almighty most gracious and merciful Father will all Humility Faith and Thankfulness I receive and embrace this Absolution as pronounced upon my Repentance from the Throne of thy Eternal Glory Amen Hallelujah Amen Amen Here then I have laid down my burden and fear the stain and disquiet of my life by name my Anger Lust Pride Envy Covetousness and the rest of my grievous sins never never to take them up again Blessed be God for this salvation Most holy Father assist and forward the Vows and Resolutions of the meanest of all that serve thee Let a man examine himself and so let him eat saith S. Paul. I thought on my wayes and turned my feet unto thy testimonies I made haste and prolonged not the time to keep thy commandments saith king David I look for the Lord in his word is my trust in the Lords word will I comfort me Psal. 56.10 My soul longeth for thy salvation Psal. 119.81 I here humbly wait for the Grace and Benefits of my dying Saviours Institution and Legacy for the Precious Treasure of Heaven Visit me O Lord with the favour that thou bearest unto thy people that I may see the felicity of thy chosen and give Thanks with thine Inheritance The Lord pardon me and every one that prepareth his heart to seek God the Lord God of his fathers the Father of our Lord Jesus Christ though he be not cleansed according to the Purification of the Sanctuary though he fall short of the frame and disposition due to this holy and tremendous Mystery 2 Chron. c. 30.18.19 I come to a known Altar This Sacrament hath often corrected restored and comforted me Thy Benediction holy Father is always ready thy hands ever open to the sincere and humble Client and I now pray for thy wonted Goodness through Jesus Christ the sum and substance of this Office. IV. At Lift up your Hearts YEa I lift up my Eyes and my Heart unto thee O Eternal my Mediation my Desire my Hope my Faith my Affection my Invention and Design all my Soul and Strength are now with thee most high and most gracious Father I have past this Altar unto the sublime and pure seat of thy Majesty which all orders of holy Angels and blessed men ever fear and adore Let me O let me there behold the Lamb of God that taketh away the sins of the world Shew me Jesus and it sufficeth Behold O my Faith reach and embrace what the Prime Martyr saw at the right hand and eminence of Eternal Blessedness the Prince of Peace the mighty Saviour the triumphant Jesus lifting up his glorious and gracious Arms to bless and to defend me the vilest and unworthiest of all living Blessed and most loving Saviour by thine inestimable blood wash me throughly from my wickedness and cleanse me from my sin by the ardor of thy soul towards mankind in the dark hour of thy Passion commiserate me and rid me of all my evil habits customs and practises I most humbly beseech thee Now Lord remember me in thy kingdom as thou didst the penitent companion of thy cross and dolours And say to my soul This day thou shalt be with me in Paradise thou shalt by faith see my glory to which from the obedience of the Cross and the humble grave the Almighty Father hath exalted me hath exalted thy naturâ— My heart is ready O Lord my heart is ready for this sacrifice of Praise and Gratitude Like as the hart desireth the water brooks so panteth my soul after thee O God my hope my refuge my rest my life and my happiness O Saviour of the world who by thy Cross and precious blood hast redeemed us save us now and help us we humbly beseech thee that we may all receive these holy and dreadful mysteries without condemnation and ruine and to our grâ—at consolation and benefit for the mortifying all our inordinate passions repressing all sinful temptations and occâ—sions conquering the devil encreasing our hope and faith correcting and beautifying our conversation for the abolishing our guilt and for the attaining eternal life Amâ—n Dear Jesus I address to thy holy Altar with great desire I come as near thee O blessed Redeemer as mortality will let me I come with a penitent earnest and open heart to praise thee to adore thee and to kiss by faith thy wounded feet as once thy astonisht disciples did Matt. 28.9 I behold by faith the prints of the nails by faith I touch the wound in thy side whence flowed water and blood my sanctification and my pardon O fill me with thy influence and vertues Luk. 8.46.1 Cor. 11.29 now I apprehend discern and embrace thy precious body thy all saving passion My â—ord and my God Confirm thy word unto thy servants Blessed are they that see not and have believed Merciful Saviour at this most noble and pious mystery remove and banish from my mind all worldly cares all vain imaginations means thoughts errors and misconceits Unite I most humbly beseech thee the sundry powers and facultyes thou hast given me and point and direct them all unto the instant office Govern now O Lord and bless my apprehension Exalt my Faith enlarge my affections and devotion and then Consign to my
soul thy Remission Favour and Approbation and make me welcome at thy feast For thy flesh is meat indeed and thy blood is drink indeed the sufficient and onely expiation of all humane guilt O holy Jesus An offering of a free heart will I give thee and praise thy name O Lord. Psal. 54.6 The Son of man came to seek and to save that which was lost and to make superabundant amends for the faults of the first transgressour Luk. 19.10 Rom. 5.12 c. V At the Consecration HOly things for holy men S. Basil. O Lord Jesus Christ who sittest at the right hand of the Father and art here invisibly with us sanctifie these thy gifts of Bread and Wine and us thy humble servants and make us from this institution partakers of pardon and peace and good hope of Eternal life and all other benefits of thy Incarnation Passion Death Resurrection Ascension Intercession second Advent and Judgement which we now ponder and contemplate with reverence and faith and joy and thanksgiving by the grace and succour of the holy Ghost our Patron and Comforter Amen Behold the servant of the Lord be it unto me according to thy word in which thou hast caused me to hope Holy Jesus say but the word and I shall be clean Mâ—tt 8.8 say buâ— the word and I shall be meet and ready for thy most Divine gift for thy self By the grace of Jesus Christ we all hope to be saved to be eternally happy Hallelujah Acts. 15.11 Heavenly Father Almighty God who alone workest wonders Lord most Holy into a clean charitable devout humble and grateful heart let me now receive through faith the pure and blessed Body of my most gracious Lord and Saviour Jesus Christ for the remission of all my sins and the attaining everlasting life Amen Amen Amen Holy Holy Holy Lord God of hosts heaven and earth and this place are full of thy Glory Glory be to thee O Lord most high Have mercy upon me O Lord thou son of David I know it is not meet to take the childrens bread and to cast it unto dogs Yet Lord the dogs eat of the crumbs which fall from their mastâ—rs tablâ— Maâ—th 15.22 26 27. AT RECEIVING THE BREAD CHAP. XII I. LOrd I am not worthy thou shouldest come under my roof Matth. 8.8 I fear I tremble by reason of my sinfulness and of the unsupportable Brightness of thy Majesty O Saviour and Judge Eternal Lord have mercy upon me a most miserable sinner Amen Blessed be he that cometh in the name of the Lord. Hosanna to the son of David Good will towards men peace on earth Hosanna in the highest Matth. 21.9 Stand open now O my soul stand open ye everlasting doors and let the King of glory enter in Let the Lord mighty to save Jesus the king of glory enter in II. Feed on him by faith c. Amen I feed on him I remember his Sufferings and bloody Sweat I meditate on his Cross and dying Exclamations I believe I most humbly and heartily embrace this invaluable and most miraculous Redemption this great mystery of Godliness God manifested in the flesh justifyed in the spirit by divers wonderful works and holy sermons seen and worshipped by the angels believed on throughout the world and received up into Eternal glory 1 Tim. 3.16 Thou art O Christ the everlasting Son of God thou art indeed the Saviour of the world thou art the king of Glory Ioh 1.49 c. 4.42 c. 10.11 27. Acts 8.37 Surely thou hast born our griefs and carried our sorrows thou wast wounded for our transgressions and bruised for our iniquities the chastisement of our peace was laid upon thee and by thy stripes we are healed Isaiah 53.4 This man receiveth sinners Luke 15.2 Zaccheus Mary Magdalene the crucified thief the persecuting Saul these and millions of millions more upon their sorrow faith and repentance And let me receive now at this holy Altar Almighty Saviour that most blessed sentence Son or Daughter thy sins which are many are forgiven thee and thy faith hath saved thee go in peace Luk. 7.47 48 50. c. 5.20 Go to my brethren behold the early compassion of the revived Jesus and say unto them I ascend unto my Father and your Father and to my God and your God. Ioh. 20.16 I know that my Redeemer liveth and I shall see him at the latter day behold here is the pledge of his coming again I shall see him for my self and I trust to kiss his glorious feet I know that imaculate high priest is entred with the atonement into the holiest III. Lo here is grace here infinite goodness and mercy This is the beauty of holiness and the glorious presence of the Redeemer this is the gate of heaven O happy day the glory of my life Now I am well now I live now I rejoyce with thee O triumphant Jesus O bliss everlasting my content my devotion my affection my soul is fixt on thee there let it ever rest Amen The Lord is my strength and my song and is become my salvation This is the Lords doing and it is marvellous in our eyes This is my God and I will glorifie him the God of my Father and I will exalt him Exod. c. 15.2 O let the serious thoughts of thy passion intercession kingdom and reward enter all my actions and regulate my whole life which upon such observance will surely become pious prudent and cheerful Amen dearest Jesus IV. Most gracious God we humbly beseech thee that we together with all thy saints who have pleased thee from the beginning of the world may be partakers of those everlasting Blessings which thou hast prepared for all that love thee and continue faithful unto death through Jesus Christ our Lord. Amen Lord now send prosperity Bless thy people and extoll them for ever Bless now the king the Royal Family and all in civil office Inspire and bless the Bishops Priests and Deacons who administer thy holy mysteries and by thy sole command and authority do absolve and bless and feed thy chosen people Now sanctify reward and prosper my kindred and friends my superiors and benefactors as c. whom at his happy Eucharist and golden hour I commemorate with eulogy joy and gratitude If there be any consolation in Christ any peace in the Divine favour any happiness and glory in heaven by the throne of Eternity if any goodness in the Ocean of grace and beneficence Requite them O God a thousand fold for all their kindness and bounty and affection towards me Amen for the infinite deserts of thy beloved Son our Lord. All thanks to thee O Jesus king of heaven and earth for defending and blessing this Apostolick Church where we now communicate the most unworthy of all her children What shall I render unto the Lord for all the benefits he hath done unto me eâ—pecially for snatching me from the fire of hell and making me an heir of everlasting happiness in his presence I
am also ready to make reparation of fame and credit together with an ingenuous and humble acknowledgement to all that I have slandered and calumniated namely to c. And accordingly I forthwith take order that Restitution and Satisfaction be made to them all to the utmost of my ability and that their Release and Acquittance for all injuries done to them be obtained or else most justly and verily presumed before I adventure to crave the benefit of Absolution If I am ashamed of such a Confession and Restitution I am not ashamed nor afraid to be the everlasting contempt and scorn of the most holy Creator and of all that is blessed I am not ashamed nor affrighted to be the companion of devils and all villanous men that ever lived in darkness horror and torment Let no father patron or master think of bettering the worldly condition of his successours by his own dreadful condemnation for finally concealing and retaining his illgotten estate or frauds IV. Moreover with a charitable heart according to the bâ—st of my understanding and enquiry imploring the assistance of Gods Holy Spirit I â—ave made my Last will and Testament disposing the goods and estate God hath given me for his greatest glory Namely amongst my Relations and likewise in a due acknowledgment of sundry precious benefiâ—s received by me in this Apostolick Church of which â— hope to continue a part to my lifes end and also for the poor Blessing Almighty God for enabling me to give them some relief and so to lend unto himself his own temporal blessings to obtain far better riches in heaven Amen I rest upon thy merits and upon thy word O Triumphant Saviour Forgive and ye shall be forgiven Give and it shall be given into your bosom good measure pressed down shaken together and running over Luk. c. 6.37 and c. 11.9 Amen Finally I have given my Relations and Friends the best advise and counsel I could for the good of their neverdying souls and for their well-living in this world V. Having thus rid my self of all the cares and troubles and concerns of mortality having now perfectly done with this world with a clear and humble heart I address my self to thy Grace Almighty and most merciful God and Father beseeching thee to instruct exerâ—ise and prepare me for the succeeding gloâ—ious and immortal life to which by the Chrisâ—ian Profession thou hast advanced my hope and awful expectation Hallelujah through the glorified Jesus Hallelujah to all Eternity Amen But I foresee the passage to this Beatitude to be very dark and Dismall full of Thorns and Tears full of Confessions Remorse and Contrition for the many faults of a short life and also full of disease and pains and anguish reaching unto dissolution insensibility stench and rottenness By all thy agonies and experience help me O holy Jesus through this terror Amen REPENTANCE· CHAP. XVI See CHAP. VI. §. 5. and CHAP XI §. 2. I. Consession I Have sinned O Lord I have dealt wickedly I have led an unequal untoward and polluted life I have sinned before thee when ashamed of humane view before thee my Father my Judge my Benefactor my Worship and my God. O absurd and stupid wretch In thought word and deed with all the powers and abilities thou hast given me with affection and design have I sinned against thee most Mighty and most Holy Ungratefully and basely grievously and presumtuously particularly c. have I sinned and Lord how often secretly and openly in the chamber as c. anâ— in publick as c. treading upon thy earth and covered with thy heavens yea â— have sinned in the House of God and in the midst of my Prayâ—rs and Invocations as c. Is this then the Image of God is this a Christian an heir of eternal Life â—his a Priest and Dispenser of the pure Word and Sacraments of the Lord Jesus Ah this is nothing but clay and dirt uncleanness and misery II. Contrition THe soul that is troubled and the spirit that is vexed cryeth unto thee O Lord. I Relent I grieve I am heartily sorry for this demerit and irritation of thy Divine justice I am ashamed I abhor my self I am perfectly weâ—ry of this corrupt life What shall I do whiâ—her shall I turn I am ashamed to look up to heaven that behâ—lds my vileness to heaven which I have abused and despised I will bowe my self to the earth and the grave that waits to hide and devour such a wretch I will sâ—ite upon my breast with the conscious publicane upon my breast the box and origine of all this mischief And do thou strike this rock O holy Jesus that the waters may freely flow that my tears may mingle with thy blood my humble and sincere repentance reach thy propitiation and remission Dissolve thou sinful clod tremble thou earth earth earth at the presence of the Lord at the presence and vindication of the God of Jacob who turned the â—lint stone into a springing well I wish for the tears of David pierced with the matter of Uriah the mourning of Jeremiah and the dejection of Manasseh I recollect and confess in particular unto thee my more grievous sins the rest are without number in the bitterness of my soul. Thus and thus have I done c. I give glory to thee as Achan I confess and am confoâ—nded at the enormity and presumption and villanous circumstances of my offences as c. I hide not my unrighteousness as Adam in the garden who led the way of sinning and of repentance I hide not I cannot hide but with tears and dread remorse acknowledge to thy most pure and omniscient Majesty my faults my follies yea rather my wilfulness my hardness my vices my criminal and deplorable life And lo here I judge and reprove and condemn my self at the bottom of thy throne and yet I am not enough abased He cannot fall too low whose merit is hell My deformation and destruction is only from my self from my perverse and incorrigible self my relief and salvation is from thee only Father thou knowest my sins and thou knowest my anguish It is not easy to transgress thy commands and reflect upon the transgressions My flesh trembleth for fâ—ar of thee and I am afraid of thy judgments O Lord. I dread that great day when the thrones shall be set the books opened and my shameful life recited and all my works of darkness exposed in perfect light I tremble lest the blessed Jesus who shed his blood for my redemption and hath so earnestly urged and offered me pardon and peace and eternal life should then condemn me and the mighty angels and holy men of all ages and nations newly clothed with immortal and illustrious bodies hiss me from the righteous Tribunal and the mouth of hell receive my body and soul into exquisite torments without light or pity My present horrour and confusion is great but what is this to everlasting burnings III. Supplication GReat